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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 20 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    There's nothing worse

    than insulting depressed people , giving them a reason to cut themselves or end their lives. Dear people who are looking at the outside beauty and judge only , without thinking about themselves , what comes around goes around. You may attack the weak people , but remember...
    deyla666 deyla666 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    So I have a question.

    In books and posts that talk about self harm I always see things that stay stuff like "I remember what every cut means" and "I remember the story behind every cut" and all that stuff. I only remember the first cut's story. The rest I forget what caused me to do them after a few...
    fallenangelofthenight fallenangelofthenight 18-21, F 6 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Already cut myself today

    and it's not even 10am. The urge is unbearable! I'm at work now, but I'll just have to excuse myself to the bathroom for a minute or two. I want to...no I need to shut these voices up.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    I haven't cut since a long time.

    .. A few cuts won't hurt.... I really need to cut right now
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Well.. I cut myself.

    . and sometimes I stab myself maybe 14 times in the leg when I'm really mad at myself, I don't want sympathy, I'm stupid for starting, ****, stupid me, STUPID ME!!! FUUUUCK!! AAGH!! Sorry... I have mental problems...
    RazorToMySkin RazorToMySkin 16-17, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    It feels like you purposely are trying to hurt

    me... You tell me you want to hang out with me and then ditch last minute... You get my hopes up then kick me right back down... 80% of the time you do this... My scars are itching... And the urge to cut is intense... I'll be surprised if I make it through the night... It hurts...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Is it okay not to be okay?

    Because I'm really not okay right now...i dont know how i came to this again
    TealMarie TealMarie 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    One is never good enough.

    .. The more I do, the more I'm satisfied
    catho catho 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 12 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    Normal? What Is That?

    Sometimes when I'm not constantly insulting myself, I think...what's it like being normal? What's it like to look in the mirror and not hate what's looking back? What's it like to have a lot of friends and a boyfriend and just a good social life? What's it like not to be hated...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 1 Response Nov 11, 2013

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    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I'm gonna ask my mom

    if I can go see a counselor. I'll tell her sometime this week after school or even maybe sooner. I'm scared to tell her.
    Battlescars2012 Battlescars2012 13-15, F 3 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    I am a person that feels

    so worthless and hopeless about life that I feel like i deserve to get hurt so i do. I hurt myself because I need to feel pain, I need to distract myself from all the problems that I have and I hate that but i can't stop.
    sherr15 sherr15 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Funny how I use to do this a lot back in middle

    school and a few years in high school. It was mostly because I felt very lonesome. I kept moving from school to school and had to leave friends behind, not only that, it also increased my SA a lot. Most of my cuts have healed, but I still have this one scar that is left as a...
    jdbjfl jdbjfl 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I haven't cut myself lately I'm actually doing

    really good. I'm happy right now with my life. :) :) :)
    TealMarie TealMarie 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    BrokenBeyondRecognition BrokenBeyondRecognition 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I don't know how to stop.

    I'm addicted, and I can't figure out how to tell my therapist. I hate life, and keeping thinking of plans to kill myself. Please, if anyone wants to talk, I'd love it. Any age will do.
    WhatWasMissing WhatWasMissing 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Sitting in the bath and watching

    as the water turns red all around me... My mind can rest a little while now... Just let the blood keep flowing...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    OMG I love these it burns really bad (which I

    love) you don't even have to press down and it cuts deep. Ya I probably shouldn't have ever found these... Please take them.
    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Im a curse to anyone

    that cares, and a blessing to those that dont. Do u know what i am? Human. Im just simply human.
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Sitting here in the shower with a razor in my

    hand... I'm going to cut... And let the blood pour down the drain... Maybe if I cut deep enough this time, I'll never have to hurt again.. It'll all be over... This time I'm not going to clean up... I'm going to let it flow... In 3... 2... 1...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 17 Responses Sep 30

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    So much pain and so many thoughts racing.

    I just it all to stop. At least for a little bit.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    DearIniquity DearIniquity 16-17, M 6 Responses Feb 26

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    I've been a cutter for 2 years this month.

    I cut the first year twice then this year I can't even count. I try to stop but I've tried everything nothing works. The only way I can think of to completely stop is to tell my parents and go see a consoler but I don't want to tell my parents but I want the help. I need to stop...
    deathistheanwser deathistheanwser 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    More and more cuts and scars.

    Just trying to shut up my mind that runs wild. Let the blood pour and then clean it up as if it never happened. It's okay and it's alright. I will be okay one day. This will pass, Although not anytime soon.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 10 Responses Feb 10

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    Im trying not to. I need to rid myself of this

    emotional pain, though. Talking does nothing. It's useless. It's embarassing. I almost took a drink, but I'm trying to get sober. Ugh.
    Enveleyna Enveleyna 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I've been cutting for a long time now.

    I just can't seem to stop, and I don't really want to anyways. I need it to make it through the day. No one in my life even suspects that I could do this to myself. They all think I'm this happy little girl. I wish they could see past that, but whatever. It's better for them to...
    BleedingLittleBlueGirl BleedingLittleBlueGirl 18-21, F 6 Responses May 28

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 13-15, F 16 Responses Mar 3

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    Funny how when I'm bleeding

    because of an accident it scares me...but when I do it on purpose I feel great release and calmness
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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