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    I cut.... again a couple hours ago right

    after I got in a huge arguement that got really heated... it just reminded me of how worthless i really am. and I had been clean for weeks better than I had ever done but I ****** it up like everything else wish i could just flick the lights off
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I want to feel accepted

    for who I am. I feel like I'm not good enough sometimes. I hate myself. I hate my body. Sometimes I ask myself how can someone love a person that ruined their selves with scars.
    Darcy220 Darcy220 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    yesterday i cut my wrist .

    .it was the first for a really long time ..i felt so much pain and broken so i cut ...but this time i took it to a really new level ...my cuts used to be shallow but now its deep ...besides i did for the first time 3 cuts on my thigh ! i really want to stop ! its not a good thing...
    yuush yuush 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I thought I was done.

    .. I thought I beat it, and I had moved on to a better chapter in my life. Oh how wrong I was. I relapsed once again. It had been a month or so since my last "accident" and I really thought I won. But it's almost like cutting is apart of who I am now... I can't run away from...
    TheOriginalDarkHorse TheOriginalDarkHorse 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    After my parents found out

    that I cut, I felt so sad and frustrated. I didn't feel like a weight just dropped off my shoulders bit instead it felt like more was piled on. I felt this way for 3 month. One day I decided that I couldn't take it anymore. I cut. I.felt so relieved after that. I want to control...
    yummythedrummer yummythedrummer 13-15, F 7 Responses Mar 30

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    24 hours without cutting

    and I really want to but I promised my bf I wouldn't anymore and it is hard not too
    kaitlynn56 kaitlynn56 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I just cut. I carved a girls name into my arm.

    It's the girl I love's name. Brooklyn. All in capital letters. The O's look like D's. It's her, Brooklyn Schlag's first name. It looks good. To have her name carved into my arm, it's like she's mine. But she isn't. I'm gonna look at it everyday until the scar go's away
    Montana2002 Montana2002 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    so I've been 3 months clean

    for self harm......today I relapsed and cut again.....
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 21

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    I'm cutting my arm right now.

    I'm in a long distance relationship with an amazing girl and today she ended up in the hospital after getting bitten by her pet rattlesnakes. I feel useless. Her friend has been looking after her and keeping me updated and I haven't heard anything else after his last message. No...
    mizzcomplicated mizzcomplicated 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    Guess who's been clean

    for four weeks ! Those four weeks went by hella fast. There are times that I really wanted to cut again but I just had to stop myself. I'm really hoping this lasts, idk if it will but hopefully it does. Thank you for everyone who is there helping me, I love you.
    wanttobeokay wanttobeokay 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    That razor is a nightmare,

    but that nightmare is my best friend.
    TrainzRFun TrainzRFun 13-15, M 6 days ago

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    I'm a failure to life.

    Why am i still around? So many times i should of died, why do i survive every time.
    jazakar01 jazakar01 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    I don't because they would find out,

    I don't want to keep it a secret. But there's no one to lie to anymore, because no one really cares to find out.
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, T 6 hrs ago

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    I've been "better" so many times,

    it all just seems like a joke now.
    HidingInTheMusic HidingInTheMusic 13-15, F Jun 20

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    bhenn21 bhenn21 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hiya, i'm gavin, I like to help people with

    depression/self-harm, so if you want a friend you can message me
    GavinP GavinP 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 22-25, M 23 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    I have finally been broken.

    I stopped cutting for a long time, now that I feel so much pain...I want to do more than cut myself. I am so damn done...
    littlexpiecexofxme littlexpiecexofxme 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Everyone wants me to buy scar cream

    but I actually like my scars. They remind me to stay strong, but my family thinks it's weird. Is it?
    DelaneyJade DelaneyJade 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    So today is my Birthday.

    I started cutting 2 years ago... When i started i was like. How can people have cuts all over there body like over 200+ scars? Well that person is me now. My wrists are covered but there old and healed. My forearm has some dark ones. My left shoulder is covered in newly healed...
    Nick54 Nick54 22-25, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    flo877 flo877 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 20

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    Hey everyone just like probably everyone here I

    cut myself aswell just lonely and looking for people of any gender even trans to talk to. I'm a pretty big nerd
    Chaospi2 Chaospi2 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    another failed attempt

    because of a dull knife
    kaitlynn56 kaitlynn56 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I'm here to tell you guys it does get better.

    I was cutter for 4 years. And I met someone who brought me up so much an let me know that everything was gonna be okay. It was a rocky road. Coming from someone who used to cut everyday because they were made fun of for not being pretty enough an having a gap an a little acne. I...
    BeautiifullyBroken BeautiifullyBroken 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    Boys dont self harm..

    . yea right. about 3 percent do... Im out of the 3 percent.... horrible childhood and still horrible now. You were suppose to die at birth i keep telling myself. Im going to be completely honest. Im a very bad self-harmer... like one of the worst ones. I cant survive about 3...
    InfiniteZero InfiniteZero 13-15, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    If I could find my blades,

    I'd start cutting again. Honestly.
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 20

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    Cutting messes with your mind.

    You cut. You're a cutter. You've stopped cutting, you're still a cutter. Your faded scars remind you of a time when you were so weak... But that was such a long time ago it doesn't even feel real now. You were a different person back then. You don't care who "see's" because you...
    Itfloo Itfloo 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 20

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    Sitting in my dark room.

    . while blood just keep dripping.. still.. it hurts.. my mind, my heart, everything... someone help me
    mozaq mozaq 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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