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I Battle With My Inner Self

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    Confuse

    I've looked in the mirror and seen a complete stranger staring back at me. Eyes of which the soul has been devoured and all form of emotions were obsolete. I no longer know who I am anymore.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3 22-25, F Jun 5, 2013

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    Everyday I breath is a battle.

    I am stuck in a world that I am trying to get out. My life has always been a hard one...and lately it has been a hard battle. In a toxic marriage, surrounded by people who just take pieces from me, and want nothing more than just those pieces..they do not care about me, just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 31, 2015

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    jrf9782 jrf9782 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 8, 2015

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    Just Be YOU

    You are all in a constant battle with love for your quiet strengths and hatred for your blatant flaws. You need to make less of your self-deprecating judgement and more recognition of what you can offer to the world: being you. Trust me, no one else can take your place.
    Denouemnt3 Denouemnt3 22-25, F Jun 4, 2013

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    I can't get the voices out of my head of myself

    telling me what to do. No I'm not crazy, but the thoughts I think just eat at me. I don't eat, I don't sleep, and I am almost blank when it comes to emotions. What's wrong with me...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28, 2015

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    Torn Apart

    I am always arguing internally with myself, i have had Dislocative Identy Disorder since i was 6 and i have more then a few alters. The one that really gives me a problem is who i call "Her." I started becoming aware of her when i was 14, and its really difficult frankly, "She...
    bloodredhanded bloodredhanded 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14, 2013

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    I'm so afraid of myself right now.

    I have so many things on my mind, and it's causing these horrible tantrums. I can't handle even the tiniest bit of irritation today - a noisy dishwasher, a noisy baby, even the radio annoys me when it's on. I'm cold all the time, I can't stop crying and I can't eat without...
    ThatCrimson ThatCrimson 16-17, F May 3, 2015

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    I Wish I Could Hate You Without Hating My Self!

     Are you my friend Or a foe I wish I could one day know Because maybe then it would not be so That I hate to think of hating you.   As a child, you were the one Who slapped me on my face I can never forget when you slapped so hard That I feel flat on the floor...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 16, 2008

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    When you're at war with yourself; no matter the

    outcome, a part of you loses.
    Sewmuch2do Sewmuch2do 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2015

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    Who Am I?

    i ask myself that question almost everyday and i struggle to search for the answers to others the answer would easy to be that yes i am a wife,mother,sister,daughter,friend,granddaughter,niece,cousin to people that are around me i just wish i realy knew who i was, am,will be in...
    aprilk aprilk 31-35 6 Responses Jul 10, 2009

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    There's a wall of depression that's always

    being formed around me. I hate it! It takes time to smash my way out and I haven't failed yet. I'm clenching my fist as I throw the first punch at the wall. Nothing happens. The wall stands strong as I hold my hand in pain. Frustration sets in, with my mind racing at a million...
    DragonTheDragon DragonTheDragon 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 3, 2015

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    alexthebass alexthebass 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 28, 2015

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    ...and you do too. You're just not real enough

    to admit. I don't have anything to hide. What's someone gonna do, laugh? Go ahead. Haha. But guess what, everyone is like a balloon. We inflate ourselves with hot air of pride, secrets, regrets, disgust and shame and anger and think we have it allllll under control. Until, our...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 19, 2015

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    ugh that moment when u look back a month annd

    see the good start and it gets worse n worse n worse and there is nothing u can do to fix it yourself because its not you. Makes death seem like most enjoyable experience to come ^_^ its a struggle to do it or not. some days i feel like i should. others not so much. i do know...
    Time4kush Time4kush 26-30, M 4 Responses Apr 11, 2015

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    The battles inside my head are sometimes

    so hard to win. my mind usually wins against my heart. my heart is so beat up and beat down. its crying and dying. its killing its self to try to escape the pain that ive caused it.
    singingpanda1414 singingpanda1414 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 3, 2015

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    I think I have since I was 1⃣2⃣only just

    reading this made me realise that I do battle with my inner self , everything that's happened to me which has been silently locked in for my many years is coming out
    Jadewaves Jadewaves 31-35, F Mar 5, 2014

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    Why?

    I have more inside me then just one inner self.
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 7 Responses Jan 11, 2010

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    All The Time....

    This is the sad thing really. I feel I am too old to be like this now? I am 26 and so should be more confident and secure within myself. I constantly berate myself for not having any friends left, of being single, of still living at home and of being in a poorly paid job. I have...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F Apr 27, 2012

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    Psychology Of The Shadow And The Persona

    Carl Jung, a very famous psychologist, theorized about personality and inner struggle. He spoke of many aspects of the personality, which include the anima and animus, respectively, and the shadow, persona, and actual self. The anima and animus are the inner female and male for...
    SarahTM SarahTM 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 24, 2010

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    This story may will sound fantastic

    for most, but it is my most compelling story of my life. An accident I suffered in 2001 (when I was 23) had changed the way I see the life radically: from a rational one (I am engineer) to a transcendent one. It was a panic attack, to which I had panic: it was my future, I get...
    trebla77 trebla77 36-40, M Mar 5, 2014

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    Two Parts Of Me

    THERE ARE TWO BIG PARTS OF ME THAT ARE ALMOST CONSTANTLY IN CONFLICT. THERE IS THE POSITIVE, DETERMINED SIDE OF ME... AND... THERE IS THE NEGATIVE, WHY BOTHER SIDE OF ME... THEY CONSTANTLY BATTLE ONE ANOTHER, BECAUSE SOMETIMES...WELL, QUITE OFTEN ACTUALLY, WHEN I FEEL LIKE I'M...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 7, 2010

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    I Wonder....

    its not like i have this one evil self and i battle with it, its more like my two "me's",two personalities are in constant battle, theres my inner personality; the soul, the spiritual, the mystique, the peaceful, the loving that just wants to be happy.and my "ego" personality...
    Tommyhilfiger Tommyhilfiger 18-21, M Oct 17, 2012

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    I can't seem to stop cheating on everything I do

    whether it be tests when I was in school, slacking off at work, and in my personal relationships. I feel I'm a good person most of the time but there are moments when I feel like I just lose control of myself and I'm just raging with lust, insecurity and disdain. I grew up with...
    openlancelot openlancelot 31-35, M May 16, 2015

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    The Inner Selves - True Story

    My personal experience with the inner selves has been very chaotic! There is the inner critic, that's the one that talks to much. It's always running it's mouth (it's a complete moron). It plays you based upon your thoughts, not based upon truth. There is another inner self that...
    jhpopulate jhpopulate 26-30 Jan 31, 2012

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    Untitled

    Battle as the optimist bleeds Battle as the cynic keeps the whole of me alive Battle as the dreamer dies Battle as reality sets in Battle as hope fades Battle as the tears fall And dignity falls to ashes Worth becomes a joke self respect becomes something that you dreamed...
    tulick tulick 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 17, 2008

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    Aren't we all? We do what we can to make

    ourselves and everyone happy, yet we all deal with the consequences of our decisions
    leodvx leodvx 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28, 2015

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    The time is near So near it's stirring the

    blood in their veins! And yet beware Don't let the wine go to your brains! We need a sign To rally the people To call them to arms To bring them in line! Marius, wake up! What's wrong today? You look as if you've seen a ghost. Some wine and say what's going on! A ghost you say...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 28, 2015

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    I use to cut my arm and legs

    because I am ashamed of my body and the way people judged me. I stop cutting my arms but still cut my legs, I really hate myself and can't seem to stop because I am use to cutting.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 3, 2015

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    Daily

    Everyday there is conflict within me, there are two sides of me in this conflict. One is the happy-go-lucky side of me that believes in all the love and goodness in the world, and the other is self-defeating, miserable, depressed part of me that sees his fate as determined to be...
    misternobrain misternobrain 26-30, M Jul 14, 2012

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    It's real sad that I don't feel alone when I'm by myself, I feel more lonely when I'm surrounded by family. Like there is something wrong with me, I feel like a pariah in my own...
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    My dad saw a girl self harm on a movie I was watching, he tried to make a joke and say that she should just go ahead and kill herself instead of doing that to get attention. But...
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    Now my fiance thinks it is ok to look at other women nude with me around and it makes me feel as if im not good enophe what should i do
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    I have issues with anxiety and depression. I feel so lost and frustrated. I want to spend time together with my love but I want to spend time alone and I want to not feel second to...
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    i have a certain type of acne that i get basically everywhere on my body but mostly my inner thighs and face cheeks, i go to doctors for meds but sometimes i just want to cut it...
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    I don't know why I keep trying. Actually I do know- it's for him. But sometimes I wish he didn't have to put up with me. He didn't have to just settle for someone like me and all...
    sickofthisw0rld sickofthisw0rld 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I still self harm and trying my best to stop but it's seems to find its way back and I relapse all over again...
    Kristenandbaby2015 Kristenandbaby2015 13-15 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    My life is a swirling mix of emotions and personalities, battling for control of my mind, it's hectic and sometimes I just give up and just totally become an empty shell, living...
    HatredIncarnated HatredIncarnated 13-15, M 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Hey! You know how you can have a high self esteem that never fails or collapses? Never be wrong! Which is acquired by never thinking you're right in the first place. You need...
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 16-17, M 7 hrs ago

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    Hello, I recently got rejected by a girl I have known for a few months. After the rejection, sometimes thoughts would come up in my head like, "what if she meets some guy and they...
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    My Dad once told me the only way to rid of spiders in my bed was to eat an orange, that they hated the smell of citrus. One night I was so terrified of bugs tickling my skin that I...
    Myplethora Myplethora 22-25, F 8 hrs ago

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    Inner voice or damn good music that gets stuck in my head regularly :) "Woo it's just me, myself and I, solo ride until I die, cause I got me for life. Woo I don't need a hand to...
    Calbie5 Calbie5 36-40, F 9 hrs ago

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