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I Cant Remember My Past

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    kinda scares me... what actually happened?

    why do i feel my resentment to my parents? i do remember that as a kid i would like to read and i remember reading a book that was supposed to be sad about inner struggle and stuff and thinking i should write a book about my life. THAT would make people cry. i remember thinking...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 16, 2014

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    Was It Real Or Just a Dream?

    I can remember some of it. Other parts are just missing or misplaced inside of my mind, maybe behind locked doors. I told my mom about how i see forests, and she says I see them that way because when we were in north carolina we went to the forest and it was dark. I see them as...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 11, 2008

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    I don't know why. Actually that's probably a

    lie, I'm pretty sure it was my classmates' fault. The only think I can think of to explain the two year gap I have between the ages of ten and twelve are the playground taunts. I have a handful of memories, most of which are me realising that I've forgotten something again, and...
    Ghaughty Ghaughty 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    About Two Years

    I lost about two years of my life to an old friend called "lithium". I had a doctor who put me on 1200 mg of it and added a few more drugs as well. It was like a zombie state that took away almost two years. I missed out on my daughters baseball and dance and school...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    Do You Remember The Time.....?

    This is a question that I am asked often; by people close to me - brother, sister, friends, parents. My answer is always a resounding "No." I was there, and it did happen, but it all seems to have been erased from my memory. In one of the last instances, my father remembered a...
    mzurisana mzurisana 36-40 Jan 3, 2013

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    I Dont Remember..

    Im currently 17 years old and i live with the people who adopted me 2 years ago. i dont remember my past. i remember snippetts of it. i have flashbacks but the only way i can trigger it is EMDR. which i hate. i mean it will trigger on its own i just can't make it. growing...
    tiredofptsd tiredofptsd 16-17, F Apr 12, 2010

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    I have no recollection of barely anything

    whatsoever from age 11 back :/
    Carlilescobain Carlilescobain 22-25, M Dec 13, 2013

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    Past, What Past!

    I just turned 20 and as you probably realised by now i can't remember my past. Its not that i can't remember any of my past its just that i can't recall any details. Whether its because there's something wrong with my brain or my life was so boring that on a sub concious level i...
    Mhikael Mhikael 18-21, M Aug 1, 2012

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    Where Did It Go?

    I know several of you   are young, but how would you like to be almost seventy and not be able to    bring up or remember most of your past? I,m not just talking my childhood either. I mean as a teen, a young married mother, a working nurse and past...
    joykay13 joykay13 66-70, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    hello.im roshana's bro.

    roshana was sick and now she cant remember past.her doctor said maybe she'll remember after a week or month or year.so if u know sth about her or if u have good memory with her plz text her and say.if its bad memory such as kidnapping or else dont say to her.and plz dont say...
    0oroshanao0 0oroshanao0 22-25, F May 5, 2014

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    My Lost Past

    I am a victim of child abuse. I did not tell anyone the details until three years ago. I am still trying to deal with it all. I have memory loss due to the child abuse. I blocked it out. I have flashbacks that are brought on by certain sights and smells. I just wrote and...
    NancyBaker NancyBaker 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2012

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    suppression: the avalanche

    my parents' divorce was pretty traumatic for me. one day my brother and i spent the night at friends' houses, and then we never went back home. we went to live with my dad in a tiny house with only the things we had packed for our slumber parties. we didn't have any contact...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter 26-30, F 10 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    Losing Parts Of Who I Am

    The last several years, I have been suffering from memory loss. I am sure it has something to do with my epilepsy and the medications I am on. And, I am sure it is one of the causes of my depression. Sure, I don't remember what I ate for breakfast last Tuesday, or just how I...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2012

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    Nothing

    Aprrently I did a lot of bad things. Nothing iligal. But I have only one flashback. It's the taramatic event. It explains a lot but... I need to remember more. I want to know more of what I did. It's really akward when people come up to me and say they know me and they talk about...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 26-30, F Apr 19, 2012

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    Rewind... Now What Happened?

    I'm currently 21 and I have very little recollection of my childhood. If I focus on old pictures or watch home videos I can sometimes recall things occurring but not always. I realized this a while ago but it never really bothered me until my sister was telling me about things...
    LoomingHeavens LoomingHeavens 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 24, 2011

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    Rememberance

    I need some tips about something I have some sort of self-imposed amnesia, or repressed memories whatever you want to call it. I have been seeking professional help for this as a good 3/4 of my memory has been demolished. I know it was self imposed because I remember the night I...
    Ziox Ziox 18-21, M Mar 21, 2012

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    Cannot Remember Growing Up

    I AM 24 AND GETTING VERY WORRIED! I DO NOT REMEMBER ANY OF MY PAST (NOT EVEN LAST WEEK) BUT ITS GUTTING THAT I DO NOT REMEMBER GROWING UP. THERE ARE ONLY A FEW INCIDENTS THAT I RECALL AND THEY HAPPEN TO BE BAD EXPERIENCES THAT OCCURED IN MY LIFE. DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE THIS...
    KERRYED22 KERRYED22 22-25 1 Response Dec 7, 2011

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    I Wish I Had a Time Machine

     It all started over a year ago in the summertime I think, maybe spring. How it started I can't be sure, I don't even remember the first time I tried or why I tried it, but I know for certain why I got hooked. Aderrall, (ADD medication) gave me the most euphoric feeling I've...
    manofconstantsorrow manofconstantsorrow 18-21 1 Response Dec 4, 2008

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    This statement ever rings true. For years I'd carried the weight of the past with all it's regrets, pain, and consequences. Fairly recently I came to the realization that I couldn...
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    I was six years old. I barley remember anything from those years but... that night is so clear. its been 7 years and I just still cant believe it happened. my cousins are my...
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    I remember being very shy to the point where I wouldn't talk to anyone. And because of that shyness I lost the chance to meet some people who attempted to reach out to me but...
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    No matter how I fight it it keeps me down. I can keep a lot of things from worrying me by forcing them out of my mind. I dont avoid things like an out of sight out of mind, thing...
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    I'm tired emotionally-but it's not like that's going away anytime soon. Sleep would help temporarily however. I can't shut off my mind long enough for me to fall asleep, even...
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    it always seems to be circular..what happened before happens again. however i try avoid it, it never changes. im so tired of it...please let it end. but i know it wont....ever...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 2 Responses Jul 25

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    I was 11. I know, I'm a player. I was at summer camp and this guy who was 12, we were in the same cabin. Anyway, it was raining and everyone was in their cabins. It was a week or...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 25

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    I've changed a lot since I was Badlybroken. So much so that I wonder if I ought to change the name? I'll leave the stories because I was that person. A person who thought it was...
    badlybroken24 badlybroken24 36-40, F Jul 24

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    Well it all started at church den der was dis pastor who turned me on every time he sings then I finally told him how I feel and said we'll fix it I asked how he said I must not...
    Boithutha Boithutha 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    We were together for six months, never had sex. We fooled around and I would receive but never give (which I think lead him to cheating). However, he cheated on me and I ended...
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    * I love a good quote * " She has walls because she's been hurt before. It's not unusual that those walls have built higher standards. She's not willing to make the same mistakes...
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