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I Can't Stand Myself

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    I can't stand myself

    that I am fat and ugly. I always look and the mirror and cry. I feel unwanted and unloved. All these skinny girls with their hot boyfriends. I tried becoming bulimic, and that made me feel worse. I try to cut, but I felt like I would be letting all my close friends and family...
    upsidedownworld upsidedownworld 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2014

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    Screwed Up

    I'm the most ******-up person I have ever known. Sure, from the outside, it may look like my problems are trivial (and I agree that I could have WAY worse ones), but on the inside, I am a ******* mess. I wish I could erase my memory until it's clean.
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 5 Responses Nov 28, 2010

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    I bought a guy lunch today

    because his meal plan at our school ran out and he didn't have money. He's a really sweet guy and plays on our football team and is very intelligent and quite handsome. I just recently started talking to him, and he told me about a bar near us that I might like. He casually...
    Skollon Skollon 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 25, 2014

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    I Can't Stand That I Am Ugly, Stupid And Completely Worthless

    I look at myself in the mirror and i feel like dying, i swear i do. I see pretty people everywhere around me, see how they live their perfect lives! I can't pretend that I am happy with myself and i am glad with what i am having now. I know I should be grateful, i know i am. I am...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F 25 Responses Apr 7, 2011

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    Well This Is My Story

    I don't really care for who i am, Big surprise right?  I mean this group is about not liking who you are, but really what do you expect?  I've tried to get out of this rut, but i keep on re-learning that i hate who i am and you know, i have alot of friends in different...
    fornowish fornowish 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 1, 2010

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    Breaking The Stigma

    i sat today and thought in a stupor because thats all i can do for the first two hours of my day because of the medications i take i am 34 and my health just seems to keep spiraling out of control i know its the depression that has me in such a tight grip i swear i can feel my...
    seemyheartnotmysin seemyheartnotmysin 36-40, M May 12, 2013

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    Trapped

    i ******* hate this. i feel like I've messed up every single relationship I've ever had and theres nothing left but broken pieces. and theres nothing particularly wrong but everywhere i go i feel like I'm just trapped, like the air around me is suffocating and I'm losing time and...
    foreverthesweetthings foreverthesweetthings 13-15, F Apr 17, 2012

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    I Suck And People Suck More!

    I so sick and tired of life man, really. Im a lazy ************ and way to flexable with myself. Im constantly spotting problems with myself that I just do not fix. I know I... skip to many workouts, eat like ****, smoke to much (3 days smoke free right now tho), cut myself to...
    mikeiacono mikeiacono 22-25 2 Responses Dec 26, 2010

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    Prepared

    Sometimes it's best to look at the ugly and be ready to make the best decision. I challenge you to look at a hypothetical and try some new thinking, no automatic judgment and share a real thought. Here's two quick warm ups 1. Tina the teenager just broke up her boyfriend and...
    hateable hateable 51-55, M 1 Response Jan 2, 2013

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    Binge Eating No Willpower

    I get so sad and angry I can't stop and maybe I'm a hypocrite but sometimes I can't help and pay attention to what people say. I hate how this is destroying my life I hate how lonely and pathetic I'am I can't stand myself
    Sora Sora 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 3, 2007

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    Why Am I So Ugly?

    I seem to be getting uglier every year. I have days where I can't stand the sight of myself if I catch my refletion in a window or whatever. My family say I look good (they would) but lately I can't even see ANY redeeming features. I try everything. I work out, I eat good, but it...
    blankspace2011 blankspace2011 22-25, M 4 Responses Oct 2, 2011

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    I annoy myself so much.

    my mind never stops talking. i hate the sound of my own voice. i hate my reflection. i hate the way i look. i hate my personality. i hate everything about myself and i annoy myself so much. i can't stand myself
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I've spent the past few years of my life trying

    to really get a grasp of what kind of person I want to be and I've been trying my hardest to strive for it but occasionally I keep making these extremely inconsiderate mistakes that keep me from keeping to my ongoing potential. It's times like this where I can't get out of a...
    Slamrish Slamrish 26-30 Dec 4, 2013

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    Envy Me, I Found Out I Am Already For The Holidays

    Yesterday was my birthday. It went about as bad as they always do. I'm not great about my birthdays or some aspects of the holidays. I would like them to go better, but I just can't seem to make it happen. To top this off , it aggravates my wife intensely. I just don't need...
    hateable hateable 51-55, M 1 Response Aug 30, 2012

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    I Can't Stand Myself

         I will first tell you how I used to be because my past makes my pain sharper. I used to be perfect. I liked my life, I was the top student of the class, my teachers loved me, I won competitions, I was fit and played tennis almost every day. I didn't...
    siuan1 siuan1 18-21, F Nov 1, 2010

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    I am Totally The Ugliest And Most Worthless Person On Ep

    i cant stand myself  i never look in a mirror  i can shave without a mirror now dont own a mirror why would i want to be reminded of how totally worthless i am hate to see people why should they be made to look at me know how ill i must  make them when they have to see me  i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 7, 2011

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    off late i've been living a life of self hatred

    and self pity, wanting to explode... ohh but u can't coz u're in a public place. kind of experience. i'm 26 and want to end my life when im 27- but live this year for myself
    probosckie probosckie 26-30, M Apr 30, 2014

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    Depressed

    19 y.o., almost 20, fat, single, no talent, ugly, stupid. I'm at the point where i almost stopped eating but the barely necessary not to feel pain, stopped caring about everything, i stopped trying to change. I can't even stand the sight of me anymore, everytime i see my ugly...
    VikingHaag2 VikingHaag2 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 8, 2011

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    Who Am I.

    Who am i? I can't stand This person. I can't stand who I am, what I look like, how I treat others, how I think; I can't stand any of it. Everyday I feel like a burden to everyone I come in contact with. I don't remember the last time I felt okay with myself, the last time I felt...
    Xocrayolacat Xocrayolacat 18-21, F Jun 26, 2013

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    Like Me

    If you are like me you like solitude.  You find yourself hiding every day from the people who who view you as an outcast.  You hate your body, your style, the way you walk, even the way you breathe.  You run from being social, resent those who are and hate the...
    Cheezitt Cheezitt 31-35 1 Response Oct 11, 2010

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