I Care For My Elderly Parents - Forum & Chat Board | I cared and then she made her transition

My Father always told me when I was young that I was more like my Mother than I knew about or cared to know about and he was right. We are truly connected.  My Mother made her transition on July 22, 2008.  I couldn't believe it.  She had always been my Rock and the prayer leader for our family.  I am mad.  Why were all these other old ladies still alive and my Mother is not here? It's not for me to make any judgements.  She wouldn't be able share her stories of her life with me, anymore.  She wouldn't be able to sing songs that were forgotten and lost  by our generation, anymore.  She wouldn't be able to listen to all my terrible stories and offer solutions, anymore. Of course, this is not about me, it's about all those people who care for their loved ones.  The wishing and the hoping will drive you insane.  It is not in our hands. It's up to the Creator,  If they lived to be 100 years old or more we would still miss them.   I cared for my Mother, always, and in her last days I was there with her.  I never thought that she wouldn't make it, even the doctors said if she made it through the night she woud be fine, and then, she took a turn for the worse.  When the nurse called me to gather the  family together I kept believing and hoping and having faith that everything would be all right.  I love her and I always will.  I'd never believed that the  pain I feel now would be this great. I really miss her.  It's hard for me to get a grip on this so called life.  I often wish that if she had to go, that she would have gone when I was younger and I wouldn't have known her this long.