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I Cut My Self

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4

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    I ant know why .. But cutting makes me happy .

    ... .. I did it for 6 days in a row .. My whole arm was full of scars ... Then I stop for about 4 days ... It started a kind of heeling ... But it's 2 days now ... I started again ... Each drop of blood give me some kind of high .... I click it too ... Every time I do it...
    kunalmalik kunalmalik 31-35, M 2 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Ashlee344 Ashlee344 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I want to see my blood dripping from my skin.

    .. everything is so triggering
    paigedecker33 paigedecker33 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 11 Responses Oct 24

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30

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    When the opportunity next grants itself.

    .. I want to cut up my forearm.. From wrist to elbow... And if I'm lucky, I'll bleed out..
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I'm about to cut.....

    I'm to far gone to be saved I need someone to talk to
    basketballgurl24 basketballgurl24 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I need a position at school

    that has short sleeve shirts. I dont know where to cut now though. I need ideas not advice about the dangers of cutting
    Ashlee344 Ashlee344 13-15, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    **** it. I can't ******* do this anymore.

    I keep ******* **** up and even when I don't I still get yelled at. I just want to crawl in a hole and die there.
    blackroses75 blackroses75 18-21, F 15 hrs ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 20 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    I went to the hospital

    for cutting & depression, it helped me sorta. but I still cut all the time. & nothing or anyone will be able to stop me. I don't know how to stop but I want to.
    ashleygrierrr ashleygrierrr 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    appleboy appleboy 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Just a moment of only being able to feel pain

    physically is what I look for. Emotional pain is a lot to take and it hurts so much for so long. I have no control over it and can't just make it stop. Physical pain on the other hand I can control. I can control how much or how little it hurts. I can take medicine to make it go...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I've been cutting for a long time now.

    I just can't seem to stop, and I don't really want to anyways. I need it to make it through the day. No one in my life even suspects that I could do this to myself. They all think I'm this happy little girl. I wish they could see past that, but whatever. It's better for them to...
    BleedingLittleBlueGirl BleedingLittleBlueGirl 18-21, F 6 Responses May 28

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    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 10 Responses Nov 10

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    Does anyone cut and have no idea they are doing

    it or cut in their sleep?!?! Because I have been cutting and not been aware of it or have woken up covered in cuts everywhere and I don not no if this is normal or happens to other people and or what to do about it
    SophieeChapman SophieeChapman 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today actually in gym class the teacher pulled

    me aside to ask what the marks on my legs were. I brushed it off and told her it was from my Great Dane but she saw through me. I started begging her not to tell my mom because that would only make things worse for me, which is why she didn't tell. I cut quite frequently but on...
    Brokentobits Brokentobits 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I dragged by body to my bed

    while basically crawling on the ground for some time. wounded and broken .. perfect definition to describe my conditions. I disappointed people who i love most, i disrespected my own value and damaged it. so i laid down my body in bed. Staring at the ceiling and listening to my...
    deathiscold deathiscold 70+, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    So there is this girl

    who was really good friend of mine who just recently stopped talking to me just because I don't hang out with her so called friends in school, so I stood my ground and blocked her on social media and when she tries to talk to me I'm going to ignore her. I began to cut myself and...
    mrsxnobody mrsxnobody 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 8 Responses Feb 10

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 16-17, M 6 Responses Feb 26

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    Yes I cut myself, I bet you'll think I'm stupid

    like the rest of them do, but it helps me, I don't have no friends or family but my knife is always there to support me, when I was getting abused and bullied, my knife was there for me. I wish I could make friends but.. I'm not so good with people... my mental problems also...
    kyleishurt kyleishurt 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Im still afraid someone will look at my wrists

    and see all the scars and cuts. I never want them to know
    getshrekt getshrekt 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 8 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    If I'm frustrated or angry

    or sad, it really helps. It's like I can vent all that emotion into a few cuts and then I feel better almost automatically. I get this feeling of satisfaction. It's quite liberating really; I feel as though I can control things.
    Mannz Mannz 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    (THE PICTURE ATTACHED CAN BE TRIGGERING) Today

    I went further than ever. I've never been so deep at so many places, and I'm scared. The cuts on my thighs are almost black with depth and dried blood. I've cleaned them, but they still burn as hell. I just want to escape my body right now. I want to fall asleep and not wake up...
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 8 Responses Oct 19

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    I don't think I can handle anymore.

    this is the end... can I go back to my old self? can I start again? I can't handle the pressure and pain I'm being put under.
    brokenlovatic1999 brokenlovatic1999 13-15, F 16 hrs ago

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29

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    I once was playing myself

    and a bit of my ***** got on face. HMU
    PuffyCunt PuffyCunt 31-35, T 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm laying in bed, running my finger over the

    cuts from yesterday. I promised her I won't cut again. I Want to die.. I have no one again... I wish I could kill myself
    TheFatGuy TheFatGuy 16-17, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    once is never enough.

    its always several at a time.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I cut and i think is really bad u can cut ur

    vain and die i dont recamend it but if u do cut i would say cut with a razor but its ur skin.😭
    annieluvspie annieluvspie 13-15 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, T 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I want to cry but cant.

    I wish i could feel better. It hurts so bad it makes me angry. I just want to cry it out. Im so stupid. I just want to get away. Im so frustrated! Im thinking stupid thoughts. Whats wrong with me?!