I Battle With Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 221 People

    Lately every person I see gives me a panic

    attack I don't know how I'm going to get through this battle.
    Izzy1569 Izzy1569
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 15, 2014

    Life Altering

    I have had an anxiety problem for most of my life that I can remember. But this...is absolutely awful stuff. It has altered my life in so many ways its hard to explain it all. I used to love to drive. Now I dread even getting a vehicle. I was rear ended June of 2011. I was...
    lisamarieme lisamarieme
    51-55, F
    Aug 11, 2012

    Every Day Is Another Battle

    I battle post traumatic stress. But - it is not what everybody seems to want to assume. It is not the 28 years I spent in the US military. Oh, hell no. That was, in many ways, stress relief. A place where I felt, safe, and useful. It took me many years, and much soul...
    angusmcfarland angusmcfarland
    51-55, M
    1 Response Jul 19, 2012

    What Has Happened To Me?

    For a couple of years I faced intimidation and bullying at work by senior managers. I would complain to my manager about all the issues, even put a written complaint as well as a verbal complaint with HR. However I was told it was a very political enviornment at work?? I would...
    MandyTad MandyTad
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jun 3, 2012

    My name is John. I used to be a member of EP a

    while ago and got away from it. I'm an army infantryman and a combat veteran. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and have started to combat it. It is going to be a long road to recovery but I am tired of being miserable. I want my life back. I want to be happy again. Writing has...
    johnnyamerica88 johnnyamerica88
    26-30, M
    Mar 4, 2014

    The Beast

    Depression is a horrible thing and I never imagined there could be anything worse to comsume my brain. Like everyone, I have my ups and downs and usually see the cycle. Take the time to talk with someone, see the Doc or whatever. I mean, I consider myself a smart guy so I realize...
    kunar12 kunar12
    41-45, M
    Jul 31, 2012

    There Is Life After Panic Attacks And Agoraphibia

    Hi, this goes out to all those that are suffering from panic, fear and agoraphobia, I know some days can feel pretty low but hang in there, there is life after panic attacks. I suffered through occasional panic attacks that later spiraled into a crippling 4 year battle with...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    May 6, 2013

    Speechless

    My therapist tells me that what I have is selective mutism induced by post-traumatic stress disorder. I am physically able to speak, but there’s some barrier in my mind that just won’t allow me to. I learned American Sign Language and my brother even did too so that he can...
    EmptyUnderMyHat EmptyUnderMyHat
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 23, 2013

    It Doesn't Stop, It Doesn't Go Away

    At one point I was convinced it did. I thought I had all the right weapons and all the strength I needed. I thought I had done all the work, cried the tears, felt the fears. My therapist told me this would not be a lifelong battle. Then how come I come back to the same point...
    Mapping Mapping
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 18, 2012

    I Have So Many Problems That I Don'T Know Where To Begin

    Between 2004 and 2008 I was in the middle of the biggest ghost possession that I have ever heard of . I beat my head with my fist to keep them away... I was electrocuted, thrown to the ground, followed, taunted, held down and tortured. I am now a shell of a person. Every...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 14, 2013

    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 7, 2014

    My Brain Is Scrambled.

    I was recently diagnosed with PTSD and bipolar 2 and it strains my family life. I have not been able to get the correct help for these issues due to insurance coverage. So I have to do my best to control this on my own. It is very difficult to control mood swings sad feelings and...
    LovedExponentialy LovedExponentialy
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2013

    Worried

    I thought it was over. It wasn't. And now here I am a mess all over again. I just didn't expect for it to take me so long to put the pieces back together.
    Mello29 Mello29
    18-21, F
    Feb 14, 2013

    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 4, 2014

    Help Me! I Obsess Over Everything!

    Question: I have been living with panic attacks and anxiety for about 16 years. It started after I stopped using drugs. I constantly thought I was going to or was in the act of having a heart attack. Then, it started me checking windows and doors repeatedly every night, and the...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Sep 9, 2013

    Post Childbirth Ptsd

    For 7 years I struggled alone. None if my ob/gyn ever made the connection. After googling my symptoms and feelings I came across case studies. Every single story I read was my own. 7 years thinking I had some mental defect when in fact I had all the classic symptoms of this "new...
    Indystyx Indystyx
    31-35
    3 Responses Feb 26, 2013

    They pile in on me...

    . Memories ..... fast and furious. A kaleidoscope of vivid pictures fly through my mind.. Instantly. I can feel the fear, remember the feelings it brought with it.. The panic, the erratically beating heart, the sense of utter dread, all start to overwhelm me.. That's when it...
    simplylee simplylee
    46-50, F
    Apr 12, 2014

    I Am Not Coping Well

    I feel really lost at this point and I don't really know how to pick up and move on. I am trying to find another therapist and hope to find one that will help me, but feel discouraged. I feel like my problem will never go away. I know, I know that everyone feels this way when...
    Mapping Mapping
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 27, 2012
    AncientStar AncientStar
    31-35, M
    Mar 20, 2014

    Just Me....

    Diagnosed a while ago. Probably strugling with ptsd all my life. Still trying to accept the fact that my biological parents didnt want me and my adaptive parents tried theire best but it didn't workout..... Not them to blame. But because of it,I can't help feeling rejected...
    javspucca javspucca
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 31, 2012

    Assaulted On MLK Day At Miami University

    The stars peered from the sky like peeping toms spying through the glass that shielded our lives from the cold cosmos for a bit of rest prior to reincarnation. Drunken chatter and squeals of intoxication sweated through the night. Ted and I left a party to return our friend Linda...
    jasonk421 jasonk421
    31-35, M
    Jan 31, 2013

    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Feb 23, 2014

    Drinking To Cope Is Ruining My Life

    At the age of nine year's Old I watched my mom die, she was born sick, I was getting ready for school when I seen her take her last breath,her sister my aunt. And her husband adopted me and my sister, after six months my uncle started to sexually molesting me and my sister...
    titanvolsfan1 titanvolsfan1
    46-50, M
    Sep 7, 2013

    Therapy Helps

    Therapy is helping me thankfully. But will I ever get over my past? I was abused by my husband- Raped by him Financially controlled Emotionally abused Verbally abused Physically abused When I ran away with my children he screamed that he would smash my head in with a brick and...
    CaraStarr CaraStarr
    41-45, F
    Apr 1, 2013

    Im Only 19

    Age 5: Developed trichotillomania, have been bullied, felt ugly, no self worth of self esteem.... worthless. traumatizing to experience for 14 years now Age 8: watched my grandaddy have a heart attack and die, lying on the pavement of my church parking lot in the rain, with...
    loveismyweapon94 loveismyweapon94
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Feb 24, 2013

    A Question I Received About Overcoming Panic Attacks.

    Question: Can u give me an advice?i love how u explained that to overcome anxiety,u shud rely on urself and not on others bcoz dependency will only make me feel hopeless and weak.I really wanna try to live again.I miss the old me so much and i want to feel the freedom again of...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    May 7, 2013

    Still Screaming On The Inside!

    I made a major sacrifice in not only my life but in my child's life. I decided to go overseas to work for a year. I had no ides as to what I would be getting myself into. The flight was long and overrated for the price of the ticket. I was told by the company I decided to go work...
    SWEETNSEXXY7 SWEETNSEXXY7
    31-35
    1 Response Sep 3, 2012

    How I Overcame Panic, Fear, Hypochondria And Agoraphobia!

    I struggled with panic, fear, hypochondria and eventually even agoraphobia for years. It seemed like my mind just got stuck in this loop in which I just kept worrying. As soon as my panic kicked in, my heart started racing and I was absolutely convinced that I was on the verge...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Nov 25, 2013

    Alleviating That Excess Nervous Energy

    One of the hardest things to deal with when trying to overcome panic and anxiety is knowing what to do with all that excess energy. I know when I used to get my panic attacks it sometimes felt like I just wanted to jump right out of my skin! My heart would race at a thousand...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    May 7, 2013

    Im 21 A Mom Of 2 With Ptsd Making My Life Hell.Help!

    I was abused almost my whole childhood by someone that was suppose to be my family.I've been suffering with anxiety ,depression, and panic attacks since the abuser was arrested. I can't live life normal I have 2 kids and a boyfriend but he's already getting tired of this life...
    Pydisaster Pydisaster
    18-21, F
    Jun 4, 2013

    Ptsd Without The T?

    I have had a few therapists suggest that I may have PTSD due to symptoms I experience. I would agree with that, except for the fact that I have no memory of any obvious, severe trauma. I was hit by a car as a child and had other "mildly" traumatic incidents in life, but nothing...
    2 Responses Jan 31, 2013

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