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I Cut My Self

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    So much for being clean,

    so much for being fking clean!damn it
    Blueandburningsky Blueandburningsky 16-17, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    So tonight I finally did it - I told my mom.

    She reacted surprisingly positive. It was a bit awkward, but she told me to stop being so introverted and try to be more open and positive. That I only live once and that I should enjoy my life to the fullest. And then I cried a lot and we hugged. I have to learn to be more...
    Cessydesu Cessydesu 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    tamsin100 tamsin100 16-17, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    tamsin100 tamsin100 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    alice123422 alice123422 16-17, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    InutileSuicide InutileSuicide 16-17, F 10 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    It started a couple of years ago

    when I was very depressed and I went through a couple of months where cutting basically took control of my life. I finally regained control but I left myself with a mess of scars, many of which will not heal at all in my lifetime. For obvious reasons this affected my life...
    Quaoar Quaoar 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 17

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    It's all for the attention right?

    She cuts for the attention doesn't she? She thinks about suicide every day, She starves herself, She cries herself to sleep, She's broken... But it's all for the attention, right?
    KillaSparks KillaSparks 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    Raindrops on roses Bloodstains on linens Razors

    and long sleeves That keep my scars hidden Jumping off buildings Like bird without wings These are a few Of my favourite things
    KillaSparks KillaSparks 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    Cutting. It makes you do crazy things.

    Crazy things like steal a blade from the dollar store on a casual family trip to pick up a pill organizer. Stealing is wrong. I know it is but I did it. Can someone please explain to me how I STOLE SOMETHING!! How did I get here? How did I get to the point where I don't even...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 11 mins ago

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 12 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    Havent done it for a long time.

    .. Prob gonnna do it again
    mozaq mozaq 16-17, F a week ago

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    I used to. I haven't in a while,

    tho.... but, yes. I cut my self....
    craigslist504 craigslist504 36-40 Aug 19

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    I had been clean for 2 months.

    And now i did it again.
    ThatGirl3325 ThatGirl3325 13-15, F a week ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    one cut here ...... one cut there.

    ........ no one will see............. no one will care ............... & this is the truth my scars r hidden nobody knows & I don't care if they do its not like they care...it's not there body that they do it to its not there pain that they feel it's mine ...so u don't care & u...
    raythedragon raythedragon 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 14

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    I have scars on my thighs,

    i cut them with a box cutter and it bleeds a lot.Also there is a scar on my arm,i stabbed it,now i cut it deep.Sometimes when i cut i start to feel dizzy but i just can't stop.... ;(
    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 13-15, F 16 Responses Aug 19

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    Id been clean for pretty much 8 months.

    .. Till yesterday :/ Im so dissapointed in myself :(
    DrDeathDefying DrDeathDefying 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I cut myself when I'm stressed,

    lonely, or depressed. I've been lied to and hurt. and now I don't even think I'm scared of death anymore..
    jenna94613 jenna94613 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    That face the nurses make

    when you say you cut yourself using a staple. They start to look around as if they're realizing for the first time that this world is so full of sharp edges that they can't possibly hope to save you from.
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T a week ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I used to cut myself to get rid of the

    psychological pain my brother would inflict on my family. Afterwards I would cry myself to sleep.
    CNUSax CNUSax 18-21, M Aug 16

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    That awkward moment when your mom walks in

    while you're cutting...yeah. and then very suspiciously I throw my blade under my pillow, throw the sheets over my legs, and then scream. And my mom is just like, what are you doing and why are you freaking out? Um...I was getting ready for bed...as I reach over and grab my...
    brokenangel14 brokenangel14 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    TheWindBlown TheWindBlown 22-25, M Aug 17

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    Chesher Chesher 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 11 Responses Feb 21

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 9 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    I did it again after a few months.

    ..and it but.s like ****
    DaveEatsToast DaveEatsToast 13-15, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Piercedprincess17 Piercedprincess17 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    Blueandburningsky Blueandburningsky 16-17, M Aug 17

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