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I Cut Myself Because Of Depression

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    I used to cut then I stopped

    since my parents found out and they said if they saw another cut they would take me to a hospital so I was clean for 3 months.But I just cut myself agian and I'm hiding it.but I'm sick if feeling ugly u know
    awkwardunicorn awkwardunicorn 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    I've only recently been diagnosed with

    depression. But I've had OCD, bipolar disorder, ADD and ADHD my entire life. I've been struggling with self harm since I was 11. I started out as a normal kid with a couple mental disorders, the grade one hit me. You see, I skipped kindergarten so I was a year younger than...
    marebear12345 marebear12345 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 14

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    I wake up with a cloud of depression over me

    everyday. Especially during the school year. I think sometime's it'll get better but it doesn't.
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F Jan 3

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    Please, Try To Help Me Out.

    I'm 14 years old. I'm a straight A student, volleyball player, cheerleader, Directioner, Ed-Head and Rusher, I've won writing comps and spelling bees, my cheer team got 2nd place in an international comp and my volleyball team got 2nd place at provincials. I started cutting when...
    vannyrannybanny vannyrannybanny 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2012

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    I'm Lost.

    I love my family and friends to death but I'm fighting depression and nobody knows about it. One person does and it's my best friend. He doesn't know why though and I feel like if I tell him why, his opinion of me will change. That's why nobody else knows about my depression. I...
    AmIAllAlone1996 AmIAllAlone1996 16-17, F Dec 2, 2013

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    Tonight was the first night.

    I've just been feeling so down recently. Like no one cares for me. And I just needed to know that I was awake. And that this wasn't just a dream. That if it was a dream, then I would wake up happy and loved. But it just seems so far away since those kind of things were a reality...
    ThePainWithin ThePainWithin 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 31

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    I cut myself brava use of depression

    and all the bad thighs that are happening to me
    Nyamal Nyamal 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    A Simple Cut

    I was at my boyfriend's. My boyfriend filled me with so much joy. But I had to leave at 8, and according to his clock, it was only 8:05. So I went home (right across the street, so only takes a minute) And my dad, angry as a bear hits me, telling me I'm late, to look at the clock...
    Aeroflaire Aeroflaire 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2012

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    Addictive

    For me, every day without cutting is a small victory. I used to be very dependent on cutting. Every time I got sad, or angry, or frustrated, I would cut just so it would all go away for just a little while. So I could just take a moment and not have to worry about all the bad...
    heyyitsericaxx heyyitsericaxx 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 27, 2013

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    What'S Am I Thinking?!

    I do t know why I'm sinking into depression right now. I keep looking air something that I can use to hurt myself though. I'm at the college and I almost bought a pact of razors just so I could take them apart and cut myself. I managed to resist but just barely. I've been going...
    tigerlily1994 tigerlily1994 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2013

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    A Seven Year Struggle

    It's hard for me to type this out because I'm used to keeping it inside. I've been self-mutilating myself for seven years. It started when I was thirteen and I was just emerging from years of intense bullying. I was also trying to cope with my newly disagnosed panic disorder...
    Jessiex07 Jessiex07 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 8, 2010

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    Broken

    This happened a couple weeks ago but I think I'm ok enough to talk about it... my husband has been deployed for about 4months now. Its hard but everyone keeps saying, "keep yourself busy". Its hard to stay busy when your thoughts always return to your husband. I finally lost it...
    NavyBlueBunny NavyBlueBunny 26-30, F Nov 13, 2013

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    The Ultimate Release

    So if your reading this your probably wondering what could be so bad that someone would want to take the ultimate step and disappear from what we know as life. None of us knows if there is something better after our mortal bodies cease to exist. I guess I'm willing to take that...
    libra604 libra604 26-30, M 3 Responses Feb 3, 2012

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    My best friend and guy told my mum

    and dad that something was up, now I have to go and tell them everything. I don't know what to say. I said I would do it before but I kept wimping out now I actually have to and I'm terrified.
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    To Everyone Who Suffers Form Depression And Cuts... ≪3

    I joined this group even though I don't fight or battle depression as you all do. Why did I join this group? Because, I'd like to hear your stories. I want to help you, in any way possible. It sounds so stupid but I just want to help everyone in the world, just stop cutting...
    BlahBlahUNICORNS BlahBlahUNICORNS 18-21, F Aug 17, 2013

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    I Did It Because It Felt Better...

    So, I've been cutting since I was in about 8th grade. It's been something I've wanted to stop for a really long time, but I just don't know how. Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped in a box when I'm at school, I see people who look happy and it makes me want to cry. I'm envious...
    IdontMissYou IdontMissYou 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 27, 2011

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    Getting That Urge Again...

    It has been 51 days since I last cut myself, but the urge is getting harder to resist. I keep trying to find other outlets, other coping skills, but nothing has brought ne the same satisfaction. Satisfaction... I can't express how ashamed and appauled I am for being satisfied...
    kateegirl kateegirl 18-21, F 2 Responses May 21, 2012

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    Need Help....

    I've been trying to stop cutting, I've gone over two weeks but the temptation is getting worse. I have no much to lose if I cut again now and all of it I can't go without. I need some support I have none here....
    K3ru54 K3ru54 13-15, F 6 Responses Nov 9, 2013

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    I can't do it! I've been cut free

    for about 5 weeks now and I can't ******* cope! I know it, I know I'm going to relapse tonight! My head is killing me and I'm trembling as I type because I've been crying so much. I don't understand why I'm still alive or how I'm still alive. I'm all alone, everyone hates me and...
    ALooserLikeMe ALooserLikeMe 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2013

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 13-15, T 1 Response Nov 3, 2013

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    Pain

    It feels good the cold metal object scraping against your skin, the pain you feel reminds you You're Not Numb. You smile at the artwork on your skin. The puffiness of flesh as blood slowly oozes out. It's just lines. But to you it's way more than that. Each line represents...
    WolfChild12 WolfChild12 16-17, F Nov 4, 2013

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    My Scars Won't Fade Away

    I'm 14 years old, and I've been cutting since I was 11. I'm not even sure if I'm actually depressed, but it really feels like it. And I'm not saying that to be a typical whiny teenager. I hate myself immensely, and I cut to punish myself. I feel I deserve to be punished for...
    rebstone rebstone 13-15 1 Response May 2, 2012

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    is not really depression

    but when I feel like I'm useless and unwanted and pain in the heart...and I feel better after doing that but now I tried not to because of my believes to God
    Nikkioh Nikkioh 13-15, F Feb 15

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    I think I started cutting - just recently - to

    remind myself I could still feel something, anything; even physical pain gets me out of my head for a while. It's strange how satisfying it is to feel your blood trickling down your body. I did this a little when I was young, mostly minor cuts and burns; I'm not sure why but I...
    LiquidThinking LiquidThinking 41-45, M Apr 1

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    I get big blades and cut deep

    as I can I don't stop till I see blood.....a lot of blood no one knows my pain
    jkbabejolly jkbabejolly 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    yesterday I couldn't help myself,

    I was just so down and I had no idea what about. I needed to feel my own body again I guess. everyday I feel so numb to the world around me.
    thelostgirl25 thelostgirl25 22-25, F Mar 22

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    Abstracted.

    I hate the cold. It makes me upset, lethargic and moody. But. At the same time, I love the cold. I can wear long-sleeves and cut myself up as much as I want and no one else will ever know that. Just like.... I can cover up my mental issues with a smile or the everlasting quiet...
    Fuzzies Fuzzies 56-60, M Dec 8, 2013

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    I tried 2 go 2day clean

    but I couldnt do it.spit relieves me of everything and every1.i wish I could stop but I know I cant
    fredlez2306 fredlez2306 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 15

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    The First Cut

    Right, my first cut was on the hardest time of my life. It was when my boyfriend died in a car accident. I cried for days and one day I went out and picked up a piece of really sharp glass. I went to steralize it and I cut his name right down my arm.. All my problems faded away...
    anonperson112 anonperson112 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 5, 2013

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    I Hated Myself

    I have cut or harmed myself periodically for the past 4 years. Everything happened when my "best friend" at the time started sending me angry emails. I hated myself so much and i felt so low... and there was nothing I could do about it. So in order to release my pain i was...
    OnyxVioletSky OnyxVioletSky 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 17, 2012

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    Because i can't take it anymore my uncle,

    grand uncle,grandmother,our poor life,being ignore by my family,bully words that they're saying against me and this empty feeling, and my past school bully. I hate this, they always hurt me, emotionally. they're ignoring my feelings and saying hurtful things. But the hurt me...
    lachrymosejessa lachrymosejessa 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    I'm a junior in college.

    I recently lost my best friend, but I've been struggling with being raped by my boyfriend at 16. I feel worthless, dirty, ugly, and lifeless. I have a great mask so no one knows what I struggle with unless I tell them. I cut and I've had a few nights where I've been suicidal. I...
    saxysteph saxysteph 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 24

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    Ashamed Of The Person In The Mirror..

    Tonight is March 13, 2013. It is 11:49 pm when I am starting to write this out. These are my feeling about most things. This is my final attempt at keeping myself from self harming again. I must say, this isn't easy. I can't write poetry, like the rest of my family. I can't talk...
    weepingblood21 weepingblood21 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 14, 2013

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    I cut myself, I'm so depressed

    and angry. I'm only 13 but I have recently stated cutting, I use "being tired" as an excuses for being depressed. I am sleep deprived though, but that's doesn't matter, I want to be loved by someone, I want someone to care about me enough to where they won't leave me alone till...
    purgahja purgahja 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Back

    I have not cut myself in 12 years but have started again..never thought i would but i can't turn back now. The pain inside me is too much for me too handle .That first stroke was the most amazing release of pain i have ever felt.I drew the blade slow closed my eyes and let the...
    emery777 emery777 41-45, F 23 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I Need A Decent Friend To Talk To!

    I've been suffering from depression all my life! I started cutting myself at the age of 9! I'm ashamed to say its become an addiction! Tonight was the first time in over a year I've done it and I'm so ashamed! I need someone to talk to who won't judge me and understand me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Aug 30, 2011

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    I cut myself today because of what happened

    with my brother and the 2nd oldest boy in our family found out and he talked to me but I still have a very strong urge to cut myself and I bet my siblings wish I wasn't even born
    Dancelover279 Dancelover279 13-15, F Mar 24

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    Scratching

    I am about to the point of scratching again. Like, I seriously can't handle all this **** I'm going through.  Between guys, family, friends, and church, I can't take it.  I would love to just die right now, but I can't do that.  I'm not brave enough.  Would love to actually...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06 22-25, F Nov 18, 2013

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    I was 11 when I first started cutting.

    Thats when the bullying started. I moved to a new neighborhood. I had no friends. No one wanted me around. I was like a disgusted disease. I would walk to the beauty supply to buy some blades and I would cut my legs with them. Cutting felt like my escape.
    peacefullover peacefullover 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I Cut Myself Because I Feel Unadequate.

    About 7 months ago I looked at my razor in the shower and thought "I'm depressed, I should do something about it".That night was the first time I cut.I did it once a week usually.I had a major fight with my friend about 5 months ago and it got worse.Sometimes I cut everyday...
    messeduppoet messeduppoet 13-15, F 9 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    Red Relive

    Sitting in the corner alone, the cold darkness in the room threatening to swallow me, surrounding my heart The pain in my heart welcoming the darkness as my soul suffers the consequences.... Years ago I started cutting to... I don't remember my body is covered in scars mostly...
    0love 0love 18-21 3 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    Stop The World, I'm Getting Off.

    A broken mirror, A bleeding first, Holding onto a silver razor, As tears stream down, Onto lips unkissed. She is not one that will be missed. I'll show you mine, Only if you show me yours, We'll compare scars, Decide who's worse. I've come to the point, Where I'm bleeding...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 19, 2012

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    How do you persuade people

    that it isn't anything they have done or anything that is wrong with your life? I have been depressed for as long as I can remember and now my parents know about the self-harm and they just don't get that it isn't anything that is wrong with my life and it isn't anything they...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    What Was I Doing

    Hey this is my first time doing this so don't judge. I'm 14 and currently a freshman in highschool :P I have been "self harming" for about 3 months it started when one night i punched my mirror and cut my hand up from glass it relieved all the pain i was going through so i...
    Fakesmiles28 Fakesmiles28 13-15 1 Response Mar 15, 2013

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    I Cut Myself And I'M 13

    My life gets so hard at times I don't know what to do anymore I ant run off my problems write them down or even talk about them I used to use music to help or I used to go up high in a tree and sing to myself or I would go sit on my tire swing and look out at my pasture I'm...
    Lostbeautifulangel Lostbeautifulangel 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 26, 2013

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    Hi...i am very depressed

    so I tried to,cut,myself ,,first through a pencil. It feels nice to cut. Next,time,I will,try a razor. Wish ne,luck.😋
    divich divich 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 3

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    I have been a cutter

    for five years. I cut my thighs and my left wrist and have been taken to the hospital twice for cutting my wrist (although I definitely should have had my legs stitched more than once, yet no one noticed). The second time I was hospitalized, I was police escorted and then...
    NightLightCrimes NightLightCrimes 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 11

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    I Deserve To Cut Myself

    my life so far has been a huge **** up, i get bad grades, the one girl that means everything to me ive done nothing to but hurt, well at least thats what it seems, so i cut myself, everyday,all the way up my arm i have scars, my legs too, im 15, ive been cutting since 13 and i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 27, 2013

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    My Scars Won't Fade Away

    I'm 14 years old, and I've been cutting since I was 11. I'm not even sure if I'm actually depressed, but it really feels like it. And I'm not saying that to be a typical whiny teenager. I hate myself immensely, and I cut to punish myself. I feel I deserve to be punished for...
    rebstone rebstone 13-15 3 Responses May 2, 2012

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    Every time you cut yourself take a petal off a

    flower, eventually you'll realize you're killing something beautiful... If I can quit anybody can. Anybody feel free to message me if you need/want to talk. Keep you're head up and stay strong. <3
    LivviyLove LivviyLove 16-17, F Mar 23

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    I Cut Myself

    I started to cut myself at the beginning of this year. I started to feel depressed and it just felt like the only thing i could do at the time. As the year went on my depression got a lot worse and i began cutting myself a lot more often. i would always do it in places that i...
    problemsismymiddlename problemsismymiddlename 16-17 1 Response Nov 19, 2012

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    "She Has Scars Under Her Sleeves"

    I was born. That's how it always starts. Being born. Because of that, you live. And if you live long enough, you start thinking. That got me in trouble. I thought too much. I left. Life became hard. No more living, just surviving. Everything I thought I knew was gone. That ended...
    Emolia Emolia 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2012

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    Honestly I just cut myself because I had a fight and It just makes me made when people say stuff about it behind my back!!
    Caityabraham Caityabraham 18-21, F Apr 9

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    All the things that go on around me are depressing..It feels like I have to cut again..The depression is built up way too much..
    ScarsNeverHeal ScarsNeverHeal 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 23

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    I hate myself, but cutting never even makes me feel better. I only want to do it more and harder once I start. It never satisfies me. I hate myself so much and nothing helps. I...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    .....I cut myself for the first time about 3 weeks ago.... It stung. I remember the night so clearly. I was depressed because I found out my crush had sex with another girl when I...
    WolfGirl31 WolfGirl31 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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