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I Can't Escape My Past

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    There He Is Again.

    It's been 10 months, I was pretty much over my ex, so I thought. Tonight, I was over at my friends trailer, she has 5 cats & I'm allergic to them..I went to walk around the trailer-hood in the snow to get some fresh air, hopefully clear my nose & make my eyes stop itching. I...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    The Past Is Relentless

    So back in high school my friends and i used to do stupid stuff for fun. They were often illegal so when we got caught we got a free ride to our houses in the back of a sqaud car. Twice was just a slap on the wrist so to speak and being grounded by the parentals. Drinkin at the...
    mumbo21 mumbo21 22-25, M Mar 13, 2010

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    I Cannot Escape It

     It all started when I was about seven or eight. My sisters left and it broke me. I didn't get a single goodbye and any contact after that was a secret, it wasn't until a last year where I found a letter from one of my sisters.... They came back into my life but it was strained...
    Buffy19 Buffy19 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2011

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    To Hard

    Ive tried to forget my past but its to hard.I have had so many bad things happen to me that i think bout more now.I only think of it cuz for once im finally happy,and i know that i wont stay happy for long since sumthing always happens to ruin my happiness.The stuff that i...
    demonicsangel2011 demonicsangel2011 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    I get it I know and I understand this life

    isn't mine but it's all that I have. I never asked you for it take it back if you think it's worthless. My minds going blank because of the words worthless and useless. I keep running jumping spinning turning but no matter the route it leads back to that fact that on that day...
    shadow721 shadow721 22-25, M Nov 23, 2014

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    But That

     doesnt mean i cant change my future. no, there is still time to fix everything. :) i just have to keep believing.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    My Past Wont Leave.

    I am always haunted by my past. There is nothing I can do to get away from thinking about it. It's always there in a dream, a thought, an action, or something I say. 
    ohmybobbert ohmybobbert 18-21 Nov 7, 2011

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    Fear Of Past

    I DID MANY THINGS OR HAVE EXP RELATED TO MY PAST WHICH MAKE M TENSED WHY I SELECTED 4 THAT I M WORRIED 4 THEIR IMPACT ON MY FUTURE????????????????WHY GOD SELECTED M ?????????.............................. BELIEVE ON God is th best answer ha na confusing
    love19082 love19082 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2010

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    Memory

    Time can pass. I can forget some of the detail of those things, but the main memories will always be present. They have been soaked into my mind, and will never fully leave. I will never escape the past, and the things that I have done.
    emipurple emipurple 18-21, F Oct 12, 2013

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    I Can't Escape THE PAIN OF Childhood Abuse I WENT THROUGH

    NO ONE WILL LET ME KATY AND RICK BEC AND COLM HAVE MY DIARY AND PERSONAL BELONGINGS AND EVEN POSSIBLY A BIRTH CERTIFICATE I THINK THEY GAVE IT TO BUGSY WHO WAS WORKING AT A TOOMBUL OPTOMITRIST THAT BEC MADE ME GO TO ONE DAY BEC KIRK ALSO MADE ME GO TO THE UQ CAMPUS ONE DAY SO THE...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jul 27, 2011

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    ....

    This is the main reason I don't want to feel anymore
    iminpain iminpain 18-21, M 9 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    There are two types of women my mama said Women

    who are planted And Women who are hatched There are women who are coaxed to grow Nourished by the sun and water And There are women fed by destruction Fed by insecurity, callousness and bitterness Some women are rooted in soil lavishing in security And Some women are...
    breannajust breannajust 18-21, F Feb 7, 2014

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    A Good Memory

    When I was 5 years old, my mother made an Easter egg hunt for me. She left those hard shelled marshmallow eggs laying around places, and each had a note attached, giving vague clues as to where to find the next one. The notes eventually lead me to a plastic egg with a whole...
    fatslut fatslut 36-40, F Mar 31, 2013

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    Y Do I Feel Regret

    I dont know if i feel regret for the decision ive made because i miss her, because i'm lonely, or both... It all starts and ends with my former "best friend" heather(she is the her in the first sentence). We were friends for almost 10 yrs, but she is the type of friend who only...
    cutebishortie cutebishortie 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2011

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    Small Town

    When I decided to transition I knew that it would be hard while living in a small town. I thought long and hard about moving, maybe to a big town. However, my family and friends are here, not to mention my home.I know that I am not the only transgender person that wishes that the...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T Jun 12, 2013

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    The House

    People always tell me a home is where ur family is and where the u feel safe. So i live in a house. all my life i turned down the right roads only to find road blocks and end up taking bad short cuts. my dad and i dont agree on anything even if i try. we fight and i try to drop...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    Haunted By My Past ...

    I loved well thought I loved a man for three years he lived in the states we met 3 years priod when I was 20 , he was a player but I didnt want to believe it and 3 years later i stupidly and impusivly went all the way there only to realise he was nothing special just a guy living...
    sonkamoo31 sonkamoo31 31-35 May 13, 2012

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    Runaway

    I've tried to run. i have tried to ditch my childhood and my teen years and just go, fast and far... leaving everything and everyone behind.. I can't hide, no where is safe.. the pain of my parents divorce still haunts me... the pain of moving away and losing every friend i ever...
    MiremebeKamaria MiremebeKamaria 18-21, F Nov 24, 2010

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    Everyone Has Something In Their Past!

    We all have done things we may or may not be proud of! Some things we did can come back to haunt us maybe even do damage in our present day life. But there is no sence trying to hide from or forget them, they are as close to us as our minds, always there if we think or even dare...
    thegunsmith thegunsmith 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    I can't take anything seriously these days that it's come to the point that I feel apathetic and numb to everything. My friends, my part-time job co-workers (though this makes...
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    I've been with my boyfriend for a few months, however he's been my best friend for over a year. We've always been very close, and I thought we were completely open with each other...
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    I put alot into my relationship with my ex and I got nothing out. I'm talking physically, mentally and emotionally. I've realised that's why I have this feeling of i can't be...
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    It feels good to type everything down here.. I have been keeping everything to myself and it is getting harder to manage but I am sure that I can seek advises from other persons...
    Zenalia Zenalia 18-21, F Feb 23

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    I want to forgive him. But I can't bring myself to do so. During the times he was cheating he treated me so so very cruelly. Demeaned me. Making me feel like crap. Hating myself...
    tir3dw0man tir3dw0man 31-35, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Need help/advice! Here's my story: My mom and dad split up before I was born, so I never really saw much of my dad or his side of the family growing up. When I was about 17, my dad...
    Italy21 Italy21 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    I'll be frank. I. Can't. Remember. My. Childhood. At. All. Sure there are bits and pieces of memories (such as losing my best friend and stealing) that's still somewhat fresh in...
    AoRagdoll AoRagdoll 13-15, F Feb 14

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    so a year and a half ago I started a relationship with someone that in no way should have ever been thought of but it was and it happened and at first it started out as just sex...
    sissieblue sissieblue 31-35, F Feb 20

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    I'm a gay guy in my sophomore year of high school. At the beginning of my freshman year in high school I saw a boy named Josh in my multi-media design class. I kinda liked him at...
    smellyfeetguy20 smellyfeetguy20 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm madly in love with my boyfriend. However I can't get my head round his children. I like them but don't love them. They make me feel jealous that he loves them more than he...
    lnicolem lnicolem 18-21, F a week ago

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    I just wish I could help peoples... I look around me and I see the world burning .. People killing each other people abuseing each other and starvation, I just wanna help people...
    suicidalblonde suicidalblonde 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    Please please, I don't wanna live anymore. Today was a terrible day, and I wish I could just delete everything from my memory that happened (actually not only today, but this whole...
    ABACDEE ABACDEE 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    Just warning, this might get slightly long. So, I am a 13 year old girl. (Please don't judge me by my age). I have always been kind of "boyish" or however you want to call it. I...
    Wildheart919 Wildheart919 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 6

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    You've pushed me to my breaking point. You try to control my life and I'm tired of it. If that's the way you are now I don't want to imagine the way you will be when we are married...
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 16-17, F Feb 6

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    How many of us on this app are true introverts and don't even know it. I say this because I myself learned about this about a year ago with the help of some new friends. For the...
    diamondgirl07 diamondgirl07 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 8

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    No matter how hard I try I can't bring myself to honestly confide in another person. I feel as if they will judge me, or that they think they can no longer view me as someone they...
    FirstSnowFall FirstSnowFall 18-21, F Feb 8

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    I can't stand being with my boyfriend any longer, but I don't know if I can leave him...I'm too afraid to let go. So this is our story: We're at a long distance relationship...
    Bitterlove Bitterlove 16-17, F Feb 10

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    I Can't, I just can't no matter how much I try! I am feeling so lifeless, I can't cry or laugh or have fun or get bored or feel. I can just study and feel a few feelings which I...
    Silentsuffer Silentsuffer 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 10

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    It has been over five years now, and has taken me this long to come close to accepting it. I just don't get it though. Let me explain. About five years ago I was under lots of...
    kinkysexybabe kinkysexybabe 36-40, F 9 Responses Feb 13

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    They Started Yesterday Morning~ All day yesterday I kept getting yelled at by everyone... I was dealing with T yelling, about this and that... And trying to keep up with...
    PrincessKimmie PrincessKimmie 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 14

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    Summer is going to be so much fun this year. I'm going to do a lot. Hopefully I will make my state cheerleading squad again. If I don't I'm probably just going to spend most my...
    CheerleaderEm CheerleaderEm 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 16

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    Nobody wants to read or hear negative thoughts or messages. Can't tell friends, family and can't post on social networks. Who do I tell? No one. It's hard to keep everything to...
    alone03 alone03 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 17

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    I'm so ready to throw in the towel, wave a white surrender flag. Nothing I do ever works out and all I do is sit around feeling sorry for myself. I want to die every day, I am no...
    brokenandlost brokenandlost 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    having a broken heart isn't fun. can't sleep, can't eat, can't cope with day to day life. its just hard. like idk what to do. I feel physically sick and I hate it. maybe my body...
    gummball gummball 18-21, F 1 Response