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I Can't Escape My Past

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    I Can't Escape THE PAIN OF Childhood Abuse I WENT THROUGH

    NO ONE WILL LET ME KATY AND RICK BEC AND COLM HAVE MY DIARY AND PERSONAL BELONGINGS AND EVEN POSSIBLY A BIRTH CERTIFICATE I THINK THEY GAVE IT TO BUGSY WHO WAS WORKING AT A TOOMBUL OPTOMITRIST THAT BEC MADE ME GO TO ONE DAY BEC KIRK ALSO MADE ME GO TO THE UQ CAMPUS ONE DAY SO THE...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jul 27, 2011

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    Fear Of Past

    I DID MANY THINGS OR HAVE EXP RELATED TO MY PAST WHICH MAKE M TENSED WHY I SELECTED 4 THAT I M WORRIED 4 THEIR IMPACT ON MY FUTURE????????????????WHY GOD SELECTED M ?????????.............................. BELIEVE ON God is th best answer ha na confusing
    love19082 love19082 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2010

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    ....

    This is the main reason I don't want to feel anymore
    iminpain iminpain 18-21, M 9 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    Memory

    Time can pass. I can forget some of the detail of those things, but the main memories will always be present. They have been soaked into my mind, and will never fully leave. I will never escape the past, and the things that I have done.
    emipurple emipurple 18-21, F Oct 12, 2013

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    The Past Is Relentless

    So back in high school my friends and i used to do stupid stuff for fun. They were often illegal so when we got caught we got a free ride to our houses in the back of a sqaud car. Twice was just a slap on the wrist so to speak and being grounded by the parentals. Drinkin at the...
    mumbo21 mumbo21 22-25, M Mar 13, 2010

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    Everyone Has Something In Their Past!

    We all have done things we may or may not be proud of! Some things we did can come back to haunt us maybe even do damage in our present day life. But there is no sence trying to hide from or forget them, they are as close to us as our minds, always there if we think or even dare...
    thegunsmith thegunsmith 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    The House

    People always tell me a home is where ur family is and where the u feel safe. So i live in a house. all my life i turned down the right roads only to find road blocks and end up taking bad short cuts. my dad and i dont agree on anything even if i try. we fight and i try to drop...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    There are two types of women my mama said Women

    who are planted And Women who are hatched There are women who are coaxed to grow Nourished by the sun and water And There are women fed by destruction Fed by insecurity, callousness and bitterness Some women are rooted in soil lavishing in security And Some women are...
    breannajust breannajust 18-21, F Feb 7, 2014

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    Runaway

    I've tried to run. i have tried to ditch my childhood and my teen years and just go, fast and far... leaving everything and everyone behind.. I can't hide, no where is safe.. the pain of my parents divorce still haunts me... the pain of moving away and losing every friend i ever...
    MiremebeKamaria MiremebeKamaria 18-21, F Nov 24, 2010

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    There He Is Again.

    It's been 10 months, I was pretty much over my ex, so I thought. Tonight, I was over at my friends trailer, she has 5 cats & I'm allergic to them..I went to walk around the trailer-hood in the snow to get some fresh air, hopefully clear my nose & make my eyes stop itching. I...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    Small Town

    When I decided to transition I knew that it would be hard while living in a small town. I thought long and hard about moving, maybe to a big town. However, my family and friends are here, not to mention my home.I know that I am not the only transgender person that wishes that the...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T Jun 12, 2013

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    Y Do I Feel Regret

    I dont know if i feel regret for the decision ive made because i miss her, because i'm lonely, or both... It all starts and ends with my former "best friend" heather(she is the her in the first sentence). We were friends for almost 10 yrs, but she is the type of friend who only...
    cutebishortie cutebishortie 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2011

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    But That

     doesnt mean i cant change my future. no, there is still time to fix everything. :) i just have to keep believing.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    I get it I know and I understand this life

    isn't mine but it's all that I have. I never asked you for it take it back if you think it's worthless. My minds going blank because of the words worthless and useless. I keep running jumping spinning turning but no matter the route it leads back to that fact that on that day...
    shadow721 shadow721 22-25, M Nov 23, 2014

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    To Hard

    Ive tried to forget my past but its to hard.I have had so many bad things happen to me that i think bout more now.I only think of it cuz for once im finally happy,and i know that i wont stay happy for long since sumthing always happens to ruin my happiness.The stuff that i...
    demonicsangel2011 demonicsangel2011 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    My Past Wont Leave.

    I am always haunted by my past. There is nothing I can do to get away from thinking about it. It's always there in a dream, a thought, an action, or something I say. 
    ohmybobbert ohmybobbert 18-21 Nov 7, 2011

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    A Good Memory

    When I was 5 years old, my mother made an Easter egg hunt for me. She left those hard shelled marshmallow eggs laying around places, and each had a note attached, giving vague clues as to where to find the next one. The notes eventually lead me to a plastic egg with a whole...
    fatslut fatslut 36-40, F Mar 31, 2013

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    I Cannot Escape It

     It all started when I was about seven or eight. My sisters left and it broke me. I didn't get a single goodbye and any contact after that was a secret, it wasn't until a last year where I found a letter from one of my sisters.... They came back into my life but it was strained...
    Buffy19 Buffy19 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2011

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    Haunted By My Past ...

    I loved well thought I loved a man for three years he lived in the states we met 3 years priod when I was 20 , he was a player but I didnt want to believe it and 3 years later i stupidly and impusivly went all the way there only to realise he was nothing special just a guy living...
    sonkamoo31 sonkamoo31 31-35 May 13, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    Don't get me wrong, I love my parents. It's just... sometimes (most of the time) I wish they would get divorced. My mum is easily pissed off and my dad constantly shouts and swears...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 9

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    I Can't Understand How Elle MacPherson Ever Gave A Body Like Her's To Tiny White Guys With Little Tiny White Dicks , How Did Elle MacPherson Resist Getting F-u-c-k-e-d And...
    ElleMacPhersonBlackBaby ElleMacPhersonBlackBaby 51-55, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I didn't believe in God until I started having the strangest things happen to me. First they were subtle little things that could have been set up. Then they graduated to paranoia...
    SeasonsinHell SeasonsinHell 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    I try...I really do...but i've been pushed down so many times and i feel like this time will be the last, my thoughts and dreams ( nightmares) are constantly invaded by memories of...
    Lyxdesicgal Lyxdesicgal 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    It's so painful..so much so that I can barely focus on anything else. Every stupid little thing reminds me of him. Especially good stuff, things that used to make me happy..like...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    She was the reason why I cut myself last year. She's the reason I have scars on my arms and heart. But at the same time she's the reason why I keep going. Why I keep smiling...
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M 5 Responses Apr 4

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    I can’t wait any longer hoping that somebody’s going to look past all my flaws and still love me. I am only good for drunk, high, desperate one night stands.
    OddlyMixedChild OddlyMixedChild 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 17

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    I owe you an explanation I can't give you in fact. Suppose I never will. I could barely explain it, even though it's actually very simple... I told you I was afraid to be around...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 3

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    I can't remember the first 10 or 12 years of my life. And what few "memories" I have are more like pictures (like I may have seen a picture of it and remember that/I only remember...
    IAmJustAGhostGirl IAmJustAGhostGirl 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I am an adult on the Autism spectrum. As a child, I never really had quality of friends. They often used me. I believe in a race of people/extraterrestrials called...
    NiggiMaskedSalesman NiggiMaskedSalesman 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    I am 16 yrs old girl and in my life happened something strange that I cant understand but I love and I cant let go altough it is hurting me and I just can't decide what is right so...
    nitheism nitheism 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    I just realized I can't kill myself. I have a little sister, a dog, karate, my writing, all these faces of people I know and care about in my mind... And I know I am useless in...
    asami13 asami13 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 4

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    Ivan has gotten so close to me again. He's checking on me everyday, he even asked for a hug. He even told me in front of pretty much the entire class "I've probably hurt you more...
    AngelsInBlack AngelsInBlack 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    You told me today I pushed you away and I can`t even tell you were wrong. I do, I push you away, because it hurts too much to be around you. To see you, to talk to you, it makes me...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 5

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    Okay so this is ridiculous, and after explaining the story I'm pretty sure I'll get called crazy. I started working at shoe store about 8 months ago, there are 4 managers and I...
    Pearlljjam Pearlljjam 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 6

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    Always and every time, I crush on girls every 5 heart beats, it gets real annoying since most of the time I have no reason to like them it's just cause they look good (can't get...
    MrSpecify MrSpecify 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    My mom is a straight up idiot. Stupid. Im feeling really low and sad and sadly this means I can't keep a lid on my mouth. I started talking to my mom about my situation. Feeling...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    They just wouldn't understand. well, most people wouldn't understand. No one can truly understand how I feel. If I told my family / friends everything that bothered me, and how I'm...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 17 Responses Apr 11

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    After what I thought were 5 amazing months, my boyfriend broke up with me. I can't help thinking that this is a whiny teenage problem, but you know what? It ******* hurts. This was...
    restlessrenn restlessrenn 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 11

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    I just wanted to say sorry about my last post! I had some pretty nasty comments and I deserved them for saying I don't like fat and ugly guys! Yes I'm very judgemental and I'm sure...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 12

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    I just can't believe that they only hear what they want to hear. They never ask me what really happened. They were biased. They only want to hear the other side of the story . Even...
    Donnathena Donnathena 18-21, F Apr 17

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    'You say it best when you say nothin at all' I can't express myself well. When I like, I say nothin. When I care, I ask nothin. But, it doesn't mean I don't like it or I don't care...
    jalanyanglurus jalanyanglurus 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    I'm 12 and can't swim. Can't tread water. Can't go underwater. I will never know how to swim and I am behind all the other kids.
    boraroberts boraroberts 70+, F Apr 21

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    My little sweetheart of a monthly gift is due any day and it's back to hell again with pills. Every month I go through the vomiting drama. Trying to swallow he stupid things in...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Apr 25

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