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I Cant Stop Cutting

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 218 People

    why do u cut ???? It heels

    and I cut and it's going on ......
    kunalmalik kunalmalik 31-35, M 4 days ago

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    Don't Just Need It Anymore, I Have To Have It...

    Cutting is one of the dumbest things i've ever succumed to and I hate myself everyday for doing it. I'm one of those girls who look like I got it all together.. well to the world. My closest friends know I do it and they also know that I starve myself too. I've been doing it for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 21, 2011

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    Want to Stop

    I've been cutting for over a year now, And well i'm just kinda tired of doing it. Do any body know a way to stop cutting?
    Ashie Ashie 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 11, 2009

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    Video

    I'm doing a YouTube video about self harm awareness. I would really, really appreciate anyone who would be willing to help me. I'm a self harmer myself but I think I could really benefit from making a video about it. I want to help people and I really believe this could be the...
    amysfc95 amysfc95 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2012

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    Help Me.

    I just can't do it anymore. I want to stop and all of that crap, but whenever I feel i need to cut, I do.My dad is a pot head and I just can't take my life anymore. I think i might be becoming anorexic, but who knows. I just want it all to end. People, life. I just need help but...
    lovelesspanda lovelesspanda 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2011

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    Like An Addiction...

    It all started in Jr. High. I just got into such a dark place, and everything was piling on and piling on... I finally broke. I went to the knife and haven't been able to quit. Years of recovery and a subscription to every recovery site you could think of and I'm still struggling...
    rosered9854 rosered9854 18-21 3 Responses Mar 15, 2012

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    In My Dark Lonely....hole.

    my names travis thompson i live in Bend, Oregon. i have, . . .a serious problem.i started cutting at the age of 9 with a piece of glass. im 17 now and have cut everyday since i was 9.(besides the year i was in a youth correctional facility).im at an independent living program now...
    anotherguy94 anotherguy94 16-17, M Nov 12, 2011

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    Scars

    The scars are memories now, marks on my arms that remind me of my darkest times. They remind me of times when I was weak and couldn't stand on my own. They remind my of the crutch that cutting once was. Now they're the past, and now I'm better. Now I'm me again.
    Chelsea56 Chelsea56 18-21, F Aug 4, 2013

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    I Just Started...

    I started cutting 4days ago. I've delt with lots of stuff & never acted out on my feelings. It just got to be too much, I saw the razor & cut. It's almost like being high to me lol. I told my bf cuz I trust him & wanted someone to understand me. He told me I was...
    J3llyB3an J3llyB3an 16-18, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2008

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    Please. Help. Me.

    I am a 15 year old girl. I cut myself for the first time in March of 2011. I carved the word failure into my left arm. And the scar is still there /: I am afraid to show my arms still, and I still cut myself..please help me!
    tennischeertay tennischeertay 13-15 3 Responses Sep 18, 2011

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    Trust

            Even since i started cutting, my own mom been treating me different. I told 2 people, A.Siggy(best friend) and Barbie( also best friend). Barbie told a boy and he told everyone at school, so now the whole school knows. Barbie is not talking to me because i told...
    marietigger marietigger 13-15 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    This Life...

    I have been cutting since 8th grade and I started because of a boy just being stupid. Then it turned into so much more. It gave me a relief I had never experienced and I loved it, therefore I did it more. My friends knew about it but didnt care, I found out later a few of them...
    SecretSpirit SecretSpirit 22-25, F 2 Responses May 1, 2011

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    Please Stop Cutting!!!

    It's not just teens who do this.  I'm 38, lost 25 lbs. and look great! Went from 12 to size 2!  I have a great marriage to my high school hottie (he found me after 15 years) of 6 1/2 years except for the fact he started drinking waaayyyyy waaaayyy toooooo much!!! ...
    kajo kajo 36-40 1 Response Jul 21, 2008

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    Not Worth It..

    When I was about 5 years old, my brother started molesting me. This went on for a few years, until I finally began threatening to tell someone about it. All throughout elementary school, I was teased and harrased verbally by all my other classmates. My brother beat me up nearly...
    MarinaXmisery MarinaXmisery 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 12, 2010

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    Addiction

    i hav these constant urges 2 cut myself, i no wer all my blades r n if 1 goes missin i strt 2 panic. my family n friends want me 2 stop, they tell me to find new ways 2 cope but coping isnt tha problem, i'm addicted, feeling the pain, seeing the blood. i fight so hard 2 not cut...
    IcclexAngel IcclexAngel 18-21 Aug 29, 2008

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    I Just Need Somebody To Talk To.

    I'm 14 years old and I'm just so depressed. I cut myself because I don't feel like I'm good enough for anybody. My parents don't know and I don't want them to. I wish people could like me for who I am. I'm not lesbian, gay or bi. But everyone thinks I am. I'm not fat. I have...
    ineedsomebodytolove ineedsomebodytolove 13-15 8 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    My Self Harm Addiction

    I'm 16, my name's Imogen and I've been cutting since i was about 12. The first couple of years i wasn't cutting too deep or too frequently, but in the last year it's been really bad. I've attempted suicide before and I've unintentionally cut too deep on my wrist. I'm having a...
    Ivtv Ivtv 16-17 1 Response Nov 28, 2011

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    Text Me Help Me Im Hurting Self Harm Is What Seems To Be Helping 612~810~8339

    hey im nikki meyer i was born jan 23 my heart is broken lord whe have u betrayed me cutting is the only way to hide the hurt and pain i dont know who i am all i want to do is sleep all day my life is tumblin down i cannot run from the higer level of authority i shall not run...
    nicnac43 nicnac43 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 9, 2010

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    More Than Habit

    I struggled with SI for about 8 years. I finally shared this with my therapist after a year of working with her because it had been getting worse. Since then its gone from worse to just plain terrifying. Now, she wants me to surrender my cutting instuments! I'm torn about this. I...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 6, 2008

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    Cutting Is My Only Addiction.

    it is, really. I've convinced myself I could stop. I went to a rehabilitation center...and when I got out, I started cutting deeper. I cannot stop for the life of me. I need help:/
    daniXdead daniXdead 16-17, F 7 Responses Oct 23, 2007

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    Sober/not

    I have a cutting problem, and it started in 7th grade. (now I'm in 10th) I've done it on and off for three years now. And I am 5.5 months sober and it's SOOOOO hard to stop. And I have technically stopped. But I miss it so bad that I want to do it. I've had a lot of things happen...
    Froggy6 Froggy6 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 31, 2012

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    Damn.

    I am not totally sure why I looked up this group today. I have written stories on other topics on this site before but, I guess I went looking for somthing else. I ended up looking up cutting groups to read stories and maybe lend a hopefully some what helpful...
    ChangingCurrents ChangingCurrents 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2009

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    Does It Get Any Easier???

    HI, im 20 years pld i haven't cut in 3 years but, the temptation is still there sometimes. Sometimes it's easy to handle on my own but, there are times it's all i can do not to do it again. I was abused emotionaly, mentally, and phiscally for three years by father. He told me he...
    fallenangel20 fallenangel20 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 29, 2012

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    Again ..

    I am new to the site my name's Ashley I've been cutting since I was 12 now I'm 22 ... when I was in 8th grade I became depressed and isolated myself from my family n friends and began cutting myself. Looking back now cutting was more for the attention when I was young and it...
    Devenica Devenica 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 30, 2011

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    I Started Again

    I started cutting myself a few months ago but i decided to stop b/c i didn't want any1 to find out that i did it but then last week my dad made me mad and idk y but i started cutting again. I want to stop b/c I don't want to go down that road like my 2 friends did and my current...
    Ashie Ashie 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 7, 2008

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    I Think I've Crossed The Line

    I am someone who has a good idea of what I'm doing and when, but I don't feel like I am anymore. At first I did it ever once in a long time. Then, it became more frequent. I became addicted to what I've labeled 'Blood Highs.' That's basically when I lose so much blood that I...
    Aonair16 Aonair16 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    I Started Again...

    i Started cutting almost two years ago and i tried to stop about a year ago but i just cant. I didn't cut for like two months but then it just gets to be to much and nothing else makes me feel better. i went three and a half months without cutting but i started again and its...
    Rigoletto Rigoletto 16-17, F Apr 28, 2008

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    They Think Ive Really Stopped

    cutting is my life. how do they expect me to stop? i need that blood as i reminder that im still alive. that i have sumthing in me to keep me breathing. i need to release that so i dont have to breathe anymore. so that i dont have to feel the pain that is every where so i wont be...
    baristababy baristababy 18-21 2 Responses May 25, 2008

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    I Swear It Was Over.

    really did. i hadnt done it for so long.. not that i was happy again.. i just thought i had found different ways to cool my jets. but i hadnt. and now its worsee.
    sarcasticsmile sarcasticsmile 16-18, F 7 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    I Can't Stop

    I'm trying to quit that cutting thing and I cut again. From first I felt incredible, amazing. and now I'm crying and feeling worthless. I hate myself that I can't control my actions. I just wanna don't cut anymore... I wanna be free...
    TheAgnes TheAgnes 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2012

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    My Release

    ive only been cutting for about a year. no one in my family knows about it, but my best friend and boyfriend do. the reason why i started was because my step dad and i started fighting. at first, it was just verbal. then it got to be physical. one night he called me some things...
    bgbabe1 bgbabe1 22-25 2 Responses Oct 13, 2008

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    My Razors

    Razors are my best friends and my worst enemies. They do the cleanest cuts. They get addicting. They are always there when I need them, whether they are in my back pocket or in a pencil sharpener on my desk. For me its always one cut, two cuts, three cuts, floor. I do it almost...
    kalliethorn kalliethorn 18-21, F Jul 15, 2013

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    I Dont Want Too

    I cut, and i dont want to stop. I havnt been cutting very long, but it makes me feel better. i started cutting because i was mad at my friend, cut my finger tips, and after i did all 10 i had nothing else.   I cut my forearm. the only person whos knows is my ex...
    LillyGoesGrr LillyGoesGrr 18-21 1 Response Mar 20, 2009

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    What should i do?

    Why do i feel like this? confused frustrated hollow. Cutting is the only way that gets these emotions to be forgotten. Its the only way to stop this battle that is in my head. Its a way of coping but, why do people look down on this? I feel like nothing in this world, like each...
    MelancholySea MelancholySea 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 20, 2012

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    Errr Hi....

    Hi, i'm Keri and i'm new to this site. I started cutting in 6th grade and now i'm a freshmen in highschool. I cant ******* stop :/  why? idk. I want help and need it but if I go to my parents they get mad and punish me because they dont understand. I started cutting because...
    xxlovemexx xxlovemexx 13-15 2 Responses Jun 30, 2011

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    Can't Stop I Don't Want to

    My mom and friends are trying to get me to stop cutting, but I really don't want to. Its starting to annoy the hell outta me that they keep telling me stop or just saying you need help were sending you to a mental hospital. I told my friend if he did that as soon as I got out I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 27, 2008

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    The Way It Helps.

    When people find out you cut they ethier look at you werid, make fun of you, worry, or tell someone else. No one can truely know how it feels unless they have done it before. Cutting is used at a release, a way to stop the pain or feel alive. Yes theyre is a case where a person...
    sadnessneverends sadnessneverends 16-17 6 Responses Jul 21, 2010

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    Bad Habit

      /START-EDIT/ I'm actually really proud to say that I haven't cut in over three months. (: /END-EDIT/    I always have; I don't know why. I guess it's my way to deal with things. Some smoke, some drink, some do other things; and I do this...
    M0RGUE M0RGUE 18-21, F 5 Responses May 2, 2008

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    I Don't Want To Stop

    I mean I want to stop for my friends sake, but I don't want to stop for me. My friend is as severely depressed as i am and it'll make her happy if I stop. But I just can't do it. I don't even really want to. She cares so much and I'd do anything for her. But I can't stop cutting...
    AlleyFreakingKat AlleyFreakingKat 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

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    I Cant Stop

    I cant stop cutting i have tried and nothing works i dont know what to do i have been cutting for 3 years how can i stop
    dorothy66 dorothy66 19-21, F 4 Responses Jan 16, 2008

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    Lost In Fear

    I've been cutting for three years. And I've gotten really close to killing my self. I can't go on. HELP!
    BlackeyesBluetears BlackeyesBluetears 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 28, 2011

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    The Never-ending Cycle

    I can't quite remember when it started, I just know that I was young. I had to of only been a child when I started scratching myself out of anger. I didn't know how to release all these over-bearing emotions. I started using objects (scissors, knives, etc) when I was 12. I'd...
    Honehe Honehe 19-21, F 4 Responses Oct 20, 2007

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    Please.

    Hi. I started hurting myself several months ago. I had never thought of bringing a razor to my wrist. I did sports, had decent grades, and good friends. But that started to change. I had moved to a new school. Boys called me bad names and girls ignored me. My grades slipped. I...
    justanothersadgirl justanothersadgirl 16-17 3 Responses Aug 26, 2011

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    I Wish I Could Stop!

    I quit cutting for about a month and a half and then somthing pushed me to breaking apart a razor and cutting.  Everyone, friends, family all want me to "just stop" as they say. and they ask me why dont i just stop, and i can never find an answer for them besides...
    ifeelsoalone ifeelsoalone 16-17, F 17 Responses May 22, 2007

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    Pain Is My Crack

    well, i started causing myself bodily harm at age 14. After my father walked out. I was able to stop cutting myself up until like 3 days ago. i try to stop. everyone who knows i do it doesnt treat me the same anymore... i feel exilied. i just need a friend. someone i dont know to...
    RazorBladeNightmares RazorBladeNightmares 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 23, 2012

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    Errr Hi....

    Hi, i'm Keri and i'm new to this site. I started cutting in 6th grade and now i'm a freshmen in highschool. I cant ******* stop :/  why? idk. I want help and need it but if I go to my parents they get mad and punish me because they dont understand. I started cutting because...
    xxlovemexx xxlovemexx 13-15 1 Response Jun 30, 2011

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    Things Change..

     It has been quite a while since I have last been on this site. I looked back at the story I had written here, one of the first stories posted on this page actually. So much has changed since that day. I had gotten much worse with my cutting for a short while, my wounds...
    prettylikedrugs prettylikedrugs 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 9, 2011

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    I Always Fail To Explain Why.

    I've got more scars then I can count from years of cutting. The lighter ones have faded so only I know they are there. But the others, the ones I'm ?proud? of, will never go away. For the most part I don't cut anymore. Sometimes I give in, but it has gotten less and less. I...
    crowseye crowseye 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 25, 2011

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    I Tried

    I started to cut when I was 12. It all started when I was influence by my friend. It continued until when I was 13 because I started to get depressed. My life got dark. I became a lost kid. I didn't know anymore what I do. I got crazy partying and drinking and do some stupid...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 14, 2013

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    I Love How Blood Looks On Skin

    I've been cutting for 17 years now... And the point of cutting has evolved over the years. It used to be a childish cry for attention a young kid would do. And now, it's become an art, a beautiful ritual. I rate the need to cut from 1 - 13. And i never cut myself more than 13...
    pulomas pulomas 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 18, 2011

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    Ground Hamberger

    I have been cutting since I am 16 years old, I am now 59. Some people say that it releases the pressure. For me, I do it now because I am always in pain, I have fibromyalgia and severe arthritis, and the pain can get to me. Tonight I cut again, Both arms. I was hoping to take the...
    shreadedarms shreadedarms 56-60 2 Responses Jul 7, 2008

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