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I Battle With Manic Depression

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    so ever since i was in about 5th grade i have always had massive periods of depression, self hate, and self mutilation. i am usually the last person u would think that but for years i have kept it to myself thinking everyone is like that but just dont say anything. my mother has...
    loveme92307 loveme92307 18-21, F 3 Responses May 24, 2009

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    Out Of 'depression' And Understanding 'mania'

    I have a blog on mania and depression with personal experience and daily handling of different states. visit: http://foxonline.blogs.experienceproject.com/
    foxonline foxonline 26-30, F Oct 17, 2010

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    when I was 22 when I was diagnosed with manic

    depression and PTSD. I battle with it ever day moments when I am so happy then out of no where a total ***** dont know how to act or feel sometimes
    angeleyes8710 angeleyes8710 26-30, F Dec 9, 2013

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    Diagnosed...

    Manic Depressive--caused by severe PTSD, in my 30's!  I hope we find the right mood stabilizer to treat it cause it is literally hard to keep it together.
    darkenedheart darkenedheart 31-35, F 4 Responses May 6, 2009

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    Dysphoric Mania?

    Any of you guys ever had this before? It's basically a mixed phase. Crazy ****. Depression and mania. It is characterized by yours,frantic energy, but it's said to have the agitation, paranoia, and pessimist qualities of depression. It's what set the wheel in motion for John...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 19, 2013

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    remember22 remember22 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    I always seem to be in a battle with myself over something... I battle an illness that little is known about and nothing can be done about it.. I battle with feeling worthless to...
    off2heavenIgo off2heavenIgo 13-15 1 Response Aug 15

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    The hardest thing I did was tell my mum I didn't want to live any more. I took an overdose a few years ago and even wrote a note to my GF at the time. Depression is an illness that...
    Dazzer2K Dazzer2K 26-30, M a week ago

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    Today I had a bad anxiety attack at work. I was shaking and sweating, my chest felt like someone was sitting on it and I was crying, I was clenching my fists so hard my knuckles...
    InspireMeZilly InspireMeZilly 26-30, F a week ago

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    Everyone is fighting their own battle, to some it may not come close to be considered one but to that person that battle is their world.
    miae13 miae13 22-25, F Aug 11

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    I want to get out of my depression. Already decided to try to et out of it, but I know I will need help from others. I have always had ups and downs but could never see anything in...
    RedUnderground RedUnderground 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 12

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    Im so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Pots is in complete control of my life and im Not okay with that. Its really upsetting that i cant just go do normal things like the...
    hannah0428 hannah0428 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I want a friend on here that will message me some times first than me always having to say something first , I want someone who cares who wants to know me but that will never...
    Chesher Chesher 16-17, M 5 Responses Jul 31

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    I have come to the conclusion if I eat all time, how do I know when I'm truly hungry? It has taken a week for me to slow down on the eating and realize when I'm hungry and when to...
    jayp08 jayp08 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 29

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    Yeah....tends to go something like this... "OI FATTY?" "WOT?" "YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!" "**** YOU!"
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Jul 29

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    Hey! My suggestion is cut the meat! The food that offer pleasure but is not really beneficial for you. change to fruits, vegetables, seeds, food that comes from the ground and...
    kamachulu kamachulu 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 29

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    My joints hurt so bad today. And my muscles :/
    december789 december789 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    Is anyone awake to talk right now I really need someone to talk to plz
    Shinecarberry Shinecarberry 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 1

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    This has taken my career from me, my social life, friends, and now my significant other of 6 years from me. If one more person who doesn't have dysautonomia tells me "pick yourself...
    dayxo dayxo 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    I have lost over 100 lbs in my life time. I keep losing and then gain it back. Part of me wonders if that's why I don't date much. I'm usually confident but this holds me back.
    StillLearning22 StillLearning22 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 8

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    I am battlling my insomnia
    jenny180 jenny180 31-35, F Aug 14

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    When I was getting trained at work I had an hour long episode. At the end the girl that trained me was like I know you had a ****** day but you haven't been paying attention at all...
    december789 december789 16-17, F a week ago

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    I find it so sad how many young girls on here are conscious about they're image... Wanting to half their body weights, get thigh gaps? Like WTF!! Why are we as the older...
    AsherMae AsherMae 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    "Just be yourself", especially in the work place , is difficult and at times toxic to ones soul. "Be yourself" , as long as you have not had experiences outside of their small...
    callingonaheart callingonaheart 56-60 6 days ago

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    Remembering something that you don't want to remember. Augh.
    SmileyFace1014 SmileyFace1014 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    2,000 or so calories That's how many I'm required to consume each & every day. But how? Why would I do that? That's so much & it disgusts me to no end. It's like they're asking...
    laten14 laten14 13-15, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Aren't they pretty they poke & probe out of my torso I can feel them all they feel like rocks under my skin. Aren't they pretty the circle that are so red they pop like make up...
    laten14 laten14 13-15, F 10 hrs ago

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    I used to make myself throw up. I don't do it as often anymore. I used to have worse body issues before but now I'm just working to have a small tummy
    uncoolmermaid uncoolmermaid 16-17, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    It's hard to believe that a former Varsity cheerleader in high school has gone from prom queen court to the bottom of the barrel. I am on multiple medications and it's sad to know...
    ek2465 ek2465 18-21 2 Responses Aug 12

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    Lesson #1: It is NOT your fault So many posting here with such palpable emotional pain. I can relate to this from painful personal experience over many decades. I've gained...
    gwyon gwyon 51-55 2 Responses Aug 18

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    Personal Lesson #2: "Ultimately, it is up to me to scratch and climb and claw my way out of this hole." (These are lessons I've learned that have helped me through. I'm not a...
    gwyon gwyon 51-55 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    NeedingToVent NeedingToVent 36-40, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Its sucks battling through depression. I've been depressed for one straight year over a guy that broke up with me . Now I know for some of you you might be thinking "that's stupid...
    metalchick123 metalchick123 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 27

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    Every day.. I struggle.. Some days are easier than others... I battle many things.. Depression.. Self esteem.... Shyness... Being honest and open.. And more... Im trying to not be...
    sunpea sunpea 36-40, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I found this note in my phone from three years ago, I was having horrible thoughts and definitely thought I was depressed. I emailed a hotline. This was their response "Speaking...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    You know how people with seasonal depression have depression during the winter due to a lack of sunlight? I have a seasonal depression during the spring and summer. I hate the...
    Apirne Apirne 18-21, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    HELP! In my life, I have traveled around the world, I have seen more than most of you will ever see. I have done things that most of you will never do. Some have been bad and...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 1 Response Aug 19

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    I visited an endocrinologist to see about my hormones and how they were affecting my moods. He's been very helpful and compassionate, really understanding my apprehension about...
    Apirne Apirne 18-21, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Everyone tomorrow is Monday. Did you enjoy your weekend? :):) sometimes we find happiness in this life an sometimes we are in a constant battle with this world. Everyone if anyone...
    smilebigalways smilebigalways 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I'm tired of people telling me in young and things will get better in time. I'm 31 and I have nothing going for me: No husband, no prospect husband, no career, crappy job, all my...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 9 Responses Jul 28

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    I been having a constant struggle with my depression. it all started when my mom died in '07. i was 2 weeks away from 19, she was 49. i became extremely depressed, so much that i...
    chillsun chillsun 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 3

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    roberto0408 roberto0408 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 4

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    I am gay and have been coming out to more people and learning to better myself But one with I struggle with this my parents, my relationship with them, and the relationship with...
    Vaughn37 Vaughn37 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 6

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    My sweet younger brother wants to go out with me during weekend and i always come up with alibis. How do i tell him his great brother has been inflicted with severe depression and...
    ipulkit ipulkit 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    theblacktiger theblacktiger 22-25, M 7 Responses Aug 17

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    I am having such a hard time dealing with my depression right now. Anxiety is my main problem but I just feel like I can't find my way out. I've lost my job 3 times in 5 years...
    greensapphire greensapphire 26-30 1 Response Aug 18

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