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I Battle With Manic Depression

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    when I was 22 when I was diagnosed with manic

    depression and PTSD. I battle with it ever day moments when I am so happy then out of no where a total ***** dont know how to act or feel sometimes
    angeleyes8710 angeleyes8710 26-30, F Dec 9, 2013

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    Unsure.

    so ever since i was in about 5th grade i have always had massive periods of depression, self hate, and self mutilation. i am usually the last person u would think that but for years i have kept it to myself thinking everyone is like that but just dont say anything. my mother has...
    loveme92307 loveme92307 18-21, F 3 Responses May 24, 2009

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    Out Of 'depression' And Understanding 'mania'

    I have a blog on mania and depression with personal experience and daily handling of different states. visit: http://foxonline.blogs.experienceproject.com/
    foxonline foxonline 26-30, F Oct 17, 2010

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    Dysphoric Mania?

    Any of you guys ever had this before? It's basically a mixed phase. Crazy ****. Depression and mania. It is characterized by yours,frantic energy, but it's said to have the agitation, paranoia, and pessimist qualities of depression. It's what set the wheel in motion for John...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 19, 2013

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    Diagnosed...

    Manic Depressive--caused by severe PTSD, in my 30's!  I hope we find the right mood stabilizer to treat it cause it is literally hard to keep it together.
    darkenedheart darkenedheart 31-35, F 4 Responses May 6, 2009

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    I had break ups, starting from age of 17teens.. I had latest break up two weeks ago. I feel bad and guilty for those girls. I wish they forget about me and I never fall in love...
    Adamsofeve Adamsofeve 26-30, M 6 hrs ago

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    Please check out the youtube channel douglas blotch it will save your life man
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M Nov 29

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    http://youtu.be/4Gp0QIXG4Aw please check this video out if you are suffering
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M Dec 16

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    I am a semi normal 18 year old. I lived in a small town most of my life and then things went wrong. Long story short. Even before things went wrong I had started self harming. It...
    Slowlygoing18 Slowlygoing18 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Hi bipolar thing Can I I just feel one emotion for one day?! Not be in 8 moods in 7hrs. I don't wanna smile at people then turn around and be the devil I don't want to push away...
    fav777 fav777 18-21 Dec 3

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    So 9 months ago I had an anxiety attack out of nowhere. I had just finished exercising and was thinking over the many midterm exams I had pending for the following week and...
    acorrales acorrales 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    Sometimes when my heart palpitates I remember how it would do so when I was being passionate....and I'd give anything to feel that way again... To think of how I'd never give up in...
    acorrales acorrales 26-30, F Dec 4

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    Oh god today has been a hard day. I feel so low... I've battled with PTSD, depression and anxiety for the past four years but holy **** today has been bad. Felt as if it's been...
    chipstickz chipstickz 31-35, F Nov 26

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    I guess I should post a few things about me. 1.) I'm 17 2.) I have clinical depression, along with seasonal depression and manic depression along with MPD and OCD 3.) I have bad...
    alicepulkin alicepulkin 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    I have two close friends who are battling manic depression. I love them and have been trying to support them the best way I can. However, I have never experienced anything like...
    rojn rojn 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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    I suffer from depression, paranoia and anxiety and have done since childhood. In my late teens I found that meds and therapy weren't really working and I made the fatal mistake of...
    anothernightowl anothernightowl 36-40, M 2 Responses Dec 4

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    I really thought that after I had my children that my depression would just vanish but nope it didn't it's getting better but I can still feel it, the numbness the paranoia the...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    SHOUT OUT TO EVERYONE WHO STILL TRIES TO GET BACK INTO THE SWING OF THINGS AFTER DEPRESSION HIT THEM HARD. THERE ISNT ENOUGH RECOGNITION FOR THOSE PEOPLE WHO KNOW THAT THEYRE GOING...
    frabsicoxx frabsicoxx 22-25, M Dec 9

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    I've battled with depression for a long time. Most of my life honestly and lately here I've been learning a lot of things about myself. The one thing I've learned is to just be...
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 11

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    OK I am; 60 epileptic, have been since I was about 8 diagnosed when I was 10. I've had surgery to remove brain tumor that stopped seizures for about 2 years. Worst thing that could...
    Scott1954 Scott1954 56-60, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I accidentally over drafted my bank account paying my student loan. My mom very kindly offered to cover it for me next time I came to town. She told me to make sure they weren't...
    Jeradactyl Jeradactyl 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 26

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    It's a struggle sometimes, but something I'm very open about. No one should be afraid to admit they have trouble with anxiety, depression, or any other mental illness and ask for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 4

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    Past days I had half my finals in university. I never thought it will be so hard on me and I risk failing quite well. If I redo the courses, whether because I fail or because I...
    DestinyWriter DestinyWriter 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 6

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    Is really difficult to say but its true so many things happened in my life that sometimes i'm sick of it i never want to go out and stuff i battle with a lot of things in my life...
    Keilynn Keilynn 18-21, F a week ago

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    The best article I've read about depression yet!!! What I Wish People Knew about Depression By Therese J. Borchard Associate Editor robin-williamsSomeone recently asked me to...
    heavenlyskyflower heavenlyskyflower 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    I am about to open my heart completely in here. Today I am living one of the worst days of my life and yes. It's depression, this ghost that has been haunting my life for a long...
    Allaloneandpoisoned Allaloneandpoisoned 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    I had my perfect little girl oct 16th. She is the best thing that has happened to me, but Iv been feeling depressed and alone lately. I don't really have feelings for my boyfriend...
    ErinTripp94 ErinTripp94 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    I said mom we get along pretty good right? How would you compare it if I would I'd be a good replacement for (__someone who moved away__) if I lived around here? Mom: ...That...
    Stufy Stufy 46-50 2 Responses Dec 2

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    Some time during the 6th or 7th grade.. I started getting depression, and it only grew even stronger since it was left untreated and things got worse in my life.. so now I'm...
    myownconsultant myownconsultant 16-17, F 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Does me not liking any type of dance or music have anything to do with depression
    GirlInABottle GirlInABottle 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    is depression is just a fancy term? what am i doing to my life?
    conf19 conf19 26-30, M 4 hrs ago

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    Today was Boxing Day, and I went with my mother and younger brother to visit my uncle and aunt and a few of their friends. As predicted, it was awful. I was surrounded by loud...
    humangarbage humangarbage 18-21, M 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    A year ago, I had fresh cuts on my thighs, belly, and arm. A year ago, I felt like a puppet on strings controlled by an empty void. A year ago, I couldn't do anything without...
    BringMePierceTheSirensAtSix BringMePierceTheSirensAtSix 13-15, F 5 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    ive lost everything im going to sound so selfish. right now im sorry. my husband just drop a bomb on my telling me the only reason he married me is because he thought things would...
    oni2013 oni2013 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    Hi, my name is Laura and I'm 21 years old. Two years ago (start of 2013) I moved from my hometown in NSW, Australia, to South Australia to start university. I'm a musician and...
    Lesmall Lesmall 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

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    anyone want to chat or call or text me im having thoughts im in my manic mode and dont likr it add. me to chat anyone
    oni2013 oni2013 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 12

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    Time goes by, but I feel frozen. Distant from it all. I have this intense pain in me, anxiety that drives me crazy. I'm on meds, and in a way I feel like they numb me, not my pain...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I enlisted for the military in early March. I had wanted to join since the 8th grade despite the depression and anxiety I suffered again and again. I worked hard to lose weight and...
    KeiKeiChan KeiKeiChan 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    i`m fighting loneliness and depression everyday of my life not talking to someone or anyone just my dog i wanna end this depression any suggestions..
    viruzwod viruzwod 26-30, M 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    My depression has gotten so bad that I sleep for 12-14 hours if I have nothing to do the whole day. I sleep until my body cannot sleep anymore, and even the, I still yearn for the...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 4 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I've known I've had depression for the past fourteen years but only just discovered I have bipolar depression last year when I went manic and started doing crazy **** that almost...
    rpg456 rpg456 51-55, M Nov 26

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    All my life I have battled depression and my depression is extremely bad for me...all I have to do is look at a knife or anything dangerous and all I want to do is hurt myself...
    Scarsdontfade Scarsdontfade 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 16

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    When i lay down at night, all of my past comes up and haunts me until i close my eyes and drift off.. Sleep is the only true happiness i have right now. I was doing so well i was...
    MichellexxLevine314 MichellexxLevine314 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 6