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I Can't Stand Myself

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    Trapped

    i ******* hate this. i feel like I've messed up every single relationship I've ever had and theres nothing left but broken pieces. and theres nothing particularly wrong but everywhere i go i feel like I'm just trapped, like the air around me is suffocating and I'm losing time and...
    foreverthesweetthings foreverthesweetthings 13-15, F Apr 17, 2012

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    off late i've been living a life of self hatred

    and self pity, wanting to explode... ohh but u can't coz u're in a public place. kind of experience. i'm 26 and want to end my life when im 27- but live this year for myself
    probosckie probosckie 26-30, M Apr 30

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    Screwed Up

    I'm the most ******-up person I have ever known. Sure, from the outside, it may look like my problems are trivial (and I agree that I could have WAY worse ones), but on the inside, I am a ******* mess. I wish I could erase my memory until it's clean.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 5 Responses Nov 28, 2010

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    I can't stand myself

    that I am fat and ugly. I always look and the mirror and cry. I feel unwanted and unloved. All these skinny girls with their hot boyfriends. I tried becoming bulimic, and that made me feel worse. I try to cut, but I felt like I would be letting all my close friends and family...
    upsidedownworld upsidedownworld 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    I am Totally The Ugliest And Most Worthless Person On Ep

    i cant stand myself  i never look in a mirror  i can shave without a mirror now dont own a mirror why would i want to be reminded of how totally worthless i am hate to see people why should they be made to look at me know how ill i must  make them when they have to see me  i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 7, 2011

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    I've spent the past few years of my life trying

    to really get a grasp of what kind of person I want to be and I've been trying my hardest to strive for it but occasionally I keep making these extremely inconsiderate mistakes that keep me from keeping to my ongoing potential. It's times like this where I can't get out of a...
    Slamrish Slamrish 22-25 Dec 4, 2013

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    I Can't Stand That I Am Ugly, Stupid And Completely Worthless

    I look at myself in the mirror and i feel like dying, i swear i do. I see pretty people everywhere around me, see how they live their perfect lives! I can't pretend that I am happy with myself and i am glad with what i am having now. I know I should be grateful, i know i am. I am...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 18-21, F 22 Responses Apr 7, 2011

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    Envy Me, I Found Out I Am Already For The Holidays

    Yesterday was my birthday. It went about as bad as they always do. I'm not great about my birthdays or some aspects of the holidays. I would like them to go better, but I just can't seem to make it happen. To top this off , it aggravates my wife intensely. I just don't need...
    hateable hateable 51-55, M 1 Response Aug 30, 2012

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    Who Am I.

    Who am i? I can't stand This person. I can't stand who I am, what I look like, how I treat others, how I think; I can't stand any of it. Everyday I feel like a burden to everyone I come in contact with. I don't remember the last time I felt okay with myself, the last time I felt...
    Xocrayolacat Xocrayolacat 18-21, F Jun 26, 2013

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    Binge Eating No Willpower

    I get so sad and angry I can't stop and maybe I'm a hypocrite but sometimes I can't help and pay attention to what people say. I hate how this is destroying my life I hate how lonely and pathetic I'am I can't stand myself
    Sora Sora 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 3, 2007

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    Well This Is My Story

    I don't really care for who i am, Big surprise right?  I mean this group is about not liking who you are, but really what do you expect?  I've tried to get out of this rut, but i keep on re-learning that i hate who i am and you know, i have alot of friends in different...
    fornowish fornowish 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 1, 2010

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    Like Me

    If you are like me you like solitude.  You find yourself hiding every day from the people who who view you as an outcast.  You hate your body, your style, the way you walk, even the way you breathe.  You run from being social, resent those who are and hate the...
    Cheezitt Cheezitt 31-35 1 Response Oct 11, 2010

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    Ewww Im So Ugly

    i literally cannot stand myself. no advice works. nothing. i really hate it. i look in the mirrow and i start to cry. one day i threw up at my refelection. im not asking anyone to feel sorry for me. because if im ugly im ugly. im only wrting this to express mysef. and relate to...
    LiveLoveLaugh6 LiveLoveLaugh6 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2012

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    Depressed

    19 y.o., almost 20, fat, single, no talent, ugly, stupid. I'm at the point where i almost stopped eating but the barely necessary not to feel pain, stopped caring about everything, i stopped trying to change. I can't even stand the sight of me anymore, everytime i see my ugly...
    VikingHaag2 VikingHaag2 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 8, 2011

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    Why Am I So Ugly?

    I seem to be getting uglier every year. I have days where I can't stand the sight of myself if I catch my refletion in a window or whatever. My family say I look good (they would) but lately I can't even see ANY redeeming features. I try everything. I work out, I eat good, but it...
    blankspace2011 blankspace2011 22-25, M 4 Responses Oct 2, 2011

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    Breaking The Stigma

    i sat today and thought in a stupor because thats all i can do for the first two hours of my day because of the medications i take i am 34 and my health just seems to keep spiraling out of control i know its the depression that has me in such a tight grip i swear i can feel my...
    seemyheartnotmysin seemyheartnotmysin 36-40, M May 12, 2013

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    I Suck And People Suck More!

    I so sick and tired of life man, really. Im a lazy ************ and way to flexable with myself. Im constantly spotting problems with myself that I just do not fix. I know I... skip to many workouts, eat like ****, smoke to much (3 days smoke free right now tho), cut myself to...
    mikeiacono mikeiacono 22-25 1 Response Dec 26, 2010

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    I Can't Stand Myself

         I will first tell you how I used to be because my past makes my pain sharper. I used to be perfect. I liked my life, I was the top student of the class, my teachers loved me, I won competitions, I was fit and played tennis almost every day. I didn't...
    siuan1 siuan1 18-21, F Nov 1, 2010

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    Prepared

    Sometimes it's best to look at the ugly and be ready to make the best decision. I challenge you to look at a hypothetical and try some new thinking, no automatic judgment and share a real thought. Here's two quick warm ups 1. Tina the teenager just broke up her boyfriend and...
    hateable hateable 51-55, M 1 Response Jan 2, 2013

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    I'm glad I finally found somewhere I can vent! My mother in law is so freaking annoying, I literally can not stand her! I try to talk to my husband but it always turns into a fight...
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    Whenever I try to share/think about sharing things that are very personal to me with others (this can be anyone my mother, a friend) I feel like I am going to cry. Usually I just...
    modinski modinski 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    I can't understand 98% of the human race and how they think and live. It doesn't bother me I just don't understand it
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It's such a stab to my own back when I can't be allowed by the one that lives on the clouds to browse the web.
    psycopower90 psycopower90 22-25, M Sep 8

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    Mostly their kid is a real idiot. He stays up all night playing with his stupid a$$ drum set! He plays alllll nighttt lately. I'm gonna go over and take that thing and smash it...
    bettygingham bettygingham 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 9

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    I want to have self-control and self-discipline but it's something that I lack. I have so many wonderful ideas and plans but it seems like motivation fades when it comes time to...
    TheDiscardedImage TheDiscardedImage 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 11

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    Having said that if the religious maniacs can be encouraged to just fight each other, and leave the rest of us out of it... Need I finish this thought?
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I support and find my inspiration in Norse paganism and I keep it to myself. But those who know and are of other religion mainly Christians since that's the main religion of the US...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M Sep 1

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    I feel like killing myself! Before u judge my parents are amazing people separately but together they are like coke and mentos- very explosive. My parents dont often fight maybe...
    xXPEACEMAKERXx xXPEACEMAKERXx 22-25, F Sep 9

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    Ive dealt with my parents fighting. Im in the 6th grade and every since I was 5 my parents fought. Sometimes it was really bad and it made me yell and scream. Today theyre fighting...
    LostKrispieUpset LostKrispieUpset 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 24

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    My boyfriend and I spend a healthy amount of time together, our families are close, we have a great bond and are very open. I am his first serious relationship, and there is one...
    classic00 classic00 18-21, F Sep 6

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    Have you ever met somebody who was just so ignorant that you physically couldn't understand them? I went on a program once with some people including one girl whose name I will...
    dontknowmylife dontknowmylife 18-21, M Sep 15

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    For those of you that don't know, "shipping" is to endorse two people in a romantic relationship-fictional or non fictional. My friends have been shipping me with some boy (who...
    Artistecorner Artistecorner 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    My experience on Tuesday was horrific. I and a friend were arrogantly asked to come down of a public bus for two Egyptians to enter (after we waited for like 10 to 15 minutes...
    Adamaali Adamaali 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 29

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    This morning my dad told me they were getting a divorce. He didn't break it gently, just told us what was going to happen. I have an audition tomorrow, I have no idea how I'm going...
    lillylolz lillylolz 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    "Why must we argue over such things? I believe in Allah but I do not force my beliefs onto other people, I am open minded to other people's opinions. If there is a god. I am sure...
    Sighting Sighting 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    NO ONE CARES WHAT YOU DO AND DON'T BELIEVE IN c:
    gorgeoushobo gorgeoushobo 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 1

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    When I'm eating lunch with headphones in, why do ppl take that as an invitation to talk to me? Then i just look rude when i don't respond.
    mawniegirl mawniegirl 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    It's not that I'm trying to be difficult when I'm asked what's wrong and I reply with ”I don't know". I'm not looking for you to try to pull it out of me or make it in to a...
    hecallsmekitty hecallsmekitty 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Yes, they do exist. One was my partner and one was my mother. Shame on me.
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 17 hrs ago

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    I live in Oklahoma. The weather is odd here
    cjohnson1983 cjohnson1983 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    There's an aschhole in my class I would love to beat the daylight a out of! He lives to **** me off, the unnamed goat! Met him at the sink when I was trying to wash my hands and...
    gaeainchaos gaeainchaos 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    Religoulocity proves that moronic. But hey morons fight about lame stuff. So. No big surprise there.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 1 Response Sep 1

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    I worship b00ty B00ty is life
    gorgeoushobo gorgeoushobo 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    I am ashamed to say that my parents are racists.
    LilacLoner222 LilacLoner222 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    Wow, 4 times today.. getting rather fed up
    romeo27 romeo27 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 7

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    And it's getting like 'The Walking Dead' out there - the world's full of them.
    SLdale SLdale 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 12