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I Cut My Self

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I cut a lot now and my parents found out,

    they just yelled at me and they don't try to help..
    meow69jake meow69jake 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I messed up this weekend twice!

    I hadn't cut in years, but this weekend I did. I was in so much pain and so depressed. I had no where to turn and I hurt myself. I regret it and am swearing to myself it won't happen again-ever. But, when I say ever, in the back of my head I say I cannot do it. I am saying to...
    BrokenWander BrokenWander 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was clean for around three weeks

    until about 10 minutes ago… I cut again on my hip, I know it was wrong but at the same time I feel relieved like I'm happy that I did it… I feel calm… I feel better
    brokenandbi brokenandbi 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Im so fed up with people thinking

    that Im ******* lying on here when Im nit just leave me the **** alone I have a hard enough time trying to not to ******* cut
    Summerdogs Summerdogs 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I cut my thighs today,

    I was so vicious and now the keep bleeding
    michael1129 michael1129 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    It's been a while. I think I need to cut

    tonight... Reason? I have no ******* idea. :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I cut myself early today.

    Mom wasn't home yet and isn't gonna be until 10. I cut myself the number of times I was called worthless. Then a few extra because I just felt bad. The sink was full of blood but you can't even tell now.
    MyDemonsKnowHowToSwim MyDemonsKnowHowToSwim 13-15, M 3 Responses Apr 16

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I cut again....both arms

    and my leg. I'm so weak
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    The one person I tell everything to is mad at

    himself, so he refuses to talk to me . Now I feel like I have to hurt myself because of what happens in my own life and how he just made me feel..
    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    I'm not gonna hide my cuts anymore,

    I'm just gonna show them tomorrow. I don't care about trying to hide them. If anyone in my class is bothered then they can **** off :)
    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I can't stop, a lot of things happen

    and all of the emotions start building up until I can't take it anymore and I need that sense of release… I promised my boyfriend that I would stop cutting but sometimes I still do and I feel horrible
    brokenandbi brokenandbi 18-21, F 10 Responses a week ago

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    I was doing so good..

    I broke tonight..
    xTheGirlYouWishYouKnewx xTheGirlYouWishYouKnewx 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 18

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    I had this thought about what

    if I cut after drinking coffee and coffee poured out XD. I couldn't decide if blood would be in it or not. Hahaha😂
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    I cut so much tonight my legs have

    so much blood on them
    michael1129 michael1129 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 16

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    To those who cut: Give it up.

    Throw the razors away and try a lastic band. When you feel the urge to inflict harm simply pull and let go of the band. Helps alot of people! Plus, it leaaves no scars!
    GayTeenGamer133 GayTeenGamer133 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    3 weeks clean Thursday.

    So proud. I have had a lot of rough times in between the last time I've cut to now. I forgot how hard it was. I was 5 months clean 2 weeks ago but then I cut and it really sucked. I forgot how hard it was to hide the cuts but I somehow did it. And I'm super proud of myself for...
    andrew1459 andrew1459 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I'm thinking it might happen again tonight.

    If it does, I know i'll lose count. Oh, well. So much for my streak.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    hmg21699 hmg21699 18-21 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I have been cutting for about 2 years.

    I haven't cut in 2 months. Though I still have scars. Though, the odd part is no one says anything. I'm not sure if they notice and don't want to bring it up or don't notice. If they notice, why don't they help me. I haven't told anyone except anonymously online. If my parents...
    maddslol maddslol 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 4 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 24 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 12 Responses Feb 21

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    After my parents found out

    that I cut, I felt so sad and frustrated. I didn't feel like a weight just dropped off my shoulders bit instead it felt like more was piled on. I felt this way for 3 month. One day I decided that I couldn't take it anymore. I cut. I.felt so relieved after that. I want to control...
    yummythedrummer yummythedrummer 13-15, F 10 Responses Mar 30

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I have suffered for a long time ever sense I

    was little I scratched cut hurt myself I'm know 16 and still cut and try to commit I have scars I've been trying to get help but the sad fact no one wants to help I guess I'm writing this because I feel like I wanna cut
    hmg21699 hmg21699 18-21 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    because i feel worthless sometimes

    and there to just drama so i let my mind take control of my actions..cutting helps at that moment for me but then if people ask abt it i just say my cat and i were messing around and she clawed me..
    jennaSplitt135 jennaSplitt135 13-15, F 22 hrs ago

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    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    I always seem to be okay

    for a bit but then I will go back to cutting when I can't handle it anymore. Like sometimes I can't handle my feelings no more so I will cut to cope with them. I try to tell my closest friends how I am feeling so I don't cut but then they ignore me or just make me feel worse...
    internationalkoala internationalkoala 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I've been gone from this app

    for months and months because my cutting intervals went from occasionally to once every week if not more. No adult knows and I don't have one to go to. If I go to a counselor at school she's legally required to contact my parents which will be hell. It's getting nicer and I don...
    Brokentobits Brokentobits 13-15, F 1 day ago

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