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I Cut My Self

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    I don't do it any more,

    but when I did do it, it was to release the feelings that were bent up inside of me. and to gain control over them. I am getting help for it, but I still want to do it sometimes...
    PacirickMoon PacirickMoon 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I've been clean for 6 days.

    My boyfriend has been so supportive. He always tells me, "replace the blades with my hands." Then he holds my hands for a while.
    RecklessMistake RecklessMistake 13-15, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    my friend saw my wrists today.

    we were in drama and had to dress up and my friend wanted me to wear a white shirt thing. she told me to take off my jacket but i told her i couldnt. she kept asking then started talking about my period so I pulled up my sleeve a little and she just stared. i ran to the...
    Mikaylajane15 Mikaylajane15 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I started over a year

    and a half ago, not knowing what I was getting into and only focusing on the feeling cutting gave. After four months of cutting, I quit, stayed clean for another couple months, but then went back. For a while I stayed on/off, trying my hardest not to go back to my razors, but...
    BlackenedIrises BlackenedIrises 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I just cut myself i'm

    so pissed please help me
    sarawoods sarawoods 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It won't stop bleeding,

    what should I do:/
    EricaAudrey22 EricaAudrey22 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    my friend saw my cuts today

    and wouldn´t let me leave school until I told her why. now she's mad and disappointed in me for doing it. :/
    brokenangel14 brokenangel14 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I just started cutting

    and I don't know how to hide it in the summer. My mum can be really verbally abusive sometimes, though I know she loves me. I can tell she thinks that I'm a disappointment though, and I don't want to bring more shame to the family by everybody seeing my scars. I know this doesn...
    BlackSunCrimsonFyre BlackSunCrimsonFyre 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 4 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    I felt depressed and I wanted to do it.

    so I did it and it felt SO GOOD. still depressed tho
    turki2550 turki2550 16-17, M 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've been on and off cutting

    since I was 11, I'm 15 now. (: I tell everyone I'm alright and that I'm Ohkay. But I'm not. I'm never alright. I crave the blade 24/7 and I honestly don't know what I should do. The weird part is. I thoroughly enjoy it.
    bubblebubba bubblebubba 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I just change razors

    for rubberband so anytime I want physical pain I will just pinch myself with the band
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 13 hrs ago

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    After my parents found out

    that I cut, I felt so sad and frustrated. I didn't feel like a weight just dropped off my shoulders bit instead it felt like more was piled on. I felt this way for 3 month. One day I decided that I couldn't take it anymore. I cut. I.felt so relieved after that. I want to control...
    yummythedrummer yummythedrummer 13-15, F 8 Responses Mar 30

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 23 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    I stoped cutting myself.

    Im clean for 4-5 ,months. Im writing songs, books, helping other people. Im fine now. I know that any of you can be fine. You just need to wake up from this hell and start living other life. <3
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I cut my wrist for the first time in 7 years.

    I feel like it relieved what I was feeling. No I didn't do it for attention as I would never let anyone see them. I have just been feeling so down lately and it led to this. I thought I was over my self harming days.
    kristen1993 kristen1993 22-25, F 1 Response May 20

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    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I began again after 5 years of not cutting.

    I'm smarter now. I don't cut my wrist I cut the top of my thy where no one will see it. I'm not doing this because of depression. ni began because the stress got too much and I nicked my self on something and it felt......great. now I feel like my life is in order so long as I...
    inevertoldne1 inevertoldne1 22-25, F 2 Responses May 20

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    When I was 12, I'm 13 right now,

    I started cutting. Whether it be scissors or a razor blade or anything sharp, I would cut. I still do. Some days I feel like it's gets worst in my life than it really is. Some days I really want to kill myself. People at my school think I cut for attention, but I don't. I cut to...
    Montana2002 Montana2002 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    the only reason I stopped cutting is

    because I got sloppy...before no one would know that I had done it, I was sooo good at hiding it....but now since I tried to commit suicide they watch me like a hawk....I have no way of hiding it anymore as bad as I want to feel that pain and release I cant.....they would just...
    ShysietheVampiric ShysietheVampiric 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    I couldn't carry on sitting in my room just staring at my wrists. I wanted to cut, something I never thought I would be doing. At first I scratched at my arms. It wasn't enough. I then used scissors. I was too scared. I had a shower and shaved my legs. I stood there for at least...
    Bitxh0x Bitxh0x 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I feel like ****. My best friend walked into my

    room right after I had finished cutting she looked sooo ******* pissed. I'm also really confused why she was over cause she was supposed to be out with her gf on a date or whatever but instead she came over to my house and we watched movies made to watch when you're high and...
    AngelWithASecret2 AngelWithASecret2 13-15, F 3 Responses May 21

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    Its now summer so I cant cut on my forearm

    anymore i have to start cutting on my thigh now so people don't notice but it's not the same it doesn't hurt like it did before it doesn't even relieve the pain I feel inside idk what to do even the marker drawing crap doesn't work
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    i wanna cut my arms, i wanna see my blood,

    i want to see someones insides *does spooky dance*
    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F a week ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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