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I Burn Myself

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    I Feel Ashamed For Burning Myself

    About three weeks ago I burned myself with an iron. I did it because of two reasons. One I felt that I needed to punish myself and two because I was so tired of feeling. I needed to feel something else. I am going to therapy now and I hope that she can help me to cope better.
    bluerain21 bluerain21 18-21 3 Responses Jun 17, 2009

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    It is the only thing sometimes

    that stops my pain, my brain... I get a very calming sensation that sweeps my body and mind when I burn me. A sense of well being. That I can then go on and make it through the moment.
    Defiantlypeaceful Defiantlypeaceful 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 8

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    I Had To

     I burned myself today and before in the past. I also cut myself today. and was dissapointed because the cutting did more damage than the burning this time. It used to be the opposite and there would be this like bubble on my arm afterwards that's the best I can...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 18-21, F Oct 11, 2009

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    Burning gives me the best release

    and I do it often. Salt and ice has started ruling my life!
    jen1994 jen1994 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    What Should I Do?

    I'm 15 years old (16 in may) and I have eating disorder since 12. When I was 14 I started smoking and smoking weed. I changing schools and I stop'd smoking, started to get nice friends and became a little happier the me and my friends start getting real close and the I realised...
    Sandraadogg Sandraadogg 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    Unavoidable

    You know those things you write with? The fancy mechanical pencils with the springs and whatnot inside? Those are my weapon of choice. I break open the pencil and take out the middle. To make sure it won't break, i heat up the end of the plastic and melt it just enough to stick...
    sufferingxinsanity sufferingxinsanity 16-17, F 1 Response May 29, 2012

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    first time burner would a cut

    but da sight of blood a make me sicc lol . just bored wishin shid was diffferent Ya Kno
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 25

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    I Blame It On the Iron.

     I've always been a "cutter", as they say. And being so.. I've never burned myself, or felt the urge to. But yesterday, when I walked into my bathroom, and saw I had left the iron on: Out of nowhere I just picked it up, turned it to the side and stuck it...
    M0RGUE M0RGUE 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 19, 2008

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    The Bubble Of The Burn

    I used to burn myself during the summer into my freshman year. I kept it going, along with cutting,throughout my junior year. I stopped last summer. I just started again last night. I get a huge rush in my heart. I know it will hurt, but I love seeing the scars on my arms. My...
    invisibleatbest012 invisibleatbest012 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 5, 2013

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    Alone

    I always said I wouldn't cut myself but I've always had low self esteem. It all started when I was going to light a candle in my room, and my mom and dad got in to a huge fight. I couldn't help it the loneliness and sadness would not go away, but after I burned myself it went...
    Megadrago Megadrago 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 28, 2013

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    I've Been Burning Since I Was 11

    I started burning myself about 2 and a half months ago. I always used to accidentally burn myself when I was younger from irons (flat irons, curling irons, clothes irons). I have six self inflicted burns and 12 all together. The first time I decided to burn myself, I knew it...
    imfine15 imfine15 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2013

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    Feel Better

    When I feel down. What I usually do is Take something metal or even a nickle or a quarter. Anything with an edge. I used tweezers or small tongs to hold it while I take a flame to it. Once its hot enough I usually find a sensitive part of my skin and firmly press the metal...
    aknight46 aknight46 18-21, M Dec 23, 2012

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    Last night, I took a car cigarette lighter to

    my wrist. It was so upset. Crying so hard. I couldn't stop thinking about how much i hate myself. I held it there until I couldn't any longer. I did it a couple times on each thigh before I had enough. I had never felt so ready to die and be gone out of the world. Today. I had...
    FollowYourBliss77 FollowYourBliss77 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I Burn Myself......

    I have burned and cut myself. I'm online now trying to convince myself not to do it. I get so angry I feel like I could scream....literally!!!! I live with my elderly parents and my five cousins and I never get a moment's peace. There's always talking.....or yelling about...
    Sharice Sharice 22-25, F Aug 18, 2010

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    Hanna504 Hanna504 13-15, F Feb 17

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    lyricblue lyricblue 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 20

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    Like others I never thought I'd do this

    but I now find it difficult to handle the stress. It started when I accidentally burned my elbow when baking but the pain made me forget all my problems. I did 7 more times and stopped for three months. At first I thought I would stop but a few minutes before posting this I...
    Charley808 Charley808 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    Burn

    I don't have the guts to cut myself... I've burned a lot though it keeps me from crying and it takes away my stress I hate the fact that i do it but once I'm in the process i can't stop till my arms numb, i don't know what else to do i keep it covered and no one knows i heat up a...
    Cobra94 Cobra94 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 18, 2012

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    In Different Ways

    I burn myself with different stuff. The things I use most often are lighters and cigarettes. It’s because I carry them everywhere. Whenever I want to burn myself, I just need to take them out of my pocket or bag. When I am at home, I like to use other stuff. So far I...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    A Perfect Circle

    I have three cigarette burns on my arms; two of them are on my left arm and one is on my right arm. I did this during a very dark period in my life and during that time my parent's were divorcing and I was about to be kicked out of my father's house. It's been several years now...
    ThatOneAloofGuy ThatOneAloofGuy 26-30 Dec 1, 2013

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    I don't cut, scratch,

    starve, or purposely bruise myself to feel pain. I burn the **** out of myself. But I do it wisely, I light the flat side of a butter knife and press it to my arm. Sometimes it leaves behind evidence, if I burn myself repeatedly in one spot, but if I scatter it...no evidence. I...
    MinneGirl13 MinneGirl13 18-21, F Dec 11, 2013

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    and I keep on saying it's the last time

    but then I have nights like this and it isnt. and I really don't want to burn again because it has been almost a month and my last burn is almost healed but I need a new burn I crave for one I need to burn but I don't want to keep being a dissapointment I want to be clean and I...
    alottbutsolittle alottbutsolittle 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    Lynzeh Lynzeh 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2013

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    I know this sort of off topic,

    but I really need advice. I burned for the first time today, 3 of them, with a nickel. They formed really big blisters fast, so they're probably 2nd degree burns. How long do the blisters last? They're in really obvious places, so i can't hide them, and I'm having a panic attack...
    JustEndIt JustEndIt 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    Have you ever burnt yourself by dripping molten

    bees wax onto your skin? I saw a bees wax candle when shopping and I had to take it with me. Since then I want to know how it feels to drip hot bees wax onto my skin. I've heard bees wax is much hotter than regular wax. Can you tell me any experiences before I try it on myself...
    Chrisian68 Chrisian68 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    Desperate Measures

    I am one of those people that are the last on someones mind as one who would hurt themselves. I burn myself, not all the time, not everyday, not even every week. I have even gone months without doing it, but I constantly find myself lying in bed with a bobby pin or clip between...
    RaeAvans RaeAvans 16-17, F Apr 27, 2012

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    My Pain...

    I have been doing this since I was 14 or 15. I don't do it for attention (which is what a few people have told me) I do it because it's the only way I know how to deal with the pain. All you hear about are these people that cut them selves, and well for me I've never been...
    lovable143 lovable143 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 26, 2008

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    I Burn

    I burn myself... And, I like the way it makes me feel.
    iburntoo iburntoo 18-21, F Jul 25, 2013

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    I have been very depressed

    since coming to college, but I'm not the type of person who harms myself. I'm a pretty crazy person, but since being at school in Milwaukee that has only increased. My friends and I party every weekend and this Friday didn't go as it usually does. My friend and I got in a...
    wilddchildd wilddchildd 18-21, F Dec 15, 2013

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    Did it again this morning.

    . Just the ole light the lighter upside down and press method. It didn't get hot enough. It didn't help much, and what it did take away was brought back angry. I'm going to do a better job tonight. I've a perfect little screwdriver for this mission. It gets a special shade of red...
    Defiantlypeaceful Defiantlypeaceful 31-35, M 1 Response May 8

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    I Don't Understant Why

    I burn myself, I need that pain- i thrive on it i get off on it. I live it, I love it. If I feel numb I’ll burn my self, really anything just to feel normal for a bit, no I really don’t understand any of it and this really scares me about myself...
    imnothing86 imnothing86 22-25, F 3 Responses May 8, 2009

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    Today I took a screwdriver

    and heated it with a lighter. When it got hot I pressed it into my arm. Now it's blistering and popping which is gross. But burning gives me a sensation like nothing else in the world. I have a bunch of scars from other bad days.
    Rainbowgirl4Ever Rainbowgirl4Ever 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    Burning

    Sometimes I burn myself with a hair clip that I hold over a lighter for about 30 seconds. When you press it to your skin it burns through at least 4 layers of skin and leaves a big blister which later turns into a scar. I place them randomly over my body, some on my forearms and...
    Itjusttakestime Itjusttakestime 18-21 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    I will burn

    I will burn down my city of despair. Once open wounds have long since vanished into thin lines The trickle of blood is but a memory. I made a vow to keep the blade off my skin, No longer would the pain cause me to bleed, But the hollowness remains. And I find myself tempted by...
    ShallowEndings ShallowEndings 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 26, 2013

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    Burn Scars, My Searing Artwork

    i started with just a straight piece of wire and a cigarette litter and couldnt believe how good it felt and how energized it made me feel. its strange to describe the feeling but it was completely unexpected. when i cut the burning slicing sensation is calming as the blood and...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 8, 2012

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    I've been cutting for about 6 months now.

    I just tried burning myself for the first time with a nickel I heated with a lighter. Cutting is addictive, but burning gave a whole new rush. I've honestly stop caring about living. The only question now is which one will kill me first.
    JustEndIt JustEndIt 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 8

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    What Now

    I used to cut but now I burn because burning myself is to much more painful and I deserve to feel pain.
    Typicalvanessa Typicalvanessa 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 11, 2013

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    Tell me does anybody burn with

    cigars/cigarettes. I do and I'm doing it now.
    exhibiter1000 exhibiter1000 51-55, M 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Im sitting alone in my room.

    Ive been clean from self harm for a little over a month but i really want to burn myself. I miss the way it feels and i miss making new scars
    haydenwolfe haydenwolfe 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    It Calms Me Down

    Burning calms me down. It helps take an edge off the constant anxiety that I feel. I find that it works better than cutting. It also can turn me on just a bit. I need to burn to function in everyday life. I'd never give it up.
    AllTimeJessica AllTimeJessica 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 18, 2013

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    I started a couple years ago

    when i accidentally burned my arm with the flat iron but now its like. i love the way it feels and im addicted to the feel of the burn and tge rush it gives me im addicted to fire. the look. the feel when i slide my thumb down to light it. its scary and unhealthy and i know but...
    simplelife12 simplelife12 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    It Makes Me Feel Alive

    the first time i burnt myself it was accidental and i was curling my hair and it stuck to my neck and it felt so good it was like it electrocuted me and woke up me . then i was just seeing if it wud feel the same on my leg and then everytime i feel angry or sad i just get that...
    deswaq deswaq 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2010

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    Today..

    Ive never once thought about burning myself till today. Normally it'd just be a cut or two..and i'd feel okay. Today was different i needed more of a release.. I burned myself today when i was so overwhelmed and angry.. It hurt at first but after a few seconds the pain became...
    Brokenwingsxx Brokenwingsxx 18-21 3 Responses Oct 21, 2012

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    Second degree burns..

    . The ecstasy. I used to give myself second degree burns by putting matches out on my skin. I would put a match out on my skin, then I would peel away the dead skin, then I would put a match out on the same spot, and I would repeat the process over and over. The pain was intense...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 18-21, M Feb 5

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    So i cut for about a year

    after being bullied at my old school, and it started up again this year at my new one because of the stress of the workload...but then my parents found out and i had to stop. Recently i discovered burning which heals so much faster and i'm hooked...its kind of scary though...im...
    invisiblegirl132 invisiblegirl132 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I've Started Again..

    I stopped for a few months and I was really proud of myself, but lately.. I've begun to hate who I've become. I thought I had changed, but I'm realizing that that's all it was.. a thought. I felt like I was on the right path. I was meditating. I was on the search for happiness...
    M0RGUE M0RGUE 18-21, F 7 Responses Feb 10, 2011

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    I accidentally burned myself way deeper

    than I intended to last night. It hurt like heck but oh well.
    bobthebobking bobthebobking 13-15, T 1 Response Feb 20

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    I Can't Stop

    I only used to burn when everything got so bad that cutting wasn't enough anymore. It was only once or twice and the need went away.A few weeks ago I had sort of a mental breakdown. I cut everywhere but the need was still there, it wasn't enough so i took a lighter and burned...
    xkrissex xkrissex 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 6, 2012

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    The Pain Makes Me Numb

    i have been burning my self for a long time.i have scars on top of scars..all on my left arm for some reason.i use cigarettes and when people ask about them i say its from hot grease...dont know if anyone believes it.i i cut my self before,but its not the same.when i get really...
    grtamerloser grtamerloser 41-45, M 4 Responses May 25, 2011

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    I Burn Myself Intentionally Everyday

    I started burning my arms last year. Then I was diagnosed bipolar, out on meds and was forced to stop burning. It has been 6 months and one day I burned myself just for old times sake and I relapsed. Burning is like an addiction for me. I know cutting sounds like better and not...
    stiles28824 stiles28824 13-15 4 Responses Sep 4, 2011

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    I Burn Myself With Ice

    I figured out a way to burn myself with ice and salt. I do it only because of the rush i get and the scars. I dont do it because of emotional pain or something bad going on in my life, I do it for the hell of it. I dont really know why but I just like it.
    Sidco04 Sidco04 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2010

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    Why I Burn Myself

    I burn myself to feel something. I'll take any feeling, even pain is better than nothing at all. In fact, the pain is a beautiful feeling(:
    beautifulnightmare5 beautifulnightmare5 16-17 2 Responses Jul 15, 2013

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    At first I just used scratching

    and rubber bands to keep down my stress from bullying but then when the idea of burning came into my head it wouldn't leave. It's the farthest I have gone and will go since I do not want to deal with blood. The only downside to it I think is that I don't see as much noticeable...
    bobthebobking bobthebobking 13-15, T 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    Not Recommended...

    I burn myself because I enjoy the release I get from it. Peoples ignorance to self-harm completely infuriates me. I used to cut, but I tried burning once and I was hooked. It is so quick and there is no blood to clean up. I will say it is hard to explain the scars I have, but I...