I Cut My Self

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 900 People

    I miss cutting. I haven't cut in a little over

    a year and I honestly miss it. The only reason I stopped was because my boyfriend flipped out when I told him that I had cut for the first time since I met him.
    Katalena Katalena
    18-21, F
    Mar 17

    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

    I didn't mean to cut myself this time,

    I was using my knife with good focus and my knife gonna in to my middle finger a good cm or 2, blood keeps going.
    SamuelPrescott SamuelPrescott
    13-15, M
    Apr 12

    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy
    18-21
    4 Responses Oct 3, 2011
    BreeInspired BreeInspired
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jan 27

    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Feb 13, 2012

    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub
    13-15, F
    19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jun 26, 2014

    Everyday I'm battling trying my best not to cut.

    But people just hurt me. It takes a lot to make me cut. I just let it build up in me. Until is too much to handle. That is when that blade goes across my wrist or thigh. That the world is full of 'loveliness'.
    oreomine12 oreomine12
    13-15, F
    Dec 4, 2015

    My scars are still getting better slowly.

    Little by little worst part is I will wake up every morning and see my pain.
    BlueWings1 BlueWings1
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 17, 2014

    Just realised I'm half a year clean!

    Waw that's an achievement right?
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123
    16-17, M
    10 Responses Feb 21, 2015

    it feels good... i do it everyday

    and would love to talk to people who also love cuting about it ans to cut together!
    pinkyted pinkyted
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 25
    pdogshotu pdogshotu
    18-21, F
    15 Responses Sep 30, 2014

    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer
    18-21
    17 Responses Oct 13, 2013
    willdad willdad
    36-40, M
    Nov 27, 2015

    Never walk into a cutter's room without

    knocking. More for your sake than for theirs.
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow
    18-21, T
    Aug 30, 2015

    I've been cutting for a long time now.

    I just can't seem to stop, and I don't really want to anyways. I need it to make it through the day. No one in my life even suspects that I could do this to myself. They all think I'm this happy little girl. I wish they could see past that, but whatever. It's better for them to...
    BleedingLittleBlueGirl BleedingLittleBlueGirl
    18-21, F
    5 Responses May 28, 2014

    Yeah what can I say? I hate myself

    and I hate my life! If I died no one would miss me.
    Katy2003 Katy2003
    13-15, F
    12 Responses Feb 2

    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Piercedprincess17 Piercedprincess17
    18-21, F
    12 Responses Jun 27, 2014

    I cut my thighs s. I couldn't help it.

    I hear voices an people want me dead. So why not listen to the both of them.
    oreomine12 oreomine12
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Dec 10, 2015

    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Feb 10, 2014

    I cut. Im weak. No one can help me

    unless he is with me. But i don't see him much. I am Sucidal an he knows it: why is hard to not hurt someone who actually love an are about you. I don't purposely hurt him. Its just im so weak i cant help but to cut. Its the only thing i know in mylife. Cutting an being Street...
    oreomine12 oreomine12
    13-15, F
    1 Response Dec 5, 2015

    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan
    18-21, M
    9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

    The new blade is really good.

    Which is really bad. If I pick it up, I'll never put it back down. Aaaaand.... I'm scared of myself again.
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow
    18-21, T
    1 Response Aug 30, 2015
    Sabrinacute Sabrinacute
    13-15, F
    Dec 17, 2015

    there's a moment in when you just go numb.

    in that moment, it feels good. numb. like the whole world is off your shoulders. that or I'm just a ******* phychopath that likes blood. the worst part about cutting is when you try, but fail to hide it from people.
    beccab1210 beccab1210
    13-15, F
    1 Response Dec 22, 2015

    I know I should stop

    but I'm addicted… I think maybe if I had somebody I could talk to during the night, somebody to tell to put down the blade, maybe I would. But I don't have anyone and it's hard for me to stop… I just cut so much
    Depressedgolfer96 Depressedgolfer96
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 5

    I've been cutting for five years now.

    No one knows but two people. I get bullied an no one cares. So why should i, ill cut till im numb or better yet dead.
    oreomine12 oreomine12
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2015

    So I was supposed to go on a date tonight

    and I just got stood up. I want to cut so bad but I don't want him to see if he does ever text me back and have a decent excuse as to why he stood me up tonight. I don't wanna scare him away if he does actually like me but man I feel terrible right now.
    blackroses75 blackroses75
    18-21, F
    Mar 18

    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger
    18-21, M
    6 Responses Mar 4, 2014

    It's just so freeing.

    .. It's like being high, but even better... I feel so calm and relieved now... It was only 10 cuts. 10 new scare... But it did the trick
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    22-25, M
    Sep 9, 2015

    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

    I'm sitting in the ER waiting room,

    waiting for a nasty cut to be stitched up and all I can think about is cutting again. Maybe I should learn how to do sutures on my own.
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow
    18-21, T
    1 Response Sep 2, 2015

    I cut my love tells me not to

    but I don't stop he try to help me through it I stopped then started again maybe one day I'll leave it all behind me
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 3

    I started ep with cutting.

    I guess I'm gonna end it that way too. I'm ugly and worthless. I deserve it. I don't belong here, but I'm too much of a coward to leave.
    blackroses75 blackroses75
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 11

    i started cuting again i really hate myself

    for it im 18 now and i still havent stoped
    madhattergirl41 madhattergirl41
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 1, 2015

    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler
    18-21, F
    12 Responses Mar 3, 2014

    I'm just giving over this now,

    I just gave my blades to someone if you days ago… I know how hard it is so I'm here for anyone who needs anything
    love11915 love11915
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 18

    I've been 76 days selfharm-free

    and counting; I mean, yes I still struggle with temptations to harm myself because the urges will always be there but I'm trying my best to overcome selfharm and give others hope that, they too can do it and overcome it no matter what... It just requires time to go back and love...
    Lifeisamindfuck Lifeisamindfuck
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 26, 2014

    I hate the people who visit this experience

    topic and start commenting on everyone's story things like "don't give in to the urge" or "this isn't the answer" or "please don't do this to yourself". clearly they don't understand the struggle. I wish they'd all just stop. we're trying here. we're venting. we don't need any...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx
    70+
    5 Responses Nov 3, 2013

    The blade to the skin feels like nothing I've

    ever felt... The pain, the sorrow, the relief. I wash out the demons with each new cut. Without these scars, who would I be? Nothing... It's the only thing that keeps me going
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    22-25, M
    Sep 13, 2015
    greemn greemn
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2015

    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Jun 29, 2014

    When ever I am sad I always cut myself n I just

    wish I stab myself right through the heart so I don't have to live
    lookket lookket
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 1, 2015

    I have been clean for about 4 1/2 years

    and instill struggle on a daily basis not to slice into my flesh. My fiancé has even taken to not letting me handle any sharp objects so I don't relapse, but the thing is, I honestly want it. I miss the rush, I miss the escape from the emotions that make me feel like ****, and...
    TheHuntress101 TheHuntress101
    22-25, F
    Mar 17

    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing
    18-21, F
    20 Responses Dec 15, 2011

    It's been awhile since I last cut,

    but the scars on my thighs and my arms will always be there to remind of all the pain I've been through..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 4

    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy
    18-21
    11 Responses Oct 7, 2011

    Happiness This is something we all long for.

    The pursuit of happiness is an interesting idea, but the problem with it is that it objectifies happiness, places happiness OUTSIDE of your SELF. That is where the problem is. Happiness is a state of mind, such as sadness, anger, jealousy, etc. Its a way of processing thoughts...
    GoodOwl GoodOwl
    22-25
    1 Response Jan 5

    The support found here has been overwhelmingly

    wonderful. I'd like to thank everyone for being my friend and being there. Farewell my friends, until we can speak again I wish everyone nothing but the best.
    Brokentobits Brokentobits
    16-17, F
    Apr 21

    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Dec 10, 2012
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jun 24, 2015

    Update: 7 stitches. And he took a look at the

    cut from yesterday and sutured that one right up too. Only 2 in that one though.
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow
    18-21, T
    Sep 2, 2015

    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73
    16-17, M
    23 Responses Apr 28, 2009

    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 7, 2014
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