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I Blame Myself For Things Gone Wrong

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    Why Can't I Be Better?

    I had a patient.  He was very ill, needy, rude, demanding, pushy, childish and immature, and generally sucked the life out of me anytime I had to deal with him.  He died today.  After a meeting with him and his son, he left, and by the time he got home he was in such severe...
    cedricsmom cedricsmom 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    My Friend

    My best friend has had a lot happen to her in the last few years and I've managed to blame myself for a whole lot of it. She was in a snowboarding accident a few years ago. I was the one who convinced her to go snowboarding that day. She and her boyfriend of 2 years reached a...
    BleedingMascara BleedingMascara 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    Gone Wrong

    If it is my fault, then I will blame myself.  If it is not my fault, I will not.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Sep 30, 2011

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    Idk.

    He said it's not my fault. I said it was. It's all because of my ****** up mind and my over emotional responses to absolutely everything. He said it's his fault. I said it wasn't.   He said no matter what it's not me this time. That's the one thing he wanted me to know...
    cookiecakes cookiecakes 18-21, F Oct 11, 2009

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    He Died

    My dad died a year ago, and I sometimes feel like it's partially my fault. It started when he had the stroke in September. My mom had went to check on him in their room, and saw that he'd fallen out of bed and wasn't acting right. I went in to see, and realized it was likely a...
    SagesBabie SagesBabie 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2009

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    The Chains Of Habit Are Generally Too Small To Be Felt Until They Are Too Strong To Be Broken

    Blame…. It is such an ugly word, yet I get blame piled on top of me on a daily basis. If I were to be able to make it through an entire day without being faulted for someone else’s problem, I do not know if I would even recognize my own life. Having the finger...
    TypicalPisces TypicalPisces 31-35, F Dec 7, 2010

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    Life Fell Apart...

    April 1st 2007 - My life came crashing down around me.  My other half was taken away from me.  My husband was an immigrant from England.  He was brought over when he was 9 years old.  His family never got him his paperwork.  So when we married, I filed...
    IrishEyes IrishEyes 21-25, F 4 Responses Sep 20, 2007

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    I Was Abused......... Until I Reached The Bed

    I couldnt stop the abuse on myself inflicted by my family, and when things fell apart i blamed myself!
    HelenParis HelenParis 22-25 Mar 8, 2012

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    It's Not The Victims Fault.

    yet we all blame ourselves. what if i did this, or did that. screamed louder? resisted more? told sooner? told at all? cried more? begged more? pleaded more? ran? hid? fought back? fought at all? what did i do? what didnt i do? why did this happen? what wrong have i done? truth...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F Dec 20, 2011

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    I Blame It All On Me

    i remember when i first went out with my ex it all went smooth till prob 3 weeks and then he tried to go to the next step i wasn't ready for that specially since hes brother was in the same room so i told him i have to go so i ran upstairs grabbed my bag and left after that he...
    meaglouait meaglouait 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 6, 2011

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    Where Did I Go Wrong In Life?

    hello please hear me out please.where do i start this is tough... ok I am 43 Male i live in Britain.I live with my Mother and her boyfriend who drive me mad (she is 63 i love her)but we clash and old people do become annoying yes?(they love life) i hate every minute of mine.I am...
    defoekeane defoekeane 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    Even Though I Know I Didn't Do It.

    It's so hard to get past the guilt of things gone wrong. Today I feel like I ruined everyones day....I asked to be left alone for a bit....that I just needed some space to deal....and he snapped at me and everyone else. He smashed the door and porch gate...he put a hole in the...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 29 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    Life Gone Wrong

    I feel somtimes the way my life has turned out is my fault if I would of went school when I was 18 instead of getting involved in things I should have not.  I was lost at 18.  Now I'm a mom with 2 amazing wonderful children 5 and 6 I feel like i'm letting them down...
    Babygirl1977 Babygirl1977 26-30, F Jan 8, 2010

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    I Think Everything Is My Fault And Blame Myself For Everything

    I blame myself for anything that goes on around me, or that happens to the people around me. my dad left mom's favorite dish hanging off the table, the cat nocked it over, it broke, it was my cat must be my fault, and instantly i start shaking and wondering what the punishment...
    stoiccloset stoiccloset 18-21 1 Response Oct 11, 2009

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    I Almost Lost My Arm From A Hena

    I went to Hong Kong Summer of 2012 for vacation as I've always loved my heritage and culture as a Chinese American. I spent the next 2 months staying with extended relatives and living with them. I spent everyday observing and interacting with people who live their lives vastly...
    bfung bfung 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 22, 2013

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    "my Colonscopy"

    A colonscopy is a piece of cake. Mmmmmmmmmmm,piece of cake. Im hungry, just kidding. I would have never jeopardized my colonscopy by introducing solids the day of Evacud to. Every dream, and i had many involved accidentally eating something i should'nt which meant ANYTHING. I did...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Apr 24, 2011

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    I have had this problem for a long time now... I have been working on it but I can't help but believe my actions are the cause for most (not all) things, however small, that go...
    ranchlife14 ranchlife14 18-21, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    My husband and I been having problems just got married not to long ago we'll he has a drinking problem and when he's sober where so happy together n he drinks we still do good...
    Undercoverdarkness Undercoverdarkness 22-25 2 Responses Oct 23

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    I don't hate myself and I don't love you but I'm not happy with myself for coming back to you. You give me reasons to leave but I can't bring myself to give up on you.
    HappyHart5 HappyHart5 16-17, F Nov 4

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    "When someone walks away from you, it's not the end of your story. It's the end of their part in your story." "It may seem as the hardest thing in the world, but you have to...
    sunnywinter sunnywinter 41-45, F 9 hrs ago

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    I have changed my number so my stupid professor can't be able to communicate with me anymore.  I can't tell if I'm happy that I did that because I will be able to check A7mad's...
    unknown159231 unknown159231 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I protect myself so heavily that I never let anything out. It's like I just can't talk to people because I truly don't trust that they'll keep it to themselves. I even suspect this...
    SheIsBroken SheIsBroken 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Look I know we are coworkers and I am supposed to be giving my all and know I am not. I have been working less hard every day. And I now realize what you have been doing to cover...
    andrew1512 andrew1512 18-21, M Nov 15

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    IF my sis provide financial support for me, I can end up founding new web and global good distribution company which may benefit - I don't know how many, but perhaps enough to...
    ZADoubleMesser ZADoubleMesser 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    It's almost Christmas and I am getting a divorce
    phoenixprincess phoenixprincess 70+, F 16 Responses Nov 8

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    http://www.wsps.info/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=84%3Atreating-morbid-obsessions&catid=0%3A&Itemid=64 This article written by a doctor gave me insights to why I...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F Oct 25

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    i'm loosing all my hope and i'm just suffering. i barely leave my bed and i'm failing at school and i'm fighting the thought of death all the time
    TheFatGuy TheFatGuy 16-17, M Oct 29

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    It's been almost two weeks now since I anything I'm not supposed to. No drugs, no alcohol, no petty crime. Two more weeks of this and I can get a job. That would mean I could move...
    Lay1a Lay1a 18-21, F Nov 3

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    I don't want to. I never meant to. It hurts every day. You love her more than me. She doesn't see it. She gets to hold you, to kiss you, to be with you yet she chooses not to...
    nikolasmom nikolasmom 36-40 Nov 4

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    I've been really depressed lately....really depressed. There doesn't seem to be a reason behind it. I have no one to go to about it either. My mom "doesn't want another mentally...
    Ryanppax Ryanppax 18-21, M a week ago

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    It's makes me feel very stupid. I wish I never met him.
    PumpkinPieXOXO PumpkinPieXOXO 22-25, F 3 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I'm glad I met him, gives me the motivation to prove that I can and will be something.
    Angela5398 Angela5398 16-17, F 23 hrs ago

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    Him? I don't even think he's capable of being a human and thinking of others. It was all about you and what you wanted.
    DiamondNikki12 DiamondNikki12 18-21, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    1.i am a mother 2. I am a hunter/fisher 3.i ride hoses 4.i am bi 5.i am allergic to avocados,lobster,tea,sun screen,bug spray,hairspray,wool,red dye 5, milk,coffee beans,grass...
    username9889 username9889 16-17, F 17 hrs ago

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    I have hated myself for as long as I can rememeber it may appeared that I was in love with myself. But that was all part of my act. I loathe myself for a lot of different reasons...
    xdarkangelx666 xdarkangelx666 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I just really hate everything I am, and all the things I have done. I'm so fat, and if I was dead other people could benefit from the food and drink that I consume more than I do...
    Cazjarvo Cazjarvo 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 24

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    I believe in God, but not as one thing, not as an old man in the sky. I believe that what people call God is something in all of us. I believe that what Jesus and Mohammed and all...
    meez1010 meez1010 22-25, M 13 hrs ago

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    I just...I don't know what to do anymore it's been so long since we last talked, the last time i saw him was last month when my friend Zira died. It's been over a month. Eric and...
    AriaDream AriaDream 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 31

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    Waiting for a message to come Perhaps my words have grown old I want to know where things went wrong. Gone now are the words back and forth Just the message here and gone I want...
    Tragicmagicme Tragicmagicme 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 28

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    Uncertainty...this is the one thing that I don't know how to cope with. I've been living with my boyfriend for the past 3 years and I must say I have never seen more unstable...
    LorelaiSky LorelaiSky 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 1

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    When I was a kid, I got a spanking by one of my favorite teachers. I had known this teacher since I started high school and she knew that I was a good kid at heart. But, my junior...
    JustApassengerinlife JustApassengerinlife 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 27

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    Things have been going pretty unsmooth as of late. My dog died, my mother relapsed into her alcoholism, my father and sister are going away for the holidays (for the first time...
    jennazan jennazan 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    I try to practice mindfulness. I go for walks, but I'm in tears after fifteen minutes from the pain in my joints. I focus on my breathing, but my chest feels tight; I can't get...
    SimiRayea SimiRayea 22-25, T 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I will never ever forgive myself for letting you go. Never. I'll have to live the rest of my life with a missing piece in my chest.
    sproetje sproetje 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    Yes I do wonder if anyone will miss me. I came from a wonderful loving family and was the oldest of six children. I had great parents who were there for me as a kid, and as an...
    kwzorek64 kwzorek64 61-65, F Nov 3

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    Mine died. He destroyed my self esteem. My self confidence is gone. He took it with him when he died. He can't answer for all the **** he put me through. I blame him for my...
    UnfortunateCookie UnfortunateCookie 36-40, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    About three months ago I went on a couple dates with this guy and eventually I ended up spending the night at his house. I told him that I could not have sex with him unless we...
    Tucker2013 Tucker2013 22-25, F Nov 2

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