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    I went to the mall yesterday

    but earlier during the day I cut my arms and on top or my hands because I felt so sad. Anyway I wore a sweater so people couldn't see my arms. But this one person she looked like she around 20 was so loud and said "look at that girl her hands!!" And people looked at me like I...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2014

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    Well. One month and four days,

    down the drain. It isn't even noon and I've cried and cut myself all in one morning. I forgot what it felt like. Forgot how it numbs my pain. Oh well. Today is done. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2014

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    Cold Turkey

    God ******* damn! I hate going cold turkey. It makes me feel more addicted then before! I just want a blade or anything really take to make me bleed ><" *runs around and stomps like a little kid in a tantrum* GAAAAAAAAAH Please tell me this will get better soon.
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2011

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    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    I cut myself for the first time today.

    Twelve cuts to be exact. Not counting the small ones I made on my palm. I felt overwhelmed. It felt good to cut myself though. Remind me I'm still here. I now regret it. I hope no one notices. Maybe I'll do it again
    omaxson42 omaxson42 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2014

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    So my home life is totally awful.

    But I have always found ways to cope with it. Recently it's been taking naps and staying at school. I have never cut myself before. One time I did have a near cutting experience. I went to my room because life was crashing down around me. I picked up a stress rock that I had...
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M Dec 26, 2013

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    Here enjoy I know I'm an ugly attention seeking

    bxtch who doesn't deserve to live Do you know how much courage this took me? No probably not I don't crave attention I just wanted to show the world Show them the ride they're in for when they dive too deep You think you want this? This is the reality of it and it's not a nice...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3, 2014

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    I'm so sad right now my parents found out

    that I cut myself and they have seen all my cuts on my body 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    I'm so scared right now last night I cut the

    top of my hands and this kid that sits next to me saw my cuts and he said what happened and I said that my cats got in a fight and I tried to separate them so that's why I have the cuts and he said Bull S**t u cut yourself and I said no but he still didn't believe me so he told...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2014

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    My Life As Of Late

    This week has been pretty tough, a lot has been happening and idrk how to deal with certain situations anymore. The girl I've basically bascailly been falling in love with has almost completely rejected me. Being someone that turns to cutting in overly stressful and high...
    jystinc jystinc 22-25, M Jan 8, 2012

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    It was my first time cutting at school last

    week. I just can't do it anymore. Voices everywhere and it's driving me crazy. I'm so sick of hearing bullshits.
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 18-21, F Aug 25, 2014

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    Yup I just did it! Again.

    Just now! It seems easier and better every time! :) it's amazing how it helps when you are in so much pain. I would never want anyone I know to do it and I would never encourage it. But I don't care anymore. No one is there when I need them most so who really cares? I know it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15, 2014

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    Time After Time, Again And Again

    I did it again damn it. I dont know why i keep doing it. Its ugly and horrible but that doesnt seem to stop me at all. But today it was more that just a release it was wishful thinking. I didnt realize it did it that many time or that deep. It was like i blacked out and when i...
    blonde24 blonde24 22-25, F 1 Response May 5, 2012

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    I cut every day lately

    but then I realized how messed up I am
    trevorcorn trevorcorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    I relapsed about a week ago

    and now I feel the urge to cut again I have tried everything but I can't stop thinking about it I want to feel it again. I have tried to distract myself by drawing, listing to music, exercise ect. But I can't stop the urge to and the feeling to cut. I don't know what to do 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19, 2014

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    First Time

    I self harmed in various forms over the years, starting when I was about 8. But I never tried cutting. So five years from then, and 2 and a half months ago I found myself hovering a knife over my wrist. I needed more pain just to keep going than ever before. My parents found out...
    mysecretdiaries mysecretdiaries 13-15, F Jan 1, 2013

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    Here's a pic of what my arm used to look like.

    It's still scarred and each one of them shows a battle that I lost with myself. I still cut and I see a therapist but they do not help me out at all. I see my cuts more as battle scars rather than self mutilation and I'm sure lots of people do. It just sucks that this is my only...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F Apr 18, 2014

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    Self Harm Is No Joke!

    you always hear how self harmers are "emo" or "attention seekers" but self harm isn't a joke! it takes a lot to get to the point of taking emotional pain and turning into physical pain. when you sit there, and make fun of them, you are just making them pull down their sleeves...
    josephalissa josephalissa 26-30, F 11 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    This Is Killing Me

    i cant take it cutting is all i think about day and night i hold my favorite razor in my hand mesmerized by the blade haunted by the voices it called my name yearning me to slice open my skin and feel alive again
    crazybladebabe crazybladebabe 18-21, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I haven't cut in awhile now. i use to cut a lot back in November through January. The cuts I did left dark scars. Just wish it would disappear.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 46 mins ago

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    I want to cut my hair short, but im not sure. The pictures with my longer hair were taken about a year ago, and the ones on the bottom right is roughly where it's at now. I would...
    nycgirl19 nycgirl19 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    When I cut I don't feel fear, I don't feel sadness. I feel the satisfaction of deserving it a way of punishing myself for looking the way I do. Being the person I am. For making...
    loveyourselmore loveyourselmore 16-17, F 15 hrs ago

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    I haven't cut myself for three months but I can still see my scars, it triggers me sometimes but I know I shouldn't cut, but whenever I tell someone that they're like, stop cutting...
    drunkpunker drunkpunker 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    Don't get me wrong, it's nice being complemented but when you're turning 20 and you're still 'cute', it kinda sucks. Am I the only one who gets called cute and feels like a puppy...
    Daniellevn Daniellevn 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I had my hair cut today. I had my hair rebonded about 3 months ago I was actually planning to keep my hair long for a year but due to the massive hair loss I've been experiencing...
    sandalwoods sandalwoods 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    yesterday i cut my wrist ..it was the first for a really long time ..i felt so much pain and broken so i cut ...but this time i took it to a really new level ...my cuts used to be...
    yuush yuush 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have finally been broken. I stopped cutting for a long time, now that I feel so much pain...I want to do more than cut myself. I am so damn done...
    littlexpiecexofxme littlexpiecexofxme 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I've been clean from cutting myself for a couple of years, but I still have the urge to cut. I still want to feel the blood run down my arm and feel happy. It scares me to still...
    Apelvt Apelvt 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I cut my dad and his stupid girlfriend out of my life because to make a long story short, they don't give a **** about me. They don't care if I cut or kill myself because of my...
    niahhydra niahhydra 16-17, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I normally have mid back length hair, and I decided to get it cut two weeks ago, I had the back half of my head shaved to a 1. Everyone freaked but I love it so much, it was a...
    LeeWalker06 LeeWalker06 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    So today is my Birthday. I started cutting 2 years ago... When i started i was like. How can people have cuts all over there body like over 200+ scars? Well that person is me now...
    Nick54 Nick54 22-25, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    sometimes my depression seems to hard to handle. its hard to handle when my love one and me argue and he tells me mean things. maybe thats y.im depress huh..any ways. i cut myself...
    sexyinpink08 sexyinpink08 22-25, F Jun 22

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    I just cut my own hair. Hahaha. It looks pretty bad but that's what I expected would happen so I'm not in tears. It is super short though!! I wasn't going for that short because I...
    Chameila Chameila 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    I'm here to tell you guys it does get better. I was cutter for 4 years. And I met someone who brought me up so much an let me know that everything was gonna be okay. It was a rocky...
    BeautiifullyBroken BeautiifullyBroken 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    I recently started cutting again and tho it's something I'm truly ashamed of,its the only way to heal the emotional wounds that taunts me. last time I cut was 2yrs ago and I got...
    Deathwish2015 Deathwish2015 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 21

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    Cutting messes with your mind. You cut. You're a cutter. You've stopped cutting, you're still a cutter. Your faded scars remind you of a time when you were so weak... But that was...
    Itfloo Itfloo 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 20

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    I have been told by many people, both boys and girls, that I have very cute feet. I try to take very good care of them and I usually try to keep my toenails painted as much as I...
    leahphillips62 leahphillips62 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    I know this is a queue old and silly trick, but as a person who used to have depression and used to cut, I recommend (If you want to reduce or stop cutting) To have a scrunchie...
    nemelabychtubyt nemelabychtubyt 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    I cut myself. and I want to do it again. but my girlfriend said for every cut on her is a cut on me. and I can't take that. but cutting feels so good.
    flo877 flo877 13-15, F Jun 20

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    It never helps that I was suicidle 3 years ago because I lost someone I loved, and other people are saying they want to end their lives...I'm sorry but i used to cut nearly...
    ThisIsLife13 ThisIsLife13 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 19

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    I don't cut in a compulsive skin picker. I have been doing this for 18 years. not sure how our why it started but it did. I sure have the scars all over to show it. I wear jeans...
    kareenmarie kareenmarie 36-40, F Jun 18

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    I always cut figures and not just lines... I like to see my scars as art and not just scars! So whenever I cut some lines I always cut a symbol for the feeling I had when cutting...
    Bikiexd Bikiexd 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I always had a need to make a mark of importance that would stay, and I started cutting because I have family issues and tend to push everyone away besides my true best friend, who...
    nathanielphantomhive nathanielphantomhive 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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