I Can See The Darkness Taking Over My Mind

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 219 People

    I want to torture people.

    I can't help it. I really do. I am sorry. It is hard to control ,but I am controlling it.
    anonymouslysleeping anonymouslysleeping
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Nov 8, 2015

    I am a very loving person

    and I can feel myself getting filled with this "f*** everyone" attitude and that's not how I want to be. I am getting filled with hatred towards people and that's not good. Usually I can hold it in but I kinda don't want to anymore. Tired of people taking my kindness for...
    EternityF EternityF
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 30, 2016

    soon to be institutionalized,

    I wonder how well the mask will hold up? how long will me fake smile pass for? all I see around me are the prison bars of my mind and now they'll add the confines of a padded room. I feel I am the monster I feared and there is no hero around who will stop me. alone, isolated...
    LovingDead LovingDead
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Nov 28, 2015
    JuanaChange JuanaChange
    26-30, F
    Oct 16, 2015

    I once had a simplistic view on the world.

    . but there are so many unrevealed corridors in this big place that once taken are hard to find your way out ..I like having control of my world.. the threat of it being controlled has caused me to go a bit astray
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    1 Response Oct 27, 2015

    I don't know what to do anymore

    now that the past has came to haunt me again.. I don't want to harm myself any more and I don't even want to think of ending my life but after what happened today.. It seems better if I did.. I can't sleep well nowadays.. I wake up at night; I rely on medications to make me...
    yellowishbone yellowishbone
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 28, 2015

    Very often I'm feeling I just thinking too much!

    I'm feeling like a robot, everyday wake up, doing same things, I want to get time to spend more with my emotions, feelings rather than thinking and actions! I do not want to be cold! Sometimes I'm so selfish ..... I want to change!
    princessmummy2012 princessmummy2012
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 9, 2014
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    Oct 16, 2015

    sitting by the train tracks waiting

    for the night train ain't never gonna go back listen for the whistle in the wind and rain who's gonna ride the devils train tonight
    black32208 black32208
    13-15, M
    2 Responses Oct 20, 2015

    again. slowly, slowly,

    slowly, f a l l i n g. what light is left when the being itself is blackness. in...
    beaubeau7 beaubeau7
    26-30, M
    Jan 30, 2016

    I really don't want to be me anymore.

    I need a rewind button or a gun. **** everything.
    Perfectdreamingskull Perfectdreamingskull
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 16, 2015

    The darkness is taking over my mind

    and I'm out of Magic Missiles.
    Brandwarden Brandwarden
    36-40, M
    Oct 16, 2015

    Black Black are my wings Dark

    as the night Produce a fake smile Not worth to fight Black are the days Lying behind No golden sun rays Staring blind Black are the thoughts Wandering in my head Can't connect the dots Between good and bad Black is the world Pitch dark outside And all is swirled Nowhere to...
    InvisibleDarkness InvisibleDarkness
    18-21, F
    Oct 15, 2015

    I don’t know, I cant trust myself

    and am coming to a point where I need to act, I’m lost. if I **** up I lose the only thing I ever felt I had, the only connection I feel is by a few threads of hope. hope for happiness, hope for something better, but how can I get there if I have no hope for me? I am...
    LovingDead LovingDead
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015
More Stories