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I Can't Take This Pain In My Heart

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    My heart is very heavy,

    and I feel numb. I need a friend and someone to talk to. Or just a really big hug...
    KrisMiss KrisMiss 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 30

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    I'm done with these nightmares.

    Can't handle any more tears. It hurts too much. I'm done. I wanted to believe things would get better but they won't. It'll only get worse. I need to get out of here. I'm going to commit suicide and this is my final decision. I wanted to live but i can't. This planet wasn't...
    Anonimaninja Anonimaninja 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    Where Do I Go From Here?

    I have been divorced since January but still live with my ex. We were married for almost 20 years. In that time we split up a couple times but always got back together. I am moving out of the house at the beginning of the month and am more than ready. He actually has found a...
    hotsexynurse hotsexynurse 41-45, F 8 Responses Jun 6, 2012

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    I need an explanation.

    . how can I move to another chapter and just let it all go . I deserve to know the truth. I need to hear the reason behind . I need to know what's real thing in all the lies .
    panda05 panda05 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    Hopelessness

    Help Help Help Help Help!! Whatever is keeping me alive, should dig a hole and die. **** this! Not me,not now,not like this. Sick of crying I'm tired of trying my heart is crying Yeah I'm smiling but inside I'm dying I feel hopeless. My heart is killing me. But I can't do...
    Deepess Deepess 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2013

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    Everytime.....

    No words needed....the lyrics in this song is exactly how I feel..... It doesn't fade away..the harder I try the stronger the feelings grows....
    lexuslourve lexuslourve 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    I've never talked to this about anyone,

    but i need to get this pain out. This guilt, this loss. Thanks for reading. I met the love of my life on September 20th, 2012. It was on an online chatting site. Me and my friends used to get on when we were younger and lie about who we were just to get a good laugh out of it...
    regrets95 regrets95 18-21, M Jan 5

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    My Soul Mate

    SHE had a club foot... it required over 27 surgeries... we have ben together 20+ years... she became addicted to pain pills and then achochal .... now I cant take the abuse of her being drunk... and have to leave... it hurts so bad, why can she just quit and be my wife again??? I...
    TEMPOLTON TEMPOLTON 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 4, 2012

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    I'm so tired of everything lately,

    every now and then I loose my reason to live and I slowly slip 😞
    MallowCrisp MallowCrisp 18-21, F Jun 27

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    She's killing me. I've never felt

    so alone. And this time I'm done forgiving her. I just wanna die. She hurts me atleast once a week and I'm starting to wonder if our friendship even means anything to her anymore ':(
    y0ur3b3au1fu1 y0ur3b3au1fu1 13-15, F Jun 27

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    Final Goodbye

    I have to start at the beginning. When I met J, I was in a dying marriage. I had met him and he was new and exciting. I was smitten from day one. I felt that we were from the same cloth. I soon made the decision to leave my husband and go be with him. When I got there we were...
    heartbrokenandlonely heartbrokenandlonely 31-35 1 Response Feb 27, 2013

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    The past year has been rough on me.

    I feel like I've lost so much. The other night I posted on this site when I was having a moment of sadness and many left encouraging messages and kind words. I truly appreciate that. Its nice to know sometimes that there's someone there. Thank you all so very much! I'm sure I'll...
    Mell30 Mell30 31-35, F Dec 29, 2013

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    My boyfriend came home smelling like perfume

    and lies... I have nowhere else to live but here. I'm scared and I want to die..
    Anonimaninja Anonimaninja 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 9

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    I got the best gift for Christmas,

    another broken heart. That's what letting someone in and trusting them will do. He told me last night that he doesn't love me, that I was a toy. He said he had enough girls to last him a lifetime and I was no loss. The whole time he had a wife and several other girlfriends. My...
    Mell30 Mell30 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    The Rejection.

    I've just been rejected by an ungrateful cockroach.. oh the life on earth so miserable Oh. The. Pain. There's no point to life now... oh the needle in my heart hurts like a needle through the heart (okay I'm terrible at poems) Who can mend this petite heart of mine oh....
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    My current boyfriend makes me miss my ex

    boyfriend. That's not right, and I have such a heavy heart. I don't know what to do.... I am so sad...
    KrisMiss KrisMiss 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 6

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    I'm married and since a few months have a huge

    crush on a singer that I have never met. I love his voice and find it very comforting and long for him all the time. My husband is a bit distant, has always been and I think I'm lonely. Now this crush is also making me feel very lonely - he's gorgeous and I can't stop longing...
    seulejp seulejp 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 25

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    I really don't feel I have a heavy heart I feel

    it's more dead than alive though I'm still the nice person I once was I jus can't formulate any kind relationship with girls any more or friends for that matter is this just part of growing up or has my own self loathing gotten the better of me ?
    Youngnerd Youngnerd 16-17, M Sep 6

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    I'm not strong enough.

    It's hurts too much and too often. I want to feel nothing
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    I wish the person I love

    so much would just give me a chance. I'm so lost, alone. I just feel this deep darkness swelling inside, I keep searching for a light to fill it but everywhere I turn I find nothing but loneliness. If she only knew how much I love her it would be something she would hold on to...
    Ericknorth Ericknorth 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 22

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    So depressed... He doesn't see me.

    I'm nothing. My boyfriend doesn't notice me or appreciate me nor does he even care about how I feel at all. He's purposely trying to break me down so he can get rid of me cause He doesn't think I'm good enough. It's so sad that I have to deal with such agony like this. He...
    Anonimaninja Anonimaninja 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 14

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    I Cry For So Long It Hurts

    There's a really long continuous story to this but I can't help but to cry when my boyfriend jumps into conclusions about my intentions. He thinks I wake up wanting to start a fight or that I approach him knowing I'm going to start one. Well after he starts to yell at me and...
    meekme meekme 22-25, F 2 Responses May 18, 2012

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    He broke up with me for being too quiet.

    .. He said that it was also awkward when we were together. But he was the one that made it awkward!!! He himself admitted that! He knew that I was socially awkward yet he still asked me out. I tried so hard to keep a conversation going. But I was always so nervous that I might...
    CrazyNinja CrazyNinja 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    Painful

    Do you ever feel like you are walking through life watching everyone else live? Standing in line waiting to get on the ride but the ride never arrives. Waking up each morning and the first thought in your head is more sleep. Walking through the motions like an empty capsule...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 12, 2011

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    Blah

    my heart is getting tighter and tighter its harder and harder to breath im so sick of people telling me not to cut, and i have cut at all for over a month and well i feel so vulnerable, i feel so weak. i want to cut again, im craving it and i know it sounds sick, but i just...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 18, 2011

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    Right now I am talking to someone very special.

    It brought up a lot for me especially the direction my life is going in at one time I'm so happy for this person. And I know I can deal with it
    ICRETO ICRETO 46-50, M Aug 19

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    Here I Am Today

    Here I am today, after you and I went to sea and lost our ship in a blistering storm. We were forced to jump in the ice cold waters. We tried to hold on as long as we could. Eventually I let go because I was drowning you, and you were drowning me. Then, when the storm dissipated...
    Poker4Life Poker4Life 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 15, 2013

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    I Love Him, But..

    I love you but you just don't seem to understand how much you hurt me at times. I love you but you can never see where I'm coming from. I love you but I'm always the one making the effort. I love you but I can't take your bipolar moments anymore. I love you but I don't...
    AbbieEva AbbieEva 16-17, F Oct 13, 2013

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    Love Me, Before It's Too Late.

    It's hurting, and nobody can help. It keeps getting worse, and nothing can stop it. It's killing me inside, and nobody realises. It's crippling my happiness, and no one takes my problem seriously. I love, but nobody ever loved me back in the way I need. I help so many save/mend...
    DGSteele DGSteele 22-25, M 1 Response May 16, 2012

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    I guess I'm meant to be alone because

    yet another broken heart around Christmas. I think I'll stay to myself now. It really hurts! The pain is worse because I let him in and shouldn't have. When we met 9 months ago I thought it was special but it was just another game. I was his toy. Sometimes I wish I were ugly so...
    Mell30 Mell30 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 19, 2013

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    The Ground Is My Pain, Its Engolfing Me

    I wish i could find a way of letting go, someone reaching out a hand to help me up and say its ok.my dad glared at me, yeld and left,my mum laughed and kicked dirt in my face,my sister ran away from me,my aunt and uncle just fret,my friends stay a while around but sooner or later...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2011

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    You're There, But You're Not.

    I was with you today. You were there, but you weren't. I looked at you as you were gazing off into the distance. A minute passes and I realised I was doing the same. You get closer and shivers run down my spine. You whisper into my ear, ''what are you thinking?''.. I look...
    AbbieEva AbbieEva 16-17, F Dec 31, 2012

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    Pain Like No Other

    I was a boy in a school I was used as a toy to get to others nobody like me truly until I met the perfect girl she had short reddish brownish hair it was 3 in the morning at her house we had our first Kiss I'm 12 and me and her love each other but I can't forget 1st-4th grade...
    thedevil12443 thedevil12443 13-15, M Aug 23, 2013

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    There's only one person

    that can make this pain go away, and he won't do a ******* thing. I've asked and asked and asked and he looks at me and says "shh, don't think about it and you'll be ok". But I can't stop thinking about it, he doesn't understand, that every night I lay alone, while he holds her...
    xxxjulieann xxxjulieann 18-21, F Jun 27

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    I thought it was going away,

    instead it keeps growing and growing. I don't know what to do anymore.
    Diamondgirly Diamondgirly 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I Cant Take This Life Anymore

    That's it i have had it with life i just want it all to end now. I am so tired of being used, not wanted, or being good enough i cant handle it anymore i have done nothing but try to find someone who would just want me but all men are just plan ******** to see something good in...
    babytazz1d babytazz1d 31-35, F 9 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    Her

    My future causes me to have strange feelings, feigns that I've never felt before ever in my life. Sometimes I'm scared of them because I don't know how to handle them to well. When she's upset about something or upsets me like sadness, my heart hurts...I mean it actually hurts...
    HazelEyedWolf HazelEyedWolf 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 3, 2013

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    I`m Afraid To Surrender..

    Every day I more and more afraid to die. Some time ago my life turned into a nightmare. Before i had money, my own business that I love very much, power, friends, love, family. I had almost everything what I ever wanted and needed in my life. And now all gone...I feel myself so...
    TheCatInBoots TheCatInBoots 51-55, F 2 Responses Oct 4, 2012

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    Answer Me.

    Today I sit within the pits of my dark, confined mind, Today I spit out the remaining bits that my love has left behind. I spot the blood stains upon the floor, I cough, I choke, I smile some more. I take with me my hypocrisy that has driven you so mad. I steal from you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 4, 2013

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    Story Of My Life.

    I may not have all the answers, I may not understand how everyone feels, but all I know is that my heart aches for everyone & everything around me. People pretending to be happy with fake smiles to each other, Telling their loved ones that nothing is wrong, Lying to themselves...
    machimasu machimasu 22-25, M 1 Response May 15, 2013

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    Welcome To My Life

     http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLl1NDwMJpsDo you ever feel like breaking down?Do you ever feel out of place?Like somehow you just don't belongAnd no one understands youDo you ever wanna runaway?Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loudThat no one...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2011

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    To Accept Things I Cannot Change

    I hit some lows every once in a while. For the last few months, I've just been stressed, but okay. Sure, there was a roller coaster of emotions regarding how I felt for someone, but right now, it's alright, everything is just "dandy." I wouldn't say I'm depressed. Being home is...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F May 31, 2012

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    It feels like I'm so gonna get myself out of

    this desperation. Those daydreams, wishes, hopes. I'm tired of asking about the future. I'm honestly tired of looking for a guy who will like me and struggle for me - it's like 'oh you should have been dreaming, *****'. I'm tired of pretending that fun is being in this crowd. I...
    throatygirl throatygirl 18-21, F Jan 22

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    Pain

    wonder why my heart hurts so much from love i guess i cant get everything i want. down in wonder not to see the end. up in wonder cant see the light. wonder all around in my darkness. i been in this mood since you went away oh to it the death of you you wont come back oh...
    Sammieangel Sammieangel 18-21, T Aug 4, 2013

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    I don't like this feeling at all.

    I honestly feel like dying would be better than having this feeling. I have gone threw this heart ache so many times. I am so tired of feeling this. Right now I envy heartless people. If I could be like that I would be so much happier. But it will never happen because my heart...
    muppetmaster muppetmaster 41-45, M Jan 24

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    I fell so quickly and lost it

    even more quickly
    Nothingspecial4 Nothingspecial4 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 7, 2013

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