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I Cant Remember My Past

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    kinda scares me... what actually happened?

    why do i feel my resentment to my parents? i do remember that as a kid i would like to read and i remember reading a book that was supposed to be sad about inner struggle and stuff and thinking i should write a book about my life. THAT would make people cry. i remember thinking...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    Nothing

    Aprrently I did a lot of bad things. Nothing iligal. But I have only one flashback. It's the taramatic event. It explains a lot but... I need to remember more. I want to know more of what I did. It's really akward when people come up to me and say they know me and they talk about...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 22-25, F Apr 19, 2012

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    I Dont Remember..

    Im currently 17 years old and i live with the people who adopted me 2 years ago. i dont remember my past. i remember snippetts of it. i have flashbacks but the only way i can trigger it is EMDR. which i hate. i mean it will trigger on its own i just can't make it. growing...
    tiredofptsd tiredofptsd 16-17, F Apr 12, 2010

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    Past, What Past!

    I just turned 20 and as you probably realised by now i can't remember my past. Its not that i can't remember any of my past its just that i can't recall any details. Whether its because there's something wrong with my brain or my life was so boring that on a sub concious level i...
    Mhikael Mhikael 18-21, M Aug 1, 2012

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    Where Did It Go?

    I know several of you   are young, but how would you like to be almost seventy and not be able to    bring up or remember most of your past? I,m not just talking my childhood either. I mean as a teen, a young married mother, a working nurse and past...
    joykay13 joykay13 66-70, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    I Wish I Had a Time Machine

     It all started over a year ago in the summertime I think, maybe spring. How it started I can't be sure, I don't even remember the first time I tried or why I tried it, but I know for certain why I got hooked. Aderrall, (ADD medication) gave me the most euphoric feeling I've...
    manofconstantsorrow manofconstantsorrow 18-21 1 Response Dec 4, 2008

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    Do You Remember The Time.....?

    This is a question that I am asked often; by people close to me - brother, sister, friends, parents. My answer is always a resounding "No." I was there, and it did happen, but it all seems to have been erased from my memory. In one of the last instances, my father remembered a...
    mzurisana mzurisana 36-40 Jan 3, 2013

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    I have no recollection of barely anything

    whatsoever from age 11 back :/
    Carlilescobain Carlilescobain 18-21, M Dec 13, 2013

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    Rewind... Now What Happened?

    I'm currently 21 and I have very little recollection of my childhood. If I focus on old pictures or watch home videos I can sometimes recall things occurring but not always. I realized this a while ago but it never really bothered me until my sister was telling me about things...
    LoomingHeavens LoomingHeavens 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 24, 2011

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    Was It Real Or Just a Dream?

    I can remember some of it. Other parts are just missing or misplaced inside of my mind, maybe behind locked doors. I told my mom about how i see forests, and she says I see them that way because when we were in north carolina we went to the forest and it was dark. I see them as...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 11, 2008

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    About Two Years

    I lost about two years of my life to an old friend called "lithium". I had a doctor who put me on 1200 mg of it and added a few more drugs as well. It was like a zombie state that took away almost two years. I missed out on my daughters baseball and dance and school...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    My Lost Past

    I am a victim of child abuse. I did not tell anyone the details until three years ago. I am still trying to deal with it all. I have memory loss due to the child abuse. I blocked it out. I have flashbacks that are brought on by certain sights and smells. I just wrote and...
    NancyBaker NancyBaker 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2012

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    suppression: the avalanche

    my parents' divorce was pretty traumatic for me. one day my brother and i spent the night at friends' houses, and then we never went back home. we went to live with my dad in a tiny house with only the things we had packed for our slumber parties. we didn't have any contact...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter 26-30, F 10 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    Losing Parts Of Who I Am

    The last several years, I have been suffering from memory loss. I am sure it has something to do with my epilepsy and the medications I am on. And, I am sure it is one of the causes of my depression. Sure, I don't remember what I ate for breakfast last Tuesday, or just how I...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2012

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    Cannot Remember Growing Up

    I AM 24 AND GETTING VERY WORRIED! I DO NOT REMEMBER ANY OF MY PAST (NOT EVEN LAST WEEK) BUT ITS GUTTING THAT I DO NOT REMEMBER GROWING UP. THERE ARE ONLY A FEW INCIDENTS THAT I RECALL AND THEY HAPPEN TO BE BAD EXPERIENCES THAT OCCURED IN MY LIFE. DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE THIS...
    KERRYED22 KERRYED22 22-25 1 Response Dec 7, 2011

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    hello.im roshana's bro.

    roshana was sick and now she cant remember past.her doctor said maybe she'll remember after a week or month or year.so if u know sth about her or if u have good memory with her plz text her and say.if its bad memory such as kidnapping or else dont say to her.and plz dont say...
    0oroshanao0 0oroshanao0 18-21, F May 5

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    Rememberance

    I need some tips about something I have some sort of self-imposed amnesia, or repressed memories whatever you want to call it. I have been seeking professional help for this as a good 3/4 of my memory has been demolished. I know it was self imposed because I remember the night I...
    Ziox Ziox 18-21, M Mar 21, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I posted something similar to this before and deleted it for no apparent reason. I killed a woman in my last life. I'm sure of it because I vividly remember assaulting her and...
    ftmFreddy ftmFreddy 18-21, T 4 Responses Jul 27

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    I am haunted by who I am. Everyday is a dream compared to my memories. The pain of the past turns my life into a nightmare. No one sees who I really am. I wish for nothing more...
    Afrondae Afrondae 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    I am the sole survivor of a massacre. My family, my village, and all those to die before they reached me. Did I survive, am I lucky? No. It was no accident.
    Lucienn Lucienn 18-21, T Jul 26

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    Now looking at the child i was and the guy i am. Its hard to believe.. My friends are parting ways. My family ripped apart by economy. The great world has spun too fast.. Its over...
    7ero 7ero 13-15, M Jul 29

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    "Your past is your past. Even if it remembers you, forget it". <3 My past has been super horrible...some of it was my fault, but a lot of it wasn't. Some of the things that...
    njgirll njgirll 16-17, F Jul 27

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    i'm graduating this year... i'm in my 13th year of schooling and i'm finally almost don't with high school. all thats left is to tough out this last year and... walk across that...
    Fallen321 Fallen321 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    Usually on nights like these when the house is silent and all I can hear is the crickets outside, I would reminisce about the past and wonder about the choices I've made and how it...
    kevin78pham kevin78pham 18-21, M Jul 22

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    Note to future self: Matt, leave the past where it is. You may never forget what happened, but some of the other people are trying very hard to forget and you should let them...
    MattsShadow MattsShadow 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 23

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    In the past few years I've struggled with depression, anxiety, PTSD and an ednos, but I've pretty much won the battle. I was hospitalised for four months and I did a lot of healing...
    madmoodog madmoodog 13-15, F Aug 5

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    I have memories of being an uncle who died around a year before I was born. I used to remember a lot more as a child but my mother decided not to influence me into thinking about...
    girlfromtralfamadore girlfromtralfamadore 18-21, F Aug 2

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    First off, I'm an addict in recovery. Coming up on a year ago, I was enrolling in college, and slowly but surely I began dropping my classes. I was miserable. I remember sitting in...
    Yourbaaaby Yourbaaaby 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 7

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    Cant change the past but im hoping to change the future, he is defenitly not right for her and he really need to get out of the picture.
    desirejanice desirejanice 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I was sitting down and thinking about the source of my unhappiness, anger, social timidness, passive aggression, and dismissive attitude towards other people, depression. naturally...
    AliKru AliKru 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    My past experiences were quite terrible and unsatisfied, and they have been haunting me for years. Though I cannot change them, I try to accept the pathway I passed. I need to keep...
    SADstruggler SADstruggler 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    I hated my past, I feel like I didn't have a normal childhood and I was always treated differently. It makes me feel awful when I look back at it and I'm afraid for my future. I'm...
    3lle 3lle 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    Its been hard not been able to clear out my mind on how to utilize it on useful ways so as a result I got nothing . Today I stand with no ambition or goal in life because I never...
    openheart92 openheart92 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    Fact: I can't change the past Option: but I can change the future You have to take your mistakes for what they were in the past and use by not making the same ones in the future...
    germany100 germany100 18-21, F Aug 12

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    Let's Make a Long Story Short :)Age 4; sexually abused. Age 5-13; childhood with divorced parents and bad memories. Age 12; first time I cut myself. Age 13; first spark of love...
    MissAutumn MissAutumn 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    So, it's been 3 months since my boyfriend broke up with me. We were together for almost a year. He is two years younger than me. He broke up with me over text. I remember calling...
    Mitsuko15 Mitsuko15 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dreaming above the blue sky.. Knowing oneday I can fly.. But even im in another world.. I cant forget anything about you.. Shadows haunting me behind my pain.. Leaving my empty...
    denez denez 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    Its waaaaaaay past my bedtime 2:57 and i cant get to sleep i tried to get comfy and lay there but the sleep wont take over and im extremely bored now too :(
    otakugamerwolf otakugamerwolf 13-15, F Aug 3

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    I'm sharing this basically to get my feelings I have for my married coworker out of my head. I read somewhere that writing your feelings down can help one deal with them. I...
    confusedM33 confusedM33 31-35, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Honestly, we all were living without it, the generation over 30 years old. Now i cant live a day without net. I allways check profiles of strangers, im curious about their pics, i...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 29

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    All night it was difficult to sleep I feel empty as though I want to cry and let it all out but nothing comes out. This is the second time I am dealing with a break and although...
    miae13 miae13 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 11

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    I know that when you love someone so deeply, are loved so deeply and you need each other, you change each other in so many ways, you heal each other.... I feel I unable to properly...
    Lucienn Lucienn 18-21, T Aug 12

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    I’ve been trying to figure out how to write this for a month now. Every time I start, I always get off track or start to sound a little depressing. Although I suppose that’s...
    jphegan jphegan 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I find it hard to let go of my mistakes, because I've tried to change before sometimes it worked others it didn't, when ever I failed it just reminded me of my past failures. But I...
    shaunrain shaunrain 16-17, M Jul 22

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    I've been in bed for 4 hours but I'm still wide awake. 😳 I hate this feeling. So now I have to deal with my past memories and get emotional. 😒 sucks getting flashbacks of my...
    Jelliii Jelliii 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    the past already happened. unless time travel is invented, there's no way i can go back. but i have complete control of my future.
    bowsandarrows bowsandarrows 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 11

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    What ever is your past is already behind you, you can't turn back times, best way to do is move on forwards and plan for the future.
    beejek beejek 41-45 1 Response a week ago

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    Dear Professor, I'm posting this letter here, because I know I'll never have the courage to send it to you directly. I doubt you'll ever read it on here, but at least, I'll feel...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 22

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    I don't know if he was necessarily my first crush, but he's the first one that I can remember. Kind of hard to forget, as I was pretty obsessed over him. He was one of my...
    ShimmerSquirrels13 ShimmerSquirrels13 22-25, F Jul 24