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I Cant Remember My Past

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    My Lost Past

    I am a victim of child abuse. I did not tell anyone the details until three years ago. I am still trying to deal with it all. I have memory loss due to the child abuse. I blocked it out. I have flashbacks that are brought on by certain sights and smells. I just wrote and...
    NancyBaker NancyBaker 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2012

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    hello.im roshana's bro.

    roshana was sick and now she cant remember past.her doctor said maybe she'll remember after a week or month or year.so if u know sth about her or if u have good memory with her plz text her and say.if its bad memory such as kidnapping or else dont say to her.and plz dont say...
    0oroshanao0 0oroshanao0 22-25, F May 5, 2014

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    About Two Years

    I lost about two years of my life to an old friend called "lithium". I had a doctor who put me on 1200 mg of it and added a few more drugs as well. It was like a zombie state that took away almost two years. I missed out on my daughters baseball and dance and school...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    Where Did It Go?

    I know several of you   are young, but how would you like to be almost seventy and not be able to    bring up or remember most of your past? I,m not just talking my childhood either. I mean as a teen, a young married mother, a working nurse and past...
    joykay13 joykay13 66-70, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    suppression: the avalanche

    my parents' divorce was pretty traumatic for me. one day my brother and i spent the night at friends' houses, and then we never went back home. we went to live with my dad in a tiny house with only the things we had packed for our slumber parties. we didn't have any contact...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter 26-30, F 10 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    kinda scares me... what actually happened?

    why do i feel my resentment to my parents? i do remember that as a kid i would like to read and i remember reading a book that was supposed to be sad about inner struggle and stuff and thinking i should write a book about my life. THAT would make people cry. i remember thinking...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 16, 2014

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    Do You Remember The Time.....?

    This is a question that I am asked often; by people close to me - brother, sister, friends, parents. My answer is always a resounding "No." I was there, and it did happen, but it all seems to have been erased from my memory. In one of the last instances, my father remembered a...
    mzurisana mzurisana 36-40 Jan 3, 2013

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    I Wish I Had a Time Machine

     It all started over a year ago in the summertime I think, maybe spring. How it started I can't be sure, I don't even remember the first time I tried or why I tried it, but I know for certain why I got hooked. Aderrall, (ADD medication) gave me the most euphoric feeling I've...
    manofconstantsorrow manofconstantsorrow 18-21 1 Response Dec 4, 2008

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    Past, What Past!

    I just turned 20 and as you probably realised by now i can't remember my past. Its not that i can't remember any of my past its just that i can't recall any details. Whether its because there's something wrong with my brain or my life was so boring that on a sub concious level i...
    Mhikael Mhikael 18-21, M Aug 1, 2012

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    memories are foggy after the accident one

    of things i remembered after getting a little better was i use to come here and talk but i dont remember the people still
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 31, 2015

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    I Dont Remember..

    Im currently 17 years old and i live with the people who adopted me 2 years ago. i dont remember my past. i remember snippetts of it. i have flashbacks but the only way i can trigger it is EMDR. which i hate. i mean it will trigger on its own i just can't make it. growing...
    tiredofptsd tiredofptsd 16-17, F Apr 12, 2010

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    I have no recollection of barely anything

    whatsoever from age 11 back :/
    Carlilescobain Carlilescobain 22-25, M Dec 13, 2013

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    Was It Real Or Just a Dream?

    I can remember some of it. Other parts are just missing or misplaced inside of my mind, maybe behind locked doors. I told my mom about how i see forests, and she says I see them that way because when we were in north carolina we went to the forest and it was dark. I see them as...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 11, 2008

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    Nothing

    Aprrently I did a lot of bad things. Nothing iligal. But I have only one flashback. It's the taramatic event. It explains a lot but... I need to remember more. I want to know more of what I did. It's really akward when people come up to me and say they know me and they talk about...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 26-30, F Apr 19, 2012

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    Rememberance

    I need some tips about something I have some sort of self-imposed amnesia, or repressed memories whatever you want to call it. I have been seeking professional help for this as a good 3/4 of my memory has been demolished. I know it was self imposed because I remember the night I...
    Ziox Ziox 18-21, M Mar 21, 2012

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    I don't know why. Actually that's probably a

    lie, I'm pretty sure it was my classmates' fault. The only think I can think of to explain the two year gap I have between the ages of ten and twelve are the playground taunts. I have a handful of memories, most of which are me realising that I've forgotten something again, and...
    Ghaughty Ghaughty 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    Rewind... Now What Happened?

    I'm currently 21 and I have very little recollection of my childhood. If I focus on old pictures or watch home videos I can sometimes recall things occurring but not always. I realized this a while ago but it never really bothered me until my sister was telling me about things...
    LoomingHeavens LoomingHeavens 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 24, 2011

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    Losing Parts Of Who I Am

    The last several years, I have been suffering from memory loss. I am sure it has something to do with my epilepsy and the medications I am on. And, I am sure it is one of the causes of my depression. Sure, I don't remember what I ate for breakfast last Tuesday, or just how I...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2012

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    Cannot Remember Growing Up

    I AM 24 AND GETTING VERY WORRIED! I DO NOT REMEMBER ANY OF MY PAST (NOT EVEN LAST WEEK) BUT ITS GUTTING THAT I DO NOT REMEMBER GROWING UP. THERE ARE ONLY A FEW INCIDENTS THAT I RECALL AND THEY HAPPEN TO BE BAD EXPERIENCES THAT OCCURED IN MY LIFE. DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE THIS...
    KERRYED22 KERRYED22 22-25 1 Response Dec 7, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I can't like anybody really or forgive people because of stuff happened in my past. I don't believe anyone could ever like me and I don't ever feel good enough. I feel unloveable...
    Kayla0504 Kayla0504 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I remember I was walking in the rain, I felt so happy but in a weird way. It was like my feet was light and magic. Yeah, really can't explain it in words !
    JuPond JuPond 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    My name was Veil, I was one out of twenty children selected to live in a subspace called "The Portal Gardens" and save everything. Or try to. This is important! The war is still...
    Brightfire101 Brightfire101 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    just woundering how i could brighten up the night,, seems impossible with the darkness..~~~ becuase its night i guess,,but that is the time someone that ment so much to me used to...
    MyraTomPhil MyraTomPhil 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm a product of my own imagination. What I imagine I am, I become. I tell myself I am good, but that's because I'm deciding to be what I call good. All my worries and fears are...
    AlphaGoat AlphaGoat 31-35, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I cant forget the past it made me who I am today
    hurtwontheal hurtwontheal 41-45, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Yep. I feel old when I think about it. I remember when colour graphics and sound were a huge deal nevermind the internet. Anyone remember what a dial up modem sounds like? God...
    PicturesOfABetterTomorrow PicturesOfABetterTomorrow 31-35, M 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I cant find humanity in this world .Where is humanity where did it disappear ?Those people that are dying because of the war what is their fault .Humanity is hidden and someone has...
    Senaya Senaya 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    http://www.glutenfreecat.com/2012/04/creamy-cantaloupe-smoothie/
    Serenitree1 Serenitree1 70+, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    people are complex creatures that need to be studied more. I know that people call it wrong but I cant help myself sometimes. just to see there face is all I need to make my day...
    danielfrost1995 danielfrost1995 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I was born in 1998, I still remember life before the Internet. I had a normal childhood. When I was a kid I would play in the woods with my friends, build forts, and sneak to the...
    KarahXnichole KarahXnichole 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    do you ever feel like you cant do anything right? That what I feel like everyday of my life. I go to college and I feel like I'm letting my family down because I suck at college...
    IcedOverHeart IcedOverHeart 18-21, F Feb 1

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    I cant change my past but iam now going. To do my best to make a great future for myself iam going to grow up and stop messing. My life up and become a better person help...
    Joanne181 Joanne181 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    i cant undo the 17 years that just ended but i sure can move forward and rebuild my life and make sure i never get stuck in something like that ever again
    ElvenLady ElvenLady 36-40, F 5 Responses Feb 1

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    I cant fix you. I cant fix me. I cant turn back time and change what broke us. I also cant let my guard down to give my emotion to you. Im fragile too. I never meant to be...
    oddnelly oddnelly 31-35, F Feb 1

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    I have my dreams...everybody dreams...but what is life if you dont dream? nothing. but what my dream is...I want to be remembered. I want to be remembered. no. I want to be a...
    Nightshade721 Nightshade721 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    I think the past is part of who we are. It's a resource of experiences , good and bad, that we can recall at certain times. I don't really want to let go of the past, people with...
    Nikkisela Nikkisela 61-65, F 3 Responses Jan 31

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    I am a light sleeper. And i cant stand people who snores (like those with sleep apnea; hence they should seek treatments and wear that cpap machine as prescribed). No wonder one...
    bellabong bellabong 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I don't want to dwell on it or play the victim here, cause I know you kinds of people would love an excuse to come at me, I feel now my primary purpose for breathing is to take...
    Cocrispy Cocrispy 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    She realized she isn't actually bisexual. I never saw it coming. We're all moved in together. She was having intimacy issues that she thought were because of past abuse. Turns out...
    OrganicMachina OrganicMachina 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    Recalling yet another death. It just struck me and was highly unsettling. I was stabbed in the chest. The knife or blade or whatever it was pierced my heart directly. The first...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    Truthfully, I listened to one song today and I had a day dream or vision that was so realistic. I faintly recall looking into a mirror at first I see is around 80 years old whit...
    Guy778 Guy778 70+, M Jan 29

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    This punishment was by my grandmother. When I was kid, I used to spend the weekend at my grandma's house. I had a bedwetting problem (and still occasionally do). One weekend...
    Elexxa Elexxa 22-25, T 1 Response