I Can't Trust Anyone, Even Myself

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    Sometimes things get weird the less u know,

    the less u hurt.Sometimes people u trust may deceive u , Say stuff that truly affects u , ur heart hallow and empty .Sometimes without any signs, things mess up, leaving u bare.I tend to get caught up pretty easily,leading to disappointments. People tell me to trust but every...
    belllla belllla
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 21, 2014

    Im somewhat young 23,

    when i was growing up my parents were divorced since i was 2. My parents were in a custody battle for 6-7 years ( 5-11 yrs old). My mother manipulated me against him, and would make me feel horrible if i had anything to do with him., i hated my father for years. My sister was...
    Chelsea0217 Chelsea0217
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 16, 2015

    I Can't Trust My Wife...

    She has been too critical. My dissociation was set up to defuse the rage  pain, and fear I felt when my parents were abusing me verbally, because to show emotions, especially anger, was generally to escalate the abuse.  If I "backtalked," I could have gotten hit. I think my dad...
    hylierandom hylierandom
    41-45
    5 Responses Mar 1, 2012

    No one look after my back.

    . I can't do it alone.. I'm in pain..
    WayangPanda WayangPanda
    22-25, M
    Sep 22, 2015

    I never believe when people tell me they care

    about me and I can't trust myself to hold back from temptation. It is really hard to make new friends and relationships because you need trust.
    SumtingWongg SumtingWongg
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 25, 2014

    =/

    Not to long ago, my trust got broken, my heart took a LOT of pain in, I blamed mostly myself for letting someone in, and giving someone that kind of power to hurt me like that, and to give someone that much effect on myself. Now I am very careful about who I trust, to the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 27, 2009

    I have extreme and crippling trust issues

    because of my parents. They are extremely emotionally abusive and they put me down every chance they get. They'll call me worthless, good for nothing, failure, and once I start to shut down, to scratch myself until I bleed, to go in my room and just stare at the wall they ask me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 13, 2014

    I can't. Not even my friends.

    There are a lot of things I won't admit to them. If I'm hurting or if I'm sad. I just let them see the mask and not my skin. If I can't trust the people around me then how am I supposed to trust myself?
    Helloblah17 Helloblah17
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 1, 2014

    Backstaber,backstaber,backstaber!

    I can't believe what they did they ruined my life! They told the consoles at my school (who is an extreme *****) that I cut. 2 of my closest friends I don't know who yet went be hind my back and told her. Now she is going to watch me like a hawk!! I have to change schools I can't...
    Horsegeek99 Horsegeek99
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Aug 22, 2012

    This time the damage is bigger .

    And I unable to accept it. It wouldn't make a difference if I am alive or not . Sometimes it's about the internal peace and I've lost it. I can't look at myself in the mirror. I don't know I'm losing control. I said it a thousand times that don't make me see dreams again...
    CrushednBroken CrushednBroken
    26-30, F
    Dec 23, 2014

    Everybody Is Just A Fake

    It feels like being trapped inside a bottle when you can trust anyone anymore, then it's simply depressing when you can't trust yourself. It even started off with me not being able to trust myself and very little to no people, leading to many mistakes being made. And all of the...
    Brokenfrogbones Brokenfrogbones
    13-15
    2 Responses Feb 19, 2012

    It's a depressing thought

    when this sort of thing comes to my mind, but I've been thinking about it a lot lately, and the more I think about it, the more hopeless my cause seems to be. My reasons: - I had a chaotic/confusing childhood (involving moving around the country, father going to prison + being...
    TheBratPrince TheBratPrince
    18-21, F
    Jul 10, 2014

    My Past Made Me Realize

    The worrying thing is that I want someone I can trust. Every time I get close to trusting someone they go, I end up pushing them all away.My life isn't easy, I say the wrong things and those that stay with me do too, so because they always say the wrong things and it sounds like...
    Buffy19 Buffy19
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 11, 2011

    i honestly don't know what to believe anymore,

    i don't know the difference between lies and reality.
    hollaeveryone hollaeveryone
    13-15, F
    1 Response Aug 25, 2015

    I Don't Trust Anyone, Let Alone Myself

    I can't trust anyone with information about myself.  I can't  trust myself to do something that will benefit me.  My problem is that I don't believe in myself.  It's pretty bad when you hate yourself and can't control your feelings.  All I want is to...
    cranbudz cranbudz
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 26, 2009

    I guess people are bad at keeping secrets.

    .. even my own secrets I dare to tell.
    WinchesterLover WinchesterLover
    22-25, F
    Mar 20, 2015

    Someday.

    When someone uses and abuses you after you trusted them with your life, it's a hard thing to forgive. It's a hard thing to let yourself open up to someone again, after everything you've been through. Honestly, I dont know if Ill ever be ready. I dont know if Ill ever be able to...
    Amay408 Amay408
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 12, 2011

    My Life Last Year

    since last year everyone hates me. i am called emo, loner u name it. my whole school hates me. i have a guidence councillor but still it doesn't help i have been trough tones of pycologists and none i will talk to. you know why ?? because i don't trust them thanks to the amount...
    lillyianmay lillyianmay
    13-15, F
    Jan 21, 2013

    My Life Last Year

    since last year everyone hates me. i am called emo, loner u name it. my whole school hates me. i have a guidence councillor but still it doesn't help i have been trough tones of pycologists and none i will talk to. you know why ?? because i don't trust them thanks to the amount...
    lillyianmay lillyianmay
    13-15, F
    Jan 21, 2013

    Can't, Won't, And Never Will Trust

    Every one that I've known has either kicked me while I was down, used me, taken advantage of me, and just plain stabed me in the back. I have 0 to 1 friend(s) and I don't know if he even wants to talk to me anymore (see my 'I Am So Confused' story for the details). Everyone at...
    hdroun13 hdroun13
    13-15, F
    Jul 29, 2012
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 27, 2015

    Even The Best Cannot Be Trusted.

    I am writing this half out of my experiences, and half out of my thoughts. First the experience I used to have a psychologist. It was not my choice but was forced on me (more info in other stories). I thought it was all because wasnt really socializing with anyone but i still...
    Kadlyn Kadlyn
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 11, 2013

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