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I Cant Remember My Past

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    About Two Years

    I lost about two years of my life to an old friend called "lithium". I had a doctor who put me on 1200 mg of it and added a few more drugs as well. It was like a zombie state that took away almost two years. I missed out on my daughters baseball and dance and school...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    Where Did It Go?

    I know several of you   are young, but how would you like to be almost seventy and not be able to    bring up or remember most of your past? I,m not just talking my childhood either. I mean as a teen, a young married mother, a working nurse and past...
    joykay13 joykay13 66-70, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    Losing Parts Of Who I Am

    The last several years, I have been suffering from memory loss. I am sure it has something to do with my epilepsy and the medications I am on. And, I am sure it is one of the causes of my depression. Sure, I don't remember what I ate for breakfast last Tuesday, or just how I...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2012

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    Past, What Past!

    I just turned 20 and as you probably realised by now i can't remember my past. Its not that i can't remember any of my past its just that i can't recall any details. Whether its because there's something wrong with my brain or my life was so boring that on a sub concious level i...
    Mhikael Mhikael 18-21, M Aug 1, 2012

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    Rememberance

    I need some tips about something I have some sort of self-imposed amnesia, or repressed memories whatever you want to call it. I have been seeking professional help for this as a good 3/4 of my memory has been demolished. I know it was self imposed because I remember the night I...
    Ziox Ziox 18-21, M Mar 21, 2012

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    Was It Real Or Just a Dream?

    I can remember some of it. Other parts are just missing or misplaced inside of my mind, maybe behind locked doors. I told my mom about how i see forests, and she says I see them that way because when we were in north carolina we went to the forest and it was dark. I see them as...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 11, 2008

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    Cannot Remember Growing Up

    I AM 24 AND GETTING VERY WORRIED! I DO NOT REMEMBER ANY OF MY PAST (NOT EVEN LAST WEEK) BUT ITS GUTTING THAT I DO NOT REMEMBER GROWING UP. THERE ARE ONLY A FEW INCIDENTS THAT I RECALL AND THEY HAPPEN TO BE BAD EXPERIENCES THAT OCCURED IN MY LIFE. DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE THIS...
    KERRYED22 KERRYED22 22-25 1 Response Dec 7, 2011

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    kinda scares me... what actually happened?

    why do i feel my resentment to my parents? i do remember that as a kid i would like to read and i remember reading a book that was supposed to be sad about inner struggle and stuff and thinking i should write a book about my life. THAT would make people cry. i remember thinking...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16, 2014

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    hello.im roshana's bro.

    roshana was sick and now she cant remember past.her doctor said maybe she'll remember after a week or month or year.so if u know sth about her or if u have good memory with her plz text her and say.if its bad memory such as kidnapping or else dont say to her.and plz dont say...
    0oroshanao0 0oroshanao0 18-21, F May 5, 2014

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    I Dont Remember..

    Im currently 17 years old and i live with the people who adopted me 2 years ago. i dont remember my past. i remember snippetts of it. i have flashbacks but the only way i can trigger it is EMDR. which i hate. i mean it will trigger on its own i just can't make it. growing...
    tiredofptsd tiredofptsd 16-17, F Apr 12, 2010

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    My Lost Past

    I am a victim of child abuse. I did not tell anyone the details until three years ago. I am still trying to deal with it all. I have memory loss due to the child abuse. I blocked it out. I have flashbacks that are brought on by certain sights and smells. I just wrote and...
    NancyBaker NancyBaker 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2012

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    Rewind... Now What Happened?

    I'm currently 21 and I have very little recollection of my childhood. If I focus on old pictures or watch home videos I can sometimes recall things occurring but not always. I realized this a while ago but it never really bothered me until my sister was telling me about things...
    LoomingHeavens LoomingHeavens 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 24, 2011

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    I Wish I Had a Time Machine

     It all started over a year ago in the summertime I think, maybe spring. How it started I can't be sure, I don't even remember the first time I tried or why I tried it, but I know for certain why I got hooked. Aderrall, (ADD medication) gave me the most euphoric feeling I've...
    manofconstantsorrow manofconstantsorrow 18-21 1 Response Dec 4, 2008

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    I have no recollection of barely anything

    whatsoever from age 11 back :/
    Carlilescobain Carlilescobain 18-21, M Dec 13, 2013

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    Nothing

    Aprrently I did a lot of bad things. Nothing iligal. But I have only one flashback. It's the taramatic event. It explains a lot but... I need to remember more. I want to know more of what I did. It's really akward when people come up to me and say they know me and they talk about...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 22-25, F Apr 19, 2012

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    suppression: the avalanche

    my parents' divorce was pretty traumatic for me. one day my brother and i spent the night at friends' houses, and then we never went back home. we went to live with my dad in a tiny house with only the things we had packed for our slumber parties. we didn't have any contact...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter 26-30, F 10 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    I don't know why. Actually that's probably a

    lie, I'm pretty sure it was my classmates' fault. The only think I can think of to explain the two year gap I have between the ages of ten and twelve are the playground taunts. I have a handful of memories, most of which are me realising that I've forgotten something again, and...
    Ghaughty Ghaughty 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    Do You Remember The Time.....?

    This is a question that I am asked often; by people close to me - brother, sister, friends, parents. My answer is always a resounding "No." I was there, and it did happen, but it all seems to have been erased from my memory. In one of the last instances, my father remembered a...
    mzurisana mzurisana 36-40 Jan 3, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    There is no way to substantiate what I am about to say, but then I guess this is not about proof. Through the help of others, I have learned that I have been around for a little...
    Drachona Drachona 18-21 Jan 17

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    had an accident whilst on tour in iraq. came back and was put on tablets, i had a bad reaction to them and had a siezure now my memory is jumbled and bits are hard to remember
    firedragon71 firedragon71 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    It's amazing how you can assume that friendship means always or constant. Or at the very least someone you don't have to worry about. Then one day everything changes and you...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    So there's a boy I like and 3 days ago he asked me if can date and I remember what my mom said she said I can date at 16 or 17 and now I ready she takes that away from me...but...
    cassett cassett 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    When I observe the small heap of charred wood and sooty ashes, it is easy to forget the brilliant embers that a short time ago glowed bright and warm, toasting s'mores and...
    GJOFJ3 GJOFJ3 56-60, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    A Girl Without Love part 1 They say life is full of love, but if you don't experience much of it does that mean you are going to become mean and grouchy? I was just a newborn when...
    DukeGirl18 DukeGirl18 16-17, F 20 hrs ago

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    I would like some insight on this. If this sounds like I met my lover from a past life, or if this seems to be mere coincidence. I have never really given much thought to past...
    malbearxo malbearxo 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I honestly know that what has happened to me in the past cannot be changed but, it's preventing me from moving on. I'm struggling 24/7 here. I'm meant to forgive and forget, accept...
    ScarM3 ScarM3 16-17, F Jan 10

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    Old souls know they are an old soul and I'm no exception. I'm not exactly sure where I came from but 18th century England/ France/ Renaissance Italy gnaws at my soul. It feels like...
    StarsxSunsets StarsxSunsets 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I will start by stating what's the problem. I have a girlfriend u see. We've been dating for 1 year and 3 months now but i still cant get over the fact that she kissed another boy...
    Curlyadli Curlyadli 18-21, M Jan 16

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    I have no such regrets of my past. They made me who I am today, but I do regret some of the decisions I made in my past. Missed opportunities. Could have had the love of my life...
    Dictatorse Dictatorse 22-25, M 6 Responses Jan 10

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    She wanted to rid herself of the past, rid herself of the weight being carried around every day. Never have been one to share true raw emotions with others, but rather smile and...
    JustAGirLinAbaR JustAGirLinAbaR 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm not writing stories on here in hopes of gaining pity or "likes" or seeking attention for that matter. I'm truly just sharing stories with my feelings/thoughts about them that I...
    JustAGirLinAbaR JustAGirLinAbaR 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My past so hard to explain because I have had bad and good times but some things I wish I had never done I guess it's a lesson and I can't change that and hopefully my future is...
    rach232323 rach232323 18-21, F Jan 3

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    3 hours of sleep in 2 full nights... My parents can't afford to keep me around, and I don't feel well enough to work right now... My suicidal thoughts get worse as the days pass by...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    I can't believe this has happened to me... I didn't even think this is possible... How can I just realize now that I am madly in love with you after so many years? Or is it I just...
    MsDemeanorMe MsDemeanorMe 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    it was 3 summers ago and it was a brutally hot summer day. i had on my usual string bikini and I walked up the beach past the crowded area, i dont know maybe a kilometer past. i...
    jennafreespirit jennafreespirit 22-25, F 14 Responses 6 days ago

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    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HKLnmMacEB4 Santana - The Game Of Love ft. Michelle Branch so I was looking up songs from the early 2000's and I cant believe I forgot about this...
    HeySafaaJust HeySafaaJust 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Ran across this poem I wrote just before my divorce. Nice to know that is not me any more. In the darkness I curl up…. It covers me and shields me from the memories The words...
    sckimmy sckimmy 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I got my first crush when I was 9 years old. I never liked boys at all, until one day I out of the blue started to notice this boy in my class. I wasn't crazy about him but it was...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Jan 2

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    I will remember my friend from our church . Soon he will be called home by God to have his heavenly reward but right now he must endure the trials of his illness . I...
    chris121458 chris121458 56-60, M 2 Responses Jan 9

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    No, no I don't remember the LA Riots, because I was only a seedling. Last night, I was scrolling through the newspaper, came across the guide, and spotted the documentary on VH1...
    loveVSlust loveVSlust 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    I need to do a lot of work, I have trouble sleeping. I act around others like its okay and I also act to myself like im okay, and i have been for a while but i a sense of panic...
    matt193 matt193 18-21, M Jan 2

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    I don't wanna go somewhere that I'll be forced to tell people my past, and act like I'm normal, I'm not normal, I don't eat, I cut, I think I'm ulgy. Why should I pretend I'm some...
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001 13-15, F Jan 11

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    I really should probably stop watching horror games and reading creepy pastas before going to bed....
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 15

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    I was ill,Mentally and even though I was 20 because of my mental state I wasn't able to go on nights out so I snuck out and went to a busy bar on my own, it was fine until it...
    lyndsay22 lyndsay22 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    It's been more than a week and not one second since that day have I not thought about him. He showed no sign of weakness though now I know that he had some. Maybe he had plenty...
    hecknope hecknope 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Idk, it's just awkward and weird taking to them about personal things. I can talk to my siblings, especially my little sister, about stuff, but my parents are a different story...
    Julez3 Julez3 16-17, M 14 hrs ago

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    I'm in love with a guy who's not aware of my feelings for him. It started in grade6 grade 7 I sat next to him I'd share jokes and lunch with him I'd simply smile at him and he'd...
    NamzyZizi NamzyZizi 16-17, F Jan 1

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