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I Cut My Self

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    I'm a few weeks clean.

    Ever since I started my diet, the need to have something to control has been manifesting itself into that instead of cutting. But a few times a day the urge comes up. I don't know how much longer I can hold on...
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I cut myself because I guess sometimes I feel

    as though the whole world is against me and I deserve to feel pain. But the funny thing is the pain begins to be pleasure and seeing the blood is almost intoxicating. The scars left behing make me feel strong but embarrassed.
    Dakota15 Dakota15 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    hmg21699 hmg21699 18-21 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm thinking it might happen again tonight.

    If it does, I know i'll lose count. Oh, well. So much for my streak.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    Time to cut the stomach up to punish

    for thinking of bingeing..
    ThinWish ThinWish 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 24

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I've been self harming

    for about a year now. I've hurt my best friend in the process. I can't escape this. it feels like I can't ever escape this.
    yeetemma yeetemma 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I've been gone from this app

    for months and months because my cutting intervals went from occasionally to once every week if not more. No adult knows and I don't have one to go to. If I go to a counselor at school she's legally required to contact my parents which will be hell. It's getting nicer and I don...
    Brokentobits Brokentobits 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I had this thought about what

    if I cut after drinking coffee and coffee poured out XD. I couldn't decide if blood would be in it or not. Hahaha😂
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 24

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    Lasted 2 weeks being clean.

    .. I couldn't stop the thoughts though.... I've slowly become addicted :/ I have this want, this need to cut now
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I cut again....both arms

    and my leg. I'm so weak
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    I cut a lot now and my parents found out,

    they just yelled at me and they don't try to help..
    meow69jake meow69jake 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I cut today. It's been a while.

    But it felt so good. It was a dull blade because I didn't have my razors. But it'll do for now. Maybe I'll do it again tomorrow. I miss my daily cutting habits.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 24

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    I just cut myself again

    after my bf telling me he was breaking up with me now he's saying just a break for a week even though we just took a break last week omg someone please kill me now
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    3 weeks clean Thursday.

    So proud. I have had a lot of rough times in between the last time I've cut to now. I forgot how hard it was. I was 5 months clean 2 weeks ago but then I cut and it really sucked. I forgot how hard it was to hide the cuts but I somehow did it. And I'm super proud of myself for...
    andrew1459 andrew1459 13-15, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 5 days ago

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Sometimes I just get bored

    and cut myself. Every time its a little deeper. I do it because it temporarily lets me feel better and I enjoy watching the blood flow down my arm and chest
    jonboy318 jonboy318 16-17, M Apr 22

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    I can't quit thinking.

    .. maybe If I quit thinking in I'll quit cutting or maybe if I quit living I'll quit cutting... some days I just want to quit everything quitting life would be easier even if I have things going for me i think I ju st want to quit...
    hollie2parker hollie2parker 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    After a month clean i just snapped.

    Slapping makes it sooooo much better.
    NomadAngel117 NomadAngel117 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I have quit hiding my scars.

    I just feel like they are my arms, and why should I hid them anymore then anyone else should. Sometimes I fear that people are judging me to be an attention seeker. But at the end of the day, I am going to do what it takes to live a normal life, despite what someone else may or...
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I was 4 days clean 4 DAYS!

    But I threw all the progress away I am so fricking mad at myself... I am sorry I failed...
    itsNicole itsNicole 13-15, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 24 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 4 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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