I Battle With My Inner Self

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    I've looked in the mirror and seen a complete stranger staring back at me. Eyes of which the soul has been devoured and all form of emotions were obsolete. I no longer know who I am anymore.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3
    22-25, F
    Jun 5, 2013
    alexthebass alexthebass
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Mar 28, 2015

    This story may will sound fantastic

    for most, but it is my most compelling story of my life. An accident I suffered in 2001 (when I was 23) had changed the way I see the life radically: from a rational one (I am engineer) to a transcendent one. It was a panic attack, to which I had panic: it was my future, I get...
    trebla77 trebla77
    36-40, M
    Mar 5, 2014

    ...and you do too. You're just not real enough

    to admit. I don't have anything to hide. What's someone gonna do, laugh? Go ahead. Haha. But guess what, everyone is like a balloon. We inflate ourselves with hot air of pride, secrets, regrets, disgust and shame and anger and think we have it allllll under control. Until, our...
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    2 Responses Oct 19, 2015

    Everyday I breath is a battle.

    I am stuck in a world that I am trying to get out. My life has always been a hard one...and lately it has been a hard battle. In a toxic marriage, surrounded by people who just take pieces from me, and want nothing more than just those pieces..they do not care about me, just...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 31, 2015

    I Wonder....

    its not like i have this one evil self and i battle with it, its more like my two "me's",two personalities are in constant battle, theres my inner personality; the soul, the spiritual, the mystique, the peaceful, the loving that just wants to be happy.and my "ego" personality...
    Tommyhilfiger Tommyhilfiger
    18-21, M
    Oct 17, 2012

    The Inner Selves - True Story

    My personal experience with the inner selves has been very chaotic! There is the inner critic, that's the one that talks to much. It's always running it's mouth (it's a complete moron). It plays you based upon your thoughts, not based upon truth. There is another inner self that...
    jhpopulate jhpopulate
    Jan 31, 2012

    There's a wall of depression that's always

    being formed around me. I hate it! It takes time to smash my way out and I haven't failed yet. I'm clenching my fist as I throw the first punch at the wall. Nothing happens. The wall stands strong as I hold my hand in pain. Frustration sets in, with my mind racing at a million...
    DragonTheDragon DragonTheDragon
    26-30, M
    1 Response Dec 3, 2015

    The time is near So near it's stirring the

    blood in their veins! And yet beware Don't let the wine go to your brains! We need a sign To rally the people To call them to arms To bring them in line! Marius, wake up! What's wrong today? You look as if you've seen a ghost. Some wine and say what's going on! A ghost you say...
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    Mar 28, 2015


    Everyday there is conflict within me, there are two sides of me in this conflict. One is the happy-go-lucky side of me that believes in all the love and goodness in the world, and the other is self-defeating, miserable, depressed part of me that sees his fate as determined to be...
    misternobrain misternobrain
    26-30, M
    Jul 14, 2012

    ugh that moment when u look back a month annd

    see the good start and it gets worse n worse n worse and there is nothing u can do to fix it yourself because its not you. Makes death seem like most enjoyable experience to come ^_^ its a struggle to do it or not. some days i feel like i should. others not so much. i do know...
    Time4kush Time4kush
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Apr 11, 2015

    I use to cut my arm and legs

    because I am ashamed of my body and the way people judged me. I stop cutting my arms but still cut my legs, I really hate myself and can't seem to stop because I am use to cutting.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 3, 2015
    jrf9782 jrf9782
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2015

    The battles inside my head are sometimes

    so hard to win. my mind usually wins against my heart. my heart is so beat up and beat down. its crying and dying. its killing its self to try to escape the pain that ive caused it.
    singingpanda1414 singingpanda1414
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 3, 2015


    Battle as the optimist bleeds Battle as the cynic keeps the whole of me alive Battle as the dreamer dies Battle as reality sets in Battle as hope fades Battle as the tears fall And dignity falls to ashes Worth becomes a joke self respect becomes something that you dreamed...
    tulick tulick
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Oct 17, 2008
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    Mar 28, 2015

    Torn Apart

    I am always arguing internally with myself, i have had Dislocative Identy Disorder since i was 6 and i have more then a few alters. The one that really gives me a problem is who i call "Her." I started becoming aware of her when i was 14, and its really difficult frankly, "She...
    bloodredhanded bloodredhanded
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 14, 2013


    I have more inside me then just one inner self.
    Arorin Arorin
    22-25, M
    7 Responses Jan 11, 2010

    Who Am I?

    i ask myself that question almost everyday and i struggle to search for the answers to others the answer would easy to be that yes i am a wife,mother,sister,daughter,friend,granddaughter,niece,cousin to people that are around me i just wish i realy knew who i was, am,will be in...
    aprilk aprilk
    6 Responses Jul 10, 2009

    I think I have since I was 1⃣2⃣only just

    reading this made me realise that I do battle with my inner self , everything that's happened to me which has been silently locked in for my many years is coming out
    Jadewaves Jadewaves
    31-35, F
    Mar 5, 2014

    I can't seem to stop cheating on everything I do

    whether it be tests when I was in school, slacking off at work, and in my personal relationships. I feel I'm a good person most of the time but there are moments when I feel like I just lose control of myself and I'm just raging with lust, insecurity and disdain. I grew up with...
    openlancelot openlancelot
    31-35, M
    May 16, 2015

    When you're at war with yourself; no matter the

    outcome, a part of you loses.
    Sewmuch2do Sewmuch2do
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 7, 2015

    Two Parts Of Me

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    4 Responses Feb 7, 2010

    Just Be YOU

    You are all in a constant battle with love for your quiet strengths and hatred for your blatant flaws. You need to make less of your self-deprecating judgement and more recognition of what you can offer to the world: being you. Trust me, no one else can take your place.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3
    22-25, F
    Jun 4, 2013

    Aren't we all? We do what we can to make

    ourselves and everyone happy, yet we all deal with the consequences of our decisions
    leodvx leodvx
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 28, 2015

    I Wish I Could Hate You Without Hating My Self!

     Are you my friend Or a foe I wish I could one day know Because maybe then it would not be so That I hate to think of hating you.   As a child, you were the one Who slapped me on my face I can never forget when you slapped so hard That I feel flat on the floor...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 16, 2008

    I'm so afraid of myself right now.

    I have so many things on my mind, and it's causing these horrible tantrums. I can't handle even the tiniest bit of irritation today - a noisy dishwasher, a noisy baby, even the radio annoys me when it's on. I'm cold all the time, I can't stop crying and I can't eat without...
    ThatCrimson ThatCrimson
    16-17, F
    May 3, 2015

    All The Time....

    This is the sad thing really. I feel I am too old to be like this now? I am 26 and so should be more confident and secure within myself. I constantly berate myself for not having any friends left, of being single, of still living at home and of being in a poorly paid job. I have...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 27, 2012

    I can't get the voices out of my head of myself

    telling me what to do. No I'm not crazy, but the thoughts I think just eat at me. I don't eat, I don't sleep, and I am almost blank when it comes to emotions. What's wrong with me...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 28, 2015

    Psychology Of The Shadow And The Persona

    Carl Jung, a very famous psychologist, theorized about personality and inner struggle. He spoke of many aspects of the personality, which include the anima and animus, respectively, and the shadow, persona, and actual self. The anima and animus are the inner female and male for...
    SarahTM SarahTM
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 24, 2010
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