I Beat Myself Up Over Mistakes and Imperfections

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    Never have I thought of killing myself

    or try hurting myself in ways that would end my life easily. I started to beat myself a few days ago and it felt good. I feel like I deserve to punish myself for doing such a little mistake, my mom would make me feel how fcking useless I am and I know that what she's saying was...
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 4, 2014

    We strive so hard to be perfect in this world.

    . To not make a mistake, to not say anything wrong or get left out. But is that really what we will be remembered for? For being close-to-perfect and never taking chances and thus almost never making mistakes? I doubt it, I think we'll be remembered for our mistakes. For the...
    ThisIsNickers ThisIsNickers
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 5, 2015

    My Own Kind Of Perfect

    All my life I've been teased,called names,bullied.I've always felt unwanted,unnneed.After a while,I gave in,I believed the lies,I refused the believe the truth.I refused to eatwhen someone called me fat.I refused to singwhen someone said I has a horride voice.I covered my face...
    invisiblegirl904 invisiblegirl904
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Feb 29, 2012


    Why do we beat ourselves up? How do we treat others with faults after we "look in the mirror" so to speak. We all have faults. Why should we train ourselves up to hatred? 4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not...
    AlwaysPersevere71 AlwaysPersevere71
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Mar 19, 2013

    I don't beat myself up per se,

    as much as I give myself a stern talking to. I really don't handle defeat well. When it comes to me handling situations I'm like a hemophiliac in a razor factory. I think I have an objective point of view of my failures, it's just that they see me first. I'm quite certain...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 3, 2013

    My life has been flipped upside down entirely.

    I was the good, quiet daughter, cousin, friend, and student. But as soon as I met a boy with his own history, all of a sudden I see myself having sex, smoking, staying out.. And I still see nothing too wrong with those events but one day we got caught. Having sex, by my brother...
    aholaaa aholaaa
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 3, 2016

    Sometines .not too hard,

    but yeah just a quick reaction like NHOOOOOO !!!!! And slap your Lap or something .
    Scorpio95117 Scorpio95117
    22-25, F
    Dec 25, 2014

    When it comes to mistakes I have to be hard on

    myself so I don't repeat it. Mistakes are dangerous because the wrong move can ruin your life. I rather learn from other peoples mistakes
    ADeepPerspective ADeepPerspective
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 24, 2013

    I do beat myself up pretty badly.

    And it's not pleasant. But I guess the only way to put yourself in the right place you have to do it. Growing up, I often hear some adults say that if the child won't listen to you when you're scolding him, you have to physically beat him because that's the only way they will...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 8, 2014

    I have bruises all over my body from punching

    myself 24/7. Why can't I just be perfect like everyone else? I hide my bruises so no one knows. I hate who I am. I think I'm gods worst experiment. I don't even know why I'm alive!
    AGreenDayToRemember AGreenDayToRemember
    18-21, F
    8 Responses May 1, 2014


    I'm still picking on myself for saying things slighty wrong, and some of the utterances are decades old now lol!
    Freedomfriend Freedomfriend
    5 Responses Aug 23, 2009

    I definitely have a terrible habit of thinking

    about all the stupid mistakes I've made and hating myself for them as well as looking at all my imperfections and beating myself up for them as well. It's something I've been working to change but it has definitely been a struggle.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Nov 30, 2014

    I hate myself and I can't change!

    Is there any point, I'm always wrong!
    Fishfugazi Fishfugazi
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Nov 16, 2015

    I still feel inferior.

    I so badly need someone in real life that I can talk too face to face about this. it's all I can do. one problem. . there isn't anyone! I can't handle the emotions of this anymore. I just wanna be as good as every other woman!! it's just not fair!! I'm so defective. **** it.
    NoRegretsAndNoRemorse NoRegretsAndNoRemorse
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 2, 2015

    Bad Grades, I Never Understand, Im Stupid

    i just dont understand math at all i mean like i understand none of it. my brain just dont work like that. im dyslexic but it affects reading only a little bit like im slow but it mostly affects math--i just cant do it right. But my new family dont understand that i just cant do...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jan 3, 2013

    I find it harder to forgive myself

    for mistakes. I never really realised until recently that I've always blamed myself for a lot of things that are out of my control. Always second guessing and wondering what if I'd done this or done that. Hindsight is a beautiful thing.
    Quinney Quinney
    26-30, M
    2 Responses May 6, 2014

    Always Saying, 'i'm Sorry'.

    I feel like I spend half my life walking on eggshells and the other half saying, "I am sorry'. For what I don't know. I guess I am so insecure...
    toolongalone toolongalone
    56-60, F
    3 Responses Dec 26, 2011
    CMBd625 CMBd625
    31-35, F
    May 19, 2015

    All the Time.

    It basically boils down to this: my relationship with myself is an all or nothing ordeal. I expect perfection from myself in most every aspect of my life, and if I'm not perfect I feel like I'm worthless. Failure and rejection is not something I can take lightly, and so much...
    deleted deleted
    11 Responses Feb 10, 2009

    Please Read<3

    Hey you! Yes, you. Stop being unhappy with yourself. You are perfect. Stop wishing you looked like someone else or wishing people liked you as much as they like someone else. Stop trying to get attention from those who hurt you. Stop hating your body, your face, your personality...
    claaaire claaaire
    18-21, F
    May 17, 2012

    Before any of you worry about your

    imperfections my ex boyfriend complained like a child when I told him to stop using prn but was perfectly fine with a real life sex ban!! So how bad must I be??
    Paleandpolluted86 Paleandpolluted86
    31-35, F
    Aug 3, 2015

    I like this guy he's really nice

    and sweet and he would make my heart flutter at the littlest of things he would say sweet things like "even when times get rough you would still be easy to love or why does it matter you're gonna be mine someday" I went out on a date Saturday and it was lovely I had fun and we...
    IntegraBlackwell IntegraBlackwell
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2014

    My Problem

    I care too much about everything.  I don't know what to do about it.  I want to know what I did wrong and why I was bad and what I can do to improve myself.  It's exhausting.  I am so tired of trying to fix what is wrong with myself and hating myself for tiny...
    bobob0109 bobob0109
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jan 12, 2010

    I never feel good enough,

    pretty enough, or worthy enough for someone to love me....I honestly feel like I don't deserve to be loved😫😪😭
    Court24 Court24
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Oct 11, 2014

    I seriously beat myself up all the time.

    .. I feel like I make so many mistakes that I'm just one big mistake. I'm a disappointment to myself and to everyone else. I mean, it is pretty evident. My mom says she'll make me go to therapy if I can't start looking at things positively, but how am I supposed to do that?
    Smileydork Smileydork
    16-17, F
    May 8, 2015

    I Get Depressed If I Dont Perfect My Art Work .

    I love my hobby of drawing and painting I live in a small country town in australia but I get very depressed if I dont perfect my drawing and get the result I want and plan to do . I also get down on myself if I let myself down by not acting a certain way that pleases people...
    mishy40 mishy40
    1 Response Oct 24, 2011

    Sometimes I think too much about my mistakes

    that I almost forgot the cool dude that I am. And I hate these days, when my head hurts, because I can't do right decisions sometimes, I just follow the road without take a turn or stop a moment to think where I'm going. Stress kills me, indirectly. I beat myserlf up over...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat
    26-30, M
    Oct 29, 2014

    I end up feeling I wish I were gone over small

    mistakes or large. I can't get over them.
    Salze Salze
    56-60, F
    5 Responses Jan 22, 2015

    Aware Of My Mistakes

    I am In self loath. Not because I am Ignorant to the fact that my Imperfections and mistakes don't matter, but at the same time they are everything. Being conscious of such Is a task In It's self. Then the will to fight for sanity and motivation escape me due to my reminder of...
    Blukk Blukk
    1 Response Aug 19, 2012

    I beat myself up over mistakes all the time,

    regardless of how small they may be. For instance, I ignored someone who messaged me on here, by accidentally clicking 'ignore' when her message came up; a stupid mistake to make. I am an idiot
    KiwiDan KiwiDan
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Nov 7, 2014

    I want to vomit we I look in the mirror.

    Or when I hear myself talk I want to kill that voice I hear.
    roadrunner34 roadrunner34
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jun 5, 2014

    I hate having physical imperfections,

    I want to look like an airbrushed picture. My boobs got bigger now there's a big vein in one of them. I don't want to be ordinary, I want to look amazing so men can't say nasty things to me.
    Paleandpolluted86 Paleandpolluted86
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 3, 2015

    Definitely guilty of this.

    I've been beating myself up for the same thine for almost 6 months.
    sighselly sighselly
    13-15, F
    1 Response Nov 25, 2014

    Will I Ever Stop Punishing Myself?

    I'm a terrible person to be a perfectionist when I' so far from it!  I try to go easier on myself now that I'm older, and know a little better. But I don't cut myself much slack even now. Think it's most likely the ADHD. I did not know about this until I was grown. Growing...
    BCBoomer58 BCBoomer58
    56-60, F
    8 Responses Jun 19, 2010

    Its hard when you are

    so worried about making a mistake that it makes the mistakes that you'll eventually make much worse.
    migs1910 migs1910
    26-30, M
    1 Response Sep 11, 2015

    I feel like everything I do upsets someone

    and it's a mistake. I beat myself up over things like this all the time. I get no reassurance in the fact that I've done something right for once. I guess everything I do is a mistake.
    BabyGirlCleo BabyGirlCleo
    22-25, F
    Mar 11, 2015

    I am having a hard time letting go of past

    mistakes. I dream about them, I wake up thinking about them, and I just want to become numb to it all somehow but nothing works! I realize I need professional help and I need to open up more and not keep it all pent up inside. I am not on the meds I need either so that has a lot...
    Coolbeanz7 Coolbeanz7
    36-40, F
    Nov 3, 2015

    Love yourself first and everything else falls

    into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in the world
    donaldmatic donaldmatic
    51-55, M
    1 Response Apr 1, 2016

    Not Alone

    Although I know I shouldn't ... I still am guilty of this from time to time. I often find myself feeling bad about having made a mistake and am often quite hard on myself.  I usually do bounce back quite quickly, but it's a hard habit to break. I know we are supposed to learn...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss
    51-55, F
    6 Responses Jan 15, 2011

    I know the whole "nobody's perfect "

    and "everybody makes mistakes" cliches are said all the time but It's hard failing an making a mess of things all the time even when you don't even try too and having it pointed out all the time (thanks mom-_-)...every time I mess up no matter how small it may seem I just feel...
    leadmenot leadmenot
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2015

    I can't stand stress.

    Tomorrow I've got my last University exam. Last week I did the second-last and I did really good. I couldn't do 2 weeks at home so Saturday I went out for a couple of beer with friends. I came back home at 12:00 pm, a little stoned. Since I practice everyday, and I study, I'm...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat
    26-30, M
    1 Response Dec 1, 2014
    completemess completemess
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 25, 2014

    How do you let go of something

    that has manifested itself so strongly in your life ?
    deleted deleted
    Nov 3, 2015

    I realize that no one is perfect,

    but when people point out the annoy, selfish, rude things I do, many times unaware, it really gets to me. I try to work on myself and improve, but I can't seem to accept the fact that I am simply flawed--no matter how I try to fix myself. I usually apologize to people and then...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 25, 2014

    My Dying Soul Is Lost........................

                       The darkness surrounds me It'sso cold im all alone with noone to hold.My world is so empty.All I want left is pain. No sunshine to lightmy way Just never ending rain I drown in tears My heart is crying no one sems to notice My soul  is dying...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Dec 23, 2011

    I've been trying to be a good little vegan.

    once in a great while though I just flop and breakdown and eat some dairy with people out and about, like poutine or ice cream (today both) I feel bad about it. my poor body feels like HELL. so bloaty and gross and queasy. dairy is not my friend. I am not perfect, I make...
    PeaceLoveBunnies26 PeaceLoveBunnies26
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 1, 2015
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