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    I absolutely hate playing pretend but I love it when it suits me I feel dead most of the time unless I'm interacting or planning I have horrible impulse control I day dream of...
    DontScream4Help DontScream4Help 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    I just can't cope at the moment. I'm having counselling and "personality" has been mentioned, and, now I really think about it, perhaps my having a personality disorder would "fit...
    Chaleureuse Chaleureuse 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I managed to creep myself out... A lot. I just looked through some of my old papers and stuff. I must have had borderline personality disorder for a long long time. I kept emails...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I am have been diagnosed as with borderline personality disorder last year.Such a relief.I think I have had it for 10 years and have inherited it from my mother.Who I forgive,If...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    10 years after being with my man, 2 kids and in the past year- 2 years something isn't right. In the last few months it has really blown up. He is extremely paranoid after reading...
    thinkin0fme thinkin0fme 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    What is the outlook like for someone with this disorder, whether in treatment or not? If you have this, how long have you known? What steps have you taken to manage it, and how is...
    anniemagus anniemagus 31-35, F Jan 12

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    I've always had it. I never played with the other kids at recess from pre school to 5th grade. Middle school was a living hell and now I go to an alternative high school. I have a...
    classAteam classAteam 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I hate the drama I always create in my life. It's like I'm doomed to drag myself into my own dramatic stories. Why does this disorder hurt so much??
    styxc styxc 18-21, M Jan 4

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    Does anyone else have urges to where they are compelled to do something to "Fix" themselves? Yesterday I felt like I had to cut my hair. I did this once before and that time I...
    insanepoet84 insanepoet84 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    My mother got icy cold cause I she wanted a scarf I had ,and I could not give it to her then and there.She proceeded to dramatize how she needs nothing from me,and she is capable...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    ok. I don't really know what I'm doing. glad this is anonymous bc I don't want to be doing this wrong. I know a lot of people are very judge mental towards me & I have a hard time...
    goodatnothing goodatnothing 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    this "personality" is a curse
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 4

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    I know what could have made me like this. I've never been tested for reasons behind my problems, (I was told I have social phobia and I know that but I'm sure I also have APD too...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Jan 14

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    Put so much effort into looking nice today thinking my boyfriend was picking me up after work so I could stay at his. Even though he's going out with his friend. Packed my bag had...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    im out of the hopital but im feeling realy un healthy and ill insid ei dont undestand whats going on i feel like i have apersonality that needs to flip i am so depressed and cant...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    Sorry for existing.....but I'm here
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 4 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    she will never understand how much it hurts.....to feel rejected, to feel angry, to feel judged, to feel walked on.....
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I can't sleep because of her
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I feel like people like me don't deserve to be alive. My boyfriend got sick with the flu and all I did is start a fight and feel unwanted... I'm so tired of being selfish, mood...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    So i walked outside today in nothing but a sweatshirt and running pants for 20 min. its 17 degrees here. i walked until i went numb. i thought it would help lessen the pain inside...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M Dec 31, 2014

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    So I'm here my bf is sick he tells me to go out with my friends for new years asks me at what time I'll leave, turns around and asks me to cash his check which i don't mind, but...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    so it's New Years and everyone's excited and happy.... but not me. I hate that I can feel it in myself that I want to be miserable and complain and probably make a bad night of it...
    cherBearCJ cherBearCJ 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    **** it. I feel like ****.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M Jan 1

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    everything I do is wrong, should I even try? Wish I could just die... It's all I want
    melibar melibar 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 1

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    I truly hate holidays so glad there over with... so glad they're over with and all the who we're going to, what we're doing and ugh the meeting new ppl, being surrounded trying to...
    melibar melibar 26-30, F Jan 1

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    Another suicide attempt last night. Drinking makes me act crazy sometimes, I over react to things, get bursts of rage, ball my eyes out... I'm upset that I ****** up my sisters...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 1

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    I feel like there's this darkness surrounding me and I'm chained to it now. I don't even have to try to resist food anymore. I just don't want it. Although it sounds crazy,I keep...
    poodahpop poodahpop 18-21, T Jan 1

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    so Christmas was good... I got more than I needed and I am very appreciative but I just felt like empty the whole day.. like why is Christmas all about getting gifts to some people...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Jan 1

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    The holidays bring out the worst in me emotionally. I'm having a really horrible day and am going through an episode. Trying to fight it off but it is still there.
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    I'd really like to know if my story is similar to anybody else's. I was diagnosed with BPD at 14, after being told it was Depression, then Bipolar, etc etc. Almost as if it was a...
    skyworm skyworm 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    i needing to vent im so lonely i dont feel real im so fricked up i cant cope i dont want o bew in this world why is it like you dont have a parent i dont even want to go on this...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Jan 2

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    I'm doomed I'm too ****** up
    styxc styxc 18-21, M Jan 4

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    One week with a blade and this is my arm. One day with the pills and there will go my life. What have I become?
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    im so sick and tired of fricken being like this i literally feel ill i cant deal withhtis im a mental screwq up why do we feel sick no energy dont get it all i do is stay in my...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Completely forgot to take my meds this morning. I had a good day but then I started shaking and feeling sick to my stomach. I just took them. It's that ever present reminder that...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F Jan 4

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    I hate the days where I am really paranoid.. I have already convinced myself that someone has been in my apartment for about 20 hours, they kidnapped my fiancee, and they changed...
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Feeling beautiful today when I haven't for a very long time ❤️
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F Jan 5

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    Bpd is making me very lonely and suicidal at the min people around me who don't have it don't understand and its getting me down. Just need some one to talk to who understands what...
    abscar1990 abscar1990 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    My dad just came home. He seemed mad at me . He asked me why I sounded funny on the phone when we spoke a while ago. I told him it was because I said "hola" in a Spanish voice. But...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    I've been diagnosed with APD for 3 years now, I'm sure I've had it my entire life because I cant remember the last time I cared, or had empathy for anything. Maybe I'm a psychopath...
    DakotaMuffin DakotaMuffin 16-17, M 3 Responses Jan 6

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    Never going to get better.......
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 7

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    FemaleBorderlineSociopath FemaleBorderlineSociopath 31-35, F Jan 8

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    Please follow my blog at: http://femaleborderlinesociopath.blogspot.ca/
    FemaleBorderlineSociopath FemaleBorderlineSociopath 31-35, F Jan 8

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    this emotional overload I can't handle without freaking out!
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 8

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    I have a job interview this afternoon, and I am so incredibly nervous.
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 8