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I Cut My Self

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    I can't help it, I've done it

    for five years. What is wrong with me?
    mattiepro mattiepro 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I don't get why people tell you to be yourself,

    then they judge you. I have so many cuts on my arm and get made fun of for it. People should just let you be who you want to be. They don't understand what your going through.
    randomgirl123456 randomgirl123456 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    chiana14512 chiana14512 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 20 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 17 Responses 1 day ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 9 Responses Feb 10

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    AAmmyyPPiiee AAmmyyPPiiee 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    Morgenfreeman Morgenfreeman 70+, T 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    marchz13 marchz13 16-17, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 16-17, M 6 Responses Feb 26

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4

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    Her body was a canvas

    and her blades were her paintbrushes
    justakookiegirl justakookiegirl 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 27

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    I am probably going to relapse tonight just to

    get these thoughts of suicide out of my head, I don't want to but it will get my mind off of killing myself!
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I did it again last night.

    Im going to a friends house but they think i stopped. I really dont want them to see my scars and start asking questions, what should i do?
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I haven't cut myself lately I'm actually doing

    really good. I'm happy right now with my life. :) :) :)
    TealMarie TealMarie 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 5 days ago

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    I am completely at a loss,

    my husband has bipolar II and has a history of cutting himself, sometimes all the way to the bone. He had stopped for about 2 years but recently I've noticed cuts on his arm again and I'm worried. I know this is his struggle but does anyone have any helpful advice for how I...
    tkhaler1987 tkhaler1987 26-30 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Cutting is not a trend,

    it's an addiction. It's like screaming but no one can hear. It is an everyday battle.
    Itscookiemonster Itscookiemonster 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 14

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    The only person I could talk to left ep today

    and she blocked me. Today was awful I just want to die already God..
    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    All I really want to do right

    now is mutilate my thigh till it's nothing but a bloody mess. I'm not going to though because really should be stopping. I don't want to, but I know it's bad. Plus my back's already causing me enough pain as it is.
    FOBIsPerfection FOBIsPerfection 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    homewardbound1990 homewardbound1990 13-15, F 6 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I've cut so much and I've got in

    so much trouble for it my mom has sent me away plenty of times to mental hospitals but to her i haven't cut in 4ever to me i cut all the time in different spots. spots she don't look and i use a lot of things razors,pencils,succors, even more things things i just find laying...
    mckenziegeddings mckenziegeddings 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    Normal? What Is That?

    Sometimes when I'm not constantly insulting myself, I think...what's it like being normal? What's it like to look in the mirror and not hate what's looking back? What's it like to have a lot of friends and a boyfriend and just a good social life? What's it like not to be hated...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 1 Response Nov 11, 2013

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    Im so sorry. I was 5 days clean.

    I just cant hold it together. I was dying to cut so bad i started scratching my arm until it bleed. I did 42 long deep cuts. Im so ashamed.
    gramafey gramafey 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I dont know how to stop cutting?

    I've tried many things but they didn't work. I forgot even why I'm trying to stop cutting.
    battlescars2012 battlescars2012 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I did it today. I let down everyone i promised

    to stop. Which only made me do it again. I'm sorry.
    Madis9957 Madis9957 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Even though Painful Secrets is movie with

    terrible acting I find myself relating to it because the dad is too worried that others will find out and the mother is too worried of what other will think of her. Neither of them really ever try to consider what they're daughter is going through. They make it entirely about...
    blackroses75 blackroses75 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    homewardbound1990 homewardbound1990 13-15, F 5 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've been cutting for a long time now.

    I just can't seem to stop, and I don't really want to anyways. I need it to make it through the day. No one in my life even suspects that I could do this to myself. They all think I'm this happy little girl. I wish they could see past that, but whatever. It's better for them to...
    BleedingLittleBlueGirl BleedingLittleBlueGirl 18-21, F 6 Responses May 28

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    I'm here now with my phone in one hand

    and a blade in the other, I'm just so angry and upset the only thing that makes sense to me is that I take it out on myself. Yeah I'm being stupid I get it you don't need to tell me I'm pathetic I know I am. It hurts and I've got blood all over my bed covers now but I don't care...
    TheGeeee TheGeeee 18-21, M 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    Sometimes it is just

    so hard to keep picking yourself bk up and brushing yourself of and saying try again this time it won't happen. I'm so tierd of fighting everyday of my life to get some sort of relief no one knows the pain I've been through even my parents don't care. I started to self injury...
    homewardbound1990 homewardbound1990 13-15, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    I can't fight the urges anymore.

    .. I try to make people around me happy, but it just never works... Can't help but feel I'm no good to anyone... Left leg is covered in scars... Better start working on the right...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    How will I be loved by someone

    if I don't love myself
    annirawrmuffin annirawrmuffin 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    One cut... Two cut...

    Three cut... Four. Watch the blood drip to the floor... Five cut... Six cut... Seven cut... Eight. God this feels so f**king great.