a big tub of Pringles, maltesers and some garlic bread. Eww I feel sick and disgusting and embarrassed. I am going to starve again, I don't know what happened to me? I walked into the kitchen and eat whatever I could get my hands on. The guilt is all over me :(
I laid there and started thinking about food. I just had to get up and eat whatever I could get my hands on. At least I stayed away from some of the sweets, but apparently I did a 'good' job - up 5lbs this am. Depression and anxiety apparently owns me!
I've been doing so good with my diet. I became a vegetarian about three months ago and started off eating very well. Nothing processed, only drinking water, no refined sugar.. the past week I have been off the rails. I decided to try giving my body what it "wanted" and craved...
I just binged. I haven't done that since I started dieting pre-anorexia. And I don't feel guilty! Partly because I'm underweight and partly because I know it'll be okay. Plus I have my period, so it's totally necessary :P
:D I feel so proud of myself right now.