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I Can't Seem to Get a Hold On My Life

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    What Am I Doing?

    It never ceases to amaze me when I start looking at my life and wondering how I got to this point and wondering what the hell I'm doing. Laying here, trying to will myself into the cold morning air to perpetually embark on the endless journey of taking 2 steps back for...
    interplanetaryenvy interplanetaryenvy 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    Nothing Makes Sense Anymore.

    I have always been a very good student. I've always made good grades and understood (with effort) all of the topics my teachers explained to me. I'm in three advanced placement classes (which are college leveled) and all of my other classes are honors. I'm in clubs. I tutor for...
    midorimarie1 midorimarie1 16-17 2 Responses Oct 4, 2011

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    The Avatar Fits What I Feel About This Subject

    (The avatar currently displayed is a picture of someone squeezing their fingers with a sun in the background.  For any Monty Python fans, it's like when they were fighting by 'squeezing someone's head' in that skit.  Hopefully that's clear enough, I only explain...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M Dec 14, 2008

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    Holy Crap!

    Everyday I can't but wonder where did i go wrong? Did I **** off the Karhma Gods? I once lived in a home with a family that loved me, I had cars, a good job, and wanted for very little. Now i live in a converted motel off the interstate, alone, a slave to mass transit, with a job...
    sacdadi sacdadi 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 13, 2008

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    Some Friends, Some Boyfriends, Some Lack Of Work, All Venting.

    i havent been on in a while, honestly because ive forgotten this was an option. i've been super depressed lately and having quite a bit of trouble trying to get out of it. im not sure what, if anything, brought it on this time. im feeling like i dont have any real friends these...
    snowai snowai 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9, 2013

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    The statement alone says it all.....I can't take it any more...any part of my life.....I for the past seven years spent my life married to someone....our marriage is so toxic and...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    few years away, but i want to go to college in Japan for writing. i want to write the script for it, and the art. its super cool! and school i'm in right now is super . . . whats...
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    I don't have a clue where to start this but I will say thank you to anyone who finds the time to read this. The thoughts and memories that are in my head make me think this will...
    Valtboy Valtboy 31-35, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I thought I had it all worked out. Everything seems to go great. Yet I can't sleep at night. I feel so bad. I've dealt with depression before and I thought that I had moved past it...
    canudos canudos 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    every time I clean of up, I promise it will stay that way, but it never does! uughhh and i have kids, too! enuff said.....
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 3 days ago

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    My entire life I've been known as the 'doormat' - the one that everyone can happily take advantage of. And the worst part is: I let it slide. I forgive them, even when I really...
    Tinkiez Tinkiez 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I never felt that I was destined to become a heroin addict. I was one of the good kids but then opportunity came knocking and OMG! I knew right away I wanted to do this again...
    Naominatrually Naominatrually 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    if I don't say the words. it doesn't mean that they are not there. I just want them to land with you the way that I intend for them to. I am sorry that I often say them like two...
    bigheartsmallworld bigheartsmallworld 36-40, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have an awesome idea of the cover I want for the book I'm writing, and I can't draw worth a crap...
    Triforce184 Triforce184 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    This is my dilema and the most obvious is that it is NOT a dilema but the feelings I have makes everything feel so wrong. I in a sense do know the person I am inlove with, but I...
    LoveUnite LoveUnite 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Together since November 1999. Separated three years ago. Have seen each other off and on since then. He destroyed our life together with repetitive infidelity. Still, I can't...
    Gem1970 Gem1970 41-45, F 5 days ago

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    Modest Mouse - Bukowski: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r2UCT5ABGa4 I cannot get over this song. I'm sure I've heard it: a long time ago. Like it has a deeper meaning to me than...
    ColdPenguin25 ColdPenguin25 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    And whoever created this group can't spell if their life depended on it...
    Hannah1100 Hannah1100 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I can never say I've been truly happy...ever...I've known this since I was a kid...I've had happy times but I have never been happy for a week straight with no complaints.I use to...
    Gottawannaneedtotalk Gottawannaneedtotalk 22-25, F a week ago

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    So I recently went out with someone I've been crazy about for nearly 4 years (I know cuz she made mention of it) and we had an incredible night together; in the past when I've...
    qeust24 qeust24 22-25, M a week ago

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    Being able to afford it... This is really the number one reason a lot of people don't travel. But it's worth it if you can save up and make a few trips. Go with people you enjoy...
    INFJguytwin1 INFJguytwin1 22-25, M Aug 25

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    The the thing with boyfriends' mothers. Oh my God they are so irritating. I'm tired of being lectured. I'm quiet and not a back talker and just nod and says yes or no, and say a...
    reginarose reginarose 26-30, F Aug 24

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    I was just a small 6th grade kid who had terrible self-esteem issues. It comes with the territory when your father used to terrify you, when he would beat you for the most trivial...
    S1NK1LL3R S1NK1LL3R 22-25, M Aug 23

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    I am in love,with someone I cant have. it took me months to just even recognize the feelings, how can I love somebody I never thought I would even like? a complete opposite to what...
    bujji14 bujji14 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    I really want to kill myself. My life is going on horribly. My mother has psychotic depression, she has been on an affair for 9 years & has just recently stopped after being...
    mangoseed mangoseed 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    I try my best to keep things at peace. As much as possible, I want everyone happy. I adjust to everyone's needs. I often put their needs before mine. But there are some instances...
    ayamesan16 ayamesan16 22-25, F Aug 22

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    This happened 2 years ago. I needed a piece of furniture repaired, so I asked one of my FB friends who builds custom made furniture. He is sort of a renaissance man. I go over to...
    Tejaschick Tejaschick 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    My ex boyfriend was broken. 10 years older than me and his life was a mess. He couldn't stay away from drinking he already ruined his life because of it. He had no drivers license...
    beanie1417 beanie1417 22-25, F Aug 20

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    We shouldn’t be together. Culturally, we are so diverse. Age, we are a decade apart. Location, across the world from one another. Relationship, too complicated to explain. But...
    MyHeart4You MyHeart4You 46-50, F Aug 20

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    Everyday I face a new wave of challenges that drag me down where I can then be met with returning currents that bring back old insecurities and weaknesses. I like to think that I'm...
    pressurecooker pressurecooker 16-17, F Aug 20

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    As a follow up, my ex got out of jail. And immediately following his release, he started with the incessant calling. Sending cards and poems and love letters everyday. I had a PFA...
    blackbeautygirl51 blackbeautygirl51 51-55, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    OK, here is the first place I'm saying this, I have never talked about my love before. I'm madly in love with someone who is dead. I'm not going to share her name or anything here...
    lionheartr lionheartr 13-15, M 3 Responses Aug 18

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    so earlier today I kinda took a overdose and ended up in the hospital I just want to do I've given up on life I can't cope anymore no one wants me here I will never stop trying to...
    Pedro1202 Pedro1202 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 16

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    hold up why is the I can't be myself background image an image of Hei from darker than black?
    Thtguywitglasses Thtguywitglasses 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    There is someone I care about about there. I Think about him a lot. About being with him. About how much he deserves kindness in the face of some pretty unkind people. About unkind...
    notthis78 notthis78 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    I'm in love with one of my best guy friends. I think he loves me back but I also think he loves his ex still and can't get over her. He acts like he loves me and then the next...
    basketballlove99 basketballlove99 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I saw this experience and thought it perfectly sums up some recent conversations I’ve had with someone I love. She asked me recently (OK multiple times) to explain why I love...
    alteregoeleven alteregoeleven 46-50, M 5 Responses Aug 14

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    I just can't stop thing about the past. ibwish I could. It drives me insane everyday, it makes me depressed. Its torture. It makes me want to cut bc past is hurting my future and I...
    100BlackRoses 100BlackRoses 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    The best feeling we could ever have is love. But the most painful would be still the same, love... Once you felt that feeling to someone, you'll be the happiest person in the whole...
    Achelle07 Achelle07 22-25, F Aug 13

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    **** everybody and the ideas they have of who they wanted me to be. **** all the people who hoped I'd be the replacement for the friends and lovers they lost. I can be your friend...
    ambivalentFriability ambivalentFriability 18-21 1 Response Aug 12

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    So I'm laying here in my bed crying because I miss my mom. I mean she's done a lot to hurt me in the past butch really miss her and I can't fall asleep. I can't stop thinking about...
    Justforgetaboutme Justforgetaboutme 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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