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I Cut My Self

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    I Feel Horrible Because I Love Cutting.

    . I've Been Clean For About A Week And I Hate When People Ask To See My Scars And Touch Them.. I Feel Like Crawling Up In A Hole.. It's Rude To Ask.. Please Don't.. 😓😕💔
    ScorpioQueen27 ScorpioQueen27 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I've been cutting for a long time now.

    I just can't seem to stop, and I don't really want to anyways. I need it to make it through the day. No one in my life even suspects that I could do this to myself. They all think I'm this happy little girl. I wish they could see past that, but whatever. It's better for them to...
    BleedingLittleBlueGirl BleedingLittleBlueGirl 18-21, F 6 Responses May 28

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    So there is this girl

    who was really good friend of mine who just recently stopped talking to me just because I don't hang out with her so called friends in school, so I stood my ground and blocked her on social media and when she tries to talk to me I'm going to ignore her. I began to cut myself and...
    mrsxnobody mrsxnobody 16-17, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 8 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Well i was a month clean.

    .now zero. I snapped I couldn't help it. I'm selfish and ungrateful so i had to. The beautiful contrast between the red and the pale of my skin is beautiful. The darker the red the deeper you went.
    TealMarie TealMarie 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It's odd, ay? You cut,

    and then you tell yourself "This is it. I won't do it again." You plan on throwing away you blades, you plan on moving on in your life. Yet, a few weeks after, the urge is back. You want to. You REALLY REALLY want to slice your own flesh a few 100 times. Let your blood and your...
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Thats right I cut and its the only thing

    that makes me feel alive because I try hard only for my trust to end up Broken.
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I want to tear apart my flesh

    and leave a bloody mess for everyone to clean up. Maybe they will relate to how I feel.
    turnerup turnerup 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 8 Responses Feb 10

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I want to see my blood dripping from my skin.

    .. everything is so triggering
    paigedecker33 paigedecker33 13-15, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    a couple of my friends found out

    and im giving up on hiding it...
    gramafey gramafey 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    Been clean for about 5 months now,

    just wanted to know if any other recovering self harmer gets triggered by their scars? Sounds weird but I don't want them to go away, they are as much a part of me as my eye colour and freckels. When I look at my scars I am TERRIFIED of them fading away, so much that before it...
    rjade rjade 18-21, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 11 Responses Oct 24

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29

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    dancedesire dancedesire 16-17, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I hurt myself today To see

    if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything.
    turnerup turnerup 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    i didn't really know how to explain,

    so i just wrote as a poem-ish. i'm bleeding right now... 1 cut 2 cuts 3 cuts, 4 this is the only way i know how to control it all all the pain, all the anger, all the darkness i deal with it all, all on my own. things could be different things could change but i'm a sinner...
    Ariadne11 Ariadne11 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 20 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 16-17, M 6 Responses Feb 26

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Just wanna grab a blade

    and tear up my skin... And just bleed.
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I feel like my friend is mad at me i told her i

    cut again and the next day she didn't even talk to me she seemed distant even one of my other friends noticed that.
    Wolfee2012 Wolfee2012 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have done it multiple times

    and each time it's worse than before.. I don't know how else to get rid of these angry consuming feelings I have.. And tbh.. I'm starting to like doing it..
    Hissa79 Hissa79 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    XxitsmesarahxX XxitsmesarahxX 13-15, F 10 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I hate it. I feel like I need it

    though to feel calm
    Ashlee344 Ashlee344 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    1... 2... 3... 4... 5.

    .. 6... 7... 8... 9... 10... 11... 12... 13... 14... 15... 16... 17... 18... 19... I still can't feel the pain. What if I just ended it all, would it be better for her, for myself, for everyone... I don't need your help, I just need something that no one else could give...
    sjwhit sjwhit 13-15, M 5 days ago

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    I didn't have my blades.

    .. Didn't know what to do... Tried something new:.. I'll get used to it and soon, I'll be better at it. It won't hurt as much! I gave in... Almost a month Down the drain...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I am finding it really hard to stop

    and I feel like just getting a blade and cutting my whole body I just feel so useless and life is just I don't even know anymore
    SophieeChapman SophieeChapman 18-21, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    i cut and my bestfriend thinks its her fault

    and no she wont talk to me or her boyfriend and i havent seen her in three days i told her its not but she wont listen
    gramafey gramafey 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hate my life. Today guy with

    who I was in love make fun off me and laughed at me. I hate myself and only friend right now is razor.
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4

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    I cut and get used to the sting

    and cut deeper everytime so when I suicide the cut vein won't hurt as bad
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30

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    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 10 Responses Nov 10

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    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I think I'm going to cut tonight.

    The urge is crazy... But my friends are here... But tomorrow I'll be alone... The need for blood... I deserve it... The mistakes I've made... I'm mad at myself... I hate myself... I deserve all this pain...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I need a position at school

    that has short sleeve shirts. I dont know where to cut now though. I need ideas not advice about the dangers of cutting
    Ashlee344 Ashlee344 13-15, F 5 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    (THE PICTURE ATTACHED CAN BE TRIGGERING) Today

    I went further than ever. I've never been so deep at so many places, and I'm scared. The cuts on my thighs are almost black with depth and dried blood. I've cleaned them, but they still burn as hell. I just want to escape my body right now. I want to fall asleep and not wake up...
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 8 Responses Oct 19

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses