I Care For My Elderly Parents - Forum & Chat Board | My Mother Really Gone?

It has almost been a year since my Mother made her transition.  It seems that I remember and appreciate her more since she been gone.   I have some of her clothes and I can still smell her scent on them.  I miss her so much, but all the time she was preparing me for her departure.  It's more than I care to think about.  No matter what happens to me I seem to remember everything she said to me.  I still think about what my bother said at her funeral "If you had known her, you would have loved her".  That's powerful.  There are people here today that I wish I didn't know.  I'm starting a new life without my Mother.  I'm in my fifties and I feel like an orphan.  No Mother or Father living.  This is a new feeling.  I look at older people and I wonder, why are they still here?  Many of them have neglected or abandoned their loved ones, but my Mother and Father were always there for me and in a way they are still watching over over my family.  I love them dearly and I hope that they understood everyting that I tried to do for them. I made some terrible mistakes but even though I loved them I really didn't know them until they made their transitions.

I try to be more open with my children so that when I make my transition they won't feel the pain and sorrow that I feel now. I didn't come into this world with a how to do book, but I don't want to leave without a what not to do book.