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I Become Addict of My Love

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    I Need Him.

    Today was one of those tough nights.... I cried almost half of the night. And why....? Because I am going on a trip wth my parents and i will not see Aalekh for maybe 2 weeks. I dont know how I survive.... how I survive without long chats, long calls.... how? Today's nigh I felt...
    bublina bublina 18-21, F 14 Responses Jul 18, 2008

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    Since The Death Of My Daughter I Lean On His Heart So Much

    I think about this guy so much. he is on my mind a great deal. he  lights up my heart in ways he can't imagine. to me he is more beautiful and more talented and more clever then any movie star or athlete. if I could just pretend in my heart that I am 17 or 19 again I think I...
    thedeformedfetus thedeformedfetus 36-40 Feb 16, 2013

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