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I Cut My Self

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    i cannot seem to stop,

    i feel like i need to be punished for all my wrong doings like being born and ****
    toxicprincess101 toxicprincess101 13-15, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    beatiful101disaster beatiful101disaster 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    been four days . i cant resist anymore .

    something bad happened and i need to cut
    girldevil123 girldevil123 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    This is what happens

    when a guy dumps U and leaves u standing there crying in school
    eltrakills eltrakills 13-15, M 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    I cut myself because I am worthless

    and no one would care if I died. I mean on here no one truly knows me. So how would you know of the next day I don't reply it's for good. I am invisible at home and school. And when I get home it's like I could just walk out without anyone caring... No that everyones working I...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    that moment when you feel

    so broken, when your calling out for help but no one answers and you find yourself all alone with no where to go but a razor and a bottle
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I haven't been doing too well lately.

    Its just a constant thought running through my head. How doing it will just make me feel better. That maybe I don't want to see through to tomorrow. That I can't manage one more day. That nobody would really truly care anyways. I hate myself. I hate a lot of things lately...
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I'm battling severe deppression.

    I have been attending regular meetings with my college counselor but I don't find it helpful. I started attending these meetings when my friends noticed cuts on my arms a few months ago. They took my knives and I hadn't been able to cut myself. However I recently went home and...
    bgman123 bgman123 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 25

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    waitwhatssleep waitwhatssleep 13-15, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I wish someone would make me feel happy enough

    I didn't feel like hurting myself. That I didn't feel like cutting down my wrists... And the only reason I don't is because of my mother...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    A few days ago I was clean

    for five days but I broke it . Know I can't stop . I just keep cutting and cutting . Hoping the pain will go . But it hasn't . I don't know what will help any more . Only one thing will make the pain go away .
    girldevil123 girldevil123 16-17, F 4 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I started having a panic attack before

    and at the beginning of second today... It was so bad I could barely speak... And no one noticed. I use pain as an outlet. I tried so hard to hide it from everyone and I am supprised I managed to. One of my friends wouldn't stop hugging me so she knew... But I used my nails to...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    so ... was five days clean .

    No longer am . couldn't hold out .
    girldevil123 girldevil123 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I relapsed like a hour

    or two ago... My boyfriend is disappointed in me and so am I.
    Guy1618 Guy1618 13-15, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 12 Responses Feb 21

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    just something about seeing myself bleed makes

    me feel better. I cant think of "safer" ways to satisfy this without self-harming. (theres probably none but) Im addicted. and my body is gross and deserves to bleed.
    bloodyborgiabastard bloodyborgiabastard 26-30, M Mar 23

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    I was clean for 2 days

    but I cut today
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I hadn't done it for a week

    and a half. I had to fight the urges and every bad feeling I had, but I couldn't stop myself today...
    HopelessXV HopelessXV 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    After my parents found out

    that I cut, I felt so sad and frustrated. I didn't feel like a weight just dropped off my shoulders bit instead it felt like more was piled on. I felt this way for 3 month. One day I decided that I couldn't take it anymore. I cut. I.felt so relieved after that. I want to control...
    yummythedrummer yummythedrummer 13-15, F 12 Responses 2 days ago

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 26 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    i am 2 months and 4 days clean,

    about to do it though🔪
    fatdoll fatdoll 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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