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I Cut My Self Or Inflict Pain On My Self

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    3 Years

    Ive hadnt cut for about 3 years. Today I feel the feeling comming on. I feel if I dont please people in my family or feel like im not doing enough. I need to punish myself. The cutting feeling has always been with my. It never when away. But tonight I think it will win.
    penpalwriter penpalwriter 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 24, 2013

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    Eight On My Left Arm

    Had a really rough day. -sigh- i regretted today from the beginning. And im sorry to the friends who love me for doing it.
    Caitlinsmith1636 Caitlinsmith1636 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2013

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    I don't know why. Pain?

    Depression? I really don't know why. But I have scars. I haven't done it for a while. I really didn't like the blood.
    hawny4gurlz hawny4gurlz 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26

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    I Do This Because..

    I want control and with doing this i feel i am in control... Sometimes i get so angry and that is the first thing i think off. Not many people know i s/h and i would hate for them to know not because i am ashamed but because they just would't understand!! x
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2013

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    I've never cut myself deep enough to leave

    scars, it's not that I don't want to, I'm just frightened. Lately I've been using safety pins, keys, and my own nails to create cuts and once they are there I enjoy looking at them every once in a while. I've tried to stop but when something goes bad it is an automatic...
    Taradactyl123 Taradactyl123 18-21, F Jan 6

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    People say cutting is

    for attention but they don't know anyone's story. I've been through a lot n having a rough time. I just wish anyone could understand how I feel because I try n tell my family but they won't every get it
    laceyaliyah laceyaliyah 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Starting

    Last night I inflicted pain on myself for the first time. I had thought about it for a while but knew it was dangerous so I always had the self control not to, until I finally lost it. I don't know if I knew I would have no way to hide the sneak myself a knife or if I was...
    sobainnewyork sobainnewyork 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    Cut Myself

    I have been cutting or hurting myself for the past 8 years, recently my parents saw my arm, that has over 30 slashes on it. Since then i have been seeing a tharapist but its not helping, i dont realy know why i do it other then i just feel empty and this is somthing that i can...
    coliom coliom 22-25, M 6 Responses May 11, 2009

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    Me Vrs Myself

    Ive always felt different and i blame myself for that,latly i dont feel pain like someone could come slap me across the face and id look at them like ive had worse....i walk arouned the house trying to fight miirrors because i cant stand the animal ive become.and ive latly been...
    SunnyShine200 SunnyShine200 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 4, 2013

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    It Hurts

    After my rape. I started cutting myself. I felt like this was the only way to get my feelings out without actually talking about it. I have NEVER talked about my feeling. I use a knife and put a flame underneath it once its really hot.. I cut. I am bipolar, dyslexic, suffer from...
    Lovelycharmxoxo Lovelycharmxoxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    Treatment.

    I think it's time for me to go get help. I've. Been looking online and found I really good place. I'll have to stay the a couple days to a week there. I don't know if I should. I would miss a lot of school. I don't know what to do to be honest.
    littlelou16 littlelou16 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    Tears of Blood

    this is sort of hard to get all out in the open to the public but ill try m best. the story goes like this........i am no 18 and have been a cutter on and off since 14. i dont know what proveoked me to o it the first time but i thought it would be fun. so i did i picked up the...
    teajay teajay 18-21, F 1 Response May 17, 2009

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    9th Grade Year

    I had told this kid he was a friend. Just a friend not my best friend not real close to me. But I had told him that I needed help. He bugged me and bugged me till I told him that iv been cutting and I needed help. My best friend knew too but she didn't do anything. So this guy...
    Katybelle10897 Katybelle10897 22-25, F Sep 13, 2013

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    Did But Dont

    I have cut myself amny times and have stoped. The only reason is so that no one notices and sais stough and starts rumors about me. i still have scars and dont think there going away anytime soon. There noticable when you look at my left arm. I hate cutting actualy but i cant...
    tomtombear tomtombear 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 4, 2008

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    I Should Have Listened

    I told my self that i would never do it again, I told my self that this time would be different. I told my self it isn't worth the pain, My problem is that i never listen. I told my self to keep my hopes up, I told my self that tomorrow would be better. I told my self that it...
    soveryBPD soveryBPD 18-21, F Feb 13, 2013

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    Again

    I cut again today. For the first time in three months. And now I hate myself.
    ceciliabritt ceciliabritt 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    My Matchbox Fetish

    I love matches! The smell and feel of them . . . Sometimes I just feel . . . numb and need a jolt. I get so upset . . . I feel as though I going to ******* burst.
    marajfeelsnomore marajfeelsnomore 18-21 1 Response Oct 16, 2008

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    Is There Other People Out There Like Me???

    when things get to hard for me to handel i cut my self or hurtmy self it started when i was 15 yrs. old istill do it if i'm feeling really dawn or if i really messed up that day i just get the urge to hurt my self it scaries me bacouse i'm affraid that one day i will go to fare...
    halfpint halfpint 26-30, M 9 Responses May 8, 2007

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    It Helps Me But Wish I Could Stop

    When I was 14 I started to cut my legs so no one would see my friend saw and tryed to get me help I promised I would stop but just got better at hiding it now 9 years latter I still do it it's hard not to it relives the pain in side and makes my pain easyer to handle I do want to...
    Wed2121 Wed2121 22-25, F Oct 5, 2013

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    Pain Is The Game

    I guess I could say I am different from all of you,But in all reality I'm not that different. I don't see a point to live. I cut way too often,and i go out of my way to do things that i know will hurt. i would rather deal with the physical pain than have to think about the...
    xXHotxIceXx xXHotxIceXx 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2012

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    Started Again

    Hi I'm new here But I need help stopping cutting. I haven't since April and now I can't stop. Stress of school and family it seems too much.
    TangledLife TangledLife 18-21, F Oct 6, 2013

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    Losing Myself...

    I'd like to say that I stopped for a long time and just recently started to feel the anger/insecurity that would always flood my thoughts. I don't think that those thoughts ever stopped, but I could control my feelings if I drowned myself in other things. So yes, I stopped...
    koocnetsirk koocnetsirk 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2013

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    Cutting is no joking matter.

    It's not a stupid thing it doesn't make you ugly. It's an addiction Your not crazy if you do it It releases endorphins .. Stupid ******* c***.. Think again before you bring that up
    monsterfan21 monsterfan21 18-21, F Mar 12

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    My New Addiction.....

    So it all happened in 2010.....Depression and new struggles..... For some reason I studied depression and from that point on I cried myself to sleep not knowing why.... A lot of my singing competitions got canceled or rained out so it felt as if the work i did was just for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 14, 2013

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    You Can't Notice Right Away...

    It's hard, to figure it out. Maybe because you don't pay attention or maybe because they hide it Soo well. It's all in the details. When someone stops smiling the moment you aren't looking. Or how when you ask a question and suddenly their answers become shorter, they laugh a...
    EmberWazowski EmberWazowski 18-21, F 10 Responses Jun 18, 2013

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    Normal To Think This Isn't Wrong?

    I have cut my self in the past. Mostly due to stress and anger. It is a great relief. It seems strange, but I never cut too much, or too deep, and I think that it's "harmless". I'm not suicidal, and have realized I enjoy tattoos (I am almost covered!) but there is still that...
    Benny04 Benny04 26-30, F 1 Response May 31, 2012

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    New Sickness Old Cure

    I carved my flesh since the first year of high school. when I started I did every day, but only scratches kinda. it eventually got to where the deeper I did it the less often I'd have to. so I started to cut every week instead, then I could go a month sometimes but they wounds...
    siaryu siaryu 18-21, F Oct 8, 2013

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    Stop

    I can't look at pictures of wrists with red lines without feeling guilty and anxious and sad. So terribly sad. Why is this me?
    phiazombie phiazombie 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 24, 2013

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    Its The Only Pain I Can Control

    I'm 16 and I try and find little ways to hurt and self-inflict pain. I think the major reason I do it is because its the only pain I can control. I cant control what goes on around me so I do little things like scratch myself till it leaves a mark or cut myself. I normally do it...
    hereisnoid hereisnoid 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 15, 2009

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    Revenge

    Hi. I used to cut myself with what I could find. Sewing pins, broken glass, but I didn't have access to a razor. My best friend in the frightening 6th grade world, who I held too tight for what she was worth left me for my enemy who hated me for no reason. She ripped out my heart...
    Adventuretime12 Adventuretime12 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 25, 2013

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    The Cut

    Here we go. From 5 th grade till 8 th grade i was bulled by my classmates, because i was looking weird, talking weird and had another kind of ideas. They was calling me looser, emo. Sometimes they said me to go to die. They destroied me, my mental health and so on. Now i became...
    paula1147 paula1147 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 19, 2013

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    Slicer Liar Pretender

    i've been cutting since i was about eleven. it started with a small slow cut from scissors i had in school supplies. it hurt so badly, but being locked up in the bathroom... music on loud in my ears... that thin red line looked so beautiful. my wrist began to bead a ruby bracelet...
    burrowbunni burrowbunni 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17, 2013

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    I want to cut so bad

    but I can't because of a doctor appointment in a few weeks it won't heal in time. It's a melanoma check cause my dad has it and its something that can be genetic. So they are gonna check every inch if my body :( all I want is to bleed a little
    maggielue maggielue 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    I started in 6th grade

    and sorda stopped in 8th but yet even though i stopped it's been about 2 1/5 months im not even happy/proud of my self? I don't know why i should be right?
    human8672 human8672 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    ADM (ay Dios Mio) I Cut Today :*{

    First, please let me say that I havn't done this in almost 9 years. I really was done and haven't even thought about it in many, many years.... Today though,  I don't kno.... I've just been going thru SOOOO much lately and I can't explain it. I just went in the...
    Contrarthodox Contrarthodox 26-30, F 7 Responses May 2, 2009

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    Scratched Till I Bled

    I have just cut my entire left arm, it's a mess, scars mixed with blood. I hate myself, I want to feel pain due to my chronic depression...
    rikkbb rikkbb 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 11, 2012

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    Clean.....Or Rather I Was...

    Two years clean......til last night. Memories came flooding back as I remembered the terrible event that finally drove me to cut....I was raped nearly three years ago.......by that point, I had been abused by my mom for 13 years........The rape just drove me over the edge...
    jesussaves2013 jesussaves2013 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 26, 2013

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    Can't Stop

    It's about to be a year since I have started cutting, I can't stop. I have cut my arm up so badly that it's gone numb. It doesn't hurt. But, I'm still going to try. Thank you to those who let me rant.
    Got2cut Got2cut 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 1, 2013

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    It's Been A While

    It's been many years since I last self-harmed. And I still have the scars to show, although I hide them under wristbands that I wear almost every day. Hardly anyone knows of what I put myself through. I cut myself too deep once and damaged the vein in my arm so every so often, I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 26, 2013

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    Normal To Think This Isn't Wrong?

    I have cut my self in the past. Mostly due to stress and anger. It is a great relief. It seems strange, but I never cut too much, or too deep, and I think that it's "harmless". I'm not suicidal, and have realized I enjoy tattoos (I am almost covered!) but there is still that...
    Benny04 Benny04 26-30, F May 31, 2012

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    I Broke Today.

    For the first time in over a year, I cut again. I was so afraid that I'd hate myself even more than I already do, but the sick part is, it felt so good. I need help. I'm just not sure I want it this time around.
    hope228 hope228 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 15, 2012

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    Stress

    I cut myself since I was 13 . I can't do anything about it . When I'm stress , I find a knife and cut . Then I have to find the way to hide it from my parents .   It hurt..
    shouka shouka 16-17 1 Response Aug 27, 2008

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    Help

    I have a story to share, but not yet. It's long and complicated and I'm honestly not sure how many people would read it in the first place. I'm too young to join this group, just shy of the age limit, but I just want anyone that reads this to know it seriously gets better. I'm a...
    truublondy truublondy 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 18, 2013

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    Not Anymore

    i used too though.. i wasnt sad but i felt like i needed to do it. ever since i stopped i want to start again, but i know i shouldnt and its bad for me. but i just want that feeling during it to come back, the relief
    Poemer Poemer 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 15, 2013

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    I just went through a bad break up

    and the first thing i thought was "maybe cutting again will stop the pain" but i was afraid that If i started i wouldnt stop again.. My freshman year of high school I would cut myself on a regular basis. A year after that I stopped. So after this break up a few days ago I wanted...
    HelloKittyEatzSoulz HelloKittyEatzSoulz 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 9

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    Seven Years Ago

    I first began cutting in my ninth grade year of high school.  It was the year that I lost myself and turned to cutting in a wave of confusion.  I had friends and a loving family.  There were a few problems in my life, but nothing that could really be pointed to as...
    troopr13 troopr13 18-21, F Jun 24, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    I'm 25 now and I've been cutting myself off and on since I was 9. The song pain by three days grace best sums it up. I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all. I have had a rough...
    dacraww dacraww 22-25, M Apr 9

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    I dont have many scars, but the point is that I do in fact have them. All of them are self inflicted. I am currently nearly done with sophmore year, thank god! Its not that I dont...
    Livefree12 Livefree12 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Well, with all my cuts and diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder, the Air Force recruiter said there's no way I'd be able to join the Air Force at all, let alone apply for the Air...
    BloodintheWater BloodintheWater 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 11

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    I'm trying to cut away my pain, stress and anxiety....
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F Apr 14

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    The lengths I go to to keep my cuts & self harm a secret from my parents is so exhausting. It's like a job. But its worth it. Do any of you guys find crazy hiding places?
    Anonomous441 Anonomous441 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    The emptiness inflicted, the trouble taken to see through the lies. Is it worth it? The betrayal of a friend, I am the friend. I am who giver. Not taker. The soul is...
    MrFlaymz MrFlaymz 41-45, M 20 mins ago

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    Does anyone else cut themselves to feel physical pain instead of emotional pain?
    aPersonWhoUnderstands aPersonWhoUnderstands 16-17, F 1 hr ago

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    So i cut myself , and my girlfriend found out and said thats the most dumbest reason to cut , but its not , and she judge me about it , like i just dont know no more , should i...
    TatyanaJanae TatyanaJanae 13-15, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I really really want to start cutting again, but I cant because my boyfriend will blame him self or will tell my mom but I need it bad ive fallin back to it but I need it home can...
    innocentangel101 innocentangel101 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    I love self harming to see my blood sometimes when I cut and don't see blood I get angry and frustrated...
    Rishay Rishay 16-17, F 1 Response 1 hr ago