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I Blame Myself For Things Gone Wrong

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    He Died

    My dad died a year ago, and I sometimes feel like it's partially my fault. It started when he had the stroke in September. My mom had went to check on him in their room, and saw that he'd fallen out of bed and wasn't acting right. I went in to see, and realized it was likely a...
    SagesBabie SagesBabie 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2009

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    Life Gone Wrong

    I feel somtimes the way my life has turned out is my fault if I would of went school when I was 18 instead of getting involved in things I should have not.  I was lost at 18.  Now I'm a mom with 2 amazing wonderful children 5 and 6 I feel like i'm letting them down...
    Babygirl1977 Babygirl1977 26-30, F Jan 8, 2010

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    Idk.

    He said it's not my fault. I said it was. It's all because of my ****** up mind and my over emotional responses to absolutely everything. He said it's his fault. I said it wasn't.   He said no matter what it's not me this time. That's the one thing he wanted me to know...
    cookiecakes cookiecakes 18-21, F Oct 11, 2009

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    I Was Abused......... Until I Reached The Bed

    I couldnt stop the abuse on myself inflicted by my family, and when things fell apart i blamed myself!
    HelenParis HelenParis 22-25 Mar 8, 2012

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    "my Colonscopy"

    A colonscopy is a piece of cake. Mmmmmmmmmmm,piece of cake. Im hungry, just kidding. I would have never jeopardized my colonscopy by introducing solids the day of Evacud to. Every dream, and i had many involved accidentally eating something i should'nt which meant ANYTHING. I did...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2011

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    I Blame It All On Me

    i remember when i first went out with my ex it all went smooth till prob 3 weeks and then he tried to go to the next step i wasn't ready for that specially since hes brother was in the same room so i told him i have to go so i ran upstairs grabbed my bag and left after that he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 6, 2011

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    The Chains Of Habit Are Generally Too Small To Be Felt Until They Are Too Strong To Be Broken

    Blame…. It is such an ugly word, yet I get blame piled on top of me on a daily basis. If I were to be able to make it through an entire day without being faulted for someone else’s problem, I do not know if I would even recognize my own life. Having the finger...
    TypicalPisces TypicalPisces 36-40, F Dec 7, 2010

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    Life Fell Apart...

    April 1st 2007 - My life came crashing down around me.  My other half was taken away from me.  My husband was an immigrant from England.  He was brought over when he was 9 years old.  His family never got him his paperwork.  So when we married, I filed...
    IrishEyes IrishEyes 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 20, 2007

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    My Friend

    My best friend has had a lot happen to her in the last few years and I've managed to blame myself for a whole lot of it. She was in a snowboarding accident a few years ago. I was the one who convinced her to go snowboarding that day. She and her boyfriend of 2 years reached a...
    BleedingMascara BleedingMascara 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    Where Did I Go Wrong In Life?

    hello please hear me out please.where do i start this is tough... ok I am 43 Male i live in Britain.I live with my Mother and her boyfriend who drive me mad (she is 63 i love her)but we clash and old people do become annoying yes?(they love life) i hate every minute of mine.I am...
    defoekeane defoekeane 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 2, 2013

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    I Think Everything Is My Fault And Blame Myself For Everything

    I blame myself for anything that goes on around me, or that happens to the people around me. my dad left mom's favorite dish hanging off the table, the cat nocked it over, it broke, it was my cat must be my fault, and instantly i start shaking and wondering what the punishment...
    stoiccloset stoiccloset 18-21 1 Response Oct 11, 2009

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    It's Not The Victims Fault.

    yet we all blame ourselves. what if i did this, or did that. screamed louder? resisted more? told sooner? told at all? cried more? begged more? pleaded more? ran? hid? fought back? fought at all? what did i do? what didnt i do? why did this happen? what wrong have i done? truth...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F Dec 20, 2011

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    Gone Wrong

    If it is my fault, then I will blame myself.  If it is not my fault, I will not.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Sep 30, 2011

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    I Almost Lost My Arm From A Hena

    I went to Hong Kong Summer of 2012 for vacation as I've always loved my heritage and culture as a Chinese American. I spent the next 2 months staying with extended relatives and living with them. I spent everyday observing and interacting with people who live their lives vastly...
    bfung bfung 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 22, 2013

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    Even Though I Know I Didn't Do It.

    It's so hard to get past the guilt of things gone wrong. Today I feel like I ruined everyones day....I asked to be left alone for a bit....that I just needed some space to deal....and he snapped at me and everyone else. He smashed the door and porch gate...he put a hole in the...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 29 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    Why Can't I Be Better?

    I had a patient.  He was very ill, needy, rude, demanding, pushy, childish and immature, and generally sucked the life out of me anytime I had to deal with him.  He died today.  After a meeting with him and his son, he left, and by the time he got home he was in such severe...
    cedricsmom cedricsmom 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    Every time I get in a dispute with my mom about my dad. She always goes on and on about if everyone would have stayed out of her business, she probably wouldn't have married him...
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    I keep wishing I'll meet someone who gives the time to get to know me, someone who has the desire to understand me, someone who's interested in my views on life, someone who makes...
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    Alcohol seems to be a problem for me at the moment. I'll have a drink during the week nothing to heavy but ok the weekends I've been terrible. Last night I went out with friends...
    Toon009 Toon009 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I decided to stop judging myself .. I've been doing it a lot and I think that what keeps my experience with my x-best friend still painful and hanged on. Now on .. whenever I see...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Not being confident enough to express how I feel, open up an idea, share an opinion, set my boundaries. Feels friggin weak huh? I do hate this part of myself and it does get to me...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    So my first love is amazing. she is the type of girl that goes well with me... the only thing is she refuses to see it. the first time we only were able to talk through texting. i...
    mrblue717 mrblue717 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    You want me to be honest ? I did love you I loved you more than anything I don't care if you felt the same or no. Or, if you were ******* with someone else. I really don't care...
    bouchraessadik bouchraessadik 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It was 4 years back when i wanted to conquer the world. I started drawing as a kid and at 12 discovered my artistic abilities when i would create something and be appreciated for...
    Bllahblah Bllahblah 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    in this prison where lucky ones think they're free i try to escape just to feel what would be like to be one...far from this condition just finding my own patterns of...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    feel so destroyed i always expected this...that it will fade away this illusion i cherish...i lived in..for some bright moments in my life i was ready to give all...never taken...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I've asked this to myself for the past 5 years. sometimes I wish faking your death was possible somehow, like an actual wake & funeral. just to see the effect. & I would totally...
    itllkillme itllkillme 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    1.I choose the 50 things challenge because I am not in the mood to complete the 100 one. 2.I can be extremely bitter and cold in certain situations in the same time very...
    FreidaAdler FreidaAdler 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Day 5: 1) Stumbling but not falling. 2) Chia seeds added yummy flavor to my power juices. 3) Raspberry flavour lipgloss. . . I blame this for my lip tugging, lip chewing...
    Strawberrygiggles Strawberrygiggles 41-45, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    It's a bit of a read. But it's a tiny part of the last 4 years: I was only 17 when I fell in love. It happened very unexpectedly and fast that I wasn't entirely sure what was...
    AlexR94 AlexR94 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I **** up so many ******* times. I hate it I can't even pleasure my own transgender boyfriend because I will feel like a 40+ year old sexually touching a 15 Year old and I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    precious hate running through our veins...our child we loved..and created in us feeding it more everyday...knowing more and breeding more...in the graveyard of soul it's so...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I just realized I still have one section of my summer assignments to complete
    smarchy17 smarchy17 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    I'm working for years on a book called Conscious Living, but it's taking me so long because I have collected so many pieces of texts I have written myself, basically things I have...
    AngelicLights AngelicLights 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    Here I am on this journey ordained by God, the spiritual path that will lead to many things of benefits to others and myself. For years I have grown wiser, stronger, more...
    QuietFreedom QuietFreedom 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 26

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    I talk to myself all the time, it's a daily thing. I don't spend a great deal of time around people anymore. I feel I paid my face to face talking dues in my last job s I tend to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 26

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    Warning this is a rant about how much I hate my life. All the way through middle school I was bullied and to cope with that I cut my self....a lot. I also attempted suicide and...
    shybutfunky shybutfunky 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 25

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    I have been thinking that my only problem is me. That i need to get out of my own ******* way. once and for all. I have realised lately through working in a hospital and seeing a...
    ackleholic ackleholic 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25

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    I just opened my browser to search for something but for the life of me I couldn't remember what?!!!
    marvelchic88 marvelchic88 26-30, F Jul 25

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    okay so once again my so called boyfriend is blaming me for something I swear he blames me for everything I'm getting so tired of it actually I'm not getting tired of it I am tired...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    My situation is pretty much like others here. 27 years ago, I was in an abusive relationship when I found out I was pregnant with my son. It wasn't until then that I realized his...
    SharonanJay SharonanJay 46-50, F Jul 25

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    emotional clearing is a gateway to the next level of development on the individual basis it seems. since yesterday; being emotionally triggered revealed many things perhaps i was...
    Solongotgon Solongotgon 26-30, F Jul 24

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    Even though i have some others tell me how good of a person I am, it's hard because I see so many other people in life who are truly happy. Who have not let life bring them down. I...
    EternityF EternityF 26-30, F Jul 24

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