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I Cut Myelf

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    Here's a pic of what my arm used to look like.

    It's still scarred and each one of them shows a battle that I lost with myself. I still cut and I see a therapist but they do not help me out at all. I see my cuts more as battle scars rather than self mutilation and I'm sure lots of people do. It just sucks that this is my only...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F Apr 18, 2014

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    I cut every day lately

    but then I realized how messed up I am
    trevorcorn trevorcorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I went to the mall yesterday

    but earlier during the day I cut my arms and on top or my hands because I felt so sad. Anyway I wore a sweater so people couldn't see my arms. But this one person she looked like she around 20 was so loud and said "look at that girl her hands!!" And people looked at me like I...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2014

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    Yup I just did it! Again.

    Just now! It seems easier and better every time! :) it's amazing how it helps when you are in so much pain. I would never want anyone I know to do it and I would never encourage it. But I don't care anymore. No one is there when I need them most so who really cares? I know it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15, 2014

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    So my home life is totally awful.

    But I have always found ways to cope with it. Recently it's been taking naps and staying at school. I have never cut myself before. One time I did have a near cutting experience. I went to my room because life was crashing down around me. I picked up a stress rock that I had...
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M Dec 26, 2013

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    I'm so sad right now my parents found out

    that I cut myself and they have seen all my cuts on my body 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    I'm so scared right now last night I cut the

    top of my hands and this kid that sits next to me saw my cuts and he said what happened and I said that my cats got in a fight and I tried to separate them so that's why I have the cuts and he said Bull S**t u cut yourself and I said no but he still didn't believe me so he told...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2014

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    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    I cut myself for the first time today.

    Twelve cuts to be exact. Not counting the small ones I made on my palm. I felt overwhelmed. It felt good to cut myself though. Remind me I'm still here. I now regret it. I hope no one notices. Maybe I'll do it again
    omaxson42 omaxson42 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2014

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    First Time

    I self harmed in various forms over the years, starting when I was about 8. But I never tried cutting. So five years from then, and 2 and a half months ago I found myself hovering a knife over my wrist. I needed more pain just to keep going than ever before. My parents found out...
    mysecretdiaries mysecretdiaries 13-15, F Jan 1, 2013

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    It was my first time cutting at school last

    week. I just can't do it anymore. Voices everywhere and it's driving me crazy. I'm so sick of hearing bullshits.
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 18-21, F Aug 25, 2014

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    I relapsed about a week ago

    and now I feel the urge to cut again I have tried everything but I can't stop thinking about it I want to feel it again. I have tried to distract myself by drawing, listing to music, exercise ect. But I can't stop the urge to and the feeling to cut. I don't know what to do 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19, 2014

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    Cold Turkey

    God ******* damn! I hate going cold turkey. It makes me feel more addicted then before! I just want a blade or anything really take to make me bleed ><" *runs around and stomps like a little kid in a tantrum* GAAAAAAAAAH Please tell me this will get better soon.
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2011

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    This Is Killing Me

    i cant take it cutting is all i think about day and night i hold my favorite razor in my hand mesmerized by the blade haunted by the voices it called my name yearning me to slice open my skin and feel alive again
    crazybladebabe crazybladebabe 18-21, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Here enjoy I know I'm an ugly attention seeking

    bxtch who doesn't deserve to live Do you know how much courage this took me? No probably not I don't crave attention I just wanted to show the world Show them the ride they're in for when they dive too deep You think you want this? This is the reality of it and it's not a nice...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3, 2014

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    Self Harm Is No Joke!

    you always hear how self harmers are "emo" or "attention seekers" but self harm isn't a joke! it takes a lot to get to the point of taking emotional pain and turning into physical pain. when you sit there, and make fun of them, you are just making them pull down their sleeves...
    josephalissa josephalissa 26-30, F 12 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    Well. One month and four days,

    down the drain. It isn't even noon and I've cried and cut myself all in one morning. I forgot what it felt like. Forgot how it numbs my pain. Oh well. Today is done. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2014

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    My Life As Of Late

    This week has been pretty tough, a lot has been happening and idrk how to deal with certain situations anymore. The girl I've basically bascailly been falling in love with has almost completely rejected me. Being someone that turns to cutting in overly stressful and high...
    jystinc jystinc 22-25, M Jan 8, 2012

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    Time After Time, Again And Again

    I did it again damn it. I dont know why i keep doing it. Its ugly and horrible but that doesnt seem to stop me at all. But today it was more that just a release it was wishful thinking. I didnt realize it did it that many time or that deep. It was like i blacked out and when i...
    blonde24 blonde24 22-25, F 1 Response May 5, 2012

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    I cut for the first time the other day . I don't want to start cutting but it relieved the anger and hurt I was feeling. My boyfriend wasn't happy at all.
    Shorthairgirl97 Shorthairgirl97 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Why? I keep asking myself the same question every time i do this. Why do i keep cutting? It doesnt really help. Just leaves scars. I dont really feel the pain of cutting, i think...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M Jan 7

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    I'm fifteen. I'm a sophomore and I've been continually depressed since last summer when the first girl I legitimately fell for got really mad at me and then moved away. I just sent...
    GuiltyLover GuiltyLover 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    A coworker told me about this site so I thought I'd try it. I'm a 40 year old woman, married, accounting professional. I have long brown hair past my shoulders. And I'm trying to...
    mpenny1974 mpenny1974 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 20

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    I hate getting my hair cut. I'm always trying my best to grow my hair long because I don't like the length it is now. My mom is always saying to me if you cut here your hair will...
    Girlinpink0075 Girlinpink0075 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    I started a while back and it wasn't as bad. They were just scratches that didn't even bleed. Soon I fell deeper into depression and things stared to get worse. I broke down one...
    Xbr0Kenx Xbr0Kenx 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    I started cutting when I was 14. Started off with small cuts but when my boyfriend died, I didnt just cut my wrist but all my thighs and other areas that arent visible to the naked...
    dhanieliene dhanieliene 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I've always cut. I've always had that urge that wouldn't go away especially when I get hurt or life is rough. Or I'd smoke. Or I'd drink. Or all three. I don't have cigarettes or...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I started cutting in the beginning of 7th grade. I go back and forth.. I cut then I don't for a while but I always got back.. When I first started I told people I trusted (5...
    Gamer0808 Gamer0808 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    So I just cut myself last time I cut was 4 days ago I had to cut on my right wrist even tho I'm right handed I couldn't cut on my left wrist because I have an appointment on the...
    Maria134747 Maria134747 13-15, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I can't stop its not that easy people always say why u cut that's not ok u need help well I cut bc of depression not everyone has a perfect life and it's not that easy to just stop...
    WolvesXtigersXanimals WolvesXtigersXanimals 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Honestly, I miss it. Last time I cut was right before Christmas. Recently I decided to stop for good because..because I didn't want to have to explain it to new people I met. Know...
    tangledx22 tangledx22 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Soooooo.....I had stopped cutting myself for two months. But than things started to get bad again. My aunt was yelling at me more and calling names,and me and my brother hated each...
    cutekittycat cutekittycat 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I feel empty, alone. Everyone says I'm cut but don't want to date me. Everyone says I'm not fat but no one says I'm skinny. I've been feeling like life was worthless. Suicide is on...
    bmthannah bmthannah 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 3

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    I really feel like cutting, I wanna cut away all hurt all the pain, all the sorrow, all my failures, all my screwups. I deserve to cut deep and a lot.
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I cut but not for the reasons most people do (I don't mean that in a harsh way) but I cut because of pleasure I love pain so I cut myself for fun
    katieluvspee katieluvspee 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    It's hard for me to not cut my wrists when something bad happens, and then i feel terrible after I've cut, then it makes me want to cut even more, so here i am regretting my stupid...
    EyelessGlitch EyelessGlitch 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    To me a love of cute frilly things can apply to such hings as a say a teddy bear in a cute dress with frills on the hems or parts of the bodice in the dress. Equally it maybe that...
    Joanne0chan Joanne0chan 31-35 1 Response Jan 13

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    Hi, I'm Garrett. I'm a 14 year old freshman. I'm gay and horny. I love cute older boys. I service upperclassmen and they look out for me. It's a mutually beneficial relationship. I...
    1supercutie 1supercutie 13-15, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Hey, I'm wondering if anyone can relate here. I'm a woman in my mid twenties and for a few years now I have wanted to get my hair cut really short but have been too scared and...
    PixieDust2015 PixieDust2015 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I just cant take the pain life throws at me. Everyday I think of how worthless I am and then look at my wrists knowing that If I do it hurts my bf who is amazing and strong and...
    DJer DJer 13-15, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I haven't cut in 2 years and recently I've had a major urge to cut. I'm not sure why. And today I ended up scratching at my skin till I felt the pain I needed to feel.
    xxalicerosexx xxalicerosexx 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 2

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    I'm cutting right now I cut because I want to feel something besides sad all the time. I have been through hell and back these past 5 months with my diagnosis
    hgentry hgentry 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I've always been the type of girl to not really care much about having long hair. I've had long hair, cut it short and grew it out many times. Just recently I was in the shower and...
    MickxLove MickxLove 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Anyone else ever felt itching where your cuts or scars are? Maybe it's just me. It happens even if I haven't cut there in months.
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F Jan 6

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    Before I cut I would get this pain in the middle of my chest. In the time I was cutting I had no pain in my chest. I'm almost 2months clean now but I'm having that pain in my chest...
    Waterstorm Waterstorm 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I was on a two month no cutting mission and I cried because i could do it. Now I started on my right hand and i have never cut this deep before.
    Adridee Adridee 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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