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I Cant Remember My Past

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    I Wish I Had a Time Machine

     It all started over a year ago in the summertime I think, maybe spring. How it started I can't be sure, I don't even remember the first time I tried or why I tried it, but I know for certain why I got hooked. Aderrall, (ADD medication) gave me the most euphoric feeling I've...
    manofconstantsorrow manofconstantsorrow 18-21 1 Response Dec 4, 2008

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    About Two Years

    I lost about two years of my life to an old friend called "lithium". I had a doctor who put me on 1200 mg of it and added a few more drugs as well. It was like a zombie state that took away almost two years. I missed out on my daughters baseball and dance and school...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    Do You Remember The Time.....?

    This is a question that I am asked often; by people close to me - brother, sister, friends, parents. My answer is always a resounding "No." I was there, and it did happen, but it all seems to have been erased from my memory. In one of the last instances, my father remembered a...
    mzurisana mzurisana 36-40 Jan 3, 2013

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    Cannot Remember Growing Up

    I AM 24 AND GETTING VERY WORRIED! I DO NOT REMEMBER ANY OF MY PAST (NOT EVEN LAST WEEK) BUT ITS GUTTING THAT I DO NOT REMEMBER GROWING UP. THERE ARE ONLY A FEW INCIDENTS THAT I RECALL AND THEY HAPPEN TO BE BAD EXPERIENCES THAT OCCURED IN MY LIFE. DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE THIS...
    KERRYED22 KERRYED22 22-25 1 Response Dec 7, 2011

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    Past, What Past!

    I just turned 20 and as you probably realised by now i can't remember my past. Its not that i can't remember any of my past its just that i can't recall any details. Whether its because there's something wrong with my brain or my life was so boring that on a sub concious level i...
    Mhikael Mhikael 18-21, M Aug 1, 2012

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    kinda scares me... what actually happened?

    why do i feel my resentment to my parents? i do remember that as a kid i would like to read and i remember reading a book that was supposed to be sad about inner struggle and stuff and thinking i should write a book about my life. THAT would make people cry. i remember thinking...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 16, 2014

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    My Lost Past

    I am a victim of child abuse. I did not tell anyone the details until three years ago. I am still trying to deal with it all. I have memory loss due to the child abuse. I blocked it out. I have flashbacks that are brought on by certain sights and smells. I just wrote and...
    NancyBaker NancyBaker 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2012

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    Rewind... Now What Happened?

    I'm currently 21 and I have very little recollection of my childhood. If I focus on old pictures or watch home videos I can sometimes recall things occurring but not always. I realized this a while ago but it never really bothered me until my sister was telling me about things...
    LoomingHeavens LoomingHeavens 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 24, 2011

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    Was It Real Or Just a Dream?

    I can remember some of it. Other parts are just missing or misplaced inside of my mind, maybe behind locked doors. I told my mom about how i see forests, and she says I see them that way because when we were in north carolina we went to the forest and it was dark. I see them as...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 11, 2008

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    Rememberance

    I need some tips about something I have some sort of self-imposed amnesia, or repressed memories whatever you want to call it. I have been seeking professional help for this as a good 3/4 of my memory has been demolished. I know it was self imposed because I remember the night I...
    Ziox Ziox 18-21, M Mar 21, 2012

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    suppression: the avalanche

    my parents' divorce was pretty traumatic for me. one day my brother and i spent the night at friends' houses, and then we never went back home. we went to live with my dad in a tiny house with only the things we had packed for our slumber parties. we didn't have any contact...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter 26-30, F 10 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    Nothing

    Aprrently I did a lot of bad things. Nothing iligal. But I have only one flashback. It's the taramatic event. It explains a lot but... I need to remember more. I want to know more of what I did. It's really akward when people come up to me and say they know me and they talk about...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 26-30, F Apr 19, 2012

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    I have no recollection of barely anything

    whatsoever from age 11 back :/
    Carlilescobain Carlilescobain 18-21, M Dec 13, 2013

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    Where Did It Go?

    I know several of you   are young, but how would you like to be almost seventy and not be able to    bring up or remember most of your past? I,m not just talking my childhood either. I mean as a teen, a young married mother, a working nurse and past...
    joykay13 joykay13 66-70, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    Losing Parts Of Who I Am

    The last several years, I have been suffering from memory loss. I am sure it has something to do with my epilepsy and the medications I am on. And, I am sure it is one of the causes of my depression. Sure, I don't remember what I ate for breakfast last Tuesday, or just how I...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2012

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    I Dont Remember..

    Im currently 17 years old and i live with the people who adopted me 2 years ago. i dont remember my past. i remember snippetts of it. i have flashbacks but the only way i can trigger it is EMDR. which i hate. i mean it will trigger on its own i just can't make it. growing...
    tiredofptsd tiredofptsd 16-17, F Apr 12, 2010

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    I don't know why. Actually that's probably a

    lie, I'm pretty sure it was my classmates' fault. The only think I can think of to explain the two year gap I have between the ages of ten and twelve are the playground taunts. I have a handful of memories, most of which are me realising that I've forgotten something again, and...
    Ghaughty Ghaughty 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    hello.im roshana's bro.

    roshana was sick and now she cant remember past.her doctor said maybe she'll remember after a week or month or year.so if u know sth about her or if u have good memory with her plz text her and say.if its bad memory such as kidnapping or else dont say to her.and plz dont say...
    0oroshanao0 0oroshanao0 22-25, F May 5, 2014

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    so, just a few words here. you know how love can change people. not love, rather heartbreak. self harm was a part of my past, but thankfully not my future.
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    I am a pastor's kid, and more accurately, I'm a person whose father and older brother happen to be pastors. Truly knowing this somewhat helps take the blame off of myself for not...
    Borg2063 Borg2063 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    when I'm sad I choke on my words and when I cant talk I get mad and start making grunts and groans until I can talk.
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    I had a cruel past. Everytime I take a nap, series of fear will awaken me. 2 years ago, I was bullied. It started when I was 6 until I turned 17. I was bullied for 11 years. They...
    lavendermist07 lavendermist07 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    i swear my stepmom is out to get me i just dont know what to do anymore. yes i have made mistakes but i have tried to right my wrongs but once you do something that doesnt please...
    ayeitsjordyn ayeitsjordyn 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    why does somebody have to be born looking pretty good(im not saying im the hottest thing out there) and not have any social skills... The last girl i was with thought i was as...
    sip3065 sip3065 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I wanna do a bet where if i loose i have to wear a dress/womens clothes although i cant think of a "if i win i get this" so can someone help me word this bet? I am a 15 year old...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 days ago

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    last sunday my OH told me hed decided to spend a few nights back at his folks, as he wasnt sleeping properly, i was completely fine with this as he does need his sleep and for some...
    Ffirebrand Ffirebrand 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    Aaaaah I cant sleep, ! Help! Anyone awake? :/
    amtired amtired 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    ok I try and keep this short it all started back in my hometown of Wilmington with this girl Alexis I met her in 1st grade and sparked a huge crush on her and my shyness and...
    davidnasa1111 davidnasa1111 46-50, M a week ago

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    Hi I would like to vent a little bit about a few things.I cant always express things on my mind.I try to explain a lot of to my spouse and few friends.But there is certain things...
    Fruitypunch15 Fruitypunch15 31-35 a week ago

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    i have so many questions but cant get the answers since you comitted suicide. i just want to be normal not damaged anymore.
    rainydays85 rainydays85 26-30, F Jun 28

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    Everytime he doesnt answer i get worried i imagine the worst i think hes moved on to someone better. I cant handle going one day alone anymore and it hurts so bad. I dont know what...
    Mysticalix Mysticalix 18-21, F Jun 27

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    Not exactly like that. I don't exactly remember my dreams. But I have hallucinations, at least I think they are, of shadowy figures or feel bugs crawling on me or people calling my...
    smashbros smashbros 13-15, M Jun 27

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    I don't really have memories or the sure knowledge that I have had a past life but I get feelings. I remember the feeling of dying. I was old and it seemed like I was dying of a...
    Shade3711 Shade3711 18-21, M Jun 27

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    going to a pool party today 💦👙😍😊 but i cant swim 😭😂😂😒
    StraightKillaaaa StraightKillaaaa 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 26

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    some times the past can get over wellming, I find my self wanting to end it all with the same desire as if I was extremely sleep deprived and needed to give in for that we'll...
    jangofet1991 jangofet1991 22-25, M Jun 26

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    i hate no being in control. you took that when you raped me. i cant get that control back i lash out because im not in control anymore. A knife along my wrist the minute the blood...
    rainydays85 rainydays85 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I very seldom remember my dreams. As a child I remembered all my dreams and was very excited when I woke up to learn the meanings of them. Then something traumatic happened to me...
    cosmicburst cosmicburst 22-25, F Jun 25

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    When my partner is here that`s all i want to do is sleep but when shes not here with me i cant sleep at all anyone else have this problem ?????
    chris7369 chris7369 41-45, M Jun 25

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    Cant Wait To Have Kids and a family........................
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 25

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    My past is full of nothing but depression and horrible thoughts. I used to think that nothing in my life would go right and my whole life I would just always be depressed and that...
    TiredOfBeingHurt TiredOfBeingHurt 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 24

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