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I Battle With My Inner Self

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    All The Time....

    This is the sad thing really. I feel I am too old to be like this now? I am 26 and so should be more confident and secure within myself. I constantly berate myself for not having any friends left, of being single, of still living at home and of being in a poorly paid job. I have...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Apr 27, 2012

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    I think I have since I was 1⃣2⃣only just

    reading this made me realise that I do battle with my inner self , everything that's happened to me which has been silently locked in for my many years is coming out
    Jadewaves Jadewaves 26-30, F Mar 5

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    Why?

    I have more inside me then just one inner self.
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 7 Responses Jan 11, 2010

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    Psychology Of The Shadow And The Persona

    Carl Jung, a very famous psychologist, theorized about personality and inner struggle. He spoke of many aspects of the personality, which include the anima and animus, respectively, and the shadow, persona, and actual self. The anima and animus are the inner female and male for...
    SarahTM SarahTM 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2010

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    Two Parts Of Me

    THERE ARE TWO BIG PARTS OF ME THAT ARE ALMOST CONSTANTLY IN CONFLICT. THERE IS THE POSITIVE, DETERMINED SIDE OF ME... AND... THERE IS THE NEGATIVE, WHY BOTHER SIDE OF ME... THEY CONSTANTLY BATTLE ONE ANOTHER, BECAUSE SOMETIMES...WELL, QUITE OFTEN ACTUALLY, WHEN I FEEL LIKE I'M...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 7, 2010

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    Daily

    Everyday there is conflict within me, there are two sides of me in this conflict. One is the happy-go-lucky side of me that believes in all the love and goodness in the world, and the other is self-defeating, miserable, depressed part of me that sees his fate as determined to be...
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M Jul 14, 2012

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    I Wish I Could Hate You Without Hating My Self!

     Are you my friend Or a foe I wish I could one day know Because maybe then it would not be so That I hate to think of hating you.   As a child, you were the one Who slapped me on my face I can never forget when you slapped so hard That I feel flat on the floor...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 16, 2008

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    Who Am I?

    i ask myself that question almost everyday and i struggle to search for the answers to others the answer would easy to be that yes i am a wife,mother,sister,daughter,friend,granddaughter,niece,cousin to people that are around me i just wish i realy knew who i was, am,will be in...
    aprilk aprilk 31-35 6 Responses Jul 10, 2009

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    This story may will sound fantastic

    for most, but it is my most compelling story of my life. An accident I suffered in 2001 (when I was 23) had changed the way I see the life radically: from a rational one (I am engineer) to a transcendent one. It was a panic attack, to which I had panic: it was my future, I get...
    trebla77 trebla77 36-40, M Mar 5

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    Confuse

    I've looked in the mirror and seen a complete stranger staring back at me. Eyes of which the soul has been devoured and all form of emotions were obsolete. I no longer know who I am anymore.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3 18-21, F Jun 5, 2013

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    I Wonder....

    its not like i have this one evil self and i battle with it, its more like my two "me's",two personalities are in constant battle, theres my inner personality; the soul, the spiritual, the mystique, the peaceful, the loving that just wants to be happy.and my "ego" personality...
    Tommyhilfiger Tommyhilfiger 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 17, 2012

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    Just Be YOU

    You are all in a constant battle with love for your quiet strengths and hatred for your blatant flaws. You need to make less of your self-deprecating judgement and more recognition of what you can offer to the world: being you. Trust me, no one else can take your place.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3 18-21, F Jun 4, 2013

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    Untitled

    Battle as the optimist bleeds Battle as the cynic keeps the whole of me alive Battle as the dreamer dies Battle as reality sets in Battle as hope fades Battle as the tears fall And dignity falls to ashes Worth becomes a joke self respect becomes something that you dreamed...
    tulick tulick 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 17, 2008

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    Torn Apart

    I am always arguing internally with myself, i have had Dislocative Identy Disorder since i was 6 and i have more then a few alters. The one that really gives me a problem is who i call "Her." I started becoming aware of her when i was 14, and its really difficult frankly, "She...
    bloodredhanded bloodredhanded 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14, 2013

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    The Inner Selves - True Story

    My personal experience with the inner selves has been very chaotic! There is the inner critic, that's the one that talks to much. It's always running it's mouth (it's a complete moron). It plays you based upon your thoughts, not based upon truth. There is another inner self that...
    jhpopulate jhpopulate 26-30 Jan 31, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I hurt my leg back in May and a downward spiral started from there. Because I couldn't move much and was eating more than I should have been from the stress of a kneecap...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Ever since, I've always been thin. It runs in our family. But the difference is, my being skinny is bordering unhealthy. And I just started realizing it recently.. I guess because...
    wanderingsilhouette wanderingsilhouette 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have been invited to a "depression social group" for a craft day. There will be people there that I don't get along because they can't keep the past in the past. I'm thinking of...
    bj345 bj345 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    Hi I have recently been diagnosed with POTS and I have hyper-mobility syndrome. I am kinda just trying to come to terms with it at the moment. I have a son with EDS and autism and...
    Naddybelles Naddybelles 26-30, F Oct 14

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    I know I don't deserve to feel this way because there are tons of people out there who struggle to keep their weight at a healthy number, and it's not fair to them that they...
    nicoleblu nicoleblu 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    i cut today... i had the nerve to tell my friend to resist the urge, and yet i can't resist my own. it just felt right... at the time... now it doesn't feel so right. i feel like I...
    eAngeliqueXX eAngeliqueXX 13-15, F Oct 13

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    I just can't handle people looking at me and calling me chubby
    KatieP767 KatieP767 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 28

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    I feel I'm going round in circles. I have no one to talk to who understands. I wake up, look after kids, go to work, come home, bath kids, feed kids, put kids to bed, study and...
    bj345 bj345 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 1

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    I just wanna say bye im gonna die and dont be here the next day
    IrwinsScars IrwinsScars 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 9

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    Its true. It has been a really bad struggle lately. Its like, I feel like im never good enough.
    YouAreNotYourSkin YouAreNotYourSkin 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    I have a friend I have known for 4 years and a friend I met 3 months ago. Friend of 4 years is taking new friend away from me and trying to be better than me. I can't take it. I'm...
    bj345 bj345 31-35, F Oct 14

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    A year ago I was 140lbs now I'm 230lbs! I don't want to go out now. I never go anywhere but to work. I don't have money to buy "healthy food" & I'm depressed HELP!
    Rosebox Rosebox 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 16

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    My anxiety continues to be a terrible inconvenience. When I try to work through problems, I end up having mental breakdowns, and panic attacks. I laugh, and laugh, and laugh, until...
    WhatWasMissing WhatWasMissing 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    It's rare that you'll find someone who has the time to look for someone's inner self, and beauty. It's quite magnificent that there are still people who aren't judgmental of people...
    lovelysad lovelysad 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    Five years ago i get my first anxiety and panic attack, it takes me one and a half year to understand what it is, doctors were wrong in my case, what i needed is a psychiatric and...
    whispersgod whispersgod 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 30

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    i can describe depression in one way. its like having a bully inside your head every single day. he puts limits on you and tells you that you can not do this and that because...
    antoneli antoneli 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 3

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    Every ******* day is an ongoing battle with how much I hate myself. I can barely even try on clothes without having a ******* breakdown!!! I hate myself and my appearance and I...
    queercutie queercutie 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I honestly don't know to feel right now. I've battled with depression nearly all my life. Even as a young child I excluded myself from others and kept very quiet. I was always so...
    alicefloe alicefloe 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 2

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    It's not fair... I realise that my own battle with this monster appeared when I was about 16 years old. I went through so much of a transition in moving from normal life as I...
    Chopinsivories Chopinsivories 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    Well it will be about a week before I find out if I have cancer or not, in the mean while I will be going in again in the morning to do a Upper Endoscopy to see if I have cancer on...
    Bobbyjeanc Bobbyjeanc 61-65, T 2 Responses Oct 8

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    I ran today. I ran until I could not run any longer. I ran longer. I passed a couple sitting in their front lawn. Oh how I wished I was them! I could even settle to be the person...
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 13-15, M Oct 9

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    Music helps me with my constant battle with depression. I feel like music is my drug. It makes me smile, dance, do crazy things you can't even imagine (when i am alone of course...
    cacophony88 cacophony88 16-17, M Oct 12

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    Every day, I wake up in a full body of armor and a broadsword ready for another battle with depression and anxiety.
    bombchu bombchu 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 14

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    I'm just that girl, I'm the one who was always there for you when you needed a smile. The one who fought you're battles with you. That girl who picked you up when you tried giving...
    XoxoxoMaryoxoxoX XoxoxoMaryoxoxoX 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've dealt with low self esteem and confidence issues for as long as I can remember. I grew up as the only disabled kid in school and had to deal with the bullying that came with...
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 4

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    "You cut me open and I keep bleeding in love." ~ Leona Lewis, Bleeding Love. Even though I keep getting hurt by this girl I can't get over her.. "And it's draining all of me" I am...
    BulletForMyBlackVeil BulletForMyBlackVeil 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I'm a Mom to an almost 15 year old cutter..she's been battling depression and anxiety for sometime. She began cutting 4 years ago after my divorce from her Dad and has been in...
    LOOKN4NSIGHT43 LOOKN4NSIGHT43 41-45, F 5 Responses Oct 15

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    It occurs to me that for many people battling depression is a losing battle, and that perhaps some do not realize that this is a battle that we do not have to loose. I live with...
    JoannaBe JoannaBe 41-45, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I battle depression, I'm suicidal, I self harm. It sucks that what people say/said to me made me like this
    jasmire jasmire 13-15, F 1 Response 23 mins ago

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    My husband says he's crazy. I said,"At least you're a functioning crazy". For many years I blamed my husband for my misery. Then slowly, I came to realize, I'm the one with the...
    Blmy Blmy 46-50, F 13 hrs ago

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    Failed attempts are always something of a bitter thing. To wake up knowing yet again you failed at the one thing left to do. It's a bitter feeling. I sit here, staring blankly. I...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Every day is a new battle, a new struggle against my mind. It's like a dark cloud is hanging over me and I can't escape; I am my own personal stalker.
    sfairy27 sfairy27 13-15, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    When it comes to my mental illnesses which are schizophrenia anxiety disorder depression and intrusive disturbed images thoughts and feelings sometimes even random words pop in my...
    Janisoneluv Janisoneluv 26-30, F Oct 5

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    I have suffered depression all of my life and I do believe that its something you have and live with or never have. I know I will never be cured, there are just too many reasons...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M 4 Responses