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I Blame Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 144 People

    Wasn't Strong Enough

    I was emotionally unstable. I had been through a nightmare of a first marriage- things I'd rather not discuss right now. However, losing the baby, attempting suicide, etc. would have been enough to shake even the strongest person to his/her core. I convinced...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    Stupid

    I knew where this was heading. My brain desperately told my heart to stop....if only it had just listened. Now it's too late and I'm where I knew I'd be......hopelessly lost in the undertow of my emotions.
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103 36-40 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3, 2014

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    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom 26-30, F Mar 13, 2013

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    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Feb 26, 2010

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    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2014

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    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6, 2014

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    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00 16-17, F Sep 1, 2012

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner 31-35 May 2, 2010

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    I used to be in the habit pointing the finger at everybody else..and never myself. We have nobody to blame but ourselves. Who in control of our bodies? Who can change the situation...
    CBlaze22 CBlaze22 18-21 1 Response Jan 20

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    something happened I didn't do I blame my self everyday
    sugarplum44 sugarplum44 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 12

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    ik its wrong but its like i automatically am upset if someone else gets upset or i fee .as if im to blame if someone hurts me. i mean bad things wohldent happenen to me if i didnt...
    tjindigo tjindigo 18-21, F Jan 12

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    OK so there is this guy and I haven't talked to him in two years and well at that time he was married but now he is separated or so I thought but turns out he is engaged again but...
    ABeautifulMess1994 ABeautifulMess1994 18-21, F Jan 18

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    its like nomatter what i tell my 18yr old sis she will never get it until something terrible happens to her. maybe then she"ll remember my mother and my words/advices.But then if...
    cynR1993 cynR1993 18-21, F Jan 12

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    I'm fifteen. I'm a sophomore and I've been continually depressed since last summer when the first girl I legitimately fell for got really mad at me and then moved away. I just sent...
    GuiltyLover GuiltyLover 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    I was born normal, just like every one else. When i was about 11ish I began to notice I different. Most kids around my age like hanging out, talk about sports tv shows, the works...
    blacknight2345 blacknight2345 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    I have a terrible fear of being lonely for the rest of my life. This includes romantically and non romantically, I just don't want to have no one there by my side at my final...
    glomilk glomilk 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    The title says it all. Well yeah, I really do hate myself. I've been hospitalized 3 times in the past year for suicide attempts, self-harm, and drug use. I've done so many things...
    shecancareless shecancareless 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I've sworn to myself that THIS year I WILL lose weight so that I can feel better about myself. I have low self esteem, partly because I feel ugly because I'm so fat. Whenever I get...
    ConfessionsOfALostGurl ConfessionsOfALostGurl 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Its almost 5:30 in the morning and I'm still awake, I am wondering what my dad really thought of me. I thought he'd loved me, but really maybe he only loved my kids. Every one...
    shygirl1986 shygirl1986 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    The thing about me.. My hair is too dark..too black as well as my eyes. My skin is icy and my hands are that too. I never feel the warm embrace, the love I've wanted. But it simply...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 10 Responses Jan 2

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    For basically the entire month of December, and part of January I have been fighting a deep depression. Sometimes it gets so bad I think suicide is the best way to handle it...
    Internalexpression Internalexpression 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 11

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    it's easy to blame the victim. Mainly because we have a tendency to blame ourselves. Also because to think of such an act is too much. Then there is "But we know him/her. they...
    littlesadone littlesadone 41-45, F 1 Response a week ago

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    After tonight's cheerleading practice, I kinda felt.. Left out, I've been cheering for over 5 years, with the same gym and everything. But tonight I just felt like nobody really...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 10 Responses Jan 12

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    some people might think im crazy. this is why im saying it here. you may not trust what i am about to say. and honestly i dont blame you. i didnt trust myself either. i have two...
    darkwhispershadowsoul darkwhispershadowsoul 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 19

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    it's really hard to not cut myself right now, but i don't know how much longer i can hold on, all the hateful comments, being blamed for things I've never done, school is not...
    EyelessGlitch EyelessGlitch 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Should I just blame everything on puberty and hormones? I mean, that's what everyone else does so maybe I should to. I guess nothing I feel is real right now, it's all just...
    DarkOnTheInside13 DarkOnTheInside13 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    In my dance class we had to study a culture and present a dance inspired by the cultural dances. Last class a few of the girls were video taping them on snapchat and making fun of...
    katd1234 katd1234 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    I have an urgent need to forgive myself for something I did in high school. For years I've been very harsh with myself about this mistake and I've been telling myself that what I...
    NamelessNomad NamelessNomad 22-25, F Jan 20

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    I hated how I say to people that Im proud of myself and I loved it. I hated how **** I am. I hated how I can be so confident. I hated how I interact with others. I hated how I feel...
    shishishosho97 shishishosho97 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Honestly I am 34 and no high school education. I had kids at 18,29,21 . Been married 2x and never done a damn thing for myself . I come from a place and daily that has the...
    KittenHasClaws1980 KittenHasClaws1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    narcissistic maybe- i grew up with no self confidence. i was the black sheep of my family and the middle child, chubby and shy. when i graduated i started loosing my "baby weight...
    snelletrail snelletrail 26-30, F 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Last year was a game changer for me..i left my boyfriend of five years last February. It was difficult to do but I don't regret it. It took me over a year to work up the courage...
    lambkin lambkin 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 6

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    I feel like I do of course im a walking contradiction so maybe im not after all..uhhh I dont know why the hell it's so hard for me to give a crap about myself anymore unless I have...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    …and I never get bored of myself or hate myself... I love being myself at all times; perhaps I am a little narcissistic... Oh well, better than self hating, no? Although I don't...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    I want to break down and slash my wrist and watch the blood hit the ground. I think to myself, what urges this on? Why am I so depressed, so angry, confused, upset. I just wanna...
    fade77 fade77 13-15, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I feel like I am always giving more than I can. I try to fix everyone without taking the time to fix myself. I am attracted to people who have many problems. I don't know why, I...
    SkyDean SkyDean 16-17, F Dec 31, 2014

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    so here we are - 2015!!! a whole new year to mess up, lol :) I hope this one is good to me, and that I am successful at improving myself. I have really lived a very long life - I...
    milehighHeartbreak milehighHeartbreak 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 1

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    I annoy myself so much. my mind never stops talking. i hate the sound of my own voice. i hate my reflection. i hate the way i look. i hate my personality. i hate everything about...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I do not know why I posted the last story. I think I'm just weird and over it. All of my sh!t's gonna be on blast one day. If not, then I've pretty much given up on becoming famous...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Even though i felt lonely, felt depression and suicidal things creeping up on my back bone, the only thing thats keeping me now from waking up with a razor and slitted wrist is the...
    CursedRaven CursedRaven 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I was 12 years old when I and thirty other kids were waiting outside in front of the school. It was the first week of secondary school. In a few minutes we would bike to a nearby...
    Jemoeder Jemoeder 26-30 1 Response Jan 4

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    if I make someone important upset or make myself upset I'll say negative things to myself and lock myself in my room and starve myself no matter how hungry I am
    LilahWolf LilahWolf 16-17, F Jan 5