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I Blame Myself

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    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00 16-17, F Sep 1, 2012

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    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2014

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    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    Wasn't Strong Enough

    I was emotionally unstable. I had been through a nightmare of a first marriage- things I'd rather not discuss right now. However, losing the baby, attempting suicide, etc. would have been enough to shake even the strongest person to his/her core. I convinced...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom 26-30, F Mar 13, 2013

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    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Feb 26, 2010

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    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    Stupid

    I knew where this was heading. My brain desperately told my heart to stop....if only it had just listened. Now it's too late and I'm where I knew I'd be......hopelessly lost in the undertow of my emotions.
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103 36-40 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner 31-35 May 2, 2010

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    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    I lost my razor and was about a good 2 month since I have cut myself. I felt like part of myself was missing when I lost it. I sometimes have this urge to cut myself. Then I don...
    NocturnalMiss23 NocturnalMiss23 26-30, F 10 hrs ago

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    Dear everyone, I hate myself. I always have and I do not know why. Looming feelings of inadequacy along with body-image problems have plagued me since roughly the beginning of...
    Systral Systral 22-25, M 4 hrs ago

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    I hate always being the bad guy and being blamed as the reason why things went bad, Nd fights. I try to talk things out Im complaining, I show I care, love, and concerned I worry...
    AngelWithoutWingsx AngelWithoutWingsx 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 17

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    So my first post on this got deleted which just made my day even worse. What I was writing about that made me upset and angry got made worse by ep deleting it! So apparently I can...
    NewDay NewDay 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 17

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    We rent out a couple of rooms in our house to make a little extra money, yesterday I thought I had the place to myself so I was wearing a bra and panties and just a dressing gown...
    LibbyLee LibbyLee 56-60, T 7 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I am so tired. Tired of caring about everything and nothing. Walking this line of doing the right thing but still being true to myself. Tired of holding the weight of the world and...
    Pharmalady Pharmalady 31-35, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I'm always naked at home . I've always enjoyed the feeling . Just lounging around , walking around or whatever I'm doing my hands always seem to act as a magnet ... Always drawn to...
    Biman55 Biman55 56-60, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    instead of talking to myself, will someone let me call them ?! I wanna talk on the phone for some weird reason
    AriLeigh AriLeigh 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    I googled myself. Other people popped up :)
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    This is Random things about me! 1. My real name is Beverlie 2. I'm 21 years old 3. I am moody(very) 4. I am left - handed. 5. I love Red (also gray and black) 6. love Hello Kitty...
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I have several plans. I am planning on the gun, pills or rope. I have been writing the suicide note over and over. I just want to end it all. Sure things get better but they...
    kaoruredfox kaoruredfox 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    im so unhappy with myself right now. I feel like I've been a bad girl.
    ThatOneSomaliGirl ThatOneSomaliGirl 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    whatever, all this is dumb, talking about what I feel it's very dumb. If someone tells me "I feel sad because I'm ugly", I would think that's dumb too, so how am I supposed to feel...
    gdrgnn gdrgnn 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    why must my rage be so hard to control its not really her fault im stuck here its this damn snow but I find it easier to blame her than to deal with the separation anxiety of not...
    itsjustme3684 itsjustme3684 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 2

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    life is full of bs. happiness is a lie. and peace is an unreachable goal. every day I get more and more cuts. my life is going down a downward spiral. what made me special is...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My mom blames her sickness and problems on me. I don't even do anything. She has eyesight problems and eating troubles and it's apparently all my fault that she is struggling with...
    briannalynn190 briannalynn190 16-17, F Feb 11

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    narcissistic maybe- i grew up with no self confidence. i was the black sheep of my family and the middle child, chubby and shy. when i graduated i started loosing my "baby weight...
    snelletrail snelletrail 26-30, F 10 Responses Jan 28

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    I'm unable to be involved in relationships that have healthy exchanges of affection, compassion, and love. This is not my choice, but the result of many years of chronic anxiety...
    DarkPathos DarkPathos 51-55, M 4 Responses Feb 3

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    Today I forced myself to puke again. I was out with some friends and we were hanging out at the skate park. After a couple of hours of skating I wanted to do something else. So I...
    pukeboy pukeboy 22-25, M Feb 6

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    I tried writing this experience once but it shut down in the middle, so I'm a little frustrated but I'll try again. I was saying that I find myself doing things just for the sole...
    Shamandora Shamandora 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I hate my life so much, I really have been compensating whether or not I should kill myself, but I can never bring myself 2 it, like it's just thoughts; but seriously Life's been...
    Krchan2 Krchan2 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    I want to break down and slash my wrist and watch the blood hit the ground. I think to myself, what urges this on? Why am I so depressed, so angry, confused, upset. I just wanna...
    fade77 fade77 16-17, F Jan 28

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    I have always been willing sacrifice my happiness for the people i love. I recently have found myself in a situation where i wronged a friend and i apologised sincerely for it but...
    outragedbamboo outragedbamboo 22-25 4 Responses Jan 31

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    Tomorrow is going to be tough. I'm scared. Terrified. Utterly bare with no armor. When did I lose it? Did I ever have one to begin with? How do explain myself. How do I confess...
    DeijiDaze DeijiDaze 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    Finding an inspiration that heals. Shes gone. It hurts but I will be okay. This past year has been phenomenally hard but I believe I'm exactly where I need to be. 2014 I was...
    mmn6134 mmn6134 22-25, F Feb 5

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    and NO i do not have an eating disorder. i only starve myself as a way to punish myself. because i feel so extremely fukking guilty for everything there is about me. i HATE myself...
    gurldeleted gurldeleted 41-45, F Feb 5

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    My brother and I just had an argument. He sucks at arguing because of how he drags the focus of the argument to other things. Things like me. He constantly insults me for being...
    DrowningInRed DrowningInRed 13-15, F 5 Responses Feb 13

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    I don't hate myself for the way I look anymore ... I hate myself for the person I am ... I realize how ******* awful I am to everybody!! I'm just so mean to people all the time and...
    suicidalblonde suicidalblonde 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    Is it like normal to bully myself? Idk. I tend to insult me, and think the worst of me... I guess it's because I'd rather listen to this stuff from me, instead of from someone else...
    kindahipsta kindahipsta 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    Yup I have resorted to this. I want the next two years of my life to be about no one but myself. When I'm in a relationship I bend over backwards to give my partner anything that I...
    SapphicMinion SapphicMinion 26-30, F 26 Responses Feb 2

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    Something I had to do for a long time as long as I remember. I finally gave up and admitted that I was different from everyone else at school. For many reasons. Too many reasons...
    crazysoul24 crazysoul24 22-25 4 Responses Feb 5

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    If you play with fire, you're going to get burnt.... Why did I let this happen? Someone is going to get hurt... And I hope it me and not the people involved... I've ****** up...
    catho catho 18-21, F Feb 10

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    Today, I wanted to relax, but I couldn't. My mind was planning in detail some corner of some project which was technically interesting, but not even possible to do today, and not...
    Taurusedi Taurusedi 31-35, M Feb 10

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