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I Blame Myself For Things Gone Wrong

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    The Chains Of Habit Are Generally Too Small To Be Felt Until They Are Too Strong To Be Broken

    Blame…. It is such an ugly word, yet I get blame piled on top of me on a daily basis. If I were to be able to make it through an entire day without being faulted for someone else’s problem, I do not know if I would even recognize my own life. Having the finger...
    TypicalPisces TypicalPisces 36-40, F Dec 7, 2010

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    I Think Everything Is My Fault And Blame Myself For Everything

    I blame myself for anything that goes on around me, or that happens to the people around me. my dad left mom's favorite dish hanging off the table, the cat nocked it over, it broke, it was my cat must be my fault, and instantly i start shaking and wondering what the punishment...
    stoiccloset stoiccloset 18-21 1 Response Oct 11, 2009

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    He Died

    My dad died a year ago, and I sometimes feel like it's partially my fault. It started when he had the stroke in September. My mom had went to check on him in their room, and saw that he'd fallen out of bed and wasn't acting right. I went in to see, and realized it was likely a...
    SagesBabie SagesBabie 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2009

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    It's Not The Victims Fault.

    yet we all blame ourselves. what if i did this, or did that. screamed louder? resisted more? told sooner? told at all? cried more? begged more? pleaded more? ran? hid? fought back? fought at all? what did i do? what didnt i do? why did this happen? what wrong have i done? truth...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F Dec 20, 2011

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    Where Did I Go Wrong In Life?

    hello please hear me out please.where do i start this is tough... ok I am 43 Male i live in Britain.I live with my Mother and her boyfriend who drive me mad (she is 63 i love her)but we clash and old people do become annoying yes?(they love life) i hate every minute of mine.I am...
    defoekeane defoekeane 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 2, 2013

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    Life Fell Apart...

    April 1st 2007 - My life came crashing down around me.  My other half was taken away from me.  My husband was an immigrant from England.  He was brought over when he was 9 years old.  His family never got him his paperwork.  So when we married, I filed...
    IrishEyes IrishEyes 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 20, 2007

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    I Blame It All On Me

    i remember when i first went out with my ex it all went smooth till prob 3 weeks and then he tried to go to the next step i wasn't ready for that specially since hes brother was in the same room so i told him i have to go so i ran upstairs grabbed my bag and left after that he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 6, 2011

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    Even Though I Know I Didn't Do It.

    It's so hard to get past the guilt of things gone wrong. Today I feel like I ruined everyones day....I asked to be left alone for a bit....that I just needed some space to deal....and he snapped at me and everyone else. He smashed the door and porch gate...he put a hole in the...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 29 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    Life Gone Wrong

    I feel somtimes the way my life has turned out is my fault if I would of went school when I was 18 instead of getting involved in things I should have not.  I was lost at 18.  Now I'm a mom with 2 amazing wonderful children 5 and 6 I feel like i'm letting them down...
    Babygirl1977 Babygirl1977 26-30, F Jan 8, 2010

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    I Was Abused......... Until I Reached The Bed

    I couldnt stop the abuse on myself inflicted by my family, and when things fell apart i blamed myself!
    HelenParis HelenParis 22-25 Mar 8, 2012

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    Idk.

    He said it's not my fault. I said it was. It's all because of my ****** up mind and my over emotional responses to absolutely everything. He said it's his fault. I said it wasn't.   He said no matter what it's not me this time. That's the one thing he wanted me to know...
    cookiecakes cookiecakes 18-21, F Oct 11, 2009

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    Gone Wrong

    If it is my fault, then I will blame myself.  If it is not my fault, I will not.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Sep 30, 2011

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    I Almost Lost My Arm From A Hena

    I went to Hong Kong Summer of 2012 for vacation as I've always loved my heritage and culture as a Chinese American. I spent the next 2 months staying with extended relatives and living with them. I spent everyday observing and interacting with people who live their lives vastly...
    bfung bfung 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 22, 2013

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    Why Can't I Be Better?

    I had a patient.  He was very ill, needy, rude, demanding, pushy, childish and immature, and generally sucked the life out of me anytime I had to deal with him.  He died today.  After a meeting with him and his son, he left, and by the time he got home he was in such severe...
    cedricsmom cedricsmom 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    My Friend

    My best friend has had a lot happen to her in the last few years and I've managed to blame myself for a whole lot of it. She was in a snowboarding accident a few years ago. I was the one who convinced her to go snowboarding that day. She and her boyfriend of 2 years reached a...
    BleedingMascara BleedingMascara 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    "my Colonscopy"

    A colonscopy is a piece of cake. Mmmmmmmmmmm,piece of cake. Im hungry, just kidding. I would have never jeopardized my colonscopy by introducing solids the day of Evacud to. Every dream, and i had many involved accidentally eating something i should'nt which meant ANYTHING. I did...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2011

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    I blame myself for my parents' divorce and the fact that they still have to talk to each other 12 years later to discuss my travel arrangements, because the divorce papers say that...
    PinkChocolate00 PinkChocolate00 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 25

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    I blame myself for all the pains and struggles I've been through in my life because at the end of the day I control what I allow, what I do, and how I handle things.
    ImJustANobody ImJustANobody 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 29

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    whenever people are unhappy, complaining, or angry I have a tendacy to always blame myself for not providing the right kind of happiness...I always think "it must be something I...
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 24

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    If my mom s feling down, litttle brother is mad, or anything else negative that happens to the people I care about the most, I feel like I'm to blame. I don't know...grew up...
    jellolia jellolia 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    I do, I need to NOT do this... :(
    LonelyRollingStar LonelyRollingStar 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 25

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    I am trying to prepare myself for my mother's death. I am not ready for my mother's death. She is 91 years old and my relationship with her is complicated one. Like Luke Skywalker...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 4 Responses Apr 24

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    I am saving myself for my wedding night. But oh my goodness i am getting impatient of trying to find that special someone let alone my wedding night.
    AmandaCroft AmandaCroft 18-21, F 48 Responses 4 days ago

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    the list of things I do that disappoint myself and those close to me continues to grow day by day-_-
    cartoonblankets cartoonblankets 18-21, M 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I'm so awesome at ******* up my life. Like, I want a reward. It comes so effortlessly for me. When things are finally going good, I find a way to **** everyone over and ruin it...
    PorcelainGrenade PorcelainGrenade 13-15, F May 12

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    My father. He truly thought I could grow into some similar to him. It breaks his heart knowing that I wont amount to what he thought many years ago. I was his dream, now I'm his...
    koolove101 koolove101 16-17, F 17 hrs ago

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    I just hate the thought that I am feeling so jealous. I know that I got no right for that, but the thought of him with someone, even talking and trying to know that someone, gives...
    nbsbgal nbsbgal 22-25, F Apr 26

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    Mind too busy. Msg in every cheap food. Statins as former meds. So. Not my fault.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 28

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    no one likes me, no one is there for me,...everyone thinks im some weird loser kid...prolly am... do i bother staying on this ****** up planet when legit no one wants me?...(hate...
    DaveEatsToast DaveEatsToast 13-15, M 1 Response May 5

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    when hell is a place burning inside you..but you long for the calm heaven which no where to be seen.. dear my Lord, I am desperately in need, for whatever mercy and kindness you...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i 70+, M 1 Response Apr 27

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    Yesterday I was at the bank, waiting to get some money out. There was a bit of a queue, but it was moving nicely. A woman joined the queue right behind me and proceeded to moan...
    SlushyAseSparkles SlushyAseSparkles 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 28

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    Soooo much. It's terrible. I wish I could stop feeling this way.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 13

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    If I just acted strong and had never trusted anyone, maybe I wouldn't be where I am now. I would have never trusted anyone and regretted it. Maybe I would be happier. I have...
    TiredOfBeingHurt TiredOfBeingHurt 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    So the other day I got invited to a party , yeah I was happy about it and pleased .... Only just to realise I got at text message saying' hey sorry some people at my party don't...
    mixedfellings mixedfellings 31-35, F 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    So, I got 3 C's in school this semester. Honors English, Honors Algebra 2, and Chemistry. I tried so hard to pull them up but failed to do so. My dad sees me as a total...
    koolove101 koolove101 16-17, F 17 hrs ago

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    My body is a prison. I hate every single inch of myself, and sometimes it's unbearable. I am such a disappointment to everyone, including myself, and I'm pretty sure my boyfriend...
    Mickkeyy Mickkeyy 18-21, F 2 Responses May 2

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    I can't believe what I did. I knew a wonderful girl, got really anxious about screwing the relationship 'till I screwed it 'cause of the anxiety itself. She tried to stay with me...
    MySelfIsAfterMe MySelfIsAfterMe 22-25, M 1 Response May 12

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    I feel alive when I can't sleep because of the burning scars -funny enough I punish myself for things other people did to me.
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F May 10

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    Well I guess this would be my first-est post since I've just signed up like seconds ago, or minutes. First and foremost, I am not a good writer but a good thinker I guess on some...
    sadsax21 sadsax21 18-21, F Apr 28

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    This became a longer story then I wanted to be, but its my story and I carry it with pride. I have always been a weirdo and I love myself for it. I am now in a point in my life...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    No matter what I do, I always mess things up. I feel like I can't do anything right. When something goes wrong, I usually blame myself. You name it, I've probably done it wrong.
    bananafrenchtoast bananafrenchtoast 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    words can never describe how much i hate myself. i don't blame anyone for not caring about me and no wonder why I always end up alone . how they shut me out and label me...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 2 Responses May 10

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