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I Cut My Self

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    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    once is never enough.

    its always several at a time.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I dragged by body to my bed

    while basically crawling on the ground for some time. wounded and broken .. perfect definition to describe my conditions. I disappointed people who i love most, i disrespected my own value and damaged it. so i laid down my body in bed. Staring at the ceiling and listening to my...
    deathiscold deathiscold 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    appleboy appleboy 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    When the opportunity next grants itself.

    .. I want to cut up my forearm.. From wrist to elbow... And if I'm lucky, I'll bleed out..
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I don't think I can handle anymore.

    this is the end... can I go back to my old self? can I start again? I can't handle the pressure and pain I'm being put under.
    brokenlovatic1999 brokenlovatic1999 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Yes I cut myself, I bet you'll think I'm stupid

    like the rest of them do, but it helps me, I don't have no friends or family but my knife is always there to support me, when I was getting abused and bullied, my knife was there for me. I wish I could make friends but.. I'm not so good with people... my mental problems also...
    kyleishurt kyleishurt 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    I'm thinking of going back to cutting

    because of all the stuff that's happeing
    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    (THE PICTURE ATTACHED CAN BE TRIGGERING) Today

    I went further than ever. I've never been so deep at so many places, and I'm scared. The cuts on my thighs are almost black with depth and dried blood. I've cleaned them, but they still burn as hell. I just want to escape my body right now. I want to fall asleep and not wake up...
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 7 Responses Oct 19

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    The only reason why is

    because every one around me thinks there better at everything they can't keep things to themselves that have to say it no you have a choice to say it my whole thigh is filled with scares I put them there so no one can see it the only things that are gonna keep me from cutting is...
    Alonzoisgay Alonzoisgay 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    So for two days ago I told my mom.

    It was such a relief to tell her. But now she's so upset. I tried to tell her how I'm not sad anymore, and how I'm a lit better, and the only reason I relapsed was because I'm addicted as hell. She's talking about my dad, now. I remember how harsh and strict he was, and I...
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    SophieeChapman SophieeChapman 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3

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    **** it. I can't ******* do this anymore.

    I keep ******* **** up and even when I don't I still get yelled at. I just want to crawl in a hole and die there.
    blackroses75 blackroses75 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 20 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 8 Responses Feb 10

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    Today actually in gym class the teacher pulled

    me aside to ask what the marks on my legs were. I brushed it off and told her it was from my Great Dane but she saw through me. I started begging her not to tell my mom because that would only make things worse for me, which is why she didn't tell. I cut quite frequently but on...
    Brokentobits Brokentobits 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I think tomorrow will be

    that day... The day for relapse... With actual cuts and new scars... Start out fresh... I'm thinking a long cut right up the forearm... Close to maximum pain as well as lots of blood.... A huge scar, but at this point it doesn't matter... Everyone knows anyway... I need to see...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm about to cut.....

    I'm to far gone to be saved I need someone to talk to
    basketballgurl24 basketballgurl24 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I cut twice today I've never cut twice in one

    day I might start doing it I just don't see no point in live anymore
    Maria134747 Maria134747 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I once was playing myself

    and a bit of my ***** got on face. HMU
    PuffyCunt PuffyCunt 31-35, T 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 11 Responses Oct 24

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29

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    Just a moment of only being able to feel pain

    physically is what I look for. Emotional pain is a lot to take and it hurts so much for so long. I have no control over it and can't just make it stop. Physical pain on the other hand I can control. I can control how much or how little it hurts. I can take medicine to make it go...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    I'm laying in bed, running my finger over the

    cuts from yesterday. I promised her I won't cut again. I Want to die.. I have no one again... I wish I could kill myself
    TheFatGuy TheFatGuy 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    samararose1997 samararose1997 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I've been cutting for a long time now.

    I just can't seem to stop, and I don't really want to anyways. I need it to make it through the day. No one in my life even suspects that I could do this to myself. They all think I'm this happy little girl. I wish they could see past that, but whatever. It's better for them to...
    BleedingLittleBlueGirl BleedingLittleBlueGirl 18-21, F 6 Responses May 28

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 16-17, M 6 Responses Feb 26

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    for the first time in half a year.

    I was doing so well....But im feeling so depressed :(
    lesha17x lesha17x 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26

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    I no longer have the blades I used to use.

    .. I need ideas on what I could use... I haven't cut in a while... And I really need to... The pain is too much right now... I need ideas please.. I know you will tell me not to... But cutting is an alternative to suicide.. Please.. What are some household tools that I can use...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I went to the hospital

    for cutting & depression, it helped me sorta. but I still cut all the time. & nothing or anyone will be able to stop me. I don't know how to stop but I want to.
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    If I'm frustrated or angry

    or sad, it really helps. It's like I can vent all that emotion into a few cuts and then I feel better almost automatically. I get this feeling of satisfaction. It's quite liberating really; I feel as though I can control things.
    Mannz Mannz 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    Ashlee344 Ashlee344 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I cut too much today.

    I didn't felt the pain and I forget about all my problems.
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 10 Responses Nov 10

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 16-17, F 2 Responses