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I Battle With My Inner Self

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 490 People

    When you're at war with yourself; no matter the

    outcome, a part of you loses.
    Sewmuch2do Sewmuch2do 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    Two Parts Of Me

    THERE ARE TWO BIG PARTS OF ME THAT ARE ALMOST CONSTANTLY IN CONFLICT. THERE IS THE POSITIVE, DETERMINED SIDE OF ME... AND... THERE IS THE NEGATIVE, WHY BOTHER SIDE OF ME... THEY CONSTANTLY BATTLE ONE ANOTHER, BECAUSE SOMETIMES...WELL, QUITE OFTEN ACTUALLY, WHEN I FEEL LIKE I'M...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 7, 2010

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    I Wonder....

    its not like i have this one evil self and i battle with it, its more like my two "me's",two personalities are in constant battle, theres my inner personality; the soul, the spiritual, the mystique, the peaceful, the loving that just wants to be happy.and my "ego" personality...
    Tommyhilfiger Tommyhilfiger 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 17, 2012

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    This story may will sound fantastic

    for most, but it is my most compelling story of my life. An accident I suffered in 2001 (when I was 23) had changed the way I see the life radically: from a rational one (I am engineer) to a transcendent one. It was a panic attack, to which I had panic: it was my future, I get...
    trebla77 trebla77 36-40, M Mar 5, 2014

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    Psychology Of The Shadow And The Persona

    Carl Jung, a very famous psychologist, theorized about personality and inner struggle. He spoke of many aspects of the personality, which include the anima and animus, respectively, and the shadow, persona, and actual self. The anima and animus are the inner female and male for...
    SarahTM SarahTM 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2010

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    I think I have since I was 1⃣2⃣only just

    reading this made me realise that I do battle with my inner self , everything that's happened to me which has been silently locked in for my many years is coming out
    Jadewaves Jadewaves 26-30, F Mar 5, 2014

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    Aren't we all? We do what we can to make

    ourselves and everyone happy, yet we all deal with the consequences of our decisions
    leodvx leodvx 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    All The Time....

    This is the sad thing really. I feel I am too old to be like this now? I am 26 and so should be more confident and secure within myself. I constantly berate myself for not having any friends left, of being single, of still living at home and of being in a poorly paid job. I have...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Apr 27, 2012

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    I Wish I Could Hate You Without Hating My Self!

     Are you my friend Or a foe I wish I could one day know Because maybe then it would not be so That I hate to think of hating you.   As a child, you were the one Who slapped me on my face I can never forget when you slapped so hard That I feel flat on the floor...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 16, 2008

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    I can't seem to stop cheating on everything I do

    whether it be tests when I was in school, slacking off at work, and in my personal relationships. I feel I'm a good person most of the time but there are moments when I feel like I just lose control of myself and I'm just raging with lust, insecurity and disdain. I grew up with...
    openlancelot openlancelot 31-35, M May 16

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    Confuse

    I've looked in the mirror and seen a complete stranger staring back at me. Eyes of which the soul has been devoured and all form of emotions were obsolete. I no longer know who I am anymore.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3 22-25, F Jun 5, 2013

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    I can't get the voices out of my head of myself

    telling me what to do. No I'm not crazy, but the thoughts I think just eat at me. I don't eat, I don't sleep, and I am almost blank when it comes to emotions. What's wrong with me...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97 18-21, F Mar 28

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    Who Am I?

    i ask myself that question almost everyday and i struggle to search for the answers to others the answer would easy to be that yes i am a wife,mother,sister,daughter,friend,granddaughter,niece,cousin to people that are around me i just wish i realy knew who i was, am,will be in...
    aprilk aprilk 31-35 6 Responses Jul 10, 2009

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    Daily

    Everyday there is conflict within me, there are two sides of me in this conflict. One is the happy-go-lucky side of me that believes in all the love and goodness in the world, and the other is self-defeating, miserable, depressed part of me that sees his fate as determined to be...
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M Jul 14, 2012

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    Untitled

    Battle as the optimist bleeds Battle as the cynic keeps the whole of me alive Battle as the dreamer dies Battle as reality sets in Battle as hope fades Battle as the tears fall And dignity falls to ashes Worth becomes a joke self respect becomes something that you dreamed...
    tulick tulick 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 17, 2008

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 28

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    The battles inside my head are sometimes

    so hard to win. my mind usually wins against my heart. my heart is so beat up and beat down. its crying and dying. its killing its self to try to escape the pain that ive caused it.
    singingpanda1414 singingpanda1414 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Torn Apart

    I am always arguing internally with myself, i have had Dislocative Identy Disorder since i was 6 and i have more then a few alters. The one that really gives me a problem is who i call "Her." I started becoming aware of her when i was 14, and its really difficult frankly, "She...
    bloodredhanded bloodredhanded 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14, 2013

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    The Inner Selves - True Story

    My personal experience with the inner selves has been very chaotic! There is the inner critic, that's the one that talks to much. It's always running it's mouth (it's a complete moron). It plays you based upon your thoughts, not based upon truth. There is another inner self that...
    jhpopulate jhpopulate 26-30 Jan 31, 2012

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    I'm so afraid of myself right now.

    I have so many things on my mind, and it's causing these horrible tantrums. I can't handle even the tiniest bit of irritation today - a noisy dishwasher, a noisy baby, even the radio annoys me when it's on. I'm cold all the time, I can't stop crying and I can't eat without...
    ThatCrimson ThatCrimson 13-15, F May 3

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    jrf9782 jrf9782 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    Why?

    I have more inside me then just one inner self.
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 7 Responses Jan 11, 2010

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    Just Be YOU

    You are all in a constant battle with love for your quiet strengths and hatred for your blatant flaws. You need to make less of your self-deprecating judgement and more recognition of what you can offer to the world: being you. Trust me, no one else can take your place.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3 22-25, F Jun 4, 2013

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    alexthebass alexthebass 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 28

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    The time is near So near it's stirring the

    blood in their veins! And yet beware Don't let the wine go to your brains! We need a sign To rally the people To call them to arms To bring them in line! Marius, wake up! What's wrong today? You look as if you've seen a ghost. Some wine and say what's going on! A ghost you say...
    OrphanBlackFan OrphanBlackFan 26-30, F Mar 28

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    ugh that moment when u look back a month annd

    see the good start and it gets worse n worse n worse and there is nothing u can do to fix it yourself because its not you. Makes death seem like most enjoyable experience to come ^_^ its a struggle to do it or not. some days i feel like i should. others not so much. i do know...
    Time4kush Time4kush 26-30, M 4 Responses Apr 11

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    The I just want to die feeling hasn't gone away for a week now. I'm fighting so hard to be normal. I fight myself on weather or not I should be alive. It's a never ending...
    Haixiu Haixiu 22-25, F 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    For about two to three years, I have self-harmed. Mostly cutting, but I also punched myself, punched objects, starved and made myself throw up {not sure if that the last two are...
    luciethedepressedllama luciethedepressedllama 16-17, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I really let My self go for a minute ...... Ok two weeks eating fat food and feeling down cause im so alone most of the time ... Makes me think how many things i might accomplish...
    leiyah leiyah 26-30, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    It's an ongoing thing. Today has been one of my good days. . So, l decided to try and think logically, about it all.. True..whatever the source is that's causing the depression...
    MistyGoddess MistyGoddess 41-45, F 10 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I seriously hate some people at my school like this one girl self harms and people have found out about it and made fun of her and called her Emo like first of all u r not Emo if u...
    thatgirl180 thatgirl180 16-17 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    82 lbs down but having some joint issues. It was bound to happen when I was over 500 lbs for so long. http://pinkelephantsisters.blogspot.com/2015/07/weight-loss-journey-back-to...
    KandyFoxx KandyFoxx 31-35, F 13 hrs ago

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    so my boyfriend recently broke up with me and just got back with me but said he has a crush on someone else I've been. crying for awhile now I don't know what to do I love this man...
    depressedqueen12 depressedqueen12 16-17, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I know I have issues with my own self. It's like I hate myself so much I don't even enjoy my own company, I don't like being by myself, being what I am. My self confidence couldn't...
    infinitetenderness infinitetenderness 18-21, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I have been married for four years, we have been together for 6. We initially met when I was separated from my ex-husband, which was a very abusive unhealthy marriage. When my...
    Notintomyelf Notintomyelf 26-30, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    the calm before the storm that's how I feel right now all of my emotions have gone haywire I've become very snappish I say things I dont mean and I feel as though if someone anyone...
    fenrirandimpachi fenrirandimpachi 22-25, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    i argue with my voices all the time, or rather they argue with me, up to this very moment about what i'm writing. it's usually spiritual in nature. i'm a Christian, but i just don...
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Good mood today and just want to say thank you EP, sometimes when I'm down and can't pull myself out, even just one response with someone being able to relate, really helped. The...
    Tealismyname Tealismyname 26-30 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    Ever since I was younger I have battled with depression and anxiety. It's honestly nothing that can just "go away" from a few pills prescribed from my doctor. Depression sucks. It...
    Amberrjade27 Amberrjade27 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I have had depression for a while now, at first I didn;t understand what was going on - I had a battle with myself day in and day out.I did a lot of soul searching and did a lot of...
    Gangstress Gangstress 31-35, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    ive been suicidal and depressed for many years, i have done methods of self harm ect. ect. (im sorry for saying it, i dont want attention i just want to say how this is affecting...
    aquaticNerd aquaticNerd 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm having an incredibly hard night. I relapsed with my self harm again and I want to cry. My life feels like a paradox. Everything I do to make me happy makes me upset, but if I...
    thornedrose thornedrose 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I love playing with my self it would be fantastic to have another cd to join in with me we could have so much fun
    dresscross dresscross 51-55, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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