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I Cut Myelf

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    I relapsed about a week ago

    and now I feel the urge to cut again I have tried everything but I can't stop thinking about it I want to feel it again. I have tried to distract myself by drawing, listing to music, exercise ect. But I can't stop the urge to and the feeling to cut. I don't know what to do 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I'm so sad right now my parents found out

    that I cut myself and they have seen all my cuts on my body 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    My Life As Of Late

    This week has been pretty tough, a lot has been happening and idrk how to deal with certain situations anymore. The girl I've basically bascailly been falling in love with has almost completely rejected me. Being someone that turns to cutting in overly stressful and high...
    jystinc jystinc 22-25, M Jan 8, 2012

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    Cold Turkey

    God ******* damn! I hate going cold turkey. It makes me feel more addicted then before! I just want a blade or anything really take to make me bleed ><" *runs around and stomps like a little kid in a tantrum* GAAAAAAAAAH Please tell me this will get better soon.
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2011

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    So my home life is totally awful.

    But I have always found ways to cope with it. Recently it's been taking naps and staying at school. I have never cut myself before. One time I did have a near cutting experience. I went to my room because life was crashing down around me. I picked up a stress rock that I had...
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2013

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    I'm so scared right now last night I cut the

    top of my hands and this kid that sits next to me saw my cuts and he said what happened and I said that my cats got in a fight and I tried to separate them so that's why I have the cuts and he said Bull S**t u cut yourself and I said no but he still didn't believe me so he told...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    First Time

    I self harmed in various forms over the years, starting when I was about 8. But I never tried cutting. So five years from then, and 2 and a half months ago I found myself hovering a knife over my wrist. I needed more pain just to keep going than ever before. My parents found out...
    mysecretdiaries mysecretdiaries 13-15, F Jan 1, 2013

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    Yup I just did it! Again.

    Just now! It seems easier and better every time! :) it's amazing how it helps when you are in so much pain. I would never want anyone I know to do it and I would never encourage it. But I don't care anymore. No one is there when I need them most so who really cares? I know it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15

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    I cut every day lately

    but then I realized how messed up I am
    trevorcorn trevorcorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 21

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    Self Harm Is No Joke!

    you always hear how self harmers are "emo" or "attention seekers" but self harm isn't a joke! it takes a lot to get to the point of taking emotional pain and turning into physical pain. when you sit there, and make fun of them, you are just making them pull down their sleeves...
    josephalissa josephalissa 26-30, F 12 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18

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    This Is Killing Me

    i cant take it cutting is all i think about day and night i hold my favorite razor in my hand mesmerized by the blade haunted by the voices it called my name yearning me to slice open my skin and feel alive again
    crazybladebabe crazybladebabe 18-21, F Oct 20, 2012

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    It was my first time cutting at school last

    week. I just can't do it anymore. Voices everywhere and it's driving me crazy. I'm so sick of hearing bullshits.
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Well. One month and four days,

    down the drain. It isn't even noon and I've cried and cut myself all in one morning. I forgot what it felt like. Forgot how it numbs my pain. Oh well. Today is done. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
    FutureGleason FutureGleason 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I went to the mall yesterday

    but earlier during the day I cut my arms and on top or my hands because I felt so sad. Anyway I wore a sweater so people couldn't see my arms. But this one person she looked like she around 20 was so loud and said "look at that girl her hands!!" And people looked at me like I...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Here enjoy I know I'm an ugly attention seeking

    bxtch who doesn't deserve to live Do you know how much courage this took me? No probably not I don't crave attention I just wanted to show the world Show them the ride they're in for when they dive too deep You think you want this? This is the reality of it and it's not a nice...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3

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    Here's a pic of what my arm used to look like.

    It's still scarred and each one of them shows a battle that I lost with myself. I still cut and I see a therapist but they do not help me out at all. I see my cuts more as battle scars rather than self mutilation and I'm sure lots of people do. It just sucks that this is my only...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F Apr 18

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    Time After Time, Again And Again

    I did it again damn it. I dont know why i keep doing it. Its ugly and horrible but that doesnt seem to stop me at all. But today it was more that just a release it was wishful thinking. I didnt realize it did it that many time or that deep. It was like i blacked out and when i...
    blonde24 blonde24 22-25, F 1 Response May 5, 2012

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    I had arranged to cut a neighbor friend's hair last night. She likes it long (well past her shoulders). Her husband has been asking her to cut it shorter and fancied seeing her...
    OSHfan OSHfan 41-45, M Jul 31

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    I was 15 when i first cut myself, i was under pressured, there was this one girl, a friend of mine, she was 14 and she cuts. I asked her what she felt when she cut, she said...
    saffaismail saffaismail 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    I started when I was 10. And it just progressed when I got older. I started cutting bad when I was 15/16. I even had my own special cutting serrated knife I would use. I hated my...
    UnstableSammi UnstableSammi 22-25, F Aug 20

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    I just slipped up and cut again. The thing is it wasn't enough because my blade was too dull to get it deep so I still have that feeling in my chest that only goes away when I cut...
    AllTimeJessica AllTimeJessica 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 5

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    I cut myself today. I am so ashamed. I haven't done something like that since I was a teenager. I used to cut myself all the time when I was younger. I had some issues growing up I...
    Thinkofme Thinkofme 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 10

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    Well I am struggling with cutting and the urges to cut recently and now it's to the point where the moment a bad event happens it triggers the urge or a small sting of the urge and...
    DWIA DWIA 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I feel that I might be able to reach more people with my story then doing this individual. For those of you that know me on this site when I say that I get this I GET THIS. I...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell 36-40, M Jul 30

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    Well...I used to cut with my unscrewed pencil sharpener. I would cut my thighs and scrape the words softly "cut the fat" , my parents believe that I over-eat and eat all of the...
    genesisramos13 genesisramos13 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    -TRIGGER WARNING- People ask me why I cut automatically thinking it's attempted suicide or will lead to it..NO! I don't cut because I want to die, I cut because I'm trying to stay...
    XSimplyXSuicideX XSimplyXSuicideX 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    Doesn't this suck.. First time I cut , I promised myself I would never do it again.. I just got really upset one day & cut again.. It soon became a habit.. When I get angry ? I cut...
    Morganperez114 Morganperez114 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 11

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    I've been clean for so long, probably a few months but I have the need to do it again. But I'm scared... What if I cut to deep? Or where should I cut to make sure my mom doesn't...
    anonymouschicky anonymouschicky 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I've started to cut as a coping mechanism/punishment for things that I felt I did wrong. Being overly sensitive to strong emotions, cutting also felt a like a fitting distraction...
    Amaluna Amaluna 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    I love cutting myself and I think cutting is great. This is of course, just an opinion coming from me. Cutting. I don't see it like it's a bad thing. Everyone says, "oh I regret...
    xrefusetosink xrefusetosink 22-25, F 10 Responses a week ago

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    ...hmm... i joined this group when i was on my quest for tokens which sadly i have just given up on now. *sighs* Seeing as though no matter how many i join or how much i write and...
    lilreddress lilreddress 36-40, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have tried really hard to stop cutting. Over the past couple years it has become somewhat of an addiction for me. Whenever I was upset, angry or just feeling anything I didn't...
    RubyTuesday413 RubyTuesday413 16-17, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    This is a new thing to me. I have never before cut in my life. But my teachers used to think i self harmed. I used to not care if i got hurt, id always have cuts and stuff cos i...
    LifeOnAThread LifeOnAThread 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    Ever since i didn't make it with college,i was very dissapointed and i wanted to die.Actually i criticise myself in all that i do..I don't have many friends,i do a meniale job...
    costyk67 costyk67 22-25, M Aug 10

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    I remember this one time me and my brother were talking about the fact that I cut myself (this is before he decided to not want to talk about anything with me). I was telling him...
    Lanigga14 Lanigga14 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    Hello. I am Bailey. I am seventeen years old. I started cutting myself when I was fourteen. The first time I did it, I used a key. I carved someone's initials into my forearm...
    Baileywelch12 Baileywelch12 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    I was almost a week clean but I cut today I guess ill be wearing long sleeve tomorrow The less I cut the more cuts I cut when I start again
    maria134747 maria134747 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    The first time I cut was at the end of July. My mom and I were fighting because we had just gotten back from a psychiatrist visit. She wanted me to go on Zoloft for GAD and chronic...
    bandfreak26 bandfreak26 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    So it happened on Friday I got in trouble about two weeks ago because I was being "disrespectful" or whatever so this teacher I hate sent me to another teacher on my team to talk...
    DarkSecrets13 DarkSecrets13 13-15, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Well, I didn't cut myself for about 2 or 3 months, idk. It was really hard u know. But 6 days ago I cut myself again. And I missed this feeling so much guys! I have just one friend...
    sempiternalHell sempiternalHell 13-15, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Sharp Thoughts By Kassidy Voelker And Tristan Rethman We cut into our skin because we're angry, we're sad, we're hurtin we're trying to hide it but We're lost and we're broken. We...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 6 hrs ago

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    So it happened on Friday I got in trouble about two weeks ago because I was being "disrespectful" or whatever so this teacher I hate sent me to another teacher on my team to talk...
    DarkSecrets13 DarkSecrets13 13-15, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Yea I just give up in life and hate myself I'm going to cut right now. I'm only cut myself twice and stop might cut 3 or 4 times this time.
    laserabe1 laserabe1 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 30

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    Hello EP one more story to tell you it has always been my life from bad to worse, I know what I did to deserve regrets life I just want is pity that nobody ever felt, I want to...
    lovingCuteSmartGirl lovingCuteSmartGirl 18-21, F Jul 31

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    I dont know why i cut myself on purpose...sometime i just feel life is meaningless to me but theres time where i feel so happy and i tell myself cutting is useless so whats the...
    rheahendrew rheahendrew 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 3

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    I've been told I qualify as a "cute teenage white boy" as I have long hair, I'm thin, and I'm "cute" haha! I'm bi, I want to meet a cute teenage white boy, but I can't find any ugh...
    helloimdeupi helloimdeupi 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 5

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    So yesterday I broke my streak of 3 weeks with no cutting. I did it while I was walking to my friends house. I cut my wrist twice and let the blood coat my hand and drip on the...
    NPkid97 NPkid97 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 6

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    The thing that amaze me about cutting myself is that before it was just 2 little cuts per day and now 7 deep cuts per day :(
    CutmyselfBoy CutmyselfBoy 13-15, M Aug 7