I Blame Myself

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe
    13-15, F
    2 Responses May 12, 2012

    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103
    36-40
    1 Response Dec 16, 2008

    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

    Not a day goes by were i think about my first

    girlfriend ,my best girlfriend who would have soon been my fiancee . Five years since that night since that car accident. five years since i sat in the middle of the road holding my lover who dyed in my arms who last words were "I love you" . I blamed myself sometimes i sat...
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 1, 2015

    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2014

    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom
    31-35, F
    Mar 13, 2013

    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75
    36-40, M
    Feb 26, 2010

    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 11, 2009

    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner
    31-35
    May 2, 2010

    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 3, 2014

    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00
    16-17, F
    Sep 1, 2012

    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189
    18-21, F
    Jun 30, 2014

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