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I Cut My Self

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    30 years ago Yes .. I'm sure people wonder

    why a 46 year old guy would join this group. As a teen I had (probably still do) a mass of tangled emotions with no way to let them out. The pain inside was too great. One day while drinking I put a cigarette out in the palm of my hand and discovered that the combination of...
    popuptarget popuptarget 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 26

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    It's been nearly 2 months

    since I cut and unfortunately I have again today. I'm so scared for when school starts, that everything will just go to **** again. I wish I wasn't so weak.
    dianeemariee dianeemariee 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 16-17, F 13 Responses Jun 27

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    I didt think it would have hurt this much :( i

    drank, i got high but i thought id dealt with it :( i guess i was wrong 🐑😭😭😭
    SingItForTheKids SingItForTheKids 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    averylynnx averylynnx 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Normal? What Is That?

    Sometimes when I'm not constantly insulting myself, I think...what's it like being normal? What's it like to look in the mirror and not hate what's looking back? What's it like to have a lot of friends and a boyfriend and just a good social life? What's it like not to be hated...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 1 Response Nov 11, 2013

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    I'm 2 weeks clean and I really really feel like

    cutting or burning right now like UGH if not cutting or burning I end up scratching myself until I bleed I seriously think I need to cut or else it'll end up 10 times worse😕
    XxbixtchybellaxX XxbixtchybellaxX 13-15, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Sammi72 Sammi72 13-15, F 20 Responses May 16

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    Uhhhgggg I want to do it

    so bad :( I haven't in a while and I also haves a update I'm Guna go on some anti-depression pills and go to a therapist and my parents won't leave me alone wich is really frustrating I just want to be alone I don't like you guys!!!
    HalfbornLycan HalfbornLycan 13-15, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I woke up this Morning

    and felt nothing but numbness and hate towards my self. The urge I cut was so strong, all I've done is cut. I needed too and I still need too, but I no this isn't right and I no I need to stop
    yourscarsarebeautiful yourscarsarebeautiful 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I did my first cut when I was 13 years old.

    I don't even know why I did it. And I really regret that first cut. Because now, 5 years later, I still cut. When I don't cut, I self harm in other ways. It's like a drug to me and I love the rush I get from it. But afterwards, when my skin is full of scars, I feel bad. Really...
    TRexMadness TRexMadness 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I think my mom is or was figuring it out.

    It started a bit over a month ago when we went to a water park, my one piece bathing suit showed my thighs, and I forgot about the swim suit and had cut like a week before. They were still there, with my pale skin you can see every scar. My mom saw them. She said "it looks like...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I feel that if I talk about it with people

    they'll think I want attention
    averylynnx averylynnx 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    And I relapsed... Great.

    I was even shaking. It felt so good but I felt bad I don't know how to put it in words but it was weird because I felt both things, is that even normal?
    kimberlynluevano kimberlynluevano 13-15, F 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    brittanynicolexd brittanynicolexd 13-15, F 14 Responses Jun 23

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Last time I thought I would die

    when I tried to shower.... I need my love so badly... But as from Tuesday... I won't ever see him again... he knows 'bout my problem but he ignores me... do teachers generally ignore people who beg for help?.... My soul hurts so bad... I don't know what to do..
    NeverKnewMe NeverKnewMe 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Another night. Another cut.

    Why cant I just be happy?
    Mindinsanity Mindinsanity 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I try. I just break so easily.

    I've tried to let my fears go and not let it consume but I'm a mess. I'm scared. I'm tired of trying and breaking down. I always fail to keep afloat. I push towards a better and positive future but I can't stay strong enough to see it through. I've played my role and I'm not...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    My scars are still getting better slowly.

    Little by little worst part is I will wake up every morning and see my pain.
    BlueWings454 BlueWings454 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 17

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 26

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    I do it most of the time

    because I'm so depressed all the time. I hope someone can talk to me.
    LGKolor LGKolor 13-15, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I find myself getting worse everyday.

    My thighs are to fresh so I started cutting my inner calves. I started on them yesterday and I am already running out of room. Soon I will have to move all around my calves. I am conflicted as to if I want to stop or not. Of course the and part of me wants to stop, but the other...
    Nirvana4Life Nirvana4Life 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    HELP!!! I'm going swimming with my girlfriend

    on Sunday and I cut on my arm...she already knows but what so I so to hide it in the water...
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    There is 6 pints of blood in the human body,

    loose 1 your fine your body don't suffer at all, loose 2 your body goes Into shock, loose 3 you die, you're not going to loose 3 pints of blood from a cut on you're arm that is a little deep and hasn't penetrated any major veins or arteries, so don't worry about me or get scared...
    DearIniquity DearIniquity 13-15, M 5 Responses Mar 3

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    I've been training so much

    for my mma title defence cutting hasn't even crossed my mind o.O
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I've been several months clean now

    and rarely thing of it. What gets me down is remember when I told my school about it and they called my mum. I remember coming back to the office and my mum sitting with tears rolling down her face. I had never felt more upset. I didn't even feel relieved though. I felt sad but...
    raehmm raehmm 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm listening as my friend & mom are talking

    about a girl who cuts her stuff saying how all she wants is attention & I'm just sitting in my room like..
    averylynnx averylynnx 13-15, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    I feel so alone with this

    even though I no there's so many people who do it as well. I've been made to feel by friends and family that I should be really assumed of my self for doing it but they don't realise that by them not understanding and being horrible to me about it, it causes me too do it more. I...
    yourscarsarebeautiful yourscarsarebeautiful 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    People sometimes ask me

    why would I cut myself, it’s not because I’m mad or hurt. I’m just tired; I’m tired of putting more effort than I receive. I’m tired of holding onto nothing, I’m tired of believing all of peoples lies, I’m tired of people proving me wrong every time, I’m tired of...
    MattSkellington MattSkellington 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I cut myself 47 times last night :( the first

    time in 5 months. I'm very disappointed in myself
    Grunge17Goth Grunge17Goth 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 13-15, M 6 Responses Feb 26

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    The picture to this experience is a huge

    trigger!! I can feel the warm blood pouring out my wrists!!! Gosh I want to cut sooo bad!! I feel like it'll be the release I've been searching for!!!!
    wheelsxoxo wheelsxoxo 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 6 Responses Feb 10

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4

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    Dear whoever is reading this- I love you.

    I don't know who you are or what struggles you have, but you are human. You have a soul, you have a conscience, you have feelings and I love you. I think you are beautiful inside and out, I think you are good enough, I believe in you even it you think no one else does.
    mattihope mattihope 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I am really tired of people seeing my cuts

    and suddenly affecting this hurt expression with the whole "wah don't hurt yourself!" thing they do. If I don't cut then I hurt more inside, I do more psychological damage to myself. I also enjoy cutting, although I do engage in it when I am angry, drowning and so on. The way...
    macabrEnigma macabrEnigma 18-21, T 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 20 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    Yes, many people suffer serious mental issues

    such as depression, self harm, anxiety, bipolar disroder, etc. I am one of them. But what angers me the most is when people - mainly teens - try and perceive mental disorders as a new fad. I'm sick of seeing it all over Tumblr and other websites. It's not cool to cut yourself...
    MikBlack13 MikBlack13 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    thatone6 thatone6 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Hes left me. Its been a while

    since iv cut but iv cut myself to bits this time. I tried to feel anything but the pain of being unloved. I feel pathetic, used, unlovable, and repulsive. I just want to die. I begged him to kill me. I'd rather be dead than living this life he's put me in. I'm a destroyed...
    Stiggyb Stiggyb 26-30, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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