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I Cut Myself For the First Time

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    Hopeless

    It had been a normal day at school today, until a popular girl brought up that I could be a huge nerd. I didn't think much of it, until I got home and my parents were ignoring me. After fighting off tears, I had to fight the urge to cut. I would go for the razor blade we keep in...
    Dailydaisy Dailydaisy 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    Scared

    It happened at work. I was having the worst day .. it started out really good and I dont know what happened but everything turned to ****. My girl and I started fighting on top of everything else and I had had enough. Ever get to the point where you cant take anything else and if...
    Funkalicious Funkalicious 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 18, 2009

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    That First Cut

    Me and my mom were arguing. I forget why but it got bad. She ended up telling me that she hated me. I went into my brothers room and grabbed his protracted and headed out to the car. I locked myself in their and slowly carved a heart into my hip and in the other hip a cross. I...
    dropdeadxo dropdeadxo 16-17, F Jul 23, 2013

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    My arms throbbing with pain

    after being hit on the arm with a plank of wood. The woman continues to scream. Continues to shout. Continues to remind me why everything is my fault, and how much she hates me. I walk around aimlessly around the room, clutching onto my injured arm. I contemplate storming out...
    revolucion revolucion 22-25, M Mar 19

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    I remember a while ago now.

    ...it was a cold day and a lot had happened I felt really depressed and was so down .i remembers hearing about self harm from somewhere but I went and tried it to see how I felt after it so I went into my mums sewing room and grabbed a very very sharp crafting knife and cut my...
    tabsbad123 tabsbad123 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 2

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    Ug....

    *sigh* Well... last night I stayed over my boyfriend's and that was nice. But I was stupid and wanting to pretend that I wasn't living with my parents and didn't call them to let them know I was staying out. (I'm almost 22 though it doesn't matter too much with this story...
    AnotherStatistic AnotherStatistic 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2009

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    Bloody Razors

    Bloody razors, **** me off, Tried usin' 'em, Shaver broke down, Cut myself, First time ever, No wonder, Can't stand 'em, Too dangerous, My shaver, Gettin' replaced!
    startinover1 startinover1 46-50 1 Response May 3, 2012

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    The First Time I Cut

    The first time I cut: I waited. I waited until everyone was asleep. I crept out of bed, the floor cold sent chills up my spine. I walked into the bathroom. Stared at my reflection. I stared at my reflection. I stared and I stared and I stared for what seemed to be hours. My...
    WrestlesBears WrestlesBears 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2013

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    Betrayed.

    this is my story, and how I first started cutting. (sorry, it's a bit confusing) *names have been changed. My best friend in the whole world was *Amy. She knew everything about me and we couldn't be closer. Well, I began crushing on my brothers best friend, *Seth. After...
    misscade misscade 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 16, 2010

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    Naughty Time

    im bipolar. a few days ago I started my downcycle and started cutting myself for the first time. im cut all over. I love it and cant stop. im not lonely or depressed anymore.
    mromega667 mromega667 22-25, M Oct 2, 2013

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    The Stress That I Had Always Builted Up !

    when i was little my life was perfect i had a nice house,a nice older sister and brother ... then when i was about eight or nine i found out my dad cheated on my mom twice before i was born and got both of the girlz got pregnant. right now im twelve and both of them are about...
    dreamingdaily dreamingdaily 13-15, F 2 Responses May 9, 2012

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    I was 12(16 now) and beginning to develop an

    eating disorder. My mom was starting to catch on and I needed another way to find control in my life. I'd heard about some people who cut themselves because it makes them feel better. I kept pulling away from the idea because it seemed to bizarre, but the more I thought about it...
    scarlettButterfly scarlettButterfly 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2013

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    IM Just Lost Angry Depressed

    Since I was a little girl I felt sad lonely depressed I felt like no one loved me no one cares I'm confused I'm lost I don't know were I belong today Iam 16 today my boyfriend broke up with me so I started to cut myself for the first time it was painful but kinda made the pain...
    sharan8513 sharan8513 16-17 1 Response Jul 13, 2013

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    Some Else's Pain Can Become Your Pain

    A couple of months ago my close friend told me she cut. This was new to me because I didn't know of anyone who cut. Then she told me she had attempted suicide. This hurt me deeply. Cutting had never even crossed my mind before. I cut for the first time. I did it a 3:30 am on New...
    beep1996 beep1996 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2013

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    Yer I Did

    Well the first time I did that, like properly with a you know.. was after I'd been on EP for several months, I'd recieved lotsss of support and understanding from my epeeps and I'd tried to pass it forward and support others on the site but then I got a bit overwhelmed and then...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 16, 2013

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    .....I cut myself for the first time about 3

    weeks ago.... It stung. I remember the night so clearly. I was depressed because I found out my crush had sex with another girl when I knew him. He lied to me saying he didn't. I found out that he did.. I was heartbroken. That night I hates myself for falling in love with...
    WolfGirl31 WolfGirl31 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    First Cut

    I had my first cut 2 monthes ago, but I knew I would cut again. But I'm actually starting to cut everyday now since about 3 days ago. I do it on my left leg, 1 inch above my ankle, on the inner side of my legs. So far I have 7 small cuts. I use a normal blade. I started cutting...
    Societyssecret Societyssecret 13-15, F Oct 11, 2013

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    My First Cut

    A few months ago I was working on a huge school project with some people that did no work at all and we're really mean to me. We decided that we had to get together at my house to work on our project. Even though I knew we had to, the thought made me sick. When I got home I cried...
    Kamikamako Kamikamako 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 17, 2013

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    I Want To Cut!!!!!

    Ive been thinking about cutting but I'm scared of how other people may view me. But I can't take "this" anymore....please can someone help me and let me know about their first time and did you fear that if you started someone would find out?!?!
    lonelysoul7 lonelysoul7 16-17 3 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I cut myself all the time. I hit a vein last night and the wound is open. It wouldn't stop bleeding for an hour. I passed out. Woke up and patched it up. How should I treat my cut...
    CydneyGarrett CydneyGarrett 16-17, F Mar 22

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    I have bean bully so many time I have cut myself so may times I have bean hurt so many times
    Nyamal Nyamal 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Ok so. I haven't told anyone that I cut but I don't do it a lot. Maybe once a mouth but I've never told anyone. And I don't think that any one knows. But I just really have to get...
    Awkward0Turtle Awkward0Turtle 13-15 Apr 8

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    I cut myself, I'm so depressed and angry. I'm only 13 but I have recently stated cutting, I use "being tired" as an excuses for being depressed. I am sleep deprived though, but...
    purgahja purgahja 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Jessii. God Damn you. The first time I cut, it was for a friend of mine, her name was Jessii. She told me if I cut once with her, she'd stop Cutting for good. I did it and I...
    KOOLKAT446 KOOLKAT446 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I cut myself every day i can't control myself razor is my bestfriend no one ever wants to talk to me noone ever cared about my cuts thats makes me cut more and more as deep as i...
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    I cut myself today because of what happened with my brother and the 2nd oldest boy in our family found out and he talked to me but I still have a very strong urge to cut myself and...
    Dancelover279 Dancelover279 13-15, F Mar 24

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    I cut myself, I just have some days where I feel really lonely and like nobody understands me. I have lots of problems in my family and just wish somebody could understand me but...
    JulietA93 JulietA93 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I used to cut then I stopped since my parents found out and they said if they saw another cut they would take me to a hospital so I was clean for 3 months.But I just cut myself...
    awkwardunicorn awkwardunicorn 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    Any one has a razor .i really need to cut myself and see my blood . I am sick of always hurting myself from inside if I can't stop myself from inside I will do it on the outside.
    Lonelyvamp2 Lonelyvamp2 13-15, F Apr 4

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    It's been a month since I've cut myself. This is what I've done to myself in September
    breannainreverse breannainreverse 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Why does everything always have to be so hard? But I guess that's life... I went from one addiction to the other. From self-harming to drugs and then back to self-harming myself...
    MonjaVictor MonjaVictor 16-17, F Apr 1

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 6

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    earlier this week i resorted back to cutting myself, I etched the word "live" on my stomach, now everytime i bend over or even wear pants, it hurts a lot
    lbrockm0 lbrockm0 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 19

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    I cut myself and went to my mom after realizing what I did, she just wiped off my wrist put a band aid on it and sent me back to bed! Not sure what I was thinking when I did it I...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    I cut myself and am not ashamed of it...
    emilylililove emilylililove 18-21, F Mar 25

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    I was cut-free for about 4 months, but today I cut again. I am dealing with relationship problems. I love my boyfriend, he loves me, but because he is under his parent's rules, he...
    likeyouknowme likeyouknowme 18-21, F Mar 30

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    Honestly I just cut myself because I had a fight and It just makes me made when people say stuff about it behind my back!!
    Caityabraham Caityabraham 18-21, F Apr 9

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    I cut myself brava use of depression and all the bad thighs that are happening to me
    Nyamal Nyamal 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I want to die now. And I probably will. Blood loss tends to have that affect on people. I'm going to go cut myself until I die . . . Wonder how many strokes it will take. Guess...
    AVampireGirl AVampireGirl 13-15, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I just wanna freakin cut myself
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 15 Responses 2 days ago

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    When I got waxed for the first time, I was nervous and worried about how much it would hurt but I was so curious to how it felt, I had to do it. So I called this salon and made an...
    laud23 laud23 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    For three years straight. Depression runs in the family and I wanted to kill myself thousands of times before and yes I guess you can get addicted to it but I don't think self harm...
    rose114 rose114 16-17, F Mar 18

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    I haven't done it for a month and a half but I'm slowly losing my grip and I just really don't want to add to this awful mosaic of scars but I feel like I need it to think clearly...
    fanatic458 fanatic458 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    True story. I was raised in strict Catholic household. The only talk about the birds and the bees I ever received from my mother was the usual, "act like a lady" comment before I...
    lightblueeyes lightblueeyes 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    My first time being fingered was today. It was amazing. Although I am a virgin it did hurt at first but then I got used to it. It was out of nowhere. My boyfriend and I were...
    Dynasty2000 Dynasty2000 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 19

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    The first time I smoked weed was like 5 months ago in November and I did it again on New Year's Eve. I loved it both times. I was just super happy and after I was so hungry I ate...
    penk01 penk01 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I remember the first time I took LSD . I was seventeen and had been smoking hash for about six months and the LSD era was starting to catch on in a big way. There was four of us...
    omgspinner omgspinner 61-65, M 4 Responses Apr 4

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    The first time I had sex was with my best friends older brother one night when I stayed the night over there and she fell asleep. To this day she doesnt know he slept with me on...
    rebelbbygirl rebelbbygirl 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm just sitting here right now looking for a reason not to cut. I can't find one. I want to feel good. I want to cut.
    jasonpw jasonpw 16-17, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Im expecting my first baby boy. I'm stressing about what size clothes to get him because newborn looks SO small.. Has anyone that had their baby tell me what size they're usually...
    marissaaa12 marissaaa12 13-15, F 16 hrs ago

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    It's my number one addiction and I can't help but always say yes to it. Cutting is my only relief but I cut all over my body so much that I have to dress like it's winter all the...
    bulimicbixtch49 bulimicbixtch49 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I had just taken a shower and as I sat on the floor over a black towel putting a hair mask on, I prepared my leg. Cutting is as much a part of my beauty treatment as makeup and...
    Shhush Shhush 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago