I Can Hide What I Am Really Feeling

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    I'm sitting here with people.

    ..but no one here realizes how badly I just want to f*cking die. I can put on a mask and act as if I'm okay and a perfect teenager...but really underneath it all I'm dying from the inside out. The pain is too much and I can't escape this dark cage I'm in.
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    22-25, F
    Sep 26, 2014
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    I haven't shown emotion on my face

    since I was ten, that's five years running.
    MrPoolofsouls MrPoolofsouls
    16-17, M
    Sep 5, 2015

    Sometimes, I just want to pour myself out,

    and tell somebody about the things I'm feeling. The things I hide from people and put a stoic, unfeeling mask over. Not online though - I want to talk to real people, someone who could understand me not through a wall of text and meaningless words, but through expressions and...
    ChaosMyth ChaosMyth
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 26, 2015

    This afternoon i saw my high school crush in my

    dreams and he said he still like me.it is funny bec.at first he really dont like me for real. I almost forget him but still he appears in my dreams. And to be honest i like this scenes of dreams.....hope its real. I did not think of him but he appears in my dreams why is that...
    malou05 malou05
    31-35, F
    Sep 5, 2015

    I used to try and get attention

    and get people to ask 'whats wrong' (don't ask why) but I used to know what people would look for to ask if anythings wrong so I keep an opposite facial expression so people wouldn't think anything was wrong. Most of the time its easy but if it isn't then i just blame it on...
    jacithepanda jacithepanda
    16-17, F
    Apr 19, 2014

    I am emotionally detached

    so I don't really show emotion much to begin with but when I feel something like happiness or sadness I can close off or put a wall up and no one will know.The only emotions I can't really hide r anger or rage or other emotions like that.
    Shireene92 Shireene92
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 4, 2015

    I hide what I feel and

    who I care about to keep from hurting others. I have no one to talk to cause if I did I'm sure it would manage to get out. so I hide my feelings by putting on my mask that hides my misery, and pain and then I walk around lost, lonely and unwanted but that's my life and I'm...
    slarocque05 slarocque05
    26-30
    May 20, 2014

    Open Mind Project- For Those Who Need It :)

    I just started this page on facebook called "The Open Mind Project" its a page for people to share whatever they want. They can share anything from a poem to problems they are even going to or a something small like just a photo of a leaf, its a community page where you can just...
    xricky15 xricky15
    22-25, M
    May 12, 2013

    Calm And Ready

    When this body feels pain, when this sprit is weak, and this mind exhausted. This face will keep calm and carry on.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 15, 2013

    Home and school have been two different

    dimensions for as long as I can remember. I've never had anyone be so close of a friend that I can tell them my family struggles. I feel like **** most of the time when I'm home, I just go to the bathroom, wash my face and no one would ever know that I was crying for 20 mins. I...
    nevergoingtousethis nevergoingtousethis
    18-21, F
    Apr 15, 2016

    Lets just say I'm a good actress.

    I hide my pain and any negative feeling because I believe that it makes others feel sad too. I don't want them to feel the same pain I do. I couldn't bear to hurt anyone. For no soul deserves any sort of pain, everyone gets a chance to be happy and should stay that way. So I...
    Klmsparkles Klmsparkles
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 25, 2015

    I called kids help phone yesterday.

    And for the first time I actually got past the pre-recorded message. I didn't really say much and ended up hanging up after 13 mins in tears. But hey it's a step in the right direction I guess. I'm starting to say my feeling...but it is a lot harder than I thought it would be...
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    22-25, F
    Aug 27, 2014

    I have faked my happiness

    for a long time now but I am not sure how long I can do it. I am so stressed out and I am being bullied. I want to tell my boyfriend everything but I am too scared to. I just recently took apart my shaving razor and I am planning on cutting today since I have a snow day and my...
    tututata2126 tututata2126
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 12, 2014

    The high only lasts so long :/ I wish it lasted

    longer... Out in public, I'm the ideal teen. But on my own...it's a completely different story :(
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2014

    Really Convincing

    Ive been hiding my feelings for the past 11years.. it started when I was sexually abused my mum told me after 3months that it was time I got over it and moved on woth my life I was 8 at the time and was like how I never even knew how to move on at that time I was told what...
    gurlonthemove gurlonthemove
    22-25, F
    Jul 13, 2013

    I feel like I'm becoming a pro at this,

    people who see me every day can't tell, I should get an award,
    sommer02 sommer02
    18-21, F
    Dec 18, 2014

    I'm extremely good at it too!

    I think it's been progressive since childhood to the point that people now have no idea and cannot distinguish my character. I show no emotion except maybe stress or real anger and maybe at time nerves. When I point out certain experiences or behaviours this is not what I am...
    nihiless nihiless
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 11, 2015
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