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I Cut Myelf

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    Time After Time, Again And Again

    I did it again damn it. I dont know why i keep doing it. Its ugly and horrible but that doesnt seem to stop me at all. But today it was more that just a release it was wishful thinking. I didnt realize it did it that many time or that deep. It was like i blacked out and when i...
    blonde24 blonde24 22-25, F 1 Response May 5, 2012

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    I'm so sad right now my parents found out

    that I cut myself and they have seen all my cuts on my body 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    So my home life is totally awful.

    But I have always found ways to cope with it. Recently it's been taking naps and staying at school. I have never cut myself before. One time I did have a near cutting experience. I went to my room because life was crashing down around me. I picked up a stress rock that I had...
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M Dec 26, 2013

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    Well. One month and four days,

    down the drain. It isn't even noon and I've cried and cut myself all in one morning. I forgot what it felt like. Forgot how it numbs my pain. Oh well. Today is done. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2014

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    I cut myself for the first time today.

    Twelve cuts to be exact. Not counting the small ones I made on my palm. I felt overwhelmed. It felt good to cut myself though. Remind me I'm still here. I now regret it. I hope no one notices. Maybe I'll do it again
    omaxson42 omaxson42 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2014

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    I went to the mall yesterday

    but earlier during the day I cut my arms and on top or my hands because I felt so sad. Anyway I wore a sweater so people couldn't see my arms. But this one person she looked like she around 20 was so loud and said "look at that girl her hands!!" And people looked at me like I...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2014

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    It was my first time cutting at school last

    week. I just can't do it anymore. Voices everywhere and it's driving me crazy. I'm so sick of hearing bullshits.
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 18-21, F Aug 25, 2014

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    Cold Turkey

    God ******* damn! I hate going cold turkey. It makes me feel more addicted then before! I just want a blade or anything really take to make me bleed ><" *runs around and stomps like a little kid in a tantrum* GAAAAAAAAAH Please tell me this will get better soon.
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2011

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    I cut every day lately

    but then I realized how messed up I am
    trevorcorn trevorcorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Here's a pic of what my arm used to look like.

    It's still scarred and each one of them shows a battle that I lost with myself. I still cut and I see a therapist but they do not help me out at all. I see my cuts more as battle scars rather than self mutilation and I'm sure lots of people do. It just sucks that this is my only...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F Apr 18, 2014

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    I'm so scared right now last night I cut the

    top of my hands and this kid that sits next to me saw my cuts and he said what happened and I said that my cats got in a fight and I tried to separate them so that's why I have the cuts and he said Bull S**t u cut yourself and I said no but he still didn't believe me so he told...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2014

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    My Life As Of Late

    This week has been pretty tough, a lot has been happening and idrk how to deal with certain situations anymore. The girl I've basically bascailly been falling in love with has almost completely rejected me. Being someone that turns to cutting in overly stressful and high...
    jystinc jystinc 22-25, M Jan 8, 2012

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    Yup I just did it! Again.

    Just now! It seems easier and better every time! :) it's amazing how it helps when you are in so much pain. I would never want anyone I know to do it and I would never encourage it. But I don't care anymore. No one is there when I need them most so who really cares? I know it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15, 2014

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    Here enjoy I know I'm an ugly attention seeking

    bxtch who doesn't deserve to live Do you know how much courage this took me? No probably not I don't crave attention I just wanted to show the world Show them the ride they're in for when they dive too deep You think you want this? This is the reality of it and it's not a nice...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3, 2014

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    I relapsed about a week ago

    and now I feel the urge to cut again I have tried everything but I can't stop thinking about it I want to feel it again. I have tried to distract myself by drawing, listing to music, exercise ect. But I can't stop the urge to and the feeling to cut. I don't know what to do 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19, 2014

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    This Is Killing Me

    i cant take it cutting is all i think about day and night i hold my favorite razor in my hand mesmerized by the blade haunted by the voices it called my name yearning me to slice open my skin and feel alive again
    crazybladebabe crazybladebabe 18-21, F Oct 20, 2012

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    First Time

    I self harmed in various forms over the years, starting when I was about 8. But I never tried cutting. So five years from then, and 2 and a half months ago I found myself hovering a knife over my wrist. I needed more pain just to keep going than ever before. My parents found out...
    mysecretdiaries mysecretdiaries 13-15, F Jan 1, 2013

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    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    Self Harm Is No Joke!

    you always hear how self harmers are "emo" or "attention seekers" but self harm isn't a joke! it takes a lot to get to the point of taking emotional pain and turning into physical pain. when you sit there, and make fun of them, you are just making them pull down their sleeves...
    josephalissa josephalissa 26-30, F 11 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    One cut, two cuts, three cuts, four, five cuts, six cuts, one cut more, seven cuts, eight cuts, nine cuts, floor. Deeper and deeper... until one day i don't wake up.
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    zmzmllll zmzmllll 26-30, F May 22

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    Today is a real achievement for me. Today marks a year since I last cut myself. I've been clean for a whole year and I'm incredibly proud of myself. I've been tempted so many times...
    CeBeY1 CeBeY1 18-21, F May 15

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    I began again after 5 years of not cutting. I'm smarter now. I don't cut my wrist I cut the top of my thy where no one will see it. I'm not doing this because of depression. ni...
    inevertoldne1 inevertoldne1 22-25, F 2 Responses May 20

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    The scenery around Pittsburgh is getting a lot nicer as I see more and more girls with short hair, many of them with clipper cuts. That, of course, includes the dozen or so girls...
    hairitgoes hairitgoes 56-60, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    ***LONG STORY*** I didn't cut deep. I've stopped with the help of my best friend. But today in language arts, we were talking about a book. The main character was so depressed...
    Autumn02 Autumn02 13-15, F May 15

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    When I was 12, I'm 13 right now, I started cutting. Whether it be scissors or a razor blade or anything sharp, I would cut. I still do. Some days I feel like it's gets worst in my...
    Montana2002 Montana2002 13-15, F 2 Responses May 23

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    I remember that as a child when longer hair was fashion I hated to go to the hairdresser and have my hair cut short. But today I am really looking forward. I love it when he cuts...
    Michi62 Michi62 46-50, M 1 Response May 2

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    Sigh... I went since November without cutting. Now just 5 minutes ago I cut again. I ignored my depression and every panic attack to not cut again, but I guess I couldn't take it...
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    I have done it few times for the common reasons 1-wanting to feel anything if that feeling is pain. 2- being angry at myself or others n it was my way of letting it out. I used to...
    candles700 candles700 22-25, F May 6

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    i cut my self again... I was 1 week after being 1 month clean but i just forgot how good it feels. I cut my shoulder. allot if cuts. I don't think I'm ever going to stop...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M 2 Responses May 6

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    Today marks the day I gave in. It's the first time I started cutting, and in a matter of 10 minutes, I already made myself 19 somewhat deep cuts on my arm. I feel numb to pretty...
    PerplexedAris PerplexedAris 31-35, M May 10

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    I feel really bad about it and I've been really good too before tonight I hadn't cut for almost a month. My thighs really burn though. I think I went to far but I jus once I...
    AngelWithASecret2 AngelWithASecret2 13-15, F May 11

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    The cut I gave myself wasn't like cutting my wrist because of stress but rather by accident. I would go my daily way and when I'm in the shower I felt a burn and when I went to...
    Aokihagane Aokihagane 22-25, M May 15

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    Feeling the urge to cut hair......maybe cut a ponytail off....just like I cut mine..... :-)
    ski948 ski948 26-30, F 1 Response May 18

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    It doesn't matter how deep you cut, how much you cut or how long and often you burn! Self harm is self harm and it's not just people trying to attention seek. Whether you Cut...
    EricaAudrey22 EricaAudrey22 18-21, F 4 Responses May 19

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    I cut myself recently and felt relief it felt amazing idk but sometimes I feel like I might do it to hard or to cut to much i try to do moderation like cut and color on my arms...
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M May 21

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    I cut my shoulder again. i dont remember it feeling this good. i guess i forgot what cutting feels like. I was 11 days clean. i cant even get 1 month clean anymore, let alone 2...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M 1 Response May 21

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    I used to cut, I really still don't know why I did it, I feel so stupid... But cutting myself has show me to be stronger, more confident and more mature. Yeha maybe you will think...
    HikikomoryAndy HikikomoryAndy 13-15, F 1 Response May 22

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    I want to cut so bad. I've got a lot of anger pent up. I want to cut to release some of the tension. I love the pain. I haven't cut in years, but it's getting bad; I want to have...
    DramaBabe94 DramaBabe94 13-15, F May 23

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    I have slowed down on my cutting but it's hard. The pain made life not seem so bad. People tell me you shouldn't cut and stuff but I don't want to hear it from them unless they had...
    Xxtriciakittyxx Xxtriciakittyxx 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I started over a year and a half ago, not knowing what I was getting into and only focusing on the feeling cutting gave. After four months of cutting, I quit, stayed clean for...
    BlackenedIrises BlackenedIrises 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    IT'S BASICALLY SHAVED IN THE BACK AND LONGER IN THE FRONT. I LOOOVE IT BUT IT'S SOOO CROOKED. So yeah, that's what happened today :). I'm kinda scared of what my mom would say...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight 16-17, F May 3

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