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I Blame Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 148 People

    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2014

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    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    Wasn't Strong Enough

    I was emotionally unstable. I had been through a nightmare of a first marriage- things I'd rather not discuss right now. However, losing the baby, attempting suicide, etc. would have been enough to shake even the strongest person to his/her core. I convinced...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00 16-17, F Sep 1, 2012

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    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom 26-30, F Mar 13, 2013

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    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner 31-35 May 2, 2010

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    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Feb 26, 2010

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    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103 36-40 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    Stupid

    I knew where this was heading. My brain desperately told my heart to stop....if only it had just listened. Now it's too late and I'm where I knew I'd be......hopelessly lost in the undertow of my emotions.
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    Its crazy im always stressing. I stress everyday because I put the blame on myself alot
    dawwnn dawwnn 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I dont need someone else in my life who only knows of constantly blaming me....already have enoug
    tiya78 tiya78 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I couldn't handle it... I cried and that's one of the last things I remember.... I've always blamed myself for what happened between us.. I knew you were the one who made those...
    catho catho 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    I know that there is always someone better than me ,but why I have to be the one on the botton of everything? Recently I started to think that I won't suceed ,I actually don't...
    karymendes karymendes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    I love him too much and this made me blind for so long. I took it all and kept going Forced myself to believe it was alright knowing it was wrong. There was no blood to be...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 16-17, F Mar 14

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    Ever since I was bullied at primary, I've lost myself. I wrote a list about myself and they were actually nice but deep down I still dislike myself for some reason. I've tried to...
    Myalee Myalee 41-45, F 18 hrs ago

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    So, this is my story!, Im a single 36 year old woman, with a big heart that hides behind the wall, who loves to be in love, but also hates it sometimes. I havenĀ“t dated much, few...
    Gaialion Gaialion 36-40, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    aaaaargh!!! roller coaster of emotions again. probably my 'daddy issues' rearing their ugly heads. long story short: I'm happy being alone. i love being single. And Yes, I'd...
    peepsqueek peepsqueek 31-35, F Mar 8

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    Letting go takes Love. To let go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can not do it for someone else. To let go is not to cut myself off, it is the realization that I can not...
    PrettyInBlack79 PrettyInBlack79 36-40, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    i do this every time i get into any friendship. blame it on my family (lots to explain on that). i just feel like i can't ever trust anyone and i have lots of stress and stuff...
    randomgirl42 randomgirl42 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 14

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    I've cut myself before, I know that some of you think that I'm sick and there's something wrong with me, but it's just the way I am. It's like how some people can't help being gay...
    wolfgirl202 wolfgirl202 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I was finally supposed to confront my Spanish teacher for treating me unfairly. She emailed me that she was failing me for just turning it in early. Like wtf, I thought she should...
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8 13-15, M 18 Responses Mar 16

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    I don't know.. (quick summary if y you knew the whole story...) in the past couple years I've lost so much. Recently I've lost my best friend and now I feel like I lost my family...
    SunshineLaura SunshineLaura 18-21, F Mar 18

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    My crush hates me. I don't know why or how, but I know it's because I'm an *******. I'm such a f*cked up person, and I felt something like this would happen. I felt that I would...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F 8 hrs ago

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    i hate myself i dont want to feel like this anymore should i take some very strong painkillers to feel nuthing i cant cope
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I want to make the world around me a better place just to prove myself and for all those people who think of suicide as the only way out...You've to know that being able to breath...
    Sparklecat Sparklecat 22-25, M 26 mins ago

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    Me blames Tv for plenty of scummy bipeds.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    I like people that that don't touch my computer. touching my computer really feels like a major crime to me. I bought it, I paid for it, and I've worked hard to protect my mental...
    okay62 okay62 70+, F 5 days ago

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    Ever since I was younger, I don't react to disappointing others very well. I had always been wary about how they see me and how I should act around them because I feel like no one...
    JalynArr JalynArr 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I was told I need to prove myself. I admit at this stage in my life I again have hit bottom and filled myself with depression as BPD has raised its ugly head again but in my life...
    wickedone72 wickedone72 41-45, F Mar 5

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    i hate myself i hate my body, my face,my hair i hate how i walk,how i talk i hate looking into mirror i hate how i cant talk to people like a normal person i hate that i see myself...
    yeniC yeniC 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    all of my life I've put myself on the back burner to help friends and family and in a blink of an eye I turned 36. I've never been in a relationship, I've never really done...
    monteJ monteJ 31-35, M Mar 8

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    Yes I am a cutter but I'm not proud of it at all. in fact I do my best to pretend like they aren't there. I have old ones on my left arm but new and old ones on both of my thighs...
    easterbaby88 easterbaby88 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    I have recently stopped caring. I used to cut because I just could not handle what was going on in my life. I used to cut because I would hurt so bad that I didn't know how else to...
    lowellwolf lowellwolf 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    It was a dreadful night that I hope I don't have to relive ever again. My boyfriend and I were at each others throats, testing each others limits and becoming increasingly agitated...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    I put god first and myself second because I can only depend on myself and god, a part of loving myself is putting me first, I'm no longer saying yes to man, just god and myself, I...
    Brandnewhim2015 Brandnewhim2015 26-30, M Mar 19

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    I haven't been happy with myself for awhile. It started with my ex, I became very self conscious about myself. I used to never care, I was very care free but then I started to...
    blooop123 blooop123 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    So yeah, me first experience on this site. I am one hell of a insecure girl. It started when I was 12, I had alot of friends but still alot of people called me a pig, or just fat...
    iwannarun iwannarun 16-17, F Mar 9

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    Yesterday I competed at the state academic team thing in Louisville. And I made so many mistakes. I don't know if I'll be able to forgive myself for some of this. I'll always be...
    AshleyWCSloth AshleyWCSloth 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 16

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    They say before You do anything you must first believe that you yourself can do it. Love yourself before loving others, accept yourself before accepting others, But as if would...
    Yuzuru Yuzuru 16-17, M 2 days ago

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