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I Cut Myelf

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    It was my first time cutting at school last

    week. I just can't do it anymore. Voices everywhere and it's driving me crazy. I'm so sick of hearing bullshits.
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 18-21, F Aug 25, 2014

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    This Is Killing Me

    i cant take it cutting is all i think about day and night i hold my favorite razor in my hand mesmerized by the blade haunted by the voices it called my name yearning me to slice open my skin and feel alive again
    crazybladebabe crazybladebabe 18-21, F Oct 20, 2012

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    Cold Turkey

    God ******* damn! I hate going cold turkey. It makes me feel more addicted then before! I just want a blade or anything really take to make me bleed ><" *runs around and stomps like a little kid in a tantrum* GAAAAAAAAAH Please tell me this will get better soon.
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 14, 2011

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    So my home life is totally awful.

    But I have always found ways to cope with it. Recently it's been taking naps and staying at school. I have never cut myself before. One time I did have a near cutting experience. I went to my room because life was crashing down around me. I picked up a stress rock that I had...
    Zaqhary Zaqhary 16-17, M Dec 26, 2013

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    I'm so sad right now my parents found out

    that I cut myself and they have seen all my cuts on my body 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25, 2014

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    First Time

    I self harmed in various forms over the years, starting when I was about 8. But I never tried cutting. So five years from then, and 2 and a half months ago I found myself hovering a knife over my wrist. I needed more pain just to keep going than ever before. My parents found out...
    mysecretdiaries mysecretdiaries 13-15, F Jan 1, 2013

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    Well. One month and four days,

    down the drain. It isn't even noon and I've cried and cut myself all in one morning. I forgot what it felt like. Forgot how it numbs my pain. Oh well. Today is done. Maybe I'll try again tomorrow.
    DayDreamingDragon DayDreamingDragon 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 10, 2014

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    My Life As Of Late

    This week has been pretty tough, a lot has been happening and idrk how to deal with certain situations anymore. The girl I've basically bascailly been falling in love with has almost completely rejected me. Being someone that turns to cutting in overly stressful and high...
    jystinc jystinc 22-25, M Jan 8, 2012

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    Here's a pic of what my arm used to look like.

    It's still scarred and each one of them shows a battle that I lost with myself. I still cut and I see a therapist but they do not help me out at all. I see my cuts more as battle scars rather than self mutilation and I'm sure lots of people do. It just sucks that this is my only...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F Apr 18, 2014

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    Yup I just did it! Again.

    Just now! It seems easier and better every time! :) it's amazing how it helps when you are in so much pain. I would never want anyone I know to do it and I would never encourage it. But I don't care anymore. No one is there when I need them most so who really cares? I know it...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 15, 2014

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    Self Harm Is No Joke!

    you always hear how self harmers are "emo" or "attention seekers" but self harm isn't a joke! it takes a lot to get to the point of taking emotional pain and turning into physical pain. when you sit there, and make fun of them, you are just making them pull down their sleeves...
    josephalissa josephalissa 26-30, F 11 Responses Jun 4, 2013

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    I'm so scared right now last night I cut the

    top of my hands and this kid that sits next to me saw my cuts and he said what happened and I said that my cats got in a fight and I tried to separate them so that's why I have the cuts and he said Bull S**t u cut yourself and I said no but he still didn't believe me so he told...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2014

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    I relapsed about a week ago

    and now I feel the urge to cut again I have tried everything but I can't stop thinking about it I want to feel it again. I have tried to distract myself by drawing, listing to music, exercise ect. But I can't stop the urge to and the feeling to cut. I don't know what to do 😢
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 19, 2014

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    I cut every day lately

    but then I realized how messed up I am
    trevorcorn trevorcorn 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 21, 2014

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    Time After Time, Again And Again

    I did it again damn it. I dont know why i keep doing it. Its ugly and horrible but that doesnt seem to stop me at all. But today it was more that just a release it was wishful thinking. I didnt realize it did it that many time or that deep. It was like i blacked out and when i...
    blonde24 blonde24 22-25, F 1 Response May 5, 2012

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    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 18, 2014

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    Here enjoy I know I'm an ugly attention seeking

    bxtch who doesn't deserve to live Do you know how much courage this took me? No probably not I don't crave attention I just wanted to show the world Show them the ride they're in for when they dive too deep You think you want this? This is the reality of it and it's not a nice...
    shadowgem shadowgem 13-15, F 2 Responses May 3, 2014

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    I cut myself for the first time today.

    Twelve cuts to be exact. Not counting the small ones I made on my palm. I felt overwhelmed. It felt good to cut myself though. Remind me I'm still here. I now regret it. I hope no one notices. Maybe I'll do it again
    omaxson42 omaxson42 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 23, 2014

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    I went to the mall yesterday

    but earlier during the day I cut my arms and on top or my hands because I felt so sad. Anyway I wore a sweater so people couldn't see my arms. But this one person she looked like she around 20 was so loud and said "look at that girl her hands!!" And people looked at me like I...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2014

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    i started cuting again i really hate myself for it im 18 now and i still havent stoped
    madhattergirl41 madhattergirl41 18-21, F 43 mins ago

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    My parents used to always cut my hair at home because it saved money. Normally, I wouldn't mind doing that, but every time I let them cut it, they always cut my hair shorter than I...
    laurenwilliams18 laurenwilliams18 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I want to cut but I promised my best friend
    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    When ever I am sad I always cut myself n I just wish I stab myself right through the heart so I don't have to live
    lookket lookket 18-21, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    Why would you?!Our hair takes forever to grow as it is, cut split ends Yh sure any other cut no way! never!
    sweetangel20 sweetangel20 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I really want to cut again I don't know why I can't stop cutting it jut makes me feel better I don't know what to do
    christinelol christinelol 13-15, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I've been feeling so terrible today. I started cutting myself again, and my mom walked in just as I put away the blade. I'm so happy she didn't see anything... Ughhh im losing it...
    CallMeNobody CallMeNobody 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I cut again not a suprise ig i was a month clean but it became to much everything so more of a suicide attempt only didn't go as planned I cut but not deep enough I only lost...
    Corneredblades Corneredblades 13-15, M 3 days ago

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    I cut myself last night and then again today but I still want to cut and I want to talk to my boyfriend but he won't talk to me and I told him I was thinking about going to a...
    christinelol christinelol 13-15, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have a knife I'm so ready to cut I think I'm just going to cut I can't fight it anymore
    christinelol christinelol 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    To understand anything you need to hear the backstory or part of it at least. So when my parents found out my brother cut it was like this huge family secret and we couldn't tell...
    brokenangel14 brokenangel14 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    I just cut the urge to cut was so strong I couldn't last any longer I lasted 2 months I just couldn't take it anyone I'm ashamed in myself but I feel little happier
    VapingQueen420 VapingQueen420 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I really want to cut right now, but I promise this guy I really really like that I won't cut anymore for him because it hurts him seeing my scars. And I don't want to break the...
    fuckliving fuckliving 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm about to cut I just need to cut
    christinelol christinelol 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I want to cut so badly.... How do i actually cut though? I can push the blade but my skin is too strong...
    AirSlice AirSlice 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I want to cut I am just so depressed and just want to cut. No one in my family wants to listen to me. I just want to cut and let all of the pain go away. So mad that I had an...
    NaomiSarah1 NaomiSarah1 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    I already cut once today but I really want to cut again I don't think I can stop myself anymore I don't really have anyone to talk to right now anyway
    christinelol christinelol 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    She's only 17, her whole life's ahead of her. She hates school because the people there discredit her. Her boyfriend tries to show her that's not how it seems. But everyday she...
    lilithity lilithity 18-21, F Aug 24

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    I often like to cut my fingertips to remind myself how much of a monster i can be. The cuts represent claws. If im not careful with what i touch, i will hurt myself. When i hurt...
    ForgedFromFire ForgedFromFire 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 23

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    Some time ago I promised myself I wouldn't cut myself with a knife anymore. Last night I broke that promise. According to my promise this means I have a problem with cutting. I...
    jsualmtha jsualmtha 18-21, F Aug 23

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    Last time I got my hair cut I asked the stylist of all the different styles I could get. I then ask for something like an undercut, then cut the top shorter and shorter, and then...
    webdev1 webdev1 22-25 Aug 21

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    I first started cutting when I was 11 I think... My parents have been fighting for 7 years now and I was badly bullied. So I guess that's what started it. I had the idea of...
    Miagrace55 Miagrace55 16-17, F Aug 21

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    i used to be christian. my family went to a fundamentalist chrurch. there they told me being gay is a choice, theyre going to hell, leviticus, blah blah blah. then i started having...
    Angelaco13 Angelaco13 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I have scars on my thighs,i cut them with a box cutter and it bleeds a lot.Also there is a scar on my arm,i stabbed it,now i cut it deep.Sometimes when i cut i start to feel dizzy...
    ughjustfiveminutesmore ughjustfiveminutesmore 13-15, F 16 Responses Aug 19