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I Can't Look At Myself In the Mirror

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    I Don't See Myself..

    It could be anybody else.. I just don't feel any connection between this something, that I see in the mirror, and myself. Every time I look into the mirror I think "aha.. so that's me.". But it's just... I don't know.. I don't see myself. I don't have a picture of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Feb 13, 2008

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    I Just Don't Look Like Me Anymore ...

    I was diagnosed with breast cancer in March 2011. It was a tumour made up of three aggressive types of cancer, so my treatment was very aggressive to try and ensure that the cancer was contained before it spread to other parts of my body. After a partial mastectomy, I started...
    SolitaireDiamond SolitaireDiamond 51-55, F 16 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    What I See When I Look In The Mirrow

    "I" look in the mirror" i see an over waight freak....i see that i am fat ungle i am not blaming no one it's all down to me but through my anorexia three top teeth when realy bad thay are bad , but i dont blame him for it though an the lad i was seeing at the time kept calling...
    dlkrol dlkrol 36-40, F Apr 15, 2012

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    Cant Look In The Mirror

    Im very Insicure about my body. I hate looking at my self in mirrors. I go shopping I have to hide my self from the mirror I can't take the pain. I uses to not eat when I was in middle school and from that I never grew I'm only 5'1. And I'm never growing. im always saying im fat...
    singer7777 singer7777 18-21, F Aug 31, 2012

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    Not For Long

    I've never been concerned with my looks so I've never spent a lot of time in front of the mirror. I didn't really care about how I looked. As long as it was at least decent I was happy. I would throw on some pants and a shirt and brush my hair really fast and call it good. I...
    skyhook2612 skyhook2612 18-21, F 2 Responses May 13, 2012

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    Better Days

    i don't always like what I see when I do look. There were days when I liked it more. Guess it's got something to do with self-esteem or getting older. Funny how that mirror seemed to be all right before.
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F Feb 5, 2008

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    this is the real me i have an issue

    where i can not look at my reflection or in mirrors it hurts to look at my self so i thought if took this pic it would help will see but this issue i have will take a long time to go away i need encouragement because i want to lose 100 pounds so i can feel better about me not to...
    michaela123456 michaela123456 16-17, F Feb 5, 2014

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    I Dont Bother Much

    even to go shopping I don't look in the mirror or do make up a lot... even it the public toilets I don't bother to freshen up a great dealI did the other day I seen all the red and black spots on my face and went and bought some cheap foundation to cover it upI got a shock to see...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 16, 2012

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    I Can Not See Myself In the Mirror

    I feel exactly like MsIndievidual wrote
    nivinbarry nivinbarry 41-45 Jun 27, 2008

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    Unrecognizable

    I don't see me, I see an unknown person staring at me. I think a big part of it is because I was so out of it while I was growing up that I don't recognize my face. I never looked in the mirror and I didn't care about anything except my death. It hurts to look at the person in...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid 22-25, M Oct 26, 2012

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    Not As Much As I Used

    I have always hated mirrors. It's not as bad as it used to be, but I still hate them.I know that it's because I hate what they show me. I think that's why my hate for them is lessening. It gets easier and easier to look in the mirror as I become myself more and more.
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise 36-40, T Mar 3, 2013

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    Err

    Well, im a young person so I guess feeling fat forever isn't something extraordinary. I just try so hard. I eat so little, im a vegetarian, i excersize and i'm bulemic but I just can't lose this fat stomach of mine. Every time I see it in the mirror...
    maddeh maddeh 13-15 Jun 25, 2009

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    For So Long

    For so long I hate when I see my self in a mirror or a reflection. I think I look terrible. I do not know why this has been for so long most of my life. I wonder if I do not view my self incorrectly?...I would think I would have compassion for me. Its kind of weird the way this...
    surenderer surenderer 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 5, 2010

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    Unlike most people, for me to look at myself in

    the mirror is a fruitless task; since, I'm effectively blind...
    fallenandcantgetup fallenandcantgetup 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 29, 2013

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    It's So Hard...

     I remember feeling like myself when I looked in the mirror when I was little. But then I stopped looking in the mirror for a long time because I thought I was ugly. And now if I even catch just a small glimpse of myself, I get really depressed. I don't understand why people...
    madx1996 madx1996 13-15 Dec 30, 2011

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    Why

    I'd never like taken picture because I didn't like how I looked my mom said "everyone says that ". But that wasn't it not only didn't I like looking at myself in a picture I got depressed when I would catch a glance at myself in the mirrors . I felt look at this ugly hideous...
    missmandie missmandie 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 25, 2010

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    I Hate Who I Am

    I haven't been comfortable with looking in a mirror for some time now. When I brush my teeth I have to turn the other way. I don't even have to look to comb my hair. I don't feel like a human being anymore. I feel like I am just so hideous that people are making fun of the way I...
    theshywitch theshywitch 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2012

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    Just Brings Tears...

    I try to avoid them. If I am really down I don't even try to make myself look less repulsive. I skip the make up and just brush my hair into a ponytail without even looking up at the mirror. Too much self hatred and disgust to look into a mirror. I don't need to look into one to...
    learningtosmile learningtosmile 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 20, 2011

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    I Can't Look At Myself In The Mirror.

    I don't know what's wrong with me. When I stand in a mirror, I can only look at one part of my body at a time. For example, if I'm doing my hair, I ONLY look at my hair. or eye make-up, I can ONLY look at one eye. I have seen myself whole in over a year. I know I'm not ugly, and...
    morganolivia2014 morganolivia2014 18-21 1 Response Oct 14, 2010

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    I Hate My Fat Body, I Hate Looking At It In Mirrors

    I went to my physical training session today, and the hardest part for me besides how out of shape I was, and pathetic, was that I couldn't stand looking at myself in the mirror. I don't know how people can do it, but when I look in the mirror all I see is ugliness. I hear people...
    CatRenee CatRenee 51-55 Jul 5, 2012

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    Why Cant I Be Proud of Myself?

    im 14, im a girl. i am a freshman, as a matter of fact, just started high school TODAY. everygirl i see at school is beautiful and skinny and happpy, what i would give just to be happy. i dont ever look in the mirror, cuz all i see is ugly, fat and acne, acne scars. i need help...
    Misspuss Misspuss 13-15 Aug 24, 2009

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    Can - But Don't Enjoy It

    Mirrors are not my friend.  I shave blindfolded.  The problem with mirrors for me is every time I look into one I see my father, and I didn't really like my father terribly much. 
    ElLagarto ElLagarto 56-60, M 3 Responses Jan 30, 2008

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    Wy Do I Look?

     I often find myself looking in the mirror or at my reflection, even when I do not want to be.  I feel like my reflection is everywhere--in public and in private.  When I walk down the street in my busy city I try to avoid looking at other people, but inevitably I...
    AlsoKnownAs AlsoKnownAs 22-25 1 Response Feb 22, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    Oh yes! HAHAHA. It's just so funny, I can't easily forget the topic I was laughing at. Silly me.
    CrazyTrishy CrazyTrishy 13-15, F 6 hrs ago

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    so i go for my surgery on Thursday i have to be up before 6 45 am because that's when i go to the hospital. I am getting tubal ligation, done but instead of just getting them cut...
    Alexia85 Alexia85 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I'm a single mom (divorced amicably, then he died) and I can't do this anymore. I can't. I'm barely hanging on to my job. My son is extremely depressed, and I can't help him. I can...
    mombot2000 mombot2000 41-45, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    When I read a book or see a film that inspires me my first thought is to seek out the people in it meet them, have them like me, even need me and love me. Since I can't replace...
    colorbuff colorbuff 51-55, F 5 days ago

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    And I hate myself for not being able to let go. Here's the story; I was friends with my ex friend for 4 years and that's all we were. I never wanted to be anything more because...
    awesomefallenangel awesomefallenangel 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    accepting yourself is the most hard thing to do.... how can i overcome this problem. :/
    yan2 yan2 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I've never been able to keep a job for over 2-3 years. I always seem to get ... I don't know what it is ... exacerbated. So I quit. I get fed up. I dislike authority figures...
    dmcac dmcac 46-50, F Feb 3

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    Why you? Where is the man I once knew? The one who I thought would never hurt me, especially not gonna make me cry? Where is the man that I fought for? Who's so gentle and loving...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    if mind reading were possible, the world would be in chaos... everyone has a fleeting though or two.. they have thoughts that cannot be helped, its not their fault.. what they do...
    Darasi Darasi 22-25, M 3 Responses Feb 3

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    I can't even talk to her. Literally every time my mom tries to make conversation with me, I'm instantly annoyed. It can be as simple as, "How was your day?" and I'll snap back at...
    MegsLynn MegsLynn 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I fell asleep for a couple hours after supper tonight, and now that I'm up again I don't feel even a little bit sleepy. I don't know what to do. I don't want to lie down and do...
    GreatWhiteBird GreatWhiteBird 26-30, M Feb 2

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    Okay moved out to Cali a year ago, 29 year old male. Will be back in Chicago in a few months though. Weird thing is since I've been out here I can't keep a woman's interest to save...
    matthewh1786 matthewh1786 26-30 1 Response Feb 1

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    my ex I can't stop thinking about him, I don't want to be in a relationship with him but omg I want him to put his hands all over me so bad
    smashmouth4eva smashmouth4eva 31-35, F Feb 1

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    I hate this. I was doing good for a while, then ONE night I stay up will 3 again and I screw myself. Wide awake once again, it might not be as late as it could be but still...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F Feb 1

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    I am pretty sure I lost my best friend in the whole world and I just can't get over it. It has been 31 days. Our families are close, we said we were family. I don't know what to...
    Cherylestayed Cherylestayed 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I feel like I'm surrounded by retards I tell them not to touch my stuff but they just don't listen. Now I can't find my gym clothes so that means I have to buy a new pair. I have...
    TinselCookie607 TinselCookie607 18-21, M Jan 31

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    We broke up but my mind still cannot let her go. I used to reject her love and now I regret about it. And she rejects mine now. All is fair enough, I was playing with fire and now...
    Tourion Tourion 22-25, M Jan 31

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    RELENTLESSLY HAUNTED by every instance of poor judgement or just common errors. Can't turn my mind off, I just relive every single moment! Even ones looong forgotten by people who...
    HollowBravado HollowBravado 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I'm feeling like a pmsing girl right now, where the fock are my guts and coldness?!?!?! Why do I keep playing it over and over in my head and relive all the negative feelings and...
    ChrisErizo1 ChrisErizo1 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 31

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    Most days I’m ok. I mean sure, just like always you do cross my mind, but today I really miss you. I came so close to sending you a message telling you so, but I know it’ll...