I Cant Bear the Thought of Another Year Like This One

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    Lonely

    My friend moved and I have been crying since. I have another friend!! She made fun of my friend that moved!! I stopped being friends with her when I thought of all the times she hurt my feelings and became friends with people who hate me or people i do not like!! She would...
    Peachie66 Peachie66
    13-15, F
    Feb 2, 2011

    Life's Been a Little Bit Rough On Me.

    The last couple years have been a whirlwind of hell  for me.  Leaving one job to move to a town I didn't want to live in to take care of someone I didn't want to live with.  Then I ended up taking a job I hated, and living in a house that was falling apart, and had...
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Jun 24, 2009

    The First Part

    This year has been truly special to me, yet if I could divide it into two installments, the first part, I would never wish to revisit again, but have had to, as I needed to go through a great deal of it to get where I am now.  The first part was very much filled with...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 27, 2008

    Is It Possible To Live 10 Years In 1?

    This feels like it's been the longest year of my life. Illness, my daughter's surgery, my father's second stroke, postponement of meetings and a wedding.........gaining back a lot of the weight I lost due to stress and illness. The heat is keeping me from being able to workout...
    DieKatzeSchreibt DieKatzeSchreibt
    41-45
    Jul 17, 2011

    No Way...no How

    I don't know if I have the strength to go through another year like this one. I'm not even sure if I have the strength to finish this year...I am scared to death to see what it has in store for me. Between bad decisions, bad luck, bad relationships, bad surgery and bad sickness...
    purpleriz purpleriz
    46-50, F
    6 Responses Jul 28, 2009

    Not Anymore, Please.

    this year has certainly been hell for me. thinking about all the fights, all the shouting, all the tears and all the pain.... i really can't believe how do i make it alive. sometimes i felt like jumping out of the window from the apartment that i lived in, but nah.... i can't...
    LovelessAdvocate LovelessAdvocate
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 19, 2010

    I Wouldnt Survive Another Time

    2011.The year when i left my mum to live with my aunt and uncle,The year when my sister tried committing suicideThe year i tried committing suicideThe year when i saw my sister skin and bonesThe year I cut everydayThe year when my best friend tried committing suicideThe year my...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes
    18-21, F
    Mar 14, 2012

    That's Why I'm Trying To Change

    Because this year has left me exhausted.Like woah.So tough.And people have it far worse, of this I know.But I am emotionally drained and refuse to let myself live another year like this one.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    3 Responses Apr 15, 2011

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