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I Cut My Self

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    Trigger warning. This is from a few days ago,

    and I feel like absolute **** because of it. I failed at staying clean, and I hate myself for it. I just wish I could do something right.
    xXxbrokenangelxXx xXxbrokenangelxXx 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    i used to cut to escape,

    but now i do it to clear my mind it makes me feel like im on the best high ever.
    feelsgoodtocut feelsgoodtocut 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Guess what happened? MY GIRLFRIEND FOUND OUT

    ABOUT MT ******* 'PROBLEM'. NOW SHE'S ******* CHECKING ME EVERYDAY FOR SCARS AND SAYS IF SHE SEES ANY NEW ONES, SHE'LL START CUTTING. ******* HELL. **** THIS LIFE OF MINE.
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    If this gets 20+ likes,

    I'll flush my blades. Haven't cut myself in 3 months.
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 11 Responses Jan 10

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I made a promise to somebody important to me

    that I would stop cutting, it's been more than a week and so far so good.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    The good news... I've found an alternative to

    cutting... The bad news is that it's smoking. :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 5 Responses a week ago

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    im such a ****** screw up.

    hit the bottle and started cutting. turned off my phone after telling the only person that cares not to bother with me. planned on killing myself but i suck at death just as much as i suck at life.
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    bregood bregood 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    I found this site last June.

    I was looking around the Internet for ways to cover up cuts. And it's made my life a roller coaster since I've been on it. People bring you up and bring you down. It's life. I've been over a month without cutting. And I don't think I can do it anymore. I don't think I can go...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    She hides the blade so no one will see,

    Yet she cant tame the urge to take. No matter how long she waits, It awaits. How long will it take her? She hopes it's soon. The constant blood running, She is so sick of seeing. But the scars still remain, And so does the pain, Although showers do not burn everyday.
    neverthoughtiwould neverthoughtiwould 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Bubbalicious93 Bubbalicious93 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I haven't since I found out about my

    responsibility... I have to keep it together cause now it's not just me. It's my pack too. Love you guys. ❤️❤️
    AlphaBloodMoon AlphaBloodMoon 13-15, F 14 hrs ago

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    simmerdame simmerdame 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    XxLittleBrotherxX XxLittleBrotherxX 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I cut myself to feel pain

    so stop saying im suicidal though if I died while doing it would be a bonus :)
    juicy1233 juicy1233 13-15, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    I started a while back

    and it wasn't as bad. They were just scratches that didn't even bleed. Soon I fell deeper into depression and things stared to get worse. I broke down one night and scrambled to get a real razor. That first cut on my wrist was the best relief I have ever felt. It was during the...
    Xbr0Kenx Xbr0Kenx 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm going to hide. I'm going to pretend I'm

    gone. She can't check me, then. And I'll be able to feel relief again~
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    its an addiction for me

    and feels amazing
    bloodlover214 bloodlover214 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    It has been a few weeks

    since I have cut and now I'm struggling not to! Its so hard to resist when I'm hurting so much inside :'(
    jamesmonty3950 jamesmonty3950 13-15, M 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Alright... I was clean

    for about four months. But lately everything has been hell. My Bestfriend was trying to help me last night, but he fell asleep and my mind just... Things got bad fast. I relapsed and I can't bring myself to tell him because it would crush him, he's the reason I was clean... I...
    xXxbrokenangelxXx xXxbrokenangelxXx 16-17, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Feeling the tingling sensation on my skin makes

    it less horrible... At least I feel that way...
    Hissa79 Hissa79 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 10 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    I don't know. It's a vice

    for me. I don't see it as bad; more of a cleansing. It just feels holy for me to do this. When the blade scratches my torso open, I feel a sense of reprieve. It's like I'm a devout follower of some ritual that I justify in my own terms. Anyone finds out, I blame it on the cat.
    LukaLuxAurelius LukaLuxAurelius 16-17, T 19 hrs ago

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    working in retail, I've had my share of weird

    stares from customers. Thankfully my boss and some good friends of mine accept me for who I am. I am thankful to have them. I've been clean for three months now. Always love your friends. sometimes they love me more than myself ?
    CocoLikesCooki3s CocoLikesCooki3s 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I have a blade. I hold it

    and admire it. For the feeling it will give me. But I can never bring myself to cut. I have been using a rusty hair trimmer blade. One with a handle. One where I have to dig deep in order to make myself bleed. I know if I use the blade then I won't be able to stop because of its...
    mightymouse69 mightymouse69 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Today I cut and I tried to stop its

    so hard to stop once you have started. I wish I could stop I have cuts all the way up my arm.
    WolvesXtigersXanimals WolvesXtigersXanimals 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago