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I Can't Escape My Past

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 309 People

    Haunted By My Past ...

    I loved well thought I loved a man for three years he lived in the states we met 3 years priod when I was 20 , he was a player but I didnt want to believe it and 3 years later i stupidly and impusivly went all the way there only to realise he was nothing special just a guy living...
    sonkamoo31 sonkamoo31 31-35 May 13, 2012

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    The Past Is Relentless

    So back in high school my friends and i used to do stupid stuff for fun. They were often illegal so when we got caught we got a free ride to our houses in the back of a sqaud car. Twice was just a slap on the wrist so to speak and being grounded by the parentals. Drinkin at the...
    mumbo21 mumbo21 22-25, M Mar 13, 2010

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    Small Town

    When I decided to transition I knew that it would be hard while living in a small town. I thought long and hard about moving, maybe to a big town. However, my family and friends are here, not to mention my home.I know that I am not the only transgender person that wishes that the...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T Jun 12, 2013

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    But That

     doesnt mean i cant change my future. no, there is still time to fix everything. :) i just have to keep believing.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    To Hard

    Ive tried to forget my past but its to hard.I have had so many bad things happen to me that i think bout more now.I only think of it cuz for once im finally happy,and i know that i wont stay happy for long since sumthing always happens to ruin my happiness.The stuff that i...
    demonicsangel2011 demonicsangel2011 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    Everyone Has Something In Their Past!

    We all have done things we may or may not be proud of! Some things we did can come back to haunt us maybe even do damage in our present day life. But there is no sence trying to hide from or forget them, they are as close to us as our minds, always there if we think or even dare...
    thegunsmith thegunsmith 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    Memory

    Time can pass. I can forget some of the detail of those things, but the main memories will always be present. They have been soaked into my mind, and will never fully leave. I will never escape the past, and the things that I have done.
    emipurple emipurple 18-21, F Oct 12, 2013

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    I Can't Escape THE PAIN OF Childhood Abuse I WENT THROUGH

    NO ONE WILL LET ME KATY AND RICK BEC AND COLM HAVE MY DIARY AND PERSONAL BELONGINGS AND EVEN POSSIBLY A BIRTH CERTIFICATE I THINK THEY GAVE IT TO BUGSY WHO WAS WORKING AT A TOOMBUL OPTOMITRIST THAT BEC MADE ME GO TO ONE DAY BEC KIRK ALSO MADE ME GO TO THE UQ CAMPUS ONE DAY SO THE...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jul 27, 2011

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    Runaway

    I've tried to run. i have tried to ditch my childhood and my teen years and just go, fast and far... leaving everything and everyone behind.. I can't hide, no where is safe.. the pain of my parents divorce still haunts me... the pain of moving away and losing every friend i ever...
    MiremebeKamaria MiremebeKamaria 18-21, F Nov 24, 2010

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    I Cannot Escape It

     It all started when I was about seven or eight. My sisters left and it broke me. I didn't get a single goodbye and any contact after that was a secret, it wasn't until a last year where I found a letter from one of my sisters.... They came back into my life but it was strained...
    Buffy19 Buffy19 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2011

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    There are two types of women my mama said Women

    who are planted And Women who are hatched There are women who are coaxed to grow Nourished by the sun and water And There are women fed by destruction Fed by insecurity, callousness and bitterness Some women are rooted in soil lavishing in security And Some women are...
    breannajust breannajust 18-21, F Feb 7, 2014

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    My Past Wont Leave.

    I am always haunted by my past. There is nothing I can do to get away from thinking about it. It's always there in a dream, a thought, an action, or something I say. 
    ohmybobbert ohmybobbert 18-21 Nov 7, 2011

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    ....

    This is the main reason I don't want to feel anymore
    iminpain iminpain 18-21, M 9 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    Y Do I Feel Regret

    I dont know if i feel regret for the decision ive made because i miss her, because i'm lonely, or both... It all starts and ends with my former "best friend" heather(she is the her in the first sentence). We were friends for almost 10 yrs, but she is the type of friend who only...
    cutebishortie cutebishortie 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2011

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    Fear Of Past

    I DID MANY THINGS OR HAVE EXP RELATED TO MY PAST WHICH MAKE M TENSED WHY I SELECTED 4 THAT I M WORRIED 4 THEIR IMPACT ON MY FUTURE????????????????WHY GOD SELECTED M ?????????.............................. BELIEVE ON God is th best answer ha na confusing
    love19082 love19082 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2010

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    There He Is Again.

    It's been 10 months, I was pretty much over my ex, so I thought. Tonight, I was over at my friends trailer, she has 5 cats & I'm allergic to them..I went to walk around the trailer-hood in the snow to get some fresh air, hopefully clear my nose & make my eyes stop itching. I...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    I get it I know and I understand this life

    isn't mine but it's all that I have. I never asked you for it take it back if you think it's worthless. My minds going blank because of the words worthless and useless. I keep running jumping spinning turning but no matter the route it leads back to that fact that on that day...
    shadow721 shadow721 22-25, M Nov 23, 2014

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    A Good Memory

    When I was 5 years old, my mother made an Easter egg hunt for me. She left those hard shelled marshmallow eggs laying around places, and each had a note attached, giving vague clues as to where to find the next one. The notes eventually lead me to a plastic egg with a whole...
    fatslut fatslut 36-40, F Mar 31, 2013

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    The House

    People always tell me a home is where ur family is and where the u feel safe. So i live in a house. all my life i turned down the right roads only to find road blocks and end up taking bad short cuts. my dad and i dont agree on anything even if i try. we fight and i try to drop...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    I try...I really do...but i've been pushed down so many times and i feel like this time will be the last, my thoughts and dreams ( nightmares) are constantly invaded by memories of...
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    My little sweetheart of a monthly gift is due any day and it's back to hell again with pills. Every month I go through the vomiting drama. Trying to swallow he stupid things in...
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    the date was march 9 when we broke up. but before it happened, i was having conversation with my girl friend. i like her and i know having conversations with her is not good, but i...
    EricGo EricGo 18-21, M Apr 26

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    That happens when you haven't done anything productive in days... I wasn't in school from Wednesday, and I don't see it getting better. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow, but I don...
    BMTH99 BMTH99 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    Every day, I've been struggling, I hold out hope for a better tomorrow, and I try my best to make other's happy, I try to live a life without strife, drama, or reckless abandon. I...
    Edg3Runn3r Edg3Runn3r 26-30, M 4 Responses Apr 26

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    Fake people... Why?... You know people will love you for you, right? Saying this I guess I should tell everyone, my biological name isn't Bleu. It's Cali. But I choose to go by...
    bbybleu bbybleu 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    So basically we got together when I was 18 and he was 22. I was lonely and young and hurting from being recently dumped and he made me feel good. Looking back on it it wasn't that...
    alunna alunna 22-25, F Apr 29

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    Mostly I'm happy just bopping along as I am, but every once in a while I have a day like this where I just can't seem to be satisfied with myself. I look in the mirror and all I...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 30

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    It happened three weeks ago.. I was at my job late because I had to close the shop. A man came up and asked if we were open (while I was locking the front door). I told him no and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 3

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    I can't date a smoker. Smokers are Sloppy. They always leave their smoke trays everywhere. If I'm home and you decide to smoke go outside or go by the window. I hate the smell of...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    I can't stop overthinking whenever I get depressed, nervous, and scared. Every negative things comes into my mind, but I can stop by listening to music, playing games, talking to...
    iiAmethystii iiAmethystii 13-15, F 2 Responses May 4

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    Sometimes I wish I could cry, only the tears can't be found. I'm surrounded by a thousand screams, but I can't hear a single sound. I'm walking through a land of darkness...
    good4nothin1 good4nothin1 31-35, M 2 Responses May 5

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    It's the strangest thing. I don't know what she looks like. I don't know where she lives exactly, just that it would take a plane ride to get there. We've only exchanged...
    Brontide Brontide 36-40, M 3 Responses May 6

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    She's far away and I'm anchored by love and responsibilities. I can't go to her and for her to come to me would break her. She is so connected and bolstered by her family and the...
    ausofbounds ausofbounds 41-45, M May 7

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    Literally. I haven't slept in days and all I can think about is her. She never leaves my mind. I wish I hadn't left her, I can't stop worrying. I mean she has tons of friends. She...
    wtfJason wtfJason 16-17, M 4 Responses May 7

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    I have a really, really, really bad habit of calling ppl in the middle of the night when I can't sleep. I feel so bad afterwards bc it's extremely rude to disturb someone's sleep...
    ConfusedInCollege ConfusedInCollege 22-25, F 1 Response May 8

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    I met you in 8th grade, you were new and very quiet. For some reason I just couldn't keep my eyes off of you, I was drawn to you, I was attracted to you. I would try talking to you...
    MrSpecify MrSpecify 18-21, M May 9

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    Abusive alcoholic father died last year. Mother is alone now and calls and gives me guilt trips because I don't go to see her. I'm sorry. I can't bring myself to go to her house...
    KeepnTheFaith KeepnTheFaith 51-55 May 9

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    Tv ****** me off with their interpretations of love stories. I try every chance I can to see the guy I love. Just to see him, maybe say hello. But it never works out right. Tv...
    nvragain1024 nvragain1024 31-35, F 1 Response May 10

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    Oh, Kitty. Ever since you stopped being my best friend, I've been trying to convince myself that I don't care for you anymore. It's hard. Sometimes I succeed--but ultimately, I...
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