Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Boderline Personality Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 4 People

    WHAT IS - A BREAK DOWN OF IT: Personality disorder involve patterns of behavior, mood, social interaction and impulsiveness that causes distress to the one experiencing them...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm on this site as a last resort and reaching out to others for help. Thank you for taking the time to read. I myself have PTSD and major depression disorder. I married a man that...
    Neverfirstforeverlast Neverfirstforeverlast 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The thing I hate the most about Avoidant Personality Disorder is being in large class rooms. I can feel their gazes pick me apart with acute precision, and when I ask something I...
    DestinyEvelyn DestinyEvelyn 18-21, T Aug 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I had a panic attack Friday night and was suicidal, I went to the hospital and the psychiatrist told me he thinks it's likely I have borderline personality disorder. If this is...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I haven't written in a while. Not that there hasn't been anything to share. Simply that... I've been attempting to live my life without diarizing all of it publicly. I started...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I am new on EP, and I got here because I wanted to talk about this. Sorry if some things aren't clear, English isn't my mother tongue. I didn't went to any therapy or...
    SemperFilthy SemperFilthy 16-17, F Sep 14

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Who the **** am I????? I'm so beyond confused right now. It seems like since I got diagnosed idk what was really me and what was the disorder. My anger is irrational, I fall in...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm actually an alter in a certain someones system. I posted it here cause they post in the Dissociative Identity disorder experience. I don't think the host would be mad I made an...
    goatmother goatmother 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    hi just need to vent not feeling well i feel like im going off the deep end i dont like getting up in the morning anymore i want to avoid the night time when i get my cycle my...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It is another way for the mind professionals to blame the victims of bad luck bad upbringing poverty and general indifference. If PD was a valid way of making distinctions between...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Went to see my shrink today and after 4 long years am finally down to ONLY one pill a day!! Yeah, the pills make me feel normal..but at the same time it feels so fake! They're...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    how do you love your self as i loathe myself i need love but cant receive my kid parts super angry at my parents as when i was younger i needproper parents and it so affected big...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've been having a real ****** time being happy. Not exactly sure I feel like writing. I just know I haven't been doing that well.
    ashless ashless 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Last week was so rough for me. It was truly manic. I cried for about 4 days straight and literally wanted to die. I felt that everyone at work could tell I was crazy and were...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Feeling not depressed but weird.. just finished watching Halloween (2007 remake) for some reason feels like me in that mental hospital.. those kind of places only make you worse...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Off the medicine I'm not sure now I feel about my choice..
    emoscreamo101 emoscreamo101 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hmmm..stay on the meds or get off them? I'm going through that question right now.. Am down to one a day (from a high of 6 after every meal, 18 a day). I want to quit the meds but...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M Aug 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Everything in my life ive messed up, sick of feeling the way I do. Meds just mask the way I am. The reality is I either learn how to live with it or give up
    cleef84 cleef84 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Oh my god guys I just freaked out at my boyfriend I hate myself so much right now Why can't this go away >.< I can't deal with this I'm so sad i freaked out at him and yelled...
    emoscreamo101 emoscreamo101 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Well it helped one person so might help so of you others! The BPD song for all of us! lol https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=NJDNjsc7nRA
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Those of us who suffer BPD know where hell really is. It's inside us. No escaping the agony, pain and torture. No reprieve. It's in every moment of our day, our dreams and our...
    AussieAZ AussieAZ 41-45, M 3 Responses Aug 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have been crying for two days straight. I have been sleeping all day because I exhaust myself with my thoughts. Now I can't sleep at night. I have also been very angry with my...
    stephaniekaye stephaniekaye 26-30, F Aug 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have been crying for two days straight. I have been sleeping all day because I exhaust myself with my thoughts. Now I can't sleep at night. I have also been very angry with my...
    stephaniekaye stephaniekaye 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I could so use some help and advice if some of you could take the time to try and help someone who is suffering and needs the help. GUILT IS...
    Altruistrick Altruistrick 56-60, M 6 Responses Aug 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i feel like i dont wan to go on anymore everuday im sick and fricken tired of fighting this im not healthy my stupid pshe nurse changed my meds a while back and has left me crying...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 30

    Your Response

    Cancel
    so uh.... have any of you... experienced another Alters dream before? Because I did last night.... It was only a small bit of it, like 20 seconds of the dream.... anyone else had...
    FullHotel FullHotel 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 30

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have three other personalities. First up is Paul. Paul like to hurt people. He likes to fight, move around, and is thrill seeking. Paul had his moment once. Once. Since then, I...
    JohnBobMac JohnBobMac 16-17, T 1 Response Aug 31

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Is it possible for an alter to have experience memories, of something that they can't have possibly experienced? for example; a 57 year old male alter, having war memories. And...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 31

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My mind is riddled with metaphors and I dream in code. I was feeling very low one day and had this vision as I was half in and half out of sleep. I saw a dark crossroads, down...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Aug 31

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi everybody. I've been reading a lot of your stories and they hit home with me. I see a lot of my views and experiences in your posts. I've suffered on and off with mental...
    Pheebs1990 Pheebs1990 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 31

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I think I had it for the longest time-met this friend thought it's all good now.stopped unhealthy activities and tried hard to save that friend too.coz thatfriend stil does this...
    Sophiakhan1 Sophiakhan1 18-21, F Sep 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've been reading, posting, and commenting on this group for awhile. I notice a lot of women come here asking what they can do to improve their marriages or make their husband...
    JacobsGirl360 JacobsGirl360 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It sucks. If you even feel a tinge of abandonment, you turn into this insecure, self-destructive monster. You start fights or start thinking that it'll never end & everyone will...
    Susananais Susananais 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    To all the people who look down on, degrade and ridicule people with BPD I would like to invite you to come walk a mile in our shoes!
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 4 Responses Sep 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i dont know what to say i guess im numb and messed aup im so overweight i dont know how to live myself im am tired of life everyone is living life i feel like a freak i dont know...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Can feel myself growing distant again. It's where I'm most comfortable. Dealing with realizing my codependency issues and trying to work thru those. Surprised my boyfriend hasn't...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I want to understand borderline more. No, I don't have it. I was misdiagnosed once, but I do have aspergers. Anyways, I have a friend with BPD and I wish to write a book about BPD...
    nikkianni nikkianni 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have 6 different alters they include a child alter, a happy energetic alter, a sad alter, a angry alter and a protector alter. I have had them ever since I was a child and we all...
    Jasmine368 Jasmine368 16-17, F 7 Responses Sep 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    needing to vent im feeling so fricken angry i wont open up im tired of the pain i cant cry desperate for love i keep looking for a home who knowmaybe i nned attention i feel illi...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It has been suggested that this is what I'm dealing with. I've been reading a lot into it and tbh I think it hits the nail on the head. I've been referred to a psychiatrist to...
    FallenForDeceit FallenForDeceit 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I feel really, really bad... I keep having these dreams about how my parents treated me before they put me in a mental hospital, then about the year I spent in the mental hospital...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i just found this link http://bpd.about.com/od/livingwithbpd/a/Coping.htm , not adding much from what i've already knew but still a nice reading material.. still struggling to...
    yayforKay yayforKay 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    have you ever stayed in a relationship because you're afraid of being alone? I don't know if I am.. I don't think I am staying in it for that reason.. I love someone so much but...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    does anyone here to know how to cope i get up struggling everyday is a struggle just to get through the day ive gained so much weight that could be it i smoke to much its so black...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Just told a girl that said she thought I was cute to **** off and then got totally drunk so I'm gonna rant a bit now! Don't even think you understand what I'm going through! Don't...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I hate how you can feel a sad episode coming on yet can do absolutely nothing about it to stop from coming.
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I hate when I can feel a sad episode coming on yet can't do anything to stop it from coming.
    aligain aligain 31-35, F