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I Can't Count On Those I Thought I Could

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 246 People

    The Worst Feeling In The World

    one of them at least: when that friend you THOUGHT would get you and know how to cheer you up tells you you're emo and to stop crying. ....ugh.
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 2, 2010

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    Unfortunately.

    I just recently made the most difficult decision of my life. It was sooo hard on me and when I needed my close girl friends most, no one was there for me other than my very best friend. I thought that we were so close and that they would be here for me no matter what. I was...
    livelaughlove4 livelaughlove4 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 24, 2009

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    Betrayed Trust

    I thought I could trust him with my secret. Well, it turns out that I couldn't he told someone my deepest secret...well, one of them & now I feel betrayed... AGAIN! I told him because I thought he was trustworthy. Well, turns out... no one is.
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F Feb 26, 2009

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    I've Learned to Not Exp...

    I've learned to not expect things from people. That way, I'll never be disappointed.
    SomethingHidden SomethingHidden 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2009

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    I Cant

    its very upsetting and the worse thing is, now i cant trust people as easily.
    georshar georshar 36-40, F 1 Response May 3, 2009

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    Tokens

    I wish EP could turn this Tokens into Japanese currency and send it to my bank account. he he **grin**
    ladyryan ladyryan 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 27, 2012

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    It Hurts

    This sounds wierd, But I had a councellor that I trusted so much. We didn't have the typical councellor, client relationship, she gave me her address and her phone number. I even had her on MSN. I talked to her at school and thought that she actually did care. Because she...
    sindayla sindayla 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2009

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    Betryal Is a B@tch

    The people who were supposed to be in my corner, not only abandoned me in my hour of extreme need, but came in like vultures to see what they could get. I want to forgive my parents...if I do this, I will only get hurt again like I always do. However, I will always hate my...
    laughinkatt laughinkatt 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2008

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    Thank You

    I don't think I have to say anything else
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Nov 20, 2008

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    Just Can't

    Wish I could but every time I do, I just get proved wrong. It never fails.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 20, 2012

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    When I Needed Them the Most

    i have recently found out i have a disab;ing degenerative spinal disease.i have really been going down faster than i thought i would.i had two surgerys to help,they made it worse.and when i needed freinds and familky,i turned to find no one there.i gave everything i could to my...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 4 Responses Apr 24, 2009

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    BUT I Can Count On Me

    ULTIMATELY THAT'S THE GIFT ALL THE FRIENEMIES I'VE HAD HAVE GIVEN ME, AND SOME FAMILY MEMBERS TOO. I LEARNED TO CONFIDE IN MYSELF, CONSOLE MYSELF, SUPPORT MYSELF, BELIEVE IN MYSELF, LOVE MYSELF, AND PUT MYSELF FIRST SO I THANK ALL OF YOU FOR BEING SO DAMNED TRIFFLING.
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 8 Responses Dec 31, 2008

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    "I Will Be By Your Side"

    I was told this words several times when we were friends We shared the rent and lived together Until I left .. She was totally changed She didnt care if I'd get hurted to know what she said behind my back It was fine because at least I have learnt that The only person...
    PinkZlollipopZ PinkZlollipopZ 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2009

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    Yeah, There Are Those Times

    Like, you know, you thought they could be there for you, but they can't. Like, all you need is someone who can listen, someone who won't judge at that moment, & yet, it still happens. You feel helpless, and alone. and it's disappointing, frustrating, but it usually happens.
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 29, 2009

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    But As of Right Now _ I Am Counting On Me!!!

    Starting this moment - I am standing firmly, proudly and strongly on these two feet. No more meekness - no more resentments - no more excuses.  I am taking back my life - and that is an empowering feeling.  For my EP friends on here that have talked to...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 16 Responses Nov 28, 2008

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    Shouldn't Be That Way

    maybe it's naive of me, but i thought there were people in this world that you should be able to expect better from. people that you could rely upon and trust. i'm not talking about casual acquaintances, but family, friends, people you've known your whole life or at least most of...
    jerrica jerrica 41-45, F 16 Responses Nov 20, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    Don't get me wrong, I love my parents. It's just... sometimes (most of the time) I wish they would get divorced. My mum is easily pissed off and my dad constantly shouts and swears...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9

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    I can't remember the first 10 or 12 years of my life. And what few "memories" I have are more like pictures (like I may have seen a picture of it and remember that/I only remember...
    IAmJustAGhostGirl IAmJustAGhostGirl 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I can't stop counting calories, reading nutrition labels and worry about what I eat. I don't think I can ever eat normally again
    Smokewithashes Smokewithashes 18-21, F Apr 21

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    the date was march 9 when we broke up. but before it happened, i was having conversation with my girl friend. i like her and i know having conversations with her is not good, but i...
    EricGo EricGo 18-21, M a week ago

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    I Can't Understand How Elle MacPherson Ever Gave A Body Like Her's To Tiny White Guys With Little Tiny White Dicks , How Did Elle MacPherson Resist Getting F-u-c-k-e-d And...
    ElleMacPhersonBlackBaby ElleMacPhersonBlackBaby 51-55, M 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    I hate when my mind is spinning with a million thoughts and I can't figure out how to get the words out.
    pinkstarburst pinkstarburst 41-45, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I have a great example for this one. In middle school we were required to read books for language arts as expected. I have no issue with reading. I've consistently read above the...
    BleedingOrchids BleedingOrchids 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 3

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    I have a family member that gets depressed from time to time. In many respects, he has a good life. Although he is a bit of a loner, he is a great person and many people really...
    deannapatricia deannapatricia 26-30 Apr 14

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    I wanted someone to know me before I died. Wanted them to know what I was really like. I think that's part of what sparked my ramble today. That, and weariness. My ramble was a cry...
    ambivalentFriability ambivalentFriability 18-21 1 Response Apr 14

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    I just can't believe that they only hear what they want to hear. They never ask me what really happened. They were biased. They only want to hear the other side of the story . Even...
    Donnathena Donnathena 18-21, F Apr 17

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    I am 16 yrs old girl and in my life happened something strange that I cant understand but I love and I cant let go altough it is hurting me and I just can't decide what is right so...
    nitheism nitheism 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    I owe you an explanation I can't give you in fact. Suppose I never will. I could barely explain it, even though it's actually very simple... I told you I was afraid to be around...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 3

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    I didn't believe in God until I started having the strangest things happen to me. First they were subtle little things that could have been set up. Then they graduated to paranoia...
    SeasonsinHell SeasonsinHell 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    You told me today I pushed you away and I can`t even tell you were wrong. I do, I push you away, because it hurts too much to be around you. To see you, to talk to you, it makes me...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 5

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    I'm home schooled, so I'm not waiting to spend those extra hours in bed during the morning.I like to get up early, so I can't really say anything about that. I prefer learning and...
    Phoenixem Phoenixem 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 21

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    I have had a few of these. Moments that are so special but you can't take a photo or keep a souvenir. You are just left with secret memories that only one other person will ever...
    Littlemissshy7 Littlemissshy7 46-50, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    or maybe they just can't stand me? Whatever it is the feeling is mutual. I work at a salon and I'm the only male working there. You would not believe how catty some of those women...
    ElectraX ElectraX 36-40, M 4 days ago

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    I wish I could put my whole life on pause and just soak up the moment right in his arms. Live each and every morning with him right by my side. Kiss him till our toes curl. Hug...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F Apr 3

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    She was the reason why I cut myself last year. She's the reason I have scars on my arms and heart. But at the same time she's the reason why I keep going. Why I keep smiling...
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M 5 Responses Apr 4

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    After what I thought were 5 amazing months, my boyfriend broke up with me. I can't help thinking that this is a whiny teenage problem, but you know what? It ******* hurts. This was...
    restlessrenn restlessrenn 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 11

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    It's so painful..so much so that I can barely focus on anything else. Every stupid little thing reminds me of him. Especially good stuff, things that used to make me happy..like...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    So basically we got together when I was 18 and he was 22. I was lonely and young and hurting from being recently dumped and he made me feel good. Looking back on it it wasn't that...
    alunna alunna 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    Happy. Thats what she was, finally the cuts where disappearing, the visits to the doctor where getting shorter and the times she spent crying where becoming none exsistant. She...
    jordan199728 jordan199728 18-21, M Apr 3

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    Ivan has gotten so close to me again. He's checking on me everyday, he even asked for a hug. He even told me in front of pretty much the entire class "I've probably hurt you more...
    AngelsInBlack AngelsInBlack 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    Okay so this is ridiculous, and after explaining the story I'm pretty sure I'll get called crazy. I started working at shoe store about 8 months ago, there are 4 managers and I...
    Pearlljjam Pearlljjam 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 6

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    I try...I really do...but i've been pushed down so many times and i feel like this time will be the last, my thoughts and dreams ( nightmares) are constantly invaded by memories of...
    Lyxdesicgal Lyxdesicgal 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    There are three coworkers who i find absolutely annoying to the point where I REALLY wish I could say "SHUT THE EFF UP ALREADY". Mrs. "H" is lazy, she doesn't do half the things...
    BrokeBandit BrokeBandit 36-40, F Apr 7