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I Cut My Self

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    blah. i cut last night

    before work. right near my elbow. and on my wrist the night before. i was wearing a jacket. i just felt so nauseated having anything touching the cuts. anybody else ever feel like that? i also used hydrogen peroxide to clean them. probably not a good idea. :p
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 33 Responses 5 days ago

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    Well, 2 weeks just went down the drain.

    I did the best I could trying to deal with the pain on my own, it just didn't work out as planned
    bregood bregood 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    well im sorry i cant

    even control myself how am i gonna control my whole life?
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    I used to think people cut themselves

    because they didn't feel emotions and they needed to feel something so they used physical pain. However for me it was completely different. I felt way too many emotions at once where my whole body ached and my head throbbed from tears. The only way for those strong emotions...
    Salidia Salidia 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hate when people say that

    because you cut yourself your stupid and selfish... that's not true I cut because I need to feel the pain. I need to have relief. Maybe I'm suicidal maybe I just want somebody to feel my pain. Maybe it's a cry for help. but it's not because I'm stupid or selfish it's my way of...
    RobertsLove17 RobertsLove17 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 10 Responses Nov 10

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    Just one more cut to stop the tears.

    Just one more cut to feel okay. Just one more cut to ease the pain. Just one more cut to disappearing. Just one more cut to calm me down. Just one more cut to not feel numb. Just one more cut to keep a secret. Just one more cut to hide myself away. Just one more cut to...
    ButterflyAnnabel ButterflyAnnabel 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    idk why i keep doing this to myself.

    trying to stop hasn't been going very well at all. :p
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    And when everything goes away there's nothing

    left.... And I think thats enough for now!
    bittersweetlemonade bittersweetlemonade 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Am I the only one who feels more compulsive to

    cut after scars have progressed healing? They're in places I only see so the scabs are all just for me but... when I notice them turning white or fading I just get so angry and lash out at myself again to start this ridiculous cycle over(?) I don't get it myself, sorry.
    bloodyborgiabastard bloodyborgiabastard 26-30, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    i picked the scab off.

    ... bad idea
    mysticalgem mysticalgem 13-15, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    (THE PICTURE ATTACHED CAN BE TRIGGERING) Today

    I went further than ever. I've never been so deep at so many places, and I'm scared. The cuts on my thighs are almost black with depth and dried blood. I've cleaned them, but they still burn as hell. I just want to escape my body right now. I want to fall asleep and not wake up...
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 6 Responses Oct 19

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I fudged up I had 3 months .

    .. And now all I wanna do is cut again
    homewardbound1990 homewardbound1990 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I was clean for almost 4 years.

    I'm not in the habit of blaming others for my actions but......she made me do it. I was on a road to recovery and she made me take an unexpected left turn. I was making my way through hell. I was sad but I was hopeful. I'm trying to stay calm. She brings out the worst in me. My...
    BlankSpace13 BlankSpace13 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I wish people would understand

    why I cut, but I can't make them understand. I don't think they really want to either. Honestly I'm glad that I started it. I don't regret it.They're right it's not a good habit to do but instead of me killing myself I cut.I let that be the strength for me to hold on. Cutting is...
    ButterflyAnnabel ButterflyAnnabel 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    I'm trying not to cut

    but it's so hard :S
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 9 Responses Feb 10

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Emily97x Emily97x 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I need to go deeper way more deeper till I fall

    to the ground and not wake up
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    When you look into her eyes You see happiness.

    When you notice that she smiles To much, When you notice she laughs To much, You take one more look Into her beautiful eyes. Then you look down At her wrist. You notice She's bleeding. You tell her and her Beautiful eyes Instantly turn into horror. She says I'm sorry. I...
    ButterflyAnnabel ButterflyAnnabel 16-17, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    hearmecryandwatchmedie hearmecryandwatchmedie 16-17, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26

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    these have been here

    for a few days...
    mysticalgem mysticalgem 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    After 2 months and 15 days,

    I caved in to the only thing that brings instant relief. I actually went out to the store, 11 pm and 45 degrees JUST TO BUY razor blades. I thought this would give me time to change my mind, ya know so I'm not slicing into my skin in the heat of the moment. I came home and cut...
    15YrsCutting 15YrsCutting 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 11 Responses Oct 24

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    were all so depressed here.

    its depressing.
    gramafey gramafey 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    so I just want to cut all the time

    and I just love the live off doing so what can I do to stop
    lonelyaaron2 lonelyaaron2 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 16-17, M 6 Responses Feb 26

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30

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    I have scars so that

    when i look at them i can remember that i can't trust people. Each scar is from sometime who hurt me, lied to me, used me...they have a purpose.
    lehcar1977 lehcar1977 36-40, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011