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I Blame Myself

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    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom 26-30, F Mar 13, 2013

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    Stupid

    I knew where this was heading. My brain desperately told my heart to stop....if only it had just listened. Now it's too late and I'm where I knew I'd be......hopelessly lost in the undertow of my emotions.
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103 36-40 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Feb 26, 2010

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    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner 31-35 May 2, 2010

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    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    Wasn't Strong Enough

    I was emotionally unstable. I had been through a nightmare of a first marriage- things I'd rather not discuss right now. However, losing the baby, attempting suicide, etc. would have been enough to shake even the strongest person to his/her core. I convinced...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00 16-17, F Sep 1, 2012

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    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    It just started after my moms divorce I knew I didn't make it happen but I was only 6 so I was mad and upset I actually had to go to counseling for it because I was threatening to...
    livelovehopefree livelovehopefree 13-15, F Oct 21

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    It's kind of a muscle memory for me. It started when I was little when my mother would berate me for every little thing I did wrong. Then she blames me for doing things I actually...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 16-17, F Oct 15

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    This time it was big .... I'm walking away and letting someone have their happily ever after ..... I really do not deserve one of my own.
    auburngirl51 auburngirl51 51-55, F 5 Responses Oct 14

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    I've had the opportunity presented to me to be friends with a wonderful man. I ruined it. I didn't know to handle such a treasure that I gave him up. Such a foolish girl I am. I...
    AquariusLife AquariusLife 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 15

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    I often feel abused. I went online and took an abuse test. It was obviously for couples, but I scored really high and likely of being abused. I scream at myself, punish myself...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21, F Oct 16

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    I just really hate everything I am, and all the things I have done. I'm so fat, and if I was dead other people could benefit from the food and drink that I consume more than I do...
    iloveyousomuchdontforgetit iloveyousomuchdontforgetit 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I want to be the unique and beautiful goddess I once was. Right now, I am ugly and undesirable. I loved myself last week and the week before, but something happened this week that...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 3

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    I suffer from depression, I self harm almost every night now and I have a lot of suicidal thoughts. I get bullied for my appearance, skin colour and weight. My parents expect me to...
    IllBeGoneSoon IllBeGoneSoon 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I've stayed at my sister's every night this week except this night. She went out to eat, and I'd just be sitting there doing nothing anyway. I ended up going to my niece's and...
    NastasyaFilippovna NastasyaFilippovna 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    There is no reason to blame God for the worlds problems. The Bible explains very well why we have disease, illness, and natural disasters. Adam and Eve ate from the forbidden tree...
    bringmesomepie bringmesomepie 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 1

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    I'm rotten there's no cure for that...no one's wiling to save me because I'm too crazy and demanding and needy. People tend to runaway, I don't blame them but I really wanted...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    My husband and I been having problems just got married not to long ago we'll he has a drinking problem and when he's sober where so happy together n he drinks we still do good...
    Undercoverdarkness Undercoverdarkness 22-25 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    kept telling myself someone wants me someone cares. Appartently they do. But feel like im not worth it anymore cutting just takes the edge of. Im going down this path again. so...
    Kelloggz90 Kelloggz90 22-25, F 4 hrs ago

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    I am starting to believe in myself which is a difficult thing to do. This is what it is like....imagine that all your life you have been told a lie, that the sky isn't blue it's...
    00flyaway 00flyaway 41-45, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Because if we did wrong we don't take the blame ourself and we always blame it on others !! :(
    quirky1992 quirky1992 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    Now that it's over, I see that I myself bear a part of the blame, but not in its entirety. Fools, really, both of us, a train ride that was destined to finally jump the rails at...
    BluesKing BluesKing 51-55, M Oct 18

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    Tomorrow October 21st I will be 47 year old. When I look back on the life I've wasted and the unforgivable things I did in the past it pushes me to make a fourth attempt at ending...
    ATroubledLife ATroubledLife 46-50, M 1 Response Oct 20

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    This is new. I started talking to myself. It's a weird new habit. I blame being alone.
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    You can't really blame me. And even if you did, I still wouldn't care :/
    DespairSigns DespairSigns 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    Why am i hurt why is it so hard for me to get over it? She broke up with me not because of anything I did or didn't do. People break up everyday and loved ones hurt each other...
    Authentic921 Authentic921 26-30, M Oct 16

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    Hello, I am writing this to you and not really expecting a reply, so do not stress yourself about whether you should or should not, not to say I would not like to hear from you...
    Tragicmagicme Tragicmagicme 36-40, M 2 Responses Oct 19

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    Sometimes, I hope I have a mental illness . Just so I have something to blame for the way I am .
    jhastme jhastme 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 20

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    I don't blame the Christian god for the troubles now. If the bible were true then in the Old Testament he or she should be put to death for he or she's wrath. Hypocrisy at its...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 1

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    Who else would you blame? We're powerless to do anything. At least the Gods could have put in a little bit of effort. I know this is controversial, but think from your heart, you...
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 1

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    I don't think people should blame God and I am a Christian but it is sometimes so hard when God tests time and time again
    leggs4973 leggs4973 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 1

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    I am not religious. But i do think about it some times. If there ever was a god I honestly don't blame him for leaving us behind xD, this world has gone off track. The least he...
    EBestest EBestest 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 2

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    Okay, so in school we were doing a test and everyone had to be really quiet. Of course, some people chattered, but that couldn't be helped. All of a sudden, I felt a massive fart...
    thatlilcat thatlilcat 31-35, F Oct 5

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    I think I might be in love with myself... Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Well, I don't really care. I am most important to me. Of course, I don't always put myself first. I...
    ashfaaqb ashfaaqb 18-21, M Sep 30

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    Never have I thought of killing myself or try hurting myself in ways that would end my life easily. I started to beat myself a few days ago and it felt good. I feel like I deserve...
    MaryJay712 MaryJay712 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 4

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    How can you love yourself when you don't feel good about yourself ? This is the question I ask myself, because when I think about it the answer is. I don't feel good about myself...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F 1 Response Oct 14

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    I knew that long time back, I have myself, and ONLY myself. But Idk why I keep on forgetting, Idk why I am fooled easily into forgetting facts and into believing in things that...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    Well I feel like I'm never satisfied with myself. I can never do anything right or please anybody. Sometimes I'll cry randomly because I'm frustrated or just tired of everything...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    "All of our relationships depend on our relationship with ourselves. If you don't love yourself, you can't possibly love anyone else" ~unknown. i never understood this when i was...
    AThousandThoughts AThousandThoughts 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 14

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    Everyone is guilty of comparison to others. After a little lesson I learned in youth group and a good fasting I realized three things 1) I compared myself more than I thought in...
    directorskittish directorskittish 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 15

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    I treat myself like I'm a different person. I often have debates with myself, get mad at myself, and I even have different opinions. Conversations with myself could go like, "Haha...
    unicornbombz unicornbombz 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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