I Cant Remember My Past

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 83 People

    About Two Years

    I lost about two years of my life to an old friend called "lithium". I had a doctor who put me on 1200 mg of it and added a few more drugs as well. It was like a zombie state that took away almost two years. I missed out on my daughters baseball and dance and school...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Dec 27, 2007

    I Wish I Had a Time Machine

     It all started over a year ago in the summertime I think, maybe spring. How it started I can't be sure, I don't even remember the first time I tried or why I tried it, but I know for certain why I got hooked. Aderrall, (ADD medication) gave me the most euphoric feeling I've...
    manofconstantsorrow manofconstantsorrow
    Dec 4, 2008

    Was It Real Or Just a Dream?

    I can remember some of it. Other parts are just missing or misplaced inside of my mind, maybe behind locked doors. I told my mom about how i see forests, and she says I see them that way because when we were in north carolina we went to the forest and it was dark. I see them as...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks
    26-30, F
    Jul 11, 2008

    Where Did It Go?

    I know several of you   are young, but how would you like to be almost seventy and not be able to    bring up or remember most of your past? I,m not just talking my childhood either. I mean as a teen, a young married mother, a working nurse and past...
    joykay13 joykay13
    66-70, F
    2 Responses Nov 9, 2010

    Rewind... Now What Happened?

    I'm currently 21 and I have very little recollection of my childhood. If I focus on old pictures or watch home videos I can sometimes recall things occurring but not always. I realized this a while ago but it never really bothered me until my sister was telling me about things...
    LoomingHeavens LoomingHeavens
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jan 24, 2011

    kinda scares me... what actually happened?

    why do i feel my resentment to my parents? i do remember that as a kid i would like to read and i remember reading a book that was supposed to be sad about inner struggle and stuff and thinking i should write a book about my life. THAT would make people cry. i remember thinking...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 16, 2014


    I need some tips about something I have some sort of self-imposed amnesia, or repressed memories whatever you want to call it. I have been seeking professional help for this as a good 3/4 of my memory has been demolished. I know it was self imposed because I remember the night I...
    Ziox Ziox
    18-21, M
    Mar 21, 2012

    Cannot Remember Growing Up

    1 Response Dec 7, 2011


    Aprrently I did a lot of bad things. Nothing iligal. But I have only one flashback. It's the taramatic event. It explains a lot but... I need to remember more. I want to know more of what I did. It's really akward when people come up to me and say they know me and they talk about...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy
    26-30, F
    Apr 19, 2012

    I Dont Remember..

    Im currently 17 years old and i live with the people who adopted me 2 years ago. i dont remember my past. i remember snippetts of it. i have flashbacks but the only way i can trigger it is EMDR. which i hate. i mean it will trigger on its own i just can't make it. growing...
    tiredofptsd tiredofptsd
    16-17, F
    Apr 12, 2010

    hello.im roshana's bro.

    roshana was sick and now she cant remember past.her doctor said maybe she'll remember after a week or month or year.so if u know sth about her or if u have good memory with her plz text her and say.if its bad memory such as kidnapping or else dont say to her.and plz dont say...
    0oroshanao0 0oroshanao0
    22-25, F
    May 5, 2014

    Do You Remember The Time.....?

    This is a question that I am asked often; by people close to me - brother, sister, friends, parents. My answer is always a resounding "No." I was there, and it did happen, but it all seems to have been erased from my memory. In one of the last instances, my father remembered a...
    mzurisana mzurisana
    Jan 3, 2013

    memories are foggy after the accident one

    of things i remembered after getting a little better was i use to come here and talk but i dont remember the people still
    deleted deleted
    Dec 31, 2015

    Past, What Past!

    I just turned 20 and as you probably realised by now i can't remember my past. Its not that i can't remember any of my past its just that i can't recall any details. Whether its because there's something wrong with my brain or my life was so boring that on a sub concious level i...
    Mhikael Mhikael
    18-21, M
    Aug 1, 2012

    My Lost Past

    I am a victim of child abuse. I did not tell anyone the details until three years ago. I am still trying to deal with it all. I have memory loss due to the child abuse. I blocked it out. I have flashbacks that are brought on by certain sights and smells. I just wrote and...
    NancyBaker NancyBaker
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 10, 2012

    suppression: the avalanche

    my parents' divorce was pretty traumatic for me. one day my brother and i spent the night at friends' houses, and then we never went back home. we went to live with my dad in a tiny house with only the things we had packed for our slumber parties. we didn't have any contact...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter
    26-30, F
    10 Responses Dec 27, 2007

    I don't know why. Actually that's probably a

    lie, I'm pretty sure it was my classmates' fault. The only think I can think of to explain the two year gap I have between the ages of ten and twelve are the playground taunts. I have a handful of memories, most of which are me realising that I've forgotten something again, and...
    Ghaughty Ghaughty
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 14, 2014

    I have no recollection of barely anything

    whatsoever from age 11 back :/
    Carlilescobain Carlilescobain
    22-25, M
    Dec 13, 2013

    Losing Parts Of Who I Am

    The last several years, I have been suffering from memory loss. I am sure it has something to do with my epilepsy and the medications I am on. And, I am sure it is one of the causes of my depression. Sure, I don't remember what I ate for breakfast last Tuesday, or just how I...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2012

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