I Cut Myself to Stop the Pain

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 561 People

    Im sorry.... Im sosososososo sorry.

    .. I... I cant discribe my guilt.... She left me... My only friend... She was my everything... Back to no friends.. Those who were close.. The left me with her... All alone and im back to it... I left school early so no one would see me cry.. I loved her.. All my love was to her...
    Cwdoyle Cwdoyle
    3 Responses Oct 1, 2015

    Just did to myself just now.

    .. It was fun... I dont want to stop... But my grandma took my cutting thingy...
    Cwdoyle Cwdoyle
    2 Responses Oct 11, 2015

    Today was the first day I've ever cut.

    It felt good to have a release. But soon after I couldn't believe that for the first time in my life I did the unthinkable. I have had depression for like 10 years and I choose now to do this? I literally could lose my support system if they found out. I'm an utter waste of a...
    Nicolequinn15 Nicolequinn15
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 8, 2016

    I'm Hopelessly Addicted :/

    I started cutting on August 29, 2009.. three years later and I remain held captive by my addiction... I don't regret the fact that I started cutting.. it led me to meeting a lot of people that can relate to me.. People that understand me. Cutting helps me deal with the stress...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Sep 20, 2012

    I slipped this morning,

    I couldn't bear it. I try not to. It was the first time in maybe two weeks, but I couldn't live with the pain. There was blood, and it puffed up red and I felt like I could breathe, but I also feel awful. I don't want to be this person...honestly I just want to die. I don't want...
    Theendisirrelevant Theendisirrelevant
    16-17, F
    Oct 12, 2015

    I really want to cut rn.

    Idk where tho
    notthebest822 notthebest822
    16-17, F
    Feb 9, 2016

    Red Tears

    She was in class. She couldn't concentrate. Her leg was bobbing u pand down and she couldn't stare at one thing for more than a few seconds. The urges are crawling through her veins like a bug. She has to use the blade, and lucky her, she has a fresh one in her bag just waiting...
    danielle18 danielle18
    22-25, F
    May 25, 2013

    i was clean for 3 weeks

    and relapsed today😩
    carlymgc carlymgc
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 18, 2015

    I Curse A Lot

    Well. **** this ****. Today I ******* scared myself when I literally filled the tub and wanted to drown. And die and ******* stop living in this **** hole. I just sobbed for hours and hyperventilated and sobbed some heart wrenching tears, and then I took the scissors and cut...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 18, 2013
    notthebest822 notthebest822
    16-17, F
    Jan 8, 2016
    notthebest822 notthebest822
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 24, 2016

    Yesterday I was in the car with my sister in law

    and she asked me why did u do it again? I said Cus and then she said does it hurt when you cut? I gave her a look like really did you just ask me that? And she said so does it? I said yea if it didn't hurt I never would of done that. And she asked why again and again that I cut...
    cristina44 cristina44
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 8, 2014

    My Beating Session

    "uhhhhh so bored" I said. So I then remembered that I went shopping yesterday and bought new clothes: a pink crop top with a silver star! I then decided to try them on with my short shorts! I put both items on along with some make up and the new brown heels I bought and went to...
    Pie11644 Pie11644
    22-25, F
    Sep 28, 2012

    I cant take it. People dont understand.

    So i hide it say im okay. But im really ******* not. I wish somebody would understand ;~;
    suicidallover400 suicidallover400
    16-17, F
    Dec 10, 2013
    notthebest822 notthebest822
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 10, 2016

    My Persuasive Essay On Self-Harm

    Attention seekers? Think again… Patricia McCormick once wrote, “She cuts herself never to deep, never to die. But enough to feel the pain, enough to feel the scream inside.” There are many reasons why people are known to self-harm; a lot of the time it is to help them feel...
    paris1213 paris1213
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 7, 2013

    kept telling myself someone wants me someone

    cares. Appartently they do. But feel like im not worth it anymore cutting just takes the edge of. Im going down this path again. so much ****, so much pain.
    Kelloggz90 Kelloggz90
    26-30, F
    Oct 30, 2014

    Sometimes I wish I could stop

    but other times I am still wondering how much deeper I can cut to make it all go away
    karabearyayy karabearyayy
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 1, 2014
    stellabby stellabby
    13-15, F
    Jan 19, 2016

    I cut myself again today

    after my person record of not cutting for five months. I don't cut that much but still hurts.
    notthebest822 notthebest822
    16-17, F
    Dec 22, 2015

    i cut when I am angry.

    I see it as its mot fair to take that anger out on anyone else, only on myself. I sit there and watch the blood running down my arm, imagining that its all the anger running out of me. I regret it later, but when I cut, its like im in a different state of mind. I just can never...
    frack1373 frack1373
    16-17, F
    Jul 16, 2015

    I cut. I can't explain why.

    You know, if you have been there. It's not the physical pain i enjoy, but the escape from that which there is no running from. I can't get away so i take the exacto and try to 'cut out' the feelings that i can't deal with... Hell, i can't even understand them. I just want to...
    Kate197979 Kate197979
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 7, 2014

    This pain kept up inside me hurts

    so much and I cry and cry until I can't cry no more but the pain is still there. So I cut myself and when I do it the sting of the cut releases the pain and makes me feel better but I try not to cut Bc it's bad but I have no idea how to control this pain with out bottling it all...
    keni789 keni789
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    [Promises Broken]. .

    ....Nightly Warmup..
    Cwdoyle Cwdoyle
    1 Response Oct 20, 2015

    Ive been clean for a year.

    .. I completely forgot how it feels, the pain. I guess i just feel empty, and invisible. No one really gives a **** if im around. I have friends, but i dont feel like theyre my friends you know. Theyre friends with each other more than theyre friends with me. I needed to make...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 29, 2015

    My Way Of Explaining Self Harm..To Non Self Harmers.

    People ask me, why did you cut yourself? Doesn't it hurt? Yes. It hurts. That's the point. As for why, imagine this, you're blindfolded on the beach. Start walking towards the water. You keep walking out, farther, deeper into the water. Pretty soon you're in above your head. You...
    Justanotherforgottenjuliet Justanotherforgottenjuliet
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 3, 2013
    h20polo13 h20polo13
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 28, 2014
    Cwdoyle Cwdoyle
    3 Responses Oct 20, 2015

    Are You An Angel?

    Little Boy: Are you an angel? Me: What? Little Boy: My mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels. Me: I'm not an angel Little Boy: Of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don't like life on Earth. This world is destroying them...
    BlurredBeyondTheStarsx BlurredBeyondTheStarsx
    Nov 3, 2013

    I've been clean for 2 days now.

    ..it's getting really hard to keep it up...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 13, 2015

    I cut because it's easier

    than talking. It feels like bleeding is the only way to feel better, but it doesn't last long enough, so I cut more. I just want to stop this pain and cutting is the only thing that seems to help.
    NicolleSashaa NicolleSashaa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 23, 2014

    Never should've started.

    Never stopped.
    Verasayshi Verasayshi
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 1, 2014

    Ok, so my mom and step dad always argue.

    Its not physical though. People make fun of me. I am very self concious. I'm 13 and my name is Lauren. I have been cutting for a while now, and things are just getting worse. I just found out that my bestest friend in the whole world is moving to texas. Her name is Elizabeth and...
    lauren1194 lauren1194
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jul 2, 2014

    i cut myself right now.

    because the pain of playing zig zag is to much. its just to hard to handle.
    ErIng9971 ErIng9971
    18-21, F
    Feb 17, 2015

    I Want to Fcking Die!

    first of all i have got an alright life, i have an awesome twin and two sisters but my dad is always abusing me and my siblings, i havent got a single freind the ones that were, were just doing it to know things about me to take the pis out of. my mum, both grandmas and grandads...
    mcrluvinemo mcrluvinemo
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Apr 7, 2008

    I blacked out and did it again.

    I seriously hate myself.
    notthebest822 notthebest822
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 13, 2016

    Sometimes the pain is

    so overwhelming that nothing makes it stop. When I cut the emotional pain I feel becomes physical and I understand it more. Someone who has never gone through it can not possibly understand. Sometimes I feel so numb I just want a simple release. To feel something anything. It's...
    MagickalFae MagickalFae
    41-45, F
    Feb 18, 2014

    The only time I can breathe,

    the only time the pain is replaced with another, the only time the thoughts are quietened. I know that it will leave scars and it's not something a 'normal' person would do but I can't risk stopping..... I want to say I want help but nothing else can help. I'm finally a list...
    rural84 rural84
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 1, 2014

    5 months. I haven't in 5 months.

    my scars are fading and I need them back. they are part or me. why can't they stay? I need my scars but I can't cut...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 16, 2015

    I cut myself. Anyone else?

    Wanna talk about it?
    deleted deleted
    Aug 15, 2015
    FromTheHeartOfaWoman FromTheHeartOfaWoman
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 10, 2014

    Kind of ironic, isn't it?

    The way we cut to stop pain. We inflict pain to forget pain. Trade emotional pain for physical pain because it's easier to take. But people don't see this. They just assume there's no reason. Call us stupid or attention seekers. How the emotional pain leaves physical scars but...
    VolleyBallPrincess14 VolleyBallPrincess14
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 2, 2014

    How many more until I get bored of seeing my

    own blood seep out of my skin.. I was 2 months clean.. Now, it's back to square one.. Try to find another way to stop.. Or probably not..
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 13, 2014

    This is my hand. How many pain I face I not

    really sure I just know Everytime I cut alway left many scar..
    lonelyCut lonelyCut
    26-30, M
    1 Response Nov 3, 2014

    Alone And Lost But Hopeful And Surrounded By People

    everyone says its stupid to cut that there is no point... but if you haven't done it you don't get it, it feels so good while you are doing it... but after you realise what you have done. after i cut i have to hide the blood from my parents, flushing a blood stained tissue down...
    fightandstaystronge fightandstaystronge
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2012

    I ******* hate my life.

    I'm sick and tired of everything. All I want to do is commit suicide and **** all them hateful people. I am done!!
    Frankineedles Frankineedles
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Sep 18, 2014

    I love cutting my self on the left wrist

    whenever there is yet another session of yelling at home.It gives me some sort of relief.I look at the marks I made on myself with pride(I always wear sweatbands to hide them).I don't know how to overcome this habit.I feel hopeless.
    dykie0810 dykie0810
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 9, 2014
    notthebest822 notthebest822
    16-17, F
    Dec 31, 2015

    Hey You

    You're Beautiful You're Smart You Have Talents You Have Fears You Have Hopes You Have Dreams You're Worth it. You're Not Alone Someone is thinking about you, even if it's one person. Someone is thinking about you, even if it's one person. Someone cares about you, worries...
    shakenama shakenama
    41-45, M
    Mar 12, 2013

    She paints a pretty picture But this story has

    a twist Her paint brush is her razor And her canvas is her wrist
    PunkRockUnicorn PunkRockUnicorn
    16-17, F
    Sep 27, 2014
    notthebest822 notthebest822
    16-17, F
    Feb 22, 2016

    Just did this for the first time

    and wow it felt amazing! Being able to control when you go through that much pain was just what I needed!
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 7, 2015

    I made the first cut razor thin.

    A gentle kiss on virgin skin.
    justakookiegirl justakookiegirl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2014

    I hate myself so much.

    I just wish for once i could be the slightest bit normal. maybe even pretty. i wish i didnt have to go through my own ****. I wish i would die sometimes.
    SheWhoCuts SheWhoCuts
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 7, 2016
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