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I Cut Myself Because Of Depression

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    No matter how hard I try,

    I end up writing my emotions in blood.
    mirnahazem mirnahazem 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2015

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    This is probably the deepest secret I hide from

    everybody even my family. I'm in my 30s and don't know how to properly cope with stress. Last month was my lowest point where I had so much stress on me at work and home. While I had several projects due in that week and more stress baring down on me when I get home. I...
    DesiredUserNameandStuff DesiredUserNameandStuff 31-35, F 5 Responses Nov 4, 2015

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    Just cut after 1 month

    and a half clean.... Im so tired of this depression. Im loosing all of my friends. I just want things to get better.
    Nick54 Nick54 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 2, 2015

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    Stop. please. I can't take it.

    Is it still a joke now?
    TheDoctorsWolf TheDoctorsWolf 13-15, F Sep 24, 2015

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    I cut myself because of everything

    that goes on in my life. I want to advise everybody who is thinking of cutting NOT to. II promise you will get addicted.
    depressedgirl900 depressedgirl900 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2015

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    Im really starting to hate my scars I use to

    think they were beautiful but I don't think that anymore because now every time I look at them it reminds me how much I hate myself i must hate myself a lot if I can take a blade to my wrist and run it across my skin I'll probably be called a attention seeker and some people...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 24, 2015

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    I remember in 9th grade my friend kept telling

    me to show him my arm because he knew what was there He never asked He just said to show him and I'd always say no He used to try and grab my arm when I wasn't paying attention He never saw that arm He only saw my left arm where there's a long scar The only reason he saw it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 17, 2015

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    I haven't cut for about two weeks,

    but it's getting harder. I want someone who doesn't tell me to stop, but makes me want to stop.
    PurpleUnicorn1 PurpleUnicorn1 18-21, F 2 Responses May 19, 2014

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    Stop The World, I'm Getting Off.

    A broken mirror, A bleeding first, Holding onto a silver razor, As tears stream down, Onto lips unkissed. She is not one that will be missed. I'll show you mine, Only if you show me yours, We'll compare scars, Decide who's worse. I've come to the point, Where I'm bleeding...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 19, 2012

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 13

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    Shamfully admitting this tiny secret.

    Today at the doctors was a very emotional visit. I been wearing socks a lot. I have a good excuse to so I can the place where I been cutting. Carefully recutting in the same two places. I did good to hide it from everyone even all my friends here. The doctor asked if I would...
    badgirlbee badgirlbee 22-25, F 7 Responses Oct 2, 2015

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    I Cut Myself

    I started to cut myself at the beginning of this year. I started to feel depressed and it just felt like the only thing i could do at the time. As the year went on my depression got a lot worse and i began cutting myself a lot more often. i would always do it in places that i...
    problemsismymiddlename problemsismymiddlename 16-17 1 Response Nov 19, 2012

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    I'm not going to get too into my back story

    but let's just say it really wasn't the best. It caused me to become depressed and now I cut myself. Sometimes everyday, sometimes it's a few months apart. But when I do it isn't just a few. I just cut my stomach which is a place I haven't cut before and I only cut on m thighs...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 28, 2015

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    I just realized today is day 40 of being clean.

    Haven't cut for 40 days... Damn okay.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 14, 2015

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    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx 70+ 1 Response Nov 3, 2013

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    I cut myself because I feel

    as if I deserve it no matter what I've done. There are scars on my left arm and both my thighs. the longest amount of time I've been clean is 3-4 months.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 22, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 13

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    I'm not proud of it and I hate

    that I do it the scars on my thighs hiding it from my friends, family and other ppl. I'm ashamed of what I have done. And if ppl ever did ask what happened I just told them it was a biking accident. The good news is I'm trying to stop and hopefully I can.
    GirlWhoTalks GirlWhoTalks 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 7, 2015

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    I really, really want to again.

    . I just need a release. I need something. I feel like I'm getting sick by not doing it. I at least have to wait until after my physical though, so there aren't any 'suspicious cuts'..
    Whobody Whobody 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 20, 2015

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    "She Has Scars Under Her Sleeves"

    I was born. That's how it always starts. Being born. Because of that, you live. And if you live long enough, you start thinking. That got me in trouble. I thought too much. I left. Life became hard. No more living, just surviving. Everything I thought I knew was gone. That ended...
    Emolia Emolia 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2012

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    **WARNING: May be triggering

    for some** Nobody's perfect, and this is absolutely one of my flaws. Especially since I've been dealing with painful flashbacks that are growing with intensity recently, I'm usually angry and in pain, and I'm not even sure what triggers it anymore. I can't help to just hurt...
    Whobody Whobody 18-21, M Apr 3, 2015

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    At the beach: Mom: How did you get scratched

    like that on your leg??!! Me: A bush scratched me when I was on that trail walk I did My aunt: Oh yeah, it does look like that! Me: B)
    thischickiswack thischickiswack 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 13, 2015

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    I moved to a different state with only one

    friend here whom I never see because we work different hours and she goes to see her fiance a lot on the weekends. I have been working so many hours and don't have a social life. my job has been threatened multiple times. when I moved here, one of the first things I ordered...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2015

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    I Cut Myself And I'M 13

    My life gets so hard at times I don't know what to do anymore I ant run off my problems write them down or even talk about them I used to use music to help or I used to go up high in a tree and sing to myself or I would go sit on my tire swing and look out at my pasture I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jul 26, 2013

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    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F Aug 7, 2015

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    I cut my wrists this morning.

    I feel like ****. I'm so insecure and to top it off my husband cheated on me. So now I have to move out and move a few states away to my hometown. And file divorce papers. And put on a brave face for my daughter so she won't be scared. I feel so alone.
    AshleyNichole1995 AshleyNichole1995 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 15, 2015

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    nickholemeh nickholemeh 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 22, 2015

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    I was weak there goes my effort in

    that blade, i couldnt help but to i cut eight times on my thigh. Someone i love has been ignoring me which made it worse on my end. I've been crying for the past four hours, my body is shaking extremely bad an gets worse by the hour. I want to ******* die an just end myself...
    oreomine12 oreomine12 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2015

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    Shxnnon Shxnnon 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 6, 2014

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    THE MOST BEAUTIFUL ARTIST There

    once was a girl, who painted beautiful art, of pictures of what could have been, and images of childish dreams. These images were not painted by brush, not a canvas that illustrated lust. As her paintbrush was a razor, and her canvas was a wrist. For her life had been troubled...
    changes123 changes123 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 30, 2015

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    Cutting yourself is like cutting your own heart

    open. No matter how hard you try, only blood will ever escape your body. Your emotions and pain will forever be within you until you are ready to turn it into love.
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 18-21, F Sep 5, 2014

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    I just cut... I can't stop crying.

    .. I just need all the pain to disappear.. The memories to go away
    Muppo23 Muppo23 16-17, F 6 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    It's always somethin' someone said,

    or somethin' someone did It got this blade inside my hand, and a couple bad decisions I got all these demons sayin', "Yes,", and I'm about to give in Oh, I know I'm givin' up, cause I'm just off I'm just off livin' alone, it's true Afraid to go home, I just wanna let go
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 14

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    I know you're tired of hearing about my cutting

    'escapades' bit this is the only way I can talk without getting bashed or rejected. About two weeks ago, I showed my bestfriend my cuts... She was shocked, yes, and told me that she'd go mad if I killed myself. She asked why I was doing this but I couldn't tell her, it'd just...
    Almostmadeit Almostmadeit 16-17, F Oct 17, 2015

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    But only once, Then i somehow,

    and i really dont know how. I somehow got better, after 4 years i jut distaned myself from the things that drages me further down into that hole, and i manager to climb up again. But i am afraid... That im on the edge and might fall backa again...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 18, 2015

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    jamal1986 jamal1986 26-30, M 2 days ago

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    I Cut Myself Because I Feel Unadequate.

    About 7 months ago I looked at my razor in the shower and thought "I'm depressed, I should do something about it".That night was the first time I cut.I did it once a week usually.I had a major fight with my friend about 5 months ago and it got worse.Sometimes I cut everyday...
    messeduppoet messeduppoet 16-17, F 9 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 12

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    probilly gonna go to sleep tonight crying with

    a razor blade pressed to my arm, anyway goodnight
    LouisW2571 LouisW2571 13-15, M Sep 17, 2015

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    I had stopped for a while.

    It has gotten so much worse this past month. For the past year I would cut maybe every few months after something really bad had happened, but now I am cutting every day. I forgot how hard it was to hide this but that does not make me stop. Thankfully it is getting colder. I...
    DesdemonaDeLaMort DesdemonaDeLaMort 22-25, F Oct 25, 2015

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    I used to do this, I stopped

    for about a year. Recently, I relapsed and I've been doing it almost every night again since. It feels so discouraging to have relapsed, and so pointless to even try. No one will notice, and I think the scars are beautiful. I want so much to stop, but in all honesty, I really...
    RoguePredator45 RoguePredator45 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Today I started cutting my ugly disgusting face.

    Nobody wants me, so I will just cut my face up until it is completely scared up.
    UnwantedLoser UnwantedLoser 36-40, M 3 Responses Dec 21, 2015

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    she painted a beautiful painting

    but there was a twist her paint brushes were razor and canvas was her wrist
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 12

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    I've been good for a while,

    im slowly healing. Thank You John. I've been better i still have my dark days were is temptation. But i try to control ive been two weeks clean so far. Hope i can be clean more longer. I crie last night cause i wanted to cut cause all the pain is just sitting there hurting me...
    oreomine12 oreomine12 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2015

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