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I Cut My Self

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    Why are you so proud of it

    and support it?
    whatsnewpussycat whatsnewpussycat 18-21 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26

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    I did it again. I added a few more scars to the

    chain on my arms and legs. Well... I guess it's getting close to time... I better hurry...
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 8 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    well today was interesting.

    boring as all hell but interesting. i bumped into the corner of a table at work and just started bleeding everywhere. guess they were still open, say goodbye to those jeans.
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 16-17, M 6 Responses Feb 26

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    I cut all the time.. It started three years ago,

    I try to stay clean for a while but the longest has been two weeks. I'm tormented at school by people who called themselves my friend. I don't know how to trust people so I trust the blades and scars because they are guaranteed to stay for a lifetime
    dee283 dee283 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    So I tried to cut a heartagram into my arm

    but it looks more like a pentagram. I do no worship the devil but whoops. I can tell it's a heartagram though. The good news is it's hidden well so yeah.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I have been clean for nearly 4 months,

    but tonight I did it again. I hate myself for it. I wish I never cut. I hate myself for starting
    bandfreak26 bandfreak26 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 9 Responses Feb 10

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    So my mother just of home

    and she is already crying because she and her boyfriend are fighting again I haven't cut in 5 days but I'm done I already cut a lot I don't care anymore
    Maria134747 Maria134747 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    (THE PICTURE ATTACHED CAN BE TRIGGERING) Today

    I went further than ever. I've never been so deep at so many places, and I'm scared. The cuts on my thighs are almost black with depth and dried blood. I've cleaned them, but they still burn as hell. I just want to escape my body right now. I want to fall asleep and not wake up...
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 6 Responses Oct 19

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I have cut because everything

    that happens and I dont really care that much anymore about the pain
    Valerieswords45 Valerieswords45 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 10 Responses Nov 10

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    so i just ****** up too.

    . just cant help it....
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    I havent in months but over the last few weeks

    I have thought about it. I have imagined it in my mind. I won't do it, I am strong, but the thoughts are hard to deal with. I used to cope with this a lot. I am in pain now and I just want to feel in charge of it. I want to in ways punish myself and inflict pain upon myself. I...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I relapsed after almost a month.

    . I wanted to stay clean for my birthday. But I just can't. I broke every promise I made, I told myself repetitively that I was better than that, that I am stronger. I am not.. I can't tell my friend, she'll shun me and just.. This is the most dumbest thing I've done. It makes me...
    xxDarkLoverxx xxDarkLoverxx 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Already cut myself today.

    And I just want to do it again. I probably will. :p
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 11 Responses Oct 24

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    im getting tired of cleaning up my own blood,

    but at the same time i love looking at it all... wow i am sick.
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    All i could think about this morning.

    So i did. About 20 times. *sigh* so it begins, im already full of self loathing. I hate myself for doing it so much right now. All want to do is forget who i am, who ive been. I know what comes next and its not pretty, ill be coverd by the end of the week, struggling to walk...
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26

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    This started last year

    when I was thirteen. My relationship with my family was crumbling, and the bullying got worse. I did it almost everyday, and I still do it, but not as much. I was trying to quit for a while, but one particularly bad incident happened and I couldn't control myself. Now I only...
    morekisses morekisses 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I started cutting again I was clean

    for four months I am so disappointed in myself :(
    Alli13146 Alli13146 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I slipped up. It's been awhile on the bright

    side but ugh the time between starts again. Sorry god.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Yesterday I resisted very intense urges.

    ...but they keep coming back.....
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Its just a constant thought in my head.

    I think about it so often.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27

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    um i have cut myself many many times i want to

    help people but it is really hard whenever i do it myself but i cant stop i don't want other people doing it because it is really hard to stop and i tried to do it a min ago but it is really hard whenever you dont got no blind or nothing that you use with you...
    babydoo1 babydoo1 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    Right now I think it's a much better option

    than taking it out on the wonderful people on ep
    AngelWithASecret2 AngelWithASecret2 13-15, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've been cutting for a long time now.

    I just can't seem to stop, and I don't really want to anyways. I need it to make it through the day. No one in my life even suspects that I could do this to myself. They all think I'm this happy little girl. I wish they could see past that, but whatever. It's better for them to...
    BleedingLittleBlueGirl BleedingLittleBlueGirl 18-21, F 6 Responses May 28

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    why do some people say its

    so bad?? i dont understand. it not like im dying by doing it. they heal and theres really no harm done except a scar unless ur like me. some of need it to feel or somthing else. back off people im not sick so stop saying i need to get better -.-
    gramafey gramafey 13-15, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I've been clean for 3 months ,

    but that doesn't mean I haven't thought about it or held a razor in my hand wanting to do it again.
    hearmecryandwatchmedie hearmecryandwatchmedie 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses