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I Can't Escape My Past

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    The House

    People always tell me a home is where ur family is and where the u feel safe. So i live in a house. all my life i turned down the right roads only to find road blocks and end up taking bad short cuts. my dad and i dont agree on anything even if i try. we fight and i try to drop...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    Small Town

    When I decided to transition I knew that it would be hard while living in a small town. I thought long and hard about moving, maybe to a big town. However, my family and friends are here, not to mention my home.I know that I am not the only transgender person that wishes that the...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T Jun 12, 2013

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    There He Is Again.

    It's been 10 months, I was pretty much over my ex, so I thought. Tonight, I was over at my friends trailer, she has 5 cats & I'm allergic to them..I went to walk around the trailer-hood in the snow to get some fresh air, hopefully clear my nose & make my eyes stop itching. I...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    My Past Wont Leave.

    I am always haunted by my past. There is nothing I can do to get away from thinking about it. It's always there in a dream, a thought, an action, or something I say. 
    ohmybobbert ohmybobbert 18-21 Nov 7, 2011

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    Everyone Has Something In Their Past!

    We all have done things we may or may not be proud of! Some things we did can come back to haunt us maybe even do damage in our present day life. But there is no sence trying to hide from or forget them, they are as close to us as our minds, always there if we think or even dare...
    thegunsmith thegunsmith 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    ....

    This is the main reason I don't want to feel anymore
    iminpain iminpain 18-21, M 9 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    A Good Memory

    When I was 5 years old, my mother made an Easter egg hunt for me. She left those hard shelled marshmallow eggs laying around places, and each had a note attached, giving vague clues as to where to find the next one. The notes eventually lead me to a plastic egg with a whole...
    fatslut fatslut 36-40, F Mar 31, 2013

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    But That

     doesnt mean i cant change my future. no, there is still time to fix everything. :) i just have to keep believing.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    To Hard

    Ive tried to forget my past but its to hard.I have had so many bad things happen to me that i think bout more now.I only think of it cuz for once im finally happy,and i know that i wont stay happy for long since sumthing always happens to ruin my happiness.The stuff that i...
    demonicsangel2011 demonicsangel2011 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    Memory

    Time can pass. I can forget some of the detail of those things, but the main memories will always be present. They have been soaked into my mind, and will never fully leave. I will never escape the past, and the things that I have done.
    emipurple emipurple 18-21, F Oct 12, 2013

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    Fear Of Past

    I DID MANY THINGS OR HAVE EXP RELATED TO MY PAST WHICH MAKE M TENSED WHY I SELECTED 4 THAT I M WORRIED 4 THEIR IMPACT ON MY FUTURE????????????????WHY GOD SELECTED M ?????????.............................. BELIEVE ON God is th best answer ha na confusing
    love19082 love19082 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2010

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    I tried and tried but it is still there.

    And if it isn't me thinking about it in sadness there is always someone else there to remind me of every detail. I was always a horrible person. Can't escape the fact that I made people miserable as long as I've been alive. I don't want to make people miserable anymore but I'll...
    cherrypie54552 cherrypie54552 18-21, F Jun 17

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    Runaway

    I've tried to run. i have tried to ditch my childhood and my teen years and just go, fast and far... leaving everything and everyone behind.. I can't hide, no where is safe.. the pain of my parents divorce still haunts me... the pain of moving away and losing every friend i ever...
    MiremebeKamaria MiremebeKamaria 18-21, F Nov 24, 2010

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    I get it I know and I understand this life

    isn't mine but it's all that I have. I never asked you for it take it back if you think it's worthless. My minds going blank because of the words worthless and useless. I keep running jumping spinning turning but no matter the route it leads back to that fact that on that day...
    shadow721 shadow721 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 23, 2014

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    There are two types of women my mama said Women

    who are planted And Women who are hatched There are women who are coaxed to grow Nourished by the sun and water And There are women fed by destruction Fed by insecurity, callousness and bitterness Some women are rooted in soil lavishing in security And Some women are...
    breannajust breannajust 18-21, F Feb 7, 2014

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    The Past Is Relentless

    So back in high school my friends and i used to do stupid stuff for fun. They were often illegal so when we got caught we got a free ride to our houses in the back of a sqaud car. Twice was just a slap on the wrist so to speak and being grounded by the parentals. Drinkin at the...
    mumbo21 mumbo21 22-25, M Mar 13, 2010

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    Haunted By My Past ...

    I loved well thought I loved a man for three years he lived in the states we met 3 years priod when I was 20 , he was a player but I didnt want to believe it and 3 years later i stupidly and impusivly went all the way there only to realise he was nothing special just a guy living...
    sonkamoo31 sonkamoo31 31-35 May 13, 2012

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    Y Do I Feel Regret

    I dont know if i feel regret for the decision ive made because i miss her, because i'm lonely, or both... It all starts and ends with my former "best friend" heather(she is the her in the first sentence). We were friends for almost 10 yrs, but she is the type of friend who only...
    cutebishortie cutebishortie 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2011

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    I Can't Escape THE PAIN OF Childhood Abuse I WENT THROUGH

    NO ONE WILL LET ME KATY AND RICK BEC AND COLM HAVE MY DIARY AND PERSONAL BELONGINGS AND EVEN POSSIBLY A BIRTH CERTIFICATE I THINK THEY GAVE IT TO BUGSY WHO WAS WORKING AT A TOOMBUL OPTOMITRIST THAT BEC MADE ME GO TO ONE DAY BEC KIRK ALSO MADE ME GO TO THE UQ CAMPUS ONE DAY SO THE...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jul 27, 2011

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    I Cannot Escape It

     It all started when I was about seven or eight. My sisters left and it broke me. I didn't get a single goodbye and any contact after that was a secret, it wasn't until a last year where I found a letter from one of my sisters.... They came back into my life but it was strained...
    Buffy19 Buffy19 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2011

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    You know when you think you're over it but you're really not. In October I started talking to this guy. It was weird because no one had ever shown interest in me prior to this but...
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    There is a guy who is two years older than me. I met him while hanging out with my brother (who is 3 years older than me) and we started hanging out by ourselves. He isn't really...
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    Met my bf 2 yrs ago and he didn't tell me for 3 months he had a kid. Don't know when they really broke up and could overlap. I can't accept he has a kid with her and it was also on...
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    I can't wait until the day I can move out. My parents just make me feel like crap, and I hate my family. I feel like everyone in my family judges and hates me and I feel like a...
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    I'm not actually sure where I should start with everything I would like to be open and honest about everything my my relationship in the past 11 years but it's a lot for any one...
    buttermonkey buttermonkey 26-30, F a week ago

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    I'm staying with my aunt and uncle, cousins and brother in a hotel room. The air conditioning is making the room really cold, and the TV is on. I can't sleep with noise...but I'm...
    winglessdove winglessdove 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I finally fell asleep without dreaming of you. But what good does that do when I'm not waking up to you. You're always on my mind. I wake up & the worry is there again. The pain is...
    taminglife taminglife 22-25, F Jul 19

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    You know what I hate....being lied to...its one of, if not my biggest, pet peeve. Its something that ****** me off for days and days no matter how small it is. This time tho...it's...
    FalseSmile FalseSmile 22-25, M Jul 19

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    Okay I a women, however even so I am most exspect me be al for women right. Well I am bit I notice more we should fight for men. Okay here some reason 1) women say they want to be...
    CuteButTheDevil CuteButTheDevil 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    I've got the most irritating MIL in the whole world. Let's face it. People get old. But that doesn't mean aging is annoying. She is exceptional. She is so dependent oh god!! She...
    Shelltox Shelltox 26-30 Jul 18

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    I don't miss *her*. I miss the promises we made and I can't get past the anger of her giving up so easily. I just want itv to stop, so I can move on and forget her.
    chucky81 chucky81 31-35, M Jul 15

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    iSpyce iSpyce 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    I don't care anymore to be honest. I plan on never having a boyfriend again. I can't cope with any more pain.
    Paleandpolluted86 Paleandpolluted86 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I just can't sleep well often for long. I think it's because the things I planned are deferred too long. I have been left far behind by time. Another reason is that I live in the...
    ExileMyself ExileMyself 26-30, F Jul 13

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    Society as a whole. I just can't. People are so violent and hateful. There's no patience, no peace, no remorse. Why are women treated so poorly? The fact that r-ape still occurs in...
    Personalstories Personalstories 18-21, M Jul 13

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    People are telling others that suicide is stupid, and to just get over it. That ****** me off. I've been suicidal before, not fun. And you can't 'just get over it'. And for...
    ShantelH ShantelH 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    This infatuation is ridiculous -- I was reading past journal entries and I've been keeping my eye on him since late January. Yes, he's made an excellent partner-in-crime at work...
    errarehumanumest errarehumanumest 22-25, F Jul 12

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    Believe me when I say this: I have tried!!!!! I've done everything I could! Going to therapy, releasing anger, cried my eyes off, screamed, more therapy... 5 months have passed and...
    Gaialion Gaialion 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    Back when I was in 5th grade, I met this kid. I would tell you his name, but I can't, so let's refer to him as Mark. Anyway, Mark and I had a lot in common. We both believed in the...
    Emberlasting Emberlasting 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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