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I Blame Myself

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    I Blame Myself For My Mums Death

    I was always moved around, never stayed in one place more than 6 months. My mother couldn't be without a man so would move from one disasterous relationship to another, dragging me along for the ride. Her final relationship ended with her death. She has got into an argument with...
    buscleaner buscleaner 31-35 May 2, 2010

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    This Is My Fault And I Know It

    about six months ago i got pregnant i cried thinking i hated it about a day later i fell in love with the idea of having a baby not ever 4 days later i found out my baby was already died i feel like this is my fault my body didn't take care of it. the next day was Easter and i...
    loveme00 loveme00 16-17, F Sep 1, 2012

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    For Everything

    Its all my fault. It always seems that it is. I grew up beliving everything bad that happened in the world could have been prevented by me if i had been better. Some things My father's death My great-grandmother's death My neighbors suicide My family...
    Tacit Tacit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2009

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    Wasn't Strong Enough

    I was emotionally unstable. I had been through a nightmare of a first marriage- things I'd rather not discuss right now. However, losing the baby, attempting suicide, etc. would have been enough to shake even the strongest person to his/her core. I convinced...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 24 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    I blame myself for my friends suicide.

    We had an argument that night about my cutting and he lost it. Told me he couldn't handle the pain I was putting him through. His last words to me were "I'm sorry. Sorry I loved someone so damaged. Sorry I met you. Sorry for this"
    PraiseGod101 PraiseGod101 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    I Encouraged My Mom to Go For a Cancer Treatment That Has Harmed Her

    I am so sorry I became the person in our family that researched all my mom's medical maladies and options over the years. Yes she has survived with Liver cancer after eye melanoma for over two years but her SirtSpheres in September didn't help and may have harmed her. I blame...
    chablis2103 chablis2103 36-40 1 Response Dec 16, 2008

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    When I was 14 I was raped,

    there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and it broke my heart, everyone including my parents thought I was lying. A few weeks back my best friend told me she was raped...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    I am 1 out of 11 brothers

    and sister all from the same mom and dad.. One of my brothers passed away 15 years ago and his name was Blake Logan weber.. And one day as we were young i took him out side so we could ride our little bikes and we were at the mail box and we saw are dad coming down the street...
    chadwjordan23 chadwjordan23 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I Deserve This.

    Hello and thank you for reading my story, First of let me tell you about me, I am fifteen and have a great family, two younger sisters and my parents still live together and love each other. We're not poor but not rich either, I am content with everything I have and get along...
    ThisSocietyKillsMe ThisSocietyKillsMe 13-15, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    For A Lot.

    I can blame myself because it was my fault. I got into drugs and alchahol when I was 13. When I turned 15 I became friends with a guy and a girl (I won't say names). He became my best friend, she my girlfriend. I was a fence/theif and a user/ they were honer students and had a...
    TheDarknessWithinMe TheDarknessWithinMe 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

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    Stupid

    I knew where this was heading. My brain desperately told my heart to stop....if only it had just listened. Now it's too late and I'm where I knew I'd be......hopelessly lost in the undertow of my emotions.
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    My Daughter

    I blame my self for my daughters lost.im thinking maybe if im there i should have done something or i could saved her life or maybe she fought if she knew that we are there.its very hard for me to tell my daughter that if she cannot fight for it its okay for her to rest,to tell...
    Sad12mom Sad12mom 26-30, F Mar 13, 2013

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    It Is A Terrible Habit

    I feel like I have no one to blame but myself. We're all in charge of our own destinies, right? So why did I put myself here? Nobody made me do it. I can't point a finger at anyone. I need to take responsibilities for my own actions, but where does it cross the line into blame...
    SonicReducer75 SonicReducer75 36-40, M Feb 26, 2010

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    I hurt myself again. After several years, I hurt myself again. I chose to hurt myself rather than hurt others. Everything is coming back to me. The pain, agony, self-pity and...
    purplefreespirit purplefreespirit 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    Gonna try to make this quick. I just wanna write this out cause I'm trying something new that i hope will help me. Im 15 years old male and I hate myself. I look in the mirror...
    Dann7 Dann7 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am a medical student who destroyed her life cuz she has no sense of responsability .. I blame any thing except myself .. I blame situation and friends but not my self !! I can't...
    Reemabdlhalm Reemabdlhalm 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I always am myself when it comes to anyone. I feel that it's better to be real and not fake. Life is way better that way.
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 49 mins ago

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    There is a saying that everything in life comes as a blessing. It's part of our destiny and our path towards our life. We perceive events in our lives as good or bad, we make...
    xogymfish xogymfish 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    I hate myself for all the lies and deception I inflicted on my current boyfriend. I blame my family particularly. I am a cheater and this means I have broken my own value system. I...
    Deadlynightshade5 Deadlynightshade5 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My marriage has been on unstable ground for quite some time. This morning my husband blamed me for the lack of intimacy in our relationship. He did not want to accept that my lack...
    lipservice22 lipservice22 31-35, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My head is a mess. I think I can't do this anymore, but then I think well I have to. By this, I mean life. I've felt this way before, a long time ago, but that came in surges...
    ForBetterOrForWorse ForBetterOrForWorse 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    I have failed all my life. I am to blame for all my mistakes. I am responsible for my pathetic life, and I will change it. I have to stand up and fight myself to forge a new soul...
    Guest4111 Guest4111 13-15, M Aug 19

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    When there's something in the house with something, it's always me who is blamed for that and i really hate explaining that it was not my mistake so i just shut my mouth and listen...
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M Aug 7

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    It was very happy in the beginning. At first you let yourself believe that what you're feeling in this moment- the swell in your chest that arises to surprise you throughout the...
    VakreLivet VakreLivet 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    After being torn down, blamed, and isolated in a rocky marriage, I have nowhere to go but up. I see potential and small positive ideas and strategies that I would like to build...
    nocturnalhound nocturnalhound 31-35, M Aug 12

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    It is only you to trust and to blame for when it comes to love
    ItsAnnaLena ItsAnnaLena 26-30, F Aug 19

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    More often than not, people don't keep their word. Those who have repeatedly hurt you emotionally may call or text and act "nice", but living with them is a different story so don...
    honestyreality honestyreality 22-25, F 23 hrs ago

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    I cut myself today. I am so ashamed. I haven't done something like that since I was a teenager. I used to cut myself all the time when I was younger. I had some issues growing up I...
    Thinkofme Thinkofme 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 10

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    My story is that I have a sickness inside that I don't know how to make go away. It's hard to define this sickness other than a pervading poison that is eating me from the inside...
    Shellybelle Shellybelle 41-45, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    It all started about 4 years ago in junior high. I started growing up, going through hormonal changes, and some adjustments in life. And in the process I started dating (Late I...
    kittybabe100 kittybabe100 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    I am really bad due to self punishment and can be really negative on myself! I beat myself up, hate myself when i make a mistake or say something wrong or annoy someone or do...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    Today I talked like "a guy" to my friend who's a girl, and she didn't like it. She told me so.... actually she didn't. She said she had some things to do and she wanted to go. I...
    MCxxOPREVxxOG MCxxOPREVxxOG 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    I don't have money for food, a place to stay. So I'm going homeless, no family and nobody who can help me. My drug addiction doesn't really help either. I am having a tough time...
    YoungRidah YoungRidah 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 9

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    i appreciate my own company. i always have but ive been lonely too. now im making a bit of effort because ive left myself alone or in someone elses hands for too long. its weird...
    luckylassie luckylassie 51-55, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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    It's therapy to me. The relaxing part of the day. If I don't talk to myself, I think that would make me even crazier than how society already sees me. I'm an introvert. I hate...
    dustyoldclock dustyoldclock 18-21, F Aug 20

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    I hate myself the pain and humiliation I caused my parents by marrying outside my religion. I hate myself for for forcing my husband to convert to my religion albeit for show...
    Hbee1980 Hbee1980 31-35, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm trying to find my own version of happiness and a life that feels right for me. I have so many sides of me I'm trying to fit all together. I consider myself relatively traveled...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Partly by myself.. Havent done it active-active.. But active/passively or call it passively-active. I sort of have the belief, that when everyone is gone. Just by myself. Then I...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    what i have for myself is beyond hate. i hate everything about myself. i hate my own existence. i hate my parents for having me. i hate god for creating such a weak helpless being...
    SlaveToMyBullshit SlaveToMyBullshit 18-21 1 Response Aug 1

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    I love spending time by myself. Probably mostly because of my social anxiety, but also because of the way I was raised. As a teenager with high school parents, I was never allowed...
    Skywalker1979 Skywalker1979 31-35, M Aug 8

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    What to hate about me? I'm too perfect to live in this world XD jk! Seriously.. Sometimes i love myself like a lover other times like a best friend Sometimes I hate myself but...
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F Aug 3

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    I grew up in a fairly conservative Midwest town, and as such told myself when I was younger that I would never be one of "those girls who makes out with other girls at parties or...
    hottiewithabody94 hottiewithabody94 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 4

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    I have been out of work for over a year. I am trying to find work but it is very difficult. Lately I have been mad at myself and feeling down. I started spanking myself. I get nude...
    mmccoy43 mmccoy43 41-45, M Aug 7

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    I'm having those feelings again. I've been trying hard to believe in myself and be productive. Doing that I feel requires self-esteem of some sort. So I'd like to let these...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    So I'm super cool. Like the coolest person out there. So when I'm in my room I'll go over to my mirror and start rapping. Just to myself. And it's like really hardcore rapping like...
    Wynnieskye Wynnieskye 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    I am 5'7 and 205 pounds. In high school I used to be 120 pounds and looked sick, but I felt beautiful. I hate myself so much for how much weight I put on. I hate going outside...
    Calicogirl20 Calicogirl20 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    Umm this started when 9 idk how well i stared talking to myself my room LOL Kun idk know how i stared but i talk to myself alot alot and its normal for me i get caught by my little...
    Deeshnay Deeshnay 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    I like myself very much. I take care of myself. I never let anything go to waste. I find myself very attractive. I like myself very much. I knew I was going to live a happy life...
    lycheechan lycheechan 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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