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    WHAT IS - A BREAK DOWN OF IT: Personality disorder involve patterns of behavior, mood, social interaction and impulsiveness that causes distress to the one experiencing them...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 8

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    I'm on this site as a last resort and reaching out to others for help. Thank you for taking the time to read. I myself have PTSD and major depression disorder. I married a man that...
    Neverfirstforeverlast Neverfirstforeverlast 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    I had a panic attack Friday night and was suicidal, I went to the hospital and the psychiatrist told me he thinks it's likely I have borderline personality disorder. If this is...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    Hi. I post lots of stuff here. However, this is more of serious post. I am in hopes of finding some answers. I have a 5 yr old student at school, and I suspect that he may have a...
    TCL009 TCL009 41-45, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    and it's taken over my entire life. When I read about others having the disorder, I shift from feeling comforted (when I am relating to their symptoms) to utter hopelessness...
    jasiilovely jasiilovely 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I haven't written in a while. Not that there hasn't been anything to share. Simply that... I've been attempting to live my life without diarizing all of it publicly. I started...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    Hi, I am new on EP, and I got here because I wanted to talk about this. Sorry if some things aren't clear, English isn't my mother tongue. I didn't went to any therapy or...
    SemperFilthy SemperFilthy 16-17, F Sep 14

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    Who the **** am I????? I'm so beyond confused right now. It seems like since I got diagnosed idk what was really me and what was the disorder. My anger is irrational, I fall in...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 11

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    I'm actually an alter in a certain someones system. I posted it here cause they post in the Dissociative Identity disorder experience. I don't think the host would be mad I made an...
    goatmother goatmother 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 16

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    hi just need to vent not feeling well i feel like im going off the deep end i dont like getting up in the morning anymore i want to avoid the night time when i get my cycle my...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 17

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    It is another way for the mind professionals to blame the victims of bad luck bad upbringing poverty and general indifference. If PD was a valid way of making distinctions between...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 20

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    I am recently out of the "denial" that I have a disorder. I am consciously aware that the thought processes within my neurological wiring are malfunctioning. I have the behaviors...
    utteringartist87 utteringartist87 26-30 1 Response 1 day ago

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    how do you love your self as i loathe myself i need love but cant receive my kid parts super angry at my parents as when i was younger i needproper parents and it so affected big...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    i feel like i dont wan to go on anymore everuday im sick and fricken tired of fighting this im not healthy my stupid pshe nurse changed my meds a while back and has left me crying...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Aug 30

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    so uh.... have any of you... experienced another Alters dream before? Because I did last night.... It was only a small bit of it, like 20 seconds of the dream.... anyone else had...
    FullHotel FullHotel 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 30

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    I have three other personalities. First up is Paul. Paul like to hurt people. He likes to fight, move around, and is thrill seeking. Paul had his moment once. Once. Since then, I...
    JohnBobMac JohnBobMac 16-17, T 1 Response Aug 31

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    Is it possible for an alter to have experience memories, of something that they can't have possibly experienced? for example; a 57 year old male alter, having war memories. And...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 31

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    My mind is riddled with metaphors and I dream in code. I was feeling very low one day and had this vision as I was half in and half out of sleep. I saw a dark crossroads, down...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Aug 31

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    Hi everybody. I've been reading a lot of your stories and they hit home with me. I see a lot of my views and experiences in your posts. I've suffered on and off with mental...
    Pheebs1990 Pheebs1990 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 31

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    I think I had it for the longest time-met this friend thought it's all good now.stopped unhealthy activities and tried hard to save that friend too.coz thatfriend stil does this...
    Sophiakhan1 Sophiakhan1 18-21, F Sep 1

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    I've been reading, posting, and commenting on this group for awhile. I notice a lot of women come here asking what they can do to improve their marriages or make their husband...
    JacobsGirl360 JacobsGirl360 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 1

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    It sucks. If you even feel a tinge of abandonment, you turn into this insecure, self-destructive monster. You start fights or start thinking that it'll never end & everyone will...
    Susananais Susananais 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 1

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    To all the people who look down on, degrade and ridicule people with BPD I would like to invite you to come walk a mile in our shoes!
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 5 Responses Sep 1

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    i dont know what to say i guess im numb and messed aup im so overweight i dont know how to live myself im am tired of life everyone is living life i feel like a freak i dont know...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 2

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    Can feel myself growing distant again. It's where I'm most comfortable. Dealing with realizing my codependency issues and trying to work thru those. Surprised my boyfriend hasn't...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 3

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    I want to understand borderline more. No, I don't have it. I was misdiagnosed once, but I do have aspergers. Anyways, I have a friend with BPD and I wish to write a book about BPD...
    nikkianni nikkianni 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 4

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    I have 6 different alters they include a child alter, a happy energetic alter, a sad alter, a angry alter and a protector alter. I have had them ever since I was a child and we all...
    Jasmine368 Jasmine368 16-17, F 7 Responses Sep 4

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    needing to vent im feeling so fricken angry i wont open up im tired of the pain i cant cry desperate for love i keep looking for a home who knowmaybe i nned attention i feel illi...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Sep 4

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    It has been suggested that this is what I'm dealing with. I've been reading a lot into it and tbh I think it hits the nail on the head. I've been referred to a psychiatrist to...
    FallenForDeceit FallenForDeceit 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 4

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    I feel really, really bad... I keep having these dreams about how my parents treated me before they put me in a mental hospital, then about the year I spent in the mental hospital...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 5

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    i just found this link http://bpd.about.com/od/livingwithbpd/a/Coping.htm , not adding much from what i've already knew but still a nice reading material.. still struggling to...
    yayforKay yayforKay 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    have you ever stayed in a relationship because you're afraid of being alone? I don't know if I am.. I don't think I am staying in it for that reason.. I love someone so much but...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 5

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    does anyone here to know how to cope i get up struggling everyday is a struggle just to get through the day ive gained so much weight that could be it i smoke to much its so black...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 5

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    Just told a girl that said she thought I was cute to **** off and then got totally drunk so I'm gonna rant a bit now! Don't even think you understand what I'm going through! Don't...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I hate how you can feel a sad episode coming on yet can do absolutely nothing about it to stop from coming.
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I hate when I can feel a sad episode coming on yet can't do anything to stop it from coming.
    aligain aligain 31-35, F Sep 7

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    I hate how I can feel a sad episode coming on yet there is nothing I can do to stop it from coming.
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 7

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    I think the pills I take could be working but just not in the right way? I take Effexor and Sulpiride. I think they are giving me headaches and also causing me not to care about...
    Beatles22 Beatles22 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 8

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    Waiting outside my psychiatrist's office! What to talk about today?
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M Sep 9

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    Well just been diagnosed with bpd and adhd on top of that so just starting to get my head around it all so hope meet other and talk to them about it all
    philipm42 philipm42 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 9

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    im feeling down im not sure what to write i feel like i want to give up i feel imature to day nothing works i feel like im just donr everyone is too nice i have a part that doesnt...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    Ok uhh, talked with my psychiatrist yesterday and we decided to try a three week trial period of no meds! So I'm one day in and I'm getting serious withdrawals... I'm cycling so...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 10

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    I'm tired of feelings like this. I hate getting upset over the smallest things and having impulsive thoughts take over my mind. I don't want to feel angry or sad anymore. I feel...
    highorlow highorlow 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 10

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    I'm not quite sure this qualifies as an experience, but Arthur wanted me to share it with you all- Host Hello to all. This poem was written about the only female alter in our...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M Sep 12

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    I started regularly weekly therapy 5 years ago after a lifetime of severe trauma. I was immediately diagnosed with BPD. Actually, I was pretty thrilled to know there was a real...
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 12

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    And sometimes it feels like a death sentence on long nights like tonight when you realize your only friends in the world are on other continents or halfway across the country all...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 13

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    i need to vent i called my brother today big fricken mistaken anyways i was telling him about my situation with a my landlord controlling me hes a hole iwasnt being mindful anywas...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 5 Responses