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I Cut My Self

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    I cut myself I have done it

    for a whole now and yeah I like it when I do it I get the feeling of relaseing the pain that I have inside
    bichick19 bichick19 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    Have you ever felt like you are the one person

    your "friends" tolerate until you finally just stop talking. ****...
    LayWithFate LayWithFate 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    When I first started cutting I didn't use a

    razor blade(cause we didn't have any). So one day I accidentally dropped a glass of water on my floor, the glass broke, (No ****) And piece of the broken glass was really sharp and I started cutting, I barely felt anything...
    Elliethecloud Elliethecloud 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 22

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    I knew I wasn't going to resist long.

    I just keep slipping up. Why do I still feel the need to do it? I am not as depressed as I used to be, I feel pretty good compared to those days, but I suppose I still use it to cope with all the stress. I wish I had never started. Now I have to find a way to hide the cuts from...
    thornedrose thornedrose 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    When I cut over scars

    and I can't even feel it. .
    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    I haven't done it in a

    while a good three-four months now... I want to so bad, I keep reaching for my scissors or something like that... but I can't, I could never hurt my Bf like that or at all... a lot of people think I'm just a happy bubbly girl and everything is perfect in my world, let me be the...
    PoisonHue PoisonHue 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 22-25, M 22 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    So I haven't cut in 67 days I don't know

    now I should feel...I just miss cutting...
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I always do bone deep cuts too me it's sexier

    and more chance of me dying
    ILoveToBeTortured ILoveToBeTortured 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 19

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    The blade sinking into my flesh is the only

    thing I've felt in a long time. But why hasn't all this blood loss killed me yet?!
    StephBlakeIsInfinite StephBlakeIsInfinite 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    Does anybody else like to carve words into

    their skin? I do......new addition "failure"
    ShysietheVampiric ShysietheVampiric 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Oops xc I know I shouldn't

    but I felt really alone and hopeless.
    ZombieLlama ZombieLlama 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 17

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    Last night I slipped.

    After almost 2 ******* years of not marking myself I slipped. I became so numb to emotions that I barely felt anything. It felt like a scratch but they were deep. They should've hurt. I should've cried out in pain. I should've just cried myself to sleep. I regret what I've done...
    CaptainBlake CaptainBlake 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    I've tried so hard to leave this behind

    but I just can't. Whenever I'm happy and things are going well for me something always comes along and ruins it. I'm tired of being strong on the outside and always trying so hard to help others but yet when I need help I can't get it. Things were going so well for me the past 6...
    BlackRaven2015 BlackRaven2015 31-35, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Well fck since I can't do anything right

    why not get the blade and dig it in my skin!!!!! I'm so p!ssed everyone hates me I can't take it I want to k!ll myself Every day that goes by I just hurt and it gets so tiring I don't want to hurt I want the pain to go away I've tried telling my dad but when I talk he never...
    LostGalaxyy LostGalaxyy 16-17, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    pohernandez pohernandez 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 10 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

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    After my parents found out

    that I cut, I felt so sad and frustrated. I didn't feel like a weight just dropped off my shoulders bit instead it felt like more was piled on. I felt this way for 3 month. One day I decided that I couldn't take it anymore. I cut. I.felt so relieved after that. I want to control...
    yummythedrummer yummythedrummer 13-15, F 7 Responses Mar 30

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    I haven't self-harmed in two months.

    (Since I was last institutionalized for trying to commit suicide..again.) I've been self harming for a few years now and I've never went more than a week without self harming, until now of course. I stopped self harming but started to get into other things again like Ana & Mia...
    TheMorticiansDaughter TheMorticiansDaughter 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 22

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    I love it so much... it's one of the few things

    that makes me feel good anymore. I'm always trying to put a smile on, all be it it's not a great smile. but then I go home and lock myself in my room and realize that I have few. and I realize that the numbness won't go away. I think about my knife and how people tell me not to...
    ThePlaguer ThePlaguer 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 24

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I haven't self-harmed in about 4 days.

    I'm trying to occupy myself with something to do so I don't do anything. The longest I have went without, would have to be almost 2 weeks. Not that much but I'm trying now... it usually doesn't take long for me to do it again though.
    StarburstsOrSkittles StarburstsOrSkittles 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 23

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    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    I snuck out to my car to cut myself.

    .. There's 6 weeks down the drain... ****.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Just cut "kill me" on my thigh.

    I think those are the only other words I've ever cut except "fat" and "ugly"
    blackroses75 blackroses75 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 25

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    years past...the turmoil within.

    the unnamed ache. pain of confusion and lonliness. so insurmountable and so amorphous. what was the source? why did it torment so remorselessly? a dull ache that seized the heart in bands of cold iron. one night while drinking (of course) at a party. in a fit of macho...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M Jul 24

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    I have been clean for a couple of months,

    then I got brand new razors. Then I just let loose forgetting all the bs and the ones who broke my heart.
    NomadAngel117 NomadAngel117 18-21, M Jul 23

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    I started cutting last October

    because of bullying. I did a few small cuts on my ankle. Gradually it got worse... i decided to cut on my wrist and as soon as i started on my wrist i couldn't stop. But in January i met someone, he treated me like a princess. I went 5 months without cutting because of him. He...
    Darkheartxox Darkheartxox 13-15, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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