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I Cut My Self

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    I relapsed. I used to be 4 months clean of

    cutting my thighs (I only ever cut my wrists and arms) but yea my thighs are covered in scars.
    AutumnMagic AutumnMagic 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    missmalky missmalky 16-17 2 days ago

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    The Butterfly Project.

    The Rules are: 1. When you feel like you want to cut, take a marker, pen, or sharpies and draw a butterfly on your arm or hand. 2. Name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better. 3. You must let the butterfly fade naturally. NO scrubbing it...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 20 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    My scare are going away

    and idk why but I feel like I need to make new ones.
    Katiepoohmm Katiepoohmm 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Rip Isabelle

    Drip. Drip.The water is clear.And now it’s red.She’s all alone.Now she’s dead.Drip. Drip.Covered in blood.There’s no skin left.See her bones?Look, she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She starved herself.She always bled.She’s beautiful.But she’s dead.Drip. Drip.She’s so young.So...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    Scars

    When I see the scars on my body I think, "What have I done?". I think of I have to always wear bracelets. Or that people will judge me if they see. Will anyone love me? I'm so broken. 3 months clean, but I'm scared of triggers.
    5minuetsofsummer 5minuetsofsummer 16-17 18 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    Cutting is not a trend,

    it's an addiction. It's like screaming but no one can hear. It is an everyday battle.
    Itscookiemonster Itscookiemonster 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 14

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    Cutting can happen at any age.

    Too much ignorance.
    BrokenBrain123 BrokenBrain123 22-25 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I just did... It had been a week

    since the last time and I needed it. My right shoulder has some new cuts on it. I feel like I get jittery when I go too long without it. It's so addicting.
    imjackandimdark imjackandimdark 16-17, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I used to think that despite all my depression

    and anxiety and thoughts of suicide, I never thought I would cut. I would get sad, I would get angry, I would feel so alone and cold and I wouldn't want to be here anymore, but I didn't understand. I knew what it was but I always thought "I'm too good for that. I'll never be...
    bandfreak26 bandfreak26 13-15, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    Clean

    I've been clean well over two months now but most things set me off wanting to cut again but I haven't so, woohoo I guess.
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    <3

    She’s emo? You’d cut too, if you’ve been through what she has. She’s anorexic? You’d be too, if everyone called you fat everyday. She’s a *****? She made one mistake that cost her, her reputation. She’s a showoff? Her parents abused her, & she’s never heard of...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 13 Responses Oct 7, 2011

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    My scars are still getting better slowly.

    Little by little worst part is I will wake up every morning and see my pain.
    BlueWings454 BlueWings454 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 17

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    I have successfully starved

    for 2 days! And 3 days tomorrow I'm actually proud of myself for once And (if you read my getting caught at school experience) it's still SO awkward seeing that teacher that told on me and the principal who knows that I cut OH AND TO MAKE IT BETTER.. I JUST SO HAPPENED TO HAVE...
    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'll kiss your scars I'll touch your heart

    You cover your arms In painful art I know you're hurt I'm here to help Your screams were unheard But there was something I felt Your words touched me Your cries worried me I'll hold your hand I'll always be here I understand I'm sincere I want to see you smile I want...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 16-17, F 12 Responses Jun 27

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    Today just kind of went bad.

    .. Don't look of you have major sympathy cutting.
    LongForgotten LongForgotten 18-21, M 19 hrs ago

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    I hate it when people tell me to stop just

    don't you're not helping by saying that it's just false hope but, you don't hurt us as much as those who say we are looking for attention you aren't making it better either that is bullying and that makes things worse it happens a lot just leave us alone let us say something...
    Cheshirecupacat Cheshirecupacat 16-17 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Normal? What Is That?

    Sometimes when I'm not constantly insulting myself, I think...what's it like being normal? What's it like to look in the mirror and not hate what's looking back? What's it like to have a lot of friends and a boyfriend and just a good social life? What's it like not to be hated...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 1 Response Nov 11, 2013

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    I just noticed every time I cut it gets worse

    (I can't cut my wrist anymore ;( ..) So my thigh has five big cuts on them. But nothing makes me more angrier than when I cut and there's NO blood am I the only one? I'm not gonna go in detail but today was HORRIBLE and I literally just want to hide in a dark corner and die..
    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I started cutting again.

    It's been 5 months since my last one. I did it much deeper this time. I know it's stupid and wrong to do. I told my self long ago I'll never be those people who harm themselves. I was wrong. Why does it feel so good when I cut? Why do I laugh at the sight of my blood? I'm not...
    PoopieNoodle PoopieNoodle 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Away From Youre Self

    I cut my self.... Its like a drug.. it gets you to a place of peace.. a place where you don't think about you're problems.. a place where you think of the future.. a fealing of numness.... a fealing of no fealing.... but most of all it gets you away from youre self....
    yme73 yme73 16-17, M 24 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    I was driving home today

    and I stopped at McDonalds to get a smoothie, I went through the drive through and when I reached out to grab my smoothie from the guy he must have seen my cuts because he hesitated, then said, "you don't know me, but can you promise me you won't cut tonight?" and I could feel...
    nornorrr nornorrr 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    I was hopeing to take my bracelets off tomorrow

    but looks like thats not going to happen.
    battlescars2012 battlescars2012 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    There was no blood this time.

    .. It wasn't what I was hoping for... But it'll have to do... I can't believe I gave in... I was doing so well... I'm so disappointed in myself... Why?
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Oh my god. ****. I hate myself.

    I'm so annoying. I'm expendable to all my friends. In my darkest hour everyone leaves me. The razor offered sanctity, if only for a few seconds. But I dragged the time out, going deeper, turning the single cut into a gaping hole until I'd been working on the cut for half an hour...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    halfpace halfpace 16-17, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    So recently I've been feeling the urge to cut

    more and more. I'm about to finish school and I don't have a job. I'm stuck at home with my judgmental parents and I can't go anywhere. I don't have health insurance to cover therapy nor do I have the money on my own. I'm afraid to talk to my friends because I feel like they're...
    blackroses75 blackroses75 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Handle With Care

    "People always want to know what it feels like, so I’ll tell you: there’s a sting when you first slice, and then your heart speeds up when you see the blood, because you know you’ve done something you shouldn’t have, and yet you’ve gotten away with it. Then you sort of...
    somethingbecomingnothing somethingbecomingnothing 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Today, I'm going to share my story with you.

    :) Almost two years ago I fell into serious depression. I was crying myself to sleep every other night and I believed that no one cared for me. Not too many people know what it feels like when not a single soul gives a damn about you. Doesn't feel very good ... I had extremely...
    tamnialler tamnialler 13-15, F 17 Responses Mar 3

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    I cut again today. Two weeks ago I was about to

    kill myself and then later cut all up my arms. I hadn't since until today. I got too stressed and I cut on my left shoulder. I can't tell anyone because I'll get in trouble. I wish I could but they'd also just get frustrated if not straight up mad.
    missmalky missmalky 16-17 1 Response 2 days ago

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    You don't feel like you're hurting yourself

    when you're cutting. You feel like this is the only way to take care of yourself. Well, I read that somewhere and kinda feel like it's true. I promised myself that I'm never gonna hurt myself again. And broke that promise yesterday. Idiot. -_- I just don't know how to stop it...
    Aurora202 Aurora202 18-21 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Some what close it's better in person

    but make slits across you left side of your right hand or vice versa if you cut your self you can go ahead and do it normally but if you don't cut your self make shure the nife dosent go past the first layer then simply open and close your hand it might hurt at first but it...
    drew725 drew725 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    People don't take cutters seriously.

    If they knew someone who cuts they would say that we are attention seekers or we're creepy or just in a growing up stage where teenagers are just confused. Like really?? If we want attention, we wouldn't hide when we cut, or if this is like some part of growing up we wouldn't be...
    vhientie vhientie 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Hey guys I'd like to post this

    as a reminder for you to stay strong. Today I celebrate 1year going without self harm. I've had the thought to along with suicidal thoughts and still do. I've been through a lot trough out my life. Message me if you need someone to talk to or comfort you. I will never judge you...
    Darktitan Darktitan 18-21, M 9 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Count To 10

    Shut your eyes tight, Tell yourself it's all alright. Clench your fists in till they feel as if they could burst, You remember the time you had to do this first. You're eyes soon reach their fill, Soon after you're tears begin to spill. Brace yourself for what's yet to come...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

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    4 weeks tomorrow without cutting!

    :) I hope everyone else here has news like this to share because it's a great celebration. But, for those who are still struggling and have been cutting a lot, keep holding on and work up the strength to try to break free like I am. I believe in you.
    cyanidemaxwell cyanidemaxwell 16-17, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    Dear whoever is reading this,

    You’re beautiful. I may not know you, but I do know that you were brought into the world for a reason. Nothing can change that. You have strengths people admire you for. Your smile makes other people smile. You’re a unique individual. Smart, talented, kind hearted...
    smilemore123 smilemore123 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    The cuts and scars all over my arms Are

    wounds from battle and wars Fights and duels Againest i and the blade The blade and my mind I wish this to cease Help me please
    gramafey gramafey 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I met a guy I've the past few weeks,

    and he's definitely helped me stop. I have cut in ages, and I've made a new friend. I hope everybody can find their own little Juliyas to help keep the monsters out.
    lolloverlln lolloverlln 13-15, F 16 hrs ago

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    brittanynicolexd brittanynicolexd 13-15, F 15 Responses Jun 23

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    so i'm 89 days clean.

    i wrote this poem thinking it would help me. i wrote it 89 days ago. it's helped me a lot. maybe it can help other people too. stay clean, you don't deserve the hurt, head up <3 just put down that blade, looking down, watching your cuts bleed. tears slowly well up in your...
    18butterfly 18butterfly 16-17, F 7 Responses Feb 10

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    Been clean since 6-27-14 .

    -. It's only been 2days but I'm hoping to keep it that way
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw,

    He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his...
    Pettifogger Pettifogger 16-17, M 5 Responses Mar 4

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    I Cut Myself Because...

    I like the sight of my own blood, I like to know that I'm only numb inside, to defy my parents as in when my parents anger me, which they do often, I cut to make myself feel like they can't control what I do, to do things I know would **** them off. My mom probably...
    bookclub bookclub 13-15, F 19 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    I've been cutting for a long time now.

    I just can't seem to stop, and I don't really want to anyways. I need it to make it through the day. No one in my life even suspects that I could do this to myself. They all think I'm this happy little girl. I wish they could see past that, but whatever. It's better for them to...
    BleedingLittleBlueGirl BleedingLittleBlueGirl 18-21, F 6 Responses May 28

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    I was in the shower for like an hour today

    and just took my time making each cut, trying to make sure they were deep enough to bleed. I only cut on my thigh though because it is really easy to hide. There is a huge part on my thigh that has neat lines, one after another, up and down. I like to be organized and I like to...
    MissxThing MissxThing 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    So here' s the deal, i was going here around ep

    when i saw question that says, "Why do teens hurt themselves on purpose?" Me being a part of that, cuz yeah i'm a cutter, read the answers. And omg people.. The answers just pissed the heck out of me.. Like, "It's because they're weak" "They couldn't handle life" "They're...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 16-17, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Cutting doesn't feel like harming myself,

    it feels like taking care of myself
    leaskyy leaskyy 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Argue against it all you want,

    it's the only way of coping with the pains this world brought me. People would have abandoned me and left me to rot, my blade is always there for me. To all those who think cutting is harmful, until an hour ago, I was in one of my depression spells. I thought of leaving this...
    Oldwounds Oldwounds 18-21, M 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I knew a boy who liked to draw He drew pictures

    that nobody saw He was most artistic late at night In the bathroom out of sight He kept a secret no one knew He didn't tell a soul and his gallery grew His drawings were different No paper or pen But needed a bandage now and again We stood by the river under the stars He...
    beautifulgirl09 beautifulgirl09 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 26

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    <3

    She paints a pretty picture but this picture has a twist you see.. her paintbrush is a razor ... and her canvas is her wrist she paints her pretty picture in a color thats blood red while using her sharp painbrush she ends up finally dead her pretty pictures fading quite...
    PinkiieeBabyy PinkiieeBabyy 18-21 5 Responses Oct 3, 2011

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    Survey

     Self Harm Survey1 How old were you when you started self-harming?Younger than 44-56-78-910-1112-1314-1515-1616-1718-1920-21Older than 212 How often do you self-harmMore than once a dayOnce a daySeveral times a weekOnce a weekTwo or more times a monthOnce a monthSeveral...
    FibreglassWings FibreglassWings 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 10, 2012

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