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I Cut My Self

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    I need to cut... I need the rush.

    .. :/ I need the release... Maybe tomorrow night... Nothing sharp I can use tonight... :( tomorrow feels like too long to wait.... :( I wanna cry. :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M a week ago

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    I will be honest , I never thought I would get

    to the point , feeling so low , so completely alone that I would start cutting . But the first time I did it , I don't know how to explain it . The pain of the cut , it made the pain of hating myself , my appearance , the bad memories , it made it all go away . and although I...
    girldevil123 girldevil123 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I can breath again...

    ..I can think......I feel high once again....I cut deep....Didn't mean to...i cut and blood just poured out of me....Rid me of evil....Still bleeding...But i don't care...Im free!
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw. He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom, out of sight. He kept a secret no one knew, He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the...
    angela9817 angela9817 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 4 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    I cut myself because I am worthless

    and no one would care if I died. I mean on here no one truly knows me. So how would you know of the next day I don't reply it's for good. I am invisible at home and school. And when I get home it's like I could just walk out without anyone caring... No that everyones working I...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    It's been a week since I last cut

    and now I'm getting the urge again...
    HopelessXV HopelessXV 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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    so ... not cut for three days ,

    feels like im suffocating , want to do it badly but I promised him .
    girldevil123 girldevil123 16-17, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    When people ask me have you ever done drug i

    say yes cause in a way cutting is my drug.....every time i cut i feel free...everything is quiet....no more screaming....no more people....but i don't stop at one i cant every time i say to myself just one little cut only one.....then one becomes two..three...four...five....an...
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I do it at least once nearly everyday.

    I vaguely remember a period of time when I didn't. I think it's mostly because of exams...
    lamiavarc lamiavarc 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    You make me feel unwanted

    when you kiss one scar for all when you tell me you're going to kiss them all. Like I have to many marks to be loved. Like I cut my body to no repair.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F Mar 19

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    Oh god the rush feels

    so good... It's like being high but in my own way... It has been far too long since the last time... I caved in... I relapsed... It feels so good
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Sitting here staring at the screen blankly.

    ....I need it.....i crave it.....i cant breath....its calling to me....im breaking....i have to cut.....now now!
    SweetAngelFrostPup SweetAngelFrostPup 16-17, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    i am 2 months and 4 days clean,

    about to do it though🔪
    fatdoll fatdoll 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    beatiful101disaster beatiful101disaster 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have cut myself just a couple of times

    and every time I tell myself I am not going to do it again. But then I do it anyway. I am soo afraid I am getting addicted. And I am ashamed, I feel so alone, I want to talk to someone about my worries but I am just to ashamed.
    jeanine281 jeanine281 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    right now i just wanna cut till i have cuts all

    over my body. no one cares about me so that's why i continue to cut. i look around and see all these people who have support from others to stop cutting but i have no one. no one could careless about me so maybe I should cut deep enough to bleed out all over my bed ??
    waithe336 waithe336 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Cutting is my addiction

    and I am being honest. I am addicted to hurting myself so When I get heartbroken or whatever, I don't complain anymore. I mean What's the point. I am a Christian but......I have this feeling that God has forsaken me because of this sickness that I have. I love pain, I mean I'm...
    Adridee Adridee 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    been four days . i cant resist anymore .

    something bad happened and i need to cut
    girldevil123 girldevil123 16-17, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    pdogshotu pdogshotu 18-21, F 15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    I'm battling severe deppression.

    I have been attending regular meetings with my college counselor but I don't find it helpful. I started attending these meetings when my friends noticed cuts on my arms a few months ago. They took my knives and I hadn't been able to cut myself. However I recently went home and...
    bgman123 bgman123 18-21, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I was clean for 2 days

    but I cut today
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    i cut myself its itchy

    and sore but i wanna do more i feel so ******
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F Mar 19

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I haven't been feeling too great lately.

    Just been really sad and depressed. Been feeling completely unappreciated and alone. I've been thinking about it for quite some time. And I finally gave in last night, but it was just one. Only one.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    I started having a panic attack before

    and at the beginning of second today... It was so bad I could barely speak... And no one noticed. I use pain as an outlet. I tried so hard to hide it from everyone and I am supprised I managed to. One of my friends wouldn't stop hugging me so she knew... But I used my nails to...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Bought myself some new razors tonight.

    .. I'll finally feel that rush again... That release... It's what I've been craving for so long
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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