I Can Not Remember the Last Time I Was Happy

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 174 People

    Friends?

    Things were so different back then. I used to have friends who I can hang out and chat with. We do loads of crazy stuff and believe me, I thought I have found true friends who I can rely on in this lifetime. However, all good things always come to an end. Now my close friends...
    neverahappyperson neverahappyperson
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 16, 2013

    Funny

    Happiness is a funny thing. Once you have it, there's really nothing else left. you're happy. end of story. getting to be happy is a tragedy of it's own. you starve yourself, spend lots of money, fry your skin, dye your hair, buy new things. it's a new hell of a life you've put...
    ALovelyRose ALovelyRose
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 30, 2007

    Life is so simple. Yet I have made it

    so complicated, and have become as such, that I feel just so...Empty. I joined the military in 2011 after completing my Associate's in Lib Art. Before then I was put to work at age 14 and just became less happier with every passing year. I feel selfish for thinking that due to...
    cmb235 cmb235
    26-30, F
    Dec 17, 2013

    For a while I was so unhappy in my relationship

    but now that I'm single I feel alot better than I thought I would:$
    Canadiangirll27 Canadiangirll27
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 15, 2014

    Still Tryin'

    I can't really remember what it feels like.  Now I've never expected or thought that anyone is happy all the time, but I've always been envious of people who feel contented some or most of the time.  Mainly because I'm just curious what it's like.  I don't know...
    AppleJelle AppleJelle
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 25, 2009

    When Will I Be Happy?

    I don't think I'm ever truly happy. This sounds ridiculous but if I am laughing or smiling sometimes something in my heart tells me that I shouldn't. And then I feel guilty for the glimpse of happiness I got. For some reason I feel like I don't deserve happiness. If I'm having...
    jennieee jennieee
    31-35, F
    Sep 18, 2010

    I feel alone most of the time

    because i dont have friends ive been rejected Many times that now i am afraid of Being myself
    TeraVenus TeraVenus
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 23, 2014

    The best nigh with someone

    that I love but no lover to gether
    piper0909 piper0909
    13-15, F
    Dec 17, 2014

    I Am Weary of Being Unhappy.

    I work, and I work some more.  My husband ignores me, my friends don't call anymore because I am always working, and I feel lonely and isolated even though I am surrounded by people all day long.  I feel frightened that I will never be happy again.  I hope tomorrow...
    getrealintn getrealintn
    51-55, F
    1 Response Jan 19, 2007

    Lonely....

    All of my good friends and my boyfriend are in the grade above me, ( I'm in 7th), and they all went away on a class trip for the next four days. Today at school.... I can't remember when I'd been so depressed. I felt like crying out all day, but it's like I had no tears left. I...
    monkey2852 monkey2852
    13-15
    May 27, 2010

    Sadness

    i am socially isolated. you're guidlines pressure me into this. Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetuer adipiscing elit. Aenean ligula odio, feugiat id, sagittis vel, fringilla eget, erat. Nunc nec mauris eget libero pulvinar ultrices. Nullam sit amet tellus. Donec rhoncus...
    cohosh cohosh
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Oct 7, 2006

    Nope

    Does true happiness exist? Or are we lying to ourselves? 
    Mdear Mdear
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 19, 2011

    I Hate Myself

    I am 41 years old and i can not remember when i was last happy or at least not depressed.  I have had so many medical problems that i have survived i wish i have not.  I can go months with out anyone calling me i am so lonely i look around and see other people that are happy or...
    kenp69 kenp69
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Apr 16, 2011

    Sigh .......

    I do not remember the last time I was happy. I do not know how to talk to people, I am a very boring person, thus I lose friends easily. People who hang out with me initially and get to know me, suddenly stop hanging out with me and leave me. Soon enough I see them hanging out...
    pushedaround pushedaround
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 27, 2012

    36 Years and Now What

    My husband of 36 years is obsessed with cars.  This is not the first time, when the children were young I begged him to stop because of the cost of this hobby, so he did.  About 10 years ago, children grown at this time, he visited the doctor because he was not feeling...
    Zoie Zoie
    51-55
    1 Response Apr 13, 2008

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