Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Cut My Self

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 8,179 People

    I cut.... again a couple hours ago right

    after I got in a huge arguement that got really heated... it just reminded me of how worthless i really am. and I had been clean for weeks better than I had ever done but I ****** it up like everything else wish i could just flick the lights off
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    bhenn21 bhenn21 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I hadn't cut in a year.

    A ******* year! I've now got two new ones and probably more to come. What a piece of **** I am.
    BigBaddaBoom BigBaddaBoom 26-30, F 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Crossfire15 Crossfire15 13-15, M 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Boys dont self harm..

    . yea right. about 3 percent do... Im out of the 3 percent.... horrible childhood and still horrible now. You were suppose to die at birth i keep telling myself. Im going to be completely honest. Im a very bad self-harmer... like one of the worst ones. I cant survive about 3...
    InfiniteZero InfiniteZero 13-15, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I sometimes wish that I have never done this

    shiet in my life .... *cried*
    gaybottomsocal99 gaybottomsocal99 18-21, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm spiraling downwards again.

    But it's all happening way too fast. When I started I promised myself I would stay at my hip where I could hide it easily and I would never go deeper than a careful scratch. I feel like I'm just too far gone now. I know I need help, but I know it's unattainable. I'm alone. I...
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99 16-17, F 3 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 22-25, M 23 Responses Dec 22, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Guess who's been clean

    for four weeks ! Those four weeks went by hella fast. There are times that I really wanted to cut again but I just had to stop myself. I'm really hoping this lasts, idk if it will but hopefully it does. Thank you for everyone who is there helping me, I love you.
    wanttobeokay wanttobeokay 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I do it... multiple times a week.

    I can't tell anyone because, either they are too busy or don't have time for me, I told my mom I need a therapist, but she just passes it off. I feel like I don't have a place anymore. I told my best friend and she called me a freak, she doesn't understand, cutting is what keeps...
    SadisticallyInsane SadisticallyInsane 13-15, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm here to tell you guys it does get better.

    I was cutter for 4 years. And I met someone who brought me up so much an let me know that everything was gonna be okay. It was a rocky road. Coming from someone who used to cut everyday because they were made fun of for not being pretty enough an having a gap an a little acne. I...
    BeautiifullyBroken BeautiifullyBroken 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Hey it could be worse,

    I could be an alcoholic and take drugs but I don't because I know my family needs me. Yes it's true I don't really like them and they don't understand me but I'm that type of person who will help you no matter how much it damages me and living with this family has emotionally...
    Sparksofafire Sparksofafire 13-15, F 9 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    So today is my Birthday.

    I started cutting 2 years ago... When i started i was like. How can people have cuts all over there body like over 200+ scars? Well that person is me now. My wrists are covered but there old and healed. My forearm has some dark ones. My left shoulder is covered in newly healed...
    Nick54 Nick54 22-25, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 10, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    After my parents found out

    that I cut, I felt so sad and frustrated. I didn't feel like a weight just dropped off my shoulders bit instead it felt like more was piled on. I felt this way for 3 month. One day I decided that I couldn't take it anymore. I cut. I.felt so relieved after that. I want to control...
    yummythedrummer yummythedrummer 13-15, F 7 Responses Mar 30

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Sitting in my dark room.

    . while blood just keep dripping.. still.. it hurts.. my mind, my heart, everything... someone help me
    mozaq mozaq 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    so I've been 3 months clean

    for self harm......today I relapsed and cut again.....
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel
    MrPoolofsouls MrPoolofsouls 36-40, M 1 Response 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm cutting my arm right now.

    I'm in a long distance relationship with an amazing girl and today she ended up in the hospital after getting bitten by her pet rattlesnakes. I feel useless. Her friend has been looking after her and keeping me updated and I haven't heard anything else after his last message. No...
    mizzcomplicated mizzcomplicated 22-25, F a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I just cut. I carved a girls name into my arm.

    It's the girl I love's name. Brooklyn. All in capital letters. The O's look like D's. It's her, Brooklyn Schlag's first name. It looks good. To have her name carved into my arm, it's like she's mine. But she isn't. I'm gonna look at it everyday until the scar go's away
    Montana2002 Montana2002 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Hey everyone just like probably everyone here I

    cut myself aswell just lonely and looking for people of any gender even trans to talk to. I'm a pretty big nerd
    Chaospi2 Chaospi2 16-17, M 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Everyone wants me to buy scar cream

    but I actually like my scars. They remind me to stay strong, but my family thinks it's weird. Is it?
    DelaneyJade DelaneyJade 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I want to feel accepted

    for who I am. I feel like I'm not good enough sometimes. I hate myself. I hate my body. Sometimes I ask myself how can someone love a person that ruined their selves with scars.
    Darcy220 Darcy220 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel