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I Blame Myself

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    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 18-21, F Jun 30, 2014

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    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    Stupid

    I knew where this was heading. My brain desperately told my heart to stop....if only it had just listened. Now it's too late and I'm where I knew I'd be......hopelessly lost in the undertow of my emotions.
    Oso41412 Oso41412 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner 31-35 May 2, 2010

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    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom 31-35, F Mar 13, 2013

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    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    Not a day goes by were i think about my first

    girlfriend ,my best girlfriend who would have soon been my fiancee . Five years since that night since that car accident. five years since i sat in the middle of the road holding my lover who dyed in my arms who last words were "I love you" . I blamed myself sometimes i sat...
    SladeTheLegend SladeTheLegend 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 1, 2015

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    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Feb 26, 2010

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103 36-40 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00 16-17, F Sep 1, 2012

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    Wasn't Strong Enough

    I was emotionally unstable. I had been through a nightmare of a first marriage- things I'd rather not discuss right now. However, losing the baby, attempting suicide, etc. would have been enough to shake even the strongest person to his/her core. I convinced...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 46-50, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    I'm nothing. I'm too ugly. I never had any opportunities. I'm a nothing. I'm a waste. I'm uneducated, I never had the opportunity to better myself because of someone else's...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Is identity crisis a part of growing up or something, because I really do hate not understanding myself. It's like I don't even know who I really am, what do I love, what do I fear...
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13 13-15, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I really really hate myself,...ggrrrrr... I shouldn't done this and that... I should have done this and that... what if, what if, what if...there are so many what if's.. I just...
    shy07me shy07me 26-30, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I finally did it...finally. I'm writing article for local free magazines. It's not fashion magazines,we pick up serious topics like sexism,abuse,health,mostly about how can we...
    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx 31-35, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Every time we used to fight, even it it were his fault I had to be the one to plan a patch up. He was really good at putting the blame back on me for all the fight and I being much...
    Bareen Bareen 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I am in my mid thirties. I have two daughters who live with me. I just finished going through my second divorce, and my heart is pretty broken. Just two weeks prior to her walking...
    JoeGlas JoeGlas 31-35, M 4 days ago

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    Never blame anyone in your life. The good people give you happiness. The bad people give you experience. The worst people give you a lesson. The best people give you memories.
    XxmakaronxX XxmakaronxX 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I blame the women in my life for keeping me from achieving my full potential. My commonness and mediocrity could have really reached astronomical proportions if left alone.
    AgentSeven AgentSeven 46-50, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    The first time they dropped rope at my feet I did not pick it up. Must have been my pride. Then as they spoke of faults which labeled my worth I thought I could do better. I could...
    Myplethora Myplethora 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I've been tossing this idea around in my head recently and was hoping to get some outside perspectives on it. "You hurt my feelings" is something I have heard over and over again...
    rebekahanastasia rebekahanastasia 18-21, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I feel like I lost who I am, but I can't figure out where. I need to find myself, I'm tired of being emotionless and watching everyone around me succeed and live their life. I feel...
    DaisyKaine DaisyKaine 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I feel that most people in my life are only there due to convenience. I don't feel any "bond" or connection with even my closest friends and family anymore. I know it's my fault...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    As I take these 6 months to leave my husband and get myself on track, I think I am doing well so far. I am giving him and us 6 months. 6 months for him to seek a cure for his inner...
    majesticsea majesticsea 26-30, F a week ago

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    a cruel fantasy of humanity to search for happiness and peace the things we believe the toys we create to deceive the altered perception for some satisfaction blind to see...
    anotherclone anotherclone 31-35, M Feb 1

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    I made a promise to myself, one that I haven't kept. me and my mom never had a good relationship, and this particular day after picking me up from my dad's she went to shower after...
    pricklytickk pricklytickk 22-25, F Feb 1

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    Today I almost lost my girlfriend and I never hated myself more than now. They diagnosed her with carbon monoxide poisoning. She tried to kill herself and it's my fault! I hate...
    LoloRegz LoloRegz 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 1

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    Despite leaving my partner and safe haven, I am still trying to find a sense of normalcy for the little one. I brought him out to the carnival last night. But it feels like a...
    majesticsea majesticsea 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I deal with a lot of self-hatred and disgust. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling awful all the time. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling broken. My life is practically perfect...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 31

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    It seems so simple, self-explanatory, and obvious, doesn't it? Loving oneself sounds like something that should come totally naturally. I have found that mindfulness helps me stay...
    rebekahanastasia rebekahanastasia 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 30

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    "Be happy with yourself." Right..how can I be happy with myself if I am not really. I've been truggling to lose weight but I might as well give up. I've failed too many times and...
    PassionForCreativity PassionForCreativity 26-30, F Jan 30

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    I do...I am 21 and no where near where I feel I should be in my life. I have made so many mistakes growing up as a kid and in my teen years. I feel so inadequate and pathetic in...
    Jason947 Jason947 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    I've gone two months without hurting myself. I've been happy, my anxiety is down, and I haven't even thought about hurting myself. Yesterday I colored my hair and got some dye on...
    SimplyEm SimplyEm 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Honestly explaining myself to someone is the hardest thing, because nobody understands. I'm not like anyone In my family, my family always just thinks I'm a defective child who...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I feel like I'd like myself at first but as I knew more, I would soon find myself disliking myself more and more
    10786y 10786y 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I really have been struggling with this lately... well more like for the past 7 or so months. I ******* hate myself, I hate that I'm useless and can't bring home any income, I hate...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I've gotten frustrated with news stories, youtubers, youtube comments, Yahoo comments, friends, Facebook comments, family members, random conversations, or etc. When someone feels...
    brownowleyes brownowleyes 31-35, F Jan 25

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