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I Blame Myself For Things Gone Wrong

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    The Chains Of Habit Are Generally Too Small To Be Felt Until They Are Too Strong To Be Broken

    Blame…. It is such an ugly word, yet I get blame piled on top of me on a daily basis. If I were to be able to make it through an entire day without being faulted for someone else’s problem, I do not know if I would even recognize my own life. Having the finger...
    TypicalPisces TypicalPisces 36-40, F Dec 7, 2010

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    I Almost Lost My Arm From A Hena

    I went to Hong Kong Summer of 2012 for vacation as I've always loved my heritage and culture as a Chinese American. I spent the next 2 months staying with extended relatives and living with them. I spent everyday observing and interacting with people who live their lives vastly...
    bfung bfung 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 22, 2013

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    Gone Wrong

    If it is my fault, then I will blame myself.  If it is not my fault, I will not.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Sep 30, 2011

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    Even Though I Know I Didn't Do It.

    It's so hard to get past the guilt of things gone wrong. Today I feel like I ruined everyones day....I asked to be left alone for a bit....that I just needed some space to deal....and he snapped at me and everyone else. He smashed the door and porch gate...he put a hole in the...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 29 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    Why Can't I Be Better?

    I had a patient.  He was very ill, needy, rude, demanding, pushy, childish and immature, and generally sucked the life out of me anytime I had to deal with him.  He died today.  After a meeting with him and his son, he left, and by the time he got home he was in such severe...
    cedricsmom cedricsmom 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    I Think Everything Is My Fault And Blame Myself For Everything

    I blame myself for anything that goes on around me, or that happens to the people around me. my dad left mom's favorite dish hanging off the table, the cat nocked it over, it broke, it was my cat must be my fault, and instantly i start shaking and wondering what the punishment...
    stoiccloset stoiccloset 18-21 1 Response Oct 11, 2009

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    It's Not The Victims Fault.

    yet we all blame ourselves. what if i did this, or did that. screamed louder? resisted more? told sooner? told at all? cried more? begged more? pleaded more? ran? hid? fought back? fought at all? what did i do? what didnt i do? why did this happen? what wrong have i done? truth...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F Dec 20, 2011

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    Life Gone Wrong

    I feel somtimes the way my life has turned out is my fault if I would of went school when I was 18 instead of getting involved in things I should have not.  I was lost at 18.  Now I'm a mom with 2 amazing wonderful children 5 and 6 I feel like i'm letting them down...
    Babygirl1977 Babygirl1977 26-30, F Jan 8, 2010

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    Where Did I Go Wrong In Life?

    hello please hear me out please.where do i start this is tough... ok I am 43 Male i live in Britain.I live with my Mother and her boyfriend who drive me mad (she is 63 i love her)but we clash and old people do become annoying yes?(they love life) i hate every minute of mine.I am...
    defoekeane defoekeane 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 2, 2013

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    He Died

    My dad died a year ago, and I sometimes feel like it's partially my fault. It started when he had the stroke in September. My mom had went to check on him in their room, and saw that he'd fallen out of bed and wasn't acting right. I went in to see, and realized it was likely a...
    SagesBabie SagesBabie 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2009

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    My Friend

    My best friend has had a lot happen to her in the last few years and I've managed to blame myself for a whole lot of it. She was in a snowboarding accident a few years ago. I was the one who convinced her to go snowboarding that day. She and her boyfriend of 2 years reached a...
    BleedingMascara BleedingMascara 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    I Was Abused......... Until I Reached The Bed

    I couldnt stop the abuse on myself inflicted by my family, and when things fell apart i blamed myself!
    HelenParis HelenParis 22-25 Mar 8, 2012

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    Idk.

    He said it's not my fault. I said it was. It's all because of my ****** up mind and my over emotional responses to absolutely everything. He said it's his fault. I said it wasn't.   He said no matter what it's not me this time. That's the one thing he wanted me to know...
    cookiecakes cookiecakes 18-21, F Oct 11, 2009

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    Life Fell Apart...

    April 1st 2007 - My life came crashing down around me.  My other half was taken away from me.  My husband was an immigrant from England.  He was brought over when he was 9 years old.  His family never got him his paperwork.  So when we married, I filed...
    IrishEyes IrishEyes 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 20, 2007

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    "my Colonscopy"

    A colonscopy is a piece of cake. Mmmmmmmmmmm,piece of cake. Im hungry, just kidding. I would have never jeopardized my colonscopy by introducing solids the day of Evacud to. Every dream, and i had many involved accidentally eating something i should'nt which meant ANYTHING. I did...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2011

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    I Blame It All On Me

    i remember when i first went out with my ex it all went smooth till prob 3 weeks and then he tried to go to the next step i wasn't ready for that specially since hes brother was in the same room so i told him i have to go so i ran upstairs grabbed my bag and left after that he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 6, 2011

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    My parents are divorced for almost 12 Years now. The reason for their divorce is that my father is a very unpredictibal person. One moment he jokes around the other moment he...
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    I've fought with my depression since i was 5 years old, but never really understood it till i was 8 years old. since then I've been battling myself with multiple mental illnesses...
    kelsey1426 kelsey1426 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    Ever since I was born its been the same thing God is everything and everything we do must adhere to rules that were written 1200 years ago. My parents especially my mom believes...
    lifefuckingsuck lifefuckingsuck 13-15 20 hrs ago

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    Like how today I feel it's all just so unfair. That you will get to move on and start a whole new life and I will be picking up the pieces of a broken family. How I'm going to be...
    sp7799 sp7799 36-40, F 9 Responses 2 days ago

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    It feels so ******* bad...especially after you've spoiled a relationship and you're the only one that's in love. I can't stop thinking of what I could've done to make it better...I...
    Kbrabbit Kbrabbit 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    {{4:56AM}} So much about me is so f*cked up. Most things I can never tell people because it's so personal.~ I need to better myself for me and if I want to live the life I truly...
    xMellowButterflyx xMellowButterflyx 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    And honestly, I don't like it... Deep in the inside, I know it's better to just accept that I'm not nice at all, which is how I've seen myself as for a long time now. I know as...
    Sil833 Sil833 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My heart is filled with hate for myself, I hate everything about me. I am weak , I am a ******* failure, I am nothing, I am useless, I am everything my mother said I would be . I...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I work in a dept with a staff of 40. I'm the only male there. Its always my fault!
    Mossonarock Mossonarock 41-45, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have been blamed for a lot of stuff. I don't mind taking the blame when I do something wrong, but I been blamed for others actions (as if I have control over what others do).
    vovine123 vovine123 41-45, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    what a wonderful feeling so free such happy days.
    ftx1 ftx1 51-55, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Hello and welcome to my second post. Those who already know me know I hate god and that is true. What a lot of people don't know is that for 40 years I was a warrior and defender...
    DGA2000 DGA2000 61-65 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    hymn of nothingness oh i have serve feels like eternity to feel...joy and sadness illuminate my path with darkness and nothingness away from all this madness unite me with...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M a week ago

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    Just about the time I think I have everything in my life under control, I realize I don't, not really. Then I begin to think about why I don't. That leads me to a thinking of a...
    comeonletsgo comeonletsgo 61-65, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Some time ago I promised myself I wouldn't cut myself with a knife anymore. Last night I broke that promise. According to my promise this means I have a problem with cutting. I...
    jsualmtha jsualmtha 18-21, F Aug 23

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    You can not blame anybody for the actions you commit. Everything you do in life is your choice. When you screw up the best thing to do is suck it up and raise your hand and admit...
    GenuineGentlman86 GenuineGentlman86 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    My dad is the type that if everything isn't his way and exactly that, he'll freak out. Like, he will start screaming and yelling (He even hit my mother in the past) and will be...
    asnowflakeinthemiddleofjuly asnowflakeinthemiddleofjuly 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 22

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    today I think I made the biggest mistake of my life apologizing to my older brother. about 3months ago I was applying for a scholarship to fund my tuition and needed a reference...
    ALifeInterupted ALifeInterupted 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    over and over and over again. I don't want to think about this. screaming and yelling and pain over and over again. rotten deep within,build up your walls again.over and over and...
    catacomb catacomb 66-70 Aug 21

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    I used to be bullied a lot back in school because I was the nerd archetype who always got A's and was always a good student...they are rude to you one minute and want to be your...
    Beerus Beerus 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    I'm not gonna waste my time and energy on something not worth it. iv realised it now that nothing is as important as how I feel within. everyone thinks they can take advantage n il...
    passingby123 passingby123 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 20

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    Yes, hope you find someone who will not hurt u. Unlike me, I made u sad all the time.
    Lexis91 Lexis91 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    There are moments in my life recently where I'm disappointed in myself. At 35 I was set financially, loved my career although it didn't allow for much personal time, family time or...
    cacutie3 cacutie3 36-40, F Aug 17

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    Yeah... I miss her deeply today and I just want to cry its very hard to deal with her not being here. I was supposed to be there for her but I was too late she was already gone...
    TeenmommyNikki TeenmommyNikki 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    I have lost so many dear friends. Some for me being gay, some because I wasn't attractive enough to advance to romance, and so on. All of the flawed cogs in these relationship...
    beautifulbizarre beautifulbizarre 16-17, F Aug 16

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