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I Blame Myself For Things Gone Wrong

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    It's Not The Victims Fault.

    yet we all blame ourselves. what if i did this, or did that. screamed louder? resisted more? told sooner? told at all? cried more? begged more? pleaded more? ran? hid? fought back? fought at all? what did i do? what didnt i do? why did this happen? what wrong have i done? truth...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F Dec 20, 2011

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    My Friend

    My best friend has had a lot happen to her in the last few years and I've managed to blame myself for a whole lot of it. She was in a snowboarding accident a few years ago. I was the one who convinced her to go snowboarding that day. She and her boyfriend of 2 years reached a...
    BleedingMascara BleedingMascara 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 15, 2008

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    The Chains Of Habit Are Generally Too Small To Be Felt Until They Are Too Strong To Be Broken

    Blame…. It is such an ugly word, yet I get blame piled on top of me on a daily basis. If I were to be able to make it through an entire day without being faulted for someone else’s problem, I do not know if I would even recognize my own life. Having the finger...
    TypicalPisces TypicalPisces 36-40, F Dec 7, 2010

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    Life Gone Wrong

    I feel somtimes the way my life has turned out is my fault if I would of went school when I was 18 instead of getting involved in things I should have not.  I was lost at 18.  Now I'm a mom with 2 amazing wonderful children 5 and 6 I feel like i'm letting them down...
    Babygirl1977 Babygirl1977 26-30, F Jan 8, 2010

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    I Was Abused......... Until I Reached The Bed

    I couldnt stop the abuse on myself inflicted by my family, and when things fell apart i blamed myself!
    HelenParis HelenParis 22-25 Mar 8, 2012

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    I Almost Lost My Arm From A Hena

    I went to Hong Kong Summer of 2012 for vacation as I've always loved my heritage and culture as a Chinese American. I spent the next 2 months staying with extended relatives and living with them. I spent everyday observing and interacting with people who live their lives vastly...
    bfung bfung 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 22, 2013

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    He Died

    My dad died a year ago, and I sometimes feel like it's partially my fault. It started when he had the stroke in September. My mom had went to check on him in their room, and saw that he'd fallen out of bed and wasn't acting right. I went in to see, and realized it was likely a...
    SagesBabie SagesBabie 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2009

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    Where Did I Go Wrong In Life?

    hello please hear me out please.where do i start this is tough... ok I am 43 Male i live in Britain.I live with my Mother and her boyfriend who drive me mad (she is 63 i love her)but we clash and old people do become annoying yes?(they love life) i hate every minute of mine.I am...
    defoekeane defoekeane 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 2, 2013

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    Idk.

    He said it's not my fault. I said it was. It's all because of my ****** up mind and my over emotional responses to absolutely everything. He said it's his fault. I said it wasn't.   He said no matter what it's not me this time. That's the one thing he wanted me to know...
    cookiecakes cookiecakes 18-21, F Oct 11, 2009

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    "my Colonscopy"

    A colonscopy is a piece of cake. Mmmmmmmmmmm,piece of cake. Im hungry, just kidding. I would have never jeopardized my colonscopy by introducing solids the day of Evacud to. Every dream, and i had many involved accidentally eating something i should'nt which meant ANYTHING. I did...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2011

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    Why Can't I Be Better?

    I had a patient.  He was very ill, needy, rude, demanding, pushy, childish and immature, and generally sucked the life out of me anytime I had to deal with him.  He died today.  After a meeting with him and his son, he left, and by the time he got home he was in such severe...
    cedricsmom cedricsmom 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 7, 2011

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    Life Fell Apart...

    April 1st 2007 - My life came crashing down around me.  My other half was taken away from me.  My husband was an immigrant from England.  He was brought over when he was 9 years old.  His family never got him his paperwork.  So when we married, I filed...
    IrishEyes IrishEyes 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 20, 2007

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    Even Though I Know I Didn't Do It.

    It's so hard to get past the guilt of things gone wrong. Today I feel like I ruined everyones day....I asked to be left alone for a bit....that I just needed some space to deal....and he snapped at me and everyone else. He smashed the door and porch gate...he put a hole in the...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 29 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    Gone Wrong

    If it is my fault, then I will blame myself.  If it is not my fault, I will not.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F Sep 30, 2011

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    I Blame It All On Me

    i remember when i first went out with my ex it all went smooth till prob 3 weeks and then he tried to go to the next step i wasn't ready for that specially since hes brother was in the same room so i told him i have to go so i ran upstairs grabbed my bag and left after that he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 6, 2011

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    I Think Everything Is My Fault And Blame Myself For Everything

    I blame myself for anything that goes on around me, or that happens to the people around me. my dad left mom's favorite dish hanging off the table, the cat nocked it over, it broke, it was my cat must be my fault, and instantly i start shaking and wondering what the punishment...
    stoiccloset stoiccloset 18-21 1 Response Oct 11, 2009

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    Your birthday is coming up soon... and tonight part of me wonders what I should do. I know you'll think I've abandoned you if I don't contact you that day... But I hope you'll...
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    I am working on myself I have just figured out that I have never truly loved myself. Each day now I am loving myself and things are looking up. It's been hard to look at yourself...
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    Wow. Just. Wow. I'm still a little shocked at myself. I wonder if he is too... He made me mad, you see. Not like it's the first time he's made me mad in 15 years, of course...
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    In my family people dont mind if in smart or virtuous but as soon as i care for my appearance they throw fits. If i have friends they throw fits. If i have a bf or start dating...
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    I've done this countless times but always go back to food and I absolutely hate myself for this. I wish I could starve myself because I want to be skinny, as skinny as a corpse...
    brokenxwings0 brokenxwings0 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    And then I blame myself for doing so.
    illjay illjay 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I know this because of the damage theve done to me. Since they hurt me i lash out at people and say hurtful things to people. Then i feel angry at myself for hurting said people...
    Lalaloopsiebabe Lalaloopsiebabe 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    Today has miserable weather, but the positive thing is it is easier to wear a slightly padded bra under my raincoat. So I slipped on a lovely pink bra, matching panties, and gave...
    julia09 julia09 56-60, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I stopped at a roadside produce stand this morning while running errands. Peaches, yellow squash, nectarines, watermelon and cantaloupe! Home grown and fresh from the garden. I...
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 11 Responses 5 days ago

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    Killingcasper Killingcasper 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    1. I want to work in another country for a year 2. I am Portuguese and Italian 3. I am a avid pot smoker 4. I love singing and dancing 5. I enjoy writing and poetry 6. I was born...
    VibratingPositivity VibratingPositivity 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    1. I want to work in another country for a year 2. I am Portuguese and Italian 3. I am a avid pot smoker 4. I love singing and dancing 5. I enjoy writing and poetry 6. I was born...
    VibratingPositivity VibratingPositivity 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I can't sleep at nights. I feel anxious and I need to go out to the street or the yard and start to walk in circles while I talk to myself for hours. Just repeating the same...
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    I've come to decide in keeping my virginity until the time I am married. Of course, I've always thought it to be more difficult to give it up, than to keep it, so I'm hopeful that...
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    to the one.. who talked with me for months, about a place who pushed me away from my cave held my hand, told me that she loves me and i am saved so i went on a journey of...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    So for whatever reason I was thinking about how people love to blame others for their actions, and then I thought of Columbine and how everyone blamed Marilyn Manson and not the...
    YoungOne1901 YoungOne1901 22-25, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    It takes me a bit of courage to put this down here, in my blog, but I’m comforted by the fact that there are people out there who have gone through the same thing as I have...
    ShruthiK ShruthiK 18-21, F 9 Responses a week ago

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    everyone knows me as the happy one. and kudos to myself for making them think that. but my body feels like it has no emotion. i smile as if it's a command. i tell a joke so people...
    troglodyticrecluse troglodyticrecluse 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Most of the times I loathe myself for ever being kind and caring to people who are unworthy. I step over my pride for them then drown in remorse eventually, hating myself for ever...
    introverteddementor introverteddementor 18-21, F Jun 26

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    saw things move...fly..die in the paralyzed state of my mind observed the morbid curiosities burning souls lived so much in my mind, forgot all my goals punishing myself for...
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    never hurts to hope for something. besides, you never know..
    Azeazal Azeazal 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 26

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    Finding someone for a strong relationship. This just seems impossible for me.
    logan1997 logan1997 18-21 1 Response Jun 26

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