I Cannot Forget the Past

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    Always In My Mind

    There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about it that I regret the decisions that I made.  My current life is the result of those mistakes.  So every move that make every word that I say is the result of my past. I can't change it I just wish that I forget...
    jc2009 jc2009
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Apr 3, 2009

    The Damage I Caused

    Ever since I quit my addiction my past has come to haunt me. Everyday I feel like **** for all the family I have hurt and relationships I have ruined. I wish I could quit dwelling on the past so much bc it just ruins my day I just think of this evil person I once was and I can't...
    xHurley xHurley
    31-35, M
    1 Response Feb 27, 2013
    Brookedrumm Brookedrumm
    18-21, F
    Nov 22, 2014

    A Good Friend

    Your arms may be fleeting, but your love is everlasting.  The past cannot change, but my reaction to it can.  Your love can teach me to forgive those who have come before.  If I do not forgive, then I cannot silence the demons and find true happiness within your...
    Penguinfriends Penguinfriends
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2009

    I have serious emotional issues

    and my dangerous past kinds doesn't help, like once I stole some stuff.....idk, it holds me back :#
    darkpheonix darkpheonix
    13-15, F
    1 Response May 21, 2015

    It’s not nice to say you’ve been a battered

    woman. And often you don’t want to think of yourself that way. You tell yourself you don’t really have it that bad. You think “he never broke my jaw” or “I was never in the hospital so it wasn’t really a big deal” but it is. It hurts you mind, body, and soul. You...
    MaraAgain MaraAgain
    22-25, F
    Oct 28, 2014
    umah1307 umah1307
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 9, 2015

    I keep thinking to myself how it would be right

    now if I didn't really mess up in my past. Would it have change my future for the better or would it Have changed my future for the worse. If I didn't drink that night I would have never lost something that could have been wonderful and Bring joy and happiness in my life but now...
    Always4ForeverHappy Always4ForeverHappy
    18-21, F
    Dec 14, 2015

    My Family Has Hurt Me In Ways That Are Unforgetable

          I would like to write what impact each and every person in my immediate family member has done to me, but it's too much.  My dad that means much to me has hurt me, my mom due to her selfishness has caused me a lot of PTS.  And my...
    freedom37 freedom37
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jun 5, 2010

    It Has Defined Me

    I am what i am today, because of the past. I've learned from my mistakes and grown from my heartaches.
    lostprophet lostprophet
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 31, 2009

    I'm stuck in the past.

    it traumatized me.
    Ang012685 Ang012685
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 23, 2015

    Living In The Moment

    I may not be able to forget the past but am I am working on being detached enough from unpleasant thoughts of the past so they do not hold sway over my emotions. I want to live more in the moment and not dwell so much on the past and problems with my family. I will continue...
    Bluetraveler Bluetraveler
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Nov 27, 2011
    TheObviousAnswer TheObviousAnswer
    22-25, M
    Apr 4, 2014

    I Cant Forget the Past

    I want to forget the past what happened all those years ago but i cant seem to let go its like i need some closure as to what happened but i will always want to get on with my life
    scream19 scream19
    22-25, F
    5 Responses May 12, 2009

    Nights like this makes me extremely sad.

    I dont know why. Thanks to this one guy thats making me smile right now. :)
    paigeevans07 paigeevans07
    22-25, F
    May 12, 2014

    Infinity List

    ~ Like counting the days when my papa will be home? ~ Hoping mummy will buy me a sling bag and I waited by the gate each time she goes out but she never came home with my bag ...she would have forgotten by now ~ Papa got home one nite and woke me up to give me a...
    Eternal Eternal
    31-35, F
    Oct 19, 2009

    I just can't let go- I was in a horrible

    relationship for two years. He left me because I got pregnant and I never heard from him again. When I told my parents my Dad forced me to get an abortion. I told my mom the day of that I didn't want to do it but they made me go through with it anyway. I feel like I killed my...
    erndo23 erndo23
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 18, 2014

    I've been realizing a lot lately

    that all I talk about is the past. I think about people that aren't in my life anymore and talk about them too. I must have stuff to deal with still but just have assumed I'm over it. I wish I could just say you know what I'm over it but obviously that's not working. One day...
    katariffik katariffik
    31-35, F
    Aug 21, 2015

    Wow

    I have an I.Q of 172, i have been beaten , gang raped, tortured, What can I say ??Trust in yourself, your own truth. Believe in yourself, it will it will set you free e yo habla espanol e portugese
    tazra tazra
    26-30, F
    Sep 7, 2009

    Our past helped define

    who we have become. Good or bad I am who I am because of it.
    TowerJimmyDabzs TowerJimmyDabzs
    36-40, M
    Jan 31
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 3, 2014

    Anything and everything

    that I've messed up in the past I will never forget. It kills me every time I think about it. I feel like people are judging me based on what I did back then. I'm paranoid.
    theycallmetk theycallmetk
    18-21, M
    Mar 17, 2015

    I'm a firm believe of

    if you did it you meant it. If you said it you meant it. I rarely forgive and I damn sure don't forget. Don't **** up.
    Honorthycurves Honorthycurves
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 20, 2014

    Her hair shimmered in the light wrapped up in

    the arms of her lover safe for once in her life she felt at home without him there was no her he was her life and her soul the times they shared burned in her mind a haunting memory of everything they used to be two kids one love the heat of passion and pieces of broken hearts...
    tatterdremains tatterdremains
    16-17, M
    Mar 15, 2014

    High dive into frozen waves Where the past

    comes back to life Fight fear for the selfish pain i It was worth it every time Hold still right before we crash, 'Cause we both know how this ends A clock ticks 'till it breaks your glass a And I drown in you again 'Cause you are, the piece of me, I wish, I didn't need Chasing...
    fagit329 fagit329
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 27, 2014

    There are three people I am definitely going to

    settle some old scores with some day.
    savoy2 savoy2
    46-50, M
    Nov 27, 2015

    My Marriage Died And I Don't Know How To Revive It

    I've been married for 27 years. Almost 20 years ago, we moved to Virginia. My husband had recently retired from the navy and began working for a local baseball team. My bizarre neighbor (a male) began flirting with my husband and made it clear that he completely despised me. He...
    TerreC TerreC
    51-55, F
    Dec 2, 2012

    Our loves last gift Remembrance Of you

    and I Now buried six feet under Out hands still intertwined
    KristinaBeena KristinaBeena
    18-21, F
    Apr 20, 2014

    And Don't Want To................

    But I sure as hell can use it as a life lesson for the future!!!!!!!!!!
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor
    56-60, F
    2 Responses Sep 6, 2009

    I wish I could get over the past hurt.

    Why do I keep looking back at it :( I worry someday the past will come back into my future and my husband will leave me for his female friend that he wanted to marry...
    Nannyxd Nannyxd
    22-25, F
    Nov 22, 2014

    I can forgive and I want to forget,

    but I can't. To many things have happened, so many times I have been hurt. I wish there was an erase button to take away the past and the hurtful memories. Everyday there are reminders of it.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 20, 2014

    I cannot forget what others have done to me in

    the past. I don't necessarily keep beating them over the head with it like others do, but I also sure that the decision to keep me under her spell was made out of covering something up, or shifting the blame and add to paint a not favorable pucture to justify the unwarranted...
    theotherversionofme theotherversionofme
    51-55, M
    Jun 25, 2015

    Sometimes the Damage Done Is Too Extensive to Fix

    That's just the way it is. You have to find a way to live with the scars, learn from the bleeders & pray for the strength to carry on. I hope & wish every night that I'll wake up a better woman than I was when I went to bed. Sometimes it works, other days I almost feel...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 8, 2009

    Why Can't I Let This Go

    I can't seem to let go of my first boyfriend. Even though we were terrible together, I just can't seem to let it go. He was there when I was diagnosed with depression and was there through it all. But then he left. Why can't I just let go?
    wellhellotherestranger wellhellotherestranger
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 2, 2012

    I Can't Forget It!

    You died a few weeks ago....at 70....gosh I didn't even know you were that old.  You were my biological father, who I hadn't spoken to in over 10 years.  For 14 years we lived in the same town and we only spoke twice that I remember.  You went your way....I...
    tks tks
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Mar 25, 2010

    It Haunts Me

    friends,family now gone into that dreerest regions.they speak to mein my dreams.i can live with the past though.it has defined me,it has shaped me.i don`t even mind a stray grey hair.it is a symbol of all the wisdom i have gained.
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself
    36-40
    1 Response Mar 14, 2009

    There are something's in my past

    that I want to forget, and there are something I never won't to forget, a lot of people live in the past, I realize it's the past and nothing we can do to get it back, you can't worry about tomorrow because there is no guarantee tomorrow will come, so we need to focus on here...
    McKenna630 McKenna630
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Nov 24, 2014

    Always With Me

    There are some bad things that happened to me in my past. I was raped and almost killed, was poisoned by neighbors, used and abused by so called "friends". I can't forget those things. They are what shaped me into the person I am today. And they are carved into my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Jan 25, 2009

    i dont know what to do.

    - so i had this boyfriend , we dont date anymore. but i cant seem to get him out of my head. the memories just keep coming back. i really want them gone. but i cant let go. why?
    tiharaxo tiharaxo
    16-17, F
    Jan 28, 2014

    For entertainment purposes only.

    Not to be taken seriously. My theory of how we evolved to who and what we are now. EVOLUTION One day, a few years ago, maybe a few million or more years ago, there was this single cell something just hanging out at the local single cells' sand bar; waiting for some other...
    Serenitree1 Serenitree1
    70+, F
    1 Response Jan 28

    I Don't Know Why I Am Really Hurt On What Happened to the Past....

    It really makes me depress and I'm sick and tired on thinking about it everyday. I did many things just to forget it, I went to the monastery to pray, bought some books about it, I tried to keep myself busy and pray many times, but it didn't really help a lot. I don't know what...
    itschic itschic
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 27, 2009

    I Can Not Erase It But It Will Not Ruin the Present

    We cannot yet turn back time to change our circumstances.  What we can do is to not let the past run and ruin our lives.  I am not saying it is easy, for some people the past was pure terror and pain and that takes time to heal.  For the rest of us there is no...
    jc2009 jc2009
    41-45, M
    Sep 16, 2010

    Past Stays With Me.

    It's pretty much impossible for me to forget anything that had the littlest impact on me or my life. It gets etched in my memory forever. It really sucks and I wish I could forget so many of the negative and sad things that have happened but I can only put them In the back of my...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2011

    1999

    recently i have been cutting back on drugs and really dont like it. I am remembering suppressed memories and regrets that happened clear back in the 90's. that's when all my troubles started.
    rorer714 rorer714
    26-30, M
    Feb 23, 2013

    I cheated on my girlfriend

    before we broke up. And now I wonder if it was a one time thing or if I'll cheat on the person I date
    mattph mattph
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 3, 2014
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