five little children jumping on the bed
One got punished for being the heaviest negating the fact the combination caused the pipe to break
Same pipe used to break and eight year old leg
It took a month to heal never quite healed
I waited for my parents to come neither did for a...
As a child, I dreamed of a castle that was owned and operated by me
It was my escape from bad thoughts and feelings
I was the princess the Queen was an evil witch that smiled only for appearances and to take joy in your pain, difficulties and failures
I ran so many times as far...
Bright like the sun
Devious as they come
He smells of Gilette body wash
Bed hard and wide
I cant wait for him to glide inside legs spread wide
Satin sheets anticipating the ride
A familiar space
i close my eyes while you watch my every move
You anticipate my rise
you started us with a lie and it get easier to sell me a dream
You pretend not to know how bleach appeared on my clothes
You are blind to my bras growing feet and walking away
You are dumbfounded to where my favorite things disappear to
I am not stupid yet you use my illness to...
Mind never forgets the pain from words and actions that penetrate my soul so deeply
Abyss of tears fill my heart
A long pause even deeper inhale
Terror plagues my thoughts
Nightmares invade my sleep awake in constant fear
I glanced to my window objects of familiarity appear in...
Sometimes the river runs high and deeper than the ocean floor
Other times it is so low pebbles beneath my toes
Birds sing to me sad love songs i can relate to the sound of aowl bellows through the air
the answer is me
Fishes scamper as I move my feet move along the shore
I'm finally starting to accept myself and see that I'm not worthless and hideous. I can never go back to the way I was before. I have to remind myself every day that I am not a bad person, and what I feel matters. It's a lot of effort but I don't ever want to go back.