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I Battle With Manic Depression

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    I have been on meds for 18 years.

    Was diagnosed with depression at age 16 then at 20 diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I have been on practically everything. Some do nothing. Some work for a while then just stop. I've been doing this constant trial and error with different combinations for 18 years now. Almost...
    jks1981 jks1981 31-35, F Jul 13

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    Diagnosed...

    Manic Depressive--caused by severe PTSD, in my 30's!  I hope we find the right mood stabilizer to treat it cause it is literally hard to keep it together.
    darkenedheart darkenedheart 31-35, F 3 Responses May 6, 2009

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    Out Of 'depression' And Understanding 'mania'

    I have a blog on mania and depression with personal experience and daily handling of different states. visit: http://foxonline.blogs.experienceproject.com/
    foxonline foxonline 26-30, F Oct 17, 2010

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    when I was 22 when I was diagnosed with manic

    depression and PTSD. I battle with it ever day moments when I am so happy then out of no where a total ***** dont know how to act or feel sometimes
    angeleyes8710 angeleyes8710 26-30, F Dec 9, 2013

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    Dysphoric Mania?

    Any of you guys ever had this before? It's basically a mixed phase. Crazy ****. Depression and mania. It is characterized by yours,frantic energy, but it's said to have the agitation, paranoia, and pessimist qualities of depression. It's what set the wheel in motion for John...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 19, 2013

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    Unsure.

    so ever since i was in about 5th grade i have always had massive periods of depression, self hate, and self mutilation. i am usually the last person u would think that but for years i have kept it to myself thinking everyone is like that but just dont say anything. my mother has...
    loveme92307 loveme92307 18-21, F 3 Responses May 24, 2009

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