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I Can't Seem to Get a Hold On My Life

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    Holy Crap!

    Everyday I can't but wonder where did i go wrong? Did I **** off the Karhma Gods? I once lived in a home with a family that loved me, I had cars, a good job, and wanted for very little. Now i live in a converted motel off the interstate, alone, a slave to mass transit, with a job...
    sacdadi sacdadi 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 13, 2008

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    Some Friends, Some Boyfriends, Some Lack Of Work, All Venting.

    i havent been on in a while, honestly because ive forgotten this was an option. i've been super depressed lately and having quite a bit of trouble trying to get out of it. im not sure what, if anything, brought it on this time. im feeling like i dont have any real friends these...
    snowai snowai 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9, 2013

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    Nothing Makes Sense Anymore.

    I have always been a very good student. I've always made good grades and understood (with effort) all of the topics my teachers explained to me. I'm in three advanced placement classes (which are college leveled) and all of my other classes are honors. I'm in clubs. I tutor for...
    midorimarie1 midorimarie1 16-17 2 Responses Oct 4, 2011

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    What Am I Doing?

    It never ceases to amaze me when I start looking at my life and wondering how I got to this point and wondering what the hell I'm doing. Laying here, trying to will myself into the cold morning air to perpetually embark on the endless journey of taking 2 steps back for...
    interplanetaryenvy interplanetaryenvy 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    The Avatar Fits What I Feel About This Subject

    (The avatar currently displayed is a picture of someone squeezing their fingers with a sun in the background.  For any Monty Python fans, it's like when they were fighting by 'squeezing someone's head' in that skit.  Hopefully that's clear enough, I only explain...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M Dec 14, 2008

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    Every day, I've been struggling, I hold out hope for a better tomorrow, and I try my best to make other's happy, I try to live a life without strife, drama, or reckless abandon. I...
    Edg3Runn3r Edg3Runn3r 26-30, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Someone just take my hand and take me somewhere I can smile. Cause I can't do it alone. :(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 2

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    Life is WAY too short to spend time picking up whatever just fell on the floor. And making your bed? Why is that even a thing? It's not like the Queen is coming for room inspection...
    naughtyivy naughtyivy 16-17, F 7 Responses Apr 13

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    Reality is heavily blurred for me. Where nightmares will take over my sleep and there's nothing left to do when the sun is out, except to stare at the wall and save face for when...
    AScarletDream AScarletDream 22-25, T Apr 9

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    Latest development... my 11 year old son apparently needs an appendectomy! Gah! It's not enough that I'm trying to adjust to widow-hood, plan my daughter's graduation next month...
    emerald emerald 36-40, F 6 Responses Apr 2

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    I still act like I'm still in my 30's
    kenrj kenrj 51-55, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Okay so this is ridiculous, and after explaining the story I'm pretty sure I'll get called crazy. I started working at shoe store about 8 months ago, there are 4 managers and I...
    Pearlljjam Pearlljjam 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 6

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    You told me today I pushed you away and I can`t even tell you were wrong. I do, I push you away, because it hurts too much to be around you. To see you, to talk to you, it makes me...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 5

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    I've been crying pretty much almost everyday for the past two weeks or so but today my tears just can't seem to go away. They've been a mix of happy and sad tears and some were...
    mclovin31321 mclovin31321 22-25, F Mar 30

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    I can't seem to settle with making friends. Maybe its because I'm too shy or awkward? I don't know. I always feel like making friends is great until conflicts starts settling in...
    ohangela ohangela 13-15, F Apr 20

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    I am 16 yrs old girl and in my life happened something strange that I cant understand but I love and I cant let go altough it is hurting me and I just can't decide what is right so...
    nitheism nitheism 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    I owe you an explanation I can't give you in fact. Suppose I never will. I could barely explain it, even though it's actually very simple... I told you I was afraid to be around...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 3

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    I sometimes wish I could be numb or well more than I already am so I wouln't get hurt by the things my family and classmates call me or say to me... I'm scared to get close and I...
    CustardGirl CustardGirl 13-15, F 9 hrs ago

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    I met him in high school, and even though for the most part he treated me like ****, he always gave me just enough 'love' or kindness to keep me holding on. Once we were older...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 8

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    I wish I could put my whole life on pause and just soak up the moment right in his arms. Live each and every morning with him right by my side. Kiss him till our toes curl. Hug...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F Apr 3

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    It's so painful..so much so that I can barely focus on anything else. Every stupid little thing reminds me of him. Especially good stuff, things that used to make me happy..like...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    I'm so depressed. I can't stop feeling this way everyday. Nothing seems right. Life just feels like a burden to me and I really don't want it to. I just want to cry :'(
    Awhiteorchid Awhiteorchid 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 7

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    I didn't believe in God until I started having the strangest things happen to me. First they were subtle little things that could have been set up. Then they graduated to paranoia...
    SeasonsinHell SeasonsinHell 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    Always and every time, I crush on girls every 5 heart beats, it gets real annoying since most of the time I have no reason to like them it's just cause they look good (can't get...
    MrSpecify MrSpecify 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    I met this guy who I had an incredible connection with - we slept together for the good part of a year, until we decided to stop the physical because the relationship wasn't going...
    catonfire catonfire 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    its time for bed. I can't sleep with too much on my mind, but tonight. he has consumed my mind and imagination. I can't wait to sleep and be in his arms. in my dreams. stromg arms...
    shyshewolf shyshewolf 70+, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    She was the reason why I cut myself last year. She's the reason I have scars on my arms and heart. But at the same time she's the reason why I keep going. Why I keep smiling...
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M 5 Responses Apr 4

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    right now I am feeling murky, tasteless, sad, grey, uncomfortable. And my roommates are indifferent to everything. Why do we not care about others? I am getting tears, but holding...
    anonymalsand anonymalsand 22-25, M Apr 8

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    . You haven't given me any hints. I've trusted you with my feelings... I was left alone like a lost puppy in the rain. Drowning in my own sadness. I have put up with so much. I...
    meetmeinthepouringrain meetmeinthepouringrain 22-25, M Apr 12

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    She lives just in front of my house. She is young as me but married having 2 Small kids. I love her since last 2 Years or so its a form of deep crush that makes me smile Holds my...
    neeraj8king neeraj8king 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have had a few of these. Moments that are so special but you can't take a photo or keep a souvenir. You are just left with secret memories that only one other person will ever...
    Littlemissshy7 Littlemissshy7 46-50, F 1 day ago

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    This is the generation I live in. Instead of crying in front of friends and family I am crying behind a computer screen hoping to get sympathy from strangers. I don't like my life...
    secretheartpanda secretheartpanda 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    It's 12:30am, I have to be up at 5am. Can't sleep. It seems perfect right now though. The peaceful sound of rain, books, music, no one running around. If only there wasn't this...
    lemonturtle lemonturtle 13-15, F Apr 7

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    I can't remember the first 10 or 12 years of my life. And what few "memories" I have are more like pictures (like I may have seen a picture of it and remember that/I only remember...
    IAmJustAGhostGirl IAmJustAGhostGirl 13-15, F Apr 7

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    I used to cry a lot. but now it seems Like I can't. I can't laugh either. I hate it.
    Ang012685 Ang012685 26-30, F Apr 8

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    I really can't stand it anymore. It seems like I cringe every time on of my co-workers talks, and these girls love to chit chat, nonstop, till it's time to punch the clock. I can...
    BrokeBandit BrokeBandit 36-40, F Apr 10

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    I wanted someone to know me before I died. Wanted them to know what I was really like. I think that's part of what sparked my ramble today. That, and weariness. My ramble was a cry...
    ambivalentFriability ambivalentFriability 18-21 1 Response Apr 14

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    As a person who stays up long and sleeps at irregular intervals, I know that nights can be quite lonely.. Then again, it isn't any less lonely than I am for the rest of the day...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 9 Responses Apr 16

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    I'm home schooled, so I'm not waiting to spend those extra hours in bed during the morning.I like to get up early, so I can't really say anything about that. I prefer learning and...
    Phoenixem Phoenixem 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I had to relocate from Nevada to florida because of work. No choice. my son who is 14 is with me and my gf and our almost 2 year old little girl. Unfortunately I can't handle the...
    lv2fl lv2fl 36-40, M Apr 1

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