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I Blame Myself

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    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103 36-40 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner 31-35 May 2, 2010

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom 26-30, F Mar 13, 2013

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    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00 16-17, F Sep 1, 2012

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    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Feb 26, 2010

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    Stupid

    I knew where this was heading. My brain desperately told my heart to stop....if only it had just listened. Now it's too late and I'm where I knew I'd be......hopelessly lost in the undertow of my emotions.
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    Wasn't Strong Enough

    I was emotionally unstable. I had been through a nightmare of a first marriage- things I'd rather not discuss right now. However, losing the baby, attempting suicide, etc. would have been enough to shake even the strongest person to his/her core. I convinced...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    Of course I'm going to blame myself, its pretty much down to me that stuff goes wrong most times anyway, not going to blame anyone else for my unending screw ups and causing just...
    Waywardsilence Waywardsilence 41-45, M 3 days ago

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    Everything is my fault. I drive people away because I automatically assume they're pissed off at me or that they hate me. I get terrified of anger towards me and actually by...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I do everything wrong and am the burden in everyone's lives.
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I know it's a bad thing to do, and I've heard it from so many people that I can't fix everything. I know I can't, but when something goes wrong I always think about what I could've...
    Leosbaby0311 Leosbaby0311 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I think I have always believed that I am not a complete person, that my life is about making up for that, becoming 'better'. Life has seemed to me to be the task of becoming a...
    Angiethebrave Angiethebrave 31-35, F 9 hrs ago

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    I am a medical student who destroyed her life cuz she has no sense of responsability .. I blame any thing except myself .. I blame situation and friends but not my self !! I can't...
    Reemabdlhalm Reemabdlhalm 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 28

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    I hate myself for all the lies and deception I inflicted on my current boyfriend. I blame my family particularly. I am a cheater and this means I have broken my own value system. I...
    Deadlynightshade5 Deadlynightshade5 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    It doesn't matter what the outcome is Just the way you reach your end game That's the most important step that can be achieved Don't pay attention to the naysayers that sit by the...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    Seems to happen time and time again. I am inlove with the most wonderful man but the long distance makes it so hard. My mistake was to build my life around around our relationship...
    nicoleACA nicoleACA 22-25, F Sep 1

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    Ugh I'm so tired of being fat but when I try to starve myself I can neverrrrrr do it cuz when I see food I eat . I weigh 128 and I'm 5'1 I wanna be atleast 115 . So I'm going to...
    Kaileyynicole Kaileyynicole 16-17, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    My mom hates me. My stepdad hates me. I feel like I should just give up and kill myself. I hate everything about me. I just wanna die. I hate myself more than anyone on the...
    naddo630 naddo630 18-21, F 1 Response 30 mins ago

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    My marriage has been on unstable ground for quite some time. This morning my husband blamed me for the lack of intimacy in our relationship. He did not want to accept that my lack...
    lipservice22 lipservice22 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    If only you saw the things I do to amuse myself haha you'd probably think that I was at too intoxicated or on something, really though lol
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I despise myself. Somebody please shoot me. I can't take this anymore. I really can't. All my life I've been unhappy, but now it's getting worse. I cry all the time and I honestly...
    halfpace halfpace 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I used to be one of the prettiest girls. and I disfigured my self. with my own fingers. I decided I wanted a smaller jaw and smaller lips. little did I know the devil was...
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 1 Response 24 mins ago

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    It is only you to trust and to blame for when it comes to love
    ItsAnnaLena ItsAnnaLena 26-30, F Aug 19

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    More often than not, people don't keep their word. Those who have repeatedly hurt you emotionally may call or text and act "nice", but living with them is a different story so don...
    honestyreality honestyreality 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    I've always been blamed for things I've never even done..
    missloveliness missloveliness 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    I would leap, but I am tethered to a life I once chose. I honor this commitment, It is a door I will not close. I believe he does the best he can, Since I took his name. What...
    Accebere Accebere 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 4

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    Not Yelled, just blamed for a lot of things. (Closest topic I could find) but anyways, whenever I have a problem, people make it feel like its my fault. .-.
    InnerEgo InnerEgo 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I'm so sick of being blamed for everything that happens. apparently everyone else is perfect. So tired of the lies people say, the things people do, so sick and tired of me.
    stormyjones stormyjones 13-15 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Sometimes when I sleep, I see you in my dreams. I'm still with you, I don't know what it means. Those mornings after I see you, I remember when I do. It ruins my whole day, because...
    justderek justderek 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    Why do they blame everyone else for their problems. I didnt drive you to drink. I take great care of my kids.
    boysofmyheart boysofmyheart 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    My story is that I have a sickness inside that I don't know how to make go away. It's hard to define this sickness other than a pervading poison that is eating me from the inside...
    Shellybelle Shellybelle 41-45, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    The group "I want to kill myself" is not available to me on EP. That is bullshit. So I'm here. There's not much I can think of to say. I have been wanting to kill myself for a...
    Orange666 Orange666 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I'm depressed and it's hard. It's gotten bad enough that I started cutting myself for tons of different reasons. Sometimes I feel so numb inside that I cut myself so I can feel...
    benjamintkw benjamintkw 13-15, M 6 days ago

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    Do I love myself?! I have started wondering do I really love myself? I mean of course I do I'm adorable! At least that's what I always say. But do I really love who I am, am I...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    There are days when I won't be able to do anything but feel. (I say only "feel" because I can't quite find the words. I feel bad about myself and everything else, but not really...
    TwoWastedCigarettes TwoWastedCigarettes 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I have accepted myself, not in a way that I know myself therefore I should change everything to fit in the society and #yolo. No not that, but simply I have accepted that, me, who...
    anon152 anon152 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    It's therapy to me. The relaxing part of the day. If I don't talk to myself, I think that would make me even crazier than how society already sees me. I'm an introvert. I hate...
    dustyoldclock dustyoldclock 18-21, F Aug 20

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    I hate myself the pain and humiliation I caused my parents by marrying outside my religion. I hate myself for for forcing my husband to convert to my religion albeit for show...
    Hbee1980 Hbee1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    I'm trying to find my own version of happiness and a life that feels right for me. I have so many sides of me I'm trying to fit all together. I consider myself relatively traveled...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Aug 28

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    Partly by myself.. Havent done it active-active.. But active/passively or call it passively-active. I sort of have the belief, that when everyone is gone. Just by myself. Then I...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M Aug 29

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    Today I went for a swim at my local lake. As I jumped into the water with enthusiasm, I was determined to swim to the little island far off in distance. I paddled and paddled and I...
    BLVLFreeSwim BLVLFreeSwim 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    This is the first time I am opening up about myself, and I truly cannot stand the person I am, all for one small aspect of me that in reality should not be as big of a deal as I...
    skh22 skh22 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 7

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