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I Burn Myself

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    I will burn

    I will burn down my city of despair. Once open wounds have long since vanished into thin lines The trickle of blood is but a memory. I made a vow to keep the blade off my skin, No longer would the pain cause me to bleed, But the hollowness remains. And I find myself tempted by...
    ShallowEndings ShallowEndings 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2013

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    I Had To

     I burned myself today and before in the past. I also cut myself today. and was dissapointed because the cutting did more damage than the burning this time. It used to be the opposite and there would be this like bubble on my arm afterwards that's the best I can...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F Oct 11, 2009

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    sadly , i burn myself by taking a lighter

    or a match and letting the flame burn for a few seconds before blowing it out and pressing it against my skin until it cools down and i have a painful sensation on my wrist. its better than cutting , there is more pain and if it leaves a mark then its easy to say i accidentally...
    FindMeImLost FindMeImLost 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 6, 2014

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    Like others I never thought I'd do this

    but I now find it difficult to handle the stress. It started when I accidentally burned my elbow when baking but the pain made me forget all my problems. I did 7 more times and stopped for three months. At first I thought I would stop but a few minutes before posting this I...
    Charley808 Charley808 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 21, 2014

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    I Blame It On the Iron.

     I've always been a "cutter", as they say. And being so.. I've never burned myself, or felt the urge to. But yesterday, when I walked into my bathroom, and saw I had left the iron on: Out of nowhere I just picked it up, turned it to the side and stuck it...
    M0RGUE M0RGUE 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 19, 2008

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    Why I Burn Myself

    I burn myself to feel something. I'll take any feeling, even pain is better than nothing at all. In fact, the pain is a beautiful feeling(:
    beautifulnightmare5 beautifulnightmare5 16-17 2 Responses Jul 15, 2013

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    lyricblue lyricblue 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 20, 2014

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    It is the only thing sometimes

    that stops my pain, my brain... I get a very calming sensation that sweeps my body and mind when I burn me. A sense of well being. That I can then go on and make it through the moment.
    Defiantlypeaceful Defiantlypeaceful 31-35, M 2 Responses Apr 8, 2014

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    It Makes Me Feel Alive

    the first time i burnt myself it was accidental and i was curling my hair and it stuck to my neck and it felt so good it was like it electrocuted me and woke up me . then i was just seeing if it wud feel the same on my leg and then everytime i feel angry or sad i just get that...
    deswaq deswaq 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2010

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    I started burning when I was fifteen.

    Im twenty two now I thought I put that all behind me and would never do it again. But ive now burned twice within the week after watching a self harm video.i thought to burn in a place where no one could see my stomach. I guess I like to see my skin form a bubble. But its become...
    Passionfruit3 Passionfruit3 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    Hanna504 Hanna504 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 17, 2014

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    Feel Better

    When I feel down. What I usually do is Take something metal or even a nickle or a quarter. Anything with an edge. I used tweezers or small tongs to hold it while I take a flame to it. Once its hot enough I usually find a sensitive part of my skin and firmly press the metal...
    aknight46 aknight46 18-21, M Dec 23, 2012

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    Today I took a screwdriver

    and heated it with a lighter. When it got hot I pressed it into my arm. Now it's blistering and popping which is gross. But burning gives me a sensation like nothing else in the world. I have a bunch of scars from other bad days.
    Rainbowgirl4Ever Rainbowgirl4Ever 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2014

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    Unavoidable

    You know those things you write with? The fancy mechanical pencils with the springs and whatnot inside? Those are my weapon of choice. I break open the pencil and take out the middle. To make sure it won't break, i heat up the end of the plastic and melt it just enough to stick...
    sufferingxinsanity sufferingxinsanity 16-17, F 1 Response May 29, 2012

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    I need to burn myself.

    The pain lasts way longer than cutting. I need something that lasts.
    marchz13 marchz13 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 11, 2014

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    I Burn Myself With Ice

    I figured out a way to burn myself with ice and salt. I do it only because of the rush i get and the scars. I dont do it because of emotional pain or something bad going on in my life, I do it for the hell of it. I dont really know why but I just like it.
    Sidco04 Sidco04 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2010

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    I Burn Myself Intentionally Everyday

    I started burning my arms last year. Then I was diagnosed bipolar, out on meds and was forced to stop burning. It has been 6 months and one day I burned myself just for old times sake and I relapsed. Burning is like an addiction for me. I know cutting sounds like better and not...
    stiles28824 stiles28824 13-15 4 Responses Sep 4, 2011

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    I Burn Myself......

    I have burned and cut myself. I'm online now trying to convince myself not to do it. I get so angry I feel like I could scream....literally!!!! I live with my elderly parents and my five cousins and I never get a moment's peace. There's always talking.....or yelling about...
    Sharice Sharice 22-25, F Aug 18, 2010

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    A few weeks ago i 'got worse'

    and they said i was too unstable to have anything that i could possibly use to hurt myself. Seriously, everything. It was driving me insane :/ So i had an idea and i persauded them to let me have a lamp so i could at least read. I would use the lightbulb to burn myself. Now i'm...
    mialotta mialotta 16-17, F 1 Response May 11

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    Did it again this morning.

    . Just the ole light the lighter upside down and press method. It didn't get hot enough. It didn't help much, and what it did take away was brought back angry. I'm going to do a better job tonight. I've a perfect little screwdriver for this mission. It gets a special shade of red...
    Defiantlypeaceful Defiantlypeaceful 31-35, M 1 Response May 8, 2014

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    The Pain Makes Me Numb

    i have been burning my self for a long time.i have scars on top of scars..all on my left arm for some reason.i use cigarettes and when people ask about them i say its from hot grease...dont know if anyone believes it.i i cut my self before,but its not the same.when i get really...
    grtamerloser grtamerloser 41-45, M 4 Responses May 25, 2011

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    I finally burnt myself again

    after a long time of cutting. It makes me feel so much better. I missed it. It lasts so much longer and lingers way more.
    marchz13 marchz13 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2014

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    and I keep on saying it's the last time

    but then I have nights like this and it isnt. and I really don't want to burn again because it has been almost a month and my last burn is almost healed but I need a new burn I crave for one I need to burn but I don't want to keep being a dissapointment I want to be clean and I...
    alottbutsolittle alottbutsolittle 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    first time burner would a cut

    but da sight of blood a make me sicc lol . just bored wishin shid was diffferent Ya Kno
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 25, 2014

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    For the past 2 weeks I've been heating up a

    metal hair clip and either pressing it on my upper thigh for a few seconds or pressing it down for less then a second all over my thigh. I'm trying to avoid making any marks on me so that if that part ever gets seen no one will know. I've been so upset lately and doing that has...
    mclovin31321 mclovin31321 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    So i cut for about a year

    after being bullied at my old school, and it started up again this year at my new one because of the stress of the workload...but then my parents found out and i had to stop. Recently i discovered burning which heals so much faster and i'm hooked...its kind of scary though...im...
    invisiblegirl132 invisiblegirl132 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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    Burns From My Straightener

    I recently started burning myself with my straightener... I know, it sounds really dumb and not common but I did it accidentally one night and it made me feel really good. So now I do it every night. It makes me feel good. Is that bad?? I don't want to stop doing it to myself.
    Brooklin Brooklin 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2011

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    I haven't burned myself

    for years, but the urge is still there. I don't know why I do it; Adrenaline I guess. Each burn has a very fond memories, and I love feeling the healed wounds to remind myself of them.
    mommashelper mommashelper 18-21 1 Response May 20

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    i smoke and when i'm done i stick the

    cigarettes to my wrist!it makes me forget about my everything!
    SissiImmortality SissiImmortality 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 2

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    What Should I Do?

    I'm 15 years old (16 in may) and I have eating disorder since 12. When I was 14 I started smoking and smoking weed. I changing schools and I stop'd smoking, started to get nice friends and became a little happier the me and my friends start getting real close and the I realised...
    Sandraadogg Sandraadogg 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    Tell me does anybody burn with

    cigars/cigarettes. I do and I'm doing it now.
    exhibiter1000 exhibiter1000 51-55, M 1 Response Apr 6, 2014

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    I started burning recently

    but I've been a cutter for a long time I I'm 12 at the moment almost 13 it has always helped my throw everything
    deadgirlcutter deadgirlcutter 18-21, F Apr 3

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    Im sitting alone in my room.

    Ive been clean from self harm for a little over a month but i really want to burn myself. I miss the way it feels and i miss making new scars
    haydenwolfe haydenwolfe 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 9, 2014

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    The Bubble Of The Burn

    I used to burn myself during the summer into my freshman year. I kept it going, along with cutting,throughout my junior year. I stopped last summer. I just started again last night. I get a huge rush in my heart. I know it will hurt, but I love seeing the scars on my arms. My...
    invisibleatbest012 invisibleatbest012 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 5, 2013

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    Burning gives me the best release

    and I do it often. Salt and ice has started ruling my life!
    Jseg Jseg 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2014

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    I accidentally burned myself way deeper

    than I intended to last night. It hurt like heck but oh well.
    bobthebobking bobthebobking 16-17, T 1 Response Feb 20, 2014

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    I had stopped self harm years ago.

    But today I decided to burn my wrists again. I overcame the temptation once and it took all of my logical being to step away from the fire. But today I did it twice. I know it's stupid and it doesn't help me in any way but it's my way of coping. My mind gets so dark and I turn...
    DeijiDaze DeijiDaze 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2014

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    I started a couple years ago

    when i accidentally burned my arm with the flat iron but now its like. i love the way it feels and im addicted to the feel of the burn and tge rush it gives me im addicted to fire. the look. the feel when i slide my thumb down to light it. its scary and unhealthy and i know but...
    simplelife12 simplelife12 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2014

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    My rubber band has been getting me through some

    things, though it doesn't give me that "awe" feeling, I don't get as much release, or the chill throughout my body, but I'm relieved I'm not collecting anymore scars. I've been too tired to do anything lately.. I don't even feel like smoking weed very much anymore, the people I...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    I have bulimia and anxiety

    so burning myself with the metal on lighters makes me feel so much better, I pretend to my friends who asked what I was doing, that it was a joke and that I won't do it again... I just feel so rejected. My best friend was cutting and never told me, she told a mutual friend yet...
    markinggold markinggold 18-21, F 1 Response May 24

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    Last night, I took a car cigarette lighter to

    my wrist. It was so upset. Crying so hard. I couldn't stop thinking about how much i hate myself. I held it there until I couldn't any longer. I did it a couple times on each thigh before I had enough. I had never felt so ready to die and be gone out of the world. Today. I had...
    FollowYourBliss77 FollowYourBliss77 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2014

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    I Burn

    I burn myself... And, I like the way it makes me feel.
    iburntoo iburntoo 18-21, F Jul 25, 2013

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    I burn myself because I'm

    so ******* worthless
    Insane0k Insane0k 13-15, F 2 Responses May 17

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    Burning

    Sometimes I burn myself with a hair clip that I hold over a lighter for about 30 seconds. When you press it to your skin it burns through at least 4 layers of skin and leaves a big blister which later turns into a scar. I place them randomly over my body, some on my forearms and...
    Itjusttakestime Itjusttakestime 18-21 1 Response May 12, 2013

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    It has been a very long time

    since I last burned myself. I used a wood burner to brand the letters D-I-E into my leg. Other times it was just random places. I don't do it anymore, but I just traded it for cutting. It seems to be more effective and more convenient for me, even though it sometimes freaks out...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Second degree burns..

    . The ecstasy. I used to give myself second degree burns by putting matches out on my skin. I would put a match out on my skin, then I would peel away the dead skin, then I would put a match out on the same spot, and I would repeat the process over and over. The pain was intense...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 22-25, M Feb 5, 2014

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