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I Battle With Manic Depression

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 59 People

    Out Of 'depression' And Understanding 'mania'

    I have a blog on mania and depression with personal experience and daily handling of different states. visit: http://foxonline.blogs.experienceproject.com/
    foxonline foxonline 26-30, F Oct 17, 2010

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    when I was 22 when I was diagnosed with manic

    depression and PTSD. I battle with it ever day moments when I am so happy then out of no where a total ***** dont know how to act or feel sometimes
    angeleyes8710 angeleyes8710 26-30, F Dec 9, 2013

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    Dysphoric Mania?

    Any of you guys ever had this before? It's basically a mixed phase. Crazy ****. Depression and mania. It is characterized by yours,frantic energy, but it's said to have the agitation, paranoia, and pessimist qualities of depression. It's what set the wheel in motion for John...
    xylazam xylazam 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 19, 2013

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    Unsure.

    so ever since i was in about 5th grade i have always had massive periods of depression, self hate, and self mutilation. i am usually the last person u would think that but for years i have kept it to myself thinking everyone is like that but just dont say anything. my mother has...
    loveme92307 loveme92307 18-21, F 3 Responses May 24, 2009

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    Diagnosed...

    Manic Depressive--caused by severe PTSD, in my 30's!  I hope we find the right mood stabilizer to treat it cause it is literally hard to keep it together.
    darkenedheart darkenedheart 31-35, F 4 Responses May 6, 2009

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    I feel I'm going round in circles. I have no one to talk to who understands. I wake up, look after kids, go to work, come home, bath kids, feed kids, put kids to bed, study and...
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    I have been invited to a "depression social group" for a craft day. There will be people there that I don't get along because they can't keep the past in the past. I'm thinking of...
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    Recently I feel that I have depression after lots of reasons. I have not been diagnosed but believe I have been facing it in many forms for almost 3-4 years through some traumatic...
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    Hi I have recently been diagnosed with POTS and I have hyper-mobility syndrome. I am kinda just trying to come to terms with it at the moment. I have a son with EDS and autism and...
    Naddybelles Naddybelles 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I've been suffering from bpmd all of my life. I can'tmove at times I just sit and watch crummy t.v. my problem is each time the psychiatrist puts me on a new batch of drugs they...
    amazingcarnack amazingcarnack 51-55, M 2 Responses Oct 8

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    I have a friend I have known for 4 years and a friend I met 3 months ago. Friend of 4 years is taking new friend away from me and trying to be better than me. I can't take it. I'm...
    bj345 bj345 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    I just can't handle people looking at me and calling me chubby
    KatieP767 KatieP767 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    I just wanna say bye im gonna die and dont be here the next day
    IrwinsScars IrwinsScars 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 9

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    Its true. It has been a really bad struggle lately. Its like, I feel like im never good enough.
    YouAreNotYourSkin YouAreNotYourSkin 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    i cut today... i had the nerve to tell my friend to resist the urge, and yet i can't resist my own. it just felt right... at the time... now it doesn't feel so right. i feel like I...
    eAngeliqueXX eAngeliqueXX 13-15, F a week ago

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    A year ago I was 140lbs now I'm 230lbs! I don't want to go out now. I never go anywhere but to work. I don't have money to buy "healthy food" & I'm depressed HELP!
    Rosebox Rosebox 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    TRUST IN YOURSELF I am sitting here most of the time dealing with so much that I am taking some meds. to clam me down and allow me to try and relax, but at the same time they...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 6 days ago

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    I honestly don't know to feel right now. I've battled with depression nearly all my life. Even as a young child I excluded myself from others and kept very quiet. I was always so...
    alicefloe alicefloe 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 2

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    I have reached my limit i have had all i can take i lie in bed and sleep all the time unless i have to do something that day i self harm and think about it every waking moment i...
    SophieeJordan SophieeJordan 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21

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    I battle severe depression and eating disorders I was anorexic from 3 to 6 grade and bulimic from 7th to 9th I've always been bullied about my weight and my looks I'm a very...
    oilchick1488 oilchick1488 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 1

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    i can describe depression in one way. its like having a bully inside your head every single day. he puts limits on you and tells you that you can not do this and that because...
    antoneli antoneli 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 3

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    Well it will be about a week before I find out if I have cancer or not, in the mean while I will be going in again in the morning to do a Upper Endoscopy to see if I have cancer on...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses Oct 8

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    I battle anxiety and depression, ive trued killing myself. I dont talk about it for attention. I just want to be able to talk to people about it.
    peterhill12345 peterhill12345 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 21

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    its so hard battle against my depression. i feel played and worthless used and not good enough. maybe this could be my last story here ...
    puppySmexyBoy puppySmexyBoy 16-17, M 3 Responses Sep 23

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    When I was 14, my whole life was inverted. I had been accepted on an academic scholarship to the most prestigious college preparatory institute in my area. Upon starting my 9th...
    yoshmarie yoshmarie 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 25

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    Music helps me with my constant battle with depression. I feel like music is my drug. It makes me smile, dance, do crazy things you can't even imagine (when i am alone of course...
    cacophony88 cacophony88 16-17, M Oct 12

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    Every day, I wake up in a full body of armor and a broadsword ready for another battle with depression and anxiety.
    bombchu bombchu 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Sometimes I try to make sense of why life is the way it is with me, but life is life. It is extremely unfair to everyone. I have so much fight in me and I want to make it. I want...
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 8

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    I'm pretty new to this whole thing. Social media and meeting new people. But a lot of my friends have told me finding people who feel similar or have been in my place would help...
    Jaderaute Jaderaute 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 23

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    It's not fair... I realise that my own battle with this monster appeared when I was about 16 years old. I went through so much of a transition in moving from normal life as I...
    Chopinsivories Chopinsivories 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    I ran today. I ran until I could not run any longer. I ran longer. I passed a couple sitting in their front lawn. Oh how I wished I was them! I could even settle to be the person...
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 13-15, M Oct 9

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    I've been doing so well with my depression, I have actually been happy for a little while, but I don't know what happened. I feel so lonely and anxious right now. I don't want to...
    dickdurk dickdurk 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 29

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    I'm self-diagnosed with severe depression. I would get diagnosed at a doctor, but I have a very horrid phobia of doctors. My room has become my refuge and I get made fun of for it...
    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 3

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    I deal with so much, at such a young age.. I just turned 17 in September and I've already had : -Sports career taken due to an injury -4 eye surgeries -Fighting and no longer...
    itsShaun itsShaun 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 4

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    I'm just gonna keep everything to myself from now on so I can't hurt anybody with my suicidal thoughts and my urges to self harm and all my other issues. All I do is hurt people...
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 5

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    I hate this never ending cycle and I hate that I was nearly 6 months clean and I went and ****** up. It's just that no one with out depression understands at all what it's like to...
    Theunknownvictim Theunknownvictim 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 6

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    I have struggled with deep depression and anxiety since the age of 12. Right now it seems to be particularly worse. I've been seeing a psychoanalyst for the past 9 months and it...
    Omchandrayanamaha Omchandrayanamaha 31-35, M Sep 21

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    I am dealing with a panic disorder with agoraphobia, depression and seizures and was currently discharged from the military. I developed all of this when I was admitted in a...
    Liddoturrboo Liddoturrboo 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    Please check out the YouTube channel douglas bloch please just take a moment it will help with depression and give you hope
    jon5400 jon5400 18-21, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    After a few weeks of trying to happy, my mind takes over and starts to ruin my life again, welcome back depression, I've missed you ;'(
    BethHawkins BethHawkins 13-15, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    So first off. I'm done trying. I have an iq of 135, yet I am a b/c student. I'm not racist but I don't see everyone as equals. I hate blacks that don't apply themself same for...
    richmckee richmckee 16-17, M 5 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I've had depression and anxiety for 9 years now almost, I've dealt with a lot of close friends who have had depression as well. Several things I've come to terms with over the...
    CDXX4 CDXX4 18-21, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Here's a poem that I wrote just now not done tho Smoke disappearing into the night sky, The car silently travels along its way, The future spot of a cross on display; A...
    SoFarGoneInYou SoFarGoneInYou 16-17, T 1 hr ago

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    Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect. Guys, I know I have a long way to go in coming to terms with my problems. But I promise you it gets better, it has to get better...
    Livinglife95 Livinglife95 18-21, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Its that time again . Where I wish I could just go to sleep until it was over . Even more than my in ability to get a good nights sleep every night . I try not to dump my problems...
    ghostintherain ghostintherain 41-45, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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