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I Battle With My Inner Self

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    All The Time....

    This is the sad thing really. I feel I am too old to be like this now? I am 26 and so should be more confident and secure within myself. I constantly berate myself for not having any friends left, of being single, of still living at home and of being in a poorly paid job. I have...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Apr 27, 2012

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    Two Parts Of Me

    THERE ARE TWO BIG PARTS OF ME THAT ARE ALMOST CONSTANTLY IN CONFLICT. THERE IS THE POSITIVE, DETERMINED SIDE OF ME... AND... THERE IS THE NEGATIVE, WHY BOTHER SIDE OF ME... THEY CONSTANTLY BATTLE ONE ANOTHER, BECAUSE SOMETIMES...WELL, QUITE OFTEN ACTUALLY, WHEN I FEEL LIKE I'M...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 7, 2010

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    Who Am I?

    i ask myself that question almost everyday and i struggle to search for the answers to others the answer would easy to be that yes i am a wife,mother,sister,daughter,friend,granddaughter,niece,cousin to people that are around me i just wish i realy knew who i was, am,will be in...
    aprilk aprilk 31-35 6 Responses Jul 10, 2009

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    I think I have since I was 1⃣2⃣only just

    reading this made me realise that I do battle with my inner self , everything that's happened to me which has been silently locked in for my many years is coming out
    Jadewaves Jadewaves 26-30, F Mar 5, 2014

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    The battles inside my head are sometimes

    so hard to win. my mind usually wins against my heart. my heart is so beat up and beat down. its crying and dying. its killing its self to try to escape the pain that ive caused it.
    singingpanda1414 singingpanda1414 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Torn Apart

    I am always arguing internally with myself, i have had Dislocative Identy Disorder since i was 6 and i have more then a few alters. The one that really gives me a problem is who i call "Her." I started becoming aware of her when i was 14, and its really difficult frankly, "She...
    bloodredhanded bloodredhanded 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14, 2013

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    jrf9782 jrf9782 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    The time is near So near it's stirring the

    blood in their veins! And yet beware Don't let the wine go to your brains! We need a sign To rally the people To call them to arms To bring them in line! Marius, wake up! What's wrong today? You look as if you've seen a ghost. Some wine and say what's going on! A ghost you say...
    PoutingEnigma PoutingEnigma 26-30, F Mar 28

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    I can't get the voices out of my head of myself

    telling me what to do. No I'm not crazy, but the thoughts I think just eat at me. I don't eat, I don't sleep, and I am almost blank when it comes to emotions. What's wrong with me...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97 18-21, F Mar 28

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    I'm so afraid of myself right now.

    I have so many things on my mind, and it's causing these horrible tantrums. I can't handle even the tiniest bit of irritation today - a noisy dishwasher, a noisy baby, even the radio annoys me when it's on. I'm cold all the time, I can't stop crying and I can't eat without...
    ThatCrimson ThatCrimson 13-15, F May 3

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    Untitled

    Battle as the optimist bleeds Battle as the cynic keeps the whole of me alive Battle as the dreamer dies Battle as reality sets in Battle as hope fades Battle as the tears fall And dignity falls to ashes Worth becomes a joke self respect becomes something that you dreamed...
    tulick tulick 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 17, 2008

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 28

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    Aren't we all? We do what we can to make

    ourselves and everyone happy, yet we all deal with the consequences of our decisions
    leodvx leodvx 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Confuse

    I've looked in the mirror and seen a complete stranger staring back at me. Eyes of which the soul has been devoured and all form of emotions were obsolete. I no longer know who I am anymore.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3 22-25, F Jun 5, 2013

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    The Inner Selves - True Story

    My personal experience with the inner selves has been very chaotic! There is the inner critic, that's the one that talks to much. It's always running it's mouth (it's a complete moron). It plays you based upon your thoughts, not based upon truth. There is another inner self that...
    jhpopulate jhpopulate 26-30 Jan 31, 2012

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    Just Be YOU

    You are all in a constant battle with love for your quiet strengths and hatred for your blatant flaws. You need to make less of your self-deprecating judgement and more recognition of what you can offer to the world: being you. Trust me, no one else can take your place.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3 22-25, F Jun 4, 2013

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    When you're at war with yourself; no matter the

    outcome, a part of you loses.
    Sewmuch2do Sewmuch2do 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    alexthebass alexthebass 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 28

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    I Wonder....

    its not like i have this one evil self and i battle with it, its more like my two "me's",two personalities are in constant battle, theres my inner personality; the soul, the spiritual, the mystique, the peaceful, the loving that just wants to be happy.and my "ego" personality...
    Tommyhilfiger Tommyhilfiger 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 17, 2012

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    Psychology Of The Shadow And The Persona

    Carl Jung, a very famous psychologist, theorized about personality and inner struggle. He spoke of many aspects of the personality, which include the anima and animus, respectively, and the shadow, persona, and actual self. The anima and animus are the inner female and male for...
    SarahTM SarahTM 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2010

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    I can't seem to stop cheating on everything I do

    whether it be tests when I was in school, slacking off at work, and in my personal relationships. I feel I'm a good person most of the time but there are moments when I feel like I just lose control of myself and I'm just raging with lust, insecurity and disdain. I grew up with...
    openlancelot openlancelot 31-35, M May 16

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    I Wish I Could Hate You Without Hating My Self!

     Are you my friend Or a foe I wish I could one day know Because maybe then it would not be so That I hate to think of hating you.   As a child, you were the one Who slapped me on my face I can never forget when you slapped so hard That I feel flat on the floor...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 16, 2008

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    ugh that moment when u look back a month annd

    see the good start and it gets worse n worse n worse and there is nothing u can do to fix it yourself because its not you. Makes death seem like most enjoyable experience to come ^_^ its a struggle to do it or not. some days i feel like i should. others not so much. i do know...
    Time4kush Time4kush 26-30, M 4 Responses Apr 11

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    Why?

    I have more inside me then just one inner self.
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 7 Responses Jan 11, 2010

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    Daily

    Everyday there is conflict within me, there are two sides of me in this conflict. One is the happy-go-lucky side of me that believes in all the love and goodness in the world, and the other is self-defeating, miserable, depressed part of me that sees his fate as determined to be...
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M Jul 14, 2012

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    This story may will sound fantastic

    for most, but it is my most compelling story of my life. An accident I suffered in 2001 (when I was 23) had changed the way I see the life radically: from a rational one (I am engineer) to a transcendent one. It was a panic attack, to which I had panic: it was my future, I get...
    trebla77 trebla77 36-40, M Mar 5, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    Another day, another dreadful day full of more noteworthy news of sorrow. My good friend has now once again started up on drugs.. He was 5 months sober, and yet he threw it all...
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    There are some days I wake up and wonder: what the hell am I doing here? Why would I be given a life, one I know I should be appreciating, when every day is a constant struggle? I...
    VioletMerryweather VioletMerryweather 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Appearance cannot begin to compare to inner beauty. Looks don't matter to me. It's sad how we talk about how much we've evolved, yet we judge based on how a person looks. A simple...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    I start panicking when I think of how long I have been struggling with the same issues. How come I just can't overcome what has happened to me? Why is living so hard for me? I am...
    larosenoire larosenoire 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    fighting seems pointless. I cannot hide the pain anymore. Too many years of self harm have broken me apart. I am just a shell with no redeeming human qualities. They are right. I...
    SnowInSummer SnowInSummer 22-25, F 7 hrs ago

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    selfie selfie selfie trying to reach 25 characters selfie
    lusomk lusomk 22-25, F 8 hrs ago

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    I can't seem to breathe from how disgusted I feel about myself. I try hard to make myself feel better but having a husband that makes me feel even more horrible doesn't help. I...
    Katkor Katkor 36-40, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    This is a piece of writing that I found years ago and have changed and enhanced to fit my own situation. It is very descriptive and if you are someone who self harms, it may...
    GreenEyedFox GreenEyedFox 22-25, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I have dealt with my inner demons the best way I possibly can. I have learned to forgive and hope others can forgive me for my wrongs. I am on a spiritual journey. I want to be...
    00DesertRose 00DesertRose 36-40, F 12 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Does anyone here post body selfies? I was looking for a group to post this in (because I love it) but all the threads seem to be "zombie" threads with 0 activity in them. That...
    WitchyLexi WitchyLexi 22-25, F 12 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    i dont know what is wrong with me.. i just hate my self no matter how hard i try i just cant help. i cant sleep at night because i keep thinking that i am not good enough. i...
    shbamo shbamo 18-21, F 5 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I use to self-inflict pain upon myself physically but at some point I found emotional pain more painful. Emotional self-infliction is something more controllable than physical; no...
    BriarRose96 BriarRose96 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I think I always felt like I know how I'm going to die. One day I'll lose my battle with depression and commit suicide. I think this all the time but am too scared to tell friends...
    LfeSzdBarbie LfeSzdBarbie 26-30, F 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Selfie selfie selfie selfie selfie
    onebrokegirl onebrokegirl 18-21, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I was attached to you because you were sweet to me. You were the sweetest of all guys I knew. I thought no one could be sweeter. I went online again and I realized that I have...
    jwl9119 jwl9119 22-25, F 7 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I have been through lots of ups and downs and lots of blames but it's my inner strength who is kept me firm and supported me through all ups and downs...it's always good to be...
    jinsham jinsham 31-35, F 20 hrs ago

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    Hiya, i'm Gavin, i like to help others with depression/self-harm, so if you want a friend message me :)
    GavinP GavinP 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    Hiya, i'm Gavin, i like to help others with depression/self-harm, so if you want a friend message me :)
    GavinP GavinP 13-15, M 1 day ago

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