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I Can't Escape My Past

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    I Can't Escape THE PAIN OF Childhood Abuse I WENT THROUGH

    NO ONE WILL LET ME KATY AND RICK BEC AND COLM HAVE MY DIARY AND PERSONAL BELONGINGS AND EVEN POSSIBLY A BIRTH CERTIFICATE I THINK THEY GAVE IT TO BUGSY WHO WAS WORKING AT A TOOMBUL OPTOMITRIST THAT BEC MADE ME GO TO ONE DAY BEC KIRK ALSO MADE ME GO TO THE UQ CAMPUS ONE DAY SO THE...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jul 27, 2011

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    There He Is Again.

    It's been 10 months, I was pretty much over my ex, so I thought. Tonight, I was over at my friends trailer, she has 5 cats & I'm allergic to them..I went to walk around the trailer-hood in the snow to get some fresh air, hopefully clear my nose & make my eyes stop itching. I...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    Runaway

    I've tried to run. i have tried to ditch my childhood and my teen years and just go, fast and far... leaving everything and everyone behind.. I can't hide, no where is safe.. the pain of my parents divorce still haunts me... the pain of moving away and losing every friend i ever...
    MiremebeKamaria MiremebeKamaria 18-21, F Nov 24, 2010

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    A Good Memory

    When I was 5 years old, my mother made an Easter egg hunt for me. She left those hard shelled marshmallow eggs laying around places, and each had a note attached, giving vague clues as to where to find the next one. The notes eventually lead me to a plastic egg with a whole...
    fatslut fatslut 36-40, F Mar 31, 2013

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    The Past Is Relentless

    So back in high school my friends and i used to do stupid stuff for fun. They were often illegal so when we got caught we got a free ride to our houses in the back of a sqaud car. Twice was just a slap on the wrist so to speak and being grounded by the parentals. Drinkin at the...
    mumbo21 mumbo21 22-25, M Mar 13, 2010

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    To Hard

    Ive tried to forget my past but its to hard.I have had so many bad things happen to me that i think bout more now.I only think of it cuz for once im finally happy,and i know that i wont stay happy for long since sumthing always happens to ruin my happiness.The stuff that i...
    demonicsangel2011 demonicsangel2011 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    Small Town

    When I decided to transition I knew that it would be hard while living in a small town. I thought long and hard about moving, maybe to a big town. However, my family and friends are here, not to mention my home.I know that I am not the only transgender person that wishes that the...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T Jun 12, 2013

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    I get it I know and I understand this life

    isn't mine but it's all that I have. I never asked you for it take it back if you think it's worthless. My minds going blank because of the words worthless and useless. I keep running jumping spinning turning but no matter the route it leads back to that fact that on that day...
    shadow721 shadow721 18-21, M Nov 23, 2014

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    I Cannot Escape It

     It all started when I was about seven or eight. My sisters left and it broke me. I didn't get a single goodbye and any contact after that was a secret, it wasn't until a last year where I found a letter from one of my sisters.... They came back into my life but it was strained...
    Buffy19 Buffy19 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2011

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    The House

    People always tell me a home is where ur family is and where the u feel safe. So i live in a house. all my life i turned down the right roads only to find road blocks and end up taking bad short cuts. my dad and i dont agree on anything even if i try. we fight and i try to drop...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    Fear Of Past

    I DID MANY THINGS OR HAVE EXP RELATED TO MY PAST WHICH MAKE M TENSED WHY I SELECTED 4 THAT I M WORRIED 4 THEIR IMPACT ON MY FUTURE????????????????WHY GOD SELECTED M ?????????.............................. BELIEVE ON God is th best answer ha na confusing
    love19082 love19082 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2010

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    Haunted By My Past ...

    I loved well thought I loved a man for three years he lived in the states we met 3 years priod when I was 20 , he was a player but I didnt want to believe it and 3 years later i stupidly and impusivly went all the way there only to realise he was nothing special just a guy living...
    sonkamoo31 sonkamoo31 31-35 May 13, 2012

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    There are two types of women my mama said Women

    who are planted And Women who are hatched There are women who are coaxed to grow Nourished by the sun and water And There are women fed by destruction Fed by insecurity, callousness and bitterness Some women are rooted in soil lavishing in security And Some women are...
    breannajust breannajust 18-21, F Feb 7, 2014

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    Memory

    Time can pass. I can forget some of the detail of those things, but the main memories will always be present. They have been soaked into my mind, and will never fully leave. I will never escape the past, and the things that I have done.
    emipurple emipurple 18-21, F Oct 12, 2013

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    Y Do I Feel Regret

    I dont know if i feel regret for the decision ive made because i miss her, because i'm lonely, or both... It all starts and ends with my former "best friend" heather(she is the her in the first sentence). We were friends for almost 10 yrs, but she is the type of friend who only...
    cutebishortie cutebishortie 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2011

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    ....

    This is the main reason I don't want to feel anymore
    iminpain iminpain 18-21, M 9 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    My Past Wont Leave.

    I am always haunted by my past. There is nothing I can do to get away from thinking about it. It's always there in a dream, a thought, an action, or something I say. 
    ohmybobbert ohmybobbert 18-21 Nov 7, 2011

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    But That

     doesnt mean i cant change my future. no, there is still time to fix everything. :) i just have to keep believing.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    Everyone Has Something In Their Past!

    We all have done things we may or may not be proud of! Some things we did can come back to haunt us maybe even do damage in our present day life. But there is no sence trying to hide from or forget them, they are as close to us as our minds, always there if we think or even dare...
    thegunsmith thegunsmith 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    I've been able to be happy in other relationships, I've even been able to love, but something has me tied so tight I can't escape the thoughts of him. I think it's knowing it was...
    DarkSideOfTheWall DarkSideOfTheWall 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    Why can't you leave me alone! You've dug your grave.. You ruined what we had... You've both made us suffer.... Part of me just wants to go up to you, hug you and tell you, I want...
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    I never thought i would find myself still inlove with him after 15years. Gosh so ridiculous right! After all these years we want eachother more than we've wanted any other person...
    solongago2 solongago2 26-30, F 39 mins ago

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    I have been a top student in my school before i graduated into the working world. I've always been a quiet person, which i think is mostly caused by my bad experiences during...
    samwicher samwicher 26-30, M 21 mins ago

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    I am going to be 30 in 16 days. I have 2 wonderful children who are my world. I grew up in a rough home, moved out at 16. I felt I had to, or I was going to end up just like my...
    sohurtnow sohurtnow 26-30 Jan 15

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    Can't sleep and have the flu...bad combination.
    Sicarium Sicarium 36-40, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I've begun to realize that I am my own worst enemy. I'm surrounded by blessings and people that love me but I still look elsewhere. Am I being selfish or just taking everything I...
    darkspace26 darkspace26 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    Its the truth and as long as its true, I am good. My past has some major things in it I would love to change but I can't. I can, however, change my underwear and make my own food...
    garionrox garionrox 51-55 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Everything started when I was in eighth grade, in gym class. There were three girls who thought that every guy in the class was supposed to crawl to them, only to get their hearts...
    gay4ever gay4ever 16-17, M Dec 31, 2014

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    Accepting: The phrase, "time heals all wounds" has to be the biggest crock of human sludge I've ever heard. Perhaps for normal people it is so, but it certainly isn't that way...
    dontknowdontcare dontknowdontcare 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Ran across this poem I wrote just before my divorce. Nice to know that is not me any more. In the darkness I curl up…. It covers me and shields me from the memories The words...
    sckimmy sckimmy 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    Marry meet everyone, Its been a long time since i posted anything on here. Well let me begin. I am still with my boyfriend, and we are about to make it our first year together...
    sabedoria sabedoria 18-21, F Dec 30, 2014

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    I used to be a television and movie fanatic, but I can't do it anymore. I just can't. Within these past couple of days, I've just realized how bored I get and I'd rather read a...
    obscureriddle obscureriddle 22-25, F Jan 1

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    I can't sleep because I'm excited for tomorrow. I'll be at home alone with my sister. I won't have my guardian breathing down my neck. I really hate her. I don't think i'll sleep...
    ImYourLady ImYourLady 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    Over the past few months I've developed a friendship with a girl I see everyday working at a local coffee shop. I'd seen her working there for a year or so, but one day she said...
    musicman1975 musicman1975 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 11

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    Sometimes I wonder what is the point of me. I can't remember the last time I felt truly wanted. I know I have family and friends that love me, and I know they would be there for me...
    rycbar10 rycbar10 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I am so hopelessly in love with this guy I met a little over a year ago. I met him through a friend and since then we have really bonded and gotten close. He tells me things he has...
    FlyAwayWithMe3 FlyAwayWithMe3 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 18

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    I think I'm falling hard for someone from my past who has caught up with me. We both came full circle but the worst part was the fact that we had so many opportunities before to...
    Dannie92 Dannie92 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I have five months till i leave high school and i cannot wait. I can't wait to see the back of half these people and these past five years have been hell. I'm just going to try and...
    Darkstar101 Darkstar101 13-15, M Jan 4

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    I ended my affair for many reasons as explained in other stories. I fell in love with him because when my life was at it's worst he made me laugh and gave me hope. Well this past...
    pamdaqtpi pamdaqtpi 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Hey. I have a big problem... And I hope someone can help me with the problem. Last time i cryed was the day my bf said something like 'Stop crying. What will help crying?', take...
    kristhy kristhy 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    Reading through this website helped me so much with my recent situation, that I felt the need to contribute somehow and hope it helps others in return. A little background about...
    guywithnoname guywithnoname 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm someone who really enjoys seeing the good in everything and staying positive and I want everyone to stay positive too. I say nice things to people, I compliment them and do...
    kellyadele kellyadele 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I'm so in love with a man. He loves me too. His friends tore us apart with lies about me. The love of my life now won't even talk to me and I can't do anything to get him to know...
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    I can't do this anymore! I am to overwhelmed! The heartache is to much to bare. I still cry! On top of that I can't even survive. I'm broke. I work so hard everyday at work to have...
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    It's kind of a strange situation, that probably requires a whole lot more back story than I'm willing to give it. Consequently, this will probably be a bit short, a bit rambling...
    LostInCode LostInCode 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I really hate being me, I can't do anything right. I'm so stupid. So dependent. Like I can't even flat iron my hair. What 16 year old girl can't do that? Wtf is wrong with me ? Why...
    Dreamscape98x Dreamscape98x 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    Hi, yes , correct, I'm here to rant about my sister in law because I really can't stand her anymore. She's currently living with my parents and I, because they couldn't afford a...
    Lucyfire Lucyfire 18-21 1 Response Jan 7

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    Literally, I can't. I just want to go to sleep and I can't stop making myself miserable. I can't stop sobbing. I can't turn off my brain. I can't stop thinking. I can't stop...