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I Can't Escape My Past

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    To Hard

    Ive tried to forget my past but its to hard.I have had so many bad things happen to me that i think bout more now.I only think of it cuz for once im finally happy,and i know that i wont stay happy for long since sumthing always happens to ruin my happiness.The stuff that i...
    demonicsangel2011 demonicsangel2011 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    The Past Is Relentless

    So back in high school my friends and i used to do stupid stuff for fun. They were often illegal so when we got caught we got a free ride to our houses in the back of a sqaud car. Twice was just a slap on the wrist so to speak and being grounded by the parentals. Drinkin at the...
    mumbo21 mumbo21 22-25, M Mar 13, 2010

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    A Good Memory

    When I was 5 years old, my mother made an Easter egg hunt for me. She left those hard shelled marshmallow eggs laying around places, and each had a note attached, giving vague clues as to where to find the next one. The notes eventually lead me to a plastic egg with a whole...
    fatslut fatslut 36-40, F Mar 31, 2013

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    But That

     doesnt mean i cant change my future. no, there is still time to fix everything. :) i just have to keep believing.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    My Past Wont Leave.

    I am always haunted by my past. There is nothing I can do to get away from thinking about it. It's always there in a dream, a thought, an action, or something I say. 
    ohmybobbert ohmybobbert 18-21 Nov 7, 2011

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    ....

    This is the main reason I don't want to feel anymore
    iminpain iminpain 18-21, M 9 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    Follows Me.

    Everywhere I look, there's something that reminds me of my past. So many things went on in my past, mostly bad things that I don't want to remember or relive. I'm only 14 and yet I have as many bad memories of my past as a 41 year old. It constantly follows me, weighting down on...
    ImOkayNow ImOkayNow 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 18, 2011

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    Fear Of Past

    I DID MANY THINGS OR HAVE EXP RELATED TO MY PAST WHICH MAKE M TENSED WHY I SELECTED 4 THAT I M WORRIED 4 THEIR IMPACT ON MY FUTURE????????????????WHY GOD SELECTED M ?????????.............................. BELIEVE ON God is th best answer ha na confusing
    love19082 love19082 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2010

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    There are two types of women my mama said Women

    who are planted And Women who are hatched There are women who are coaxed to grow Nourished by the sun and water And There are women fed by destruction Fed by insecurity, callousness and bitterness Some women are rooted in soil lavishing in security And Some women are...
    breannajust breannajust 18-21, F Feb 7

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    The House

    People always tell me a home is where ur family is and where the u feel safe. So i live in a house. all my life i turned down the right roads only to find road blocks and end up taking bad short cuts. my dad and i dont agree on anything even if i try. we fight and i try to drop...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    Runaway

    I've tried to run. i have tried to ditch my childhood and my teen years and just go, fast and far... leaving everything and everyone behind.. I can't hide, no where is safe.. the pain of my parents divorce still haunts me... the pain of moving away and losing every friend i ever...
    MiremebeKamaria MiremebeKamaria 18-21, F Nov 24, 2010

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    Memory

    Time can pass. I can forget some of the detail of those things, but the main memories will always be present. They have been soaked into my mind, and will never fully leave. I will never escape the past, and the things that I have done.
    emipurple emipurple 18-21, F Oct 12, 2013

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    Small Town

    When I decided to transition I knew that it would be hard while living in a small town. I thought long and hard about moving, maybe to a big town. However, my family and friends are here, not to mention my home.I know that I am not the only transgender person that wishes that the...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40 Jun 12, 2013

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    I Can't Escape THE PAIN OF Childhood Abuse I WENT THROUGH

    NO ONE WILL LET ME KATY AND RICK BEC AND COLM HAVE MY DIARY AND PERSONAL BELONGINGS AND EVEN POSSIBLY A BIRTH CERTIFICATE I THINK THEY GAVE IT TO BUGSY WHO WAS WORKING AT A TOOMBUL OPTOMITRIST THAT BEC MADE ME GO TO ONE DAY BEC KIRK ALSO MADE ME GO TO THE UQ CAMPUS ONE DAY SO THE...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jul 27, 2011

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    Haunted By My Past ...

    I loved well thought I loved a man for three years he lived in the states we met 3 years priod when I was 20 , he was a player but I didnt want to believe it and 3 years later i stupidly and impusivly went all the way there only to realise he was nothing special just a guy living...
    sonkamoo31 sonkamoo31 31-35 May 13, 2012

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    Y Do I Feel Regret

    I dont know if i feel regret for the decision ive made because i miss her, because i'm lonely, or both... It all starts and ends with my former "best friend" heather(she is the her in the first sentence). We were friends for almost 10 yrs, but she is the type of friend who only...
    cutebishortie cutebishortie 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2011

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    I Cannot Escape It

     It all started when I was about seven or eight. My sisters left and it broke me. I didn't get a single goodbye and any contact after that was a secret, it wasn't until a last year where I found a letter from one of my sisters.... They came back into my life but it was strained...
    Buffy19 Buffy19 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2011

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    There He Is Again.

    It's been 10 months, I was pretty much over my ex, so I thought. Tonight, I was over at my friends trailer, she has 5 cats & I'm allergic to them..I went to walk around the trailer-hood in the snow to get some fresh air, hopefully clear my nose & make my eyes stop itching. I...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    Everyone Has Something In Their Past!

    We all have done things we may or may not be proud of! Some things we did can come back to haunt us maybe even do damage in our present day life. But there is no sence trying to hide from or forget them, they are as close to us as our minds, always there if we think or even dare...
    thegunsmith thegunsmith 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    This is something that is a nightly thing. Reasons why I can't sleep are the same nightly. This sucks because its been like this pretty much all summer and I go back to school soon...
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    It's sounds cliche but it's the honest truth. My mind won't stop. I don't feel like I belong. I'm so shy and my family is so outgoing I'm always the outcast, I know they love me...
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    I'm sorry-I seem to be saying those two words a lot lately, mostly in my mind. I wish I could say them to the people who deserve to hear it. The ones I care about....I've hurt them...
    NeverTrulyWanted NeverTrulyWanted 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I just can't :'( I've been able to cope with this in the past but......Losing her is something I can't just can't cope with :'(
    ywilliam31 ywilliam31 16-17, M Aug 6

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    I suppose saying I can’t keep a job is like saying I don’t have one. I have kept jobs in the past, but since I started working less retail jobs it has become more difficult. I...
    DV527 DV527 26-30, M a week ago

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    I figured out that my mother was cheating on my step father and she doesn't know that I know. I'm so angry that I can barely speak to her. We've had difficulties getting along in...
    Giored22 Giored22 46-50, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I often neglect sleeping. Since I feel I can get more stuff done if I don't sleep as much. But what's a peeve is when I want to treat myself well and stay healthy and try sleeping...
    Hyacinthas Hyacinthas 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    In restaurants, grocery lanes, supermarkets, malls, in the bus, train or anywhere, my mind don't stop thinking while my eyes roam around.Delicious gourmet, hot picks, admirable...
    0nOpalsMind 0nOpalsMind 41-45, F 5 Responses Jul 21

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    I feel like no matter who I make friends with or who I go into a relationship, I can't trust them. This last relationship was a failure because I gave this person all of my trust...
    animepuppy03 animepuppy03 13-15, F Aug 8

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    yes, maybe it is me...but i feel like i dont like most people. i have very few friends here. i went overseas and lived in a few different countries the past 6 years, and there i...
    Johnny12333 Johnny12333 31-35 Aug 8

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    I can't leave my house without getting upset. Everytime I hear music it reminds me of my ex. Everytime I smell perfume it reminds me of her. I need help because its tearing my life...
    BradleyAustin97 BradleyAustin97 16-17, M Aug 9

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    I have been with my boyfriend for 4 1/2 years. We met at university through a mutual friend. We don't live together as we live and work in different cities and I am still caring...
    MsRugbygirl19 MsRugbygirl19 22-25, F 11 hrs ago

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    My friend, knowing how self-conscious I am about my looks, had the audacity to say she wishes she wasn't so pretty because she's fed up with guys breaking her heart. She has...
    Cyanideheart Cyanideheart 18-21, M 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I don't even want to go outside unless I absolutely have to. I'm so sick of the local area, just a good deal of the people. I'm sick of the weather most of the year. I'm...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    My friends sometimes borrow money or anything else from me. And i can't ask them to pay their loan. I want them to pay their loans without me asking them. But it seems like...
    petitedreamer petitedreamer 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    It's like listening to music and trying to write at the same time. You can't focus on either thing. The lyrics you hear and the words you're writing keep getting swapped. It's...
    Ridiculousity Ridiculousity 18-21 19 hrs ago

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    Sitting in the cafeteria here, looking around as my thought run wild.. I can't imagine successfully making it out of here if I said most of these thoughts out loud.
    BzzLghtyr BzzLghtyr 26-30, M 6 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I just have too many things happening in my life right now to deal with people's sob stories. I can't handle it. Nobody wants to know about them but I would tolerate it for close...
    sociableTim sociableTim 31-35, M 5 hrs ago

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    I just feel empty inside, yet I just have the strong urge to cry but I really can't. If I could, I would let it all out...
    MellowCube MellowCube 16-17, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    So I have had some seriously ****** up dreams before. Like even though no one knows who I am on this i can't even write them down. Lately when I am in the car with my Mum, i get...
    MaryAnne4 MaryAnne4 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 23

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    Nope. Can't swim. To be honest, I don't massively want to be able to, its hardly a skill I need. I can keep myself afloat, and I can move around a bit, but I can't do much more...
    InternationalDarkness InternationalDarkness 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    I know this is really strange but I don't know what to do anymore, I'm struggling and just feel like letting all these feelings out by writing this... I have a really terrible...
    DingleberryBooBoo DingleberryBooBoo 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 27

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    I recently was a bridesmaid in my cousin's wedding. There was a guy there, and I can't get him out of my mind. We had a small conversation, and kept stealing glances at each other...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 27

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    OK it's getting worst and worst. I can't stop cutting myself . I just can't please tell me something positive so I won't cut myself again. Please I just cut myself yesterday and I...
    brandi0421 brandi0421 13-15, F Jul 27

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    3 months ago I found videos & pictures of my husband having sex with another woman. I was devastated, as he had been emotionally abusing me for a year & telling me he wanted a...
    RayRoMac RayRoMac 26-30 1 Response Jul 28

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