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I Blame Myself

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    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    Wasn't Strong Enough

    I was emotionally unstable. I had been through a nightmare of a first marriage- things I'd rather not discuss right now. However, losing the baby, attempting suicide, etc. would have been enough to shake even the strongest person to his/her core. I convinced...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 46-50, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    Not a day goes by were i think about my first

    girlfriend ,my best girlfriend who would have soon been my fiancee . Five years since that night since that car accident. five years since i sat in the middle of the road holding my lover who dyed in my arms who last words were "I love you" . I blamed myself sometimes i sat...
    Sladetgx57 Sladetgx57 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00 16-17, F Sep 1, 2012

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    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Feb 26, 2010

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    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner 31-35 May 2, 2010

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    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    Stupid

    I knew where this was heading. My brain desperately told my heart to stop....if only it had just listened. Now it's too late and I'm where I knew I'd be......hopelessly lost in the undertow of my emotions.
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103 36-40 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom 26-30, F Mar 13, 2013

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    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2014

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    So like, I daydream a lot when am bored. Which is almost everyday. And I wine up talking to myself. Sometimes even saying and acting like other people out loud and creating talks...
    lemurianstar lemurianstar 16-17, M 2 hrs ago

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    Have you heard of the riddle of The Ship of Theseus? Piece by piece, a ship is renovated. The hull, the deck, the masts, the sails and every nail of the ship is replaced over a...
    youandhisthing youandhisthing 36-40, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I don't really have much choice...my wife is not really interested in me being myself and expressing myself unless they meet her parameters....so i keep it to myself. I would love...
    guitarman493 guitarman493 61-65, M 9 hrs ago

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    I have been burning myself lately, because I have tried to get clean. So I dont have anything sharp. I am so depressed and lost lately, that I am seriously debating buying a...
    lilypad99 lilypad99 18-21 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    i hate myself for being such a procrastinator!!! I set goals for myself all the time but no matter what i say or do ... my lack of motivation for life in every way ends up seizing...
    lonelysoul1088 lonelysoul1088 26-30, M 11 hrs ago

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    Once I yearned to live a beautiful life... until I realized that I am not a beautiful person. I was born into poverty and neglected; the world of delights and opportunities was...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    4 years has gone by and I still feel that I have so much to learn and m not done yet. Tbh what did I learn in this 4 years time. Oh! I did lean about people. How they can be so...
    dezeena dezeena 26-30, F 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I don't cut often but..i punch,scratch,pinch my arms and legs,pull out my hair,bang my head,bite myself and starve myself.
    seherozkurt seherozkurt 13-15, F 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    i love to make videos of myself being naughty and i watch myself in the mirror while i fool around with myself . It's so erotic, i love being able to pleasure myself whenever and...
    Sensualfeelsxo Sensualfeelsxo 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have someone I can turn too, but I just find it too hard, I don't even feel I can show her my writing anymore. I just feel that we are drifting apart no matter what, it's not the...
    ExPLadyBird ExPLadyBird 18-21, F 3 days ago

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      This is also posted under "I Was Caught Crossdressing".  I started dressing in my mothers clothes when I was ten with her leotards and tights. By the time I was...
    MichelleTiedup MichelleTiedup 56-60, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    when it all makes sense it looks absurd all the joy all the reasons behind motivation all the puzzles have a meaning now so many patterns in your mind now it's easy to...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    For all those people who are tired of reading all the negativity in this site and elsewhere, i am sorry. This is the only place where i can rant and vent my feelings. Recently i...
    rag2 rag2 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    love that adrenergic rush but hate myself for procrastinating every act.am i to be blamed?if only my brain can be as sharp as this..if only my imagination can fly as high as this...
    dramaqueen95 dramaqueen95 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    The last day of winter’s light sighs out today upon the greening land and my spirit flutters in the gladness and sorrow of its cool breath.  I feel like I can surrender to the...
    Faerylight Faerylight 41-45, F 9 Responses 4 days ago

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    You've caught me in one of my fragile states, now read this if you want. I don't believe in romantic love, I believe in divine, absolute love. Even I have a soft side too you know...
    Calamityy Calamityy 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I've fought with my depression since i was 5 years old, but never really understood it till i was 8 years old. since then I've been battling myself with multiple mental illnesses...
    kelsey1426 kelsey1426 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    And honestly, I don't like it... Deep in the inside, I know it's better to just accept that I'm not nice at all, which is how I've seen myself as for a long time now. I know as...
    Sil833 Sil833 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Hello Everyone -- I came across this site when I googled "I hate my family" so I figured I'd give it a shot to hopefully find other people who can relate. I am so sad lately...
    hifuckedupworld hifuckedupworld 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I have been blamed for a lot of stuff. I don't mind taking the blame when I do something wrong, but I been blamed for others actions (as if I have control over what others do).
    vovine123 vovine123 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 27

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    this is a true experience, and just for note I don't like peeing myself at all. I don't mind desperation in private, but I don't like it in public or find it fun at all. This for...
    kgirl17 kgirl17 18-21 2 Responses Aug 24

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    Since 4 months I have been fattening myself up every single minute of the day I gained weight rapidly each and everyday thanks to a friend here with my girlfriend I turned into an...
    M19946 M19946 18-21 2 Responses Aug 24

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    hymn of nothingness oh i have serve feels like eternity to feel...joy and sadness illuminate my path with darkness and nothingness away from all this madness unite me with...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 24

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    Some time ago I promised myself I wouldn't cut myself with a knife anymore. Last night I broke that promise. According to my promise this means I have a problem with cutting. I...
    jsualmtha jsualmtha 18-21, F Aug 23

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    I used to be bullied a lot back in school because I was the nerd archetype who always got A's and was always a good student...they are rude to you one minute and want to be your...
    Beerus Beerus 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    I'm not gonna waste my time and energy on something not worth it. iv realised it now that nothing is as important as how I feel within. everyone thinks they can take advantage n il...
    passingby123 passingby123 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 20

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    reflecting a color only i can see greeted by monsters of my insecurities sleep..escape to another galaxy dream are monsters snatching away my sanity light some candles in...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 19

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    When I am in my room.. When the lights are out.. When the noise and sound are gone.. When I am alone laying in my bed or sitting in my chair... I feel the most myself. The me I am...
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M Aug 18

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