I Burn Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 531 People

    I Can't Stop

    I only used to burn when everything got so bad that cutting wasn't enough anymore. It was only once or twice and the need went away.A few weeks ago I had sort of a mental breakdown. I cut everywhere but the need was still there, it wasn't enough so i took a lighter and burned...
    xkrissex xkrissex
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2012

    I tried so hard for years to get help .

    it's always there eating at me .I can't ignore it anymore the anxiety is becoming unbearable. I don't want to be a burden on society ,I just want to be me .If iam not here anymore I won't know it,if iam then I will finally be me.
    clarit clarit
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Oct 3, 2015

    Burning

    Sometimes I burn myself with a hair clip that I hold over a lighter for about 30 seconds. When you press it to your skin it burns through at least 4 layers of skin and leaves a big blister which later turns into a scar. I place them randomly over my body, some on my forearms and...
    Itjusttakestime Itjusttakestime
    18-21
    1 Response May 12, 2013

    I haven't burned myself

    for years, but the urge is still there. I don't know why I do it; Adrenaline I guess. Each burn has a very fond memories, and I love feeling the healed wounds to remind myself of them.
    mommashelper mommashelper
    18-21
    1 Response May 20, 2015

    So a week ago i burned the bottom of my foot

    cause my friend was going to the hospital and i couldn't stop worrying about her i was up all night and i couldn't sleep and it was a bad night so i took a knife and i burned with the stove. But afterwards i was mad cause i felt i hadnt done enough damage there wasn't even a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 19, 2015

    i smoke and when i'm done i stick the

    cigarettes to my wrist!it makes me forget about my everything!
    SissiImmortality SissiImmortality
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jan 2, 2015

    Burned Knife

    I burn myself with a knife.. And you?
    Suicide16 Suicide16
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 29, 2013

    I started burning recently

    but I've been a cutter for a long time I I'm 12 at the moment almost 13 it has always helped my throw everything
    deadgirlcutter deadgirlcutter
    18-21, F
    Apr 3, 2015

    How to heal this burn,

    I swam in the ocean to help heal the scar
    irena1989 irena1989
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 15, 2015

    It has been a very long time

    since I last burned myself. I used a wood burner to brand the letters D-I-E into my leg. Other times it was just random places. I don't do it anymore, but I just traded it for cutting. It seems to be more effective and more convenient for me, even though it sometimes freaks out...
    Shonnie Shonnie
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 19, 2015

    I burn myself because I'm

    so ******* worthless
    Insane0k Insane0k
    13-15, F
    2 Responses May 17, 2015

    Did it again this morning.

    . Just the ole light the lighter upside down and press method. It didn't get hot enough. It didn't help much, and what it did take away was brought back angry. I'm going to do a better job tonight. I've a perfect little screwdriver for this mission. It gets a special shade of red...
    Defiantlypeaceful Defiantlypeaceful
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 8, 2014

    sadly , i burn myself by taking a lighter

    or a match and letting the flame burn for a few seconds before blowing it out and pressing it against my skin until it cools down and i have a painful sensation on my wrist. its better than cutting , there is more pain and if it leaves a mark then its easy to say i accidentally...
    FindMeImLost FindMeImLost
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2014

    I have bulimia and anxiety

    so burning myself with the metal on lighters makes me feel so much better, I pretend to my friends who asked what I was doing, that it was a joke and that I won't do it again... I just feel so rejected. My best friend was cutting and never told me, she told a mutual friend yet...
    markinggold markinggold
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 24, 2015

    I need to burn myself.

    The pain lasts way longer than cutting. I need something that lasts.
    marchz13 marchz13
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 11, 2014

    A few weeks ago i 'got worse'

    and they said i was too unstable to have anything that i could possibly use to hurt myself. Seriously, everything. It was driving me insane :/ So i had an idea and i persauded them to let me have a lamp so i could at least read. I would use the lightbulb to burn myself. Now i'm...
    mialotta mialotta
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 11, 2015

    I finally burnt myself again

    after a long time of cutting. It makes me feel so much better. I missed it. It lasts so much longer and lingers way more.
    marchz13 marchz13
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2014

    The washer keeps spinning,

    so does this list. It's a day to day life, then the burning on wrists. The constant agony and sorrow, another day awake. You watch as I'm bleeding, seeing how much I can take. Daily new struggles, most couldn't continuously bare. But you stand here branding, more burning to...
    safu1986 safu1986
    26-30, F
    Mar 7

    I know it's wrong, but I need the pain.

    I'm trying to stop cutting and instead I burn, not all the time, just sometimes when it becomes unbearable. I want to get help, but my parents don't know that I still hurt myself. They think I stopped a few years ago, but I didn't. I started cutting on my wrist to hide it. Now I...
    BeccaBabe1232 BeccaBabe1232
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 21

    Im sitting alone in my room.

    Ive been clean from self harm for a little over a month but i really want to burn myself. I miss the way it feels and i miss making new scars
    haydenwolfe haydenwolfe
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 9, 2014

    and I keep on saying it's the last time

    but then I have nights like this and it isnt. and I really don't want to burn again because it has been almost a month and my last burn is almost healed but I need a new burn I crave for one I need to burn but I don't want to keep being a dissapointment I want to be clean and I...
    alottbutsolittle alottbutsolittle
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

    Tell me does anybody burn with

    cigars/cigarettes. I do and I'm doing it now.
    exhibiter1000 exhibiter1000
    51-55, M
    1 Response Apr 6, 2014

    This is more of a question,

    sorry. I'm posting it like this because I wanted to ask you guys personally. Anyways back on track, my apologies for the deviation. How do you guys deal with the pain? Is there a trick you use? I'm really curious and I understand if you don't want to answer.
    That1KidNo1Notices That1KidNo1Notices
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jun 10, 2015

    Why I Burn Myself

    I burn myself to feel something. I'll take any feeling, even pain is better than nothing at all. In fact, the pain is a beautiful feeling(:
    beautifulnightmare5 beautifulnightmare5
    16-17
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2013

    What Should I Do?

    I'm 15 years old (16 in may) and I have eating disorder since 12. When I was 14 I started smoking and smoking weed. I changing schools and I stop'd smoking, started to get nice friends and became a little happier the me and my friends start getting real close and the I realised...
    Sandraadogg Sandraadogg
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

    It is the only thing sometimes

    that stops my pain, my brain... I get a very calming sensation that sweeps my body and mind when I burn me. A sense of well being. That I can then go on and make it through the moment.
    Defiantlypeaceful Defiantlypeaceful
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 8, 2014
    lyricblue lyricblue
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 20, 2014

    Today I burnt my arm by warming a small wooden

    cross over the flame of a scented Christmas candle and then pressing it into my skin. Today was the first time I caused a blister to form on me by burning myself. I feel intrigued by this new experience. Burning definitely has a very desperate sensation in comparison to scoring...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 25, 2015

    I Burn Myself Intentionally Everyday

    I started burning my arms last year. Then I was diagnosed bipolar, out on meds and was forced to stop burning. It has been 6 months and one day I burned myself just for old times sake and I relapsed. Burning is like an addiction for me. I know cutting sounds like better and not...
    stiles28824 stiles28824
    13-15
    4 Responses Sep 4, 2011

    Unavoidable

    You know those things you write with? The fancy mechanical pencils with the springs and whatnot inside? Those are my weapon of choice. I break open the pencil and take out the middle. To make sure it won't break, i heat up the end of the plastic and melt it just enough to stick...
    sufferingxinsanity sufferingxinsanity
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 29, 2012

    The Bubble Of The Burn

    I used to burn myself during the summer into my freshman year. I kept it going, along with cutting,throughout my junior year. I stopped last summer. I just started again last night. I get a huge rush in my heart. I know it will hurt, but I love seeing the scars on my arms. My...
    invisibleatbest012 invisibleatbest012
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 5, 2013

    Today I took a screwdriver

    and heated it with a lighter. When it got hot I pressed it into my arm. Now it's blistering and popping which is gross. But burning gives me a sensation like nothing else in the world. I have a bunch of scars from other bad days.
    Rainbowgirl4Ever Rainbowgirl4Ever
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 2, 2014

    I started burning when I was fifteen.

    Im twenty two now I thought I put that all behind me and would never do it again. But ive now burned twice within the week after watching a self harm video.i thought to burn in a place where no one could see my stomach. I guess I like to see my skin form a bubble. But its become...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 14, 2014

    My rubber band has been getting me through some

    things, though it doesn't give me that "awe" feeling, I don't get as much release, or the chill throughout my body, but I'm relieved I'm not collecting anymore scars. I've been too tired to do anything lately.. I don't even feel like smoking weed very much anymore, the people I...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny
    70+, F
    1 Response Feb 12, 2015

    So i cut for about a year

    after being bullied at my old school, and it started up again this year at my new one because of the stress of the workload...but then my parents found out and i had to stop. Recently i discovered burning which heals so much faster and i'm hooked...its kind of scary though...im...
    invisiblegirl132 invisiblegirl132
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 10, 2014

    I will burn

    I will burn down my city of despair. Once open wounds have long since vanished into thin lines The trickle of blood is but a memory. I made a vow to keep the blade off my skin, No longer would the pain cause me to bleed, But the hollowness remains. And I find myself tempted by...
    ShallowEndings ShallowEndings
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 26, 2013

    I Burn

    I burn myself... And, I like the way it makes me feel.
    iburntoo iburntoo
    18-21, F
    Jul 25, 2013
    pilotwhale pilotwhale
    56-60, M
    1 Response Aug 16, 2015

    I Burn Myself With Ice

    I figured out a way to burn myself with ice and salt. I do it only because of the rush i get and the scars. I dont do it because of emotional pain or something bad going on in my life, I do it for the hell of it. I dont really know why but I just like it.
    Sidco04 Sidco04
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 14, 2010

    Like others I never thought I'd do this

    but I now find it difficult to handle the stress. It started when I accidentally burned my elbow when baking but the pain made me forget all my problems. I did 7 more times and stopped for three months. At first I thought I would stop but a few minutes before posting this I...
    Charley808 Charley808
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 21, 2014

    I use to cut but I recently started burning

    and I'm afraid I'm gonna get addicted.
    DarkAngel401 DarkAngel401
    18-21, T
    Jun 12, 2015

    For the past 2 weeks I've been heating up a

    metal hair clip and either pressing it on my upper thigh for a few seconds or pressing it down for less then a second all over my thigh. I'm trying to avoid making any marks on me so that if that part ever gets seen no one will know. I've been so upset lately and doing that has...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 23, 2015

    I had stopped self harm years ago.

    But today I decided to burn my wrists again. I overcame the temptation once and it took all of my logical being to step away from the fire. But today I did it twice. I know it's stupid and it doesn't help me in any way but it's my way of coping. My mind gets so dark and I turn...
    DeijiDaze DeijiDaze
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2014

    Feel Better

    When I feel down. What I usually do is Take something metal or even a nickle or a quarter. Anything with an edge. I used tweezers or small tongs to hold it while I take a flame to it. Once its hot enough I usually find a sensitive part of my skin and firmly press the metal...
    aknight46 aknight46
    18-21, M
    Dec 23, 2012
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