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I Beat Myself Up Too Often

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    I tend to beat myself up a lot.

    I try to conquer everything on my own and its just not possible; Im killing myself. I work 9am to 5 pm Mon-Fri, then I have a 5 year old, and on top of all that Im also going to school online for Criminal Justice. Not to mention dealing with depression and anxiety on my own also...
    Sb88 Sb88 26-30, F Sep 23, 2014

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    Figuratively Of Course. No Self-mutilation For Me.

    i have been told throughout my life, even by some of my teachers, that i am too hard on myself. i remember hearing it from my 3rd grade teacher, and most recently from my chorus teacher a year or two ago. and from family and friends. i just want to be smart, pretty, and talented...
    1990cupcake 1990cupcake 18-21 Jan 5, 2010

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    All the Time

    I am always beating myself up, beating myself up for either things that have happened in my past, or things that I really can't control. Poeple are always telling me that I am way too hard on myself, and I need to learn that things aren't always my fault, and sometimes, **** just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 6, 2009

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    But Then Maybe Not....

    I think I deserve to beat myself up often but I won't sit here and say that it is helpful as I know it isn't. I am a failure and am behind in life which does deserve emotional batterings from myself but I know deep down it isn't helping. It only gets me into a cycle of hating...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 5, 2012

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    I Beat Myself Up Too Often

    I beat myself up too often because of my feelings and I take people too seriously.  I can blame so many people and things that happened in my life, that I'm not sure if it's right.  I know I'm an adult and have to charge of my life, but still.  One example, I...
    candles24 candles24 41-45, F Jan 29, 2010

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    Getting Better About It

    I have always beaten myself up over things. I used to beat myself up for just about everything, my fault or not. Now I take the time to stop and think about whether if I actually screwed up or not. Then I kick the crap out of myself.When something bad happens I will think about...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T Sep 6, 2013

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    I Do

    i beat myself up too often . i beat myself over stupid mistakes . not having a perfect safe and the biggest thing is me saying something inapproriate . it gave me fuel to call me a pervert and disrespect me completely.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 17, 2009

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    Time And Time Again!!

    i beat myself up about the silliest little things all the time, almost on a daily basis!! as i say, i know its silly, but at times i just cant seem to help myself, i always expect better of myself!! its like i want to be successful and make something of myself, then i...
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 3 Responses Feb 4, 2012

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    I Need To Stop Beating Myself Up

    Im 24 and I have a 4 year old son. I have been out on my own for a year now and of course things are hard. Im raising my son alone so thats tough enough by itself. Of course I stuggle like everyone else but for some reason I just dont feel confident in what I'm doing. Even though...
    Sb88 Sb88 26-30, F Nov 29, 2012

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