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I Battle With My Inner Self

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    I'm so afraid of myself right now.

    I have so many things on my mind, and it's causing these horrible tantrums. I can't handle even the tiniest bit of irritation today - a noisy dishwasher, a noisy baby, even the radio annoys me when it's on. I'm cold all the time, I can't stop crying and I can't eat without...
    ThatCrimson ThatCrimson 13-15, F May 3

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    The Inner Selves - True Story

    My personal experience with the inner selves has been very chaotic! There is the inner critic, that's the one that talks to much. It's always running it's mouth (it's a complete moron). It plays you based upon your thoughts, not based upon truth. There is another inner self that...
    jhpopulate jhpopulate 26-30 Jan 31, 2012

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    We lasted for 13 years together Till you left.

    .. Why did you go... I never left you how could I leave you? You kicked me out... You turned your back on me I know I know I didn't mean it Did you not... You found something new you found others and you let them in It was a mistake honestly I regret it Regret? Look at you so...
    LeahLoveeU LeahLoveeU 13-15, F Mar 27

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    This story may will sound fantastic

    for most, but it is my most compelling story of my life. An accident I suffered in 2001 (when I was 23) had changed the way I see the life radically: from a rational one (I am engineer) to a transcendent one. It was a panic attack, to which I had panic: it was my future, I get...
    trebla77 trebla77 36-40, M Mar 5, 2014

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    It must have been like three months ago I

    remember it like it happened just yesterday though You felt lonely, broken, lost but I held you tight and told you together we'd be at the top of our game. I told you one day I would make it back So here I am, together we can truly make the top So maybe you kicked me out but...
    LeahLoveeU LeahLoveeU 13-15, F May 9

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    Torn Apart

    I am always arguing internally with myself, i have had Dislocative Identy Disorder since i was 6 and i have more then a few alters. The one that really gives me a problem is who i call "Her." I started becoming aware of her when i was 14, and its really difficult frankly, "She...
    bloodredhanded bloodredhanded 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14, 2013

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    Psychology Of The Shadow And The Persona

    Carl Jung, a very famous psychologist, theorized about personality and inner struggle. He spoke of many aspects of the personality, which include the anima and animus, respectively, and the shadow, persona, and actual self. The anima and animus are the inner female and male for...
    SarahTM SarahTM 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2010

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    alexthebass alexthebass 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 28

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    Daily

    Everyday there is conflict within me, there are two sides of me in this conflict. One is the happy-go-lucky side of me that believes in all the love and goodness in the world, and the other is self-defeating, miserable, depressed part of me that sees his fate as determined to be...
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M Jul 14, 2012

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    Why?

    I have more inside me then just one inner self.
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 7 Responses Jan 11, 2010

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    Two Parts Of Me

    THERE ARE TWO BIG PARTS OF ME THAT ARE ALMOST CONSTANTLY IN CONFLICT. THERE IS THE POSITIVE, DETERMINED SIDE OF ME... AND... THERE IS THE NEGATIVE, WHY BOTHER SIDE OF ME... THEY CONSTANTLY BATTLE ONE ANOTHER, BECAUSE SOMETIMES...WELL, QUITE OFTEN ACTUALLY, WHEN I FEEL LIKE I'M...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 7, 2010

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    Late midnight sitting on the bench.

    .. No one around just the dark figures of trees and the moon and stars over the waters Sitting down just enjoying nature and thinking about life from a bigger picture.... My demons haunt me from every angle.... I walk towards the lake And I jump.... Not being able to swim I sink...
    LeahLoveeU LeahLoveeU 13-15, F Mar 27

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    I can't seem to stop cheating on everything I do

    whether it be tests when I was in school, slacking off at work, and in my personal relationships. I feel I'm a good person most of the time but there are moments when I feel like I just lose control of myself and I'm just raging with lust, insecurity and disdain. I grew up with...
    openlancelot openlancelot 31-35, M May 16

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    I can't get the voices out of my head of myself

    telling me what to do. No I'm not crazy, but the thoughts I think just eat at me. I don't eat, I don't sleep, and I am almost blank when it comes to emotions. What's wrong with me...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97 18-21, F Mar 28

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    I Wish I Could Hate You Without Hating My Self!

     Are you my friend Or a foe I wish I could one day know Because maybe then it would not be so That I hate to think of hating you.   As a child, you were the one Who slapped me on my face I can never forget when you slapped so hard That I feel flat on the floor...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 16, 2008

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    Because of you I'm going to lose my mind You've

    been away for so long So desperate, so alone, so pathetic without you You left me please come back, I need your right....now You left not to long ago... You said you'd be back when the time was right.... I told one day I would make it back Held your face, meant it from the...
    LeahLoveeU LeahLoveeU 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Who Am I?

    i ask myself that question almost everyday and i struggle to search for the answers to others the answer would easy to be that yes i am a wife,mother,sister,daughter,friend,granddaughter,niece,cousin to people that are around me i just wish i realy knew who i was, am,will be in...
    aprilk aprilk 31-35 6 Responses Jul 10, 2009

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    ugh that moment when u look back a month annd

    see the good start and it gets worse n worse n worse and there is nothing u can do to fix it yourself because its not you. Makes death seem like most enjoyable experience to come ^_^ its a struggle to do it or not. some days i feel like i should. others not so much. i do know...
    Time4kush Time4kush 26-30, M 4 Responses Apr 11

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    jrf9782 jrf9782 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    Just Be YOU

    You are all in a constant battle with love for your quiet strengths and hatred for your blatant flaws. You need to make less of your self-deprecating judgement and more recognition of what you can offer to the world: being you. Trust me, no one else can take your place.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3 22-25, F Jun 4, 2013

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    I think I have since I was 1⃣2⃣only just

    reading this made me realise that I do battle with my inner self , everything that's happened to me which has been silently locked in for my many years is coming out
    Jadewaves Jadewaves 26-30, F Mar 5, 2014

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    Confuse

    I've looked in the mirror and seen a complete stranger staring back at me. Eyes of which the soul has been devoured and all form of emotions were obsolete. I no longer know who I am anymore.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3 22-25, F Jun 5, 2013

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    Aren't we all? We do what we can to make

    ourselves and everyone happy, yet we all deal with the consequences of our decisions
    leodvx leodvx 18-21, F Mar 28

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 28

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    The battles inside my head are sometimes

    so hard to win. my mind usually wins against my heart. my heart is so beat up and beat down. its crying and dying. its killing its self to try to escape the pain that ive caused it.
    singingpanda1414 singingpanda1414 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    I Wonder....

    its not like i have this one evil self and i battle with it, its more like my two "me's",two personalities are in constant battle, theres my inner personality; the soul, the spiritual, the mystique, the peaceful, the loving that just wants to be happy.and my "ego" personality...
    Tommyhilfiger Tommyhilfiger 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 17, 2012

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    All The Time....

    This is the sad thing really. I feel I am too old to be like this now? I am 26 and so should be more confident and secure within myself. I constantly berate myself for not having any friends left, of being single, of still living at home and of being in a poorly paid job. I have...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Apr 27, 2012

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    Untitled

    Battle as the optimist bleeds Battle as the cynic keeps the whole of me alive Battle as the dreamer dies Battle as reality sets in Battle as hope fades Battle as the tears fall And dignity falls to ashes Worth becomes a joke self respect becomes something that you dreamed...
    tulick tulick 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 17, 2008

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    The time is near So near it's stirring the

    blood in their veins! And yet beware Don't let the wine go to your brains! We need a sign To rally the people To call them to arms To bring them in line! Marius, wake up! What's wrong today? You look as if you've seen a ghost. Some wine and say what's going on! A ghost you say...
    PoutingEnigma PoutingEnigma 26-30, F Mar 28

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    When you're at war with yourself; no matter the

    outcome, a part of you loses.
    Sewmuch2do Sewmuch2do 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    It pains when I see your struggles,

    all your screams your crying... Don't think I don't see or don't feel... Neither do I think you're crazy You kicked my out & turned your back on me it doesn't seem like you need me anymore.... Seems like your decisions.. Your choices... Are only backfiring on you... Don't forget...
    LeahLoveeU LeahLoveeU 13-15, F Mar 28

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    And I won. Oh my god. Those panic attacks and violent thoughts were enough to make me never have another baby! I knew I was at risk because of my history with depression, but...
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    Has anyone with pots syndrome ever passed out? I felt dizzy when I got out of bed but that's usually usual... And then I was reaching for a pen for my sister and I don't remember...
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    It has been very difficult to realize about ADHD. I don't care too much about Anxiety and Depression. But adult ADD/ADHD is extremely complicated. I completely forget things. A...
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    It's been a lifelong torture. I've hated myself for a sling as I can remember. I'm over weight, I'm bad at retaining information, I have severe anxiety. Everyday is a struggle...
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    It's so hard to live with. Before I got medication for it, I felt like I couldn't leave the house. I wouldn't go to school for weeks. My mind would go on and on and on. I wouldn't...
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    I love going to the gym and working out and I love the high i get from the endorphins. ... I just HATE how I look in the mirror...
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    I used to go to the toilet in between classes just to get myself together over and over again everyday by taking deep breaths while holding tightly against the wall. And then I'll...
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    Everyday I feel Homesick for a Place that doesn't Exist.
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    Even though it was several years ago, every time I've had a bad day, It reminds me of the time I felt depressed nearly everyday. My energy was always low, always felt tired...
    pappa94 pappa94 18-21, M May 3

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    i had a perfectly fine birth 2002 then i had a miscarriage in 2006,2007, and 2009. now its 6yrs since the last pregnancy which resulted in a miscarriage. now i have not been...
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