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    I honestly am the most worthless,

    disgusting, fat, ugly, and annoying being on this planet and I stopped cutting for a while but my best friend let me go
    xsorryxlovex xsorryxlovex 13-15, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I just miss you, and no amount of cuts to my

    arms is going to make you come back
    deadinside0220 deadinside0220 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    So I went to an psychiatrist (old one) with my

    father and she wanted to tell him about my cutting so after a while I did now I feel weird talking to him He knows to much about me and I don't know how he feels!:( I hurting and feel so incomplete I don't know what to do anymore. I walk around my house feeling like something...
    cutekittycat cutekittycat 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    it erases all the dark feelings in my body

    and just leaves the light feelings the dark feelings come back but then I just cut myself again seeing the blood knowing I deserved this pain all the dark feelings go away again
    ashleysokolik ashleysokolik 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 10 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    I cut multiple times a day at school,

    but never at home or in the weekend
    alicebro alicebro 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I'd fill every inch of my body with cuts,

    and still want more skin to cut.
    simmerdame simmerdame 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    I started cutting recently.

    .. bad breakup... it was the only thing that helped... when I cut its not my arms but my chest and belly, I cut several hundred lines at a time... I love to do it... I start by sharpening my KaBar knife on a sharpening stone and due to the knifes heavy wieght I drag it across my...
    Jessechasee Jessechasee 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    The last time I cut was 2 days ago.

    I cut around 15 times on my thigh, then a few times on my wrist. Now I feel really guilty about people seeing the marks because I don't want them to worry about me.
    emmaem02 emmaem02 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    So today I cut myself.

    I lasted a while this time since November was the last time. My leg is killing with pain. You see I don't cut to kill myself as everyone assumes I cut to release pain hurt or stress. I used to have regular counselling sessions at least once a week to cope with my problems and...
    elizachloe06 elizachloe06 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    I didn't want to, but it happened.

    It was like my body was a robot and just automatically picked up those scissors. And without even thinking, just started slicing my wrist. I stopped and realized what I was doing...and cried. I never thought I would ever do that. I really regret it...
    Lunamoon16 Lunamoon16 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    My mom gave me a 14 piece knife set

    for Christmas and I haven't taken it out of the box yet. She thought I stopped cutting when I was 13, but that's the age I was when I decided that she couldn't know about it anymore. It was too much for her, and I couldn't deal with her knowing..and knowing what effect I had...
    tangledx22 tangledx22 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 13-15, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    If this gets 20+ likes,

    I'll flush my blades. Haven't cut myself in 3 months.
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 12 Responses Jan 10

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    I've started cutting about a month ago.

    When it first happened was during one of my panic attacks (i get them when i can't control my emotions) i took a blade and cut myself. At first, i didn't feel any shame. But i didn't feel proud. I really need someone to talk to, because no one around me understands. My father is...
    Rhymekins Rhymekins 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    Theirs this girl who likes to draw.

    ... she never draws in front of anyone though, only in the bathroom stalls or in her bedroom. She never shows anyone either. She just keeps them to herself..... A few months ago she met this guy, he always wore black and didn't talk to anyone. They started to hang out and...
    keke1432 keke1432 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I cut myself a couple days ago.

    I thought they would be gone by now cuz they weren't too bad but they're still completely visible. I have dance class tomorrow and I have to wear a tank top. Does anyone know of things that make cuts heal faster? I don't know what to do.
    myillmind myillmind 16-17, F 8 Responses 3 days ago

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 14 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    They tell me "you shouldn't cut it's not

    healthy " bla bla bla But they aren't doing anything to help me. Talking to me , anything !!!!
    annirawrmuffin annirawrmuffin 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    I was doing so well. Or I should say,

    I am doing so well. For now. It's been slightly over 2 months since I last cut..and I can't remember why I stopped. Who cares? It clears my head so I can actually focus on a situation for what it is instead of just losing my mind over this feeling, this horrible feeling that...
    tangledx22 tangledx22 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Yes I cut. It's amazing,

    horrible and addictive. I've been cutting for years now and I've stopped caring if people see it anymore. Yes I don't showcase them, but nor do I make a lot of effort to hide them. They are apart of me so if people find them hideous or unsettling then **** them. They are...
    Mordacai Mordacai 18-21, M 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I can't believe I thought I was done forever.

    I could've gone out tonight but that is the absolute last thing I want to do right now. I can't even describe how unappealing that sounds. Basically I'm staying in and cutting and those are my Saturday night plans. That's what I want to do. That's all I want to do.
    tangledx22 tangledx22 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Ya I cut. :/ I couldn't help it,

    but last night I was just so sad, and depressed. I went way deeper than usual and the blood went everywhere. I want to stop I was clean do a month and a half after my brother snitched on me. Now my bf is disapointed in me after him tellin me to just do it...Idk
    emohippylove emohippylove 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    You don't know what's like to wake up in the

    middle of the night scaring the thought of kissing razors. Would you kiss my lips knowing a razor lasses my wrist?
    ShadowsDie17 ShadowsDie17 16-17, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I wish I could carry my blade to school

    and cut when everything frustrates me. How could you call yourself my friend and the teacher was the one who came and talked to me when I was crying.......Cutting is my only friend.
    Adridee Adridee 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    when people look at my wrists,

    they ask me "How can you do it that deep? Doesn't it hurt?" my response "No. It's a sense of relief and it feels good" (they look at me like I'm crazy) and who knows maybe I am.....
    keke1432 keke1432 18-21, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    nonamerr nonamerr 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I wish I don't but I just can't it make me feel

    better it doesn't hurt anymore but thinking of you dose I miss you
    nekozgirl nekozgirl 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    so i bought i a hunting knife ,

    made for skinning, cuts so perfect thou. i giggle at the fact that my anger makes me rage to the point of no control. not cutting can make me feel escape so now im getting drunk to the point i black out. its win win ill release stress and i wont remember hurting people. yay for...