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I Cut My Self

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    I'm gonna draw a picture,

    a picture with a twist, my paintbrush is a razor blade, the canvas is my wrist.
    stuart101 stuart101 13-15, M 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    I just did it, a minute ago,

    and I can't stop laughing and crying. Woohoo for being messed up
    ImOnCloudOne ImOnCloudOne 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    So I just cut myself last time I cut was 4 days

    ago I had to cut on my right wrist even tho I'm right handed I couldn't cut on my left wrist because I have an appointment on the 12th hopefully my mom doesn't find out
    Maria134747 Maria134747 13-15, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I haven't for like a month

    and now I'm getting to the point where I just don't care I can't take this anymore I'm always getting blamed for everything because everything's my fault right.... I always do everything for my younger sisters and I get treated like crap but I guess that's what I am I'm...
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    THIS JUST IN!!! My latest excuse: some kid ran

    into my locker and it bumped into me and cut my arm. (near my elbow: 5 times)
    notatrustfundbaby notatrustfundbaby 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    i draw to vent depressive emotion

    and i cut myself to vent depressive emotion. so why not combine the two? http://s3.amazonaws.com/ep_albums/-58611108/439656/ht1nv--58611108-i.jpg blood turns brown when it dries but when fresh, it makes lovely colors among my pencil.
    bloodyborgiabastard bloodyborgiabastard 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I cut for the first time the other day .

    I don't want to start cutting but it relieved the anger and hurt I was feeling. My boyfriend wasn't happy at all.
    Shorthairgirl97 Shorthairgirl97 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    Soooooo.....I had stopped cutting myself

    for two months. But than things started to get bad again. My aunt was yelling at me more and calling names,and me and my brother hated each other. I hate coming home. My favorite Part of the day was going to school. So when I took shower I got my old blade and would cut but not...
    cutekittycat cutekittycat 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Everyone thinks I'm ok.

    ..I have been but it's all coming back...the voices...the nightmares...the hallucinations...I can't take it...
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    the scars are building up

    and I don't understand why...I feel so ******* ****** up... I'm so insecure about everything...it's hard for me to breathe with out me thinking I did it wrong...I'm just kind of going thought the motions and it feels all wrong
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    I have before. but I quit.

    now I really want to do it again. I hate this feeling. I hate having to tell myself I'm better than that and that people wouldn't want me too. but sometimes I feel like they wouldn't really care. right now I feel like that's the only thing that can help me. maybe I stopped being...
    iloveyoudude iloveyoudude 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    well i had a bad memory

    and it resulted in me cuttin but mann. it did feel good hmmm i wish someone was out there to make me feel the way cutting makes me feel. on a high to where nothing exist except me and her.
    feelsgoodtocut feelsgoodtocut 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I promised a really good friend I would never

    pick up another blade... but right now it's so hard... I'm trying to keep that promise but idk If I can
    Allywall Allywall 13-15, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I cut myself again. A few days over a year

    sense the last time and still.... It was my fault and I tried to punish myself... Doesn't feel like enough hurting sometimes to make it all better.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Is it weird that even

    after all the physical pain I go through almost every day I still need to cut, it's different, when you feel like **** because of the names you need an escape...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I haven't since I found out about my

    responsibility... I have to keep it together cause now it's not just me. It's my pack too. Love you guys. ❤️❤️
    AlphaBloodMoon AlphaBloodMoon 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I just constantly let myself down.

    Im such a stupid dippy fucktard.
    Bubbalicious93 Bubbalicious93 18-21, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I can't stop its not

    that easy people always say why u cut that's not ok u need help well I cut bc of depression not everyone has a perfect life and it's not that easy to just stop it can take a while all my friends tell me to stop and one cuts to well u should know if u really cut its really really...
    WolvesXtigersXanimals WolvesXtigersXanimals 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    katielovespeeingherpants katielovespeeingherpants 18-21, F 9 Responses 2 days ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Honestly, I miss it. Last time I cut was right

    before Christmas. Recently I decided to stop for good because..because I didn't want to have to explain it to new people I met. Know what I mean? I remember when I told my last boyfriend, and I felt so guilty because...when he hurt me, I would cut, and it wasn't his fault. But...
    tangledx22 tangledx22 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 10 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 28 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I have the urge to right

    now n it sucks ugh y can't I ever keep a promise not to cut. All i wanna do is not feel anything emotionally and just too much is going and my head is spinning ugh :'(
    cute4me cute4me 13-15, T 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I feel like cutting is my only escape.

    My body may be in pain, yet my mind is at ease. I cut to feel alive. Seeing the crimson dotted line lets me know I'm still here, even if I'm only there a little. Spiders crawled inside, making themselves a home blocking out all the light I once had. Things are the worst they've...
    Ampora Ampora 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    suicidal thoughts on my brain I am standing in

    a plain alone and lost I will give it up at all cost I had made it the most used tool in my life I had to drop that knife it hasn't been 3 weeks and my wrist shouts and begs for the firts cut in a long time but I just suck on a lime and act like a mime no words but a fake...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    I'm going to hide. I'm going to pretend I'm

    gone. She can't check me, then. And I'll be able to feel relief again~
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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