I Battle With Manic Depression

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    when I was 22 when I was diagnosed with manic

    depression and PTSD. I battle with it ever day moments when I am so happy then out of no where a total ***** dont know how to act or feel sometimes
    angeleyes8710 angeleyes8710
    26-30, F
    Dec 9, 2013

    Some people don't like the term "battle"

    but it is a apt description when dealing with M/D, and you are in it for the long haul. I was diagnosed with it long before " bipolar" was used and M/D is a better description but enough with "labels". I am low on the M/D spectrum and deal with mania rather than manic episodes...
    Golondrinas Golondrinas
    56-60, M
    Aug 25, 2015

    Dysphoric Mania?

    Any of you guys ever had this before? It's basically a mixed phase. Crazy ****. Depression and mania. It is characterized by yours,frantic energy, but it's said to have the agitation, paranoia, and pessimist qualities of depression. It's what set the wheel in motion for John...
    xylazam xylazam
    18-21, M
    1 Response Aug 19, 2013

    Diagnosed...

    Manic Depressive--caused by severe PTSD, in my 30's!  I hope we find the right mood stabilizer to treat it cause it is literally hard to keep it together.
    darkenedheart darkenedheart
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 6, 2009

    I have been on meds for 18 years.

    Was diagnosed with depression at age 16 then at 20 diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I have been on practically everything. Some do nothing. Some work for a while then just stop. I've been doing this constant trial and error with different combinations for 18 years now. Almost...
    jks1981 jks1981
    31-35, F
    Jul 13, 2015

    Out Of 'depression' And Understanding 'mania'

    I have a blog on mania and depression with personal experience and daily handling of different states. visit: http://foxonline.blogs.experienceproject.com/
    foxonline foxonline
    26-30, F
    Oct 17, 2010

    Unsure.

    so ever since i was in about 5th grade i have always had massive periods of depression, self hate, and self mutilation. i am usually the last person u would think that but for years i have kept it to myself thinking everyone is like that but just dont say anything. my mother has...
    loveme92307 loveme92307
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 24, 2009

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