I've been through so much transformation, the past doesn't even feel real. I dropped any and all people who insisted on mirring themselves in their or my past. Sometimes, you just gotta start afresh. We only move one way --- FORWARD!
You got to put your past behind you - Disney Lion King
I guess you have to come to terms with it, the good, the bad and the ugly. Moving forward is the hard part, but once you take the first step momentum is behind you.