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I Cut My Self

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    You make me feel unwanted

    when you kiss one scar for all when you tell me you're going to kiss them all. Like I have to many marks to be loved. Like I cut my body to no repair.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F Mar 19

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    Cutting is my addiction

    and I am being honest. I am addicted to hurting myself so When I get heartbroken or whatever, I don't complain anymore. I mean What's the point. I am a Christian but......I have this feeling that God has forsaken me because of this sickness that I have. I love pain, I mean I'm...
    Adridee Adridee 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    i am 2 months and 4 days clean,

    about to do it though🔪
    fatdoll fatdoll 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I can breath again...

    ..I can think......I feel high once again....I cut deep....Didn't mean to...i cut and blood just poured out of me....Rid me of evil....Still bleeding...But i don't care...Im free!
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M a week ago

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 4 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    I was clean for 2 days

    but I cut today
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Just cut after being clean

    for months. Forgot how much it hurts and how much it numbs me at the same time. Certain circumstances brought me down. Again. Not proud of it but neither am I ashamed.
    BleedAshes BleedAshes 18-21, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Sitting here staring at the screen blankly.

    ....I need it.....i crave it.....i cant breath....its calling to me....im breaking....i have to cut.....now now!
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    Bought myself some new razors tonight.

    .. I'll finally feel that rush again... That release... It's what I've been craving for so long
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    i cut myself its itchy

    and sore but i wanna do more i feel so ******
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F Mar 19

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    How Many blood do u losse on a single cut?

    How Many cuts do u need to feel something? How Many cuts do u need with a sharpless knife? I was wondering that while the machine operator was waiting for the green light to turn on the machine... That knife, mine knife... Was calling me, yesterday, on the silence of the dead...
    Mysorrow Mysorrow 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm battling severe deppression.

    I have been attending regular meetings with my college counselor but I don't find it helpful. I started attending these meetings when my friends noticed cuts on my arms a few months ago. They took my knives and I hadn't been able to cut myself. However I recently went home and...
    bgman123 bgman123 18-21, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    been four days . i cant resist anymore .

    something bad happened and i need to cut
    girldevil123 girldevil123 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    When people ask me have you ever done drug i

    say yes cause in a way cutting is my drug.....every time i cut i feel free...everything is quiet....no more screaming....no more people....but i don't stop at one i cant every time i say to myself just one little cut only one.....then one becomes two..three...four...five....an...
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw. He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom, out of sight. He kept a secret no one knew, He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the...
    angela9817 angela9817 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I will be honest , I never thought I would get

    to the point , feeling so low , so completely alone that I would start cutting . But the first time I did it , I don't know how to explain it . The pain of the cut , it made the pain of hating myself , my appearance , the bad memories , it made it all go away . and although I...
    girldevil123 girldevil123 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I wish someone would make me feel happy enough

    I didn't feel like hurting myself. That I didn't feel like cutting down my wrists... And the only reason I don't is because of my mother...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    so ... was five days clean .

    No longer am . couldn't hold out .
    girldevil123 girldevil123 16-17, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 12 Responses Feb 21

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    It's been a week since I last cut

    and now I'm getting the urge again...
    HopelessXV HopelessXV 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    I started having a panic attack before

    and at the beginning of second today... It was so bad I could barely speak... And no one noticed. I use pain as an outlet. I tried so hard to hide it from everyone and I am supprised I managed to. One of my friends wouldn't stop hugging me so she knew... But I used my nails to...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I need to cut... I need the rush.

    .. :/ I need the release... Maybe tomorrow night... Nothing sharp I can use tonight... :( tomorrow feels like too long to wait.... :( I wanna cry. :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Mar 20

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I haven't been feeling too great lately.

    Just been really sad and depressed. Been feeling completely unappreciated and alone. I've been thinking about it for quite some time. And I finally gave in last night, but it was just one. Only one.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 26 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    so ... not cut for three days ,

    feels like im suffocating , want to do it badly but I promised him .
    girldevil123 girldevil123 16-17, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    I do it at least once nearly everyday.

    I vaguely remember a period of time when I didn't. I think it's mostly because of exams...
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago