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I Cut My Self

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I've been cutting for a long time now.

    I just can't seem to stop, and I don't really want to anyways. I need it to make it through the day. No one in my life even suspects that I could do this to myself. They all think I'm this happy little girl. I wish they could see past that, but whatever. It's better for them to...
    BleedingLittleBlueGirl BleedingLittleBlueGirl 18-21, F 6 Responses May 28

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 20 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 16 Responses Mar 3

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    I just couldn't do it anymore,

    I started...again, after 4 months clean I just couldn't anymore...
    BrokenBeyondRecognition BrokenBeyondRecognition 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I cut myself again.. last time was half year

    ago I think. I have no idea why I do this, can someone explain? I don't even cry while cutting, I only stare. Watch how the bleeding keeps going. I'm not a cutter but this cutting thing happens only a few times a year. I just don't know why :( should've never started this
    mydailylifeasme mydailylifeasme 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Are there any ways to hide it?

    I can't wear long sleeves or bracelets during pe and my teacher knows my mom ._. So if he sees them my parents will know and I'm not too keen on explaining it to them. I've been told to try foundation or concealer but the only stuff in the house is my mom's and I'm much, much...
    SonicEXE SonicEXE 13-15, F 8 Responses 4 days ago

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    (THE PICTURE ATTACHED CAN BE TRIGGERING) Today

    I went further than ever. I've never been so deep at so many places, and I'm scared. The cuts on my thighs are almost black with depth and dried blood. I've cleaned them, but they still burn as hell. I just want to escape my body right now. I want to fall asleep and not wake up...
    ColourfulDreams ColourfulDreams 13-15, F 9 Responses Oct 19

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    Know body knows that I'm suffering .

    I tried a lot of thinks to keep me from cutting . I drew on my skin till my arms where inked . I tried other thinks that I've read should help . It kept my away from Cutting but only for awhile and then it snap like a broken machine . I couldn't pull of that fake smile that I...
    ChaiLovesCoffee ChaiLovesCoffee 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I want to cut. Idk what to do.

    Someone please help me. But this time I want to die. No one cares. They don't understand anything. They don't know how much pain I'm in. I need someone to care. Does anyone even care if I leave?
    brokenlovatic1999 brokenlovatic1999 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 12 Responses a week ago

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I have try to cut my self

    and kill my self a lot
    painfulwedgiegirl painfulwedgiegirl 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm doing better. 1 day clean

    so far. Just in a lot of pain. I have the urge... but I know I have to stay strong.
    brokenlovatic1999 brokenlovatic1999 13-15, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    randomperson18 randomperson18 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    Reopening the cuts is

    so addicting for some reason! Haha!
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I wish I had a mom.. Maybe that's

    why I look up to my female teachers so much. I need a female adult in my life that would actually be there for me. Maybe I wouldn't be cutting and would actually enjoy life. But oh well I'm not worth it. Obviously
    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    http://www.suicide.org/suicide-hotlines.

    html this may help it has me before
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    Well there is lots of blood like just

    why people put me threw pain do they care what I do honestly I could die tomorrow and two people would care nobody else it's just like ok well if u don't want me here just put the gun to my head and pull the trigger yourself don't make me do it but it dosent seem all that bad...
    J5227 J5227 13-15, T 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26

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    I read some of the stories here

    and they break my heart, so I wanted to share some information that might help Have you ever heard of DBT? "Dialectic Behaviour Therapy" www.dbtselfhelp.com/html/linehan_dbt.html psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2011/06/28/marsha-linehan-what-is-dialectical-behavioral-therapy...
    EmperorJulian EmperorJulian 46-50, M 2 days ago

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    I can only wish to be Like the blood I

    bleed Beautiful and alive
    nsz45 nsz45 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    (Warning- COULD TRIGGER) I'm not sure

    if you can really tell but this is the cut I was talking about just before that is struggling to hold closed with the sterri strips... It's not a photo of normally share.. But a lot of people on here would know what to do with a deeper cut like this
    catho catho 18-21, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I cut myself yesterday.

    I felt so weak and alone. Its been a couple months since I last cut so I feel pathetic plus im getting old I should be down with ****, finding a new way to deal with my emotions. idk. I have to figure somthing out.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Dontfallapartonme Dontfallapartonme 13-15, F 30 Responses 5 days ago

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    Cutting is not a trend,

    it's an addiction. It's like screaming but no one can hear. It is an everyday battle.
    Itscookiemonster Itscookiemonster 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 14

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    His best days will be some of my worse.

    ..Still alive but I'm barely breathing..<3 
    Superpsycho Superpsycho 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Thanks for everyone who tries to care

    but don't waste you time on me. I can't be helped it's useless. I'm just waiting until I get the courage to end it all. Please put your time onto someone you can save because I'm pretty much already gone
    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 10 Responses Feb 10

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    I hate this demon self harm.

    He's everywhere. He never leaves me alone. He taunts me everytime I see a sharp object, everytime I shave, everytime I get down, just cut he says. Look how close we used to be, look what we did together, we did that to you. I'm a part of you and you can't stop me. I want it to...
    trs1999 trs1999 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    randomperson18 randomperson18 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Nicklimber21 Nicklimber21 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Someone asked me why I cut myself

    and I said cause I think it's fun
    Iwonttosmoke Iwonttosmoke 13-15, F 2 Responses 23 mins ago

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    I usually wear long sleeves

    or arm warmers to cover my scars and newer cuts, but at a summer camp I was volunteering at, they got soaked from the little kids dumping water on me and I had to take them off to let them dry. The oldest kids were in 6th grade, the youngest was 2 or 3 years old. I played with...
    ArasKougorou ArasKougorou 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I recently started cutting myself.

    I don't know why, I guess to just let the pain out. I have lost so much in my life the pain just kept building inside so I decided to find a way to release it and I guess this is the only way do it. My friends have told me that I need to stop and that I shouldn't do it but it is...
    MimiAltizen MimiAltizen 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I think I went too far this time.

    . Steri strips aren't holding the cut together on my thigh... It's not bleeding every where though as I was in the bath when I did it and then ran it under freezing water to stop the blood flow sort of... But it's still kinda bleeding.. Umm should I just leave it, or...
    catho catho 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    lowlysoul lowlysoul 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 16-17, M 6 Responses Feb 26

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