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    I cut myself early today.

    Mom wasn't home yet and isn't gonna be until 10. I cut myself the number of times I was called worthless. Then a few extra because I just felt bad. The sink was full of blood but you can't even tell now.
    MyDemonsKnowHowToSwim MyDemonsKnowHowToSwim 13-15, M 3 Responses Apr 16

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    danny9984 danny9984 13-15, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 24 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    Time to cut the stomach up to punish

    for thinking of bingeing..
    ThinWish ThinWish 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I messed up this weekend twice!

    I hadn't cut in years, but this weekend I did. I was in so much pain and so depressed. I had no where to turn and I hurt myself. I regret it and am swearing to myself it won't happen again-ever. But, when I say ever, in the back of my head I say I cannot do it. I am saying to...
    BrokenWander BrokenWander 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I'm thinking it might happen again tonight.

    If it does, I know i'll lose count. Oh, well. So much for my streak.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    The one person I tell everything to is mad at

    himself, so he refuses to talk to me . Now I feel like I have to hurt myself because of what happens in my own life and how he just made me feel..
    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I cut my thighs today,

    I was so vicious and now the keep bleeding
    michael1129 michael1129 13-15, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I always seem to be okay

    for a bit but then I will go back to cutting when I can't handle it anymore. Like sometimes I can't handle my feelings no more so I will cut to cope with them. I try to tell my closest friends how I am feeling so I don't cut but then they ignore me or just make me feel worse...
    internationalkoala internationalkoala 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I cut so much tonight my legs have

    so much blood on them
    michael1129 michael1129 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 16

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    I can't stop, a lot of things happen

    and all of the emotions start building up until I can't take it anymore and I need that sense of release… I promised my boyfriend that I would stop cutting but sometimes I still do and I feel horrible
    brokenandbi brokenandbi 18-21, F 10 Responses 6 days ago

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    I made a deal with my boyfriend that

    if he cuts i can cut and if i cut he can cut. I cut yesterday and i did not tell him and i still have not. Is it wrong of me that i won't tell him? He is doing so good with not having the urges i won't let him get hurt because of me again.
    ThatOneKidDx ThatOneKidDx 13-15, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    Im so ugly and useless,

    why am I alive? I hate being on this planet but I don't have the courage to kill myself. I wish I was able to fall asleep tonight and never ever wake up. Ive been cutting my arms and thighs for a while BT today I started my wrists, I hope I bleed enough so I die.
    michael1129 michael1129 13-15, M 3 Responses Apr 14

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    I have been cutting for about 2 years.

    I haven't cut in 2 months. Though I still have scars. Though, the odd part is no one says anything. I'm not sure if they notice and don't want to bring it up or don't notice. If they notice, why don't they help me. I haven't told anyone except anonymously online. If my parents...
    maddslol maddslol 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    Depression is a war You

    either win...... Or die trying And right now I'm fighting so hard but giving up just seems right around the corner alls i have to do is cut a little higher and ill finally die and just be at peace no more being bullied no more anxiety no more voices none of it but I have...
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 14

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    I cut today. It's been a while.

    But it felt so good. It was a dull blade because I didn't have my razors. But it'll do for now. Maybe I'll do it again tomorrow. I miss my daily cutting habits.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've been gone from this app

    for months and months because my cutting intervals went from occasionally to once every week if not more. No adult knows and I don't have one to go to. If I go to a counselor at school she's legally required to contact my parents which will be hell. It's getting nicer and I don...
    Brokentobits Brokentobits 13-15, F 1 hr ago

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    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 12 Responses Feb 21

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    Im so fed up with people thinking

    that Im ******* lying on here when Im nit just leave me the **** alone I have a hard enough time trying to not to ******* cut
    Summerdogs Summerdogs 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's been a while. I think I need to cut

    tonight... Reason? I have no ******* idea. :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    3 weeks clean Thursday.

    So proud. I have had a lot of rough times in between the last time I've cut to now. I forgot how hard it was. I was 5 months clean 2 weeks ago but then I cut and it really sucked. I forgot how hard it was to hide the cuts but I somehow did it. And I'm super proud of myself for...
    andrew1459 andrew1459 13-15, M 51 mins ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    To those who cut: Give it up.

    Throw the razors away and try a lastic band. When you feel the urge to inflict harm simply pull and let go of the band. Helps alot of people! Plus, it leaaves no scars!
    GayTeenGamer133 GayTeenGamer133 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago