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I Can't Fight It Any Longer

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    Depression And Anxiety

    Had first serious bout of anxiety and depression in my early 20 s ,managed a semblance of functional living until late 20 s ,self medicated with heroin which at least gave me something to get out of bed for and now in my late 40 s with a mentally ill addict 19 year old daughter...
    lezstar lezstar 46-50, M 1 Response Oct 1, 2010

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    The depression has grabbed a hold of me, and everything that I have. Its grabbed me by the legs and has pulled me down to the ground. My Depression is beating the crap out of me right now, I scream for help, but no help comes, because my scream is nothing compared to the loud...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 31, 2009

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