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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    I was doing so good..

    I broke tonight..
    xTheGirlYouWishYouKnewx xTheGirlYouWishYouKnewx 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I have been cutting for about 2 years.

    I haven't cut in 2 months. Though I still have scars. Though, the odd part is no one says anything. I'm not sure if they notice and don't want to bring it up or don't notice. If they notice, why don't they help me. I haven't told anyone except anonymously online. If my parents...
    maddslol maddslol 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    well i was sopposed to try

    and stopfor a month but i havnt been sble to put the blade down ttoday
    chaspowell chaspowell 18-21, M 1 Response 24 mins ago

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Depression is a war You

    either win...... Or die trying And right now I'm fighting so hard but giving up just seems right around the corner alls i have to do is cut a little higher and ill finally die and just be at peace no more being bullied no more anxiety no more voices none of it but I have...
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    2Kawaii4u 2Kawaii4u 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    i think cutting myself is

    so pointless but why am i still doing it? :(
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    people think that the site of blood is gross.

    I'm finding it very calming right in the center of my hectic world
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F Apr 8

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    Just a cut. Just a scratch.

    "What's that mark?" "It was just the cat." Just an excuse. Just another lie. "What's with the bracelets?" "Just the fashion." Just a tear. Just scream. "Why were you crying?" "Just a bad dream." But its not just a cut. Or a tear or a lie. It's always 'just one more.' Until you...
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    My therapist decided to ignore my struggle with

    self harm after he asked to see my self harm scars. I was very fortunate that I ended up with very few and they aren't very noticeable. After I showed him he said, "oh that's nothing, you should see some arms.". I don't think the gravity of the scars someone has should determine...
    thornedrose thornedrose 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I just cut myself after a couple weeks of not

    doing it and I didn't cut deep that many times but for some reason I can't stand and I'm swaying, I've done worse so I don't know why this is happening I'm freaking out!! >.<
    Darkerthanlightash Darkerthanlightash 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    it's amazing how calm I can feel with a pin in

    my leg and a hole in my heart
    recoveringteen00 recoveringteen00 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 9

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    Im so ugly and useless,

    why am I alive? I hate being on this planet but I don't have the courage to kill myself. I wish I was able to fall asleep tonight and never ever wake up. Ive been cutting my arms and thighs for a while BT today I started my wrists, I hope I bleed enough so I die.
    michael1129 michael1129 13-15, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Apr 9

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I cut myself early today.

    Mom wasn't home yet and isn't gonna be until 10. I cut myself the number of times I was called worthless. Then a few extra because I just felt bad. The sink was full of blood but you can't even tell now.
    MyDemonsKnowHowToSwim MyDemonsKnowHowToSwim 13-15, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I know it's stupid and pointless

    but I still did it. I regret it so much. I'm angry at myself. I'm so dissapointed at myself after months of not doing it. Mom is going to kill me when she knows. Now I can't wear shorts for a while and that's so uncomfortable. It hurts like a motherfcker. What have I done?
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    My brother was making fun of me

    for cutting. He said, "you should go slit your wrists, Emo freak." He says cutting is for weak people who can't handle reality.. I can't take it anymore. I just want to die. I would relapse, but I ******* can't. My dad took my blades and moved all the knives. ****. I have a...
    Ashleyyyb Ashleyyyb 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I used to cut myself

    and I don't know why maybe it was because of what people said about me or maybe it was because I was just depressed and the only thing that made me feel better was pain. The cutting was like an addiction once I started I just couldn't stop the blood that ran from my arm the...
    lioncloud1010 lioncloud1010 22-25 6 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    My friends are like: *cuts themselves once* Omg

    it's so addictive! I hope I can stop! I didn't even cut that deep, but... Me: WTF? This honestly happened to me today.
    wolfgirl202 wolfgirl202 13-15, F 5 Responses Apr 8

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    I cut so much tonight my legs have

    so much blood on them
    michael1129 michael1129 13-15, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    after fighting for 5 monthes i lost it again i

    think i could never stop cutting and i hate myself for cutting
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I swear the worst combination of things to have

    are self harming urges and dermatillomania. My cuts never heal properly because I constantly pick at them and other areas of my skin. I hate this.
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm going to say this straight up

    because I used to cut too and let me tell you, it was one of the stupidest things I've ever done. I look at the scars and I'm like, what the **** was I thinking? Because you know what, it didn't do a damn thing for me but give me ugly scars I have to look at until they fade. And...
    seabassep seabassep 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    its getting addictive,

    it only started with a few on my arm and now there are red cut lines on my legs also, But its like a remedy for what I go through, I don't know what'll do, keep cutting or starve?
    2Kawaii4u 2Kawaii4u 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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