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I Can't Take This Pain In My Heart

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    10 months ago, My wife told me she didnt love

    me anymore and this week she told me it is over. This has been the worst year of my life
    umpreferee umpreferee 41-45, M 3 Responses Oct 4, 2014

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    I love someone who doesn't love me back.

    It hurts everyday, I've felt like this for 3 years.
    DanielleMaree DanielleMaree 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    Where Do I Go From Here?

    I have been divorced since January but still live with my ex. We were married for almost 20 years. In that time we split up a couple times but always got back together. I am moving out of the house at the beginning of the month and am more than ready. He actually has found a...
    hotsexynurse hotsexynurse 41-45, F 8 Responses Jun 6, 2012

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    Love Me, Before It's Too Late.

    It's hurting, and nobody can help. It keeps getting worse, and nothing can stop it. It's killing me inside, and nobody realises. It's crippling my happiness, and no one takes my problem seriously. I love, but nobody ever loved me back in the way I need. I help so many save/mend...
    DGSteele DGSteele 22-25, M 1 Response May 16, 2012

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    Hopelessness

    Help Help Help Help Help!! Whatever is keeping me alive, should dig a hole and die. **** this! Not me,not now,not like this. Sick of crying I'm tired of trying my heart is crying Yeah I'm smiling but inside I'm dying I feel hopeless. My heart is killing me. But I can't do...
    Deepess Deepess 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20, 2013

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    I'm so tired of everything lately,

    every now and then I loose my reason to live and I slowly slip 😞
    MallowCrisp MallowCrisp 18-21, F Jun 27, 2014

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    I`m Afraid To Surrender..

    Every day I more and more afraid to die. Some time ago my life turned into a nightmare. Before i had money, my own business that I love very much, power, friends, love, family. I had almost everything what I ever wanted and needed in my life. And now all gone...I feel myself so...
    TheCatInBoots TheCatInBoots 51-55, F 2 Responses Oct 4, 2012

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    It's gotten to the point

    where I'm done. I'm so tired of being here. I've tried to kill myself. Hell I tried two nights ago. Handful of oxycodone. It should've killed me... It was enough to.. I don't understand why I'm not dead. Am i just meant to be in pain forever? To live with only the purpose of...
    painseeker16 painseeker16 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    My daughter left for college,

    and I miss her more than I ever could have anticipated.
    Skernes Skernes 36-40, M Oct 4, 2014

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    To Accept Things I Cannot Change

    I hit some lows every once in a while. For the last few months, I've just been stressed, but okay. Sure, there was a roller coaster of emotions regarding how I felt for someone, but right now, it's alright, everything is just "dandy." I wouldn't say I'm depressed. Being home is...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F May 31, 2012

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    My current boyfriend makes me miss my ex

    boyfriend. That's not right, and I have such a heavy heart. I don't know what to do.... I am so sad...
    KrisMiss KrisMiss 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 6, 2014

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    It causes me panic attacks

    and it makes my mind drift in to a dark place where I want kill everybody. I want to scream to let it all out but when I scream I feel the same after.
    Deuz Deuz 18-21, M Nov 15, 2014

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    I'm starting to push away my friends just

    so the pain of leaving them won't be as bad, yet I find myself in even more pain as I see them in our group chats asking where I am and I don't response. It grows every time I avoid them in the hallways at school. Next year I'll be skipping a grade and they'll be behind me and...
    Nightfang109 Nightfang109 13-15, M 5 Responses Oct 4, 2014

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    There's only one person

    that can make this pain go away, and he won't do a ******* thing. I've asked and asked and asked and he looks at me and says "shh, don't think about it and you'll be ok". But I can't stop thinking about it, he doesn't understand, that every night I lay alone, while he holds her...
    xxxjulieann xxxjulieann 18-21, F Jun 27, 2014

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    I need an explanation.

    . how can I move to another chapter and just let it all go . I deserve to know the truth. I need to hear the reason behind . I need to know what's real thing in all the lies .
    panda05 panda05 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 22, 2014

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    LisamBlore LisamBlore 13-15, F Jan 1

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    599gto 599gto 13-15, M Nov 14, 2014

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    Pain

    wonder why my heart hurts so much from love i guess i cant get everything i want. down in wonder not to see the end. up in wonder cant see the light. wonder all around in my darkness. i been in this mood since you went away oh to it the death of you you wont come back oh...
    Sammieangel Sammieangel 18-21, T Aug 4, 2013

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    I Cant Take This Life Anymore

    That's it i have had it with life i just want it all to end now. I am so tired of being used, not wanted, or being good enough i cant handle it anymore i have done nothing but try to find someone who would just want me but all men are just plan ******** to see something good in...
    babytazz1d babytazz1d 31-35, F 9 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    Blah

    my heart is getting tighter and tighter its harder and harder to breath im so sick of people telling me not to cut, and i have cut at all for over a month and well i feel so vulnerable, i feel so weak. i want to cut again, im craving it and i know it sounds sick, but i just...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 18, 2011

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    It feels like I'm so gonna get myself out of

    this desperation. Those daydreams, wishes, hopes. I'm tired of asking about the future. I'm honestly tired of looking for a guy who will like me and struggle for me - it's like 'oh you should have been dreaming, *****'. I'm tired of pretending that fun is being in this crowd. I...
    throatygirl throatygirl 18-21, F Jan 22, 2014

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    I sleep by myself and it's not a healthy thing

    at all . My friends advise me to get a stable partner but It's going to take some time and effort , in the meanwhile I'm just making as many friends as possible. Plus I have my EP friends to live by. ;)
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M Oct 4, 2014

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    i'm loosing hope. Hope of being myself one-day.

    . I can't take this anymore. feels like sinking.
    leftaalone leftaalone 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    Its hard talking to person

    who never understand how much you struggle. You work hard on something but we are just human. We fail sometimes. But why out of everyone, He the one that are so close to us keep making it worse. As a student I got good grades on certain papers. But why never he compliment me on...
    ZykhaG ZykhaG 18-21, F Nov 14, 2014

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    life can change but my heart will never be

    healed its damaged in so many ways even how hard I try or people try its still Brocken and won't be mended . my life has been so hard I have been through things that will not be mended as have destroyed me to the skeleton. if anyone that's bisexual and is a girl I think u might...
    LisamBlore LisamBlore 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    I Cry For So Long It Hurts

    There's a really long continuous story to this but I can't help but to cry when my boyfriend jumps into conclusions about my intentions. He thinks I wake up wanting to start a fight or that I approach him knowing I'm going to start one. Well after he starts to yell at me and...
    meekme meekme 22-25, F 2 Responses May 18, 2012

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    I give up with everything

    and I'm ending my life
    LisamBlore LisamBlore 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    Dowandup Dowandup 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 2

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    My heart is very heavy,

    and I feel numb. I need a friend and someone to talk to. Or just a really big hug...
    KrisMiss KrisMiss 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 30, 2014

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    Painful

    Do you ever feel like you are walking through life watching everyone else live? Standing in line waiting to get on the ride but the ride never arrives. Waking up each morning and the first thought in your head is more sleep. Walking through the motions like an empty capsule...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 12, 2011

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    rodeeko rodeeko 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 2

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    It's always the same thing over

    and over I love someone and they turn around and leave like everyone else is it just me do I need to change to be a better man am I worthy of being happy
    jackdahliamurder jackdahliamurder 18-21, M Nov 19, 2014

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    I am having trouble getting over my

    ex-boyfriend. He started out so sweet and after a few months another side came out that I didn't like. It started little with anger spats, being extremely particular with everything I did, then it moved to yelling, calling me horrible names, and then hitting. I finally left...
    hopegarden33 hopegarden33 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2014

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    I wanna die then reborn

    and be different and a better life in total
    LisamBlore LisamBlore 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    I said i loved him back

    but i guess it is wrong, he walked away.
    Nikkixjansen Nikkixjansen 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    I really don't feel I have a heavy heart I feel

    it's more dead than alive though I'm still the nice person I once was I jus can't formulate any kind relationship with girls any more or friends for that matter is this just part of growing up or has my own self loathing gotten the better of me ?
    Youngnerd Youngnerd 16-17, M Sep 6, 2014

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    Everytime.....

    No words needed....the lyrics in this song is exactly how I feel..... It doesn't fade away..the harder I try the stronger the feelings grows....
    lexuslourve lexuslourve 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    I fell so quickly and lost it

    even more quickly
    Nothingspecial4 Nothingspecial4 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 7, 2013

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    Can't take it But it's like assigned to me By

    life The cosmos My own decisions both mental and relational. So I just struggle less and less to try and resist the pain and or run from it And just try to instead run into it. So far 7.8 years ongoing It's been helping wonderfully.
    J3didiah J3didiah 26-30, M Nov 19, 2014

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    My Mother Doest Trust Me 😪😭 I Love That

    Women So This Really Hurts Me 😔
    WhyMhe WhyMhe 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    I thought it was going away,

    instead it keeps growing and growing. I don't know what to do anymore.
    Diamondgirly Diamondgirly 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    LisamBlore LisamBlore 13-15, F Jan 10

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    LisamBlore LisamBlore 13-15, F Jan 11

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    The Rejection.

    I've just been rejected by an ungrateful cockroach.. oh the life on earth so miserable Oh. The. Pain. There's no point to life now... oh the needle in my heart hurts like a needle through the heart (okay I'm terrible at poems) Who can mend this petite heart of mine oh....
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    I can't do it anymore.

    I wanted to be strong. I don't want to guilt him. I didn't guilt him last time. He came back on his own. I only left him two messages, neither pressuring nor unpleasant. Only supportive and loving and understanding. I can't keep going like this. This is in no way to guilt him...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 3, 2014

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    I don't know how we survive.

    There is so much pain. Everywhere. And we are so alone. More than anything in the world I just want to be held right now. And I am alone. I feel like I always will be.
    IntoTheWyld IntoTheWyld 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    Final Goodbye

    I have to start at the beginning. When I met J, I was in a dying marriage. I had met him and he was new and exciting. I was smitten from day one. I felt that we were from the same cloth. I soon made the decision to leave my husband and go be with him. When I got there we were...
    heartbrokenandlonely heartbrokenandlonely 31-35 1 Response Feb 27, 2013

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    She's killing me. I've never felt

    so alone. And this time I'm done forgiving her. I just wanna die. She hurts me atleast once a week and I'm starting to wonder if our friendship even means anything to her anymore ':(
    y0ur3b3au1fu1 y0ur3b3au1fu1 13-15, F Jun 27, 2014

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    My Soul Mate

    SHE had a club foot... it required over 27 surgeries... we have ben together 20+ years... she became addicted to pain pills and then achochal .... now I cant take the abuse of her being drunk... and have to leave... it hurts so bad, why can she just quit and be my wife again??? I...
    TEMPOLTON TEMPOLTON 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 4, 2012

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    The Ground Is My Pain, Its Engolfing Me

    I wish i could find a way of letting go, someone reaching out a hand to help me up and say its ok.my dad glared at me, yeld and left,my mum laughed and kicked dirt in my face,my sister ran away from me,my aunt and uncle just fret,my friends stay a while around but sooner or later...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2011

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    Welcome To My Life

     http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLl1NDwMJpsDo you ever feel like breaking down?Do you ever feel out of place?Like somehow you just don't belongAnd no one understands youDo you ever wanna runaway?Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loudThat no one...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2011

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