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I Cant Remember My Past

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    Losing Parts Of Who I Am

    The last several years, I have been suffering from memory loss. I am sure it has something to do with my epilepsy and the medications I am on. And, I am sure it is one of the causes of my depression. Sure, I don't remember what I ate for breakfast last Tuesday, or just how I...
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2012

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    Past, What Past!

    I just turned 20 and as you probably realised by now i can't remember my past. Its not that i can't remember any of my past its just that i can't recall any details. Whether its because there's something wrong with my brain or my life was so boring that on a sub concious level i...
    Mhikael Mhikael 18-21, M Aug 1, 2012

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    I have no recollection of barely anything

    whatsoever from age 11 back :/
    Carlilescobain Carlilescobain 18-21, M Dec 13, 2013

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    Rememberance

    I need some tips about something I have some sort of self-imposed amnesia, or repressed memories whatever you want to call it. I have been seeking professional help for this as a good 3/4 of my memory has been demolished. I know it was self imposed because I remember the night I...
    Ziox Ziox 18-21, M Mar 21, 2012

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    I Dont Remember..

    Im currently 17 years old and i live with the people who adopted me 2 years ago. i dont remember my past. i remember snippetts of it. i have flashbacks but the only way i can trigger it is EMDR. which i hate. i mean it will trigger on its own i just can't make it. growing...
    tiredofptsd tiredofptsd 16-17, F Apr 12, 2010

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    Nothing

    Aprrently I did a lot of bad things. Nothing iligal. But I have only one flashback. It's the taramatic event. It explains a lot but... I need to remember more. I want to know more of what I did. It's really akward when people come up to me and say they know me and they talk about...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 26-30, F Apr 19, 2012

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    kinda scares me... what actually happened?

    why do i feel my resentment to my parents? i do remember that as a kid i would like to read and i remember reading a book that was supposed to be sad about inner struggle and stuff and thinking i should write a book about my life. THAT would make people cry. i remember thinking...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 16, 2014

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    hello.im roshana's bro.

    roshana was sick and now she cant remember past.her doctor said maybe she'll remember after a week or month or year.so if u know sth about her or if u have good memory with her plz text her and say.if its bad memory such as kidnapping or else dont say to her.and plz dont say...
    0oroshanao0 0oroshanao0 18-21, F May 5, 2014

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    Cannot Remember Growing Up

    I AM 24 AND GETTING VERY WORRIED! I DO NOT REMEMBER ANY OF MY PAST (NOT EVEN LAST WEEK) BUT ITS GUTTING THAT I DO NOT REMEMBER GROWING UP. THERE ARE ONLY A FEW INCIDENTS THAT I RECALL AND THEY HAPPEN TO BE BAD EXPERIENCES THAT OCCURED IN MY LIFE. DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE THIS...
    KERRYED22 KERRYED22 22-25 1 Response Dec 7, 2011

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    Where Did It Go?

    I know several of you   are young, but how would you like to be almost seventy and not be able to    bring up or remember most of your past? I,m not just talking my childhood either. I mean as a teen, a young married mother, a working nurse and past...
    joykay13 joykay13 66-70, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2010

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    My Lost Past

    I am a victim of child abuse. I did not tell anyone the details until three years ago. I am still trying to deal with it all. I have memory loss due to the child abuse. I blocked it out. I have flashbacks that are brought on by certain sights and smells. I just wrote and...
    NancyBaker NancyBaker 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2012

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    Was It Real Or Just a Dream?

    I can remember some of it. Other parts are just missing or misplaced inside of my mind, maybe behind locked doors. I told my mom about how i see forests, and she says I see them that way because when we were in north carolina we went to the forest and it was dark. I see them as...
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 11, 2008

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    suppression: the avalanche

    my parents' divorce was pretty traumatic for me. one day my brother and i spent the night at friends' houses, and then we never went back home. we went to live with my dad in a tiny house with only the things we had packed for our slumber parties. we didn't have any contact...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter 26-30, F 10 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    About Two Years

    I lost about two years of my life to an old friend called "lithium". I had a doctor who put me on 1200 mg of it and added a few more drugs as well. It was like a zombie state that took away almost two years. I missed out on my daughters baseball and dance and school...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 27, 2007

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    I Wish I Had a Time Machine

     It all started over a year ago in the summertime I think, maybe spring. How it started I can't be sure, I don't even remember the first time I tried or why I tried it, but I know for certain why I got hooked. Aderrall, (ADD medication) gave me the most euphoric feeling I've...
    manofconstantsorrow manofconstantsorrow 18-21 1 Response Dec 4, 2008

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    I don't know why. Actually that's probably a

    lie, I'm pretty sure it was my classmates' fault. The only think I can think of to explain the two year gap I have between the ages of ten and twelve are the playground taunts. I have a handful of memories, most of which are me realising that I've forgotten something again, and...
    Ghaughty Ghaughty 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    Rewind... Now What Happened?

    I'm currently 21 and I have very little recollection of my childhood. If I focus on old pictures or watch home videos I can sometimes recall things occurring but not always. I realized this a while ago but it never really bothered me until my sister was telling me about things...
    LoomingHeavens LoomingHeavens 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 24, 2011

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    Do You Remember The Time.....?

    This is a question that I am asked often; by people close to me - brother, sister, friends, parents. My answer is always a resounding "No." I was there, and it did happen, but it all seems to have been erased from my memory. In one of the last instances, my father remembered a...
    mzurisana mzurisana 36-40 Jan 3, 2013

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    We cannot change the past, but what I have learned about myself, is accepting myself today, forgiving myself and letting go of things that are no longer valid helps me change my...
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    I had a best friend that hurt me so much. I was emotionally hurt, I was emotionally affected. I never thought getting into high school was like a life risk. I felt like a failed...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    The days seem longer. Time seems to be slipping away. The walk seems almost unbearable. Not to mention your feet are starting to hurt. At this point you are completely exhausted...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 14

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    Some of the stuff that I say .... so today at work there was a girl and I in the break room of our retail store. She works in apparel, the clothing department. So anyway I said to...
    Ayunir Ayunir 22-25, M Mar 28

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    so because I'm preparing to tell my therapist, I've decided to tell my story here first... I am nervous. please forgive me... I remember what happened but I'm just going to toe or...
    GodsArte GodsArte 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 29

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    I went to a SADD (students against destructive decisions) convention and speakers kept telling us that we should talk about stuff that we went through or that we are going through...
    nobodyknows13 nobodyknows13 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    It didn't happen to me, but my best friend had a dream about one of my past lives, with some surprising coincidences. In the dream, she was viewing everything from a blurred...
    Iahmose Iahmose 22-25 2 Responses Mar 28

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    I remember how critical my mother was of ME, all my life, but you know what I found out later? In fact, 50 years later? When people are very critical of others, it has NOTHING to...
    ArtLover01 ArtLover01 66-70, F 2 days ago

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    I remember my first kiss just like it was yesterday.. Me and my older sis (technical my aunt) but she was only 4yrs older than me. She was a senior in the same secondary school I...
    Mama86 Mama86 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    when i was 7 years old my dad killed himself. it took a toll on the whole family, my grandma has never been the same i went into a state were i thought i was gonna die every single...
    SpideyAlyx SpideyAlyx 13-15, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    All I can do is accept my past, I'm now focused on making my future
    alexentre alexentre 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 30

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    working extremely hard on myself so i can become a better person. Change is something that everyone will experience and while i cannot change the past mistakes I've made i am going...
    crazybladebabe crazybladebabe 18-21, F Mar 31

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    My wife left about 9 months ago, I tried everything to convince her not to do this to us. We have to boys 5 & 8. So she has been doing whatever she wants. I have heard her tell me...
    manoeste manoeste 36-40, M 3 Responses Apr 3

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    I hate my past and I blame it for who I am. I grew up too fast and ended up trying to fill a void my parents left in my heart, it led me to lot of bad decisions I regret and its a...
    RawrrItsAlexa RawrrItsAlexa 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    Canters a Jewish deli in Los Angeles has great pastrami sandwiches
    dfries63 dfries63 46-50, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    If I allowed myself uncontrolled indulgence, I would eat pasta EVERY DAY! I love feeling the texture of pasta when I'm eating it. I hope I'll never develope Diabetes because it...
    Angelly Angelly 56-60, F 4 Responses Apr 3

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    i really do remember my life without the internet :) playing in our yard with my sisters, biking.. i was a very active child. I also had this toy called Viewmaster and some films...
    missanonymouz missanonymouz 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 12

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    Its almost three and half years finish after our marriage. Yes I remember, 02 sep 2011. That's our marriage date. After that 3 times she was pregnant. But we loose it all. Fist...
    BenJimmy BenJimmy 31-35, M Apr 13

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    I was a German pilot in World War Two. I flew the Messerschmidt jet fighter, the 262. I remember quite a few details, such as people, places, and events. I remember my death in...
    Aleksandar262 Aleksandar262 13-15, T a week ago

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    Hey... I am huge fan of late actor Paul Walker. When he died I felt sad but not devastated but when I saw his new film in the theater I cried my heart out when he said...
    MalavikaPaul MalavikaPaul 18-21 Apr 8

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    I know it has only been about four months since you past away but because your not here with me it feels like years but emotionally it feels like just yesterday I was at your...
    nirvanasiva nirvanasiva 13-15, F Mar 26

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    a lot of the time, I can forget the reasons why. I'm depressed, sure, whatever. I ignore it, force my way past it, don't look at it, don't examine it. But then something happens...
    anata1 anata1 22-25, F Apr 4

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