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I Blame Myself

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    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner 31-35 May 2, 2010

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    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    Wasn't Strong Enough

    I was emotionally unstable. I had been through a nightmare of a first marriage- things I'd rather not discuss right now. However, losing the baby, attempting suicide, etc. would have been enough to shake even the strongest person to his/her core. I convinced...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Feb 26, 2010

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    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00 16-17, F Sep 1, 2012

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    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom 26-30, F Mar 13, 2013

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    Stupid

    I knew where this was heading. My brain desperately told my heart to stop....if only it had just listened. Now it's too late and I'm where I knew I'd be......hopelessly lost in the undertow of my emotions.
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2014

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    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103 36-40 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    I get blamed for every thing I do in my relationship. like 2 nights ago, she threw a fit . Saying she couldn't get any peace and quiet. I always keep a bag packed since she has...
    Neoebonite Neoebonite 46-50, M 7 hrs ago

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    In my past I was seeing a man who already had a girlfriend. In other words I was "The other woman" I was young , stupid , naive and inlove. I trusted this man. I spent THREE years...
    xBambi xBambi 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    I keep so many things to myself I doubt anyone truly knows my whole story or my attitude or what I do alone or why I text so much or don't fight back when I have a lot to say I...
    Singingbutterfly Singingbutterfly 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    This is what happened after I stopped dating for two years now. I've been in a relationship for a year and six months before I realized that I needed space. My partner needed it...
    officialwanderer officialwanderer 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I used to see no point in self harm because it would only mean even more pain, but now what I see is a different pain that will temporarily distract me from the pain I constantly...
    bandgeekavery bandgeekavery 13-15, T 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I thought I had it figured out already -- being confident with myself, accepting myself, being comfortable with being around people, socializing, believing in myself and in my...
    Chraie Chraie 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Simple. Take responsibility for what you do. Even if it's also other people's fault, accept your fault in it. When people don't, the blame seems to be more on them.
    wordsonascreen wordsonascreen 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    "Here's the thing, I am a nice person to those that know and love me, so if I am a ***** to you I suggest you ask yourself why" I sometimes have to really wonder if people ever...
    MzPhoenix MzPhoenix 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    and if anyone sees it ill blame it on the cat but its on my thigh so no one will see it which is good because ppl wont believe the cat did it for too much longer
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I jump without looking. I give it my all. I believe this time will be different. But thats where it all falls. I blame everyone else but its really just me. Im the one who moves...
    rfsfbb rfsfbb 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I feel like people would be surprised . I feel like my best friends would blame themselves and the general wouldn't really care because who am I .
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I always blame it on the cat and everyone always believes me
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    A few years ago I was very depressed. Just because I knew I am born in the wrong body. I am not a boy, I am a girl. But how should I tell my mom and dad? I was so confused about...
    GirlyGirl1993 GirlyGirl1993 18-21, T 2 Responses a week ago

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    I always had a thirst for the center of attention without rationalizing what comes with it. I always wanted to be desired and looked up to. I always wished I could have better...
    CaraBlossom CaraBlossom 18-21, F Jul 28

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    precious hate running through our veins...our child we loved..and created in us feeding it more everyday...knowing more and breeding more...in the graveyard of soul it's so...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 27

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    I have had this problem with myself since I was a kid. I think this may have something to do with my autism but I get a bit hard on myself and put myself down all the time. Every...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 27

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    .. And it was like everything i did was falling apart.Everything i had was fleeting and everybody i loved ..they were losing trust on me.I couldn't find myself anywhere in their...
    anupamasatyarthi anupamasatyarthi 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    I talk to myself all the time, it's a daily thing. I don't spend a great deal of time around people anymore. I feel I paid my face to face talking dues in my last job s I tend to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 26

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    okay so once again my so called boyfriend is blaming me for something I swear he blames me for everything I'm getting so tired of it actually I'm not getting tired of it I am tired...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    I hate myself more than you can know. Worthless doesn't even begin to describe how I feel. I smile and act happy just so people don't have to put up with my bullshit. I can't stand...
    NothingtoNoOne NothingtoNoOne 26-30, M Jul 24

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    Sometimes I feel like I want to kill myself, that feeling just randomly hits me at full force and i feel like my life is out of control so i cut myself or burn or sometimes I...
    IHateYourSmile IHateYourSmile 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    making sense of it all the equations gifted to the living feeling, expecting..doing the chores silent yet so many opinions in the mind try..wait..think..hope..convincing the...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Jul 24

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    emotional clearing is a gateway to the next level of development on the individual basis it seems. since yesterday; being emotionally triggered revealed many things perhaps i was...
    Solongotgon Solongotgon 26-30, F Jul 24

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    I have to stop trying to connect with other people so hard instead of leaving myself laying there feeling sorry for myself and start connecting with my self and of course with my...
    Miriamjen Miriamjen 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    I sure do. I take care of myself and my emotions. I cheer up myself whenever I'm sad. I go out to shop my favourite things.Sometimes I pamper myself standing in front of a mirror.I...
    lovemylife2210 lovemylife2210 26-30, F Jul 24

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    I struggle with low confidence and low self esteem, but I'm definitely trying to put in the effort to build it all up again. I tend to compare myself with others, which I think...
    AcousticSoul17 AcousticSoul17 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 23

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    No, I'm not confident at all. At least not in my abilities. I consider myself good at some things, but when I see a person who does better than me in that field, instead of being...
    DrowningInRed DrowningInRed 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    I made a decision that cost me eternal love, joy, peace, relationship... all the good things that only Love Himself can give. I don't understand why I did it, the only answer would...
    Coloursearching Coloursearching 22-25 Jul 23

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    It was the way I was raised. Even as a child I knew my parents just didn't want to admit they were the cause of anything that went wrong. It was engrained into my mind so harshly...
    LastTrueGentleman LastTrueGentleman 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 21

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    i ******* hate myself ...i hate myself i hate myself i hate myseeeeeeeelf....why why why why why why why why why ******* whyyyyyyyyyyy.......im a loser and always will be...im a...
    LegendBattles LegendBattles 26-30, M 2 Responses