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I Cut My Self

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    I have successfully starved

    for 2 days! And 3 days tomorrow I'm actually proud of myself for once And (if you read my getting caught at school experience) it's still SO awkward seeing that teacher that told on me and the principal who knows that I cut OH AND TO MAKE IT BETTER.. I JUST SO HAPPENED TO HAVE...
    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Some what close it's better in person

    but make slits across you left side of your right hand or vice versa if you cut your self you can go ahead and do it normally but if you don't cut your self make shure the nife dosent go past the first layer then simply open and close your hand it might hurt at first but it...
    drew725 drew725 13-15, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I've been cutting for a long time now.

    I just can't seem to stop, and I don't really want to anyways. I need it to make it through the day. No one in my life even suspects that I could do this to myself. They all think I'm this happy little girl. I wish they could see past that, but whatever. It's better for them to...
    BleedingLittleBlueGirl BleedingLittleBlueGirl 18-21, F 6 Responses May 28

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    Why do people talk about it like it's bad?

    Guess what, it's the best thing in my life. The sudden pain reminds me of how I used to be. Everyone talks like I should stop but why? Nothing can replace it, nothing else comes close. I have nothing left from my old life. Just a two room apartment and a collection of knives...
    Oldwounds Oldwounds 18-21, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I don't understand why it's bad,

    it's keeping me from commuting suicide.... So why is it bad?
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    It's been 3 weeks since I last cut,

    but the temptation todo it is coming and my razors are in my old home and there's someone staying in my room. It's gonna be hard to sneak them out...
    cyanidemaxwell cyanidemaxwell 16-17, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I never contemplated killing myself

    but as I drag the scissor over and over through my skin I just wanna die. I broke my family apart it's all my fault
    Wallflower921 Wallflower921 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    One of my support workers told me i am

    emotionally blackmailing her!!! I was downstairs making my weekly plan and i said i needed to talk to someone ater she said she could make time for an hour and i said well i suppose i could Self Harm instead and she said i am emotionally blackmailing her what?! i was just being...
    SophieMarkezzie SophieMarkezzie 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Have u ever just looked at a car

    and thought "I could jump in front of it and I would be free, what's stopping me?" I've had these thoughts for a long time, and I still don't know why I haven't ended myself yet. I started cutting about a month or two ago and I need it otherwise I'll go insane. It's a...
    imjackandimdark imjackandimdark 16-17, M 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 10

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Well last night I decided today is going to be

    day one. It was very short notice and unexpected. I just woke up and I am already starting to feel the stress and anxiety I get when I haven't cut first thing in the morning. It's going to be a rough day, but I have amazing people who believe in me. They are with me every step...
    DontCallMeSunshine DontCallMeSunshine 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    nofrankinway nofrankinway 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Cutting is not a trend,

    it's an addiction. It's like screaming but no one can hear. It is an everyday battle.
    Itscookiemonster Itscookiemonster 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 14

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    brittanynicolexd brittanynicolexd 13-15, F 15 Responses Jun 23

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 16-17, F 12 Responses Jun 27

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 16-17, M 6 Responses Feb 26

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 20 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    But tonight I'm not going to do it!

    Gonna finish reading that stupid book assignment of the deranged mind...why is it so boring I nearly fell asleep. Maybe it's because the wounds haven't healed completely yet but idk I shouldn't be cutting just because some ******* called me names or because I'm jealous or...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    My scars are still getting better slowly.

    Little by little worst part is I will wake up every morning and see my pain.
    BlueWings454 BlueWings454 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 17

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26

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    It's beautiful isn't it,

    it'll help with my fears of cutting. Just a slash and blood will flow, all the evil thoughts will disappear temporarily. Still I don't feel like cutting tonight, maybe later on when I'm more depressed. Or not...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 13-15, F 17 Responses Mar 3

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    Last night I feel pathetic

    and was about to cry again...so I stopped myself. Ran to grab my pocket knife it's so much better than scissors. With little pressure on the knife I could draw blooded lines. The pain lasts longer... I now know I couldn't do what I'd intended to do, as planned when I'm this...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 11 Responses a week ago

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    I cut now<|3 sorry Blake.

    It blurry though
    Strangerdanger47 Strangerdanger47 16-17, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    On my wrist. Stomach.

    And legs. My coach keeps breaking me. She never let's me play and Ik I'm the weak link. Stress. School. Scars. I'm not an emo, or suicidal. I'm just not always super strong.
    skylerGrace skylerGrace 13-15, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I don't cut for attention.

    .nobody really does. I do it to feel something other than the pain that I go to sleep with every night and wake up with every morning...
    bellsmarrie bellsmarrie 18-21, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I'm sorry for wasting you time.

    . 13 years is a long enough life for me I'm done trying
    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Wooo, and I started again!

    I had promised myself I would never touch those blades again but I couldn't resist. I'm having bad time lately and there are only a few people supporting me through this. I know I shouldn't have done it again, I know I should've kept myself from doing it but, to be honest, I'm...
    UnicornsBlood UnicornsBlood 13-15, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    There was no blood this time.

    .. It wasn't what I was hoping for... But it'll have to do... I can't believe I gave in... I was doing so well... I'm so disappointed in myself... Why?
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    One cut, two cut, three cut,

    floor... Five cut, six cut, one cut more...
    Madis9957 Madis9957 13-15, F 8 hrs ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    When I cut my thighs,

    it's more painful than when I cut my wrist
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    Latley I've been cutting day to day.

    Is it worth fighting it?
    battlescars2012 battlescars2012 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    I used to think that despite all my depression

    and anxiety and thoughts of suicide, I never thought I would cut. I would get sad, I would get angry, I would feel so alone and cold and I wouldn't want to be here anymore, but I didn't understand. I knew what it was but I always thought "I'm too good for that. I'll never be...
    bandfreak26 bandfreak26 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    BelieveInRecovery BelieveInRecovery 13-15, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    Normal? What Is That?

    Sometimes when I'm not constantly insulting myself, I think...what's it like being normal? What's it like to look in the mirror and not hate what's looking back? What's it like to have a lot of friends and a boyfriend and just a good social life? What's it like not to be hated...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 1 Response Nov 11, 2013

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    I haven't cut myself lately I'm actually doing

    really good. I'm happy right now with my life. :) :) :)
    TealMarie TealMarie 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    I just noticed every time I cut it gets worse

    (I can't cut my wrist anymore ;( ..) So my thigh has five big cuts on them. But nothing makes me more angrier than when I cut and there's NO blood am I the only one? I'm not gonna go in detail but today was HORRIBLE and I literally just want to hide in a dark corner and die..