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I Cut Myelf

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    Cold Turkey

    God ******* damn! I hate going cold turkey. It makes me feel more addicted then before! I just want a blade or anything really take to make me bleed ><" *runs around and stomps like a little kid in a tantrum* GAAAAAAAAAH Please tell me this will get better soon.
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2011

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    I'm so sad right now my parents found out

    that I cut myself and they have seen all my cuts on my body 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    I cut every day lately

    but then I realized how messed up I am
    trevorcorn trevorcorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I'm so scared right now last night I cut the

    top of my hands and this kid that sits next to me saw my cuts and he said what happened and I said that my cats got in a fight and I tried to separate them so that's why I have the cuts and he said Bull S**t u cut yourself and I said no but he still didn't believe me so he told...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2014

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    I went to the mall yesterday

    but earlier during the day I cut my arms and on top or my hands because I felt so sad. Anyway I wore a sweater so people couldn't see my arms. But this one person she looked like she around 20 was so loud and said "look at that girl her hands!!" And people looked at me like I...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2014

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    Here enjoy I know I'm an ugly attention seeking

    bxtch who doesn't deserve to live Do you know how much courage this took me? No probably not I don't crave attention I just wanted to show the world Show them the ride they're in for when they dive too deep You think you want this? This is the reality of it and it's not a nice...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3, 2014

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    I cut myself for the first time today.

    Twelve cuts to be exact. Not counting the small ones I made on my palm. I felt overwhelmed. It felt good to cut myself though. Remind me I'm still here. I now regret it. I hope no one notices. Maybe I'll do it again
    omaxson42 omaxson42 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2014

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    Well. One month and four days,

    down the drain. It isn't even noon and I've cried and cut myself all in one morning. I forgot what it felt like. Forgot how it numbs my pain. Oh well. Today is done. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2014

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    I relapsed about a week ago

    and now I feel the urge to cut again I have tried everything but I can't stop thinking about it I want to feel it again. I have tried to distract myself by drawing, listing to music, exercise ect. But I can't stop the urge to and the feeling to cut. I don't know what to do 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19, 2014

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    Yup I just did it! Again.

    Just now! It seems easier and better every time! :) it's amazing how it helps when you are in so much pain. I would never want anyone I know to do it and I would never encourage it. But I don't care anymore. No one is there when I need them most so who really cares? I know it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15, 2014

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    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    So my home life is totally awful.

    But I have always found ways to cope with it. Recently it's been taking naps and staying at school. I have never cut myself before. One time I did have a near cutting experience. I went to my room because life was crashing down around me. I picked up a stress rock that I had...
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M Dec 26, 2013

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    It was my first time cutting at school last

    week. I just can't do it anymore. Voices everywhere and it's driving me crazy. I'm so sick of hearing bullshits.
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 18-21, F Aug 25, 2014

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    This Is Killing Me

    i cant take it cutting is all i think about day and night i hold my favorite razor in my hand mesmerized by the blade haunted by the voices it called my name yearning me to slice open my skin and feel alive again
    crazybladebabe crazybladebabe 18-21, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Self Harm Is No Joke!

    you always hear how self harmers are "emo" or "attention seekers" but self harm isn't a joke! it takes a lot to get to the point of taking emotional pain and turning into physical pain. when you sit there, and make fun of them, you are just making them pull down their sleeves...
    josephalissa josephalissa 26-30, F 11 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    Here's a pic of what my arm used to look like.

    It's still scarred and each one of them shows a battle that I lost with myself. I still cut and I see a therapist but they do not help me out at all. I see my cuts more as battle scars rather than self mutilation and I'm sure lots of people do. It just sucks that this is my only...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F Apr 18, 2014

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    First Time

    I self harmed in various forms over the years, starting when I was about 8. But I never tried cutting. So five years from then, and 2 and a half months ago I found myself hovering a knife over my wrist. I needed more pain just to keep going than ever before. My parents found out...
    mysecretdiaries mysecretdiaries 13-15, F Jan 1, 2013

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    Time After Time, Again And Again

    I did it again damn it. I dont know why i keep doing it. Its ugly and horrible but that doesnt seem to stop me at all. But today it was more that just a release it was wishful thinking. I didnt realize it did it that many time or that deep. It was like i blacked out and when i...
    blonde24 blonde24 22-25, F 1 Response May 5, 2012

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    My Life As Of Late

    This week has been pretty tough, a lot has been happening and idrk how to deal with certain situations anymore. The girl I've basically bascailly been falling in love with has almost completely rejected me. Being someone that turns to cutting in overly stressful and high...
    jystinc jystinc 22-25, M Jan 8, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I snuck out to my car to cut myself... There's 6 weeks down the drain... ****.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 hrs ago

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    I am always told I am cute. I'm told more than my baby sister and I don't like it. I'm 17 and I'm called cute when I'm smiling, or even angry. I'm not cute!
    PietroMaklakov PietroMaklakov 16-17, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I use to cut and quite often at that, but then this amazing and wonderful person came into my life (now my girlfriend) and helped me stop cutting because it's 100% not the answer...
    xxSatansDemonxx xxSatansDemonxx 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Just cut "kill me" on my thigh. I think those are the only other words I've ever cut except "fat" and "ugly"
    blackroses75 blackroses75 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I was bent over the sink cleaning my teeth this morning in my PJ shorts and top when mum came in to get something from the bathroom cabinet. She gave me a couple of pats on my bum...
    sunnygirl96 sunnygirl96 18-21, F 11 Responses 6 days ago

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    When I first started cutting I didn't use a razor blade(cause we didn't have any). So one day I accidentally dropped a glass of water on my floor, the glass broke, (No ****) And...
    Elliethecloud Elliethecloud 13-15, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I just got a whole box of razors, I used one just today. It was so sharp it cut so deep and so easily, I barely put any effort into it and it still cut so deep.
    NotMadeOfStone NotMadeOfStone 16-17, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Like this time I was looking at this button , and oH So Cute!! it's like cuter than a bug's ear !! But anyway when I see a very cute person, I Immediatly Fall in love with, Not da...
    ROB44OTTO ROB44OTTO 16-17, M a week ago

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    I have been in a nappy all my life and my mummy and daddy like to keep it exposed as much as possible. Whenever people come round they tell me how cute I look and if I need...
    littlepaddedprincess littlepaddedprincess 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I've started to cut myself for sexual enjoyment and I love it! Any other cutters for fun out there?
    beetlejnr beetlejnr 16-17, M Jul 22

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    I used cut myself. I had a really tough time in my life when i was super duper depressed. It was horrible. I did a lot of things that i regret but the one thing I regret most was...
    dorksarecute dorksarecute 16-17, F Jul 19

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    April 2009 was the last time I got my hair cut at a hairdressers! I have always had it cut at home!
    emmakiwi1 emmakiwi1 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    So I haven't cut in 67 days I don't know now I should feel...I just miss cutting...
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I know that my story would be strange but i just need to let it out. Im only attracted to beautiful men. I dont like average looking guys. The reason im so unhappy and depressed is...
    lonely4560 lonely4560 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    These cuts now are because I just had a great conversation with someone that will never be a part of my life that I wish they could be. Dreams and cuts are all I have.
    Justsilence00 Justsilence00 26-30, F Jul 17

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    I'm a cutter. I hate seeing my own cuts and scars. It's like a circle, you see... Feel sad > Cut > See scars > Feel sad I need to stop.
    AnnabelW AnnabelW 13-15, T 3 Responses Jul 16

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    i cut when I am angry. I see it as its mot fair to take that anger out on anyone else, only on myself. I sit there and watch the blood running down my arm, imagining that its all...
    frack1373 frack1373 13-15, F Jul 16

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    I have had a serious relapse into the habit of cutting again, I managed to quit and had been fine for a month or so as well as quitting drinking and smoking. But I have started...
    ThePiggycorn ThePiggycorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 15

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    If anyone can help me or give me any advice please.. read my story.. Currently I am studying college abroad, and well I decided the last couple of months to go back home and...
    Bella1314 Bella1314 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    The thing is, is that I hate myself and that's why I cut but then when i cut I hate myself even more because I don't have a good reason and I don't have a right to do it. Another...
    Ilovelarry8 Ilovelarry8 22-25, T Jul 15

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    So I need to tell someone about this. So the reason for my cutting has changed, yesterday I cut cause I wanted to feel the razor it self cut my arm. I wasn't sad or depressed, I...
    Simiyes Simiyes 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 14

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    My wife had very beautiful hair when I met her: it was past her shoulders, dark brown, glossy, very fine, very silky, thick, smooth, very soft and arousing to the touch, very...
    Hairboy2015 Hairboy2015 41-45, M Jul 14

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    I'm so ******* stupid!!! I'm such a dumb *** and no one cares about me .-. I try so hard to talk to my family but they all ignore me.... I wish my mom would of got an abortion...
    PrincessManuela PrincessManuela 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 12

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    Or at least another color for my hair. I remember about a year and a half ago, I got a pixie cut, although because I was still depressed, and eating my feelings, I looked more like...
    crepesaredelicious2 crepesaredelicious2 18-21, F Jul 11

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