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I Cut My Self

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    I do it to feel the pain,

    because I know I deserve to hurt not just mentally but physically too. I like it when it leaves marks because then I can say "there look what you've done to yourself. Are you proud now?" I want those marks to make me feel ashamed of myself, because I know I should be.
    Snowhiver Snowhiver 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    There's so many people

    who don't get it. I know I didn't, not until I started cutting myself. Damn does it take it away. I know it's not right but I can't take it anymore. Too much is too much.
    Brokenxxworld Brokenxxworld 16-17, F May 9

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    The cut I gave myself wasn't like cutting my

    wrist because of stress but rather by accident. I would go my daily way and when I'm in the shower I felt a burn and when I went to check it I found out out it was a cut. I don't even know how I got it.
    Aokihagane Aokihagane 22-25, M a week ago

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I cut myself recently

    and felt relief it felt amazing idk but sometimes I feel like I might do it to hard or to cut to much i try to do moderation like cut and color on my arms differently but who knew I would become so depressed it doesn't matter anymore but who cared in the first place right
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 22 hrs ago

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    I'm 26 and have been cutting on

    and off since I was 12. it's hard to believe how long its been. I wish I could stop permanently, but when I think I have won..I somehow find myself alone with that blade.
    fevertotell fevertotell 26-30, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Does anyone else find drawing red lines with

    markers on your body extremely triggering?? I just see it and I can't stop looking at it and wanting the real stuff on my other leg or arm. Why am I so messed up?
    Itfloo Itfloo 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I began again after 5 years of not cutting.

    I'm smarter now. I don't cut my wrist I cut the top of my thy where no one will see it. I'm not doing this because of depression. ni began because the stress got too much and I nicked my self on something and it felt......great. now I feel like my life is in order so long as I...
    inevertoldne1 inevertoldne1 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    My mom just saw my cut marks on my hip

    and I blew her off with some really dumb excuse. I know she doesn't believe me and I know she is going to bring it up again but Im not ready for this and Im really scared right now and I don't know what to do.
    lostandlonleysoul lostandlonleysoul 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    One cut, two cuts, three cuts,

    four, five cuts, six cuts, one cut more, seven cuts, eight cuts, nine cuts, floor. Deeper and deeper... until one day i don't wake up.
    wallflower2000 wallflower2000 13-15, F 2 Responses May 11

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    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F 9 hrs ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Remember, cutting only improves your mood

    temporarily. Your problems will still be there if you cut. And you'll have ugly scars to give you reminders of the pain you were going through. It literally helps no one. Take it from someone who knows.
    seabassep seabassep 18-21, M a week ago

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    Fourth day in a row. Great.

    I'm running out of room under the small space on my writs reserved for my bracelets.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F May 12

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Well i tried for a wile

    but i guess sometimes the pain just beats you....
    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    so many judgmental people

    that call it 'attention seeking' or whatever but majority of people don't do it to end there own lives they do it to release all there emotions that's are driving them crazy! so shut the **** up acting like know about every depressed and self harming person out there and that...
    emmielouxxx emmielouxxx 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Just finished. Washed off the blood.

    Might have gone too deep. Who cares.
    RecklessMistake RecklessMistake 13-15, M 4 Responses May 13

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 24 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    I feel like ****. My best friend walked into my

    room right after I had finished cutting she looked sooo ******* pissed. I'm also really confused why she was over cause she was supposed to be out with her gf on a date or whatever but instead she came over to my house and we watched movies made to watch when you're high and...
    AngelWithASecret2 AngelWithASecret2 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I'll be honest. I am not okay,

    I have self harmed myself. Sometimes the only thing I feel that I can control in my life is a razor blade. I know I have scars, I don't care what anyone thinks, the scars remind me of my control.
    TheCupcakeQueen TheCupcakeQueen 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I self-harm so I can keep my fake smile

    so no one worries about me...
    SuicidalGirl2015 SuicidalGirl2015 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I started when my dad died.

    Two years ago. I tried to stop but then my brain tortured itself until I gave it some other pain to focus on. I'm broken and I need help, but if I go to a mental hospital then they'll take my blade awa6, and I'll have nothing but time for my brain to take over. nothing else...
    MrPoolofsouls MrPoolofsouls 36-40, M 2 days ago

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

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    I went 6 ******* months I.

    cut again I wanna cry but I haven't been able to in 1 year There's too much **** in my life
    bcamillexoxo bcamillexoxo 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    After my parents found out

    that I cut, I felt so sad and frustrated. I didn't feel like a weight just dropped off my shoulders bit instead it felt like more was piled on. I felt this way for 3 month. One day I decided that I couldn't take it anymore. I cut. I.felt so relieved after that. I want to control...
    yummythedrummer yummythedrummer 13-15, F 8 Responses Mar 30

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I cut my wrist for the first time in 7 years.

    I feel like it relieved what I was feeling. No I didn't do it for attention as I would never let anyone see them. I have just been feeling so down lately and it led to this. I thought I was over my self harming days.
    kristen1993 kristen1993 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Kindheartedsoul Kindheartedsoul 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 4 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    i wanna cut my arms, i wanna see my blood,

    i want to see someones insides *does spooky dance*
    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F 9 hrs ago

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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