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I Cut My Self

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    I relapsed after three years.

    I can't believe I forgot how therapeutic it is. Amazing
    hogfan13 hogfan13 26-30, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Thatrandompersonme1 Thatrandompersonme1 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 14

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    alice123422 alice123422 16-17, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 10 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I snuck out to my car to cut myself.

    .. There's 6 weeks down the drain... ****.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    I just got a whole box of razors,

    I used one just today. It was so sharp it cut so deep and so easily, I barely put any effort into it and it still cut so deep.
    NotMadeOfStone NotMadeOfStone 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 22

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    When I first started cutting I didn't use a

    razor blade(cause we didn't have any). So one day I accidentally dropped a glass of water on my floor, the glass broke, (No ****) And piece of the broken glass was really sharp and I started cutting, I barely felt anything...
    Elliethecloud Elliethecloud 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 22

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    I haven't done it in a

    while a good three-four months now... I want to so bad, I keep reaching for my scissors or something like that... but I can't, I could never hurt my Bf like that or at all... a lot of people think I'm just a happy bubbly girl and everything is perfect in my world, let me be the...
    PoisonHue PoisonHue 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I love it so much... it's one of the few things

    that makes me feel good anymore. I'm always trying to put a smile on, all be it it's not a great smile. but then I go home and lock myself in my room and realize that I have few. and I realize that the numbness won't go away. I think about my knife and how people tell me not to...
    ThePlaguer ThePlaguer 16-17, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I have had a serious relapse into the habit of

    cutting again, I managed to quit and had been fine for a month or so as well as quitting drinking and smoking. But I have started cutting again with an old razor of mine, I am ashamed of this because I need to find other ways of distracting myself. Its just because I am so full...
    ThePiggycorn ThePiggycorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 15

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    These cuts now are because I just had a great

    conversation with someone that will never be a part of my life that I wish they could be. Dreams and cuts are all I have.
    Justsilence00 Justsilence00 26-30, F Jul 17

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

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    I've tried so hard to leave this behind

    but I just can't. Whenever I'm happy and things are going well for me something always comes along and ruins it. I'm tired of being strong on the outside and always trying so hard to help others but yet when I need help I can't get it. Things were going so well for me the past 6...
    BlackRaven2015 BlackRaven2015 31-35, M 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    I have been clean for a couple of months,

    then I got brand new razors. Then I just let loose forgetting all the bs and the ones who broke my heart.
    NomadAngel117 NomadAngel117 18-21, M Jul 23

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    i was 2 months clean

    until last night
    pohernandez pohernandez 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    sammylynn333 sammylynn333 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Me and my friends are going to do a fundraiser

    in my school for depression and self harm and things like that. I know I'm not the only person in my school that has problems. One of my friends had autism and nobody even really likes her. We are going to call ourselves the 'Happy Hearts'. All the money we gain will be sent to...
    Montana2002 Montana2002 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    So I need to tell someone about this.

    So the reason for my cutting has changed, yesterday I cut cause I wanted to feel the razor it self cut my arm. I wasn't sad or depressed, I actually wanted it. I wanted the cuts and it felt great. I was even a little turned on by the it and I honestly don't know how to react...
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 14

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    I cut myself I have done it

    for a whole now and yeah I like it when I do it I get the feeling of relaseing the pain that I have inside
    bichick19 bichick19 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    If anyone can help me

    or give me any advice please.. read my story.. Currently I am studying college abroad, and well I decided the last couple of months to go back home and finish my studies there. The thing is that I am on finals right now, and I have to approve all from this semester in order...
    Bella1314 Bella1314 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    years past...the turmoil within.

    the unnamed ache. pain of confusion and lonliness. so insurmountable and so amorphous. what was the source? why did it torment so remorselessly? a dull ache that seized the heart in bands of cold iron. one night while drinking (of course) at a party. in a fit of macho...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Last night I slipped.

    After almost 2 ******* years of not marking myself I slipped. I became so numb to emotions that I barely felt anything. It felt like a scratch but they were deep. They should've hurt. I should've cried out in pain. I should've just cried myself to sleep. I regret what I've done...
    CaptainBlake CaptainBlake 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I haven't self-harmed in two months.

    (Since I was last institutionalized for trying to commit suicide..again.) I've been self harming for a few years now and I've never went more than a week without self harming, until now of course. I stopped self harming but started to get into other things again like Ana & Mia...
    TheMorticiansDaughter TheMorticiansDaughter 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 22

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    The blade sinking into my flesh is the only

    thing I've felt in a long time. But why hasn't all this blood loss killed me yet?!
    StephBlakeIsInfinite StephBlakeIsInfinite 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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