I Blame Myself For Things Gone Wrong

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    My Friend

    My best friend has had a lot happen to her in the last few years and I've managed to blame myself for a whole lot of it. She was in a snowboarding accident a few years ago. I was the one who convinced her to go snowboarding that day. She and her boyfriend of 2 years reached a...
    BleedingMascara BleedingMascara
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 15, 2008

    He Died

    My dad died a year ago, and I sometimes feel like it's partially my fault. It started when he had the stroke in September. My mom had went to check on him in their room, and saw that he'd fallen out of bed and wasn't acting right. I went in to see, and realized it was likely a...
    SagesBabie SagesBabie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2009

    Even Though I Know I Didn't Do It.

    It's so hard to get past the guilt of things gone wrong. Today I feel like I ruined everyones day....I asked to be left alone for a bit....that I just needed some space to deal....and he snapped at me and everyone else. He smashed the door and porch gate...he put a hole in the...
    luckypickle luckypickle
    26-30
    29 Responses Nov 15, 2009

    Idk.

    He said it's not my fault. I said it was. It's all because of my ****** up mind and my over emotional responses to absolutely everything. He said it's his fault. I said it wasn't.   He said no matter what it's not me this time. That's the one thing he wanted me to know...
    cookiecakes cookiecakes
    18-21, F
    Oct 11, 2009

    It's Not The Victims Fault.

    yet we all blame ourselves. what if i did this, or did that. screamed louder? resisted more? told sooner? told at all? cried more? begged more? pleaded more? ran? hid? fought back? fought at all? what did i do? what didnt i do? why did this happen? what wrong have i done? truth...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme
    18-21, F
    Dec 20, 2011

    The Chains Of Habit Are Generally Too Small To Be Felt Until They Are Too Strong To Be Broken

    Blame…. It is such an ugly word, yet I get blame piled on top of me on a daily basis. If I were to be able to make it through an entire day without being faulted for someone else’s problem, I do not know if I would even recognize my own life. Having the finger...
    TypicalPisces TypicalPisces
    36-40, F
    Dec 7, 2010

    I Was Abused......... Until I Reached The Bed

    I couldnt stop the abuse on myself inflicted by my family, and when things fell apart i blamed myself!
    HelenParis HelenParis
    22-25
    Mar 8, 2012

    "my Colonscopy"

    A colonscopy is a piece of cake. Mmmmmmmmmmm,piece of cake. Im hungry, just kidding. I would have never jeopardized my colonscopy by introducing solids the day of Evacud to. Every dream, and i had many involved accidentally eating something i should'nt which meant ANYTHING. I did...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2011

    I Blame It All On Me

    i remember when i first went out with my ex it all went smooth till prob 3 weeks and then he tried to go to the next step i wasn't ready for that specially since hes brother was in the same room so i told him i have to go so i ran upstairs grabbed my bag and left after that he...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 6, 2011

    Gone Wrong

    If it is my fault, then I will blame myself.  If it is not my fault, I will not.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    Sep 30, 2011

    I Almost Lost My Arm From A Hena

    I went to Hong Kong Summer of 2012 for vacation as I've always loved my heritage and culture as a Chinese American. I spent the next 2 months staying with extended relatives and living with them. I spent everyday observing and interacting with people who live their lives vastly...
    bfung bfung
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 22, 2013

    Why Can't I Be Better?

    I had a patient.  He was very ill, needy, rude, demanding, pushy, childish and immature, and generally sucked the life out of me anytime I had to deal with him.  He died today.  After a meeting with him and his son, he left, and by the time he got home he was in such severe...
    cedricsmom cedricsmom
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jun 7, 2011

    Where Did I Go Wrong In Life?

    hello please hear me out please.where do i start this is tough... ok I am 43 Male i live in Britain.I live with my Mother and her boyfriend who drive me mad (she is 63 i love her)but we clash and old people do become annoying yes?(they love life) i hate every minute of mine.I am...
    defoekeane defoekeane
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 2, 2013

    Life Gone Wrong

    I feel somtimes the way my life has turned out is my fault if I would of went school when I was 18 instead of getting involved in things I should have not.  I was lost at 18.  Now I'm a mom with 2 amazing wonderful children 5 and 6 I feel like i'm letting them down...
    Babygirl1977 Babygirl1977
    26-30, F
    Jan 8, 2010

    I Think Everything Is My Fault And Blame Myself For Everything

    I blame myself for anything that goes on around me, or that happens to the people around me. my dad left mom's favorite dish hanging off the table, the cat nocked it over, it broke, it was my cat must be my fault, and instantly i start shaking and wondering what the punishment...
    stoiccloset stoiccloset
    18-21
    1 Response Oct 11, 2009

    Life Fell Apart...

    April 1st 2007 - My life came crashing down around me.  My other half was taken away from me.  My husband was an immigrant from England.  He was brought over when he was 9 years old.  His family never got him his paperwork.  So when we married, I filed...
    IrishEyes IrishEyes
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 20, 2007

    everything comes down to my own choices.

    things i did or did not do or say. i chose.... i dont blame anyone for my choices. i know that when i keep making the same choices its my fault. when i smoked it was me and not phillip Morris fault. if i drink, its me and not capt morgan. if i speed, its me and not yamaha...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    1 Response Sep 29, 2015

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