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I Cant Fight My Heart

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    Where Was Your Conscience?

    How did you hide yourself so well? I dont know who you are or even who you were.. WHERE WAS YOUR CONSCIENCE? i was mesmerized by your touch, entwined with your Soul, manipulated by the depths of our connection, blinded by passion...I was In love...but WHERE WAS YOUR CONSCIENCE...
    hwood773 hwood773 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 1, 2012

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