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I Cut My Self

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    I couldn't carry on sitting in my room just staring at my wrists. I wanted to cut, something I never thought I would be doing. At first I scratched at my arms. It wasn't enough. I then used scissors. I was too scared. I had a shower and shaved my legs. I stood there for at least...
    Bitxh0x Bitxh0x 13-15, F 1 Response May 24

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I just change razors

    for rubberband so anytime I want physical pain I will just pinch myself with the band
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    one of my friends noticed

    that my scars spelled "dad" in Japanese. I did not know that
    MrPoolofsouls MrPoolofsouls 36-40, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Haven't cut since I've been released from the

    hospital. Really going through withdrawals, thought stopping would help but it's making me worse.
    Jacey97 Jacey97 16-17, F 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    After my parents found out

    that I cut, I felt so sad and frustrated. I didn't feel like a weight just dropped off my shoulders bit instead it felt like more was piled on. I felt this way for 3 month. One day I decided that I couldn't take it anymore. I cut. I.felt so relieved after that. I want to control...
    yummythedrummer yummythedrummer 13-15, F 8 Responses Mar 30

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I stoped cutting myself.

    Im clean for 4-5 ,months. Im writing songs, books, helping other people. Im fine now. I know that any of you can be fine. You just need to wake up from this hell and start living other life. <3
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I started over a year

    and a half ago, not knowing what I was getting into and only focusing on the feeling cutting gave. After four months of cutting, I quit, stayed clean for another couple months, but then went back. For a while I stayed on/off, trying my hardest not to go back to my razors, but...
    BlackenedIrises BlackenedIrises 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    charsharu charsharu 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I just cut myself i'm

    so pissed please help me
    sarawoods sarawoods 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    it's been a week since I last cut ^^ it's been

    really hard not to, but it is possible..i don't know how much longer i can not do it though..:/
    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I haven't cut in 35 days

    and I've been wanting to cut really bad today...
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I haven't cut myself in 2 days!

    it may not seem like much but it's progress!
    tannernoniii tannernoniii 16-17, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    So I just lost my job.

    ...so now I'm pretty sure I'm gonna go home smoke a cigarette and cut the **** out of myself
    ShysietheVampiric ShysietheVampiric 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    I'm so alone & I can't take it anymore 😭 Why

    can't I just be happy for once 💔
    parso16 parso16 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I just started cutting

    and I don't know how to hide it in the summer. My mum can be really verbally abusive sometimes, though I know she loves me. I can tell she thinks that I'm a disappointment though, and I don't want to bring more shame to the family by everybody seeing my scars. I know this doesn...
    BlackSunCrimsonFyre BlackSunCrimsonFyre 13-15, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    Occasionally I have a weird

    and sad realisation of what I have actually done to my skin. Usually I am just numb to it and am unable to comprehend possible consequences.
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 1 Response May 25

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

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    It won't stop bleeding,

    what should I do:/
    EricaAudrey22 EricaAudrey22 18-21, F 3 Responses May 25

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    When I was 12, I'm 13 right now,

    I started cutting. Whether it be scissors or a razor blade or anything sharp, I would cut. I still do. Some days I feel like it's gets worst in my life than it really is. Some days I really want to kill myself. People at my school think I cut for attention, but I don't. I cut to...
    Montana2002 Montana2002 13-15, F 2 Responses May 23

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 23 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I've been on and off cutting

    since I was 11, I'm 15 now. (: I tell everyone I'm alright and that I'm Ohkay. But I'm not. I'm never alright. I crave the blade 24/7 and I honestly don't know what I should do. The weird part is. I thoroughly enjoy it.
    bubblebubba bubblebubba 18-21, F 1 Response May 24

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    Happened again last night.

    I've really got to step up my game here if I want to be clean by graduation.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I can't stop cutting myself

    but when I am cutting myself I feel happy or excited
    Mayblood Mayblood 13-15, F 1 Response May 24

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    MangaIsLoveMangaIsLife MangaIsLoveMangaIsLife 13-15 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Its now summer so I cant cut on my forearm

    anymore i have to start cutting on my thigh now so people don't notice but it's not the same it doesn't hurt like it did before it doesn't even relieve the pain I feel inside idk what to do even the marker drawing crap doesn't work
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    I know life is beautiful.

    I do know that. Believe me. Do you know what I'm saying when I tell you about that burning feeling inside my chest. That emptiness I feel. That hole in my chest. The holes being drilled into my head. That noise that doesn't stop.The burning feeling afterwards, the guilt I feel...
    PotatoKid PotatoKid 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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