I Can't Pretend to Be Ok Anymore

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    I'M Not Okay!

    I CAN'T HIDE IT ANYMORE. I HATE MY LIFE. I'M NOT OKAY. I HAVE TO STOP LIVING THIS LIE. ON THE OUTSIDE, I LOOK LIKE A REGULAR GIRL, BUT ON THE INSIDE I HAVE THOUGHTS OF DOING DRUGS AND CUTTING MYSELF. I CRY ABOUT NOTHING. I ******* HATE MY LIFE. I ALSO HATE THE WORLD. ALL THE MEAN...
    lolachicken444 lolachicken444
    36-40
    5 Responses Aug 12, 2009

    I'm Sorry

    ... for always trying to act and feel like i'm truly okay. i've been trying to pretend for the longest time.  i know you guys don't want to be around with very pessimistic people.  but there's no use denying it.  i'm deeply wounded.  i feel so down and...
    SweetAppleBlossom SweetAppleBlossom
    26-30, F
    12 Responses Aug 1, 2009

    Im Tired of Telling People Im Ok

    my name is Tabitha and I'm 21. i got married on April 19 2008. and my husband had to move to Texas but my husband didn't want me to come yet because he is leaving to go to Iraq on June 10 for 15 months and wanted me near my family. but i really miss him and wont be able to see...
    johnswife2008 johnswife2008
    18-21
    1 Response Jun 1, 2008

    I've Stopped Pretending

    I've stopped pretending I'm okay a couple months ago. I gathered my courage and went to a psychologist. I went to a few counciling sessions and then I was put on anti-depressants. They have diagnosed me with depression & social anxiety. These were things I of course already...
    Bellz182 Bellz182
    22-25, F
    Nov 5, 2009

    Well

    How am I doing??? Am I faking it well today? Yeah been in a rut for a few months now and not sure how to fix it. It happens I guess and not sure what to do about it but thinking I'll start with tonight and a very long sleep!  
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Jun 29, 2009

    Everything Is Wrong.

      Today Was suppose to be So Good. I was suppose to be So Together. Tonight I Find myself looking For answers. Maybe there are no answers. That's Why I can't pretend to be OK. When Everyone you know is Drifting so Far. When Your Family is So Far gone there is No Hope. When...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 1, 2008

    Just So Tired

    I have left  my marriage of 20 years to be with my lover ,Allenw/Bruce.  I was just so tired of making everyone think I was ok with the level of intimacy.  Everyone was shocked, they thought we had the perfect marriage.  Things looked much different from the...
    lonesurvivor lonesurvivor
    56-60, F
    8 Responses Jul 3, 2009

    Empty

    i just feel no one understands! im surrounded by such good people, but they dont actually knw me, i just tell them wat they need to know.. i recently started cutting myself again, i forgot wat a release it is...
    bubbles24 bubbles24
    22-25
    1 Response Jul 16, 2009

    I Can't

    i cant act like im ok anymore. not tonight. i just can't do it. i tried, but i can't.. im going to get off line, and cry some more. i am just not ok, not ok, not ok at all....
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 7, 2009

    M O N E Y So Sexy

    Hi my name is Keeley and I feel emotionally depressed at times. I AM NOT OK. Not that I ever get asked if I am. I feel people don't care, as if I'm lacking attention. But maybe i'm just a silly cow who wants loads of attention. Either way i'm not right in the head...
    Keelie Keelie
    66-70, F
    4 Responses Aug 13, 2009

    I Don't Know How To Stop

    I've always hated pretending to be okay. As much as I need to do it, I hate it. I'm tired of all the fake smiles and little white lies. Telling everyone I'm fine when I'm not. It's so hard to even pretend that I'm alright when it seems like everything is falling apart. As much...
    xxitwaswritteninblood xxitwaswritteninblood
    13-15, F
    Sep 21, 2010

    Not Any More

    I spent so many years of my life pretending everything was just peachy when I really wanted to run and scream and cry that I became the master (well, I guess mistress) of hiding all my emotions behind a fake *** smile. That worked really well until I hit that crucial boiling...
    sezziy sezziy
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 11, 2009

    How Can I Pretend

    How can I pretend to be ok when I am scared? I honestly want death to take me.  I also have had some painful things happen to me in the past that I can't ignore anymore so how can I pretend...
    writingislife writingislife
    18-21, F
    Apr 23, 2010

    I Don't Know What To Do With All Of These Emotions!

    Lately I have been getting really emotional like breaking down and crying and getting mad I feel out of nowhere. Normally if something bugs me I would just shake it off, but ever since last week I have been super emotional about things. I wonder why all of the sudden?
    LoveandHate99 LoveandHate99
    22-25, F
    Feb 21, 2010

    I Really Can't...

    For the past month, I have been acting like I am fine, acting like I am happy, like I am on the top of the world, but I just can't do it anymore. I can't act like I am oaky anymore, i just don't have the strength....
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 5, 2009

    Not Okay

    I'm so tried of trying to convince everyone including myself that everything is ok. It's not. It hasn't been. My smile is not real. My wounds still haven't healed. It's just an act. So if you wonder why I act like that, please understand, It's all I know. It's who I am. I can't...
    cherrygrrl cherrygrrl
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jul 19, 2009

    I Can't Explain It..

    ...I'm just not okay anymore. I'm fat. Not even gonna lie. I'm ugly. I'm gross. And no one likes me. My best friend is beautiful, has an amazing boyfriend, and people look at her. People don't look at me. I blend in. I want attention for the right reasons. I want guys to...
    katmarstid katmarstid
    13-15
    Mar 20, 2011

    Sometimes...

    Sometimes I feel like I want to kill myself. I think my parents have guessed. The other night they told me about all of the monetary strain that would put them under. They told me how some people **** up so bad it makes them want to kill themselves. They told me if my...
    strangereasons strangereasons
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2010

    I Just Can't....

    i have the strength to pretned that everything is okay anymore. I just don't have it in me to fight anymorew. I dont have it in me to lie and say eveerything is fine, when its all just coming down, and crashing down hard...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 13, 2010
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