I Can't Find the Words

Silence is the death knell that comes with a closed mouth and a closed heart 170 People

    Here I Am

    Here I am, down.....again. There is no reason. There is no rhyme. I just am. Just when I think I'm fine. I can't really tell why. The words are lost and won't come to me when I call. I know I'm miserable at this day and time. I   write what comes to me as it pops up in...
    theredlady theredlady
    41-45, F
    Sep 17, 2009

    My partner of ten years is dying.

    .. I'm terrified of it all. I don't know what to do. One month ago everything appeared just right. Then in a weeks time my entire world came crumbling down. He cheated on me... now his body is shutting down. He brought death into my life... He brought death to my door... And...
    iamvictorious iamvictorious
    36-40, M
    Apr 16

    Stuck In A Situation

    I'm stuck in a winless situation. I don't need to win, but the situation is dire. It is not healthy. it does not flourish love is a great thing. but loving yourself may be better.
    enough1 enough1
    41-45, F
    Jul 22, 2013

    Lately

    I haven't been in the mood to write. I feel like I'm hanging on a fence in the dark and not sure which way to go. I feel excited about some things in my life and at the same time.....I feel like I'm abandoning others. I am unsure of myself more than at any other time in my life...
    theredlady theredlady
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Oct 28, 2009

    All I Have ...

    There are some things that are beyond description.  Some feelings that cannot be conveyed by words.When we write stories on EP, or send personal messages, or write comments, the words we write are often inadequate.  The person who reads them might not understand them in...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss
    51-55, F
    7 Responses Jan 9, 2010

    No Words But a Person

    There's no word to even explain how my life is, how at times I can be so happy and full with joy, and at other times jealous or arrogant most of the time aggrevated, there's no word or words that can explain how I feel at times, the only possible thing I can think of is God why...
    sleepingangel sleepingangel
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 17, 2009

    Yay! ????

    I have this feeling all bubbling up inside of me... I want to shout it out. It makes me feel like flying and laughing and I don't know what it is. It's been building up for a couple of days and it's got me all antsy inside. I feel like a little kid waiting for recess.
    theredlady theredlady
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Oct 25, 2009

    My moms friends mom just died

    so my moms been helping out that family a lot. They have two kids ( girl 11 & boy 14). The little girl has latched on to me n acts like I'm her big sister just so she has someone to come to. But whenever I see the boy my heart kinda sinks. We have an awkward friendship n now...
    TallyO TallyO
    16-17, F
    Jul 29, 2014

    It Is All Too Big!

    life! Can't find the words! who can? the mystery, the majesty, the pain and dissapointment. what the hell is it all about? i wonder my hands in the kitchen sink' washing the dishes,  on a crisp monday morning. then I see him in the tree. and i hear him singing with such joyful...
    shenightowl shenightowl
    51-55, F
    Jul 3, 2012

    Some Borrowed Words From Long Ago

    Not too discrete Are the words she speaks While she sits and passes the time A thing once died Now is revived And guides her broken heart......
    theredlady theredlady
    41-45, F
    4 Responses May 18, 2009

    I lost a friend. I still can't believe this.

    We had stopped talking but its still sad and painful to know she's gone. :(
    officialwanderer officialwanderer
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 24, 2014

    I Want To Help My Friend

    I can't seem to find the words, to help my friend in need. I can't seem to find the words, its very sad indeed. I can't seem to find the words, to help her from her pain. I can't seem to find the words - it's driving me insane. I can't seem to find the words, I think she...
    expressomarkie expressomarkie
    46-50
    Jan 16, 2013

    Have you ever felt so out of place ?

    Like you dont belong to any where you go .. Nobody seems to understand .. No where feels right . Even your home . Have you ever felt like you want to silent everyone , even the love of your life ? You want to stare at him without saying anything .. Hear his soft breaths and...
    sweetembrace13297 sweetembrace13297
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 11, 2014

    My Mind Ignores What My Heart Says

    Most of the time when i'm at work or at school, or just wherever around people I find myself contemplating life or whatever else might be on my mind more than really thinking of what else to say to someone. Yes I do enjoy talking to people and having intelligent conversations...
    misternobrain misternobrain
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 11, 2013

    My uncle, grandma, and dad died a few months

    ago... Uncle in March, Grandma in April, and Dad in May...
    Alto2Soprano Alto2Soprano
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 10, 2014

    There Are No Words Left In Me....

    I can't find the words to tell how I feel.It seems that they have left me.All I do now is cry when I need to speak or vent my feelings, the words do not come out.Only tears. I do it in church or at night,sitting alone out on my porch. My friends in my town don't seem to...
    theredlady theredlady
    41-45, F
    3 Responses May 17, 2009

    Sometimes I Think I Can't Speak

    It really does feel like that sometimes. I'm much better at writing.  But when I speak, it feels like the thoughts are having a party and are not planning to settle down anytime soon. I know what I want to say, but when it comes to putting it in words and getting those words...
    SunnySmile SunnySmile
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 7, 2010

    Sometimes ppl say something hurts you

    so much, they touch the nerve directly! without they meant that I know, but why they don't think a little before they speaks, Why they just judge me without they know me well! I have a funny character so I laugh and kidding usually but it doesn't mean I'm a ice bar I'm...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 14, 2015

    To tell you that there is probably a big smile

    plastered across your face, it's what you've wanted, it was hard hearing how much you wanted it...you've been through so much in your long life, my dear friend I will miss your smile my friend...I love you and sweet dreams. You have now gotten your 6ft deep within.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 21, 2014

    Something I Want To Say

    There's something I want to say. I read the stories with their sadness, anger, revelations and opinions. I read of happy times and bad times or times that maybe shouldn't be shared....lol. I want to comment on them all. They are all very good and interesting. The problem is that...
    theredlady theredlady
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Oct 8, 2009

    Please Rescue Me

    Where are my words? They're lost. They've escaped me. My heart aches and has no release, my mind screams and can't find the key. Where are my words? Felt deep inside of me, lost within the depths, blacker than the sea. Please, someone, rescue me! I'm floating in the black depths...
    theredlady theredlady
    41-45, F
    8 Responses Jan 13, 2010

    Nothing So Say

    have so many storiesbut nothing to saymy mind is a blankjust fields of decayall gone down the sinkwith a winkand a blinki watchhypnotisedwith shallowdazed eyes.no focus to writeon this dreary nighthave nothing to sayno fervour to prayit is . as it ismy soul feels no blissbut then...
    shenightowl shenightowl
    51-55, F
    Jul 14, 2012

    A Lot! Every Story And Every Day

    When I even Meditate, Contemplate and get Pensive. When I compose and write every Story. And a lot of them are only half done the way I would like them to come out to be, or else they too don't ever get Posted here. Spell Checker's doesn't help me find my words. And sometimes...
    ChakraSolipsismMGP ChakraSolipsismMGP
    56-60, M
    Nov 13, 2011

    Still Speechless

    The words are stuck in my brain. They linger there and tantalize my tongue, but they won't come out. I don't know why. I'm sad. Can't seem to find an even keel. Don't know what to do or where to go. Too many friends and no one I can talk to. Don't know what to say. Tired of the...
    theredlady theredlady
    41-45, F
    11 Responses May 26, 2009
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 27

    I lost 3 patients today all under the age of 18,

    I'm so devastated and numb right now. I had to stand there and watch a Dr with parents the horrible news.. Can't stop crying!!! :'{
    Ilyme Ilyme
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2014

    Death By Tractor

    At 4:15 today we got the call. My brother in law was killed, the tractor he was using to pull logs on his land rolled over and crushed him. Shawn has been with my sister since they were 14...they made me an awesome nephew who is 9 now. I call him 'Lil'. 'Lil's' Dad had cleaned...
    mybirch12 mybirch12
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Nov 24, 2013

    Wordless

    i have no kind of words for a lot of things but mostly life. life to me is a pure and delicate krystal that if drops to the ground is over. but i cannot find the words to describe how wonderful and joyous our lives can be, its quite hard. and specialy if you have suck great...
    ashingdreams23 ashingdreams23
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jan 9, 2010

    About a few hours ago a boy,

    I think in the year below me passed away along with his younger sister and Dad in a car crash- they were going on holiday. He was well known but I never really knew him besides being Facebook friends I guess. People die every few seconds but It's just painful to know there are...
    RayNyar RayNyar
    16-17, F
    Jul 31, 2014

    I'm Sorry For The Messy Words

    There is no amount of words i can use to tell you i love you ... wouldn't even matter how many i used, you still wouldn't believe them. There is no amount of words to say how much i thought about you in that four and a half years and how many times i got close to telling you...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout
    26-30, F
    Aug 27, 2013

    I Never Can

    i never can find the words . i have a hard time talking alot of times . and i just stumble . like uh can you do . it sounds horriable . another  nerological issue discovered.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 20, 2010

    I

    I miss.......everything....
    theredlady theredlady
    41-45, F
    13 Responses Aug 7, 2009

    Words In My Heart

    There are words in my heart that I cannot get out. They are trapped. Stuck fast in the mud that is my fear. I love and hate, am indifferent, yet concerned. I don't want to go too far or give false impressions. So I stay quiet with exception to those who bring them out. Their gift...
    theredlady theredlady
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Sep 2, 2009

    To Express My Love To You

    So I'll say it simply................................ I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Oct 26, 2009

    Where Am I?

    There is a blankness to my existence. I have purpose, I know, but what it is, I haven't a clue. I have my children. I have my business. I have friends. I have family. But where am I? In the larger scheme of things I sit here and ponder it and have no words to describe myself.
    theredlady theredlady
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Jul 22, 2009

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