everybody even my family. I'm in my 30s and don't know how to properly cope with stress. Last month was my lowest point where I had so much stress on me at work and home. While I had several projects due in that week and more stress baring down on me when I get home. I...
think they were beautiful but I don't think that anymore because now every time I look at them it reminds me how much I hate myself i must hate myself a lot if I can take a blade to my wrist and run it across my skin I'll probably be called a attention seeker and some people...
me to show him my arm because he knew what was there
He never asked
He just said to show him and I'd always say no
He used to try and grab my arm when I wasn't paying attention
He never saw that arm
He only saw my left arm where there's a long scar
The only reason he saw it...
A broken mirror,
A bleeding first,
Holding onto a silver razor,
As tears stream down,
Onto lips unkissed.
She is not one that will be missed.
I'll show you mine,
Only if you show me yours,
We'll compare scars,
Decide who's worse.
I've come to the point,
Where I'm bleeding...
Today at the doctors was a very emotional visit. I been wearing socks a lot. I have a good excuse to so I can the place where I been cutting. Carefully recutting in the same two places. I did good to hide it from everyone even all my friends here.
The doctor asked if I would...
I started to cut myself at the beginning of this year. I started to feel depressed and it just felt like the only thing i could do at the time. As the year went on my depression got a lot worse and i began cutting myself a lot more often. i would always do it in places that i...
but let's just say it really wasn't the best. It caused me to become depressed and now I cut myself. Sometimes everyday, sometimes it's a few months apart. But when I do it isn't just a few. I just cut my stomach which is a place I haven't cut before and I only cut on m thighs...
Little Boy: Are you an angel?
Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels.
Me: I'm not an angel
Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
that I do it the scars on my thighs hiding it from my friends, family and other ppl. I'm ashamed of what I have done. And if ppl ever did ask what happened I just told them it was a biking accident.
The good news is I'm trying to stop and hopefully I can.
I was born. That's how it always starts. Being born. Because of that, you live. And if you live long enough, you start thinking. That got me in trouble. I thought too much. I left. Life became hard. No more living, just surviving. Everything I thought I knew was gone. That ended...
Nobody's perfect, and this is absolutely one of my flaws. Especially since I've been dealing with painful flashbacks that are growing with intensity recently, I'm usually angry and in pain, and I'm not even sure what triggers it anymore. I can't help to just hurt...
friend here whom I never see because we work different hours and she goes to see her fiance a lot on the weekends. I have been working so many hours and don't have a social life. my job has been threatened multiple times. when I moved here, one of the first things I ordered...
My life gets so hard at times I don't know what to do anymore I ant run off my problems write them down or even talk about them I used to use music to help or I used to go up high in a tree and sing to myself or I would go sit on my tire swing and look out at my pasture
I feel like ****.
I'm so insecure and to top it off my husband cheated on me.
So now I have to move out and move a few states away to my hometown.
And file divorce papers.
And put on a brave face for my daughter so she won't be scared.
I feel so alone.
that blade, i couldnt help but to i cut eight times on my thigh. Someone i love has been ignoring me which made it worse on my end. I've been crying for the past four hours, my body is shaking extremely bad an gets worse by the hour. I want to ******* die an just end myself...
once was a girl,
who painted beautiful art,
of pictures of what could have been,
and images of childish dreams.
These images were not painted by brush,
not a canvas that illustrated lust.
As her paintbrush was a razor,
and her canvas was a wrist.
For her life had been troubled...
or somethin' someone did
It got this blade inside my hand, and a couple bad decisions
I got all these demons sayin', "Yes,", and I'm about to give in
Oh, I know I'm givin' up, cause I'm just off
I'm just off livin' alone, it's true
Afraid to go home, I just wanna let go
'escapades' bit this is the only way I can talk without getting bashed or rejected.
About two weeks ago, I showed my bestfriend my cuts... She was shocked, yes, and told me that she'd go mad if I killed myself.
She asked why I was doing this but I couldn't tell her, it'd just...
and i really dont know how. I somehow got better, after 4 years i jut distaned myself from the things that drages me further down into that hole, and i manager to climb up again. But i am afraid... That im on the edge and might fall backa again...
About 7 months ago I looked at my razor in the shower and thought "I'm depressed, I should do something about it".That night was the first time I cut.I did it once a week usually.I had a major fight with my friend about 5 months ago and it got worse.Sometimes I cut everyday...
It has gotten so much worse this past month. For the past year I would cut maybe every few months after something really bad had happened, but now I am cutting every day. I forgot how hard it was to hide this but that does not make me stop. Thankfully it is getting colder. I...
for about a year. Recently, I relapsed and I've been doing it almost every night again since. It feels so discouraging to have relapsed, and so pointless to even try. No one will notice, and I think the scars are beautiful. I want so much to stop, but in all honesty, I really...
im slowly healing. Thank You John. I've been better i still have my dark days were is temptation. But i try to control ive been two weeks clean so far. Hope i can be clean more longer. I crie last night cause i wanted to cut cause all the pain is just sitting there hurting me...