I Came From a Abusive Childhood

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    Child Abuse and Repressed Memories

    I am diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, major depression, post traumatic stress disorder, and dissociative disorder - NOS.  I also have issues with suicidal thoughts and self-injury with my first suicidal type thought at two and self-injury memory at three or...
    ClinicallyClueless ClinicallyClueless
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Sep 20, 2008

    Sometimes I dream about my future

    and I imagine that I have a good family and I have a baby-I won't treat my pwn child like my parents treated me.I won't do that.i don't care about the gender of my child,i think you must be happy with what God gives you,a boy or a girl its all good,but I think I'd treat them...
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    1 Response Jun 4, 2015

    It Hurt Soo Bad

    when i was a 5 year old girl my father one day took me in my room locked the door pulled down his and mine pants and put me on the bed . i didnt know what was going on , i asked him what he was doing and he said shutup dont talk. then he put his **** in my butt (without lube) and...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 3, 2013

    Sisterly Love

    Growing up my mum was always under a lot of strain at work and the same with my dad. A lot of the time I was taken care of by my sister. I forgave my sister a long time ago, but when i was very little she used to attack me in a way that caused me many physical and emotional...
    JeremyBA JeremyBA
    Nov 30, 2013

    Living With An Alcoholic Father.

    My dad is an alcoholic. When he got drunk he would emotional and phy abuse me. He would say things that hurt me so bad. Everytime my sister didn't get her way, like once I took a shower before my sister did and she had to wine like a little baby and for that i got beat with the...
    ascs ascs
    22-25, F
    4 Responses May 3, 2009

    Last year i was going to sleep outside in a

    tent with my little brother and cousins. Then my 9 year old cousin stared a fire.... I didn't know about it until I smelt smoke then I ran outside the tent and tried put it out then my stepdad came out and blamed the whole thing on me and said i should have told an adult then he...
    CaliforniaGirl6 CaliforniaGirl6
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2014

    My mom just got mad at me

    for no reason and I got scared and left. I wondered the streets for two to three hours. It even started to rain. But since I like the rain it calmed me down. The only reason I'm back now is because I had to use the bathroom. I've locked myself in my room. From what I've heard...
    1056A 1056A
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 15, 2015

    Introduced To Sex At A Young Age

    Its not easy and anyone who says it is is a lie and isnt apart of it , i deal with facts on the daily , memories also ones that im faced to get over on my own . .your the only person who truely cares bout your thoughts and what your going thru no one else; i was raped about 5...
    Courtney468 Courtney468
    4 Responses Jan 28, 2011

    Does anyone here have lasting medical issues

    caused by the physical/emotional/sexual abuse they endured as a child? For example... I have reduced hearing in my left ear and I developed seizures as a child from being hit, I also struggle with dyslexia but i'm working hard to learn ways to overcome it... Especially by...
    desertowl desertowl
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 29, 2013


    Well i started reading these stories on here to see if there was any like mine, and heck there is a few, so i thought i would share mine I know you mostlikely all don"t want to hear a big sob story, that's not what i am aiming for, i don't want attention, I just think if my story...
    zeebea zeebea
    22-25, F
    Jan 6, 2013

    So, I was 7 years old

    when my dad died. I found him on the floor in the kitchen when I went in to ask him to help me with something. I called his name a couple of times. Then I went into the living room and said to my mom "why is daddy laying on the floor?". The first thing out of her mouth was...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Mar 1, 2014

    My mother was mentally abusive!

    Fought with her everyday from that narcissistic woman screaming on a daily basis growing up. . Best solution, cut her out of my life and do not look back!
    Eric81975 Eric81975
    41-45, M
    Jan 19, 2016

    I Survived

    I remember all the wishes I made as a boy, like i wish my dad loved me, i wished my dad wasn't a alcoholic, i wished my dad didn't hit me when he was in a bad mood, i wish my dad took me to a movie, i wish my dad took me fishing, i wish my dad helped me with homework, i wish ...
    scubafever scubafever
    46-50, M
    11 Responses Aug 29, 2010

    Childhood Lost

    I was abused in every way a child could be abused. I was physically abused by my folks. I was Sexually abused by my two uncles and my stepfather. I was mentally and verbally abused by my mother. I am trying to put together my life as a grown woman and have realized no wonder I am...
    BlueFairee BlueFairee
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Apr 25, 2008

    What Mom Did to Me :'(

    This awful event that changed my life took place when I must have been about the age of four. My younger brother and I were put in the bath together his just over a year younger then myself. He was playing with a bath toy which I desperately wanted. It was a floating ball...
    haker haker
    3 Responses Aug 21, 2009

    It Only Hurts When I Cry---My Story Of Child Abuse

    This is just a small portion of my child abuse experience as a child. There is so much more to my story, but it is way too much to try and tell it all on here. I am currently getting professional help because my life has been horribly affected by these experiences. I am just now...
    usjghmc usjghmc
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Apr 13, 2012

    Operation Be A Kid Again

    Operation Be A Kid Again( from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com) This is my list of things I never got to do as a kid, got to do but want to do again or just things I wanna try as an adult that have nothing to do with childhood. This list could be call Operation...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 2, 2013

    'Memories of a dysfunctional childhood"

    Today I turned 34.  This signals disappointment, deep depression and disturbing thoughts of "what could have been and what should have been". I cannot block out the sad memories of my childhood.......they return to haunt me.  They consist of an abusive...
    sexymama09 sexymama09
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 9, 2008

    My Life Broken By Abuse

    all my life ive been blamed for what adult men have choosen to do rape me as a child. shame on the mothers,grand mothers grand fathers that blame the child. I will not carry this guilt and blame for this abuse. god help those that let this happen .when mothers and fathers dont...
    theheartkeeper theheartkeeper
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2013

    A Bad Day

    A post from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com A Bad Day A bad day doesn't mean i am not healing It doesn't mean i did anything wrong it doesn't mean everyday i am not dealing growing to become someone strong A bad day means something else entirely, it means...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850
    18-21, F
    Sep 23, 2013

    Sometimes I Wonder Why?

    I find that I can't connect with practically anyone. The people I somehow manage to become friends with always seem to case me off to the side or just hurt me too much for me stick around anymore. I hate myself so much. Sometimes, I wonder if anyone understands what I am going...
    MichelleMidnight1 MichelleMidnight1
    22-25, F
    Oct 19, 2013

    I was abused & neglected,

    as a child. When I became a mom I put all of my energy & time into growing my family. Now that I am older $ kids are grown, I have more time to do things for myself, I don't even know what i like to do anymore :( feeling sad
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 14, 2016

    He Was Horrible.

    I loved my dad. I think it would have been easier if I hadn't, but I did. As a child I didn't know what he was doing was wrong until I expressed a dislike for his sexual abuse and he wouldn't stop. At first I was just upset because he just didn't care about what I wanted...
    Konrad Konrad
    22-25, M
    19 Responses Feb 7, 2009

    I need some help now.

    . really I was a victim of emotional abuse. My father never ceased to criticise me, underestimate me, hated me, told me i am good for nothing . (if you are wondering why then answer is me being a girl) he always told my mother i wont get a job, i will attempt suicide etc etc. I...
    ShadowlessSoul ShadowlessSoul
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Sep 12, 2014

    My unintended story..

    . I did not intend to write this story when I started writing this morning. I guess this must’ve been wanting to come out. My parents divorced a year after my birth. My mother was too busy searching for love to have much to give, and raising 2 young sons while dealing...
    Iamhere4me Iamhere4me
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Sep 9, 2014

    Virtual Abuse By Leaders Finally Over!!!!!

    Yes, it's over.For over three decades (most of my adult life, until 2011), have done some spare time research in determining the root cause for my inability to receive a good return on the Golden Rule, "Do unto others, as you would have them do unto you".In the due process, have...
    Dreamboy12 Dreamboy12
    61-65, M
    Sep 29, 2013

    Mother had a tough life,

    and it carried over to how she raised her own kids. She was self-centered and abusive, mentally and physically. Beatings and put downs, and never once a "I love you" or "I'm proud of you". I only recently discovered that I had "Reactive Attachment Disorder" from an absence of...
    rbulova rbulova
    70+, T
    May 1, 2015

    My Dad.

    He was the more abusive one more then my mom. She would just emotionally mess with me and put me down for not being "normal". Anytime I did something he didn't approve of he'd hit me. I remember he called me downstairs and I tripped on my way down so I took a bit longer to get...
    JessiieKriieg JessiieKriieg
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 19, 2012

    My mother has been in a abusive relationship

    since 08. Abusive as in verbally, mentally and physically. Because of this we don't have a great relationship because most of my teen years were ruined because of this. If it wasn't for my Grandmother I would be one lost woman. God bless her. Now onto my mother. She has been...
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 22, 2014

    The pain is temporary,

    but denial and its consequences are forever. After 45 years, I am finally breaking free from the chains that held me down, and speaking out against child molestation.
    deleted deleted
    Mar 15, 2016

    My Childhood (or How I Grew Up Waay Too Fast)

    I was born with a bit of a mental disability, originally diagnosed as autistic tendencies and people thought I would never be able to live a normal life (initially, doctors thought I would have to be put into a mental institution). I had to go to a special preschool for mentally...
    CFsurvivor CFsurvivor
    1 Response May 14, 2008

    Ok. This is the tricky one.

    You may have noticed I called myself Trans. Well I am a woman. And I have been for most of my life. But I was born boy and a happy little boy til I was eight and then a man changed all that. I will not tell you about the next two years partly because I don't remember them! But...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 2, 2015

    When I was very young,

    I was a normal, energetic, and happy kid. I consider myself lucky that I can remember that because that happy child was almost completely destroyed by the events I'm about to describe. It started off innocently enough. I had a single, older sister and we would fight about...
    dynosophical dynosophical
    26-30, M
    Oct 20, 2014

    Sometimes I think that's

    why I put up with it from my husband now. It doesn't even really faze me anymore. If you grow up with abuse being your normal, you just become numb to it.
    downbythebay94 downbythebay94
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jun 21, 2014

    Not Only For Me

    But for other persons who shared my childhood with me as well. My long-suffering mother, who put up with yelling, broken windows, thrown plates of food, slapping, choking, and being knocked around for a collection of bruises that were often hard to explain to the neighbors. My...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine
    61-65, F
    Jun 6, 2013

    When I Was Young

    When I was younger, about 10 or 11, I heard my parents agrueing back and forth late at night. At the time I knew about my parents yelling and drinking for quite some time but I had never saw it. One night I decided that it was enough, and I being the oldest, went down to try and...
    Akidatheart2012 Akidatheart2012
    22-25, M
    Jul 31, 2012

    Too Weak To Finally Get Over It

    I am a failure. That much was already determined when I was born. Bad genes, so to speak. I never even had a chance to have a healthy relationship with my parents. My father is a pathetic, violent, alcoholic *******. As if that wasn't enough, he gave my mother the worst excuse...
    flowerlesswall flowerlesswall
    22-25, M
    15 Responses Jul 19, 2013

    My youngest son says I mistreat him I wish I

    could tell him about my childhood but because of his dad using very hurt events in my childhood against me I don't feel like I trust my son to never use it against me sad but true
    denver32 denver32
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 28, 2014

    My dad and mom both worked

    and were stressed.As little kids we didn't know what was going on ,and I guess me and my 2 other siblings stressed them out so much they would run around the house and chase us till they smacked us.my mom also would shove soap in your mouth and hold us down.(I'm 15 now)
    Greeneyes5227 Greeneyes5227
    18-21, F
    Dec 4, 2013

    Toxic Grandmother

    I was raised by an extremely mean spirited, hateful, abusive and conniving grandmother.  I suffered horrendous abuse at the hands of this individual, and consider myself fortunate to have the insight to realize that I had no control over her actions, and am not to blame. I...
    Cecilia918 Cecilia918
    36-40, F
    4 Responses May 17, 2008

    I'm actually ashamed I was abused

    for 20 years by my mother. I feel disgusted in myself and pathetic. I hate telling people, even though it wasn't my fault.
    BastilleBlue BastilleBlue
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 30, 2015

    Neither Loved Nor Wanted-Imagine you are a eight

    or so year old child bounding around your bedroom one evening and for reasons you decide to leave your room and maybe go to the kitchen for a drink. Twist the knob of your bedroom door. Again and again and again. Feel the anxiety set in as you find the knob twists freely but the...
    Szusa07 Szusa07
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 7, 2016

    When i was younger my fathe...

    When i was younger my father was constantly gone due to the fact that he worked on the railroad. When he would come home he would "take charge" and imply alot of rules that mother didnt have for us, so naturally we didnt take well to it. There were several instances...
    wallflower20 wallflower20
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Apr 25, 2008

    My Parents

    This is a repost, originally written on April 15th, 2013 My parents were alcoholics. They had rules about everything, but were lax in their discipline. Whether or not I, my brothers or sisters got spanked depended on their level of sobriety and what was going on around us at the...
    JJLiz JJLiz
    3 Responses May 30, 2013

    Been living in an abusive house

    for years now, finally managing to get out of it :')
    Prettygirl345 Prettygirl345
    22-25, T
    3 Responses Mar 11, 2015

    My Mother Lies

    I always believed that my life was a mistake, due to how my early years to when I finally realised through counselling that how much my mother was the problem throughout my childhood to date. My mother without any fault of my own as I learnt to forgive her and move forward in...
    DelVene DelVene
    Sep 23, 2012

    I wish I had had a really great childhood.

    Then I would have become a really great person.
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    Dec 29, 2015


    It is dark.No softness greets meAs I hoist myselfOnto the edge of my bed.I stare at the cold, closed blinds,Wishing I could open the world,Just for a moment,And feel the warmth of lifeOn my face.But I dare not.I dare not move,I dare not breathe.For the monster huddlesIn the next...
    LadyAnnaSabra LadyAnnaSabra
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Feb 10, 2011
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