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I Cut My Self

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 654 People

    i started cuting again i really hate myself

    for it im 18 now and i still havent stoped
    madhattergirl41 madhattergirl41 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Id been clean for pretty much 8 months.

    .. Till yesterday :/ Im so dissapointed in myself :(
    DrDeathDefying DrDeathDefying 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I just did it with the razor I took from my

    friend so she wouldn't... I feel like a hypocrite
    into8it into8it 18-21, M Aug 14

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    Heres the thing... Im no longer depressed.

    .. Nor do i want to cut due to stress... I simply miss the adrenaline, and watching the blood trickle over my skin... O think blood is really really beautiful... I want to cut because ai enjoy it... How ****** is that lol
    DrDeathDefying DrDeathDefying 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 10

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    artelutio artelutio 18-21, F Aug 13

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Piercedprincess17 Piercedprincess17 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I've been clean all week

    because I promised a friend. But right now I just need to cut. I know it sounds insane and stupid. I'm fighting the urge so hard that I can't concentrate on anything else and i don't know what to do. If my friend finds out they'll be furious with me but also blame themselves for...
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    I haven't felt this way in three years I

    thought I was done with this sucks I don't wanna do it but **** what else can I do nothing helps and temptation is a *****
    imbleedingout imbleedingout 16-17, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    I used to. I haven't in a while,

    tho.... but, yes. I cut my self....
    StreetgirlnamedDesire504 StreetgirlnamedDesire504 36-40 Aug 19

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    TheWindBlown TheWindBlown 22-25, M Aug 17

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    Because you taught me

    that I deserve pain. Because you taught me that the only legitimate way to feel is physical pain. Because you taught me that the only feelings I'm allowed are pain, self doubt, and worthlessness. "Don't smile; you'll ruin the picture"
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T Aug 17

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    All of yall little ******* should go kill

    yourself instead of whining like little babies .
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 23

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    I cut, but it's not emo,

    it's a sexual thing. Weird I know.
    Bonneyshattuck Bonneyshattuck 18-21, F Aug 23

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    I used to cut myself to get rid of the

    psychological pain my brother would inflict on my family. Afterwards I would cry myself to sleep.
    CNUSax CNUSax 18-21, M Aug 16

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    So tonight I finally did it - I told my mom.

    She reacted surprisingly positive. It was a bit awkward, but she told me to stop being so introverted and try to be more open and positive. That I only live once and that I should enjoy my life to the fullest. And then I cried a lot and we hugged. I have to learn to be more...
    Cessydesu Cessydesu 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    Never walk into a cutter's room without

    knocking. More for your sake than for theirs.
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 10 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    That face the nurses make

    when you say you cut yourself using a staple. They start to look around as if they're realizing for the first time that this world is so full of sharp edges that they can't possibly hope to save you from.
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T Aug 19

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I just cut the urge to cut was

    so strong I couldn't last any longer I lasted 2 months I just couldn't take it anyone I'm ashamed in myself but I feel little happier
    VapingQueen420 VapingQueen420 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 12 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    I went five years without cutting myself

    and then I had a bad breakup with my boyfriend and I used an eraser on my arm, then I got over whelmed at work and took a hot glue gun to the palm of my small hand
    loveiggy5 loveiggy5 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 11

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    The new blade is really good.

    Which is really bad. If I pick it up, I'll never put it back down. Aaaaand.... I'm scared of myself again.
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 1 Response 3 days ago

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    When ever I am sad I always cut myself n I just

    wish I stab myself right through the heart so I don't have to live
    lookket lookket 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 1 Response Aug 19

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 4 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    artelutio artelutio 18-21, F Aug 11

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

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    Cutting. It makes you do crazy things.

    Crazy things like steal a blade from the dollar store on a casual family trip to pick up a pill organizer. Stealing is wrong. I know it is but I did it. Can someone please explain to me how I STOLE SOMETHING!! How did I get here? How did I get to the point where I don't even...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 6 days ago

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    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M Aug 25

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