I Carry a Lot of Guilt

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 179 People

    Cant Deal Anymore

    Today I have been feeling so down on myself. I feel like i have let down or done something wrong to everyone in my life. I feel like i have abandoned my mother and sisters. I didnt talk to my grandparents for almost a year because of things that went wrong between me and my...
    MissThang420 MissThang420
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 25, 2009

    I Hope My Dad Forgives Me Wherever He Is

    I'm an agnostic so I don't really believe in a heaven, but if there is one, that is where my Dad would be.  And I hope that if he is living in the afterlife he has forgiven me.  I cannot live with this guilty feeling any longer and hope by writing it, it will...
    haydenrules haydenrules
    31-35, F
    Jan 23, 2009

    Should've Acted Right

    I feel so guilty about the way I acted during my longest phase of depression. The depression was caused by bad experiences I had in my life and I felt like that justified my decision to act out and live a wreckless life. Now it's been a few years and I am filled with regret. I...
    misscry misscry
    18-21, F
    Aug 28, 2013


    I can't do a list, because it would be so long... Just suffice it to say that I carry a LOT of guilt; new things get added every day.  I'd say it's my primary emotion about myself.  How's that for a former Catholic?  The funny thing is that when I shed my...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 27, 2007

    Oh Yea

    never know if i make the right choices or if i do it all wronge.   so now i wait and find out the way everthing will go.  god help me
    saggy saggy
    41-45, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2007

    Made Some Bad Choices

    I can admit it now. I've made some horrible decisions. At the time, it felt right. To me, it WAS right. Even now, a part of me doesn't regret that time of my life. But the responsible and logical side of me triumphs and realizes that I did some damage to people I really love...
    justatime justatime
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 1, 2012

    I feel guilty for a lot of different reasons

    ranging from childhood to late teens, things that I know a lot of people would say that I shouldn't, but no matter how much I try I just can't seem to let it go.
    lovetodraw19 lovetodraw19
    22-25, F
    Jul 10, 2015

    Never Was Really Any Closure

    Another restless night, and I'm up thinking. I'm hearing the cars race by, there's probably no traffic since its early on a Sunday. And then I start to think about this: My ex-boyfriend, my high school sweetheart. We were together for quite some time. Approximately six years. We...
    MidnightMustang MidnightMustang
    1 Response Aug 4, 2013

    It Makes Me Sick Some Times

    how much guilt i carry im a horrible person but yet i continue to do it right now im close to being sick because of it and all cause of one text message and the fact i continued everything for details of a really complicated love triangle and if you have some tips please message...
    somethinsweet203 somethinsweet203
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 8, 2008

    I Deserve to Feel to Way

     i have done so many things in my life to so many people. sometimes i think i am actually a really awful person. i cant seem to forgive myself ... for anything. i think about things everyday and cant seem to get thoughts out of my head. i want to forgive myself so bad. i...
    MissThang420 MissThang420
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 8, 2009

    Carrying Guilt Around

    i carry alot of guilt due to what my dad did to me. i feel like it was all my fault cause i asked to lay beside my dad and be close to him like a little girl should. my dad took advantage of the situation and did whatever to me and didnt think i would try and report him. i know...
    rodeoqueen rodeoqueen
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 5, 2011

    Replacing Guilt With Something Better

     A recent discussion reminded me of one of my pet concerns.I spent a lot  of my life being guilt driven into many of the choices I've made. I guess there's two aspect to this. One is that I spent 35 years as a born-again Christian and felt bad about each and every sin...
    narrator narrator
    51-55, M
    1 Response Jan 3, 2012

    Carry Your Own Weight

    i carry so much guilt. and it's not even mine most of the time! i don't know why or how, but i always try to carry everyone's burden's for them. somewhere in my twisted mind, i feel like i deserve it more than that person. i can't drop anything. i have to fix everyone's problems...
    WorkItMami WorkItMami
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 27, 2009

    My personal plague that I wish would go away

    and never return. I isolate myself and don't talk to anyone due to it including my family. I have to lie to people and tell them I am okay and nothing is wrong.
    asert12345678 asert12345678
    31-35, M
    Jan 24, 2014

    Yes, I Am Only Human, and to B...

    yes, i am only human, and to be human is to hurt someone else, no matter how much it kills you to do it.
    JoshTurner JoshTurner
    26-30, M
    Nov 27, 2007

    I Look Back On My Life and Fee...

    I look back on my life and feel great remorse for the bad things I have done. I wish there was a way I could make up for them. I want to do something right now that will be positive and constructive but I don't know how to begin. I feel that there is a huge obstacle in my path...
    escapefromny escapefromny
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Nov 27, 2007


    Why couldn't I find the miracle? I searched almost nonstop but couldn't find it.  I failed miserably and will carry that guilt for the rest of my life.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jul 27, 2009

    Why Her Instead Of Me?

    my aunt passed away last year and I wish I had been the one, not her. she deserved to live, not me. She had a career, friends and lived a good life. She loved and was loved back. Me, on the other hand, I am on disability and don't know how to have or be a friend to...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 24, 2010

    At least for the last few months I have.

    For a little over a year I've been a pretty terrible person. I blamed my wife for just about every problem we had. I even left her back in September. I blamed her for it all. I said horrible things to her. I made her feel pretty insignificant. It wasn't until after I left that I...
    deleted deleted
    Jan 1, 2015

    I Wish I Was There

    I feel so guilty about not being there for people when I should have been. I try not to beat myself up about it but it really gets me down. My sister and I have the same dad but different mums so we have never lived together. She's 5 years older than me and at 9 years of age her...
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Sep 25, 2007


    i regret what i have done in the past but every time i try to move on, something happens, that pushes me back. am tired of walking around in guilt and shame am sick of everything. i just wanna go somewhere far from home. i just want to escape for a while. i pray to God for help...
    regret332 regret332
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2013

    I feel so guilty bout nearly everything I do.

    .. other peoples feelings seem to be my highest priority and when I think they are hurting I sympathise thier pain... like, for example, i always call on my mum when I need help cause my dad is fukin hopeless most of the time so when i asked mum where the tea towel was and she...
    BarelyAdulterated BarelyAdulterated
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 22, 2014

    Mainly About My Past

     i feel alot of guilt about choices ive made in the past ...  i was pretty much a ****  for a long time ... and ive never been able to forgive myself ... im working on it ... but its gonna take a lot of  soulsearching and facing myself ... which is the most...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2007

    I Am Ashamed Of My Past.

    i regret what i have done in the past but every time i try to move on, something happens, that pushes me back. am tired of walking around in guilt and shame am sick of everything. i just wanna go somewhere far from home. i just want to escape for a while.
    regret332 regret332
    18-21, M
    Jul 24, 2013
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