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I Cut My Self

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 2,058 People

    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    That face the nurses make

    when you say you cut yourself using a staple. They start to look around as if they're realizing for the first time that this world is so full of sharp edges that they can't possibly hope to save you from.
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T Aug 19

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    Cutting. It makes you do crazy things.

    Crazy things like steal a blade from the dollar store on a casual family trip to pick up a pill organizer. Stealing is wrong. I know it is but I did it. Can someone please explain to me how I STOLE SOMETHING!! How did I get here? How did I get to the point where I don't even...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 5 days ago

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    I cut again not a suprise ig i was a month clean

    but it became to much everything so more of a suicide attempt only didn't go as planned I cut but not deep enough I only lost enough blood to be disoriented for a few days but after that I kinda just idk I just don't see any point in living none next time I might just jump...
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 3 days ago

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    I just cut the urge to cut was

    so strong I couldn't last any longer I lasted 2 months I just couldn't take it anyone I'm ashamed in myself but I feel little happier
    VapingQueen420 VapingQueen420 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The new blade is really good.

    Which is really bad. If I pick it up, I'll never put it back down. Aaaaand.... I'm scared of myself again.
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    All of yall little ******* should go kill

    yourself instead of whining like little babies .
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 23

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    jacob33200 jacob33200 16-17, M 30 Responses 1 day ago

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    Havent done it for a long time.

    .. Prob gonnna do it again
    mozaq mozaq 16-17, F Aug 20

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    Justcallmesky Justcallmesky 13-15, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 10 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    When ever I am sad I always cut myself n I just

    wish I stab myself right through the heart so I don't have to live
    lookket lookket 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Not anymore.. Dont want to

    but i still like the feeling of sharp knife on my skin.. How did i end up like this :(
    mozaq mozaq 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    i started cuting again i really hate myself

    for it im 18 now and i still havent stoped
    madhattergirl41 madhattergirl41 18-21, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Aug 25

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    I've been clean all week

    because I promised a friend. But right now I just need to cut. I know it sounds insane and stupid. I'm fighting the urge so hard that I can't concentrate on anything else and i don't know what to do. If my friend finds out they'll be furious with me but also blame themselves for...
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    So tonight I finally did it - I told my mom.

    She reacted surprisingly positive. It was a bit awkward, but she told me to stop being so introverted and try to be more open and positive. That I only live once and that I should enjoy my life to the fullest. And then I cried a lot and we hugged. I have to learn to be more...
    Cessydesu Cessydesu 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    To understand anything you need to hear the

    backstory or part of it at least. So when my parents found out my brother cut it was like this huge family secret and we couldn't tell anyone. But no, when they found out about me cutting they ******* tell every single person they know. So my mom of course told our neighbors...
    brokenangel14 brokenangel14 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    tannernoniii tannernoniii 16-17, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

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    Never walk into a cutter's room without

    knocking. More for your sake than for theirs.
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 12 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I cut, but it's not emo,

    it's a sexual thing. Weird I know.
    Bonneyshattuck Bonneyshattuck 18-21, F Aug 23

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    I really want to cut right now,

    but I promise this guy I really really like that I won't cut anymore for him because it hurts him seeing my scars. And I don't want to break the promise! But I want to cut! What do I do?!??
    fuckliving fuckliving 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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