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I Cut Myelf

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    Cold Turkey

    God ******* damn! I hate going cold turkey. It makes me feel more addicted then before! I just want a blade or anything really take to make me bleed ><" *runs around and stomps like a little kid in a tantrum* GAAAAAAAAAH Please tell me this will get better soon.
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2011

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    I cut myself for the first time today.

    Twelve cuts to be exact. Not counting the small ones I made on my palm. I felt overwhelmed. It felt good to cut myself though. Remind me I'm still here. I now regret it. I hope no one notices. Maybe I'll do it again
    omaxson42 omaxson42 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    This Is Killing Me

    i cant take it cutting is all i think about day and night i hold my favorite razor in my hand mesmerized by the blade haunted by the voices it called my name yearning me to slice open my skin and feel alive again
    crazybladebabe crazybladebabe 18-21, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Here's a pic of what my arm used to look like.

    It's still scarred and each one of them shows a battle that I lost with myself. I still cut and I see a therapist but they do not help me out at all. I see my cuts more as battle scars rather than self mutilation and I'm sure lots of people do. It just sucks that this is my only...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F Apr 18

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    I'm so sad right now my parents found out

    that I cut myself and they have seen all my cuts on my body 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    Time After Time, Again And Again

    I did it again damn it. I dont know why i keep doing it. Its ugly and horrible but that doesnt seem to stop me at all. But today it was more that just a release it was wishful thinking. I didnt realize it did it that many time or that deep. It was like i blacked out and when i...
    blonde24 blonde24 22-25, F 1 Response May 5, 2012

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    My Life As Of Late

    This week has been pretty tough, a lot has been happening and idrk how to deal with certain situations anymore. The girl I've basically bascailly been falling in love with has almost completely rejected me. Being someone that turns to cutting in overly stressful and high...
    jystinc jystinc 22-25, M Jan 8, 2012

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    I went to the mall yesterday

    but earlier during the day I cut my arms and on top or my hands because I felt so sad. Anyway I wore a sweater so people couldn't see my arms. But this one person she looked like she around 20 was so loud and said "look at that girl her hands!!" And people looked at me like I...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    So my home life is totally awful.

    But I have always found ways to cope with it. Recently it's been taking naps and staying at school. I have never cut myself before. One time I did have a near cutting experience. I went to my room because life was crashing down around me. I picked up a stress rock that I had...
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2013

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    I'm so scared right now last night I cut the

    top of my hands and this kid that sits next to me saw my cuts and he said what happened and I said that my cats got in a fight and I tried to separate them so that's why I have the cuts and he said Bull S**t u cut yourself and I said no but he still didn't believe me so he told...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    I cut every day lately

    but then I realized how messed up I am
    trevorcorn trevorcorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 21

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    First Time

    I self harmed in various forms over the years, starting when I was about 8. But I never tried cutting. So five years from then, and 2 and a half months ago I found myself hovering a knife over my wrist. I needed more pain just to keep going than ever before. My parents found out...
    mysecretdiaries mysecretdiaries 13-15, F Jan 1, 2013

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    Self Harm Is No Joke!

    you always hear how self harmers are "emo" or "attention seekers" but self harm isn't a joke! it takes a lot to get to the point of taking emotional pain and turning into physical pain. when you sit there, and make fun of them, you are just making them pull down their sleeves...
    josephalissa josephalissa 26-30, F 12 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    It was my first time cutting at school last

    week. I just can't do it anymore. Voices everywhere and it's driving me crazy. I'm so sick of hearing bullshits.
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 16-17, F Aug 25

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    Yup I just did it! Again.

    Just now! It seems easier and better every time! :) it's amazing how it helps when you are in so much pain. I would never want anyone I know to do it and I would never encourage it. But I don't care anymore. No one is there when I need them most so who really cares? I know it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15

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    Well. One month and four days,

    down the drain. It isn't even noon and I've cried and cut myself all in one morning. I forgot what it felt like. Forgot how it numbs my pain. Oh well. Today is done. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I relapsed about a week ago

    and now I feel the urge to cut again I have tried everything but I can't stop thinking about it I want to feel it again. I have tried to distract myself by drawing, listing to music, exercise ect. But I can't stop the urge to and the feeling to cut. I don't know what to do 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18

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    Here enjoy I know I'm an ugly attention seeking

    bxtch who doesn't deserve to live Do you know how much courage this took me? No probably not I don't crave attention I just wanted to show the world Show them the ride they're in for when they dive too deep You think you want this? This is the reality of it and it's not a nice...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3

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    Related Experiences

    So. I always hated my hair. I went through a shy phase, and a self hating phase. I went through a depression phase. I went through an i'm so ugly phase. I even cut myself out of...
    colorstone colorstone 31-35, M 3 days ago

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    The first time i cut my self I was 12 years old. My mother had just had one of her best "motherly moments" of my childhood. She shoved me against the sharp counter leaving a long...
    mst529 mst529 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 3

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    Last night I feel pathetic and was about to cry again...so I stopped myself. Ran to grab my pocket knife it's so much better than scissors. With little pressure on the knife I...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 10 Responses Sep 10

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    I use to cut a lot, then went from only cutting once a month to where I am now; twice a day. I know I need to stop or at least cut down on it but it's hard. Each cut tells a story...
    JustAskAnything JustAskAnything 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    the people who love and care about me don't take my cutting as a serious problem. The one person who claims they love me the most, and i can talk to her anytime about anything...
    childcalledit childcalledit 22-25, T 1 Response 6 days ago

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    One cut, two cut, three cut, floor... Five cut, six cut, one cut more...
    Madis9957 Madis9957 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 17

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    I was in the shower for like an hour today and just took my time making each cut, trying to make sure they were deep enough to bleed. I only cut on my thigh though because it is...
    MissxThing MissxThing 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 18

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    So here' s the deal, i was going here around ep when i saw question that says, "Why do teens hurt themselves on purpose?" Me being a part of that, cuz yeah i'm a cutter, read the...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 21

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    One cut... Two cut... Three cut... Four. Watch the blood drip to the floor... Five cut... Six cut... Seven cut... Eight. God this feels so f**king great.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    So i kind of don't know what to do and i really need help (Please do not tell me to speak to someone people know and really can't and won't help me) i have been cutting since i was...
    SophieeJordan SophieeJordan 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    When i cut myself i always knew it would hurt more than the pain i was actually feeling but the thing was i didn't cut my Arms i cut my legs every day i cut myself for almost a...
    Kitry Kitry 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Right now I want to be able to cut myself so that blood just comes out in gushes I want to do that and then watch it as I am listening to some of my favorite music I want to do...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 4

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    I have a lot of old home videos stored on my Canon DC100 Camcorder. I had used this DC100 to shoot family videos since 2006 when it was released. This camcorder accompanied me so...
    Editor323 Editor323 22-25, M Sep 6

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    Once again I cut my self. I cut my thigh this time I ran out of room on my stomach. Someone please tell me why I cut so much cause I really don't know y. Out nay sound stupid. But...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 6

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    I just started cutting. I started cutting on September 5, 2014. I hate that date because it's the same date that my dad dad just a different year. I started have flashbacks of my...
    Catlover24680 Catlover24680 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 7

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    I've been doing it on and off since I was 14. I'm 22. No one knew for the longest time. My mom found out when I was 14, and it was the worst thing I could have ever imagined. I...
    tangledx22 tangledx22 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    Okay so I have technology design this year (I had it last year too) and last year I found blades so I took a few at different times and they were good. So this year I found...
    sarahslytherin sarahslytherin 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 11

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    Argue against it all you want, it's the only way of coping with the pains this world brought me. People would have abandoned me and left me to rot, my blade is always there for me...
    Oldwounds Oldwounds 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 20

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    I just couldn't help my self. i really couldn't. i cut last Friday, i broke the razor, and got those two clean thin razors. i wanted to stop but i was soo hard, i only did four...
    nekokitty13 nekokitty13 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have never cut myself, well at least not on purpose. I have a large scar under my left eye from a saw cutting me when I was a kid, I bled so much and it was painful, obviously...
    kaizob2x kaizob2x 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    I haven"t been cutting for 1 mont but today i was so upset and stress out and i cut myself with a cutter well it didn"t bleed but it still feels good sometime i wonder when you...
    reginacs reginacs 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I can't cut daily anymore because family is always around and my no cutting streak didn't end this afternoon like I thought it would. It ended this evening and it was the best...
    ImNotReallyFine ImNotReallyFine 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 6

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    I was cleaning the dishes and then a glass just broke on my hand suddenly i got hurt then I got cut and then I completed cutting I want to cut myself right now.
    jumanachan jumanachan 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    A couple of my friends have got me to promise not to but I'm under too much pressure and stress and feel like I need to I went 8weeks without feeling empty and worse than I did...
    meggyd14x meggyd14x 13-15, F Sep 7

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    My mom found out. I don't know how I let this happen. I don't cut anymore but, she saw the most recent cuts. What do I do? She acting like I'm a different person. Like I'm going to...
    Catlover24680 Catlover24680 13-15, F 5 Responses Sep 7

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    I cut again today. Two weeks ago I was about to kill myself and then later cut all up my arms. I hadn't since until today. I got too stressed and I cut on my left shoulder. I can't...
    missmalky missmalky 16-17 2 Responses Sep 18

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    I find myself wanting to cut. Been clean for 2 months. Trust me im trying really hard to stay clean. I've been a cutter since i was 13 i think... Was able to stay clean for 3 years...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 16-17, F Sep 19

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    I cut my hair again it's right above shoulder length, when my mom sees me she freaks out saying "how could you cut off all your curly locks, I don't like your hair short"... Umm ma...
    marilynnrox marilynnrox 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 22

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    I cut for the first time in middle school. Then in high school I had a girlfriend and we would cut together (we were both depressed), after high school I broke things off and...
    ElectricSnail ElectricSnail 18-21 1 Response Sep 22

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    I used to cut myself as a teenager. The blood reminded me I was alive when I felt numb. I stopped cutting 10 yrs ago, but I have the urge again. My husband has been accusing me of...
    ziggybaby86 ziggybaby86 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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