I Cut Myself Because Of Depression

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    she painted a beautiful painting

    but there was a twist her paint brushes were razor and canvas was her wrist
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 12

    People turn against me

    when I say I cut myself but if they walked a mile in my shoes they'd understand what I've been through.
    StephBlakeIsInfinite StephBlakeIsInfinite
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 25, 2015
    Shxnnon Shxnnon
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 6, 2014

    I remember in 9th grade my friend kept telling

    me to show him my arm because he knew what was there He never asked He just said to show him and I'd always say no He used to try and grab my arm when I wasn't paying attention He never saw that arm He only saw my left arm where there's a long scar The only reason he saw it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 17, 2015
    Jamal1986 Jamal1986
    26-30, M
    Feb 6

    I really, really want to again.

    . I just need a release. I need something. I feel like I'm getting sick by not doing it. I at least have to wait until after my physical though, so there aren't any 'suspicious cuts'..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 20, 2015

    I hate it when people tell me "Oh don't cut

    yourself your to beautiful." People please your kinda the reason I keep doing it... 
    LEXIEishere123 LEXIEishere123
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 30

    I'm not proud of it and I hate

    that I do it the scars on my thighs hiding it from my friends, family and other ppl. I'm ashamed of what I have done. And if ppl ever did ask what happened I just told them it was a biking accident. The good news is I'm trying to stop and hopefully I can.
    GirlWhoTalks GirlWhoTalks
    13-15, F
    1 Response Nov 7, 2015

    I used to do this, I stopped

    for about a year. Recently, I relapsed and I've been doing it almost every night again since. It feels so discouraging to have relapsed, and so pointless to even try. No one will notice, and I think the scars are beautiful. I want so much to stop, but in all honesty, I really...
    RoguePredator45 RoguePredator45
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 4

    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx
    70+
    1 Response Nov 3, 2013

    Shamfully admitting this tiny secret.

    Today at the doctors was a very emotional visit. I been wearing socks a lot. I have a good excuse to so I can the place where I been cutting. Carefully recutting in the same two places. I did good to hide it from everyone even all my friends here. The doctor asked if I would...
    badgirlbee badgirlbee
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Oct 2, 2015

    "She Has Scars Under Her Sleeves"

    I was born. That's how it always starts. Being born. Because of that, you live. And if you live long enough, you start thinking. That got me in trouble. I thought too much. I left. Life became hard. No more living, just surviving. Everything I thought I knew was gone. That ended...
    Emolia Emolia
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 16, 2012

    I'm not going to get too into my back story

    but let's just say it really wasn't the best. It caused me to become depressed and now I cut myself. Sometimes everyday, sometimes it's a few months apart. But when I do it isn't just a few. I just cut my stomach which is a place I haven't cut before and I only cut on m thighs...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    I rip apart a razor, cut with the blades.

    .. He once again finds out I did it, again, and begs me to throw them away... Doesn't he understand I can't? Doesn't he understand when I throw them away I will waste another razor ripping it apart so I can keep from killing myself?
    pianochic pianochic
    13-15, F
    Apr 7

    I had stopped for a while.

    It has gotten so much worse this past month. For the past year I would cut maybe every few months after something really bad had happened, but now I am cutting every day. I forgot how hard it was to hide this but that does not make me stop. Thankfully it is getting colder. I...
    DesdemonaDeLaMort DesdemonaDeLaMort
    22-25, F
    Oct 25, 2015

    Everyday she draws a picture.

    It can be simple, it can be complex, it all depends on what she feels. One day she meets a guy, who says he draws too. He never reveals his drawings, as he is scared of what she thinks, but that night on her couch talking they show their drawings and they cry. They drew on flesh...
    pianochic pianochic
    13-15, F
    Apr 7

    I've been good for a while,

    im slowly healing. Thank You John. I've been better i still have my dark days were is temptation. But i try to control ive been two weeks clean so far. Hope i can be clean more longer. I crie last night cause i wanted to cut cause all the pain is just sitting there hurting me...
    oreomine12 oreomine12
    13-15, F
    1 Response Dec 21, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 13

    The last time I cut was on Christmas

    or 1-2 days after Christmas and after that I was just smoking to cope with depression then tonight I couldn't go smoke cuz my parents are home then my dad screamed at me. I usually keep all my thoughts and feelings bottled up but tonight my emotions got way out of hand so I...
    brokenprincess08 brokenprincess08
    13-15, F
    1 Response Feb 10

    I Cut Myself

    I started to cut myself at the beginning of this year. I started to feel depressed and it just felt like the only thing i could do at the time. As the year went on my depression got a lot worse and i began cutting myself a lot more often. i would always do it in places that i...
    problemsismymiddlename problemsismymiddlename
    16-17
    1 Response Nov 19, 2012

    At the beach: Mom: How did you get scratched

    like that on your leg??!! Me: A bush scratched me when I was on that trail walk I did My aunt: Oh yeah, it does look like that! Me: B)
    thischickiswack thischickiswack
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 13, 2015

    I just realized today is day 40 of being clean.

    Haven't cut for 40 days... Damn okay.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 14, 2015

    I cut my wrists this morning.

    I feel like ****. I'm so insecure and to top it off my husband cheated on me. So now I have to move out and move a few states away to my hometown. And file divorce papers. And put on a brave face for my daughter so she won't be scared. I feel so alone.
    AshleyNichole1995 AshleyNichole1995
    18-21, F
    9 Responses Sep 15, 2015

    Today I started cutting my ugly disgusting face.

    Nobody wants me, so I will just cut my face up until it is completely scared up.
    UnwantedLoser UnwantedLoser
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Dec 21, 2015
    Lili3423 Lili3423
    16-17
    1 Response Feb 14

    It's always somethin' someone said,

    or somethin' someone did It got this blade inside my hand, and a couple bad decisions I got all these demons sayin', "Yes,", and I'm about to give in Oh, I know I'm givin' up, cause I'm just off I'm just off livin' alone, it's true Afraid to go home, I just wanna let go
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jan 14

    When I get depressed ,

    I cut myself ... another piece of cake.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 1

    I was weak there goes my effort in

    that blade, i couldnt help but to i cut eight times on my thigh. Someone i love has been ignoring me which made it worse on my end. I've been crying for the past four hours, my body is shaking extremely bad an gets worse by the hour. I want to ******* die an just end myself...
    oreomine12 oreomine12
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2015

    Why am I weak? Who am I?

    What have I become? I Am A Monster.!! I hate myself, I cut to make the pain go away, vanish, never feel it again. But that.. that.. Monster brings it back to me. I can't live on with this pain. Why won't it go away!? What's wrong with me !?
    oreomine12 oreomine12
    13-15, F
    Dec 11, 2015

    Cutting yourself is like cutting your own heart

    open. No matter how hard you try, only blood will ever escape your body. Your emotions and pain will forever be within you until you are ready to turn it into love.
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn
    18-21, F
    Sep 5, 2014
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    Aug 7, 2015

    **WARNING: May be triggering

    for some** Nobody's perfect, and this is absolutely one of my flaws. Especially since I've been dealing with painful flashbacks that are growing with intensity recently, I'm usually angry and in pain, and I'm not even sure what triggers it anymore. I can't help to just hurt...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 3, 2015

    I know you're tired of hearing about my cutting

    'escapades' bit this is the only way I can talk without getting bashed or rejected. About two weeks ago, I showed my bestfriend my cuts... She was shocked, yes, and told me that she'd go mad if I killed myself. She asked why I was doing this but I couldn't tell her, it'd just...
    Almostmadeit Almostmadeit
    16-17, F
    Oct 17, 2015

    I regret cutting myself

    because I do it on my thigh. I can't wear shorts around my family or they'll see it. I've cut myself so many times there that's it's obvious what it's from. I need to stop. I cut myself a couple of weeks ago and I did it really really deep. The scars are healed but they're still...
    staygoldenbaby staygoldenbaby
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 10, 2015

    But only once, Then i somehow,

    and i really dont know how. I somehow got better, after 4 years i jut distaned myself from the things that drages me further down into that hole, and i manager to climb up again. But i am afraid... That im on the edge and might fall backa again...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 18, 2015

    I cut myself because of everything

    that goes on in my life. I want to advise everybody who is thinking of cutting NOT to. II promise you will get addicted.
    depressedgirl900 depressedgirl900
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 27, 2015

    I haven't cut for about two weeks,

    but it's getting harder. I want someone who doesn't tell me to stop, but makes me want to stop.
    PurpleUnicorn1 PurpleUnicorn1
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 19, 2014

    Im really starting to hate my scars I use to

    think they were beautiful but I don't think that anymore because now every time I look at them it reminds me how much I hate myself i must hate myself a lot if I can take a blade to my wrist and run it across my skin I'll probably be called a attention seeker and some people...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Jun 24, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 12

    No matter how hard I try,

    I end up writing my emotions in blood.
    mirnahazem mirnahazem
    16-17, F
    Oct 19, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jan 13

    I cut myself because I feel

    as if I deserve it no matter what I've done. There are scars on my left arm and both my thighs. the longest amount of time I've been clean is 3-4 months.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 22, 2015

    Stop The World, I'm Getting Off.

    A broken mirror, A bleeding first, Holding onto a silver razor, As tears stream down, Onto lips unkissed. She is not one that will be missed. I'll show you mine, Only if you show me yours, We'll compare scars, Decide who's worse. I've come to the point, Where I'm bleeding...
    bigeyesseemore bigeyesseemore
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jul 19, 2012

    I moved to a different state with only one

    friend here whom I never see because we work different hours and she goes to see her fiance a lot on the weekends. I have been working so many hours and don't have a social life. my job has been threatened multiple times. when I moved here, one of the first things I ordered...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 21

    I just cut... I can't stop crying.

    .. I just need all the pain to disappear.. The memories to go away
    Muppo23 Muppo23
    16-17, F
    5 Responses Dec 2, 2014

    I love my best friend.

    . its a blade. always there for me
    roxyy22 roxyy22
    16-17, F
    Mar 14

    I Cut Myself Because I Feel Unadequate.

    About 7 months ago I looked at my razor in the shower and thought "I'm depressed, I should do something about it".That night was the first time I cut.I did it once a week usually.I had a major fight with my friend about 5 months ago and it got worse.Sometimes I cut everyday...
    messeduppoet messeduppoet
    16-17, F
    9 Responses Sep 27, 2012
    nickholemeh nickholemeh
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 22, 2015
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Dec 30, 2015
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