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I Cut Myself

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    To Everyone Whos Cuts And Or Battles Depression. ≪3

    I joined this group even though I don't fight or battle depression as you all do. Why did I join this group? Because, I'd like to hear your stories. I want to help you, in any way possible. It sounds so stupid but I just want to help everyone in the world, just stop cutting...
    BlahBlahUNICORNS BlahBlahUNICORNS 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2013

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    WorkInProgress2012 WorkInProgress2012 26-30, F Nov 25, 2014

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    I drained 25 pounds of blood in one session of

    cutting myself in a hot bath.... It's stupid, life is hard enough as it is without me having to hide thick cuts, ugly scars, bloodstained carpets and bloodstained clothes... But I keep doing it anyways like it makes any of my other problems disappear or makes me feel good about...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    We'Re Not Attention Seeke

    I cut earlier today and then my best friend invited me to hang out. So I went over to her house and then she starts talking to me about how she doesn't like people who cut and that she thinks they are attention seekers and I have to agree with her. It's a good thing I wore a...
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2013

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    Sometimes it really seems like it's the only

    option. I don't know if I will though.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Why do people always assume im depressed

    because i have scars? I dont cut cuz it feels good, i cut for religious purposes. Im a Jashinist. Idiots.
    ForeverJashinist ForeverJashinist 18-21, M 7 Responses Apr 5

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    I cut yesterday on Thanksgiving.

    I am sorta anorexic so i dont like to eat alot. Only when i feel hungry, so like 2 times a day i will eat something small. But being around (No offence) fat people who love to stuff themselves made me feel soo sick. I diddnt even eat that much because i just couldn't stand...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M Nov 28, 2014

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    Loneliness And Depression

    it all hurts so much on the insde to be alone i wish that someone would love me but no one does and i have to suffer for that the only thing that ever makes me feel better is when im alone and im crying and i feel that hurt inside my chest and when i reach for the blade and cut...
    SuicidalAkatsuki SuicidalAkatsuki 18-21, M 6 Responses May 19, 2010

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    I really really want to.

    I want the outside to match the inside.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F Jan 16

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    I joined a cutting "support group" on Facebook

    and lasted 2 minutes. I swear, literally all the posts were drama, drama, drama. At least on EP people tell their stories mostly without judgment.
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Nobody Knows

    I live alone, I work in an ER where I see SI's all the time, My family live minutes from me and its weird how know ones. Sometimes I want blurt out to a nurse in the room "I am a cutter!" but then I know I'll have to stop. Anything can trigger it. If someone doesn't...
    AlwaysHavingIssues AlwaysHavingIssues 22-25, F 20 Responses Mar 27, 2008

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    I Don't Know Anymore.

    Lately I've started to cut myself. I'm really not too sure why I do it. To feel the pain and actually bleed lets me know I'm still alive. It's been a long time since I've felt alive on the inside. I try to throw out hints to my friends that I'm not right and they're only...
    85continuum 85continuum 26-30, M 4 Responses Oct 8, 2010

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    Hi, I'm a 19 year old dude

    and i... wait Let me start with this... Sept. 4th, 2013 I was riding my moped (not wearing a helmet) through the center of my home town when I was hit head on by a van. both of us were traveling at about 35-40 mph I should be dead, or in a hospital still. But, being the miracle...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 9, 2014

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    My habit began early on in middle school.

    I had accidentally cut myself at first, just one of those freak accidents. It took my emotional pain away... I was able to focus on hiding the accidental cut so that no one would think I did it on purpose. It went unnoticed. I figured that I could get an emotional release and...
    HardTimesOfTristen HardTimesOfTristen 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 17, 2014

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    I Did It Again.

    I cut myself last night.  Actually I wanted to kill myself.  But, dying wasn't enough, I wanted to suffer.  I always make myself suffer.  I cut myself, not too deep mind the pain is better when it's a shallow cut.  I cut myself with all the knives I could...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2007

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    My Family Makes Me Cut Myself.

    Less than a year ago i thought cutting was the stupidest thing. One of my best friends did it. I asked her why and she said it helps her cope with her pain... So one day, my dad said awful things to me. Thing a father should NEVER say to his child. I went to my room and grabbed a...
    buriedlifefan04 buriedlifefan04 13-15 1 Response Aug 23, 2011

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    I cut myself a lot I like to it calms me down

    but guys PLZ don't do it I've been doing it for almost a year now and I'm 12 almost 13 I hate myself and cutting is vary addicting so guys PLZ stop I'm always here for everyone love u all
    deadgirlcutter deadgirlcutter 18-21, F Mar 24

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    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    It makes my anger disappear

    where I can enjoy life with out judgement
    NomadxAngelx117 NomadxAngelx117 18-21, M Apr 5

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    No Title

    hmm were to begin well my names justin and im 17 and i cut myself. i dont mind it at all its not a big deal to me i dont really do it for attention i have a good amount of friends and they would probably not even care if they found out first things first i told everyone i quit...
    SuicidalAkatsuki SuicidalAkatsuki 18-21, M 9 Responses May 12, 2010

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    I like to see the blood Running down in all its

    glory I see my pain running down away from my heart I can't stop I just can't.
    maleeny maleeny 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I did it again my body is on fire It feels

    so good Also skipping meals now Awsome! :/
    maleeny maleeny 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    A lil poem of my own 😳---------—Blood

    drips from the tub to the floor i scream inside but nobody knows my legs burn with inflaming pain there's no going back im stuck on it its like a drug that burns threw your skin nobody knows of the soroe with in i feel of me going insane my life is dead my insides are hollow im...
    IanMargeson IanMargeson 18-21, M Mar 22

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    after almost one year of hand free from cutting

    , i cut myself ,, now i hate myself so much , i promised a lot of people that i am not gonna , but i did it :'( ,, og God forgive me forgive me my friends ,, i let u guys down :'(
    tinathefreak tinathefreak 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2014

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    I was 4 days clean and I just did it.

    I don't even know why, literally nothing happened to me. I just saw my blades and felt the urge. I feel like I've wasted my guys time, he has listened to me crying for hours to try to get me to stop and I just let him down. And myself. And everyone. I feel like such a failure, I...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8, 2014

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    First Time Nd Now I Know About "Addiction"

    my group of friends consists of mostly "emo" kids and a few "normal" kids, and my best friend killed himself a few days ago.. we all loved him and are really grieving.. but especially. iv been crying alot and the only reason i didnt cut yet was cuz i was to...
    emogirlnattie emogirlnattie 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2007

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    I've cut everywhere but my wrist just feels

    right. I dont know why. It's like a jigsaw puzzle and my wrist is the center piece
    NewBeginnings5 NewBeginnings5 26-30 Nov 29, 2014

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    What Is Going On ?

    I am a very bad cutter I am now 13 and have been cutting since I was 10 I didn't know what it was back then but I do now and I do it.. a lot,It has been a few months and my cuts are gone and just bad scars on my body but.... They are like .. coming back ? I don't know how to...
    Deadlylovely13 Deadlylovely13 66-70 2 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    What Do You Do When You See No Way Out?

    What do you do when things get so bad that you can't see a way out? When every time you smile is lie. When you feel so low all the time, that it becomes natural, the usual, just another day at the office. What about when eventually you stop feeling sad, and you feel nothing. No...
    mma1995 mma1995 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    I really want to right now.

    I'll see how long I can go without giving in.
    persononinternet persononinternet 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 17

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    I said I wasn't going to do it anymore

    and I hadn't for more than a month. But today I got in a big fight with my mom and she really hurt my feelings and I fell apart. I would never say to her what she said to me and I used it as an excuse to cut again.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    In A Strange Place

    My breasts. I cut them mostly because no one will find out. The only person I worry about finding out is my best friend. We take baths together and get dressed in front of each other. Guess I'll just have to be careful around her. It's such a tender sensitive place to cut. The...
    poetvann poetvann 18-21, F 5 Responses May 10, 2013

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    I've always wanted to cut up my face

    so people will stop telling me I'm attractive it handsome. I don't have the balls for that though.
    persononinternet persononinternet 18-21, M Mar 17

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    Started cutting again didn't know what to do.

    So I decided to wake up this morning and get drunk with a friend who got back from the military. Been drunk all day went to class like this spent my day this way don't know what to do tmr when I wake up sober. How do I deal?
    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F Mar 10

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    I Know A Lot Of People Say They Cut Because They Feel Numb.

    But I think i'm the opposite. I don't cut because I can't feel anything, I do it because everything feels too much. Sometimes all my feelings are just completely overwhelming and all i want to do is STOP feeling them. I feel all these horrible thoughts about myself and my...
    Layka Layka 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 6, 2010

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    Cut And Bleed. (possibly Trigerring)

    I don't cut myself anymore but I DO still have urges I just couldn't find a current group I have that this would fit under. this is what cutting is for me.  I feel the urge to cut my skin and let the blood flow and as I watch a calmness and state, of focus allows me...
    BelleRaven BelleRaven 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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    I found a way to have the same amount of pain

    and it's nearly invisible. And it last longer because you can keep digging in the same spot. You make a blister on your hand and peel away the skin and when you get mad you push your nail into it and it hurts like a *****.
    wolfieblue wolfieblue 18-21, F Nov 26, 2014

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    2 Nights Ago

    I really wanted to cut.. the knife was right on my bereau but i didnt do it.. i decided to write 2 poems and after writing the urge went away i am very proud of this and thought i should share =]
    NeverBeenKissed93 NeverBeenKissed93 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    A Poemm..

    Silver glints Skin parts Red wells Scarlet drips I am at peace with my demons. Tears fall Blood runs White’s soaked Head hung I am ashamed of what I’ve done Lies told Scars hide Scabs peel Demons die I am doing the best I can Smiles faked Kisses true Love hurts Mind...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12, 2011

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    EVERYONE Knows.

    i think almost everyone in my grade knows i cut myself. i told one person, who, with permission from me, told another person, who decided to tell about ten people, without permission. so, the chain reactions started. like today, my friend reid wanted to see my wrist, cuz he...
    cokezebno cokezebno 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2007

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    I just cut myself for the first time in 2 years.

    I thought I finally beat it, but I felt all the sadness welling up inside and only my blade could let it out.
    Derfthequantumpotato Derfthequantumpotato 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 10

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    My School Found Out..

    Litterally 3 days before school ended one of my teachers saw and contacted the psyciatrist to come and talk to me. I was entirely lying to her. I told her it was the first time (LIE) and I told her that it was a one time thing and I told her that is was only because I was...
    lonelyxsoul lonelyxsoul 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    I Cut To Forget All The Other Pain

    I haven`t done it in a long time. I started up again a couple of weeks ago. I cut to numb the pain of what`s going on in my life. I know that there are other ways to deal with the stresses of everyday life. Not many people outside of my immediate family know that I do this. I`m...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    Great. It happened. Again.

    Frankly, I lost count of how many, but i know it's over 15. i can feel my wrists getting hot. One of them had a little blood. After all, i can't expect much from the dull scissors i rake across my skin. It hurts. And i can't help but like it. I hate this. But i can't help it...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I just can't handle this.

    It's too much.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 14

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