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I Can't Escape My Past

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    But That

     doesnt mean i cant change my future. no, there is still time to fix everything. :) i just have to keep believing.
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    Runaway

    I've tried to run. i have tried to ditch my childhood and my teen years and just go, fast and far... leaving everything and everyone behind.. I can't hide, no where is safe.. the pain of my parents divorce still haunts me... the pain of moving away and losing every friend i ever...
    MiremebeKamaria MiremebeKamaria 18-21, F Nov 24, 2010

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    A Good Memory

    When I was 5 years old, my mother made an Easter egg hunt for me. She left those hard shelled marshmallow eggs laying around places, and each had a note attached, giving vague clues as to where to find the next one. The notes eventually lead me to a plastic egg with a whole...
    fatslut fatslut 36-40, F Mar 31, 2013

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    There are two types of women my mama said Women

    who are planted And Women who are hatched There are women who are coaxed to grow Nourished by the sun and water And There are women fed by destruction Fed by insecurity, callousness and bitterness Some women are rooted in soil lavishing in security And Some women are...
    breannajust breannajust 18-21, F Feb 7

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    Follows Me.

    Everywhere I look, there's something that reminds me of my past. So many things went on in my past, mostly bad things that I don't want to remember or relive. I'm only 14 and yet I have as many bad memories of my past as a 41 year old. It constantly follows me, weighting down on...
    ImOkayNow ImOkayNow 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 18, 2011

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    Fear Of Past

    I DID MANY THINGS OR HAVE EXP RELATED TO MY PAST WHICH MAKE M TENSED WHY I SELECTED 4 THAT I M WORRIED 4 THEIR IMPACT ON MY FUTURE????????????????WHY GOD SELECTED M ?????????.............................. BELIEVE ON God is th best answer ha na confusing
    love19082 love19082 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2010

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    Y Do I Feel Regret

    I dont know if i feel regret for the decision ive made because i miss her, because i'm lonely, or both... It all starts and ends with my former "best friend" heather(she is the her in the first sentence). We were friends for almost 10 yrs, but she is the type of friend who only...
    cutebishortie cutebishortie 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2011

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    The Past Is Relentless

    So back in high school my friends and i used to do stupid stuff for fun. They were often illegal so when we got caught we got a free ride to our houses in the back of a sqaud car. Twice was just a slap on the wrist so to speak and being grounded by the parentals. Drinkin at the...
    mumbo21 mumbo21 22-25, M Mar 13, 2010

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    To Hard

    Ive tried to forget my past but its to hard.I have had so many bad things happen to me that i think bout more now.I only think of it cuz for once im finally happy,and i know that i wont stay happy for long since sumthing always happens to ruin my happiness.The stuff that i...
    demonicsangel2011 demonicsangel2011 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2011

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    I Can't Escape THE PAIN OF Childhood Abuse I WENT THROUGH

    NO ONE WILL LET ME KATY AND RICK BEC AND COLM HAVE MY DIARY AND PERSONAL BELONGINGS AND EVEN POSSIBLY A BIRTH CERTIFICATE I THINK THEY GAVE IT TO BUGSY WHO WAS WORKING AT A TOOMBUL OPTOMITRIST THAT BEC MADE ME GO TO ONE DAY BEC KIRK ALSO MADE ME GO TO THE UQ CAMPUS ONE DAY SO THE...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Jul 27, 2011

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    There He Is Again.

    It's been 10 months, I was pretty much over my ex, so I thought. Tonight, I was over at my friends trailer, she has 5 cats & I'm allergic to them..I went to walk around the trailer-hood in the snow to get some fresh air, hopefully clear my nose & make my eyes stop itching. I...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F Nov 23, 2013

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    I Cannot Escape It

     It all started when I was about seven or eight. My sisters left and it broke me. I didn't get a single goodbye and any contact after that was a secret, it wasn't until a last year where I found a letter from one of my sisters.... They came back into my life but it was strained...
    Buffy19 Buffy19 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2011

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    The House

    People always tell me a home is where ur family is and where the u feel safe. So i live in a house. all my life i turned down the right roads only to find road blocks and end up taking bad short cuts. my dad and i dont agree on anything even if i try. we fight and i try to drop...
    rawrthekid rawrthekid 13-15 Jan 25, 2011

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    ....

    This is the main reason I don't want to feel anymore
    iminpain iminpain 18-21, M 9 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    Small Town

    When I decided to transition I knew that it would be hard while living in a small town. I thought long and hard about moving, maybe to a big town. However, my family and friends are here, not to mention my home.I know that I am not the only transgender person that wishes that the...
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40 Jun 12, 2013

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    Haunted By My Past ...

    I loved well thought I loved a man for three years he lived in the states we met 3 years priod when I was 20 , he was a player but I didnt want to believe it and 3 years later i stupidly and impusivly went all the way there only to realise he was nothing special just a guy living...
    sonkamoo31 sonkamoo31 31-35 May 13, 2012

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    My Past Wont Leave.

    I am always haunted by my past. There is nothing I can do to get away from thinking about it. It's always there in a dream, a thought, an action, or something I say. 
    ohmybobbert ohmybobbert 18-21 Nov 7, 2011

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    Memory

    Time can pass. I can forget some of the detail of those things, but the main memories will always be present. They have been soaked into my mind, and will never fully leave. I will never escape the past, and the things that I have done.
    emipurple emipurple 18-21, F Oct 12, 2013

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    Everyone Has Something In Their Past!

    We all have done things we may or may not be proud of! Some things we did can come back to haunt us maybe even do damage in our present day life. But there is no sence trying to hide from or forget them, they are as close to us as our minds, always there if we think or even dare...
    thegunsmith thegunsmith 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    I am dating a recovering heroin/pill addict. I have only known him a little over a year, and I knew about his addiction upfront, however I didn't know to what extent, I am the...
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    I love this site! I knew in theory that there were people with my problem, but had never met any of them. Like others here, I don't know what is wrong with me. I do my best, but...
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    This hole thing involving my girlfriend bring grounded tell September Is tearing me inside out I can't this feeling anymore and I constantly catch myself sending her things like...
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    The most horrible feeling ever! You have those nights where you got so much things on your mind and as soon as you put your head on the pillow the thoughts keep swimming around...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 9

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    I went into work early this morning because I never went to sleep last night. I was sick of laying there....and being busy is what I do best these days. Now I'm exhausted and...
    Triscuitan Triscuitan 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 9

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    Before telling you my story, I wanna ask you something... Is there someone who you just can't get over? Someone who's broken your heart and you just can't mend it? 3 years ago I...
    vinylvanilla vinylvanilla 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    I dated a girl all throughout high school. We started dating Freshman year (her sophomore year) and we dated up until she went off to college. I left her after she had been at...
    whoknows2014 whoknows2014 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    If you believe in God, or nothing or some other deity, I feel like it's a cruel piece in our genetic make up for us to seek companionship. It's something we have no control over...
    tonib123 tonib123 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 3

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    Maybe it's the anxiety disorder, but i flip out over everything. I have crazy thoughts and process every possible or impossible way of things going terribly wrong at every moment...
    chemically99 chemically99 13-15, F Jul 13

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    In restaurants, grocery lanes, supermarkets, malls, in the bus, train or anywhere, my mind don't stop thinking while my eyes roam around.Delicious gourmet, hot picks, admirable...
    0nOpalsMind 0nOpalsMind 41-45, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I've noticed I'm really bad when I'm tired. I get to where I just can't get the words out, and even worse is I can't usually remember what I needed to say in the first place. I...
    WAWM WAWM 18-21, F Jun 26

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    I really resent my father sometimes. First off, he knows everything. He's a doctor, a lawyer, a mechanic, a chef, a veterinarian, a repairman, etc. You get the point. And he won't...
    LadyBojangles LadyBojangles 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    I don't know how I feel about him. When I'm talking with him or sitting right beside him, his attention goes straight to me. Even if we don't talk, it's like I know he doesn't mind...
    HarmonyEvers HarmonyEvers 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    We have been together for 2 years now and because of my trust issues i grabbed his phone what might have been innocent flirting i turned into a big deal, we were both intoxicated...
    steph102112 steph102112 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    It sucked, yeah. Wasn't what we thought it would be. Wasn't enough time. It wasn't much, I'll admit. But it was something :) We met and it was great. Not perfect, but still so...
    seasalticecream seasalticecream 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 5

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    This is the fourth night this is happening. I wake up feeling light headed, can't breathe, and can't feel my heart beat or I can feel it getting weaker. I seriously don't know...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I don't know why but I just can't. I can tell when people love me but I can't love them back, I just don't feel it no matter how hard I try. It's like I'm disconnected from...
    WinterSkyout WinterSkyout 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    A little back story here as an infant my parents didn't want me and they basically gave me to my grand parents with the notion drugs are more important than my kids. So my...
    TheSameOne TheSameOne 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 6

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    I am in love with my friends brother in law. He is gorgeous and has the sweetest personality. The one problem is he has a girl friend who has emotional problems. He tries to smile...
    staky85 staky85 26-30 Jul 6

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    Actually, I can relate to other females much more now than I used to be able to. Not in all ways, but I have some female friends now and I can talk to them about some things that...
    lyricalongings lyricalongings 31-35, F Jul 7

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    If one refuse to listen and won't take advice what is the point of me trying to help? If you won't help yourself and don't change your life for the better then you can't get help...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F Jul 9

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    Once again I'm back and sadly about the same topic as before, my brother. Sadly he continues to not accept any responsibility for his actions. He and his spouse have ruined a few...
    DannyBoy1972 DannyBoy1972 36-40 Jul 9

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    Never thought I would have a kid before marriage and definitely never thought I would be a single mom and not have a stable family for my child. Never thought I would be with...
    lovelylady20 lovelylady20 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I can't wait to go back to school. I will get to see my friends again and will be able to hang out with them. I also can't wait to start AP Math, AP English, AP Science, AP History...
    UchigawaNiShinda UchigawaNiShinda 13-15, F Jul 11

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    Long story short: I cheated on my ex and he dumped me. Now I can't get him out of my head. I don't know why cheated, I keep trying to find a reason but when I find one I feel like...
    Ren10 Ren10 13-15, F Jul 13

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    I got my first permit when I was 17. No one cared enough to trust me with their car. I'm not smart enough to learn how, so I guess it figures. So now I'm 29 and utterly useless to...
    wtfimik wtfimik 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I can not stand the sight of my boyfriends mother. She's a very manipulative, judgmental, selfish, lying, narcissistic ***! She has a long history of drug and alcohol abuse. She's...
    SilentNynja SilentNynja 22-25, F Jul 15