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I Can't Escape My Past

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    I get it I know and I understand this life

    isn't mine but it's all that I have. I never asked you for it take it back if you think it's worthless. My minds going blank because of the words worthless and useless. I keep running jumping spinning turning but no matter the route it leads back to that fact that on that day...
    shadow721 shadow721 18-21, M Nov 23

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    There are two types of women my mama said Women

    who are planted And Women who are hatched There are women who are coaxed to grow Nourished by the sun and water And There are women fed by destruction Fed by insecurity, callousness and bitterness Some women are rooted in soil lavishing in security And Some women are...
    breannajust breannajust 18-21, F Feb 7

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    But That

     doesnt mean i cant change my future. no, there is still time to fix everything. :) i just have to keep believing.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    There He Is Again.

    It's been 10 months, I was pretty much over my ex, so I thought. Tonight, I was over at my friends trailer, she has 5 cats & I'm allergic to them..I went to walk around the trailer-hood in the snow to get some fresh air, hopefully clear my nose & make my eyes stop itching. I...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    I Can't Escape THE PAIN OF Childhood Abuse I WENT THROUGH

    NO ONE WILL LET ME KATY AND RICK BEC AND COLM HAVE MY DIARY AND PERSONAL BELONGINGS AND EVEN POSSIBLY A BIRTH CERTIFICATE I THINK THEY GAVE IT TO BUGSY WHO WAS WORKING AT A TOOMBUL OPTOMITRIST THAT BEC MADE ME GO TO ONE DAY BEC KIRK ALSO MADE ME GO TO THE UQ CAMPUS ONE DAY SO THE...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jul 27, 2011

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    Runaway

    I've tried to run. i have tried to ditch my childhood and my teen years and just go, fast and far... leaving everything and everyone behind.. I can't hide, no where is safe.. the pain of my parents divorce still haunts me... the pain of moving away and losing every friend i ever...
    MiremebeKamaria MiremebeKamaria 18-21, F Nov 24, 2010

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    ....

    This is the main reason I don't want to feel anymore
    iminpain iminpain 18-21, M 9 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    Memory

    Time can pass. I can forget some of the detail of those things, but the main memories will always be present. They have been soaked into my mind, and will never fully leave. I will never escape the past, and the things that I have done.
    emipurple emipurple 18-21, F Oct 12, 2013

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    To Hard

    Ive tried to forget my past but its to hard.I have had so many bad things happen to me that i think bout more now.I only think of it cuz for once im finally happy,and i know that i wont stay happy for long since sumthing always happens to ruin my happiness.The stuff that i...
    demonicsangel2011 demonicsangel2011 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    The House

    People always tell me a home is where ur family is and where the u feel safe. So i live in a house. all my life i turned down the right roads only to find road blocks and end up taking bad short cuts. my dad and i dont agree on anything even if i try. we fight and i try to drop...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    Y Do I Feel Regret

    I dont know if i feel regret for the decision ive made because i miss her, because i'm lonely, or both... It all starts and ends with my former "best friend" heather(she is the her in the first sentence). We were friends for almost 10 yrs, but she is the type of friend who only...
    cutebishortie cutebishortie 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2011

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    My Past Wont Leave.

    I am always haunted by my past. There is nothing I can do to get away from thinking about it. It's always there in a dream, a thought, an action, or something I say.Β 
    ohmybobbert ohmybobbert 18-21 Nov 7, 2011

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    I Cannot Escape It

    Β It all started when I was about seven or eight. My sisters left and it broke me. I didn't get a single goodbye and any contact after that was a secret, it wasn't until a last year where I found a letter from one of my sisters.... They came back into my life but it was strained...
    Buffy19 Buffy19 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2011

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    Haunted By My Past ...

    I loved well thought I loved a man for three years he lived in the states we met 3 years priod when I was 20 , he was a player but I didnt want to believe it and 3 years later i stupidly and impusivly went all the way there only to realise he was nothing special just a guy living...
    sonkamoo31 sonkamoo31 31-35 May 13, 2012

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    Everyone Has Something In Their Past!

    We all have done things we may or may not be proud of! Some things we did can come back to haunt us maybe even do damage in our present day life. But there is no sence trying to hide from or forget them, they are as close to us as our minds, always there if we think or even dare...
    thegunsmith thegunsmith 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    Fear Of Past

    I DID MANY THINGS OR HAVE EXP RELATED TO MY PAST WHICH MAKE M TENSED WHY I SELECTED 4 THAT I M WORRIED 4 THEIR IMPACT ON MY FUTURE????????????????WHY GOD SELECTED M ?????????.............................. BELIEVE ON God is th best answer ha na confusing
    love19082 love19082 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2010

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    Small Town

    When I decided to transition I knew that it would be hard while living in a small town. I thought long and hard about moving, maybe to a big town. However, my family and friends are here, not to mention my home.I know that I am not the only transgender person that wishes that the...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T Jun 12, 2013

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    The Past Is Relentless

    So back in high school my friends and i used to do stupid stuff for fun. They were often illegal so when we got caught we got a free ride to our houses in the back of a sqaud car. Twice was just a slap on the wrist so to speak and being grounded by the parentals. Drinkin at the...
    mumbo21 mumbo21 22-25, M Mar 13, 2010

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    A Good Memory

    When I was 5 years old, my mother made an Easter egg hunt for me. She left those hard shelled marshmallow eggs laying around places, and each had a note attached, giving vague clues as to where to find the next one. The notes eventually lead me to a plastic egg with a whole...
    fatslut fatslut 36-40, F Mar 31, 2013

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