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I Can't Count On Those I Thought I Could

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 246 People

    When I Needed Them the Most

    i have recently found out i have a disab;ing degenerative spinal disease.i have really been going down faster than i thought i would.i had two surgerys to help,they made it worse.and when i needed freinds and familky,i turned to find no one there.i gave everything i could to my...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 4 Responses Apr 24, 2009

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    Betrayed Trust

    I thought I could trust him with my secret. Well, it turns out that I couldn't he told someone my deepest secret...well, one of them & now I feel betrayed... AGAIN! I told him because I thought he was trustworthy. Well, turns out... no one is.
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F Feb 26, 2009

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    Tokens

    I wish EP could turn this Tokens into Japanese currency and send it to my bank account. he he **grin**
    ladyryan ladyryan 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 27, 2012

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    Betryal Is a B@tch

    The people who were supposed to be in my corner, not only abandoned me in my hour of extreme need, but came in like vultures to see what they could get. I want to forgive my parents...if I do this, I will only get hurt again like I always do. However, I will always hate my...
    laughinkatt laughinkatt 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2008

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    The Worst Feeling In The World

    one of them at least: when that friend you THOUGHT would get you and know how to cheer you up tells you you're emo and to stop crying. ....ugh.
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 2, 2010

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    Yeah, There Are Those Times

    Like, you know, you thought they could be there for you, but they can't. Like, all you need is someone who can listen, someone who won't judge at that moment, & yet, it still happens. You feel helpless, and alone. and it's disappointing, frustrating, but it usually happens.
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 29, 2009

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    But As of Right Now _ I Am Counting On Me!!!

    Starting this moment - I am standing firmly, proudly and strongly on these two feet. No more meekness - no more resentments - no more excuses.  I am taking back my life - and that is an empowering feeling.  For my EP friends on here that have talked to...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 16 Responses Nov 28, 2008

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    Just Can't

    Wish I could but every time I do, I just get proved wrong. It never fails.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 20, 2012

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    I Cant

    its very upsetting and the worse thing is, now i cant trust people as easily.
    georshar georshar 36-40, F 1 Response May 3, 2009

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    "I Will Be By Your Side"

    I was told this words several times when we were friends We shared the rent and lived together Until I left .. She was totally changed She didnt care if I'd get hurted to know what she said behind my back It was fine because at least I have learnt that The only person...
    PinkZlollipopZ PinkZlollipopZ 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2009

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    Thank You

    I don't think I have to say anything else
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Nov 20, 2008

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    It Hurts

    This sounds wierd, But I had a councellor that I trusted so much. We didn't have the typical councellor, client relationship, she gave me her address and her phone number. I even had her on MSN. I talked to her at school and thought that she actually did care. Because she...
    sindayla sindayla 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2009

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    Unfortunately.

    I just recently made the most difficult decision of my life. It was sooo hard on me and when I needed my close girl friends most, no one was there for me other than my very best friend. I thought that we were so close and that they would be here for me no matter what. I was...
    livelaughlove4 livelaughlove4 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 24, 2009

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    Shouldn't Be That Way

    maybe it's naive of me, but i thought there were people in this world that you should be able to expect better from. people that you could rely upon and trust. i'm not talking about casual acquaintances, but family, friends, people you've known your whole life or at least most of...
    jerrica jerrica 41-45, F 16 Responses Nov 20, 2008

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    I've Learned to Not Exp...

    I've learned to not expect things from people. That way, I'll never be disappointed.
    SomethingHidden SomethingHidden 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2009

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    I want to tell you something that I feel needs to be said. I love Mother's Day for the reason it's meant to be. Growing up, I had no mother. That's not something that bothers me...
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    Since we first got together 15 years ago I have struggled with my husband's irresponsible and selfish financial behaviour. He only works on projects that he wants to do and for the...
    Christina6581 Christina6581 46-50, F May 14

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    the date was march 9 when we broke up. but before it happened, i was having conversation with my girl friend. i like her and i know having conversations with her is not good, but i...
    EricGo EricGo 18-21, M Apr 26

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    I can't remember a lot of things like for example what I did for the last month. All I know I am working. Is this a problem?
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    48 hours and counting of no sleep. I just can't stop trying to sort out my whole stupid hellish life. I constantly am trying to figure out exactly what I want and why. I have...
    stewartgreen stewartgreen 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    It's so disturbing to only see numbers in front of you when eating... Focusing on eating less every day, even though I know that I'm way too skinny - feeling bad when taking in...
    ThatCrimson ThatCrimson 13-15, F 1 Response May 10

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    I'm in love with my ex n I know I can't have him anymore that hurts I feel useless because I couldn't help him I wish that he would come and there could be a us again but I...
    angie314 angie314 13-15, F 1 Response May 15

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    I met you in 8th grade, you were new and very quiet. For some reason I just couldn't keep my eyes off of you, I was drawn to you, I was attracted to you. I would try talking to you...
    MrSpecify MrSpecify 18-21, M May 9

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    Abusive alcoholic father died last year. Mother is alone now and calls and gives me guilt trips because I don't go to see her. I'm sorry. I can't bring myself to go to her house...
    KeepnTheFaith KeepnTheFaith 51-55 May 9

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    So basically we got together when I was 18 and he was 22. I was lonely and young and hurting from being recently dumped and he made me feel good. Looking back on it it wasn't that...
    alunna alunna 22-25, F Apr 29

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    I absolutely detest my ex don't get me wrong in the 6 years that I known him we did have some pretty good times together but their were also some really bad times too & I'm proud...
    Gtmchocco12 Gtmchocco12 18-21, F May 6

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    I've use too be this carefree person with so much happiness. Nothing use too bother me, well not being alone didn't bother me. Those days are gone and I can't seem too want too...
    AwesomeGuyy22 AwesomeGuyy22 22-25, M May 8

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    I guess that most of the time I'm glad people can't read my thoughts....However, sometimes I wish they could, and I wish I could read others. One of the joys about living with...
    britman33 britman33 46-50, M May 5

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    Oh how weird it would have been if they could! I'm certain no one wants to know what happened to Sara when she joined Minchin's school. Or how Esther was diagnosed at the agree of...
    chocolateinmyblood chocolateinmyblood 18-21, F 1 Response May 14

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    i was 10 when i started thats when hell broke lose. it was 4th grade the joy of growing up filled me i couldn't wait to begin. when i did pain started. i was bigger than most girls...
    thewatcher12 thewatcher12 13-15 1 Response May 15

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    I'm the worst at talking to new people. Like what do I say? I have no experiences to share with this new person that they could relate to. My life is a mess and I wish I could make...
    ThisGuyKnows ThisGuyKnows 18-21, M May 16

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    I try...I really do...but i've been pushed down so many times and i feel like this time will be the last, my thoughts and dreams ( nightmares) are constantly invaded by memories of...
    Lyxdesicgal Lyxdesicgal 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    Sometimes I wish I could cry, only the tears can't be found. I'm surrounded by a thousand screams, but I can't hear a single sound. I'm walking through a land of darkness...
    good4nothin1 good4nothin1 31-35, M 2 Responses May 5

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    As always i am thinking about you and wonder if your thinking of me too. I often think about that day i had with you.That was the first time we spent a day together since the first...
    solongago2 solongago2 31-35, F 1 Response May 7

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    Literally. I haven't slept in days and all I can think about is her. She never leaves my mind. I wish I hadn't left her, I can't stop worrying. I mean she has tons of friends. She...
    wtfJason wtfJason 16-17, M 4 Responses May 7

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    Oh, Kitty. Ever since you stopped being my best friend, I've been trying to convince myself that I don't care for you anymore. It's hard. Sometimes I succeed--but ultimately, I...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F May 10

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    I always overthink. I always over analyze. Every damn thing. I hate it because I feel like I'm going insane! People tell me to chill out, but sorry, I can't. My most recent...
    TheIvoryOwl TheIvoryOwl 18-21, F May 16

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    The feeling I hate the most when unable to sleep is the piercing loneliness. There's nothing between you and your thoughts and you wish you had someone to call, someone to message...
    Featherwings Featherwings 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I sometimes wish I could be numb or well more than I already am so I wouln't get hurt by the things my family and classmates call me or say to me... I'm scared to get close and I...
    CustardGirl CustardGirl 13-15, F Apr 28

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    it would be easier on everyone involved if I could just walk away. but how do you break an attraction when you're attached like this?. when their part of your everyday life. when...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 2

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    I'm with a great guy and I enjoy being with him but I can't seem to feel love. There is no powerful connection for me or any sexual interest. I wish o could feel love since he...
    reapersweep reapersweep 18-21, F May 11

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    Had to stop talking to him all together. Erased his number from my phone. Just can't deal with not being able to have him. Maybe someday he will see what he couldn't see now.
    Msjess Msjess 31-35, F 1 Response May 12