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I Cut Myself

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    I was 4 days clean and I just did it.

    I don't even know why, literally nothing happened to me. I just saw my blades and felt the urge. I feel like I've wasted my guys time, he has listened to me crying for hours to try to get me to stop and I just let him down. And myself. And everyone. I feel like such a failure, I...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8

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    Wally

    I have the tendency to cut myself when i feel scared, alone or helpless. l: I once cut a smiley face into my leg. I named him Wally. He tries to cheer me up when i get sad l: Sometimes Sarah places the game, Where is Wally, but I like that game X3 She doesn't judge me for my...
    jollyTira jollyTira 18-21, F Sep 22, 2013

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    I am a cutter, I have been cutting

    since the age of 12. For the longest time, it was a daily thing for me. Its how I coped with everything that was happening. Over the years, I have gone months on end without cutting, but then I'd pick it back up. Cutting is an addiction for me, one that I face every day. its...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    My School Found Out..

    Litterally 3 days before school ended one of my teachers saw and contacted the psyciatrist to come and talk to me. I was entirely lying to her. I told her it was the first time (LIE) and I told her that it was a one time thing and I told her that is was only because I was...
    lonelyxsoul lonelyxsoul 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    In A Strange Place

    My breasts. I cut them mostly because no one will find out. The only person I worry about finding out is my best friend. We take baths together and get dressed in front of each other. Guess I'll just have to be careful around her. It's such a tender sensitive place to cut. The...
    poetvann poetvann 18-21, F 5 Responses May 10, 2013

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    Why Cant I Just Stop??

    Today, I cut myself. Again. After I swore to my family and myself that I would not ever do it again. I am probably the youngest person on here. Im 14. Everyone keeps telling me, begging me to stop and it hurts me to see them so hurt by my actions. But the thing is, I CANT stop. I...
    ifeelsoalone ifeelsoalone 16-17, F 46 Responses May 19, 2007

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    Just Cuttin

    I cut when I feel very depressed and alone in the world. I know I have little reason for it but I feel so unloved by those around me. No one ever stays there, they all leave. So i have been cutting my wrist for almost 2 years (obviously not every day but on occasion) and I have...
    NoNervesLeft NoNervesLeft 18-21, M Oct 7, 2013

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    I am so reliant on my guy

    for everything. He's the only one that can talk me out of cutting myself and I know he wants me to stop but I feel like I am such a burden. He told me to stop being stupid and even if I am, 'we choose our burdens', I just can't work out why he would choose me. Why would anyone...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    Nobody Knows

    I live alone, I work in an ER where I see SI's all the time, My family live minutes from me and its weird how know ones. Sometimes I want blurt out to a nurse in the room "I am a cutter!" but then I know I'll have to stop. Anything can trigger it. If someone doesn't...
    AlwaysHavingIssues AlwaysHavingIssues 22-25, F 20 Responses Mar 27, 2008

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    One of My Ways to Cope With Depression

    depression has linked to most of my stories, neway.. i started to cut myself abou 3weeks ago, i found it was my only way to cope with depression instead of drinkin or smoking. As smoking and drinkin can be life threatening but superficial cuts are not. I cut my wrists a few...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-18, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2007

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    Not Enough to Be An Addiction; Too Much to Be Just a Habit...

    Twenty minutes ago, I sneaked out of my dorm room, clutching a blood soaked wad of tissues, ran to the bathroom wrapped it in more tissue and dumped it in the trash, then with the furtiveness of a junkie, washed as much of the blood that wasn't congealed off of my arm and ran...
    JadedNihilist JadedNihilist 18-21, F 34 Responses Dec 10, 2007

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    It Just Feels So Good

    i started cutting in 2006. life was spiralling downhill and i was depressed to say the least. i had no intention of commiting suicide at the time. i was just hurting so bad on the inside for so long that it started to feel like i was hurting over nothing. i just wanted to give...
    suey suey 19-21, F 8 Responses Feb 20, 2008

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    I try not to and usualy dont.

    I did it way to deep whn i was 16 and it really put me off and was so shame to go to the hospital and make up it was an accident. scars are ugly, i try and remember that.
    wereallcrazyhere wereallcrazyhere 22-25, F Dec 8, 2013

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    I Am Trying to Stop....

    I am trying to stop cutting, everyday is a challenge for me, and everyday I have to fight inner deamons to beat the urge to cut, but I am doing the best I can, to be completly cut free, the longest I have ever gone, was almost a year without cutting, I am hoping to be able to do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 7, 2009

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    I thought I was done.

    After about 3 years I was clean, had it all figured out, stopped holding in emotion, stress and anger to release it with blood. Found out I just got better at holding it in. I was alone at night and without warning I pulled out a knife and cut the top of my hand. That was 3...
    Paradiselost90 Paradiselost90 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    I Cut To Forget All The Other Pain

    I haven`t done it in a long time. I started up again a couple of weeks ago. I cut to numb the pain of what`s going on in my life. I know that there are other ways to deal with the stresses of everyday life. Not many people outside of my immediate family know that I do this. I`m...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    Cut The Pain Away

    I have to type this on a tablet, for fear of being caught. Its late, im tired but the stinging in my heart and my wounds is keeping me awake. I started in 8th grade, after my father lost his job and started hanging around the house more. I love him and he loves me, but he is a...
    ThePainIFeelInside ThePainIFeelInside 22-25, F Sep 22, 2013

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    I Enjoy The Pain

    hi i am 23 yrs old, i first started cutting when i was like 18, i would do it to take the pain away from my heart. I was at my bf house and we had an argument and i was in the bathroom and he caught me in the act. After that i quit. I didnt cut myself for more than 2 years. I...
    sillyxo sillyxo 22-25, F Sep 29, 2013

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    30 Days Cut Free!

    I'm 30 days or a rough month cut free now! Very pleased. Not sure what changed. Maybe its the new cat? If anything happens to me, Kitty would have no one. Also kitty makes me happy too.
    drakneko drakneko 22-25, T 2 Responses Sep 29, 2013

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    Cut And Bleed. (possibly Trigerring)

    I don't cut myself anymore but I DO still have urges I just couldn't find a current group I have that this would fit under. this is what cutting is for me.  I feel the urge to cut my skin and let the blood flow and as I watch a calmness and state, of focus allows me...
    BelleRaven BelleRaven 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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    First Time Nd Now I Know About "Addiction"

    my group of friends consists of mostly "emo" kids and a few "normal" kids, and my best friend killed himself a few days ago.. we all loved him and are really grieving.. but especially. iv been crying alot and the only reason i didnt cut yet was cuz i was to...
    emogirlnattie emogirlnattie 16-18, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2007

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    When people think of cutters most of them think

    we cut our wrists. This is a wrong assumption most of us have learned by now that wrists and forearms are too visible and we get made fun of or bullied because of it. We instead cut shoulders, legs and other areas that aren't visible and leave the wrist and forearm for the grand...
    dmcapp89 dmcapp89 22-25 Dec 10, 2013

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    I would at least want to make people understand

    why self harmers cut. We cut not because we want to die. We cut because when there is to much abuse such as Mind games, mental, emotional and psychological abuse it becomes to much for us. No one will understand us, we have triggers that pushes us to that point to self harm...
    snowbunny123456 snowbunny123456 46-50, F 2 days ago

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    Confessions

    (this might be long and boring being I have a few things on my mind right now (and my english might be a little fishy at times, sry) I just cut myself again, after swearing to myself that I wouldn't. I just can't stop. Well.. sometimes it can be enough to just press the knife to...
    thomasis thomasis 21-25, M 3 Responses Apr 15, 2007

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    My Fault..

    Here i am today, typing on a tablet because i cant use the computer, paranoid that someone will look over my shoulder and find out the truth. Yes, i cut. Like today, and many days before. Ive tried to stop. I really did. But i cant. Its like i need it. And all for what? A second...
    LostRAM LostRAM 18-21 1 Response Oct 21, 2013

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    I Love Cutting

    Its over a year since i started cutting myself in which i tried a lot of times to stop cutting myself but no result everytime i fail with a new scar on my skin i admit that i think i cant stop cutting anymore because i know its so comforting when i am depressed I broke many...
    aloserlikeme aloserlikeme 18-21, M 8 Responses Jan 22, 2012

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    My habit began early on in middle school.

    I had accidentally cut myself at first, just one of those freak accidents. It took my emotional pain away... I was able to focus on hiding the accidental cut so that no one would think I did it on purpose. It went unnoticed. I figured that I could get an emotional release and...
    HardTimesOfTristen HardTimesOfTristen 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 17

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    my father walked in on me cutting one day,

    and hen he say me he ran towards me, smacked me, and threw my knew at the wall. He then said if he ever saw e do it again hes kicking me out of the house, I am only 15
    Darklord546 Darklord546 18-21, M Jan 9

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    Stupid

    For some unknown reason, I started cutting myself the other day. My friends found out as I was pretty much in tears every time i moved my thighs but they keep on saying that I have no reason to do it. I have been useing a small peice of glass and have been adding little slices to...
    jinx5258 jinx5258 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2013

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    I Was Good For A Bit Until.......

    i cant believe i actually thought getting into university would help me out a bit, no more worrying about problems at home just the usual work overload which i usually handle well, but i was so wrong! my sweet problems followed me all the way to each and every single one of my...
    Lynette1001 Lynette1001 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2013

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    I've been sitting at my computer

    for a good hour now typing then deleting paragraph after paragraph, all the while blood running down my arm. I'm not really sure what to write, I can hardly make up my mind if I even want to share anything at all. I've never really spoken about my cutting to anyone it's always...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 21, 2013

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    I Hate to Admit It, But I'm a Cutter

    When I opened up the window to write this entry, I laughed to myself when I saw the box "check if this entry contains content inappropriate for children under 18" because lately my whole life is inappropriate for children under 18. Unlike a lot of people, I haven't...
    brownie17 brownie17 21-25, F 1 Response Apr 5, 2007

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    Different people have different ways of coping

    with things, mine is to cut myself. I love cutting, it relieves me so much. I have done it from a relatively young age, and it has been there for me, through some tough times :)
    ScarredSkin ScarredSkin 18-21, M Apr 2

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    because I hate my life

    because of a doctor will not leave me alone because people mock me harass me intimidate me severely depress me. I cut because I feel that my life is not worth living I cut because this doctor insists me to marry me to have kids with him. But on the positive side of people that I...
    alicia233445 alicia233445 46-50 a week ago

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    I did....last night. This is hurting me

    so much and affecting me in every way. I looked up to you and liked you but you don't even know I exist...I'm just another guy too you, someone you know but that's it. It doesn't even matter that I hurt myself or that I'm in such pain because you have your own problems right...
    JEJ22 JEJ22 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 20

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    My Story

    I'm actually 14. Here's my story. It all stared about 2 years ago when my father divorced my mother and she got custody of me. She blamed me for ruining her "perfect" life and having my father divorce her. She wanted to get away from everything so she moved us to England. Away...
    Inheritance Inheritance 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 21, 2012

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    I Did It Again.

    I cut myself last night.  Actually I wanted to kill myself.  But, dying wasn't enough, I wanted to suffer.  I always make myself suffer.  I cut myself, not too deep mind the pain is better when it's a shallow cut.  I cut myself with all the knives I could...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2007

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    I've been just scratching myself on my arms

    for a few months now and I thought I would just keep doing that and it would be fine... but I feel like I've become addicted to it because it's so easy to convert my emotional pain into something physical, which is easier to understand. This morning I drew blood for the first...
    adams0 adams0 16-17, F Mar 24

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    It Hurts

    So, I'm here today to 'talk'. I've lost a lot of experience in those years. I'm 16 years old, and since I was 10 I cut myself. In my school I was a lonely guy, so I have living with bullies for a long time. They just hate me, for nothing. I was very lonely, so I start to cut...
    gabrielf gabrielf 22-25, M Nov 2, 2013

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    Where Can I Cut Myself So No-one Will See?

    Okay, I don't care about all the emotional crap attached to this.      I know I'm depressed, I don't want your help in that aspect, and I don't want professional help.. so don't. Not stomach, not legs, not arms, and not the roof of my...
    EscapingtheFate EscapingtheFate 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    My Cutting History

    So this story is going to be a break from the fun stuff and really go into some deep **** in my life. since i was 13 i have cut myself. it all started when i was raped that year, and i really felt worthless and used my sexuality to try and escape but the mentality of a **** and...
    ScarletDrops ScarletDrops 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 16, 2013

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    after almost one year of hand free from cutting

    , i cut myself ,, now i hate myself so much , i promised a lot of people that i am not gonna , but i did it :'( ,, og God forgive me forgive me my friends ,, i let u guys down :'(
    tinathefreak tinathefreak 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    No Title

    hmm were to begin well my names justin and im 17 and i cut myself. i dont mind it at all its not a big deal to me i dont really do it for attention i have a good amount of friends and they would probably not even care if they found out first things first i told everyone i quit...
    SuicidalAkatsuki SuicidalAkatsuki 18-21, M 9 Responses May 12, 2010

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    Hiya, Okay, I don't know

    where to begin. You probably all know what this post will be about anyway seeing as the category it's in. I am not proud of myself for what I have been doing to my body but sometimes the feelings, the emotions will get so tangled up inside you everything is just a blur and as...
    WhyDoYouThinkYouKnowMe WhyDoYouThinkYouKnowMe 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 25, 2013

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    Razor Blade Goes Through Skin Like A Knife Goes Through Butter

    This morning I felt depressed. In a way I cent explain. As fas as I could I ripped my razor apart, shredding my fingertips in the process. I pulled my pants down a little to show my right hip. It was like I blanked out for a minute and when I came back to reality "NOT GOOD...
    teaser0tia teaser0tia 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 25, 2013

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    A Poemm..

    Silver glints Skin parts Red wells Scarlet drips I am at peace with my demons. Tears fall Blood runs White’s soaked Head hung I am ashamed of what I’ve done Lies told Scars hide Scabs peel Demons die I am doing the best I can Smiles faked Kisses true Love hurts Mind...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12, 2011

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    What Do You Do When You See No Way Out?

    What do you do when things get so bad that you can't see a way out? When every time you smile is lie. When you feel so low all the time, that it becomes natural, the usual, just another day at the office. What about when eventually you stop feeling sad, and you feel nothing. No...
    mma1995 mma1995 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    Summary Of My Story

    I was 11, felt like I was completely alone, and I somehow got the idea that if I cut myself it would make me feel better. I used a pair of scissors, did a scratch on my upper arm that barely even turned red, and decided it was too scary, the scissors were too dull. A few months...
    pencilsharpeners pencilsharpeners 18-21, F Nov 7, 2013

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    2 Nights Ago

    I really wanted to cut.. the knife was right on my bereau but i didnt do it.. i decided to write 2 poems and after writing the urge went away i am very proud of this and thought i should share =]
    NeverBeenKissed93 NeverBeenKissed93 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    What Is Going On ?

    I am a very bad cutter I am now 13 and have been cutting since I was 10 I didn't know what it was back then but I do now and I do it.. a lot,It has been a few months and my cuts are gone and just bad scars on my body but.... They are like .. coming back ? I don't know how to...
    Deadlylovely13 Deadlylovely13 70+ 2 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    EVERYONE Knows.

    i think almost everyone in my grade knows i cut myself. i told one person, who, with permission from me, told another person, who decided to tell about ten people, without permission. so, the chain reactions started. like today, my friend reid wanted to see my wrist, cuz he...
    cokezebno cokezebno 16-18, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2007

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    Another thing to make me want to cut - just got

    an email from camp America. Really wanted to go work there this summer, a couple of my friends are going, but I can't. Why? Because I self-harm. Feel like I am not good enough.
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 4

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    I Don't Know Anymore.

    Lately I've started to cut myself. I'm really not too sure why I do it. To feel the pain and actually bleed lets me know I'm still alive. It's been a long time since I've felt alive on the inside. I try to throw out hints to my friends that I'm not right and they're only...
    85continuum 85continuum 26-30, M 4 Responses Oct 8, 2010

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    Loneliness And Depression

    it all hurts so much on the insde to be alone i wish that someone would love me but no one does and i have to suffer for that the only thing that ever makes me feel better is when im alone and im crying and i feel that hurt inside my chest and when i reach for the blade and cut...
    SuicidalAkatsuki SuicidalAkatsuki 18-21, M 6 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Yes, I cut myself. I started about a year ago

    when I was left alone for a month. The stress of school, the house, and my past were too much. So I made a small slice on my wrist and then a few more. In total I had about 5 cuts that looked more like scratches then anything. But the pain... O the glorious pain. It's a special...
    TheForgottenTurtle TheForgottenTurtle 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 29, 2013

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    I cut myself, I'm so depressed and angry. I'm only 13 but I have recently stated cutting, I use "being tired" as an excuses for being depressed. I am sleep deprived though, but...
    purgahja purgahja 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I cut myself every day i can't control myself razor is my bestfriend no one ever wants to talk to me noone ever cared about my cuts thats makes me cut more and more as deep as i...
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 9