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I Can't Find the Words

Silence is the death knell that comes with a closed mouth and a closed heart 160 People

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    I haven't been in the mood to write. I feel like I'm hanging on a fence in the dark and not sure which way to go. I feel excited about some things in my life and at the same time.....I feel like I'm abandoning others. I am unsure of myself more than at any other time in my life...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 4 Responses Oct 28, 2009

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    I Never Can

    i never can find the words . i have a hard time talking alot of times . and i just stumble . like uh can you do . it sounds horriable . another  nerological issue discovered.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 20, 2010

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    I lost a friend. I still can't believe this.

    We had stopped talking but its still sad and painful to know she's gone. :(
    officialwanderer officialwanderer 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    To Express My Love To You

    So I'll say it simply................................ I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M 3 Responses Oct 26, 2009

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    My uncle, grandma, and dad died a few months

    ago... Uncle in March, Grandma in April, and Dad in May...
    Alto2Soprano Alto2Soprano 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2014

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    Still Speechless

    The words are stuck in my brain. They linger there and tantalize my tongue, but they won't come out. I don't know why. I'm sad. Can't seem to find an even keel. Don't know what to do or where to go. Too many friends and no one I can talk to. Don't know what to say. Tired of the...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 11 Responses May 26, 2009

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    Wordless

    i have no kind of words for a lot of things but mostly life. life to me is a pure and delicate krystal that if drops to the ground is over. but i cannot find the words to describe how wonderful and joyous our lives can be, its quite hard. and specialy if you have suck great...
    ashingdreams23 ashingdreams23 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    I Want To Help My Friend

    I can't seem to find the words, to help my friend in need. I can't seem to find the words, its very sad indeed. I can't seem to find the words, to help her from her pain. I can't seem to find the words - it's driving me insane. I can't seem to find the words, I think she...
    expressomarkie expressomarkie 46-50, M Jan 16, 2013

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    I have nowhere else to post this.

    I don't want whatever drama might come with exposing you, so I'll keep my mouth shut. You broke my heart once. I let you get close to me again. You did it again. I forgave you and agreed to be friends. You did it again. You will not be getting another chance. I've...
    mg75 mg75 36-40, F Dec 6, 2014

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    Something I Want To Say

    There's something I want to say. I read the stories with their sadness, anger, revelations and opinions. I read of happy times and bad times or times that maybe shouldn't be shared....lol. I want to comment on them all. They are all very good and interesting. The problem is that...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 4 Responses Oct 8, 2009

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    It Is All Too Big!

    life! Can't find the words! who can? the mystery, the majesty, the pain and dissapointment. what the hell is it all about? i wonder my hands in the kitchen sink' washing the dishes,  on a crisp monday morning. then I see him in the tree. and i hear him singing with such joyful...
    shenightowl shenightowl 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 3, 2012

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    All I Have ...

    There are some things that are beyond description.  Some feelings that cannot be conveyed by words.When we write stories on EP, or send personal messages, or write comments, the words we write are often inadequate.  The person who reads them might not understand them in...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 8 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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    About a few hours ago a boy,

    I think in the year below me passed away along with his younger sister and Dad in a car crash- they were going on holiday. He was well known but I never really knew him besides being Facebook friends I guess. People die every few seconds but It's just painful to know there are...
    RayNyar RayNyar 16-17, F Jul 31, 2014

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    My Mind Ignores What My Heart Says

    Most of the time when i'm at work or at school, or just wherever around people I find myself contemplating life or whatever else might be on my mind more than really thinking of what else to say to someone. Yes I do enjoy talking to people and having intelligent conversations...
    misternobrain misternobrain 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 11, 2013

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    My moms friends mom just died

    so my moms been helping out that family a lot. They have two kids ( girl 11 & boy 14). The little girl has latched on to me n acts like I'm her big sister just so she has someone to come to. But whenever I see the boy my heart kinda sinks. We have an awkward friendship n now...
    TallyO TallyO 13-15, F Jul 29, 2014

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    Death By Tractor

    At 4:15 today we got the call. My brother in law was killed, the tractor he was using to pull logs on his land rolled over and crushed him. Shawn has been with my sister since they were 14...they made me an awesome nephew who is 9 now. I call him 'Lil'. 'Lil's' Dad had cleaned...
    mybirch12 mybirch12 41-45, F 5 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    Where Am I?

    There is a blankness to my existence. I have purpose, I know, but what it is, I haven't a clue. I have my children. I have my business. I have friends. I have family. But where am I? In the larger scheme of things I sit here and ponder it and have no words to describe myself.
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 22, 2009

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    Please Rescue Me

    Where are my words? They're lost. They've escaped me. My heart aches and has no release, my mind screams and can't find the key. Where are my words? Felt deep inside of me, lost within the depths, blacker than the sea. Please, someone, rescue me! I'm floating in the black depths...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 9 Responses Jan 13, 2010

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    I lost 3 patients today all under the age of 18,

    I'm so devastated and numb right now. I had to stand there and watch a Dr with parents the horrible news.. Can't stop crying!!! :'{
    Ilyme Ilyme 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 15, 2014

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    Words Are My Friends.

    I love them, and they have saved my life in the past. Now I feel unlike ever before... without the possibility to find the words to explain how I feel, and why. I thought I lost the man I loved, and had accepted it with grief and dispair, and now out the blue, just like he came...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 8, 2010

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    Have you ever felt so out of place ?

    Like you dont belong to any where you go .. Nobody seems to understand .. No where feels right . Even your home . Have you ever felt like you want to silent everyone , even the love of your life ? You want to stare at him without saying anything .. Hear his soft breaths and...
    sweetembrace13297 sweetembrace13297 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 11, 2014

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    I'm Sorry For The Messy Words

    There is no amount of words i can use to tell you i love you ... wouldn't even matter how many i used, you still wouldn't believe them. There is no amount of words to say how much i thought about you in that four and a half years and how many times i got close to telling you...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Aug 27, 2013

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    Sometimes I Think I Can't Speak

    It really does feel like that sometimes. I'm much better at writing.  But when I speak, it feels like the thoughts are having a party and are not planning to settle down anytime soon. I know what I want to say, but when it comes to putting it in words and getting those words...
    SunnySmile SunnySmile 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2010

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    To tell you that there is probably a big smile

    plastered across your face, it's what you've wanted, it was hard hearing how much you wanted it...you've been through so much in your long life, my dear friend I will miss your smile my friend...I love you and sweet dreams. You have now gotten your 6ft deep within.
    OrchidsNuBlu OrchidsNuBlu 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2014

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    A Lot! Every Story And Every Day

    When I even Meditate, Contemplate and get Pensive. When I compose and write every Story. And a lot of them are only half done the way I would like them to come out to be, or else they too don't ever get Posted here. Spell Checker's doesn't help me find my words. And sometimes...
    ChakraSolipsismMGP ChakraSolipsismMGP 56-60, M Nov 13, 2011

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    Yay! ????

    I have this feeling all bubbling up inside of me... I want to shout it out. It makes me feel like flying and laughing and I don't know what it is. It's been building up for a couple of days and it's got me all antsy inside. I feel like a little kid waiting for recess.
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 3 Responses Oct 25, 2009

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    Some Borrowed Words From Long Ago

    Not too discrete Are the words she speaks While she sits and passes the time A thing once died Now is revived And guides her broken heart......
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 4 Responses May 18, 2009

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    Nothing So Say

    have so many storiesbut nothing to saymy mind is a blankjust fields of decayall gone down the sinkwith a winkand a blinki watchhypnotisedwith shallowdazed eyes.no focus to writeon this dreary nighthave nothing to sayno fervour to prayit is . as it ismy soul feels no blissbut then...
    shenightowl shenightowl 51-55, F 1 Response Jul 14, 2012

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    No Words But a Person

    There's no word to even explain how my life is, how at times I can be so happy and full with joy, and at other times jealous or arrogant most of the time aggrevated, there's no word or words that can explain how I feel at times, the only possible thing I can think of is God why...
    sleepingangel sleepingangel 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2009

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    Words In My Heart

    There are words in my heart that I cannot get out. They are trapped. Stuck fast in the mud that is my fear. I love and hate, am indifferent, yet concerned. I don't want to go too far or give false impressions. So I stay quiet with exception to those who bring them out. Their gift...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 5 Responses Sep 2, 2009

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    There Are No Words Left In Me....

    I can't find the words to tell how I feel.It seems that they have left me.All I do now is cry when I need to speak or vent my feelings, the words do not come out.Only tears. I do it in church or at night,sitting alone out on my porch. My friends in my town don't seem to...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 3 Responses May 17, 2009

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    Iv0ry Iv0ry 22-25, F Aug 3, 2014

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    Here I Am

    Here I am, down.....again. There is no reason. There is no rhyme. I just am. Just when I think I'm fine. I can't really tell why. The words are lost and won't come to me when I call. I know I'm miserable at this day and time. I   write what comes to me as it pops up in...
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F Sep 17, 2009

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    I

    I miss.......everything....
    theredlady theredlady 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 7, 2009

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    Stuck In A Situation

    I'm stuck in a winless situation. I don't need to win, but the situation is dire. It is not healthy. it does not flourish love is a great thing. but loving yourself may be better.
    enough1 enough1 36-40, F Jul 22, 2013

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