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I Boderline Personality Disorder

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    I feel the constant need to be in control. I have always had anger issues and always been told to control it. Although I have come along way since I was diagnosed I still lose it...
    QOIMJ QOIMJ 18-21, F 16 hrs ago

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    I'm in constant fear of going in and not coming back out for a while. the longest I did was almost a year. my husband hates it. he's begged me to stay, which I try really hard to...
    nnysspawn nnysspawn 36-40, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel so stupid for this. like I should be able to control it but sometimes I can't. and when I can it makes me feel like I must be full of it.
    JessygotaBooBoo JessygotaBooBoo 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I had a friend who I really liked talking to, but for a year now, he repulses me and I hate him. I don't have any interest in talking to him anymore. My brain makes me think he's...
    ghostofthesun ghostofthesun 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Do any of you have empathy?
    Idontwanttosendyouapic Idontwanttosendyouapic 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Yes I always stand on Mexican border saying hello to different persons...i need Help!!
    Engine9 Engine9 31-35, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My boyfriend dumped me because I have too many issues. I don't know what to do. I just want to die.
    biffiebabie13 biffiebabie13 36-40, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Our little alter suddenly is afraid of ghosts :O
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    omg sometimes I get so fukin tired of my choices in life. but no matter how hard I try I can never seem to not make the same choices. it's just the personality disorder at work...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I just want to hit our therapist in the face. I hate ignorant people
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    My boyfriend has been ignoring me all night. I'm scared that he is going to leave me for another woman, who is hid friend. I know that I am not normal, I have tried talking to him...
    biffiebabie biffiebabie 36-40, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I just don't feel ok. the others make me lose everyone I have
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have BPD. I am about to lose my partner because I am so clingy, then I push him away. I self harm and abuse pills. Is there a self help group out there? I just want to be normal...
    biffiebabie biffiebabie 36-40, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    There are days I hate my life. In other words hating my life is hating my parents, my father in particular. I was my family's scapegoat. Yep, I inherited that dreadful honorable...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    **** OCPD ---> [OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE PERSONALITY DISORDER] <<<<<<...
    ChaoticEnigma ChaoticEnigma 36-40, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    So I'm not allowed to be out draw, write, interact with people, make friends and do the things I like because all I'm allowed to do is 'serve' our host? ? I'm not a slave! Iris
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    i feel so sad and lonely and abandoned everyday is the same im afraid to wake up i dont want o do anything anymore today is the first day in 5 days ive done something this illness...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    But I'm pretty unique to other Borderlines. Anybody else feel alone, even with this?
    leflay leflay 22-25, T 2 Responses a week ago

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    I find a lot of people on EP have misunderstandings about what borderline personality disorder is (like mixing up different disorders). So for anyone coming on this page for...
    AnonymousKCQ AnonymousKCQ 22-25, F a week ago

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    It All Makes Sense Now. A chance encounter and some independent research resulted in my realization that for the last 5 years my behavior, experiences, and relationships would...
    Missluhvlee Missluhvlee 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I want to escape the home I live in I want to be free
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F Feb 5

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    If you have this disorder can you please message me? I have some questions and I am wondering if I , myself might be.! thanks
    LunaDove LunaDove 18-21, F Feb 3

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    I'm taking control of my disorder. I'll ride through the emotions it brings me, feel them fully, and let them go as they pass rather than clinging for dear life and desperately...
    twistedxalice twistedxalice 22-25, F Feb 3

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    A few days ago I posted how my head hurts and how I have to let ago of a relationship. Also to use it as an opportunity to reflect on my issues. So here goes. The thing that sucks...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F Feb 3

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    ... Blank ... I feel like that sums up me right now. I feel like I'm losing hope.
    Jlb13592 Jlb13592 26-30, M Feb 2

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    But I am NOT: -Crazy -Manipulative -A promiscous person
    Blueborder21 Blueborder21 18-21, F Feb 2

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    One day I asked the DBT therapist to lead a mindfulness activity as a repair for showing up to the previous group late. My individual therapist encouraged me to give an explanation...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I accepted that there's going to be up and downs. The downs doesn't make me a failure, however, it is an opportunity to explore what is inflicting me and sharpen my skills. I'm...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F Feb 1

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    I don't have BPD but my (ex) boyfriend may have it so coming here to learn. Hopefully that is okay.
    Lann2015 Lann2015 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I can't live like this forever. I'm not in physical danger, but I'm feeling hopeless. Is there reason to hope?
    mymaidenname mymaidenname 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I really dislike it when people presume to know you from one brief EP post
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 31

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    Ever since my early teenage years I have been struggling to make head or tail of my life, I have been bounced from counsellors to doctors, then psychotherapists and back more times...
    alphapuppy alphapuppy 18-21, T 1 Response Jan 31

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    My head hurts. For the past couple of months my symptoms were being triggered by what I suspect to be a narcissist. I was sucked in to his cycle of discard and being placed on...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    There's a part of me, which would like to meet a girl that has BPD just so she can meet a few of my darker needs just because I think the others don't get it. Any girls out there...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 31

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    Recently diagnosed, learning coping strategies... Feels like if I even go near the thoughts I'm supposed to challenge, it amplifies them and makes them so scary... I fight against...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 31

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    My Girlfriend had BPD. Over the past few months, her disorder has become increasingly more difficult. I have been fed up for at least a few weeks. I think being "stuck" together...
    hopefullyRD hopefullyRD 36-40, M 3 Responses Jan 30

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    I have a question for those of you who have also been given this diagnosis. I was diagnosed about 1.5 years ago, and it has certainly been the worst period of my life. I feel...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 29

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    I am the ultimate loner, have tried unsuccessfully to fit in to different groups my whole life. Recently I tried to make friends with a group of people who are considered the...
    sguy1823 sguy1823 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    I like to see my blood... I like to vomit after I drunk a lot of wine and hard liquor... I do not like to eat too much and wrong foods, as medicines make me do... I do not like to...
    bpd86it bpd86it 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    Having borderline personality is like being normal but intensified. You feel like your mind is pure chaos and you try to act as normal as you can be so no one’s figures it out...
    Blueborder21 Blueborder21 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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