I Build Walls Around My Heart

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    I took them down when I met him.

    Little by little, I allowed him in. It was terrifying. But I found him worthy. Now, I'm going to start putting them back up. Brick by brick. I let myself become too open a target. I let words hurt me, and creep under my skin. I need my defenses back, to put a distance between...
    iamrae22 iamrae22
    22-25, F
    Sep 14, 2015

    Walls

    I think thats pretty normal for people who have been hurt a lot in life. Letting people in after experiencing heart break is something that is scary to many people. What makes it worse, is often, our emotions are so raw from being hurt so many times, that when we finally do let...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Nov 13, 2012

    The best way to not get your heart broken is to

    pretend like you don't have one.
    Antivist0 Antivist0
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 29, 2015

    It has been a long time

    since the foundation was laid. But with every ounce if pain and every tear shed my wall began to grow. I felt myself become colder. 'Nobody can break through or climb my walls' I promised myself and if there was ever an attempt I would just make the wall higher. Everybody goes...
    AllieQueenOfHearts AllieQueenOfHearts
    16-17, F
    Aug 15, 2015

    Too Afraid To Look

    I build walls around my heart. I am afraid of what people will find there, even though I think I'm mostly okay with all I've done. I want to tear the walls down so bad, but don't know how. I don't think I even know what's behind them anymore, I'm too afraid to look. It's too...
    royalmint royalmint
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 25, 2013

    Walls made of steel. No one can get in

    or out of it. People try but good luck with that lol
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 17, 2014

    Like building a fortress to keep out the world.

    ..I have built up the strongest walks made so thick around my heart...I have put it away for the while ....let it begin its ever long healing...no one will go near it for the longest while ...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 24, 2015

    I am a girl. I was dating a guy

    but suddenly got feelings for a girl. I broke with my bf to be with her and now she doesn't war wasn't me. I don't understand why. we've been messing around for a year but now that I don't have a bf she doesn't was want me. her walls are so high and I want so badly to tear them...
    sssusy sssusy
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 4, 2015

    Needs Love Before Death

    Turned down once more..... By a guy who said he loved me and would be there. But yes he broke me down to where it's hard to get up once more. The feeling of never wanting to love again comes back into play. The feeling of never wanting to leave your room or bed. Many feel this...
    lonelyangel3321 lonelyangel3321
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 10, 2013
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 13, 2015

    Had to Tall thick impenetrable walls.

    Been hurt too many times by the promise of love, the promise of forever, the promise of friendship, by hope. So I protected myself and stopped letting people in. Made it harder for people to get to know me. Stopped believing their words. It was rare for anyone to break down...
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl
    46-50, F
    Dec 14, 2013

    I'm scared to be myself.

    I'm always adapting to other people. Sometimes because I'm insecure in myself I go overboard on the ego. I'm really saying please notice that I'm not a failure. I never admit any of this out loud because I might make it true. I hope by posting things like this here I can heal...
    CherryWildepie CherryWildepie
    26-30, F
    May 17, 2014

    Today my wall has cracked

    as the tears flow; I find the months of March and April very hard always have, not sure if it Spring fever or what. You left me in April and my world disappeared as I knew it. Moving forward and finding different path is defiantly not easy and smooth. I hate hurting people...
    Leeand29 Leeand29
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Mar 2

    Believe me, I didn't used to!

    ! I was open, naive, trusting. Well those days are gone.:( I have been hurt a few times in my life...have let my heart get broken. Then I build up some walls...someone comes along (not very often) & I let my walls down again & feel "happy." Then BAM! he cheats, or lies, or...
    RubyLane RubyLane
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Nov 22, 2014

    There is a quote that goes 'the heart wants

    what the heart wants.' I believe a heart that is hurting wants different things to what the happy heart wants. So which one do you go with? I think decisions made from the happy heart are the ones that are true and right. When you make a decision from the heart that is...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 18, 2014

    Walls: Everyone has them,

    though some have more than others. Some build layers upon layers around themselves. The outermost layer is usually two feet of steel standing hundreds of feet high. It takes bravery for anyone to climb them, audacity for them to break them down. It takes even more effort for...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 2, 2014

    A few months ago I was joking with a friend.

    I told her I was in a love hate relationship. I hate that I love him. She gave me the best advice ever. She said protect your heart. Always hate just a little bit more. That way you're not completely shattered when it ends.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    Nov 18, 2014

    I don't let very many people get close to me.

    I guess it's from the experience of being hurt so many times. The people who I let in need to be gentle. I have wounds there from the past that I don't new to open again. If i do let you in then please be great full. You lucky.
    mickey123xp mickey123xp
    16-17, F
    May 20, 2014

    High Security Clearance.

    Each experience I have been through in my life has only verified that my heart needs to be guarded. Through time it seems as though my heart is in a high security prison. A prison? yes, because even when I want to show someone my heart, it's still incredibly guarded, I can't...
    angeldancer angeldancer
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 20, 2012

    I Build Walls Around My Heart, But Mines Always Have Doors And Windows

    I was always that type of girl which guys never felt attracted to... Till I got out of mine teenage years. Creating ''walls'' around my heart always prevented me of getting it broken and made it hard to trust other people. I decided that, the best way to not get my heart broken...
    kady4e kady4e
    22-25, F
    May 16, 2012

    I Dont Let Anyone In Unless I Trust You

    Because im afraid i might get hurt again :(
    whatsmynameohnana whatsmynameohnana
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 6, 2013

    I have experienced heartbreak,

    backstabbing and dishonesty. I have been hurt so many times that I no longer open my heart to others. I am protective and cautious of who I let close to me. There comes a time in your life when you can no longer bear the pain from being hurt or backstabbed by the people you...
    Susana1985 Susana1985
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 21, 2014

    I've been hurt so many times

    that I've resorted to building walls around my heart to ensure that I won't be hurt. When I meet someone new and I feel like they are trying to get to close to me I get defensive and crude. It's how I've created myself to be. I haven't met anyone other than a few people that I...
    BabyGirlCleo BabyGirlCleo
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 23, 2015

    More of An Ancient Emperor

     An ancient Chinese emperor sits on his throne after his daily security check. His fortress is build like a labyrinth, littered with infantry highly trained swordsmen’s, units of Calvary, and human walls of archers and crossbowmen.  The dead ends are equipped with...
    Azoru Azoru
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 19, 2009
    justhatgurl justhatgurl
    18-21, F
    Feb 8, 2015

    big tough ones. no one gets in

    but im a master at walking through them
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 2, 2015

    My walls are high, in the days they will be

    reinforced. I give all to friends but none to my family. I will be known as a cruel person as a close member has passed and I have no sorrow and won't be there to help those people who everyone thinks I should. Guess I go now and tell my Grandkids their step-dad has passed...
    Leeand29 Leeand29
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Oct 28, 2015

    Being "open" or "free" isn't easy.

    It isn't easy to trust. It isn't easy to love. It isn't easy to do anything! The more you let people in, the more they hurt you.
    LexiDuhhXO LexiDuhhXO
    18-21, F
    Oct 30, 2015

    Another Brick In The Wall

    Trying to learn to deal with hurt that stems from my spouses affair.I just like so many others am looking for answers.How do I keep this kind of pain from ever coming into my heart again? I found a solution, but not the solution.Either way I feel safe.I have constructed a fortess...
    Waymor Waymor
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Nov 13, 2012

    Self Protection

    When we are young its so easy to fall in love. As we lose loved ones, or as they leave us we become protective. We build a wall to protect our hearts from being broken. But we are just a shell without someone to share our lives with Just hope there is a chink in the armor we...
    mark247 mark247
    41-45, M
    5 Responses Apr 20, 2011

    I've Been Hurt So Many Times

    i've been hurt so many times, and to prevent that i shyed away from society and i put up walls not only around my heart, but around myself. for a while my walls were slowly coming down, but now, i think they just might be up for good.
    musicality musicality
    18-21, F
    12 Responses Mar 2, 2008

    Walls of protection. Can be built from sorrow,

    abuse, or just fear. For some we give all or none, for me it is usually all. The wall crumbles life is good then all at once it happens our heart becomes cracked again and in some case falls to pieces. We build the walls again, we need now to learn to piece out heart back...
    Leeand29 Leeand29
    51-55, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2014

    Try!

    Only b/c I want to know that I matter enough for you to break through them.
    GoneCrazyBBL GoneCrazyBBL
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 2, 2008

    Let my walls down for a boy.

    Ended up getting hurt. I always am the the one who gets hurt. Guess it's time to start rebuilding and keeping everyone out. This time I'm not gonna be stupid. This time I will not get hurt. This time I will not let anyone in.......ever.
    jajolly12 jajolly12
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 9, 2014

    I recently realized that I'm actually quite

    guarded and that I have been putting up some walls around myself. I realized that not only do they keep others from knowing me, but they've also been keeping myself from reaching out to others who I want to help. I want to change that.
    almaera almaera
    18-21, F
    May 20, 2014

    My Heart Was So Open And Trusting

    I loved easily and was so trusting forgave alot but each time my heart was wounded a little piece of me died. I didn't know what else to do but eventually build a wall and still I would react with deep sadness and loneliness and so build a thicker wall. It took me 2 years to...
    mpde mpde
    56-60, F
    3 Responses Jun 27, 2012

    Yes.. I build walls around my heart.

    . Some of my friends said that I always too hard to get close to.. It's not because I don't like to have friends or boyfriend, it's just I always get scared of getting hurt.. Sometimes I feel so alone.. But I get used to it.. I don't know until when I could finally break my...
    heartandbrain heartandbrain
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 8, 2014

    Pader

    Hmmm finally, I found a group which I think this story fits in. (People who read my story about closing my door for another relationship often advise me not to do it. Not to surrender etc. and always look forward that someone will come. I appreciate their concern and I thank...
    riffraffmonster riffraffmonster
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2012

    Hold My Heart Close

    I agree totally to building walls around the heart. I do the same thing because its like I am a very heartfelt person. I try to help and love people and keep their information feelings safe but I feel like because I am very private and closed in when I finally open up about...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 20, 2012

    I've always built walls around my heart

    but a lot of it is because I've gone through so much. So much happened when I was younger so I never really let anyone in, and now I found the one person who has opened up to me and slowly started breaking through some of my wall but in too scared to let him completely in. My...
    Ldylvlylcks2002 Ldylvlylcks2002
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 13, 2014

    Sadly...I Do

    been denying this to myself and been trying to escape this from the notice of others, yet i know deep down inside me that "yes, i do build walls around my heart" and "yes, it's because i'm scared"
    micz521 micz521
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 10, 2013

    A Story Of Me

    Hmm.... Where should I start this..?Okay... I was living in such a secure and safe place. I have high and thick grey wall made of the hardest stone in the world (well, at least on my own world) and an invisible shell to protect me. I have them around me, the wall as the frontier...
    AllyC89 AllyC89
    22-25, F
    Apr 25, 2011
    Nelaew Nelaew
    46-50, F
    Oct 29, 2015
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