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I Can't Seem to Get a Hold On My Life

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    What Am I Doing?

    It never ceases to amaze me when I start looking at my life and wondering how I got to this point and wondering what the hell I'm doing. Laying here, trying to will myself into the cold morning air to perpetually embark on the endless journey of taking 2 steps back for...
    interplanetaryenvy interplanetaryenvy 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    Nothing Makes Sense Anymore.

    I have always been a very good student. I've always made good grades and understood (with effort) all of the topics my teachers explained to me. I'm in three advanced placement classes (which are college leveled) and all of my other classes are honors. I'm in clubs. I tutor for...
    midorimarie1 midorimarie1 16-17 2 Responses Oct 4, 2011

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    Holy Crap!

    Everyday I can't but wonder where did i go wrong? Did I **** off the Karhma Gods? I once lived in a home with a family that loved me, I had cars, a good job, and wanted for very little. Now i live in a converted motel off the interstate, alone, a slave to mass transit, with a job...
    sacdadi sacdadi 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 13, 2008

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    Some Friends, Some Boyfriends, Some Lack Of Work, All Venting.

    i havent been on in a while, honestly because ive forgotten this was an option. i've been super depressed lately and having quite a bit of trouble trying to get out of it. im not sure what, if anything, brought it on this time. im feeling like i dont have any real friends these...
    snowai snowai 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2013

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    The Avatar Fits What I Feel About This Subject

    (The avatar currently displayed is a picture of someone squeezing their fingers with a sun in the background.  For any Monty Python fans, it's like when they were fighting by 'squeezing someone's head' in that skit.  Hopefully that's clear enough, I only explain...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M Dec 14, 2008

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    I'm 21 years old and I have only hurt the people around me and myself for the past 5 years. My mother died in 2009 from an overdose (I grew up watching her pack down her soul). I...
    Teskine504 Teskine504 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    It's extremely agitating comparing myself to others. It's almost an unwanted obsession that ceases to stop. I'm at the breaking point about to tear these walls down. I cannot...
    Allissaxxx Allissaxxx 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I feel so alone most of the time that I feel like being in a relationship is the best thing for me when I know it's not. I know the best thing is to be alone to get through my...
    AikaMelodia AikaMelodia 16-17, F Mar 24

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    I don't know if I can say I'm in love or not because in truth I haven't know her very long. I do know that I care for her a great deal. She is in a relationship though. In my eyes...
    GreenEyedFox GreenEyedFox 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Ok, so I was fired as well yesterday (personality issues, not a good fit, and it "just isn't working out").... It wasn't even 4 full weeks. I even had this marker on my calendar "6...
    andrew319 andrew319 22-25, M 5 Responses Apr 8

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    This song has always been one of those songs that just melted my heart. Recently I actually picked up a little red dress Marilyn Monroe style. I shared this with a very good male...
    snowberry75 snowberry75 36-40, F Apr 4

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    I'm really struggling at the moment to find a reason to keep on living or to look to the future. I split from my ex a while ago but we have been on and off since. We have a...
    isthereanypoint isthereanypoint 26-30 Apr 8

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    I have tried so hard to get over someone I haven't even dated ! He's just my best friend and I've liked him forever, but no matter how hard I try I can't seem to like anyone else
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 13-15, F Apr 11

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    I can't take my life anymore... I've been through so much since I was a little girl and every time I try to be happy it gets screwed up. I lost the love of my life because he fell...
    xxersabooxx xxersabooxx 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    I know this awful feeling. I dropped out of high-school twice, realizing its system was stupid and the town was worse, wound up staying with my mother until I left at 22. I never...
    Poppyfields72 Poppyfields72 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    My BIL is truly a piece of work. He thinks because he's Ivy League trained, he's above everyone. He (and my MIL) have no respect for people- they say whatever they want without...
    UpsetNAlone UpsetNAlone 31-35, F Apr 6

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    After relationship nonsense after relationship nonsense, I began to realize I don't need that crap while I'm still trying to figure out who I am. For days and days on end I would...
    imryll imryll 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    It sucks when you're ignored by the person whose attention is the only thing you want in the world. Ever since this girl first walked into our school, I couldn’t take my eyes...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 2

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    It sucks when you're ignored by the person whose attention is the only thing you want in the world. Ever since this girl first walked into our school, I couldn’t take my eyes...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 2

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    Meanwhile my boyfriend is in NYC for a college course schmoozing with publishers and, after one day, got a job working for a cooking website from the publisher he is staying with...
    dendroica dendroica 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I can’t believe she’s gone. got the call at 1 am Sunday morning, a friend & coworker suddenly gone….passed away. My heart sank. We worked together all day Saturday. She...
    faith7777 faith7777 41-45, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    To be honest, I just can't stand seeing happy couples being luvy in public these days. Not that I hate luv, it's just been a hard few years. Earlier I posted bout me not trusting...
    HottRoddTX HottRoddTX 26-30, M Mar 27

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    I am still upset about the guy who was kind to me almost 30 years ago, who I feel saved my life by being a nice person in the midst of jerks and misery, and who recently rejected...
    clouds4208 clouds4208 36-40, F Mar 26

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    Idk I just.........can't. It's not that idw to share but I just feel like I don't have a right to burden others w my silly problems of my own. Like they don't have problems of...
    ELSAhugsyou ELSAhugsyou 18-21, F Apr 4

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    I first this girl (Tori) on the bus I always thought she was beautiful but I never had the guts to go and talk to her. I guess this was partly because she was surrounded by her...
    larybobjinkin larybobjinkin 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 8

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    I am having such a hard time getting over my last relationship. I met him online, on Facebook out of nowhere. We started hanging out, and things started to get more intense. He...
    visionsofexile visionsofexile 18-21, M Mar 20

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    It has been around two years since we were together but I think about him at least once or twice a week. I don't miss him or want him back, actually, I hate him for how badly he...
    kcconference300 kcconference300 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    Have you ever had that experience where you just can't decide on your own? The times when you have to wait for what others think then later you agree with the majority? This is...
    versusapathy versusapathy 18-21, F Mar 25

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    When I was younger I used to try to spend time with my dad and eh would always yell at me to go away and not to talk to him. now just recently, He has tried to have a relationship...
    RachelRosieanne RachelRosieanne 16-17, F Apr 5

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    I recently joined this community in hopes to get many things off my chest, and hopefully get some positivity from anyone who’s willing to listen. My name is Zach and I’m 19...
    Zach001 Zach001 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    When life is going really good it will always suddenly turn around and go ****. i know there are other less fortunate people out there but i always wish i had a different life. My...
    vickaaay22 vickaaay22 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    I'm in love with my health teacher. I've always found him attractive and his personality is seemingly perfect... But not until this year, have I realized that I truly have feelings...
    Kkeiser Kkeiser 18-21, F Mar 26

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    The title is my life. It happened 8 years ago. Wow, I can't believe it has been that long... At 7 years of marriage and 3 kids, my husband and I became roommates... I loved him but...
    swimminginemotions swimminginemotions 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 28

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    I was about to send this to a girl, who I'm madly in love with, and who is also my best friend. But I couldn't bring myself to hit send... "I've known you for about 6 years now...
    Canonomousjay Canonomousjay 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 30

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    i don't know what makes me keep listening yiruma playlist. it makes me cry everytime i listen to it. it's like i've been put in a box and i couldn't breath. My heart seems been...
    PuremaidenXacs PuremaidenXacs 18-21, F Apr 4

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    I don't think he understand or will understand. Me and my boyfriend were talking for a while before we started dating. He stopped talking a little in between because before we met...
    Weeedisahellofadrug Weeedisahellofadrug 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My boyfriend and I are currently trying to work things out after he made out with someone else 3 weeks ago. We have been dating 2 1/2 years and live together. His is my best...
    mixedup2 mixedup2 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    So. Who else is a chronic insomniac like me who hasn't been able to go to sleep normally for the past 6 years or so? I've had problem going to sleep for a long time and it's...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 25

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    I'm 21 years old and my mom treats me like I'm 16. In my culture a girl can't leave the house until she's married. I don't really get to do anything. I go to college and come home...
    cowboys11 cowboys11 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I love this amazing girl. She's beautiful the best personality ever but I can't date her.... For two reasons :/ 1. She considers me her BROTHER. 2. She has a boyfriend. It makes me...
    MrUnkn0wn MrUnkn0wn 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 3

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    I am at the stage of my life where I am thinking about marriage. I am nervous about married life, but still very excited to begin this new chapter. I can't wait to build a...
    lifeisatest lifeisatest 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    So when I was 10 I went to visit my uncle who lives in California. I had a great time! So my last day we went to the beach and there I met a scrawny boy with blonde hair and blue...
    DeadlyKryptonite DeadlyKryptonite 13-15, F Mar 20

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    It's been 2 weeks now since I came out of my 5 year relationship with my boyfriend, and I've recently found out my nan has cancer. I am really struggling, and feeling severely...
    VirgoTheArtyFarty VirgoTheArtyFarty 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Resting in the dark with my eyes wide open. I'm feeling sick in my stomach because I am stressing out about everything that is going on in my life. I am fine during the day. I...
    Christinewl Christinewl 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 1

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    Ever since I can remember my parents have been fighting with each other. I can't stand it when they do. My father always gets defensive and over dramatic and says horrible things...
    RachelRosieanne RachelRosieanne 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    I think I have slight OCD because of things such as HAVING to sort out things in shops if they are in the wrong isle and so on... but that makes my life very organised which is the...
    LizzPixie LizzPixie 16-17, F Apr 10

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    I've been in love with my best friend for 2 years.. 6 months ago he confessed to me that he was gay, but 2 years ago (when I first started to have feelings for him) he also had...
    marlene5sos marlene5sos 16-17, F 11 hrs ago

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    I'm married with two kids. We are separated but legally. I'm in love with a guy 13 yrs older than me and he's single. I've known him since I was 8 yrs old. We can never be together...
    Allie26 Allie26 36-40, F 10 hrs ago

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    It is a real urge thing that i can't stop blaming myself for what i have been into from the day i was born. It is simple and don't know what to add more as my life sucks right now...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 31-35, M Mar 21

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    Well, I might aswell start from the top. I learned at some point in my life to hide my feelings away, which basically left me in an invisible box. Nothing gets in or out. That...
    Hanklerfish11235 Hanklerfish11235 18-21, F Mar 24

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    I desperatly need to get out of this house. Like leave. For good. My family rarely exists, my brothers an addict, my mother is psychologically unbalanced. I've tried helping them...
    LizzyDeviya LizzyDeviya 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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