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I Cut My Self

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    I have quit hiding my scars.

    I just feel like they are my arms, and why should I hid them anymore then anyone else should. Sometimes I fear that people are judging me to be an attention seeker. But at the end of the day, I am going to do what it takes to live a normal life, despite what someone else may or...
    GeorgiePeg GeorgiePeg 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    I was clean for about 6 months.

    .... But I get left alone too much, I start getting isolated and the dark thoughts come back, and I had to shut them up....
    Lanigga14 Lanigga14 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 27

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    OK this night seems too long.

    I'll fill the bathtub & prepare the razor & won't care if I die
    ElenaSuicidal ElenaSuicidal 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    I'm thinking it might happen again tonight.

    If it does, I know i'll lose count. Oh, well. So much for my streak.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    I cut again....both arms

    and my leg. I'm so weak
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 26

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 24 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    I was clean for around three weeks

    until about 10 minutes ago… I cut again on my hip, I know it was wrong but at the same time I feel relieved like I'm happy that I did it… I feel calm… I feel better
    brokenandbi brokenandbi 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 25

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    I cut myself because I guess sometimes I feel

    as though the whole world is against me and I deserve to feel pain. But the funny thing is the pain begins to be pleasure and seeing the blood is almost intoxicating. The scars left behing make me feel strong but embarrassed.
    Dakota15 Dakota15 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    YoungForever101 YoungForever101 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    After my parents found out

    that I cut, I felt so sad and frustrated. I didn't feel like a weight just dropped off my shoulders bit instead it felt like more was piled on. I felt this way for 3 month. One day I decided that I couldn't take it anymore. I cut. I.felt so relieved after that. I want to control...
    yummythedrummer yummythedrummer 13-15, F 9 Responses Mar 30

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I've been gone from this app

    for months and months because my cutting intervals went from occasionally to once every week if not more. No adult knows and I don't have one to go to. If I go to a counselor at school she's legally required to contact my parents which will be hell. It's getting nicer and I don...
    Brokentobits Brokentobits 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I can't quit thinking.

    .. maybe If I quit thinking in I'll quit cutting or maybe if I quit living I'll quit cutting... some days I just want to quit everything quitting life would be easier even if I have things going for me i think I ju st want to quit...
    hollie2parker hollie2parker 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Well i relapsed and I cutted myself

    but I'm Going to try not to cut again
    bloodofcour bloodofcour 16-17, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    just started cutting yesterday.

    .. I don't know if i regret it or not.. mixed emotions and stress and depression and anxiety. my dad gave me suicidal thoughts a year ago now my mom is driving me to this. they aren't bad people, they just say bad things.
    A1133cat A1133cat 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    I had this thought about what

    if I cut after drinking coffee and coffee poured out XD. I couldn't decide if blood would be in it or not. Hahaha😂
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 24

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I really want to but I'm trying not to.

    . Not working.. I need you..
    Sarabell00 Sarabell00 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I've been self harming

    for about a year now. I've hurt my best friend in the process. I can't escape this. it feels like I can't ever escape this.
    yeetemma yeetemma 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm a few weeks clean.

    Ever since I started my diet, the need to have something to control has been manifesting itself into that instead of cutting. But a few times a day the urge comes up. I don't know how much longer I can hold on...
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 27

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    Time to cut the stomach up to punish

    for thinking of bingeing..
    ThinWish ThinWish 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 24

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    I just cut myself again

    after my bf telling me he was breaking up with me now he's saying just a break for a week even though we just took a break last week omg someone please kill me now
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses a week ago

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response a week ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 a week ago

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    After a month clean i just snapped.

    Slapping makes it sooooo much better.
    NomadAngel117 NomadAngel117 18-21, M 3 days ago

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    danny9984 danny9984 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 25

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Lasted 2 weeks being clean.

    .. I couldn't stop the thoughts though.... I've slowly become addicted :/ I have this want, this need to cut now
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses