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I Cut My Self

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    GUYS I DON'T CUT ANYMORE!

    !! I get messages from people that must have read my old experiences. Which make them think I still cut. Happily I don't anymore!!!! But to all that did message me because they think I do!!! THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT!!!!
    cutekittycat cutekittycat 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    The worst part was when my stepdad accidentally

    saw my cuts, the only thing he said was "Stop trying to get attention"
    JennyIsOk JennyIsOk 13-15, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm sitting here shaken just shaking

    and i cant stop i really can't tell if it's from fear or from depression my blade isn't to far away My wrist kinda itch i feel tired tired of everything tired of the Arguements the thoughts the voices the people everything im done i think it's finally been done I've...
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    My scars are finally fading

    after three months... It'll probably take three more months before they're white... But hey that's progress. I'm proud to say there aren't any new ones tarnishing my skin. This is good. This is great. I thank God.
    Itfloo Itfloo 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    When I cut I don't feel fear,

    I don't feel sadness. I feel the satisfaction of deserving it a way of punishing myself for looking the way I do. Being the person I am. For making people see me, just by going to school, I hate having such punishment on those people. Cutting is my escape.
    loveyourselmore loveyourselmore 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    cut.cut..cut... Arms scream with the blood

    running from their freshly cut mouths... cut.cut..cut... "honey are you okay?" tears slide down your face while the door handle slightly jiggling.... "I'm fine just watching a sad video don't want you to see me crying" as you quickly put your blades away and clean up the blood...
    hollie2parker hollie2parker 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    you cut yourself for the first time; angsty

    pre-teen. You think it feels strange and not right and promise yourself you won't do it again. About a month later, you decide to give it another try. It feels exhilirating. You love it. You do it some more. A few slits on each wrist a couple times a week. Things get harder. You...
    averse5127 averse5127 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I used to, but sometimes I still want to.

    I know I can't because my family is constantly checking my arms, but they don't know about my thighs. I kind of miss it. If I'm feeling really down and i can't calm down i just take the blade and make a few
    felicitydunlap felicitydunlap 13-15, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    What goes through a man's mind

    when a grown woman still cuts herself?
    Subbie4life Subbie4life 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    Crossfire15 Crossfire15 13-15, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I sometimes wish that I have never done this

    shiet in my life .... *cried*
    gaybottomsocal99 gaybottomsocal99 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't because they would find out,

    I don't want to keep it a secret. But there's no one to lie to anymore, because no one really cares to find out.
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, T 6 days ago

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    Sitting in my dark room.

    . while blood just keep dripping.. still.. it hurts.. my mind, my heart, everything... someone help me
    mozaq mozaq 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Boys dont self harm..

    . yea right. about 3 percent do... Im out of the 3 percent.... horrible childhood and still horrible now. You were suppose to die at birth i keep telling myself. Im going to be completely honest. Im a very bad self-harmer... like one of the worst ones. I cant survive about 3...
    InfiniteZero InfiniteZero 13-15, M 6 Responses a week ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I cut.... again a couple hours ago right

    after I got in a huge arguement that got really heated... it just reminded me of how worthless i really am. and I had been clean for weeks better than I had ever done but I ****** it up like everything else wish i could just flick the lights off
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    It's not right.. But I know

    when I do it , it feels like it is .. Does that make sense ?
    Roselyn01 Roselyn01 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    I thought I was done.

    .. I thought I beat it, and I had moved on to a better chapter in my life. Oh how wrong I was. I relapsed once again. It had been a month or so since my last "accident" and I really thought I won. But it's almost like cutting is a part of who I am now... I can't run away from...
    TheOriginalDarkHorse TheOriginalDarkHorse 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    I'm trying not too but without school

    and my friends to distract me from my own thoughts it's getting harder to resist the urges **** I actually want school to be back so I'm stuck at home alone with my thoughts
    bloodofcour bloodofcour 16-17, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    I think me mom knows about my cutting

    though I'm not entirely sure yet, I knows doctor talked to her about some stuff but I don't know how much of it she said... Still the first thing she said when we left the doctors office was; "did you just need to make me aware of yourself, get my attention?" I'm still shocked...
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    After my parents found out

    that I cut, I felt so sad and frustrated. I didn't feel like a weight just dropped off my shoulders bit instead it felt like more was piled on. I felt this way for 3 month. One day I decided that I couldn't take it anymore. I cut. I.felt so relieved after that. I want to control...
    yummythedrummer yummythedrummer 13-15, F 7 Responses Mar 30

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    toxicpastels toxicpastels 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    I haven't cut in awhile now.

    i use to cut a lot back in November through January. The cuts I did left dark scars. Just wish it would disappear.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I never thought a razor blade would comfort me

    more than people could. That I find myself cutting deep enough that blood is on my finger tips. I never thought I'd cut hateful words in to my skin. I never thought that I'd do this... But I did. And I do.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 22-25, M 22 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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