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I Cut My Self Or Inflict Pain On My Self

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    Clean.....Or Rather I Was... - Two years clean......til last night. Memories came flooding back as I remembered the terrible event that finally drove me to cut....I was raped...
    jesussaves2013 jesussaves2013 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2013

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    New Sickness Old Cure - I carved my flesh since the first year of high school. when I started I did every day, but only scratches kinda. it eventually got to where the deeper I did...
    siaryu siaryu 18-21, F Oct 8, 2013

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    People say cutting is for attention but they don't know anyone's story. I've been through a lot n having a rough time. I just wish anyone could understand how I feel because I try...
    laceyaliyah laceyaliyah 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Revenge - Hi. I used to cut myself with what I could find. Sewing pins, broken glass, but I didn't have access to a razor. My best friend in the frightening 6th grade world, who I...
    Adventuretime12 Adventuretime12 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 25, 2013

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    Again - I cut again today. For the first time in three months. And now I hate myself.
    ceciliabritt ceciliabritt 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    9th Grade Year - I had told this kid he was a friend. Just a friend not my best friend not real close to me. But I had told him that I needed help. He bugged me and bugged me till...
    Katybelle10897 Katybelle10897 22-25, F Sep 13, 2013

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    My Matchbox Fetish - I love matches! The smell and feel of them . . . Sometimes I just feel . . . numb and need a jolt. I get so upset . . . I feel as though I going to...
    marajfeelsnomore marajfeelsnomore 18-21 1 Response Oct 16, 2008

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    Not Anymore - i used too though.. i wasnt sad but i felt like i needed to do it. ever since i stopped i want to start again, but i know i shouldnt and its bad for me. but i just...
    Poemer Poemer 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 15, 2013

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    It Helps Me But Wish I Could Stop - When I was 14 I started to cut my legs so no one would see my friend saw and tryed to get me help I promised I would stop but just got better at...
    Wed2121 Wed2121 22-25, F Oct 5, 2013

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    I Broke Today. - For the first time in over a year, I cut again. I was so afraid that I'd hate myself even more than I already do, but the sick part is, it felt so good. I need...
    hope228 hope228 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 15, 2012

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    My New Addiction..... - So it all happened in 2010.....Depression and new struggles..... For some reason I studied depression and from that point on I cried myself to sleep not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 14, 2013

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    Starting - Last night I inflicted pain on myself for the first time. I had thought about it for a while but knew it was dangerous so I always had the self control not to, until I...
    sobainnewyork sobainnewyork 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    I want to cut so bad but I can't because of a doctor appointment in a few weeks it won't heal in time. It's a melanoma check cause my dad has it and its something that can be...
    maggielue maggielue 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    Cut Myself - I have been cutting or hurting myself for the past 8 years, recently my parents saw my arm, that has over 30 slashes on it. Since then i have been seeing a tharapist...
    coliom coliom 22-25, M 6 Responses May 11, 2009

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    It Hurts - After my rape. I started cutting myself. I felt like this was the only way to get my feelings out without actually talking about it. I have NEVER talked about my feeling...
    Lovelycharmxoxo Lovelycharmxoxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    Stress - I cut myself since I was 13 . I can't do anything about it . When I'm stress , I find a knife and cut . Then I have to find the way to hide it from my parents .  ...
    shouka shouka 16-17 1 Response Aug 27, 2008

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    Eight On My Left Arm - Had a really rough day. -sigh- i regretted today from the beginning. And im sorry to the friends who love me for doing it.
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2013

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    You Can't Notice Right Away... - It's hard, to figure it out. Maybe because you don't pay attention or maybe because they hide it Soo well. It's all in the details. When someone...
    EmberWazowski EmberWazowski 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    Slicer Liar Pretender - i've been cutting since i was about eleven. it started with a small slow cut from scissors i had in school supplies. it hurt so badly, but being locked up...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17, 2013

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    Normal To Think This Isn't Wrong? - I have cut my self in the past. Mostly due to stress and anger. It is a great relief. It seems strange, but I never cut too much, or too deep...
    Benny04 Benny04 26-30, F May 31, 2012

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    I Do This Because.. - I want control and with doing this i feel i am in control... Sometimes i get so angry and that is the first thing i think off. Not many people know i s/h and...
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2013

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    I Should Have Listened - I told my self that i would never do it again, I told my self that this time would be different. I told my self it isn't worth the pain, My problem is that...
    soveryBPD soveryBPD 18-21, F Feb 13, 2013

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    Normal To Think This Isn't Wrong? - I have cut my self in the past. Mostly due to stress and anger. It is a great relief. It seems strange, but I never cut too much, or too deep...
    Benny04 Benny04 26-30, F 1 Response May 31, 2012

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    Cutting is no joking matter. It's not a stupid thing it doesn't make you ugly. It's an addiction Your not crazy if you do it It releases endorphins .. Stupid ******* c...
    monsterfan21 monsterfan21 18-21, F Mar 12

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    ADM (ay Dios Mio) I Cut Today :*{ - First, please let me say that I havn't done this in almost 9 years. I really was done and haven't even thought about it in many, many years...
    Contrarthodox Contrarthodox 26-30, F 7 Responses May 2, 2009

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    I've never cut myself deep enough to leave scars, it's not that I don't want to, I'm just frightened. Lately I've been using safety pins, keys, and my own nails to create cuts and...
    Taradactyl123 Taradactyl123 18-21, F Jan 6

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    Help - I have a story to share, but not yet. It's long and complicated and I'm honestly not sure how many people would read it in the first place. I'm too young to join this group...
    truublondy truublondy 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 18, 2013

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    Stop - I can't look at pictures of wrists with red lines without feeling guilty and anxious and sad. So terribly sad. Why is this me?
    phiazombie phiazombie 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 24, 2013

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    I started in 6th grade and sorda stopped in 8th but yet even though i stopped it's been about 2 1/5 months im not even happy/proud of my self? I don't know why i should be right?
    human8672 human8672 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    Me Vrs Myself - Ive always felt different and i blame myself for that,latly i dont feel pain like someone could come slap me across the face and id look at them like ive had worse...
    SunnyShine200 SunnyShine200 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2013

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    Is There Other People Out There Like Me??? - when things get to hard for me to handel i cut my self or hurtmy self it started when i was 15 yrs. old istill do it if i'm feeling...
    halfpint halfpint 26-30, M 9 Responses May 8, 2007

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    I don't know why. Pain? Depression? I really don't know why. But I have scars. I haven't done it for a while. I really didn't like the blood.
    hawny4gurlz hawny4gurlz 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 26

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    Seven Years Ago - I first began cutting in my ninth grade year of high school.  It was the year that I lost myself and turned to cutting in a wave of confusion.  I had...
    troopr13 troopr13 18-21, F Jun 24, 2010

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    Pain Is The Game - I guess I could say I am different from all of you,But in all reality I'm not that different. I don't see a point to live. I cut way too often,and i go out of my...
    xXHotxIceXx xXHotxIceXx 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2012

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    Treatment. - I think it's time for me to go get help. I've. Been looking online and found I really good place. I'll have to stay the a couple days to a week there. I don't know if...
    littlelou16 littlelou16 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    Its The Only Pain I Can Control - I'm 16 and I try and find little ways to hurt and self-inflict pain. I think the major reason I do it is because its the only pain I can control...
    hereisnoid hereisnoid 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2009

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    It's Been A While - It's been many years since I last self-harmed. And I still have the scars to show, although I hide them under wristbands that I wear almost every day. Hardly...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 26, 2013

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    The Cut - Here we go. From 5 th grade till 8 th grade i was bulled by my classmates, because i was looking weird, talking weird and had another kind of ideas. They was calling me...
    paula1147 paula1147 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 19, 2013

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    3 Years - Ive hadnt cut for about 3 years. Today I feel the feeling comming on. I feel if I dont please people in my family or feel like im not doing enough. I need to punish...
    penpalwriter penpalwriter 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 24, 2013

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    Losing Myself... - I'd like to say that I stopped for a long time and just recently started to feel the anger/insecurity that would always flood my thoughts. I don't think that...
    koocnetsirk koocnetsirk 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2013

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    Scratched Till I Bled - I have just cut my entire left arm, it's a mess, scars mixed with blood. I hate myself, I want to feel pain due to my chronic depression...
    rikkbb rikkbb 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 11, 2012

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    I just went through a bad break up and the first thing i thought was "maybe cutting again will stop the pain" but i was afraid that If i started i wouldnt stop again.. My freshman...
    HelloKittyEatzSoulz HelloKittyEatzSoulz 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 9

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    Tears of Blood - this is sort of hard to get all out in the open to the public but ill try m best. the story goes like this........i am no 18 and have been a cutter on and off...
    teajay teajay 18-21, F 1 Response May 17, 2009

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    Started Again - Hi I'm new here But I need help stopping cutting. I haven't since April and now I can't stop. Stress of school and family it seems too much.
    TangledLife TangledLife 18-21, F Oct 6, 2013

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    Can't Stop - It's about to be a year since I have started cutting, I can't stop. I have cut my arm up so badly that it's gone numb. It doesn't hurt. But, I'm still going to try...
    Got2cut Got2cut 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 1, 2013

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    Did But Dont - I have cut myself amny times and have stoped. The only reason is so that no one notices and sais stough and starts rumors about me. i still have scars and dont think...
    tomtombear tomtombear 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 4, 2008

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    I'm 25 now and I've been cutting myself off and on since I was 9. The song pain by three days grace best sums it up. I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all. I have had a rough...
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    Every day, I grip my penknife tightly, sighing in relief as the blade cuts through my flesh, smiling as the blood drips from the cut, staining my skin crimson red, relieving me of...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    People hurt me on purpose. People know I cut at school. They point and laugh at me. It would get so bad they would grab my arm laugh at me push me down. My bestfriend/ex bf broke...
    PrimadonnaAnnie PrimadonnaAnnie 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Well, with all my cuts and diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder, the Air Force recruiter said there's no way I'd be able to join the Air Force at all, let alone apply for the Air...
    BloodintheWater BloodintheWater 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm trying to cut away my pain, stress and anxiety....
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 2 days ago

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