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I Can't Tell My Heart That Your No Longer There

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 73 People

    Sadness Over A Lost Friend.

    Over the past couple of years I became really close to one of my guy friends. Definitely BFF material. My boyfriend wasn't particularly a fan of him but it was purely platonic and he was a good platform for bouncing ideas, thoughts, feelings and questions off. Since I've moved...
    HalcyonGeisha HalcyonGeisha 22-25, F Nov 27, 2009

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    I Was Your's And I Still Am.

    I was your person. You weren't my dog. You had everyone you met wrapped around your paws. You took all of the pain away. You were my antidote. Now that you're gone I have nothing else to live for. These people probably think, " Ugh this is just about a dog, why is she typing...
    hunbunluvsyou hunbunluvsyou 13-15, F Sep 22, 2013

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    It Wont Listen

    You have been gone for two years, but sometimes I still wake up from a gorgeous dream of you. Feeling out for your body... I'm quick to realise you aren't in my bed, you're not in my life... You're gone. But my heart still aches for you, and i suspect it always will. I miss...
    Tool88 Tool88 18-21, F May 10, 2010

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    It Just Won't Listen

    I heard that song Honey today by Bobby Vinton and I was overwhelmed by sadness and memories. I remembered that you had that 45 record when I was a little girl and how I would listen to it over and over again on my record player.There was just something that I always loved about...
    ayankee ayankee 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 7, 2009

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    Right Around The Corner....

    It seems like you should walk just around that corner and be there...but thats not possible anymore. Your gone. You've left me alone and I am nothing to you anymore.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 14, 2009

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    Because You Still Are

    Little odds and ends here in the house. Your apartment just across the way. All your things in boxes in my attic and the shed and the storage unit. I feel you pass by, I know that when I wake you are there. Even when I drive I'm haunted by your car. ...lol, I never saw the red...
    Toby2day Toby2day 51-55, F 5 Responses Nov 14, 2009

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    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    She takes it slowly at first but learns that this is the person for her and that she has no need to be hesitant as she will never find out unless she takes a leap of faith...
    darnit05 darnit05 31-35, F Nov 23

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    Hello EP readers. I don’t know what I hope to gain from sharing all this, but I feel compelled to do so. You will probably think I’ve lost my mind by the time that you get to...
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    This has been a problem for me my whole life. I grew up isolated. I wasn't allowed to have friends, go outside or be loved. We didn't celebrate holidays or get stuff for christmas...
    ptsdlady ptsdlady 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I find it so hard to understand women. In general. Especially when you're not attracted to them at all. One tries to keep a distance and let things work out with , we'll , work...
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I don't know how much longer I can go on. My throat is bleeding again, and I am unable to eat. I don't want to go on if I never get to talk with him again. I didn't even need to be...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 10

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    Hey guys. I need help & advice. So i have a boyfriend, he is amazing, he loves me very much and he cares for me like crazy. We had been together for 8 months, but a person got in...
    iSimplyWish iSimplyWish 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 26

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    Finally, a place to find some comfort. Thank you so much for your story... of course, I draw such similarity to my experience. I have had an affair for almost 4 years and she...
    hearbrokenandlonely hearbrokenandlonely 46-50 2 days ago

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    This is my second post today in less than 30 mins because I have a lot to get off my chest. :) My biggest issue I believe is that I want what I can't have. It's not because I can...
    GhostBride GhostBride 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1

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    I don't know how much longer I can hold on to acting nice. I'm tired of acting nice to this guy. I used to date this guy. I stopped talking to everyone for him. I had all his...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    Coworker with the same age, higher salary and grade, older in the company, different position, some common work, same office. Although, he is so jealous of me, not only jealous he...
    zolito zolito 31-35, M 5 days ago

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    I haven't stopped thinking about him since I saw him earlier this month. I wasn't going to go to the event because I knew he'd be there, but at the last moment I changed my mind. I...
    SukYoung SukYoung 26-30, F Nov 29

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    She was my twin's first love. That was the last thing he was talking to me about before he died, he was telling me how much he liked her. We were fifteen. She was a bit younger...
    michalb michalb 41-45, M 5 Responses Nov 20

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    I try to ignore you because I know that if I am able to see you, soon enough you will have to leave me again. And that's when I will long for you and my heart will ache. The more I...
    Karinas2 Karinas2 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    So there's multiple girls who really like me. And being a single guy, I'm not really tied down anywhere, so I flirt and talk to multiple girls. There's 2 specific girls who are...
    KayJayHoeBum KayJayHoeBum 16-17, M Dec 8

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    I need a friend to be up at 2 or 3 in the morning... I'm so lonely between 1 and 5 in the morning... All my friends have normal sleep lives... Why can't I?
    darthbeegirl666 darthbeegirl666 31-35, F 13 mins ago

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    Christmas: I spend all morning rifling through pants and tee shirts, only to decide on a dress with a sweater over it. My make-up is a big process, which includes considering how...
    karrotkace karrotkace 16-17, F Dec 8

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    My first crush was when I'm 13 years old it become stronger I was love him so much after knowing that he love my best friend I didn't tell him about my feelings and I just throw...
    alexorn alexorn 22-25 Dec 9

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    Haha, bigots are always a bundle of fun, aren't they?? Considering I come from the Southern United States, they are absolutely everywhere, and you just learn to tune them out; you...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    Being sixteen and in love is inconvenient. Add in the factors that I am gay and she is not. She is 18 and leaving school and I am not, and finally the fact that we aren't close (so...
    Kayceyy Kayceyy 16-17, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I work hard to get nowhere. Constantly get taken advantage of. But worst of all I'm stuck. Stuck in a house sharing a bedroom with a sibling that is bipolar and has borderline...
    Fulgurite Fulgurite 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Before I was born, my mother was pregnant with my brother and decided to marry my father for the support. She stayed with him for twenty years until now to raise her children...
    bubbleteax bubbleteax 16-17, F 23 hrs ago

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    I have learned if I want to kill myself there is not point on telling someone so they can change my mind. If I want to do it I doubt there's a chance someone's opinion would madder...
    walkinwonder walkinwonder 16-17, F 9 hrs ago

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    I can't go through life very much longer feeling this alone all the time.
    TheNateAust TheNateAust 18-21, M Nov 18

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    Phone Call From Ernesto The Caretaker: "Hello, Captain Lucky? This is Ernesto, the caretaker at your country house." "Ah, yes, Ernesto. What can I do for you? Is there a problem...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Nov 28

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    I miss you so much, you are on my mind 24/7. I always wonder if you're okay, if you're safe, sleepy, hungry, happy and every emotion in between. I wonder if all you said was true...
    lovelydisgrace lovelydisgrace 16-17, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    It feels like someone is literally holding my heart and squeezing it. It hurts so bad, I feel numb and hurt. My body doesn't seem to be mine, I feel regret and sorrow. What...
    ohida ohida 16-17, F 9 hrs ago

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    Sooo, there is this guy. He told me he started liking me back in 2013 of OCTOBER.. This boy and I have had a fairly good friendship. I don't like him any more than a friend. He...
    hazellmo0n hazellmo0n 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I have been trying to break up with this man for the last three years. I had a very unstable home life growing up and it took me about 6 years of on and off school with full time...
    vrose004 vrose004 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    Tonight is the first night I've been alone since me and my partner got together and I'm really struggling to cope. Back when we first met I was in a very dark place and so was he...
    justagirl92 justagirl92 22-25, F Dec 9

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    I protect myself so heavily that I never let anything out. It's like I just can't talk to people because I truly don't trust that they'll keep it to themselves. I even suspect this...
    SheIsHealing SheIsHealing 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    I know that I most likely have depression, but I literally can't ask for help no matter how hard a try. It's like I can't scream "Help me!" because every time I try I can't seem to...
    bloomingheart bloomingheart 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 20

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    I don't know how it all happened, or at least I am pretending not to know. Lately I've been waking up in a mild panic just as I fall asleep. I flip on the lights and wait until I...
    Friability Friability 18-21 1 Response Nov 22

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    My husband put anything and everything before me. He would rather talk to anyone else but me. I repeatedly tell him how I feel and he doesn't make any changes. I feel like he just...
    Tcallen Tcallen 31-35 Nov 22

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    Let me begin with well I have a problem I like 2 girls at my school. And they are both friends and everyone is telling me to ask out of the the girls that I hang out with. But how...
    madison57 madison57 13-15, M Nov 26

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    My really good friend is slowly destroying our friendship with the amount of incessant emails/text messages she is sending me. I really value our friendship, however lately it...
    fckthtbtch fckthtbtch 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    Can't take it But it's like assigned to me By life The cosmos My own decisions both mental and relational. So I just struggle less and less to try and resist the pain and or run...
    J3didiah J3didiah 26-30, M Nov 19

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    i seriously can't,i mean i burn eggs for god's sake,the only thing i'm good at is eating the food,not making it,i also find cooking utterly boring,it's the equivalent of watching...
    lifelesspie lifelesspie 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 20

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    I support a person no matter what they are- homosexual, heterosexual, bisexual, pansexual, demisexual, anything. People can't control their sexualities, and people should be able...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    It's eating me up inside. And I can't talk about it. I know it's my own fault too. I never should've done it. And I'm getting exactly what I deserve. My heart broken to smithereens...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 29