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I Can Not Remember the Last Time I Was Happy

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    I Hate Myself

    I am 41 years old and i can not remember when i was last happy or at least not depressed.  I have had so many medical problems that i have survived i wish i have not.  I can go months with out anyone calling me i am so lonely i look around and see other people that are happy or...
    kenp69 kenp69 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 16, 2011

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    When Will I Be Happy?

    I don't think I'm ever truly happy. This sounds ridiculous but if I am laughing or smiling sometimes something in my heart tells me that I shouldn't. And then I feel guilty for the glimpse of happiness I got. For some reason I feel like I don't deserve happiness. If I'm having...
    jennieee jennieee 26-30, F Sep 18, 2010

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    Friends?

    Things were so different back then. I used to have friends who I can hang out and chat with. We do loads of crazy stuff and believe me, I thought I have found true friends who I can rely on in this lifetime. However, all good things always come to an end. Now my close friends...
    neverahappyperson neverahappyperson 22-25 1 Response Jul 16, 2013

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    Life is so simple. Yet I have made it

    so complicated, and have become as such, that I feel just so...Empty. I joined the military in 2011 after completing my Associate's in Lib Art. Before then I was put to work at age 14 and just became less happier with every passing year. I feel selfish for thinking that due to...
    cmb235 cmb235 26-30, F Dec 17, 2013

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    Still Tryin'

    I can't really remember what it feels like.  Now I've never expected or thought that anyone is happy all the time, but I've always been envious of people who feel contented some or most of the time.  Mainly because I'm just curious what it's like.  I don't know...
    AppleJelle AppleJelle 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 25, 2009

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    For a while I was so unhappy in my relationship

    but now that I'm single I feel alot better than I thought I would:$
    Canadiangirll27 Canadiangirll27 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I feel alone most of the time

    because i dont have friends ive been rejected Many times that now i am afraid of Being myself
    TeraVenus TeraVenus 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    Sadness

    i am socially isolated. you're guidlines pressure me into this. Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetuer adipiscing elit. Aenean ligula odio, feugiat id, sagittis vel, fringilla eget, erat. Nunc nec mauris eget libero pulvinar ultrices. Nullam sit amet tellus. Donec rhoncus...
    cohosh cohosh 31-35, M 3 Responses Oct 7, 2006

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    The best nigh with someone

    that I love but no lover to gether
    piper0909 piper0909 13-15, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Lonely....

    All of my good friends and my boyfriend are in the grade above me, ( I'm in 7th), and they all went away on a class trip for the next four days. Today at school.... I can't remember when I'd been so depressed. I felt like crying out all day, but it's like I had no tears left. I...
    monkey2852 monkey2852 13-15 May 27, 2010

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    Funny

    Happiness is a funny thing. Once you have it, there's really nothing else left. you're happy. end of story. getting to be happy is a tragedy of it's own. you starve yourself, spend lots of money, fry your skin, dye your hair, buy new things. it's a new hell of a life you've put...
    ALovelyRose ALovelyRose 16-18, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2007

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    36 Years and Now What

    My husband of 36 years is obsessed with cars.  This is not the first time, when the children were young I begged him to stop because of the cost of this hobby, so he did.  About 10 years ago, children grown at this time, he visited the doctor because he was not feeling...
    Zoie Zoie 51-55 1 Response Apr 13, 2008

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    Sigh .......

    I do not remember the last time I was happy. I do not know how to talk to people, I am a very boring person, thus I lose friends easily. People who hang out with me initially and get to know me, suddenly stop hanging out with me and leave me. Soon enough I see them hanging out...
    pushedaround pushedaround 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 27, 2012

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    I Am Weary of Being Unhappy.

    I work, and I work some more.  My husband ignores me, my friends don't call anymore because I am always working, and I feel lonely and isolated even though I am surrounded by people all day long.  I feel frightened that I will never be happy again.  I hope tomorrow...
    getrealintn getrealintn 51-55, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2007

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    Nope

    Does true happiness exist? Or are we lying to ourselves? 
    Mdear Mdear 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2011

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    I don't know why but for as long as I can remember almost nothing in the world excites me more then tickling girls, getting tickled by them or even just watching them get tickled...
    TicklingAddict TicklingAddict 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 20

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    Caught myself growling while eating. That means happy Over a muffin. Lol. Knew i was poor but a muffin ?????? Lmao.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M 2 Responses Nov 24

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    How come society makes us feel bad for thinking out the box when all the time it's made up to control us. Come play at secreterotica . com it's sexy, fun the groups and library are...
    YouKnowItMakesSense YouKnowItMakesSense 31-35, M Nov 28

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    I don't know why. Actually that's probably a lie, I'm pretty sure it was my classmates' fault. The only think I can think of to explain the two year gap I have between the ages of...
    Ghaughty Ghaughty 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I'm 2 embarrassed 2 tell my friends but after my older bro tickled me when I was younger i always just kinda new
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 29

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    I honestly think I was just born this way. I have enjoyed being a tickler and tickling girls my entire life. I realized I had a true love for it when I saw an episode of Howard...
    ChristianKekoa90 ChristianKekoa90 22-25, M Nov 30

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    yes, I was on my way to work. I was in high school gym class the day THEY killed Kennedy
    basicbear basicbear 66-70, M 3 Responses Nov 25

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    I was feeding my 2 month old son at 6:30 watching the news report about the first tower being hit when I witnessed the second plane hit the second tower. I screamed for my sister...
    JJjenniejones JJjenniejones 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    I cant add groups or message some people. What do I do?
    Jen34410 Jen34410 13-15, F Nov 30

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    I wish I could make every single person live in happiness, including myself. I wish for a smile <3
    nikitaslife nikitaslife 18-21, F Nov 24

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    post next to this is mine. I got deleted:(
    Jen34410 Jen34410 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    No one posted their birth story?! How odd! Maybe they forgot.
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 5

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    I've had one of these "friends", they call on you when they feel low for a positive word, and need help with something and know that your personality is going to be ok with that...
    twixxer twixxer 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My earliest memory was when I was about 5yrs old little girl & the last time was when I was 20 yrs old but as I got older the worse it got. My Dad was never around I've never met...
    Floyd77 Floyd77 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 23

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    The last time was Christmas Eve three years ago. I've told one person and I've always felt like the outsider looking in, disconnected. I never felt like it actually happened but it...
    naturalnobody naturalnobody 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    24th post. Before anyone reading this thinks my life has been just one bad thing after another, I'm going to set the record straight. Many of the years of fun were only marred by...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    41st post..I'm ready to tackle the past again, because I'm in such an agro mood. First a little bit on the agro mood. He has been so nice to me for a number of weeks now, not...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    In May of 2013, the 23rd to be exact, my entire world flipped upside down. I guess I should start with the week before so you aren't confused. It was just a few weeks since Mom...
    JaneEbony JaneEbony 18-21, F Dec 4

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    Hi ****** We met walking home from school remember you telling me about your kids. I then remember each time I saw you we say hi. I knew you was a MM and you lived opposite me...
    stupid28 stupid28 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    28th post. A couple of other times that spring to mind when I think about the abuse, were two instances where once again I can't understand what went wrong. A few years back we...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    I am contemplating divorcing my husband. The problem is that this will be my third divorce and I am only 43. I made some bad decisions in my twenties based on growing up in an...
    strikes3 strikes3 41-45, F 10 hrs ago

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    It took 8 years but I can proudly say that I am finally happy with who I am and I can finally say that I love myself. I am constantly staying positive and constantly reminding...
    Fifimeow Fifimeow 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 7

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    We have been together for 10 years, had a ceremony but not legally married in 2007. We have a four year old boy together. We have been having the same argument for past 5 plus...
    Ashleys44 Ashleys44 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    17th post...Let me start this post with a little apology. I take antidepressants, and they have kept me from, metaphorically speaking, pulling the trigger. But one of the downsides...
    rana3434 rana3434 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    Hey guys. I need help & advice. So i have a boyfriend, he is amazing, he loves me very much and he cares for me like crazy. We had been together for 8 months, but a person got in...
    iSimplyWish iSimplyWish 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 26

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    I would go back and never do that mistake, now i have only memories of her smile, she is married now, happy with him, he deserves her and ahe deserves him, i would do anything just...
    brahimmes brahimmes 26-30, M 3 Responses Dec 2

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    I have a confession and some stories to tell. Confession: when I was around four I still slept in the same bed as my parents one night they were having s*x and I woke up. I...
    lilygeorge12 lilygeorge12 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Do you remember, as a kid, the first time you went really fast on your bike, and it felt like you were flying, or the first time you got both wheels off the ground, and how you...
    ColetteR ColetteR 22-25, F Nov 27

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    I can't remember the last time I was really happy, how sad is that
    anneloves anneloves 18-21, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    My parents have fought since I was very young, since I was in kindergarten to be specific. At the start, it was very bad. There would be endless screaming and shouting and would...
    changeisempowerment changeisempowerment 13-15, F Nov 18

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    Just how happy can a guy get ? Well, pretty unbelievably fantastically indescribably astonishingly happy :-))) I have the most beautiful, kind and gentle perfect boyfriend. Just a...
    ryan015 ryan015 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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