Post

I Cut Myelf

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 159 People

    I relapsed about a week ago

    and now I feel the urge to cut again I have tried everything but I can't stop thinking about it I want to feel it again. I have tried to distract myself by drawing, listing to music, exercise ect. But I can't stop the urge to and the feeling to cut. I don't know what to do 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It was my first time cutting at school last

    week. I just can't do it anymore. Voices everywhere and it's driving me crazy. I'm so sick of hearing bullshits.
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 16-17, F Aug 25

    Your Response

    Cancel

    First Time

    I self harmed in various forms over the years, starting when I was about 8. But I never tried cutting. So five years from then, and 2 and a half months ago I found myself hovering a knife over my wrist. I needed more pain just to keep going than ever before. My parents found out...
    mysecretdiaries mysecretdiaries 13-15, F Jan 1, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    This Is Killing Me

    i cant take it cutting is all i think about day and night i hold my favorite razor in my hand mesmerized by the blade haunted by the voices it called my name yearning me to slice open my skin and feel alive again
    crazybladebabe crazybladebabe 18-21, F Oct 20, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm so scared right now last night I cut the

    top of my hands and this kid that sits next to me saw my cuts and he said what happened and I said that my cats got in a fight and I tried to separate them so that's why I have the cuts and he said Bull S**t u cut yourself and I said no but he still didn't believe me so he told...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm so sad right now my parents found out

    that I cut myself and they have seen all my cuts on my body 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25

    Your Response

    Cancel

    So my home life is totally awful.

    But I have always found ways to cope with it. Recently it's been taking naps and staying at school. I have never cut myself before. One time I did have a near cutting experience. I went to my room because life was crashing down around me. I picked up a stress rock that I had...
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Here enjoy I know I'm an ugly attention seeking

    bxtch who doesn't deserve to live Do you know how much courage this took me? No probably not I don't crave attention I just wanted to show the world Show them the ride they're in for when they dive too deep You think you want this? This is the reality of it and it's not a nice...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Here's a pic of what my arm used to look like.

    It's still scarred and each one of them shows a battle that I lost with myself. I still cut and I see a therapist but they do not help me out at all. I see my cuts more as battle scars rather than self mutilation and I'm sure lots of people do. It just sucks that this is my only...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F Apr 18

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Yup I just did it! Again.

    Just now! It seems easier and better every time! :) it's amazing how it helps when you are in so much pain. I would never want anyone I know to do it and I would never encourage it. But I don't care anymore. No one is there when I need them most so who really cares? I know it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Cold Turkey

    God ******* damn! I hate going cold turkey. It makes me feel more addicted then before! I just want a blade or anything really take to make me bleed ><" *runs around and stomps like a little kid in a tantrum* GAAAAAAAAAH Please tell me this will get better soon.
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I cut every day lately

    but then I realized how messed up I am
    trevorcorn trevorcorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 21

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I went to the mall yesterday

    but earlier during the day I cut my arms and on top or my hands because I felt so sad. Anyway I wore a sweater so people couldn't see my arms. But this one person she looked like she around 20 was so loud and said "look at that girl her hands!!" And people looked at me like I...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Well. One month and four days,

    down the drain. It isn't even noon and I've cried and cut myself all in one morning. I forgot what it felt like. Forgot how it numbs my pain. Oh well. Today is done. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Life As Of Late

    This week has been pretty tough, a lot has been happening and idrk how to deal with certain situations anymore. The girl I've basically bascailly been falling in love with has almost completely rejected me. Being someone that turns to cutting in overly stressful and high...
    jystinc jystinc 22-25, M Jan 8, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Self Harm Is No Joke!

    you always hear how self harmers are "emo" or "attention seekers" but self harm isn't a joke! it takes a lot to get to the point of taking emotional pain and turning into physical pain. when you sit there, and make fun of them, you are just making them pull down their sleeves...
    josephalissa josephalissa 26-30, F 12 Responses Jun 4, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Time After Time, Again And Again

    I did it again damn it. I dont know why i keep doing it. Its ugly and horrible but that doesnt seem to stop me at all. But today it was more that just a release it was wishful thinking. I didnt realize it did it that many time or that deep. It was like i blacked out and when i...
    blonde24 blonde24 22-25, F 1 Response May 5, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I find myself wanting to cut. Been clean for 2 months. Trust me im trying really hard to stay clean. I've been a cutter since i was 13 i think... Was able to stay clean for 3 years...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 16-17, F 8 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I'm Zack. I'm 15. I'm in 10th grade. I'm bisexual. My family owns a hunting lodge and outdoor resort in East Texas. I have late puberty. I was dumped by my xgf in real life and...
    zackthehunter zackthehunter 13-15, M 8 Responses 15 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have been having these STRONG urges to cut I am trying to stop for my girlfriend but it's hard to do it for someone else :(
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 9 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Cutting can happen at any age. Too much ignorance.
    BrokenBrain123 BrokenBrain123 22-25 1 Response 5 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    You don't feel like you're hurting yourself when you're cutting. You feel like this is the only way to take care of yourself. Well, I read that somewhere and kinda feel like it's...
    Aurora202 Aurora202 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm obsessed with cutting my hair is that weird?
    ANNI3PI3 ANNI3PI3 16-17, F 1 hr ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I started when I was 10. And it just progressed when I got older. I started cutting bad when I was 15/16. I even had my own special cutting serrated knife I would use. I hated my...
    UnstableSammi UnstableSammi 22-25, F Aug 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The first time i cut my self I was 12 years old. My mother had just had one of her best "motherly moments" of my childhood. She shoved me against the sharp counter leaving a long...
    mst529 mst529 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Last night I feel pathetic and was about to cry again...so I stopped myself. Ran to grab my pocket knife it's so much better than scissors. With little pressure on the knife I...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 11 Responses Sep 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I use to cut a lot, then went from only cutting once a month to where I am now; twice a day. I know I need to stop or at least cut down on it but it's hard. Each cut tells a story...
    JustAskAnything JustAskAnything 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    -TRIGGER WARNING- People ask me why I cut automatically thinking it's attempted suicide or will lead to it..NO! I don't cut because I want to die, I cut because I'm trying to stay...
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    One cut, two cut, three cut, floor... Five cut, six cut, one cut more...
    Madis9957 Madis9957 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I love cutting myself and I think cutting is great. This is of course, just an opinion coming from me. Cutting. I don't see it like it's a bad thing. Everyone says, "oh I regret...
    xrefusetosink xrefusetosink 22-25, F 10 Responses Aug 22

    Your Response

    Cancel
    ...hmm... i joined this group when i was on my quest for tokens which sadly i have just given up on now. *sighs* Seeing as though no matter how many i join or how much i write and...
    lilreddress lilreddress 36-40, F 5 Responses Aug 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have tried really hard to stop cutting. Over the past couple years it has become somewhat of an addiction for me. Whenever I was upset, angry or just feeling anything I didn't...
    RubyTuesday413 RubyTuesday413 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Why do people feel the need to cut it doesn't make the pain go away. Your just hurting yourself and after you don't you think your badass or something I could cut my self and it...
    Blackwolf666 Blackwolf666 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 31

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I was almost a week clean but I cut today I guess ill be wearing long sleeve tomorrow The less I cut the more cuts I cut when I start again
    Maria134747 Maria134747 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The first time I cut was at the end of July. My mom and I were fighting because we had just gotten back from a psychiatrist visit. She wanted me to go on Zoloft for GAD and chronic...
    bandfreak26 bandfreak26 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 23

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Well, I didn't cut myself for about 2 or 3 months, idk. It was really hard u know. But 6 days ago I cut myself again. And I missed this feeling so much guys! I have just one friend...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 13-15, F 7 Responses Aug 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Sharp Thoughts By Kassidy Voelker And Tristan Rethman We cut into our skin because we're angry, we're sad, we're hurtin we're trying to hide it but We're lost and we're broken. We...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M Aug 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Right now I want to be able to cut myself so that blood just comes out in gushes I want to do that and then watch it as I am listening to some of my favorite music I want to do...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have a lot of old home videos stored on my Canon DC100 Camcorder. I had used this DC100 to shoot family videos since 2006 when it was released. This camcorder accompanied me so...
    Editor323 Editor323 22-25, M Sep 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Once again I cut my self. I cut my thigh this time I ran out of room on my stomach. Someone please tell me why I cut so much cause I really don't know y. Out nay sound stupid. But...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I just started cutting. I started cutting on September 5, 2014. I hate that date because it's the same date that my dad dad just a different year. I started have flashbacks of my...
    Catlover24680 Catlover24680 13-15, F 5 Responses Sep 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've been doing it on and off since I was 14. I'm 22. No one knew for the longest time. My mom found out when I was 14, and it was the worst thing I could have ever imagined. I...
    tangledx22 tangledx22 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Okay so I have technology design this year (I had it last year too) and last year I found blades so I took a few at different times and they were good. So this year I found...
    sarahslytherin sarahslytherin 16-17, F 4 Responses a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I just noticed every time I cut it gets worse (I can't cut my wrist anymore ;( ..) So my thigh has five big cuts on them. But nothing makes me more angrier than when I cut and...
    13AndMiserable 13AndMiserable 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I woke up today and the day automatically started so bad, with work related stuff. And as the day progressed it just got worse. I'm someone who might be a mess in all aspects of my...
    Wallflower921 Wallflower921 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I cut a lot I have like 30 cuts on my wrist, the word "fat" on my thigh with more cuts I guess I won't be wearing shorts and ill have to wear long sleeves tomorrow
    Maria134747 Maria134747 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I haven't cut for 5 years. Tonight I just cut. I'm a ******* idiot. I have a social event tomorrow and now have to hide them under bracelets. God knows what my boyfriend would do...
    Zexy129 Zexy129 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 22

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This month, Sony released a new camcorder - Sony PXW-X70. It is really a powerful machine containing both recording and photography. This camcorder is of great significance because...
    cheney0808 cheney0808 22-25, M Aug 28

    Your Response

    Cancel