I Can't Count On Those I Thought I Could

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 238 People

    When I Needed Them the Most

    i have recently found out i have a disab;ing degenerative spinal disease.i have really been going down faster than i thought i would.i had two surgerys to help,they made it worse.and when i needed freinds and familky,i turned to find no one there.i gave everything i could to my...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself
    36-40
    4 Responses Apr 24, 2009

    The Worst Feeling In The World

    one of them at least: when that friend you THOUGHT would get you and know how to cheer you up tells you you're emo and to stop crying. ....ugh.
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 2, 2010

    Unfortunately.

    I just recently made the most difficult decision of my life. It was sooo hard on me and when I needed my close girl friends most, no one was there for me other than my very best friend. I thought that we were so close and that they would be here for me no matter what. I was...
    livelaughlove4 livelaughlove4
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 24, 2009

    Thank You

    I don't think I have to say anything else
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Nov 20, 2008

    I Cant

    its very upsetting and the worse thing is, now i cant trust people as easily.
    georshar georshar
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 3, 2009

    "I Will Be By Your Side"

    I was told this words several times when we were friends We shared the rent and lived together Until I left .. She was totally changed She didnt care if I'd get hurted to know what she said behind my back It was fine because at least I have learnt that The only person...
    PinkZlollipopZ PinkZlollipopZ
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 1, 2009

    Shouldn't Be That Way

    maybe it's naive of me, but i thought there were people in this world that you should be able to expect better from. people that you could rely upon and trust. i'm not talking about casual acquaintances, but family, friends, people you've known your whole life or at least most of...
    jerrica jerrica
    46-50, F
    13 Responses Nov 20, 2008

    Yeah, There Are Those Times

    Like, you know, you thought they could be there for you, but they can't. Like, all you need is someone who can listen, someone who won't judge at that moment, & yet, it still happens. You feel helpless, and alone. and it's disappointing, frustrating, but it usually happens.
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 29, 2009

    Betryal Is a B@tch

    The people who were supposed to be in my corner, not only abandoned me in my hour of extreme need, but came in like vultures to see what they could get. I want to forgive my parents...if I do this, I will only get hurt again like I always do. However, I will always hate my...
    laughinkatt laughinkatt
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 20, 2008

    Just Can't

    Wish I could but every time I do, I just get proved wrong. It never fails.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 20, 2012

    It Hurts

    This sounds wierd, But I had a councellor that I trusted so much. We didn't have the typical councellor, client relationship, she gave me her address and her phone number. I even had her on MSN. I talked to her at school and thought that she actually did care. Because she...
    sindayla sindayla
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2009

    But As of Right Now _ I Am Counting On Me!!!

    Starting this moment - I am standing firmly, proudly and strongly on these two feet. No more meekness - no more resentments - no more excuses.  I am taking back my life - and that is an empowering feeling.  For my EP friends on here that have talked to...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72
    36-40, F
    12 Responses Nov 28, 2008

    Tokens

    I wish EP could turn this Tokens into Japanese currency and send it to my bank account. he he **grin**
    ladyryan ladyryan
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 27, 2012

    I've Learned to Not Exp...

    I've learned to not expect things from people. That way, I'll never be disappointed.
    SomethingHidden SomethingHidden
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 6, 2009

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