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I Cut Myelf

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    Self Harm Is No Joke!

    you always hear how self harmers are "emo" or "attention seekers" but self harm isn't a joke! it takes a lot to get to the point of taking emotional pain and turning into physical pain. when you sit there, and make fun of them, you are just making them pull down their sleeves...
    josephalissa josephalissa 26-30, F 12 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    I relapsed about a week ago

    and now I feel the urge to cut again I have tried everything but I can't stop thinking about it I want to feel it again. I have tried to distract myself by drawing, listing to music, exercise ect. But I can't stop the urge to and the feeling to cut. I don't know what to do 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    This Is Killing Me

    i cant take it cutting is all i think about day and night i hold my favorite razor in my hand mesmerized by the blade haunted by the voices it called my name yearning me to slice open my skin and feel alive again
    crazybladebabe crazybladebabe 18-21, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Here enjoy I know I'm an ugly attention seeking

    bxtch who doesn't deserve to live Do you know how much courage this took me? No probably not I don't crave attention I just wanted to show the world Show them the ride they're in for when they dive too deep You think you want this? This is the reality of it and it's not a nice...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F 1 Response May 3

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    I'm so scared right now last night I cut the

    top of my hands and this kid that sits next to me saw my cuts and he said what happened and I said that my cats got in a fight and I tried to separate them so that's why I have the cuts and he said Bull S**t u cut yourself and I said no but he still didn't believe me so he told...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    Yup I just did it! Again.

    Just now! It seems easier and better every time! :) it's amazing how it helps when you are in so much pain. I would never want anyone I know to do it and I would never encourage it. But I don't care anymore. No one is there when I need them most so who really cares? I know it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15

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    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18

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    My Life As Of Late

    This week has been pretty tough, a lot has been happening and idrk how to deal with certain situations anymore. The girl I've basically bascailly been falling in love with has almost completely rejected me. Being someone that turns to cutting in overly stressful and high...
    jystinc jystinc 22-25, M Jan 8, 2012

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    Time After Time, Again And Again

    I did it again damn it. I dont know why i keep doing it. Its ugly and horrible but that doesnt seem to stop me at all. But today it was more that just a release it was wishful thinking. I didnt realize it did it that many time or that deep. It was like i blacked out and when i...
    blonde24 blonde24 22-25, F 1 Response May 5, 2012

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    Here's a pic of what my arm used to look like.

    It's still scarred and each one of them shows a battle that I lost with myself. I still cut and I see a therapist but they do not help me out at all. I see my cuts more as battle scars rather than self mutilation and I'm sure lots of people do. It just sucks that this is my only...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F Apr 18

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    I cut every day lately

    but then I realized how messed up I am
    trevorcorn trevorcorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 21

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    I'm so sad right now my parents found out

    that I cut myself and they have seen all my cuts on my body 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I went to the mall yesterday

    but earlier during the day I cut my arms and on top or my hands because I felt so sad. Anyway I wore a sweater so people couldn't see my arms. But this one person she looked like she around 20 was so loud and said "look at that girl her hands!!" And people looked at me like I...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    So my home life is totally awful.

    But I have always found ways to cope with it. Recently it's been taking naps and staying at school. I have never cut myself before. One time I did have a near cutting experience. I went to my room because life was crashing down around me. I picked up a stress rock that I had...
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2013

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    Cold Turkey

    God ******* damn! I hate going cold turkey. It makes me feel more addicted then before! I just want a blade or anything really take to make me bleed ><" *runs around and stomps like a little kid in a tantrum* GAAAAAAAAAH Please tell me this will get better soon.
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2011

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    First Time

    I self harmed in various forms over the years, starting when I was about 8. But I never tried cutting. So five years from then, and 2 and a half months ago I found myself hovering a knife over my wrist. I needed more pain just to keep going than ever before. My parents found out...
    mysecretdiaries mysecretdiaries 13-15, F Jan 1, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    i'm just in so much heartbreak i'm shaking and crying and have been for the past hour. i relapsed. ive been three months clean and it had done me so well. thank you mom, i cut...
    meowshelbs meowshelbs 16-17, F 1 Response 18 mins ago

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    HELP!!! I'm going swimming with my girlfriend on Sunday and I cut on my arm...she already knows but what so I so to hide it in the water...
    DeadGhost123 DeadGhost123 13-15, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I'm not trying to kill myself, I'm just trying to ease the pain. I cut when I feel stupid, or afraid, or overwhelmed, or my PTSD is triggered by seeing abuse or mean people or...
    phorgan1 phorgan1 56-60, M Jul 16

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    This is very personal and a big thing to talk about, if anyone needs to talk.. Message me& I'll try help you however I can and whenever I can :) you are not alone! So... This is my...
    Jodiii14 Jodiii14 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    Yesterday I was in the car with my sister in law and she asked me why did u do it again? I said Cus and then she said does it hurt when you cut? I gave her a look like really did...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 8

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    I finally got to watch my wife get a cut at the barbers It was awesome watching her sitting there getting a short boys cut by a barber and he really gave her a much shorter cut...
    blackcape blackcape 41-45, M 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I did my first cut when I was 13 years old. I don't even know why I did it. And I really regret that first cut. Because now, 5 years later, I still cut. When I don't cut, I self...
    TRexMadness TRexMadness 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My other post: "I used to cut myself" has changed, by the way. I still have those 4 scars, but there are 2 fresh ones. It's odd- the feeling I get after I have done the deed. I'm...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    Trolling For Tresses I am one of those guys who love a challenge. I always believe you'll never succeed if you don't try. And if I fail, I brush off the dust and try again. As a...
    hairitgoes hairitgoes 56-60, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    I've lived with depression since I was 9 years old, I grew up thinking it was the ultimate norm and everyone was just expected to keep it under wraps. I didn't start with cutting...
    missjae93 missjae93 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I'm a recovering cutter and i can't take the stress and erges I'm going through right now. I battle depression and my parents are fighting right now I just want to take the glass I...
    smilethroughit55 smilethroughit55 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    I started cutting myself about 9 months ago. It started as just feeling like **** because i dont have any freinds and no life. But then I started to have back problems. A pinched...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M Jul 14

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    I cut myself. I cut myself because of what people tell me. They say I am worthless, a waste of space, a mistake, nothing, that I shouldn't be alive. It helps me deal with...
    UchigawaNiShinda UchigawaNiShinda 13-15, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    I do cut myself and I can admit it but I need some advice. I don't wanna be lectured and told not to cut, only people who cut will understand so please don't tell me not to!!! I...
    emi37y emi37y 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I get called cute A lot Like more than a normal baby would it's like every single day I get called cute 15-20 times by different people my BFF even gives me all the attention in...
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I think my mom is or was figuring it out. It started a bit over a month ago when we went to a water park, my one piece bathing suit showed my thighs, and I forgot about the swim...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I picked up my box cutter, I had a very stressful day, thinking, how bad would it hurt? I made a tiny cut in my wrist and liked the feeling. I rolled up my sleeve and sat on my bed...
    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 26

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    Ok, so my mom and step dad always argue. Its not physical though. People make fun of me. I am very self concious. I'm 13 and my name is Lauren. I have been cutting for a while now...
    lauren1194 lauren1194 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I just cut myself.. The red lines are much more visible now and no one has a clue about it. My parents think self-harming's a joke so it's best not to tell them before they think I...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 3

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    I have been cutting myself for awhile now, I hate it but I can't stop I'm too addicted, it's like heroine I'm hooked and can't stop ( I don't actually do heroine). I want to stop...
    Lanigga14 Lanigga14 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    I started cutting just 3 days before my birthday. It was actually on my grans birthday I started... after I saw my little sister. She can't be with us either. She's got a new...
    keahstanton keahstanton 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 4

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    Poke this is my first story I'm a lil nerves Iv been cutting for a while do to depression as my depression git worse so did my cutting i want to kill myself Cus people keep...
    IAmHatedForWhoIAm IAmHatedForWhoIAm 13-15, T 1 Response Jul 5

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    I try to stop cutting myself but I cant. I like seeing my blood and I like feeling the pain sometimes. I cut my stomach mostly because I feel fat and just wish I could erase my...
    wolfbeliever wolfbeliever 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    I started last year a few weeks before school started because I got really depressed and couldn't take it anymore so I wanted to die I had been suicidal before in the seventh grade...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 7

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    At one point in my life I did cut. But then I realized the people I'm mad at aren't being hurt by my cutting. I'm the one holding in all the physical, emotional, and mental...
    angelgregg angelgregg 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    I used to cut myself. It started when I was in 7th grade (I'm 18 now and just recently graduated), and continued up until a few months ago. I'm not proud of it but I like to share...
    pinkfleshbows pinkfleshbows 18-21, F Jul 12

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    I stopped cutting for about two months until yesterday I was just going through a lot that day and I couldn't take I've been wanted to cut for so long and I just did. I told my...
    mikaylahoguexo mikaylahoguexo 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I've been clean for two weeks (After cutting myself for eight months) and I'm having horrible urges right now... Usually I turn to music but it's stopped working. Everything has...
    weby667 weby667 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Feeling like I want to cut so bad sitting hear scratching my arm start racking my brain all I want to do is cut iv been thinking about it non stop I'm going insane. the feeling of...
    Ripjr Ripjr 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Hes left me. Its been a while since iv cut but iv cut myself to bits this time. I tried to feel anything but the pain of being unloved. I feel pathetic, used, unlovable, and...
    Stiggyb Stiggyb 26-30, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Okay. I just needed to vent this out and EP seems like a good place. I cut yesterday. Bad. And I dont even know why. And now that college is over, I feel a tad bit secure. No...
    scarredbutrelentless scarredbutrelentless 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 26

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    I.. can't stop.. I want to get better but it never works. All I can do is cut, cut and cut... I'm ruining everything in my life.. My doctor wants to send me to a inpatient clinic...
    XxMandyMayFirexX XxMandyMayFirexX 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 27

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    I cut my finger cutting up stuff for dinner and felt good...I really wanna cut but I'm trying to stop...my girlfriends away and I need someone to talk to...
    DGCalum99 DGCalum99 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 29