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I Battle With Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

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    They pile in on me...

    . Memories ..... fast and furious. A kaleidoscope of vivid pictures fly through my mind.. Instantly. I can feel the fear, remember the feelings it brought with it.. The panic, the erratically beating heart, the sense of utter dread, all start to overwhelm me.. That's when it...
    simplylee simplylee 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Feb 23

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    Not Sure About This One

    About the title to this story.  I meant, I didn't know if I should write this story under Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or another new group.  To me, it's part of my PTSD.  So this is where I will write it. I have been wanting to write about this for a while now but then...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 4 Responses May 24, 2012

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    A Question I Received About Overcoming Panic Attacks.

    Question: Can u give me an advice?i love how u explained that to overcome anxiety,u shud rely on urself and not on others bcoz dependency will only make me feel hopeless and weak.I really wanna try to live again.I miss the old me so much and i want to feel the freedom again of...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M May 7, 2013

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    Still Screaming On The Inside!

    I made a major sacrifice in not only my life but in my child's life. I decided to go overseas to work for a year. I had no ides as to what I would be getting myself into. The flight was long and overrated for the price of the ticket. I was told by the company I decided to go work...
    SWEETNSEXXY7 SWEETNSEXXY7 31-35 1 Response Sep 3, 2012

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    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 4

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    There Is Life After Panic Attacks And Agoraphibia

    Hi, this goes out to all those that are suffering from panic, fear and agoraphobia, I know some days can feel pretty low but hang in there, there is life after panic attacks. I suffered through occasional panic attacks that later spiraled into a crippling 4 year battle with...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M May 6, 2013

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    I Have So Many Problems That I Don'T Know Where To Begin

    Between 2004 and 2008 I was in the middle of the biggest ghost possession that I have ever heard of . I beat my head with my fist to keep them away... I was electrocuted, thrown to the ground, followed, taunted, held down and tortured. I am now a shell of a person. Every...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 14, 2013

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    Drinking To Cope Is Ruining My Life

    At the age of nine year's Old I watched my mom die, she was born sick, I was getting ready for school when I seen her take her last breath,her sister my aunt. And her husband adopted me and my sister, after six months my uncle started to sexually molesting me and my sister...
    titanvolsfan1 titanvolsfan1 46-50, M Sep 7, 2013

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    Ptsd Without The T?

    I have had a few therapists suggest that I may have PTSD due to symptoms I experience. I would agree with that, except for the fact that I have no memory of any obvious, severe trauma. I was hit by a car as a child and had other "mildly" traumatic incidents in life, but nothing...
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    Another nightmare about my ex.

    It's been over 4 years. Only this last year did I start taking anti-anxiety meds to help sleep. The doctor wanted me on ambien... Hell no. I'm not trying to wake up under the dinning room table with the toaster and all the remote controls.... I was sure these hellacious...
    thislittlejourney thislittlejourney 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    My Brain Is Scrambled.

    I was recently diagnosed with PTSD and bipolar 2 and it strains my family life. I have not been able to get the correct help for these issues due to insurance coverage. So I have to do my best to control this on my own. It is very difficult to control mood swings sad feelings and...
    LovedExponentialy LovedExponentialy 26-30, M 2 Responses Feb 22, 2013

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    Post Childbirth Ptsd

    For 7 years I struggled alone. None if my ob/gyn ever made the connection. After googling my symptoms and feelings I came across case studies. Every single story I read was my own. 7 years thinking I had some mental defect when in fact I had all the classic symptoms of this "new...
    Indystyx Indystyx 31-35 3 Responses Feb 26, 2013

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    What Has Happened To Me?

    For a couple of years I faced intimidation and bullying at work by senior managers. I would complain to my manager about all the issues, even put a written complaint as well as a verbal complaint with HR. However I was told it was a very political enviornment at work?? I would...
    MandyTad MandyTad 36-40, F 2 Responses Jun 3, 2012

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    I Am Not Coping Well

    I feel really lost at this point and I don't really know how to pick up and move on. I am trying to find another therapist and hope to find one that will help me, but feel discouraged. I feel like my problem will never go away. I know, I know that everyone feels this way when...
    Mapping Mapping 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 27, 2012

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    Worried

    I thought it was over. It wasn't. And now here I am a mess all over again. I just didn't expect for it to take me so long to put the pieces back together.
    Mello29 Mello29 18-21, F Feb 14, 2013

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    The Beast

    Depression is a horrible thing and I never imagined there could be anything worse to comsume my brain. Like everyone, I have my ups and downs and usually see the cycle. Take the time to talk with someone, see the Doc or whatever. I mean, I consider myself a smart guy so I realize...
    kunar12 kunar12 41-45, M Jul 31, 2012

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    I Was In The Army

    Some females in the barracks I was assigned to tried to kill me. I reported it to EO and I got kicked out of the company. There was no other action taken and those responsible are still enlisted.
    wtfimik wtfimik 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2012

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    Im Only 19

    Age 5: Developed trichotillomania, have been bullied, felt ugly, no self worth of self esteem.... worthless. traumatizing to experience for 14 years now Age 8: watched my grandaddy have a heart attack and die, lying on the pavement of my church parking lot in the rain, with...
    loveismyweapon94 loveismyweapon94 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 24, 2013

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    I Am Winning My Battle!!!

    I thought when I first started suffering with the flashbacks was when my PTSD started.  I was wrong.  When my first traumatic experience started is when the PTSD started.   I also thought all this time, that my first traumatic experience was about 8 years old, with the Uncle...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 8 Responses Feb 15, 2012

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    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 7

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    Just Me....

    Diagnosed a while ago. Probably strugling with ptsd all my life. Still trying to accept the fact that my biological parents didnt want me and my adaptive parents tried theire best but it didn't workout..... Not them to blame. But because of it,I can't help feeling rejected...
    javspucca javspucca 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    Therapy Helps

    Therapy is helping me thankfully. But will I ever get over my past? I was abused by my husband- Raped by him Financially controlled Emotionally abused Verbally abused Physically abused When I ran away with my children he screamed that he would smash my head in with a brick and...
    CaraStarr CaraStarr 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2013

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    Only The Lonely

    Today I had a flashback.  I knew something was wrong.  I could feel my heart racing.  That's always the first sign.  I try to do things to occupy my mind, maybe it will go away.  I listen to music or start chatting with people online.  It didn't help.  The fast heart rate...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 6 Responses Jul 29, 2012

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    It Doesn't Stop, It Doesn't Go Away

    At one point I was convinced it did. I thought I had all the right weapons and all the strength I needed. I thought I had done all the work, cried the tears, felt the fears. My therapist told me this would not be a lifelong battle. Then how come I come back to the same point...
    Mapping Mapping 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2012

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    Do Not Like This....

    Yesterday and today have been not so good days.  I think it's mental and not physical.  I just don't feel good.  I am so emotionally drained.  I slept almost all day yesterday and I feel like I want to go back to bed now.  I feel scared and I feel like crying.  I feel like...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 1 Response Apr 26, 2012

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    Darkness Go Away

    It's always with me.  Sometimes inside me sooo quietly that I don't even know it's there.  Other times like now, it's strong, it's taking over.  I fight it as best I can.  I'm afraid, uncomfortable.  The little girl inside me comes out, her feelings control my mind.  There...
    TexasLily TexasLily 51-55, F 8 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    Alleviating That Excess Nervous Energy

    One of the hardest things to deal with when trying to overcome panic and anxiety is knowing what to do with all that excess energy. I know when I used to get my panic attacks it sometimes felt like I just wanted to jump right out of my skin! My heart would race at a thousand...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M May 7, 2013

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    Im 21 A Mom Of 2 With Ptsd Making My Life Hell.Help!

    I was abused almost my whole childhood by someone that was suppose to be my family.I've been suffering with anxiety ,depression, and panic attacks since the abuser was arrested. I can't live life normal I have 2 kids and a boyfriend but he's already getting tired of this life...
    Pydisaster Pydisaster 18-21, F Jun 4, 2013

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    Every Day Is Another Battle

    I battle post traumatic stress. But - it is not what everybody seems to want to assume. It is not the 28 years I spent in the US military. Oh, hell no. That was, in many ways, stress relief. A place where I felt, safe, and useful. It took me many years, and much soul...
    angusmcfarland angusmcfarland 51-55, M 1 Response Jul 19, 2012

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    To Top It All Off

    My mom is in ICU and I got my heart, not broken, but shredded tonight. I was dumb enough to fall deeply for someone prematurely, yet again. I did that years ago! Sick! I knew him less than 2 months maybe, and it already felt like I was in love with him. It's all over now. He...
    Goslyn Goslyn 31-35, T Aug 13, 2013

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    How I Overcame Panic, Fear, Hypochondria And Agoraphobia!

    I struggled with panic, fear, hypochondria and eventually even agoraphobia for years. It seemed like my mind just got stuck in this loop in which I just kept worrying. As soon as my panic kicked in, my heart started racing and I was absolutely convinced that I was on the verge...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Nov 25, 2013

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    Life Altering

    I have had an anxiety problem for most of my life that I can remember. But this...is absolutely awful stuff. It has altered my life in so many ways its hard to explain it all. I used to love to drive. Now I dread even getting a vehicle. I was rear ended June of 2011. I was...
    lisamarieme lisamarieme 51-55, F Aug 11, 2012

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    My name is John. I used to be a member of EP a

    while ago and got away from it. I'm an army infantryman and a combat veteran. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and have started to combat it. It is going to be a long road to recovery but I am tired of being miserable. I want my life back. I want to be happy again. Writing has...
    johnnyamerica88 johnnyamerica88 22-25, M Mar 4

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    Make It Stop!

    My life is a mess! My bff moved out and on, I decided to contact my mother after years of not speaking to her, I lost my dog then my other dog got depressed and stopped eating i almost lost her too. Things are going surprising well with my mother but just her presence in my life...
    NobodiesDaughter NobodiesDaughter 31-35, F Sep 6, 2013

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    Help Me! I Obsess Over Everything!

    Question: I have been living with panic attacks and anxiety for about 16 years. It started after I stopped using drugs. I constantly thought I was going to or was in the act of having a heart attack. Then, it started me checking windows and doors repeatedly every night, and the...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Sep 9, 2013

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    Assaulted On MLK Day At Miami University

    The stars peered from the sky like peeping toms spying through the glass that shielded our lives from the cold cosmos for a bit of rest prior to reincarnation. Drunken chatter and squeals of intoxication sweated through the night. Ted and I left a party to return our friend Linda...
    jasonk421 jasonk421 31-35, M Jan 31, 2013

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    Anarai Anarai 26-30, F Mar 31

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    Back in elementary school, I didn't care about my weight because I just didn't. I was fine the way I was. I was confident. Then I got expose to social media. I always saw pretty...
    Livelovelaughforeved Livelovelaughforeved 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 12

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    I battle with self-harm and simply cannot stop myself from relapsing.
    SociallyAwkwardness SociallyAwkwardness 16-17, F Mar 23

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    I am loosing weight too slowly. It's not a matter of bad diet or too many or too few calories. I am overweight and have plenty to loose, which I have done successfully before kids...
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    I've been eating healthy for the last few weeks and then today I thought I'd give myself a treat, while I'm eating it, I liked it but after I eat something unhealthy I feel fat as...
    OverThinker123 OverThinker123 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    I've always been overweight. I've been ok with it. But.. lately I have been struggling to deal with it. Before I was able to maintain a weight. Now I am actually gaining ALOT and...
    Raven628 Raven628 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    I have just been put on 10 sodium tablets per day. This is apparently meant to help my POTS, has this worked for anyone else?
    justplainhollyjayne justplainhollyjayne 13-15, F Mar 24

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    All I think about is food :( I get really emotional when and I try to diet
    Gemmaridge86 Gemmaridge86 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    1) You can do anything you put your mind to.- So I can take one leaping bound from here to the moon? Then someone's answer is "anything within reason". Where do you draw the line...
    boastroasttoast boastroasttoast 36-40, M 4 hrs ago

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    Eating disorder was never my main illness, it think it developed due to my Schizotypal Personality and Depression, but I know what is to struggle with eating disorder...I can say...
    lauruze lauruze 22-25, F Apr 12

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    Hey everyone. :) i have made this youtube video and I am posting the link here. It is a video that is about my life and my battle with depression and a ton of other things. The...
    Anonomous441 Anonomous441 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    My anxiety is going haywire with all the stress from exams and negative experiences with other people, and I can't tell if my dietary habits are getting better or worse. I averaged...
    Skadiv Skadiv 18-21 1 Response Apr 9

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    I sit around wondering if I truly do have bulimia but I don't at the same time. It hurts to know I may have it. The constant battle with food just kills me.
    babybree527 babybree527 18-21, F Mar 27

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    I need help. I mean, I don't even understand what to do. I can't maintain my own happiness because I'm too busy succumbing to my inner demons. I push the ones who care away...
    Destati Destati 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I'm pretty much an agoraphobic now because my anxiety has gotten so bad. I'm 20 years old and have been dealing with it since I can remember. I just gave birth to my son 3 weeks...
    shelbylynn1994 shelbylynn1994 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    My problem with getting this diagnosis was that I used to not like the fact that everyone gets labels. I mean, I still feel like certain terms get thrown around way too casually...
    showusyoursouls showusyoursouls 18-21, F Apr 1

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    She insists I did not hug her when she came to visit about a month and a half ago. I remember this specifically because I thought, "do I have to hug her? If I don't, she'll make a...
    greencoffeecup greencoffeecup 26-30, F Apr 3

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