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I Blame Myself

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    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner 31-35 May 2, 2010

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    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom 26-30, F Mar 13, 2013

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    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103 36-40 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    Wasn't Strong Enough

    I was emotionally unstable. I had been through a nightmare of a first marriage- things I'd rather not discuss right now. However, losing the baby, attempting suicide, etc. would have been enough to shake even the strongest person to his/her core. I convinced...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    Stupid

    I knew where this was heading. My brain desperately told my heart to stop....if only it had just listened. Now it's too late and I'm where I knew I'd be......hopelessly lost in the undertow of my emotions.
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Feb 26, 2010

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    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00 16-17, F Sep 1, 2012

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    I blame myself on what happen between me and my husband I never did anything to stop what was happening he was hooked on pain pills and I seen that my pills were missing but he was...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 2 Responses Dec 16

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    Haha I blame myself for being fat... I have in and ordered a pizza and ate most of it, washed down with soft drink... Hello weight gain
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    YouKnowItMakesSense YouKnowItMakesSense 31-35, M Nov 28

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    Not always. I do spend a lot of time thinking about big events over and over - thinking about what I could have done differently. Today, I am trying to think about the situation...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M Dec 6

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    man2you man2you 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 6

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    I have a bad habit of apologizing for everything. I know it irritates my friends sometimes, but I just can't seem to stop.
    Leofflaed Leofflaed 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 19

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    As I read story after story here on EP, I realize very few of us on here take the blame for our failed ........ Whatever. It's always someone else's fault, I didn't do anything...
    3grunning 3grunning 46-50, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    So I thought I should tell u guys all the things I have been threw in life this is hard for me telling u guys but bare with me so I was born on the 7 jan 1996 so as I got older and...
    Scarsdontfade Scarsdontfade 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have sealed myself into a safe little box over the years. I am rediscovering myself now and branching out. I have blamed my husband for being controlling, but have realized that...
    NWBiggirl420 NWBiggirl420 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 3

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    I don't understand these people. All you hear them go on about is how bad their upbringing was and how it's affected their life now. It's got nothing to do with themselves.. No...
    Brita90 Brita90 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 1

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    Well I used too I found I made an absolute fool of myself by overthinking I thought Something was wrong when in fact it was good all along I'm an idiot but your idiot!
    RonSims RonSims 31-35, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I just feel like I deserve intense mental and physical pain. After the many variations of bad events that have occurred within my life.. It just so happens that I just feel like I...
    DWIA DWIA 13-15, F Dec 13

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    When I was in 6th grade I became obsessive about a guy I had liked...he was from Pakistan... I became so obsessed that I began to bother him...he hated me for that...he wanted me...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 17

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    farting before the meal is passe.you must wait till after the meal to be extra effective.if you can clear the restaurant and blame the waiter beforhand,youve done your job.
    spoonandstretch spoonandstretch 41-45, M Dec 4

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    If something were to go missing or some problem where to come afoot with as the cause is unknown...my family wouldn't hesitate to point fingers in my direction...yes I have done...
    Cooper802 Cooper802 18-21, M Dec 6

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    As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”. As...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 9

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    Every time I make any kind of mistake- even just getting a bad grade on a test or saying something stupid- I feel like I deserve to be punished for it by hurting myself. I cut my...
    kaleidoscopic21 kaleidoscopic21 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 17

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    I get those days when I hate myself so much. I've always had the self destruction feeling in my mind but I try to ignore it. Some days it's really hard and I have a strong urge to...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 30

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    I hate myself..People always take avantaged from me. I know it but i don't know how to deny. I care their poeple feeling too much but they don't care my feeling. I cannot really...
    chombongkoch chombongkoch 31-35, F Dec 2

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    Almost?? I NEVER put myself first. you need me to drive you half way across the country? Sure!! I can't drive but ill be happy to carry you. the ex wants to talk? sure! Im suicidal...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    So i asked a question earlier about whether or not i should go out to hang with friends. ive been at home since im sort of overwhelemed at the moment and having a hard time...
    spreadyourwings spreadyourwings 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 17

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    I'm a little worried.... I used to cut myself when I was around 18 or so , I accidentally cut myself and I liked the feeling. I began cutting because I liked the feeling and was...
    Honee86 Honee86 26-30, F Dec 18

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    I have to say my kids have to be the best in the world I really did a great job as a mom and dad to them now they have their own kids and they are doing a great job with them both...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F 2 days ago

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    Today I received a letter from my dad who has been incarcerated since April. This is the first letter he has sent me. I have not seen him due to circumstances in the family that...
    Aml4 Aml4 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    I'm currently trying to starve myself and work out. I don't know why but I feel like I do that I'll feel better in myself.. I hate myself so much. If I had the opportunity to kill...
    oxoxJillianxoxo oxoxJillianxoxo 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I talk to myself everyday. Sometimes I like to remind myself what I will be doing. I try not to talk to myself in public. I don't think it is a bad thing that I talk to myself.
    Rippie Rippie 22-25, M Dec 3

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    I mean really, a long history of victimization has left me so strong in so many aspects but there is still the residual leftovers deep inside. I tell myself I am worthless, that I...
    SameOldLoneliness SameOldLoneliness 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    For quite some time now I have seemed to be deeply unhappy with myself. I can't tell you how many days I woke up and just felt like I was nothing. I still don't love myself as much...
    RubyRayne RubyRayne 26-30, F Dec 9

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    I hate my self as stated above. I don't like my face, figure, voice, friends, family, location, and just overall life. I have sever anxiety and always find myself counting and...
    mckennaolsen mckennaolsen 13-15, F Dec 13

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    I have been trying to learn not to hate myself, to know myself as I truly am. I found this book: http://www.peace.ca/powerofnow.htm, It really helped. I learned to stop seeing my...
    PurpleGlassPalace PurpleGlassPalace 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 15

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    mentally torture myself even have cut myself starve dehydrate myself as well . as you can tell I clearly don't love myself
    Mizo0217 Mizo0217 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16

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    I'm falling apart. I had a bad childhood which I got through. I thought I was strong. I told myself I'd never do.. it. I'm doing it... I'm so disappointed but I'm numb. I bottled...
    WeCouldBeDead WeCouldBeDead 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 17

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    I still have my little family. But, I have isolated myself from past friends and even direct family for the most part. This may be more natural as it has allowed me to focus...
    LienOnYourDreams LienOnYourDreams 31-35, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I make sure that I have constructive conversations with myself every day. I bounce back and forward in dialogue with myself, and make sure to refer to myself in the first person. I...
    leftbrainer leftbrainer 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago