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I Battle With Manic Depression

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    Out Of 'depression' And Understanding 'mania'

    I have a blog on mania and depression with personal experience and daily handling of different states. visit: http://foxonline.blogs.experienceproject.com/
    foxonline foxonline 26-30, F Oct 17, 2010

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    when I was 22 when I was diagnosed with manic

    depression and PTSD. I battle with it ever day moments when I am so happy then out of no where a total ***** dont know how to act or feel sometimes
    angeleyes8710 angeleyes8710 26-30, F Dec 9, 2013

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    Unsure.

    so ever since i was in about 5th grade i have always had massive periods of depression, self hate, and self mutilation. i am usually the last person u would think that but for years i have kept it to myself thinking everyone is like that but just dont say anything. my mother has...
    loveme92307 loveme92307 18-21, F 3 Responses May 24, 2009

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    Diagnosed...

    Manic Depressive--caused by severe PTSD, in my 30's!  I hope we find the right mood stabilizer to treat it cause it is literally hard to keep it together.
    darkenedheart darkenedheart 31-35, F 4 Responses May 6, 2009

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    Dysphoric Mania?

    Any of you guys ever had this before? It's basically a mixed phase. Crazy ****. Depression and mania. It is characterized by yours,frantic energy, but it's said to have the agitation, paranoia, and pessimist qualities of depression. It's what set the wheel in motion for John...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 19, 2013

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    So for a few years now I've been dealing with my manic-depression and it's gotten better and worse through time. I began taking mediciation to help when I was 12 though it didn't...
    13nanna 13nanna 18-21, F Feb 22

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    I have had weight anxiety since I was in the 1st grade. I feel guilty right after I eat. I battle with myself, "why did you eat that? You now have to burn "x" amount of calories...
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    JoLawrence JoLawrence 46-50, F a week ago

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    I know my husband loves me and finds me sexy... and I know I'm not FAT.... but I look at myself in the mirror some days and can't help but see pockets of fat that I can pinch and...
    SarasXXXsecret SarasXXXsecret 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    I don't wish this on anyone. It destroys your social life. To others it may appear like something to just get over, but it's not.Taking a pill doesn't always help either. It wears...
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F Feb 20

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    I really need help right now
    leex1234 leex1234 22-25, F Feb 12

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    I hate that I can feel so depressed because of how I feel about my weight Like some part of me is like "no you're not allowed to be happy because you're not good enough" and then...
    zeitgeist211 zeitgeist211 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 6

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    It's gotten to the point where it's an obsession. I feel helpless because I can't control my eating. I feel helpless because I can't make myself purge. I feel helpless because I...
    mattihope mattihope 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I was doing so well! I was almost 3 months clean... relapse is a part of life. Relapse doesn't make you weak, it makes you stronger because you know you can do it and get stronger...
    Anika1258 Anika1258 13-15, F Feb 12

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    AUGH! I know that curves are one thing...but.... I HATE how my weight just fluctuates and I go from a bit tone and curvy to frumpy! I go to the gym and I watch what I eat but it...
    SarasXXXsecret SarasXXXsecret 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    I was 180lbs and now I'm 141 pounds yet I still feel and think I look fat. I get pretty self conscious around ppl and all I think is losing more
    Aidenpatrick Aidenpatrick 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    A little lonely today, but overall, I've been doing real well in dealing with this depression. I've been riding this manic phase for 2 weeks now and I've made good use of it. Who...
    CloseButNoGuitar CloseButNoGuitar 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I don't care if you read my story or not. If you are suffering from Existential Depression and feeling isolated in your struggle, write about it here. Write exactly what you feel...
    limitingmypotential limitingmypotential 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I battle with anxiety and depression because the man I grew up with who was like a father to me molested me. He's my uncle by marriage. My aunt told me to my face she didn't...
    WhooDatGirl WhooDatGirl 18-21, F Feb 16

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    It's a battle one that I must conquer. I'm improving daily yet sometimes it hits me in the face like a nice hard slap. It's okay sometimes I just need a bad day and than reboot...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M Feb 16

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    I am finally losing the battle with depression. I don't fear death anymore. and if someone were to hold a gun to my head I would probably just laugh and tell them to pull the...
    lostguy19892014 lostguy19892014 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 5

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    The crippling feeling & constant battle with depression where sleep is my only salvation 😔 quietly whispering to my mind, "let me be at peace".
    TheHeartOfALovingSoul TheHeartOfALovingSoul 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    I'm 31 years old and have battled with depression for as long as I can remember. I have thought about suicide almost every day although never actually tried. I expected my life to...
    xxangeleyes81xx xxangeleyes81xx 31-35, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    some days I wonder what has caused this battle within me. first I think its my ex husband and his abusive ways. then it starts my family. I start to realize my self image was...
    Happythoughts7771 Happythoughts7771 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    The Struggle The crackling sound pierces the still and cold night as I run at full stride in the newly fallen crisp snow. The steam from my mouth leaves a trail behind me as...
    InTheShadowsAgain InTheShadowsAgain 41-45, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'll try to sum up and simplify this as I could write for days, and to the untrained seem crazy if making any sense at all. I was bullied and mentally abused from childhood, as...
    NightGambit NightGambit 31-35, M 9 Responses Feb 22

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    The feeling of being so utterly alone and the conviction this will never change. Wherever I go. Because it is inside me. Haunting me. I can run but it will always catch me. It...
    BitLi BitLi 26-30, F Feb 18

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    Why is it that when something happens to a trans-person it is their fault?Every time something has gone wrong in my life it has been said to be my fault because of the way I have...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses Feb 23

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    How can I help my boyfriend deal with his depression? I love him so much and it hurts my heart to see him go through all this pain.
    kaylaakionaa kaylaakionaa 13-15, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    So I have been dealing with severe depression since the age of four. I have spent years being told , and eventually believing, that I will beat this and live a long and happy life...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    My husband seems to have reached a point where he can't deal with my depression any more. I understand how hard it must be for him, but at the same time it's hard for me when he...
    JewelThief JewelThief 26-30, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    My Feelings for them.That beyond description.... They've taught me a lot of things which i've never learned at school or feckin sick mad criminal parents. They were only my savior...
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    just sitting in my apartment deep in my mind. I thinking and thinking. one day at a time. this tuesday I am going to my first nami class. I will learn how to better cope with my...
    nevergiveup54 nevergiveup54 56-60, M 1 Response Feb 16

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    yesterday I joined NAMI. "National Alliance on Mental illness" I am ready to come to terms with my depression. I hope I will be able to make friends.
    nevergiveup54 nevergiveup54 56-60, M 1 Response Feb 6

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    Something really weird happened Thursday at school. I was waiting to be called down to a club that I'm in so I was hanging out in Mr. Z's classroom talking to my friends. They got...
    Meangirl83 Meangirl83 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 7

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    I not only bettle depression I battle low self image! I am so frustrated how guys tend to base a girl on what she looks like when we all get older and ugly with age your wife you...
    MichaelaG MichaelaG 26-30, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I've had quite a lot of MH health challenges over several decades and my current work situation is making it difficult for me to manage my emotions. Today has really pissed me off...
    LonePony LonePony 36-40, F 3 hrs ago

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    Love is killing me. I love her and at the same time I hate her with all my heart. Somedays I love her with all my heart and even think of marrying her and making her the mother...
    Maniueru Maniueru 22-25, M 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I had a brief lucid dream last night. :) I cannot help but take it as a sign that the end of my depression is in sight. It is amazing to me that I would recognize a dream as a...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 5 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I've been living with it so long. I won't recount anything from my past, just suffice to say it's been a long, medicated, bloody road. the past few years have been going decently...
    janeblue2u janeblue2u 31-35, F 38 mins ago

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    It's not something you can get rid of so easily.. It's with you for life. A smile on the outside doesn't mean anything has changed on he inside.
    girlalive girlalive 18-21, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    The moment you realize that it all depends on you, you decide to be happy or sad, to feel positive or negative, you own your choices, you decide how are you gonna feel today...
    Nobody112 Nobody112 16-17, F 51 mins ago

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