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I Can't Seem to Get a Hold On My Life

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    Nothing Makes Sense Anymore.

    I have always been a very good student. I've always made good grades and understood (with effort) all of the topics my teachers explained to me. I'm in three advanced placement classes (which are college leveled) and all of my other classes are honors. I'm in clubs. I tutor for...
    midorimarie1 midorimarie1 16-17 2 Responses Oct 4, 2011

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    Holy Crap!

    Everyday I can't but wonder where did i go wrong? Did I **** off the Karhma Gods? I once lived in a home with a family that loved me, I had cars, a good job, and wanted for very little. Now i live in a converted motel off the interstate, alone, a slave to mass transit, with a job...
    sacdadi sacdadi 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 13, 2008

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    Some Friends, Some Boyfriends, Some Lack Of Work, All Venting.

    i havent been on in a while, honestly because ive forgotten this was an option. i've been super depressed lately and having quite a bit of trouble trying to get out of it. im not sure what, if anything, brought it on this time. im feeling like i dont have any real friends these...
    snowai snowai 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9, 2013

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    The Avatar Fits What I Feel About This Subject

    (The avatar currently displayed is a picture of someone squeezing their fingers with a sun in the background.  For any Monty Python fans, it's like when they were fighting by 'squeezing someone's head' in that skit.  Hopefully that's clear enough, I only explain...
    zenandi zenandi 31-35, M Dec 14, 2008

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    What Am I Doing?

    It never ceases to amaze me when I start looking at my life and wondering how I got to this point and wondering what the hell I'm doing. Laying here, trying to will myself into the cold morning air to perpetually embark on the endless journey of taking 2 steps back for...
    interplanetaryenvy interplanetaryenvy 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    I am.. but sometimes I wish I could read other's thoughts. Lately my life's been very busy and hectic... but for a woman that spend so much time being 'caged' up.. being...
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    ambivalentFriability ambivalentFriability 18-21 May 19

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    britman33 britman33 46-50, M May 5

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    thewatcher12 thewatcher12 13-15 1 Response May 15

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    Most days, it seems I can't please ANYBODY. So I'll do what I can and please myself and let the rest of the world do the same. :)
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 7 Responses May 18

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