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I Cut My Self

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    So last night, I was looking

    for some pencils to draw something for my boyfriend. I put my hand in this bag to see it anything was in it, suddenly something sharp amd pointy cut my finger. it hurt really bad, and the blood was seeping out really fast. I went to take care of it, I was going to use a bandaid...
    StringZMeow StringZMeow 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Well i tried for a wile

    but i guess sometimes the pain just beats you....
    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 18-21, M May 16

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I feel like ****. My best friend walked into my

    room right after I had finished cutting she looked sooo ******* pissed. I'm also really confused why she was over cause she was supposed to be out with her gf on a date or whatever but instead she came over to my house and we watched movies made to watch when you're high and...
    AngelWithASecret2 AngelWithASecret2 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    My mom just saw my cut marks on my hip

    and I blew her off with some really dumb excuse. I know she doesn't believe me and I know she is going to bring it up again but Im not ready for this and Im really scared right now and I don't know what to do.
    lostandlonleysoul lostandlonleysoul 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    i wanna cut my arms, i wanna see my blood,

    i want to see someones insides *does spooky dance*
    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    When I cut myself it almost never brakes the

    skin no matter how sharp my knife or how much pressure I put... So I have started cutting my tongue.. It bleeds so easily and quickly. I love it.
    silentbookgirl silentbookgirl 13-15, F 2 Responses May 16

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    I'm 26 and have been cutting on

    and off since I was 12. it's hard to believe how long its been. I wish I could stop permanently, but when I think I have won..I somehow find myself alone with that blade.
    fevertotell fevertotell 26-30, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I cut myself recently

    and felt relief it felt amazing idk but sometimes I feel like I might do it to hard or to cut to much i try to do moderation like cut and color on my arms differently but who knew I would become so depressed it doesn't matter anymore but who cared in the first place right
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 3 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    I cut my wrist for the first time in 7 years.

    I feel like it relieved what I was feeling. No I didn't do it for attention as I would never let anyone see them. I have just been feeling so down lately and it led to this. I thought I was over my self harming days.
    kristen1993 kristen1993 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    my friend saw my wrists today.

    we were in drama and had to dress up and my friend wanted me to wear a white shirt thing. she told me to take off my jacket but i told her i couldnt. she kept asking then started talking about my period so I pulled up my sleeve a little and she just stared. i ran to the...
    Mikaylajane15 Mikaylajane15 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I felt depressed and I wanted to do it.

    so I did it and it felt SO GOOD. still depressed tho
    turki2550 turki2550 16-17, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I can't stop cutting myself

    but when I am cutting myself I feel happy or excited
    Mayblood Mayblood 13-15, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    I couldn't carry on sitting in my room just staring at my wrists. I wanted to cut, something I never thought I would be doing. At first I scratched at my arms. It wasn't enough. I then used scissors. I was too scared. I had a shower and shaved my legs. I stood there for at least...
    anonomouss anonomouss 13-15, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    I'll be honest. I am not okay,

    I have self harmed myself. Sometimes the only thing I feel that I can control in my life is a razor blade. I know I have scars, I don't care what anyone thinks, the scars remind me of my control.
    TheCupcakeQueen TheCupcakeQueen 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I do it to feel the pain,

    because I know I deserve to hurt not just mentally but physically too. I like it when it leaves marks because then I can say "there look what you've done to yourself. Are you proud now?" I want those marks to make me feel ashamed of myself, because I know I should be.
    Snowhiver Snowhiver 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    my friend saw my cuts today

    and wouldn´t let me leave school until I told her why. now she's mad and disappointed in me for doing it. :/
    brokenangel14 brokenangel14 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 23 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    I began again after 5 years of not cutting.

    I'm smarter now. I don't cut my wrist I cut the top of my thy where no one will see it. I'm not doing this because of depression. ni began because the stress got too much and I nicked my self on something and it felt......great. now I feel like my life is in order so long as I...
    inevertoldne1 inevertoldne1 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've been on and off cutting

    since I was 11, I'm 15 now. (: I tell everyone I'm alright and that I'm Ohkay. But I'm not. I'm never alright. I crave the blade 24/7 and I honestly don't know what I should do. The weird part is. I thoroughly enjoy it.
    bubblebubba bubblebubba 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    I've been clean for 6 days.

    My boyfriend has been so supportive. He always tells me, "replace the blades with my hands." Then he holds my hands for a while.
    RecklessMistake RecklessMistake 13-15, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    When I was 12, I'm 13 right now,

    I started cutting. Whether it be scissors or a razor blade or anything sharp, I would cut. I still do. Some days I feel like it's gets worst in my life than it really is. Some days I really want to kill myself. People at my school think I cut for attention, but I don't. I cut to...
    Montana2002 Montana2002 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Kindheartedsoul Kindheartedsoul 16-17, F May 16

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    MangaIsLoveMangaIsLife MangaIsLoveMangaIsLife 13-15 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I self-harm so I can keep my fake smile

    so no one worries about me...
    SuicidalGirl2015 SuicidalGirl2015 16-17, F 6 days ago

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