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    I cut myself for the first time today.

    Twelve cuts to be exact. Not counting the small ones I made on my palm. I felt overwhelmed. It felt good to cut myself though. Remind me I'm still here. I now regret it. I hope no one notices. Maybe I'll do it again
    omaxson42 omaxson42 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2014

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    I'm so sad right now my parents found out

    that I cut myself and they have seen all my cuts on my body ๐Ÿ˜ข
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    It was my first time cutting at school last

    week. I just can't do it anymore. Voices everywhere and it's driving me crazy. I'm so sick of hearing bullshits.
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 18-21, F Aug 25, 2014

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    I went to the mall yesterday

    but earlier during the day I cut my arms and on top or my hands because I felt so sad. Anyway I wore a sweater so people couldn't see my arms. But this one person she looked like she around 20 was so loud and said "look at that girl her hands!!" And people looked at me like I...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2014

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    First Time

    I self harmed in various forms over the years, starting when I was about 8. But I never tried cutting. So five years from then, and 2 and a half months ago I found myself hovering a knife over my wrist. I needed more pain just to keep going than ever before. My parents found out...
    mysecretdiaries mysecretdiaries 13-15, F Jan 1, 2013

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    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    Well. One month and four days,

    down the drain. It isn't even noon and I've cried and cut myself all in one morning. I forgot what it felt like. Forgot how it numbs my pain. Oh well. Today is done. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2014

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    I'm so scared right now last night I cut the

    top of my hands and this kid that sits next to me saw my cuts and he said what happened and I said that my cats got in a fight and I tried to separate them so that's why I have the cuts and he said Bull S**t u cut yourself and I said no but he still didn't believe me so he told...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2014

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    Self Harm Is No Joke!

    you always hear how self harmers are "emo" or "attention seekers" but self harm isn't a joke! it takes a lot to get to the point of taking emotional pain and turning into physical pain. when you sit there, and make fun of them, you are just making them pull down their sleeves...
    josephalissa josephalissa 26-30, F 12 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    Cold Turkey

    God ******* damn! I hate going cold turkey. It makes me feel more addicted then before! I just want a blade or anything really take to make me bleed ><" *runs around and stomps like a little kid in a tantrum* GAAAAAAAAAH Please tell me this will get better soon.
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2011

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    So my home life is totally awful.

    But I have always found ways to cope with it. Recently it's been taking naps and staying at school. I have never cut myself before. One time I did have a near cutting experience. I went to my room because life was crashing down around me. I picked up a stress rock that I had...
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M Dec 26, 2013

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    I cut every day lately

    but then I realized how messed up I am
    trevorcorn trevorcorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    This Is Killing Me

    i cant take it cutting is all i think about day and night i hold my favorite razor in my hand mesmerized by the blade haunted by the voices it called my name yearning me to slice open my skin and feel alive again
    crazybladebabe crazybladebabe 18-21, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Time After Time, Again And Again

    I did it again damn it. I dont know why i keep doing it. Its ugly and horrible but that doesnt seem to stop me at all. But today it was more that just a release it was wishful thinking. I didnt realize it did it that many time or that deep. It was like i blacked out and when i...
    blonde24 blonde24 22-25, F 1 Response May 5, 2012

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    Here's a pic of what my arm used to look like.

    It's still scarred and each one of them shows a battle that I lost with myself. I still cut and I see a therapist but they do not help me out at all. I see my cuts more as battle scars rather than self mutilation and I'm sure lots of people do. It just sucks that this is my only...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F Apr 18, 2014

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    Yup I just did it! Again.

    Just now! It seems easier and better every time! :) it's amazing how it helps when you are in so much pain. I would never want anyone I know to do it and I would never encourage it. But I don't care anymore. No one is there when I need them most so who really cares? I know it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15, 2014

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    I relapsed about a week ago

    and now I feel the urge to cut again I have tried everything but I can't stop thinking about it I want to feel it again. I have tried to distract myself by drawing, listing to music, exercise ect. But I can't stop the urge to and the feeling to cut. I don't know what to do ๐Ÿ˜ข
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19, 2014

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    Here enjoy I know I'm an ugly attention seeking

    bxtch who doesn't deserve to live Do you know how much courage this took me? No probably not I don't crave attention I just wanted to show the world Show them the ride they're in for when they dive too deep You think you want this? This is the reality of it and it's not a nice...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3, 2014

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    My Life As Of Late

    This week has been pretty tough, a lot has been happening and idrk how to deal with certain situations anymore. The girl I've basically bascailly been falling in love with has almost completely rejected me. Being someone that turns to cutting in overly stressful and high...
    jystinc jystinc 22-25, M Jan 8, 2012

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    Lasted 2 weeks being clean... I couldn't stop the thoughts though.... I've slowly become addicted :/ I have this want, this need to cut now
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    I drained 25 pounds of blood in one session of cutting myself in a hot bath.... It's stupid, life is hard enough as it is without me having to hide thick cuts, ugly scars...
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    I cut for a solid four years, I made 10,000 cuts in total some weird part of my demanded I keep count, I was a month clean and then I cut 16 times tge day after I turned 16 since...
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    I used to cut myself and I don't know why maybe it was because of what people said about me or maybe it was because I was just depressed and the only thing that made me feel better...
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    I made a deal with my boyfriend that if he cuts i can cut and if i cut he can cut. I cut yesterday and i did not tell him and i still have not. Is it wrong of me that i won't tell...
    ThatOneKidDx ThatOneKidDx 13-15, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    So the other day I booked an appointment with a new hairdresser, really nice lady I got there and she asked what I wanted I told her I wanted my hair around the tops of my shoulder...
    CheekyMonkey92 CheekyMonkey92 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    So the other day I booked an appointment with a new hairdresser, really nice lady I got there and she asked what I wanted I told her I wanted my hair around the tops of my shoulder...
    CheekyMonkey92 CheekyMonkey92 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    CheekyMonkey92 CheekyMonkey92 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I was home alone today and depressed about life.I heard cutting helps people who are depressed.So I got a new razor and cut my upper arm 5 times.This is when I realized my...
    ironpack ironpack 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 30

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    Yes I cut. I have cut many times different places.I have scars but I keep cutting.I tried to stop didnt work at all I just got worse as time went on.Tried to commit suicide once.My...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I'm going to say this straight up because I used to cut too and let me tell you, it was one of the stupidest things I've ever done. I look at the scars and I'm like, what the...
    seabassep seabassep 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 10

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    I always seem to be okay for a bit but then I will go back to cutting when I can't handle it anymore. Like sometimes I can't handle my feelings no more so I will cut to cope with...
    internationalkoala internationalkoala 18-21, F a week ago

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    I was clean from cutting for a year and a bit but then last week I went through a really bad fight and I cut again. Not deep at all. But in every day after that I craved cutting...
    Lemons2000 Lemons2000 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    hmg21699 hmg21699 18-21 2 Responses a week ago

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    3 weeks clean Thursday. So proud. I have had a lot of rough times in between the last time I've cut to now. I forgot how hard it was. I was 5 months clean 2 weeks ago but then I...
    andrew1459 andrew1459 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    There's this great blog I found and its helped me to stop cutting, for every time you feel like cutting there is an alternative. http://butterfly-project.tumblr.com
    EmoGirl286 EmoGirl286 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I would love to cut your hair...no strings attached...nothing sexual....nothing kinky...just love cutting hair and would like to chat! Message me and we can talk๐Ÿ’‡
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 29

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    After my parents found out that I cut, I felt so sad and frustrated. I didn't feel like a weight just dropped off my shoulders bit instead it felt like more was piled on. I felt...
    yummythedrummer yummythedrummer 13-15, F 10 Responses Mar 30

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    My friend tells me not to cut myself if I'm depressed just talk to him but then he's always ditching me to hang with his other friends and expects me not to use a knife when I'm...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Apr 2

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    Someone asked what it means when your husband or boyfriend gets sympathy pains for you. I feel It means that you are connected as one and that you have a great love for that other...
    mguinm mguinm 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I stand infront of the mirror most nights with a pair of scissors I think about it for a while then I put the scissors down and think... What would my parents say ? They have said...
    Norforkandchance Norforkandchance 13-15, T Apr 3

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