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I Can't Let Go of the Past

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    It Is Like Yesterday

    I seldom looked back during my working life -- I was too busy. Now I am semiretired and have more time and my memories are like yesterday. I remember evrything about my wife and our going out together , to her dismay. She had things to hide but I remember them well. I...
    anthony2001 anthony2001 61-65, M Mar 28, 2012

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    Kimbra's "withdraw" Says It All..

    no matter how important it was or how long ago it happened, i can't let go of ANYTHING that happened in the past. contasntly replaying memories and reliving them as if they're happening again and again. sometimes, even responding to them out loud, either repeating what i said or...
    matiswest matiswest 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 18, 2012

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    My Little Girl...

    I had a dream last night that I gave birth. I didn't know I was pregnant. She was premature and abnormally small, but was perfectly healthy. I named her Starburst, and she was the most beautiful baby I've ever seen. She grew very quickly, but was happy, and loved me. At first I...
    imgettingthere imgettingthere 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2011

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    My Life Is Stuck

    it's almost 3am and again i can't sleep i think too much, and it especially seems to hit me when i go to bed, even if i have thought i was tired i spend a lot of time thinking/dwelling on my past and therefore it is still affecting my life, even though i should have moved on long...
    fremantle fremantle 36-40, F 6 Responses Mar 18, 2011

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    The Monsters In the Rear View Mirror

    I am plagued by memories I wish I could forget.  Stupid choices going back to childhood, and painful events in my past that still affect how I feel about myself and those around me.  Sometimes I wish I could get amnesia, and forget everything.  I can remember...
    rustyhalo rustyhalo 41-45 3 Responses Jun 8, 2009

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    I Can't Let Go.

    About a year ago, a guy started talking to me and then a few months later, my best friend as well. We didn't really think much of it until we realized we both had feelings for him. I'd liked him to begin with (she knew that) but it wasn't long before he decided I wasn't good...
    Nicoletaylor12 Nicoletaylor12 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2012

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    Bad Dreams

    We woke up at 3:30 am. Her diving coach came in and gave her a pep talk for the meet in a few hours and thanked me for being supportive.  I told her she isn't to see him any more.  She doesn't like that and we get into a huge fight and she leaves.  Gone.  And I'm left...
    TheChaos TheChaos 36-40, M Sep 18, 2013

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    I'm Trying

    I want the past to be the past. I want it to stay where it is. I want it not to matter.
    Ragelovelumos Ragelovelumos 18-21, F Oct 23, 2012

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    It will always be a part of me

    and I'll always love him, whether it's the way I'm suppose to or not. He's always going to be a part of my life and I am trying to let go of everything but it's just too had to.
    Raiders17 Raiders17 18-21, F Jun 17

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    Something That Was Never Meant to Be...

    okay, i usually don't do this sort of thing. Here it goes. When i was younger(alot younger) i fell madly in love with a man that was older(alot older) than myself. It was heaven while it lasted and i've never felt that way with anyone else, even after twelve years. Anyways, here...
    gingy gingy 26-30 4 Responses Jul 3, 2008

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    The summer i'll NEVER forget

    I wish i could re-live when i was between the ages of 17 and 18 years old because i had the greatest life in my opinion. When i was 17 years old it was the end of February when i met my then 28 year old boyfriend. I was turning 18 the month after so we just talked until then and...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Jan 11, 2012

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    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    It Always Comes Back

    I remember nearly all of the little tiny mistakes that I have made, and almost all the things that bullies used to do to me. Silly stupid things such as showing to much vulnerability at one point, a bully pushing me down, or being too bossy at one point. My memory just mocks me...
    Katryan Katryan 18-21, F Jun 10, 2013

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    A Decade and Counting

      What are you looking for? Like countless others, all I seek is a molecule shaking love that redefines everything. Simple, right? (I kid.) Unfortunately or fortunately, depending upon the song heard or poet read, I have been there, once.  And that memory...
    FingerRiot FingerRiot 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 26, 2009

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    Okay so I have been friends with this girl

    for like 6 years. Last week we slept together and I'm not sure if it meant anything we were both quite drunk but it really felt special to me I really want her again and I have no idea how to tell her and the experience just keeps going around in my head I don't know what to do...
    lozsoz1 lozsoz1 18-21, F Jul 5

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    I'm one of those people

    who strongly believe that if they want something hard enough, they can get it. However, at the same time I realize I'm not like that at all. Sometimes, in small things - sure. But I find myself still thinking about the same guy every day for the 6th year now and regretting the...
    LadyCinephile LadyCinephile 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    Though I Desperately Need To..

    Its probably my biggest obstacle. I don't know why I punish myself so much for the stupidest little things that happened so long ago. I still hang on to comments that were said to me when I was a small child. But most prevalent of them all, is the fact that I can't ever stand up...
    NatureGirl23 NatureGirl23 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 23, 2008

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    Lies

    I used to lie to people and myself about what happened to me because of the shamess, guilt and fears. Even though I pretended that everything was going okay and that I was feeling normal, deep down I was aware that I lived and made people live in lies. It took me a very long time...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4, 2012

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    It's 1 hour before midnight

    and I'm lying in the dark on a bed that I share with my current boyfriend, crying and missing the guy who left me to go on exchange last year. I didn't love him. I don't. But what we had was sweet and when times are hard, like now, it seems sweeter and it makes me miss him more...
    ashcrnd ashcrnd 22-25, F Jul 5

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    The Universe

    Points us in the directions we can go.. we decide what paths we take.. why does mine keep going back.. without the past experiences I wouldn't be who I am today... and I can embrace the mistakes and the good times too.. but the one thing I cannot do is get myself out of the...
    ticktockgoestheclock ticktockgoestheclock 26-30, F Jul 2, 2013

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    Poem Of Not Letting Go........

    I can't let go of the past, I still can't believe I let you drive away, I can't believe you slipped through my fingers. I should have ran after you, I should have said sorry, but I was too proud, now I'm all alone, you're back in town. You still have that sweetness in your eyes...
    mysteryteen mysteryteen 16-17, F Aug 29, 2011

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    I experienced a school tragedy at the age of 9.

    I watched my family fall apart from my Dad's drinking and my Mother's Bipolar. I feel like I have mental illness like her. I'm a repeating record on my issues so no one wants to hear them from me anymore. I can't afford to go to the doctor so I'm stuck with these thoughts in my...
    ChelsEli ChelsEli 22-25, F 1 Response May 27

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    I Feel Like It Follows And Will Never Go Away :(

    Well all i can say is i hope these messages to her change this but i have to say i have a hard time letting go of someone i was with for 15 months engaged the whole nine yards everything looked great till it crumbled. my life came to a rather abrupt halt when she not only broke...
    C11H26NO2PS C11H26NO2PS 18-21, M Mar 6, 2010

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    Still Causing Pain

    I'm trying very hard not to let the abuse I suffer at the hands of my ex-boyfriend define who I am NOW, but it would also be wrong of me to say it does not. I don't know where I was or even what I did to invite him to start stocking me... I'm trying to grow and change so why can...
    CMA1234 CMA1234 46-50, F Jan 10, 2013

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    It Might Sound Stupid To You....

    I'm 13 years old. I don't think I was ever "in love", I'm not that neive. But, I have had someone in my life that I truely cared about with everything in me. Thats a fact. I went out with this boy(lets call him Jim) in 6th grade. It wasn't this stupid "I like you." "I like...
    Whocares1214 Whocares1214 13-15, F May 3, 2010

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    I Feel Like I'm Dying Inside I Feel Like I'm Dying Inside

    I don't want to get in to the marriage that's in the past, But I have children with this man so I am forever bound to him, About a month ago I was concerned about affording back to school clothing so I called their Father to ask for some financial help and that's where I messed...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 14, 2013

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    Looks Like Another Long Night

    So, it's been a while since I've been on here. I took a sabbatical to clear my mind...even started doing better. My new found peace was rather short lived as I had a letter from someone I loved dearly a long time ago waiting for me. I wish I would've had the strength to leave...
    johnsb78 johnsb78 31-35, M May 28, 2013

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    Can't Let Any Memory Go

    I'm 21 .. And I relive memories in my head almost every day , there not bad memories just every memory I can think of , it's hard to explain, it's like I get very down and depressed when I relive them in my head , like I feel only I have them and I am stuck in the past in my head...
    Chris3470 Chris3470 18-21 1 Response Jan 23, 2013

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    My Past Haunts Me

    I find it hard to really close the door on the child abuse I went through - I know I obsess over it...people try to help with bullying and that is not the answer for me. A radio friend told me there is nothing wrong with re-inventing yourself... well I wish I could and maybe I...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 2 Responses Jun 11, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I would like to share my experience. Perhaps doing so will be therapeutic. Perhaps someone will comment with something helpful. If you want to be a troll and say evil things, go...
    JamesB14 JamesB14 46-50, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    How do I get past my nerves of asking that guy out, its bugging me so much. I figured out the line I'm going to use I just can't bring myself to do it
    katstho katstho 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    Okay so, I have been dating this guy for 3 months. I know that doesn't seem very long, but just listen. We met over the summer in July. He was best friends with my sisters...
    Hopelessromantic98 Hopelessromantic98 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 15

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    Today I realized that I have a problem I've been putting aside since forever. But I can't ignore it anymore its ruining my life and making me so freaking depressed. I am so...
    elly668 elly668 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 16

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    I am so upset all the time :( I cry almost everyday all over a dumb boy. I was in love with him and I still am :( I guess I just can't let go. I'm only 14 and he was the only guy I...
    mayks3 mayks3 13-15, F Oct 2

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    Also wishing I had some close friends to talk to... Well here I am, just another morning sitting with my father-in-law...watching him sleep. He is pushing 100 and isn't in his...
    505gizzy 505gizzy 41-45, F 7 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I don't want to be expected to be happy with settling for less because I have baggage and issues. Yet, I know that the people who say that you can have the life you want no matter...
    Friability Friability 18-21 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Me and my boyfriend of 9 years have been living with my boyfriends parents because of the economy and the fact that he has helped his family financially in the past, bringing down...
    Anonymous8712 Anonymous8712 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am desperately in love with someone I can NEVER have. I look up at the sky and think over and over again- why do I even exist in this selfish, cynical world? Tears of frustration...
    Mayuko Mayuko 13-15, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I know I'm not the only person who has paused in the middle of a dirty thought only to think I'm glad people can't read my mind.
    Saphic33 Saphic33 26-30, F 8 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Mehhhhh. Why can't my brain just take a nap already. Been awake for two hours now with a sore back. Ugh. -_-
    ChiMasta ChiMasta 16-17, F 6 hrs ago

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    Why do I keep beating myself up over the past.... Very dirty past though. I wish I could change my decision. I wish I would have done better in school, everyone around does the...
    Toocrazy4u Toocrazy4u 18-21 Oct 11

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    I can't do it anymore. I wanted to be strong. I don't want to guilt him. I didn't guilt him last time. He came back on his own. I only left him two messages, neither pressuring nor...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 3

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    I'm in a relationship and although I can't find any "proof" of cheating. I don't trust her. Honestly, I feel like she's faithful. I'm 90% sure but my past has gotten me so paranoid...
    FriendlyPoet FriendlyPoet 18-21, F Oct 16

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    The past two years of school have gone by so fast I can't believe I am already in my third year here! It feels like just the other day I was a year 7!
    Jred4ever Jred4ever 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 29

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    please help :( . I can't help but cry and regret the actions that I have made in the past. How can I move on?
    neuroticgal neuroticgal 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 30

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    I am struggling to get over the person I was seeing before. He put me down all the time and now I feel I can't get anyone. He has made me feel so worthless and depressed. I have no...
    MelisJade MelisJade 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    I only ever get one word answers.. And the past few weeks I watch you send paragraphs to others... Makes me feel like you don't want to talk to me... Not only that, but nothing...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 11

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    I am nearly 30 years old, I still live a home with my mum and worst of all I just can't keep a job down. I have been through a number of jobs and never made it past 8 months in...
    Sim13 Sim13 26-30, F Oct 16

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    I would just rather stay awake than sleep for five hours. These past few mornings have been nothing but a struggle... Why can't I just live without being tired?
    PuckDrop PuckDrop 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 17

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    I haven't slept well for the past week. My mind starts going and I can't get it to stop. Any ideas to help me calm down?
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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