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I Cut My Self

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    If this gets 20+ likes,

    I'll flush my blades. Haven't cut myself in 3 months.
    shiannee17 shiannee17 16-17, F 12 Responses Jan 10

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    I found this site last June.

    I was looking around the Internet for ways to cover up cuts. And it's made my life a roller coaster since I've been on it. People bring you up and bring you down. It's life. I've been over a month without cutting. And I don't think I can do it anymore. I don't think I can go...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    So I just cut myself last time I cut was 4 days

    ago I had to cut on my right wrist even tho I'm right handed I couldn't cut on my left wrist because I have an appointment on the 12th hopefully my mom doesn't find out
    Maria134747 Maria134747 13-15, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    alice123422 alice123422 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    im such a ****** screw up.

    hit the bottle and started cutting. turned off my phone after telling the only person that cares not to bother with me. planned on killing myself but i suck at death just as much as i suck at life.
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Is it weird that even

    after all the physical pain I go through almost every day I still need to cut, it's different, when you feel like **** because of the names you need an escape...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F 4 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    This is like the 1st time I have cut in 1 month,

    my brother was threatening to beat me up again and was going mad and I had just had enough so I managed to get a knife from the kitchen and came up to my room and cut, i hate my family so much xxx :'(
    jamesmonty3950 jamesmonty3950 13-15, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    bregood bregood 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    Cutters are wonderful people.

    I love you all. I see and share your pain.
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 30 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    I cut myself again. A few days over a year

    sense the last time and still.... It was my fault and I tried to punish myself... Doesn't feel like enough hurting sometimes to make it all better.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 2 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 8 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    I have before. but I quit.

    now I really want to do it again. I hate this feeling. I hate having to tell myself I'm better than that and that people wouldn't want me too. but sometimes I feel like they wouldn't really care. right now I feel like that's the only thing that can help me. maybe I stopped being...
    iloveyoudude iloveyoudude 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    simmerdame simmerdame 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Guess what happened? MY GIRLFRIEND FOUND OUT

    ABOUT MT ******* 'PROBLEM'. NOW SHE'S ******* CHECKING ME EVERYDAY FOR SCARS AND SAYS IF SHE SEES ANY NEW ONES, SHE'LL START CUTTING. ******* HELL. **** THIS LIFE OF MINE.
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I don't know. It's a vice

    for me. I don't see it as bad; more of a cleansing. It just feels holy for me to do this. When the blade scratches my torso open, I feel a sense of reprieve. It's like I'm a devout follower of some ritual that I justify in my own terms. Anyone finds out, I blame it on the cat.
    LukaLuxAurelius LukaLuxAurelius 16-17, T 3 days ago

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    It has been a few weeks

    since I have cut and now I'm struggling not to! Its so hard to resist when I'm hurting so much inside :'(
    jamesmonty3950 jamesmonty3950 13-15, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I cut myself to feel pain

    so stop saying im suicidal though if I died while doing it would be a bonus :)
    juicy1233 juicy1233 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 21 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Everyone thinks I'm ok.

    ..I have been but it's all coming back...the voices...the nightmares...the hallucinations...I can't take it...
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I felt badly depressed today,

    I was about cut myself again but I didn't. I'm so proud of me:")
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I cut last week on my side.

    Because my mom checks my wrists and thighs. My friend hugged me really tight and I winced, telling her I had a bruise. Which, is kinda true, they are bruised. But she saw them and she's still mad at me. I feel bad cuz I can see how much it hurts her. Why am I so ****** weak?
    bellafreak935 bellafreak935 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    i used to cut to escape,

    but now i do it to clear my mind it makes me feel like im on the best high ever.
    feelsgoodtocut feelsgoodtocut 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29, 2014

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    I promised a really good friend I would never

    pick up another blade... but right now it's so hard... I'm trying to keep that promise but idk If I can
    Allywall Allywall 13-15, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    XxLittleBrotherxX XxLittleBrotherxX 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I haven't since I found out about my

    responsibility... I have to keep it together cause now it's not just me. It's my pack too. Love you guys. ❤️❤️
    AlphaBloodMoon AlphaBloodMoon 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I haven't for like a month

    and now I'm getting to the point where I just don't care I can't take this anymore I'm always getting blamed for everything because everything's my fault right.... I always do everything for my younger sisters and I get treated like crap but I guess that's what I am I'm...
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 16-17, F 15 Responses Mar 3, 2014

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    I'm gonna draw a picture,

    a picture with a twist, my paintbrush is a razor blade, the canvas is my wrist.
    stuart101 stuart101 13-15, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I want to cut.....I cant take it anymore.

    I love her too much but can't even tell her
    styxc styxc 18-21, M 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I can't stop its not

    that easy people always say why u cut that's not ok u need help well I cut bc of depression not everyone has a perfect life and it's not that easy to just stop it can take a while all my friends tell me to stop and one cuts to well u should know if u really cut its really really...
    WolvesXtigersXanimals WolvesXtigersXanimals 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Trigger warning. This is from a few days ago,

    and I feel like absolute **** because of it. I failed at staying clean, and I hate myself for it. I just wish I could do something right.
    xXxbrokenangelxXx xXxbrokenangelxXx 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    THIS JUST IN!!! My latest excuse: some kid ran

    into my locker and it bumped into me and cut my arm. (near my elbow: 5 times)
    notatrustfundbaby notatrustfundbaby 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    I'm going to hide. I'm going to pretend I'm

    gone. She can't check me, then. And I'll be able to feel relief again~
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 10 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    I have the urge to right

    now n it sucks ugh y can't I ever keep a promise not to cut. All i wanna do is not feel anything emotionally and just too much is going and my head is spinning ugh :'(
    cute4me cute4me 13-15, T 2 Responses 1 day ago