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I Cut Myself Because Of Depression

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    I wake up with a cloud of depression over me

    everyday. Especially during the school year. I think sometime's it'll get better but it doesn't.
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F Jan 3

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    Addictive

    For me, every day without cutting is a small victory. I used to be very dependent on cutting. Every time I got sad, or angry, or frustrated, I would cut just so it would all go away for just a little while. So I could just take a moment and not have to worry about all the bad...
    heyyitsericaxx heyyitsericaxx 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 27, 2013

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    How do you persuade people

    that it isn't anything they have done or anything that is wrong with your life? I have been depressed for as long as I can remember and now my parents know about the self-harm and they just don't get that it isn't anything that is wrong with my life and it isn't anything they...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    I Cut Myself

    I started to cut myself at the beginning of this year. I started to feel depressed and it just felt like the only thing i could do at the time. As the year went on my depression got a lot worse and i began cutting myself a lot more often. i would always do it in places that i...
    problemsismymiddlename problemsismymiddlename 16-17 2 Responses Nov 19, 2012

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    Red Relive

    Sitting in the corner alone, the cold darkness in the room threatening to swallow me, surrounding my heart The pain in my heart welcoming the darkness as my soul suffers the consequences.... Years ago I started cutting to... I don't remember my body is covered in scars mostly...
    0love 0love 18-21 3 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    My Scars Won't Fade Away

    I'm 14 years old, and I've been cutting since I was 11. I'm not even sure if I'm actually depressed, but it really feels like it. And I'm not saying that to be a typical whiny teenager. I hate myself immensely, and I cut to punish myself. I feel I deserve to be punished for...
    rebstone rebstone 13-15 3 Responses May 2, 2012

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    Before today I hadn't cut in 16 days.

    .. That didn't last long. Back to cutting again.
    Wallflower5906 Wallflower5906 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 22

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    Back

    I have not cut myself in 12 years but have started again..never thought i would but i can't turn back now. The pain inside me is too much for me too handle .That first stroke was the most amazing release of pain i have ever felt.I drew the blade slow closed my eyes and let the...
    emery777 emery777 41-45, F 23 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I cut myself, I'm so depressed

    and angry. I'm only 13 but I have recently stated cutting, I use "being tired" as an excuses for being depressed. I am sleep deprived though, but that's doesn't matter, I want to be loved by someone, I want someone to care about me enough to where they won't leave me alone till...
    purgahja purgahja 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I Need A Decent Friend To Talk To!

    I've been suffering from depression all my life! I started cutting myself at the age of 9! I'm ashamed to say its become an addiction! Tonight was the first time in over a year I've done it and I'm so ashamed! I need someone to talk to who won't judge me and understand me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Aug 30, 2011

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    is not really depression

    but when I feel like I'm useless and unwanted and pain in the heart...and I feel better after doing that but now I tried not to because of my believes to God
    Nikkioh Nikkioh 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    Because i can't take it anymore my uncle,

    grand uncle,grandmother,our poor life,being ignore by my family,bully words that they're saying against me and this empty feeling, and my past school bully. I hate this, they always hurt me, emotionally. they're ignoring my feelings and saying hurtful things. But the hurt me...
    lachrymosejessa lachrymosejessa 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    I don't know why I did it,

    I just felt like I had to. I'm sorry to all my friends and family who thought I was strong enough to quit. I'm sorry for breaking my promise.
    KittyTittyGang KittyTittyGang 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Need Help....

    I've been trying to stop cutting, I've gone over two weeks but the temptation is getting worse. I have no much to lose if I cut again now and all of it I can't go without. I need some support I have none here....
    K3ru54 K3ru54 13-15, F 6 Responses Nov 9, 2013

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 1 Response Nov 3, 2013

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    I'm a junior in college.

    I recently lost my best friend, but I've been struggling with being raped by my boyfriend at 16. I feel worthless, dirty, ugly, and lifeless. I have a great mask so no one knows what I struggle with unless I tell them. I cut and I've had a few nights where I've been suicidal. I...
    saxysteph saxysteph 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 24

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    Yes I cut my self because of depression.

    I remember the day I went to the hospital because I cut both wrist to deep and I can't help but wonder what would have happened if my brother didn't show up when he did
    karabearyayy karabearyayy 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    I cut again today. I had a total anxiety attack

    and just couldn't stop crying. I'm so depressed that this usually happens everyday. I was so upset, the only thing I could thing of to make me feel better was to reach for the razor blade again. It made me feel so much better. But I still regret it. I want to stop.. But I can't...
    Wallflower5906 Wallflower5906 13-15, F Jun 23

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    I Deserve To Cut Myself

    my life so far has been a huge **** up, i get bad grades, the one girl that means everything to me ive done nothing to but hurt, well at least thats what it seems, so i cut myself, everyday,all the way up my arm i have scars, my legs too, im 15, ive been cutting since 13 and i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 27, 2013

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    Getting That Urge Again...

    It has been 51 days since I last cut myself, but the urge is getting harder to resist. I keep trying to find other outlets, other coping skills, but nothing has brought ne the same satisfaction. Satisfaction... I can't express how ashamed and appauled I am for being satisfied...
    kateegirl kateegirl 18-21, F 1 Response May 21, 2012

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    My best friend and guy told my mum

    and dad that something was up, now I have to go and tell them everything. I don't know what to say. I said I would do it before but I kept wimping out now I actually have to and I'm terrified.
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 11

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    I tried 2 go 2day clean

    but I couldnt do it.spit relieves me of everything and every1.i wish I could stop but I know I cant
    fredlez2306 fredlez2306 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 15

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    I was 11 when I first started cutting.

    Thats when the bullying started. I moved to a new neighborhood. I had no friends. No one wanted me around. I was like a disgusted disease. I would walk to the beauty supply to buy some blades and I would cut my legs with them. Cutting felt like my escape.
    peacefullover peacefullover 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    "She Has Scars Under Her Sleeves"

    I was born. That's how it always starts. Being born. Because of that, you live. And if you live long enough, you start thinking. That got me in trouble. I thought too much. I left. Life became hard. No more living, just surviving. Everything I thought I knew was gone. That ended...
    Emolia Emolia 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 16, 2012

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    A Simple Cut

    I was at my boyfriend's. My boyfriend filled me with so much joy. But I had to leave at 8, and according to his clock, it was only 8:05. So I went home (right across the street, so only takes a minute) And my dad, angry as a bear hits me, telling me I'm late, to look at the clock...
    Aeroflaire Aeroflaire 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2012

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    Hi...i am very depressed

    so I tried to,cut,myself ,,first through a pencil. It feels nice to cut. Next,time,I will,try a razor. Wish ne,luck.😋
    divich divich 18-21, M Feb 3

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    on saturday i cut on my inner thigh

    because of depression
    firecrystal216 firecrystal216 16-17, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I don't know how much More I can take.

    I've lost everyone I care about, they've all forgotten about me. I don't blame them. But the thing that stopped me cutting was the fact I knew my friends and family know and would be upset, but I don't have that reason anymore and I'm getting so scared I can't trust myself, it...
    Azzyyy Azzyyy 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 9

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    Poke this is my first story I'm a lil nerves

    Iv been cutting for a while do to depression as my depression git worse so did my cutting i want to kill myself Cus people keep hurting me but I do t cus I don't want to hurt anyone and it's getting to the point were my body is just cut open my dad has found out and just says...
    IAmHatedForWhoIAm IAmHatedForWhoIAm 13-15, T 1 Response Jul 5

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    I haven't cut for about two weeks,

    but it's getting harder. I want someone who doesn't tell me to stop, but makes me want to stop.
    PurpleUnicorn1 PurpleUnicorn1 16-17, F 2 Responses May 19

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    I've only recently been diagnosed with

    depression. But I've had OCD, bipolar disorder, ADD and ADHD my entire life. I've been struggling with self harm since I was 11. I started out as a normal kid with a couple mental disorders, the grade one hit me. You see, I skipped kindergarten so I was a year younger than...
    marebear12345 marebear12345 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    I have been a cutter

    for five years. I cut my thighs and my left wrist and have been taken to the hospital twice for cutting my wrist (although I definitely should have had my legs stitched more than once, yet no one noticed). The second time I was hospitalized, I was police escorted and then...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 11

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    To Everyone Who Suffers Form Depression And Cuts... ≪3

    I joined this group even though I don't fight or battle depression as you all do. Why did I join this group? Because, I'd like to hear your stories. I want to help you, in any way possible. It sounds so stupid but I just want to help everyone in the world, just stop cutting...
    BlahBlahUNICORNS BlahBlahUNICORNS 18-21, F Aug 17, 2013

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    I cut myself today because of what happened

    with my brother and the 2nd oldest boy in our family found out and he talked to me but I still have a very strong urge to cut myself and I bet my siblings wish I wasn't even born
    Dancelover279 Dancelover279 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I Cut

    ive been cutting for 3 months now and i love it   Life is a prison, Oh God let me out. No one to listen, To hear when you shout. Climb the walls of insanity, Ride the waves of despair. If you fall it don't matter, There's no one to care. Used to wish for a...
    Livinalie96 Livinalie96 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 23, 2010

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    yesterday I couldn't help myself,

    I was just so down and I had no idea what about. I needed to feel my own body again I guess. everyday I feel so numb to the world around me.
    thelostgirl25 thelostgirl25 22-25, F Mar 22

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    I Did It Because It Felt Better...

    So, I've been cutting since I was in about 8th grade. It's been something I've wanted to stop for a really long time, but I just don't know how. Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped in a box when I'm at school, I see people who look happy and it makes me want to cry. I'm envious...
    IdontMissYou IdontMissYou 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 27, 2011

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    Used to. A lot of people tell me to keep

    smiling, to go on being positive, inspiring, bringing hope. But none of them know that I wasn’t always this way. That I’m more acquainted with misery and grief than they think. They wouldn’t recognize the person I was, in a very bad place and with a different outlook. From...
    Emeraldee Emeraldee 26-30, F 2 Responses May 7

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    I've been cutting for about 7 months.

    It's gotten to the point where I don't even know why I do. My mom knows I used to cut, but she doesn't know I still do. I want to quit, but I just don't think I can. Does anyone have any tips or suggestions?
    DancingDemons DancingDemons 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Against the opinions of every person I've told

    my story I texted the girl that broke my heart. She hasn't responded and I don't think she will;( it's been hrs and nothing😭🔫 I asked her if she misses me.... I want her to say yes so badly cuz I'm in love with her Why isn't she responding PS. I'm not looking for...
    NPkid97 NPkid97 16-17, M Jul 15

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    I get big blades and cut deep

    as I can I don't stop till I see blood.....a lot of blood no one knows my pain
    jkbabejolly jkbabejolly 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    Stop The World, I'm Getting Off.

    A broken mirror, A bleeding first, Holding onto a silver razor, As tears stream down, Onto lips unkissed. She is not one that will be missed. I'll show you mine, Only if you show me yours, We'll compare scars, Decide who's worse. I've come to the point, Where I'm bleeding...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 19, 2012

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    A couple of years ago I got really depressed

    when my girlfriend left me for another man. One day I bumped into her in town, we talked a little and the last thing I said was "I'll wait for you, no matter how long it takes" that even then with a little drink in me I went to an old house and smashed the window. It was a...
    justmessageme justmessageme 22-25, M 3 Responses May 25

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    A Seven Year Struggle

    It's hard for me to type this out because I'm used to keeping it inside. I've been self-mutilating myself for seven years. It started when I was thirteen and I was just emerging from years of intense bullying. I was also trying to cope with my newly disagnosed panic disorder...
    Jessiex07 Jessiex07 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 8, 2010

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    Pain

    It feels good the cold metal object scraping against your skin, the pain you feel reminds you You're Not Numb. You smile at the artwork on your skin. The puffiness of flesh as blood slowly oozes out. It's just lines. But to you it's way more than that. Each line represents...
    WolfChild12 WolfChild12 16-17, F Nov 4, 2013

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    I didn't realize the first time I cut was also

    because of depression...I didn't know because I didn't know I had depression..then when I found out I was really scared. I really want to stop and get help but I just can't
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 3 Responses May 15

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    I Cut Myself And I'M 13

    My life gets so hard at times I don't know what to do anymore I ant run off my problems write them down or even talk about them I used to use music to help or I used to go up high in a tree and sing to myself or I would go sit on my tire swing and look out at my pasture I'm...
    Lostbeautifulangel Lostbeautifulangel 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 26, 2013

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    I think I started cutting - just recently - to

    remind myself I could still feel something, anything; even physical pain gets me out of my head for a while. It's strange how satisfying it is to feel your blood trickling down your body. I did this a little when I was young, mostly minor cuts and burns; I'm not sure why but I...
    LiquidThinking LiquidThinking 41-45, M 5 Responses Apr 1

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    I can't do it! I've been cut free

    for about 5 weeks now and I can't ******* cope! I know it, I know I'm going to relapse tonight! My head is killing me and I'm trembling as I type because I've been crying so much. I don't understand why I'm still alive or how I'm still alive. I'm all alone, everyone hates me and...
    ALooserLikeMe ALooserLikeMe 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2013

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    I Cut Myself Because I Feel Unadequate.

    About 7 months ago I looked at my razor in the shower and thought "I'm depressed, I should do something about it".That night was the first time I cut.I did it once a week usually.I had a major fight with my friend about 5 months ago and it got worse.Sometimes I cut everyday...
    messeduppoet messeduppoet 13-15, F 9 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I used to cut myself. It started when I was in 7th grade (I'm 18 now and just recently graduated), and continued up until a few months ago. I'm not proud of it but I like to share...
    pinkfleshbows pinkfleshbows 18-21, F Jul 12

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    I started last year a few weeks before school started because I got really depressed and couldn't take it anymore so I wanted to die I had been suicidal before in the seventh grade...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 7

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    I do cut myself and I can admit it but I need some advice. I don't wanna be lectured and told not to cut, only people who cut will understand so please don't tell me not to!!! I...
    emi37y emi37y 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 19

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