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I Blame Myself

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    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00 16-17, F Sep 1, 2012

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    Stupid

    I knew where this was heading. My brain desperately told my heart to stop....if only it had just listened. Now it's too late and I'm where I knew I'd be......hopelessly lost in the undertow of my emotions.
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2014

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    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Feb 26, 2010

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    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103 36-40 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom 26-30, F Mar 13, 2013

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    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner 31-35 May 2, 2010

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    Wasn't Strong Enough

    I was emotionally unstable. I had been through a nightmare of a first marriage- things I'd rather not discuss right now. However, losing the baby, attempting suicide, etc. would have been enough to shake even the strongest person to his/her core. I convinced...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    Im distancing myself from people because from the experience of 32 years of living a nightmare, I have found humans to be nothing but self absorbed organisms who live to pity and...
    PrettyTragedy83 PrettyTragedy83 31-35, F 28 mins ago

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    I was starving myself and I put myself on a strict diet to eat 3 meals a day and nothing else. But recently, I just ate and ate, and now I have managed to gain so much more...
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 1 Response 32 mins ago

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    I have never really ever thought of my self, as beautiful, hell I have never even thought of my self, as even average. I just always feel like, I am the ugliest person in the world...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    Wow. Just. Wow. I'm still a little shocked at myself. I wonder if he is too... He made me mad, you see. Not like it's the first time he's made me mad in 15 years, of course...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    1. I'm afraid of people and can't socialize. 2. I have hurt people in the past to make me feel better about myself. 3. I'm the ugliest person I have ever seen. 4. I'm not skinny...
    brokenxwings0 brokenxwings0 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I just checked my grades on the site, and I've failed two classes this semester. My GPA is officially the lowest possible, and I'm going to be put on academic probation yet again...
    girlinwhite girlinwhite 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Walking around in nature. I could walk forever. In this national park that I find myself in, like so many hikes I've done before but, this one is different. I'm alone as I walk and...
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I'm working on myself too.. I've realized that I try to please everybody but never try to please myself. I be so wrapped up in what everybody wants that I neglect what it is I...
    Corderica Corderica 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    It doesn't happened often. Sometimes it strikes me and I don't know why. I just hate myself. I see myself as pathetic and degrading. I have things people will never get and I know...
    cloudycarnage cloudycarnage 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    i swim through in the swamp of my disease like to wander, new places, be free sleep or awake, always in cold dark breeze no words for what all this, am i dead my soul wants to...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 26

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    My sister was out all night, so I ordered in a 12" pizza from room service and ate it by myself. I was full and wanted to stop about halfway through, but then I thought about how...
    feedeer feedeer 18-21, F 9 Responses Jun 26

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    I bought photo frames to hang up pictures of myself in my room. My Mum laughs and asks why I love myself so much. I laughed and answered simply and truthfully, "if I cannot love...
    Espiallidocious Espiallidocious 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Growing up I always felt as if something was wrong with me. I actually got to the point where I hated myself. Due to bad family members and associating myself with bad people, I...
    solojo solojo 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 26

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    I hate it.I have so many feelings.My boyfriend doesn't know he thinks I'm fine.No its like I'm stabbing myself every time I lie to myself or anyone.Alex doesn't know either.My...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 25

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    No matter what I think it's my fault.
    LayWithFate LayWithFate 18-21, F Jun 24

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    Im really starting to hate my scars I use to think they were beautiful but I don't think that anymore because now every time I look at them it reminds me how much I hate myself i...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 3 Responses Jun 24

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    in the name of love..you..all kill think..you will became something i wasn't you lied you have what you craved for now let mo go let me have some peace don't wanna talk...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 23

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    Why am I so upfront and talkative with people but avoid a relationship at all cost -.- I'm not afraid of asking people out, I'm not insecure about myself. In fact my confidence is...
    Spagoodles Spagoodles 18-21, M Jun 23

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    When I was 8 years old my life completely change. My parents broke apart and my dad left us. I attended a different school where I wasn't liked by the teachers or the students...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 13-15, F 12 Responses Jun 22

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    Wow, seems like everyone else here has positive experiences to share. Some of the following will be super negative, but some are slightly positive (I guess?): When I was in...
    nerdfighter314 nerdfighter314 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    sometimes my depression seems to hard to handle. its hard to handle when my love one and me argue and he tells me mean things. maybe thats y.im depress huh..any ways. i cut myself...
    sexyinpink08 sexyinpink08 22-25, F Jun 22

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    My image of myself is not as others tell me I am. Intensely flawed, broken and worthless is often what I see when I look at my reflection. I struggle with the compliments that...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 21

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    To let go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can’t do it for someone else. To let go is not to cut myself off, it’s the realization that I can’t control another. To...
    aliveisawesome aliveisawesome 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    I'm stupid, ugly, and ******* useless. I honestly feel like I'd be better off gone because nobody would miss me. I lost my first kiss to someone who wants nothing to do with me, I...
    DontBotherAskingCauseImNotOkay DontBotherAskingCauseImNotOkay 13-15, T Jun 19

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    I really feel so much better after a good serious conversation with myself. But it doesn't have to be serious. I mean, I talk to myself about everything. And we are a good friends...
    thejuicytriangle thejuicytriangle 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 19

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    If, when every time you did wrong, and all you do is to dismiss it, and shout to the world, "I forgive myself!", what a shallow person you are. What a lame excuse to justify what...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 19

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    I hate myself because I'm downright ugly........I've never been anywhere remotely close to a date, and I've never had any girl who's had a crush on me. Never kissed anyone, never...
    norb1138 norb1138 16-17, M 2 Responses Jun 18

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    this filthy, dark cave in which lay paralyzed broken music as my muse wandering, hallucinating creating delusions to escape what's right in front of me alien, outcast...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Jun 18

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    never enough.. compressed, thin path we race rich orphans with whole world in their hands still craving for things they can't understand creating their normal goals..futures...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Jun 18

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    Today two people were telling me how beautiful I was I realized that lately a lot of people have been telling me that It kind of gives me a weird feeling I look in the mirror and...
    Justventingg Justventingg 18-21, F 2 Responses