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I Came From a Abusive Childhood

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    Childhood/childhell

    Well i started reading these stories on here to see if there was any like mine, and heck there is a few, so i thought i would share mine I know you mostlikely all don"t want to hear a big sob story, that's not what i am aiming for, i don't want attention, I just think if my story...
    zeebea zeebea 22-25, F Jan 6, 2013

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    So, I was 7 years old

    when my dad died. I found him on the floor in the kitchen when I went in to ask him to help me with something. I called his name a couple of times. Then I went into the living room and said to my mom "why is daddy laying on the floor?". The first thing out of her mouth was...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 36-40, F 6 Responses Mar 1

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    My Father Was Horrible...

    I posted this once today in another forum...just feels empowering to finally share what I went though out loud with others who understand! I grow up with a scary father who was very strict with me and my older brother. He justified it, by saying that’s how he was raised in...
    singlefather1 singlefather1 31-35, M 6 Responses Mar 2, 2011

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    But I Survived It.... ...

    But I survived it.... I've shared some stories about the sexual abuse I suffered. I think I wrote a blog with some of the stuff my great-grandmother used to do to me. My parents were wonderful people though. They never hurt me. I really only remember one spanking, and I SOOOO...
    eyes eyes 31-35, F Nov 30, 2007

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    Survival?

    My childhood isn't as far behind me as it is from others I know. I still haven't left it, it'll be over a month from now, and I'll finally be out of here in June. It started when I was 9, my Dad had been yelling at Mom for some time now, about money, about her being depressed the...
    Jessicareneed Jessicareneed 18-21 1 Response Dec 10, 2008

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    My Childhood Was...

    being blamed for everything that ever went wrong in my house. I would get hit, but they justified it by calling it 'spanking'. I don't remember my sisters ever getting hit; it seemed as though, I did not belong. I don't remember my parents ever saying, ''I love you,'' to me...
    wewantcowbell wewantcowbell 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2007

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    Sometimes I think that's

    why I put up with it from my husband now. It doesn't even really faze me anymore. If you grow up with abuse being your normal, you just become numb to it.
    downbythebay94 downbythebay94 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 21

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    A Bad Day

    A post from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com A Bad Day A bad day doesn't mean i am not healing It doesn't mean i did anything wrong it doesn't mean everyday i am not dealing growing to become someone strong A bad day means something else entirely, it means...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F Sep 23, 2013

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    Virtual Abuse By Leaders Finally Over!!!!!

    Yes, it's over.For over three decades (most of my adult life, until 2011), have done some spare time research in determining the root cause for my inability to receive a good return on the Golden Rule, "Do unto others, as you would have them do unto you".In the due process, have...
    Dreamboy12 Dreamboy12 56-60, M Sep 29, 2013

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    My Story Is No Different.

    My father was an alcoholic and my mom let him be abusive to us . Back then they didn't have the support for women they have today. So I can see a bit of her being scared to leave a man with four kids but to say nothing has made me feel like I am less worthy then a man because the...
    Feb 17, 2013

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    When i was younger my fathe...

    When i was younger my father was constantly gone due to the fact that he worked on the railroad. When he would come home he would "take charge" and imply alot of rules that mother didnt have for us, so naturally we didnt take well to it. There were several instances...
    wallflower20 wallflower20 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    I'm Not Sure Where I Came ...

    I'm not sure where I came from.  A combination of evolution and freakish events?  I had a childhood and there was abuse, but it doesn't define me. 
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 16, 2007

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    My Mother Lies

    I always believed that my life was a mistake, due to how my early years to when I finally realised through counselling that how much my mother was the problem throughout my childhood to date. My mother without any fault of my own as I learnt to forgive her and move forward in...
    DelVene DelVene 41-45 Sep 23, 2012

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    My Life (Rough Side Part 1)

    First grade in Germany: My first schoolday, I was six years old. Other Children were at least as excited as me, ran around on the new and undiscovered elemantary playground. I joined in and started playing tag with another boy. Later when we had to walk into the strange home of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 31, 2013

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    My Small Miracles Of Self-healing

    I used to hate the child I once was. I saw her as dirty and defiled. She was beaten, raped and made to feel ashamed of her existence. I hid her well. I lied about my life, created stories to explain the bruises and to conceal her pain. I pretended I was like everyone else. I was...
    Moonlightdreamer Moonlightdreamer 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 29, 2010

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    My Childhood (or How I Grew Up Waay Too Fast)

    I was born with a bit of a mental disability, originally diagnosed as autistic tendencies and people thought I would never be able to live a normal life (initially, doctors thought I would have to be put into a mental institution). I had to go to a special preschool for mentally...
    CFsurvivor CFsurvivor 26 1 Response May 14, 2008

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    It Hurt Soo Bad

    when i was a 5 year old girl my father one day took me in my room locked the door pulled down his and mine pants and put me on the bed . i didnt know what was going on , i asked him what he was doing and he said shutup dont talk. then he put his **** in my butt (without lube) and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 3, 2013

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    Introduced To Sex At A Young Age

    Its not easy and anyone who says it is is a lie and isnt apart of it , i deal with facts on the daily , memories also ones that im faced to get over on my own . .your the only person who truely cares bout your thoughts and what your going thru no one else; i was raped about 5...
    Courtney468 Courtney468 18-21 4 Responses Jan 28, 2011

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    When I Was Young

    When I was younger, about 10 or 11, I heard my parents agrueing back and forth late at night. At the time I knew about my parents yelling and drinking for quite some time but I had never saw it. One night I decided that it was enough, and I being the oldest, went down to try and...
    Akidatheart2012 Akidatheart2012 22-25, M Jul 31, 2012

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    Hiding The Scars / Healing The Wounds

    I just need to tell my story... I grew up with a physically abusive father and a drug addicted mom. I was the eldest of three and ALWAYS the target of my fathers aggression. It started even as a very young child. I would be held up by one arm and punched in my stomach and face...
    ninjakate ninjakate 22-25, F Nov 25, 2013

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    Operation Be A Kid Again

    Operation Be A Kid Again( from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com) This is my list of things I never got to do as a kid, got to do but want to do again or just things I wanna try as an adult that have nothing to do with childhood. This list could be call Operation...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 2, 2013

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    To Blame Mum Or Dad Or........Me?

    My story is almost typical.. My dad left my younger brother and I when I was 2 years and my mum decided she was a lesbian. Its never really bothered me so much but what came after really has got to me.. I can not list the amount of times that I have been emotional abuse and...
    wishingforhope wishingforhope 22-25 1 Response Mar 23, 2013

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    My dad and mom both worked

    and were stressed.As little kids we didn't know what was going on ,and I guess me and my 2 other siblings stressed them out so much they would run around the house and chase us till they smacked us.my mom also would shove soap in your mouth and hold us down.(I'm 15 now)
    Greeneyes5227 Greeneyes5227 16-17, F Dec 4, 2013

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    Living With An Alcoholic Father.

    My dad is an alcoholic. When he got drunk he would emotional and phy abuse me. He would say things that hurt me so bad. Everytime my sister didn't get her way, like once I took a shower before my sister did and she had to wine like a little baby and for that i got beat with the...
    ascs ascs 22-25, F 5 Responses May 3, 2009

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    Dad Is A Jerk. Self-pitying Loser.

    I hate him. It's pure hate at this point. Just this afternoon my sister was at our house with her boyfriend and we were having Thanksgiving dinner (a day early), but my dad hates her BF. He views him as less of a person because he smokes and drinks and USED TO do pot. He has...
    sarahrunning sarahrunning 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    My mother has been in a abusive relationship

    since 08. Abusive as in verbally, mentally and physically. Because of this we don't have a great relationship because most of my teen years were ruined because of this. If it wasn't for my Grandmother I would be one lost woman. God bless her. Now onto my mother. She has been...
    LikeAPrayer LikeAPrayer 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    Resignation

    It is dark.No softness greets meAs I hoist myselfOnto the edge of my bed.I stare at the cold, closed blinds,Wishing I could open the world,Just for a moment,And feel the warmth of lifeOn my face.But I dare not.I dare not move,I dare not breathe.For the monster huddlesIn the next...
    LadyAnnaSabra LadyAnnaSabra 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 10, 2011

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    Last year i was going to sleep outside in a

    tent with my little brother and cousins. Then my 9 year old cousin stared a fire.... I didn't know about it until I smelt smoke then I ran outside the tent and tried put it out then my stepdad came out and blamed the whole thing on me and said i should have told an adult then he...
    CaliforniaGirl6 CaliforniaGirl6 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 1

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    I Survived

    I remember all the wishes I made as a boy, like i wish my dad loved me, i wished my dad wasn't a alcoholic, i wished my dad didn't hit me when he was in a bad mood, i wish my dad took me to a movie, i wish my dad took me fishing, i wish my dad helped me with homework, i wish ...
    scubafever scubafever 46-50, M 11 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    Not Only For Me

    But for other persons who shared my childhood with me as well. My long-suffering mother, who put up with yelling, broken windows, thrown plates of food, slapping, choking, and being knocked around for a collection of bruises that were often hard to explain to the neighbors. My...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine 56-60, F 1 Response Jun 6, 2013

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    A Psychotic, A Tyrant, And A Bully All Rolled Into One

    My Mother, simply put, is the meanest person I know. She is a psychotic, a tyrant, and a bully all rolled into one. My parents split up when I was around 5-6 years old. I'm not exactly sure of the year their final split was made, nor when the divorce was made final. But after the...
    wishiwasabrady wishiwasabrady 41-45, M 3 Responses Jul 29, 2012

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    Toxic Grandmother

    I was raised by an extremely mean spirited, hateful, abusive and conniving grandmother.  I suffered horrendous abuse at the hands of this individual, and consider myself fortunate to have the insight to realize that I had no control over her actions, and am not to blame. I...
    Cecilia918 Cecilia918 36-40, F 4 Responses May 17, 2008

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    My youngest son says I mistreat him I wish I

    could tell him about my childhood but because of his dad using very hurt events in my childhood against me I don't feel like I trust my son to never use it against me sad but true
    denver32 denver32 31-35, F 1 Response May 28

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    What Mom Did to Me :'(

    This awful event that changed my life took place when I must have been about the age of four. My younger brother and I were put in the bath together his just over a year younger then myself. He was playing with a bath toy which I desperately wanted. It was a floating ball...
    haker haker 26-30 4 Responses Aug 21, 2009

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    Too Weak To Finally Get Over It

    I am a failure. That much was already determined when I was born. Bad genes, so to speak. I never even had a chance to have a healthy relationship with my parents. My father is a pathetic, violent, alcoholic *******. As if that wasn't enough, he gave my mother the worst excuse...
    InferiorTrash InferiorTrash 18-21, M 13 Responses Jul 19, 2013

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    He Was Horrible.

    I loved my dad. I think it would have been easier if I hadn't, but I did. As a child I didn't know what he was doing was wrong until I expressed a dislike for his sexual abuse and he wouldn't stop. At first I was just upset because he just didn't care about what I wanted...
    Konrad Konrad 22-25, M 20 Responses Feb 7, 2009

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    I Wish I Could Have Had a Normal Childhood

    i was abused by my mums boyfriend, beaten up on a daily basis, and at the age of twelve i was told i would be suffercated in my bed, if i didnt leave so i left. i was lucky to live with an older friend, on the condition i looked after her child and cleaned and never ate any of...
    jossiemarie jossiemarie 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 26, 2008

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    My Dad.

    He was the more abusive one more then my mom. She would just emotionally mess with me and put me down for not being "normal". Anytime I did something he didn't approve of he'd hit me. I remember he called me downstairs and I tripped on my way down so I took a bit longer to get...
    JessiieKriieg JessiieKriieg 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 19, 2012

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    Family

    At times you have to wonder, what goes through families mind. As a child when you would hear them talking in code so that you couldn't understand who they were talking about. But for me now in my 40's, only still can't disclose to the majority of my families, cousins more in...
    DelVene DelVene 41-45 Sep 18, 2012

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    'Memories of a dysfunctional childhood"

    Today I turned 34.  This signals disappointment, deep depression and disturbing thoughts of "what could have been and what should have been". I cannot block out the sad memories of my childhood.......they return to haunt me.  They consist of an abusive...
    sexymama09 sexymama09 31-35, F 3 Responses May 9, 2008

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    I feel like killing him sometimes

    He has been tormenting my mom since the day they married and when they had kids (3 of us), we got to experience some of his ****. He won't let her drive He won't let her go back to school without strings attached She can't have friends who he doesn't know/ who aren't his He...
    sarahrunning sarahrunning 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21, 2012

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    Sisterly Love

    Growing up my mum was always under a lot of strain at work and the same with my dad. A lot of the time I was taken care of by my sister. I forgave my sister a long time ago, but when i was very little she used to attack me in a way that caused me many physical and emotional...
    JeremyBA JeremyBA 18-21 Nov 30, 2013

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    A Psychotic, A Tyrant, And A Bully All Rolled Into One

    This is VERY lengthy, so please bear with me here. (this is an edited re-post from a year ago) My Mother, simply put, is the meanest, angriest, most unpleasant person I know. She is a psychotic, a tyrant, and a bully all rolled into one. My parents split up when I was around 5-6...
    wishiwasabrady wishiwasabrady 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 14, 2013

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    My Life Broken By Abuse

    all my life ive been blamed for what adult men have choosen to do rape me as a child. shame on the mothers,grand mothers grand fathers that blame the child. I will not carry this guilt and blame for this abuse. god help those that let this happen .when mothers and fathers dont...
    theheartkeeper theheartkeeper 51-55, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    How Much Was I Worth?

    Some writing from my blog www.diaryofabrokenchild.blogspot.com trigger warning for child sexual abuse. How much did they pay you daddy? How much was I worth? Was I a good girl, doing the things you had showed me since birth? You told me I was growing and said I was meant to...
    silverstar415850 silverstar415850 18-21, F Jan 22, 2013

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    Childhood Lost

    I was abused in every way a child could be abused. I was physically abused by my folks. I was Sexually abused by my two uncles and my stepfather. I was mentally and verbally abused by my mother. I am trying to put together my life as a grown woman and have realized no wonder I am...
    BlueFairee BlueFairee 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 25, 2008

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    Does anyone here have lasting medical issues

    caused by the physical/emotional/sexual abuse they endured as a child? For example... I have reduced hearing in my left ear and I developed seizures as a child from being hit, I also struggle with dyslexia but i'm working hard to learn ways to overcome it... Especially by...
    ninjakate ninjakate 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 29, 2013

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    Feelings Of Hatred

    I had an alcoholic Father growing up, the abuse was very mild to begin with, breaking wooden spoons across our back sides, using hardened plastic rice stirrers and whacking our hands very hard, then about year 3 in primary school is when it got all to over the top, starting with...
    AthoughtOfDeath AthoughtOfDeath 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 17, 2013

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    The Bad Past,invitation To A Good Future

    As a child,I was abused physically and mentally and verbaly by my own mother,I was told that I was a "F-ck up of life",she wished I had diied at birth,I was a piece of sh-t,a washout.I was told Iw was a good for nothing,she attemted to kill me once,physiically attacked me with...
    Bernardc Bernardc 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 6, 2012

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    Why

    My brother still denies it to this day.I know it was real the pain,the feeling of being unclean.For years I thought I was sick.Thats what my family had me believe.Your sick he would never do that quit telling lies.I wish it never happened.I wish I could be like everyone else...
    vlad1462 vlad1462 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    Sometimes I Wonder Why?

    I find that I can't connect with practically anyone. The people I somehow manage to become friends with always seem to case me off to the side or just hurt me too much for me stick around anymore. I hate myself so much. Sometimes, I wonder if anyone understands what I am going...
    MichelleMidnight1 MichelleMidnight1 18-21, F Oct 19, 2013

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    Child Abuse and Repressed Memories

    I am diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, major depression, post traumatic stress disorder, and dissociative disorder - NOS.  I also have issues with suicidal thoughts and self-injury with my first suicidal type thought at two and self-injury memory at three or...
    ClinicallyClueless ClinicallyClueless 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 20, 2008

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    My Parents

    This is a repost, originally written on April 15th, 2013 My parents were alcoholics. They had rules about everything, but were lax in their discipline. Whether or not I, my brothers or sisters got spanked depended on their level of sobriety and what was going on around us at the...
    JJLiz JJLiz 31-35 2 Responses May 30, 2013

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