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I Cant Remember My Past

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    My Lost Past

    I am a victim of child abuse. I did not tell anyone the details until three years ago. I am still trying to deal with it all. I have memory loss due to the child abuse. I blocked it out. I have flashbacks that are brought on by certain sights and smells. I just wrote and...
    NancyBaker NancyBaker 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2012

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    Rememberance

    I need some tips about something I have some sort of self-imposed amnesia, or repressed memories whatever you want to call it. I have been seeking professional help for this as a good 3/4 of my memory has been demolished. I know it was self imposed because I remember the night I...
    Ziox Ziox 18-21, M Mar 21, 2012

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    Losing Parts Of Who I Am

    The last several years, I have been suffering from memory loss. I am sure it has something to do with my epilepsy and the medications I am on. And, I am sure it is one of the causes of my depression. Sure, I don't remember what I ate for breakfast last Tuesday, or just how I...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2012

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    hello.im roshana's bro.

    roshana was sick and now she cant remember past.her doctor said maybe she'll remember after a week or month or year.so if u know sth about her or if u have good memory with her plz text her and say.if its bad memory such as kidnapping or else dont say to her.and plz dont say...
    0oroshanao0 0oroshanao0 18-21, F May 5

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    Cannot Remember Growing Up

    I AM 24 AND GETTING VERY WORRIED! I DO NOT REMEMBER ANY OF MY PAST (NOT EVEN LAST WEEK) BUT ITS GUTTING THAT I DO NOT REMEMBER GROWING UP. THERE ARE ONLY A FEW INCIDENTS THAT I RECALL AND THEY HAPPEN TO BE BAD EXPERIENCES THAT OCCURED IN MY LIFE. DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE THIS...
    KERRYED22 KERRYED22 22-25 1 Response Dec 7, 2011

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    Nothing

    Aprrently I did a lot of bad things. Nothing iligal. But I have only one flashback. It's the taramatic event. It explains a lot but... I need to remember more. I want to know more of what I did. It's really akward when people come up to me and say they know me and they talk about...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 22-25, F Apr 19, 2012

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    Where Did It Go?

    I know several of you   are young, but how would you like to be almost seventy and not be able to    bring up or remember most of your past? I,m not just talking my childhood either. I mean as a teen, a young married mother, a working nurse and past...
    joykay13 joykay13 66-70, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    I Dont Remember..

    Im currently 17 years old and i live with the people who adopted me 2 years ago. i dont remember my past. i remember snippetts of it. i have flashbacks but the only way i can trigger it is EMDR. which i hate. i mean it will trigger on its own i just can't make it. growing...
    tiredofptsd tiredofptsd 16-17, F Apr 12, 2010

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    Rewind... Now What Happened?

    I'm currently 21 and I have very little recollection of my childhood. If I focus on old pictures or watch home videos I can sometimes recall things occurring but not always. I realized this a while ago but it never really bothered me until my sister was telling me about things...
    LoomingHeavens LoomingHeavens 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 24, 2011

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    suppression: the avalanche

    my parents' divorce was pretty traumatic for me. one day my brother and i spent the night at friends' houses, and then we never went back home. we went to live with my dad in a tiny house with only the things we had packed for our slumber parties. we didn't have any contact...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter 26-30, F 10 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    kinda scares me... what actually happened?

    why do i feel my resentment to my parents? i do remember that as a kid i would like to read and i remember reading a book that was supposed to be sad about inner struggle and stuff and thinking i should write a book about my life. THAT would make people cry. i remember thinking...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    Do You Remember The Time.....?

    This is a question that I am asked often; by people close to me - brother, sister, friends, parents. My answer is always a resounding "No." I was there, and it did happen, but it all seems to have been erased from my memory. In one of the last instances, my father remembered a...
    mzurisana mzurisana 36-40 Jan 3, 2013

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    I Wish I Had a Time Machine

     It all started over a year ago in the summertime I think, maybe spring. How it started I can't be sure, I don't even remember the first time I tried or why I tried it, but I know for certain why I got hooked. Aderrall, (ADD medication) gave me the most euphoric feeling I've...
    manofconstantsorrow manofconstantsorrow 18-21 1 Response Dec 4, 2008

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    About Two Years

    I lost about two years of my life to an old friend called "lithium". I had a doctor who put me on 1200 mg of it and added a few more drugs as well. It was like a zombie state that took away almost two years. I missed out on my daughters baseball and dance and school...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    Was It Real Or Just a Dream?

    I can remember some of it. Other parts are just missing or misplaced inside of my mind, maybe behind locked doors. I told my mom about how i see forests, and she says I see them that way because when we were in north carolina we went to the forest and it was dark. I see them as...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 11, 2008

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    Past, What Past!

    I just turned 20 and as you probably realised by now i can't remember my past. Its not that i can't remember any of my past its just that i can't recall any details. Whether its because there's something wrong with my brain or my life was so boring that on a sub concious level i...
    Mhikael Mhikael 18-21, M Aug 1, 2012

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    I have no recollection of barely anything

    whatsoever from age 11 back :/
    Carlilescobain Carlilescobain 18-21, M Dec 13, 2013

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    To make a long story short I was talking to a guy in the summer and you know we were jus talking and talking so much for a good two weeks and the next thing you know it We were...
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    I remember I was accused of being a stalker while in (10thGrd) high school. I got confronted by a group of girls saying i was stalking their friend and that they were going to the...
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    Hi, I am a 30 year old gay man living in Sweden and i would like to share this with you an the hopes that i might find clarity in my current situation which is that I cant tell the...
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    I think they have something to do with my depression. I don't remember much about them, my last one on the Earth plane is pretty clear. Convicted and killed in the Salem witch...
    ChanelLove12 ChanelLove12 16-17, F Sep 12

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    Im normally very good with controlling my emotions and am not a vulnerable person but I cant stop thinking about all the bad things I have done in the past, its really troubling me...
    petealoop petealoop 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 12

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    the harder our past was, the harder to ignore it... Our past is what has shaped us, what made you who you are and you cant just get over who you are. You can move forward but...
    lynnewolf99 lynnewolf99 13-15, F Sep 15

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    i wish i could right all the wrongs of my past and i'm not sure if i can really change my future but i can stop the past from repeating itself in the present
    trailsonrails trailsonrails 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 18

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    Only i cant figure how God give me a break through and a good one !!!
    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F Sep 20

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    Yes. I agree with this statement. We have the ability to plan and change the future but not the past.
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 4

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    7 years ago, I met a boy. We were teenagers. At the time, there was alot going on in both our lifes and i suppose it was just that, that drew me close to him. My relationships with...
    HannahJL HannahJL 18-21 Sep 20

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    I've tried Past Life Regression hypnosis several times. I've experienced "past lives" twice. Both times I've been a soldier (the same soldier) of a race of people that are related...
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F Sep 20

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    I no longer wish to have love anymore nor do I wish or want nor crave affection I do not need anyone to know I'm here I KNOW IM HERE as long as I remember myself and as long as I...
    karlakashes karlakashes 26-30, F Sep 2

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    My closest friend but things just didn't work out. I love you. I'm not sure if it's a caring, friend love, or a true love let's make a baby love. But I want to talk to you again. I...
    maurylight maurylight 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Since I can remember, I have never seen a life for myself past 21. It didn't seem plausible. I was convinced I wouldn't make it. I am 20 and in a few months I will be 21… I...
    AnimalsAreLife AnimalsAreLife 18-21, F Sep 7

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    I remember my first kiss. I was 14 and at my first school dance with my first girlfriend. I did not even know there was a French kiss. Yes I was naive, We were slow dancing when...
    mudguppy mudguppy 46-50, M 2 Responses Sep 10

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    this is a homage of respect and a rememberance to all the truly good people out there that sacrificed their lives and died for all that is honorable in this world. this is posted...
    stacylynn7 stacylynn7 18-21, T Sep 11

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    In the dream, I was the wife of a scientist in the 1800s. He and his laboratory partner fought over something, so my husband and I moved to a house by a lake, where we were happy...
    Seblett Seblett 13-15, F Sep 12

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    Today is his birthday, and it will be the 1st time in 4 yrs that I'm not going to email him and wish him a happy birthday. He never remembers my birthday, and that's always kind of...
    SirenaVonLee SirenaVonLee 36-40, F 2 days ago

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    I can't stop crying thinking about her I just lost a kitten named Miko :'( she was only about 5 weeks old and I had rescued her off the streets her mother had abandoned her because...
    secretlyfelix secretlyfelix 18-21 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I can't sleep I found out so horrible stuff and I can't sleep :,( . And I haven't eaten since Wednesday night which is bad for a pregnant lady I'm not hungry I'm not sleep I'm just...
    Amerson20 Amerson20 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 5

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    I'm so loving "Somebody to you" by The Vamps.. It's been in my head for the past two weeks.. Guess I'm looking for that Somebody.. :)
    SplashCrystal17 SplashCrystal17 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 10

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    I've worked 26 hours in the past 36 hours and I sleep. Even with getting only four hours of sleep last night. I always feel accomplished after killing long days like this. I'd say...
    PuckDrop PuckDrop 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 19

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    I don't know what it is. I go to bed around 11 and I wake up at 3 and stay up until 5, 6 and then go back to sleep. Like the past couple nights.
    ayoaddi ayoaddi 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    So I completely screwed up again. I got a text from a friend telling me he has been distant for the past two weeks because of something I said to his girlfriend. I never knew he...
    nickrif nickrif 31-35, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    i dont want to change and you cant force me! i am who i am.i cant change myself bcz you dont love it! got it??????or i should repeat it again????? whispering this song : i dont...
    00roshana00 00roshana00 18-21, F Sep 2

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    hi everyone i'm new here (btw sorry for my grammar English is not native language for me) i just need some help.. 6 month im not going out from home only to buy cigarette,food or...
    vertisque9dei vertisque9dei 18-21, M Sep 19

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    Pasta, Pasta, Pasta, Pasta, Pasta, Pasta, Pasta, Pasta Nothing is better and if I don't eat pasta for a week i have a abstinence crisis lol Pasta with tomato, i love tomato too...
    Enjoyyourlife Enjoyyourlife 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    But how you handle it and the choices you make that do. My example...before my parents divorced my father was very abusive..physically and verbally to all of us...I can remember...
    Fallen1965 Fallen1965 46-50, M Sep 6

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    I was working in downtown DC on 9/11 and shortly after the attacks the city became gridlocked from everyone trying to get home. I decided to stay put for awhile since my commute...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 11

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    Can you count, suckas? I say the past two wars have been nothing but bullshit, if you can count. 40,000 american casualties including those who died on the september attacks...
    AnonR AnonR 70+, T Sep 11

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    13 years has past since 9 11. Correct me if I'm wrong. It was on a Tuesday. Wasn't working that day. Looking at the news. Seeing the footage. Is this a movie? No this is...
    keepitreal78 keepitreal78 31-35, M 2 Responses Sep 17