I Breathe Crimson

My mind whispers Tradition My mind screams Pride My veins bleed Crimson And heart pumps Tide!! Roll Tide Roll

When people lose their tact
Perhaps it's their cause or an act
I dare not make myself false
To react blindly as quick as the pulse.
Just let them be
Perhaps they will later see
To how they want to feel
Life is like a wheel.
Spreading my...

sometimes
its all too much
to take in
I feel like Wes Bently in "American Beauty"
overwhelmed with a
simplicity & complexity
that yields 
a clenched heart 
and a pit in my stomach like right before
toppling
over
the
edge
of Niagra...

It’s rare I use the word 'shame'. However in this context it seems the only word suitable, & upon its application in thought brought me to tears. The "Americans " in charge of *dumping the remains of soldiers* in landfills after...

"Oh, Misery, I have drunk thy cup of sorrow to its dregs, but I am still a rebel." - Lucy Parsons
I have found, in 35 years, nothing worth Living for except the Truth that resognates in my own Be~Ing.
I have found, in Liv~Ing that Truth...

I took a picture
of myself
the other day
amazed by my own lying eyes
stubbornly 
shining &
refusing to reveal
my splintering
splitting
heart

This past two weeks
has touched places
all at once
in such an intense and dramatic way 
I'm a deer in headlights
my heart searing with a pain indescribable
and no way of gaining an understanding
its all beyond the Mind
beyond calendars...

I guess it's all a symbol of carnage and I just can't meet the standards of why why why I don't fit the picture the ideal of how it's all supposed to be and fit together needless to say nothing ever comes in precut pieces for me I have...

If a person is in love and trusts someone they won't feel the need to protect themselves by only investing themselves in the relationship as much as they perceive their partner doing so.  Really loving and trusting someone should...

to Be

Alone

yet experience Love
in the form
of the breeze
a squirrel
a dog
a bird
the blinding Sun
a leaf
girls giggling as they run through the street
Me

to experience
Love
Given
Freely
without the permission
the expectation
a net...

I think I sprained my throat. .
It doesn't surprise me my eyes are amoungst the first things to show my age.  I've never been a shades of gray kinda'Gyrl. .seems every emotion is off the Richter scale for me, perhaps because I really...

I left the theatre
my breath a pressured
pained
rasping
death rattle
I hadn't read the book
I didn't know what the Story
was. . . .
I sat in the center of the black box
if the seats had been removed
it would have been as if I was...

How todescribetheflavorofthismelodythisgroovesoftwarmspicedsweetfleshsliversthroughsoundteethanticipatingnearlycravingthe guidingbitof thehiprecallingrekindlingthescentcrystalsweatsaltlaidlikejewelson skinandstaking claimsto the...

I straight don't know what I'm doing.
Or what I'm going to do.
Sitting in the Now yields only heart wrenching pain, and sleep only promises a waking with a searing heart. A literal heat that makes me wince first wake and regret the...

I'd rather
Leap
in Hope,
in Trust,
in Belief,
in Dreams,
in Love,
in Passion,
in Desire,
in
*Living* *Life* *Fully*,
compassionately,
beautifully,
infinitely,
perserveringly,
gently,
silently,
Freely~
and
****fall on my face every time...

In regards to the horrific violence this young, 14 year old girl has suffered:
It is obviously disheartening. While disheartening for many reasons, an additional reason is that this violence will serve to perpetuate the myth that...

It was going pretty well today. . . .
up until what I thought was junk mail
was a confirmation
of his change of address
form received
Ironic
how a simple form letter 
feels like getting tazed
Sends me whirling back into a shock, I just...

Security is for fat people Sanity for those afraid to be insane I'm gone One day I disappeared and I didn't even notice The Evaporation All my demons fled I don't want to be successful I desire Everything Anything but complacency...