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I Cut Myself

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    Up until today I went eight months without

    giving in to the urge, but today I caved in and have 8 new scars to confirm how ****** up I truely am.
    EmoCinderella94 EmoCinderella94 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    Sometimes it really seems like it's the only

    option. I don't know if I will though.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 14

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    I Don't Know Anymore.

    Lately I've started to cut myself. I'm really not too sure why I do it. To feel the pain and actually bleed lets me know I'm still alive. It's been a long time since I've felt alive on the inside. I try to throw out hints to my friends that I'm not right and they're only...
    85continuum 85continuum 26-30, M 4 Responses Oct 8, 2010

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    Today was hard I force myself to be this person

    everyone expects me to be I went out saw people got drunk but the feeling on the inside is still the same. I smiled whipped my hair back and acted like I was on top of the world now I sit in a corner with my burning right arm I don't think its an addiction its just a feeling...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I cut myself a lot I like to it calms me down

    but guys PLZ don't do it I've been doing it for almost a year now and I'm 12 almost 13 I hate myself and cutting is vary addicting so guys PLZ stop I'm always here for everyone love u all
    deadgirlcutter deadgirlcutter 18-21, F Mar 24

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    The last few times I came close

    but this time I did it. I was overwhelmed and feel lost. I know I'll regret it.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 2 Responses May 3

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    2 times this week...when did i get this weak?

    i was over a year clean... oh well, no regrets..
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 2 Responses May 17

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    I just cut myself for the first time in 2 years.

    I thought I finally beat it, but I felt all the sadness welling up inside and only my blade could let it out.
    Derfthequantumpotato Derfthequantumpotato 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 10

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    I can't control my rage.

    Is so hard when loneliness and reality knock at my door
    Healinghate Healinghate 18-21, M Apr 28

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    In A Strange Place

    My breasts. I cut them mostly because no one will find out. The only person I worry about finding out is my best friend. We take baths together and get dressed in front of each other. Guess I'll just have to be careful around her. It's such a tender sensitive place to cut. The...
    poetvann poetvann 18-21, F 5 Responses May 10, 2013

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    First Time Nd Now I Know About "Addiction"

    my group of friends consists of mostly "emo" kids and a few "normal" kids, and my best friend killed himself a few days ago.. we all loved him and are really grieving.. but especially. iv been crying alot and the only reason i didnt cut yet was cuz i was to...
    emogirlnattie emogirlnattie 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2007

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    A Poemm..

    Silver glints Skin parts Red wells Scarlet drips I am at peace with my demons. Tears fall Blood runs White’s soaked Head hung I am ashamed of what I’ve done Lies told Scars hide Scabs peel Demons die I am doing the best I can Smiles faked Kisses true Love hurts Mind...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12, 2011

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    What Is Going On ?

    I am a very bad cutter I am now 13 and have been cutting since I was 10 I didn't know what it was back then but I do now and I do it.. a lot,It has been a few months and my cuts are gone and just bad scars on my body but.... They are like .. coming back ? I don't know how to...
    Deadlylovely13 Deadlylovely13 66-70 2 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    The third day in a row

    that I have to resist the urges. I believe I will fail again, unfortunately. Perhaps i should look at this as a new chance to have a longer clean streak. Oh, well. I can try, at least. I'm sorry, little wrists. I know you've suffered more than you should.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I really really want to.

    I want the outside to match the inside.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    I like to see the blood Running down in all its

    glory I see my pain running down away from my heart I can't stop I just can't.
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    We'Re Not Attention Seeke

    I cut earlier today and then my best friend invited me to hang out. So I went over to her house and then she starts talking to me about how she doesn't like people who cut and that she thinks they are attention seekers and I have to agree with her. It's a good thing I wore a...
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2013

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    Loneliness And Depression

    it all hurts so much on the insde to be alone i wish that someone would love me but no one does and i have to suffer for that the only thing that ever makes me feel better is when im alone and im crying and i feel that hurt inside my chest and when i reach for the blade and cut...
    SuicidalAkatsuki SuicidalAkatsuki 18-21, M 6 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Sigh... I went since November without cutting.

    Now just 5 minutes ago I cut again. I ignored my depression and every panic attack to not cut again, but I guess I couldn't take it anymore. I am just so depressed... I rarely laugh. I don't feel happy. Finding my blade deep under my bed was a relief. Slicing open my skin and...
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    I Did It Again.

    I cut myself last night.  Actually I wanted to kill myself.  But, dying wasn't enough, I wanted to suffer.  I always make myself suffer.  I cut myself, not too deep mind the pain is better when it's a shallow cut.  I cut myself with all the knives I could...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2007

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    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F Dec 8, 2014

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    I Know A Lot Of People Say They Cut Because They Feel Numb.

    But I think i'm the opposite. I don't cut because I can't feel anything, I do it because everything feels too much. Sometimes all my feelings are just completely overwhelming and all i want to do is STOP feeling them. I feel all these horrible thoughts about myself and my...
    Layka Layka 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 6, 2010

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    Why do people always assume im depressed

    because i have scars? I dont cut cuz it feels good, i cut for religious purposes. Im a Jashinist. Idiots.
    ForeverJashinist ForeverJashinist 18-21, M 7 Responses Apr 5

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    Why Cant I Just Stop??

    Today, I cut myself. Again. After I swore to my family and myself that I would not ever do it again. I am probably the youngest person on here. Im 14. Everyone keeps telling me, begging me to stop and it hurts me to see them so hurt by my actions. But the thing is, I CANT stop. I...
    ifeelsoalone ifeelsoalone 16-17, F 46 Responses May 19, 2007

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    I've done it again. I've stopped counting how

    many I've done. Back to Day 1. I'm going to try harder this time.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 27

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    Great. It happened. Again.

    Frankly, I lost count of how many, but i know it's over 15. i can feel my wrists getting hot. One of them had a little blood. After all, i can't expect much from the dull scissors i rake across my skin. It hurts. And i can't help but like it. I hate this. But i can't help it...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Apr 13

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    It happened AGAIN. Great.

    I didn't even get to Day 2. Oh, well. Maybe this time, I'll get somewhere.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    There's no escaping it tonight.

    I can't bring myself to even count anymore. I just wonder what the artwork will look like after it's done once again. I can still feel the ones from not even a week ago. The urges have never been this frequent. Lord knows why they are now. Sorry, 5 day streak. You're over with...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    Barely even 2 days later,

    and it happens again. Wonderful.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    Cut And Bleed. (possibly Trigerring)

    I don't cut myself anymore but I DO still have urges I just couldn't find a current group I have that this would fit under. this is what cutting is for me.  I feel the urge to cut my skin and let the blood flow and as I watch a calmness and state, of focus allows me...
    BelleRaven BelleRaven 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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    I did it again my body is on fire It feels

    so good Also skipping meals now Awsome! :/
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F Apr 16

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    EVERYONE Knows.

    i think almost everyone in my grade knows i cut myself. i told one person, who, with permission from me, told another person, who decided to tell about ten people, without permission. so, the chain reactions started. like today, my friend reid wanted to see my wrist, cuz he...
    cokezebno cokezebno 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2007

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    I drained 25 pounds of blood in one session of

    cutting myself in a hot bath.... It's stupid, life is hard enough as it is without me having to hide thick cuts, ugly scars, bloodstained carpets and bloodstained clothes... But I keep doing it anyways like it makes any of my other problems disappear or makes me feel good about...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 4

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    2 Nights Ago

    I really wanted to cut.. the knife was right on my bereau but i didnt do it.. i decided to write 2 poems and after writing the urge went away i am very proud of this and thought i should share =]
    NeverBeenKissed93 NeverBeenKissed93 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    I will never ever cut myself again.

    I'm over that; it's in the past now.
    xrefusetosink xrefusetosink 22-25, F 11 Responses May 16

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    I Am Trying to Stop....

    I am trying to stop cutting, everyday is a challenge for me, and everyday I have to fight inner deamons to beat the urge to cut, but I am doing the best I can, to be completly cut free, the longest I have ever gone, was almost a year without cutting, I am hoping to be able to do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 7, 2009

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    My habit began early on in middle school.

    I had accidentally cut myself at first, just one of those freak accidents. It took my emotional pain away... I was able to focus on hiding the accidental cut so that no one would think I did it on purpose. It went unnoticed. I figured that I could get an emotional release and...
    HardTimesOfTristen HardTimesOfTristen 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 17, 2014

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    It Just Feels So Good

    i started cutting in 2006. life was spiralling downhill and i was depressed to say the least. i had no intention of commiting suicide at the time. i was just hurting so bad on the inside for so long that it started to feel like i was hurting over nothing. i just wanted to give...
    suey suey 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 20, 2008

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    Well, so much for my 12 day streak.

    So much for staying clean until graduation. Time to start over. Day one begins again.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Confessions

    (this might be long and boring being I have a few things on my mind right now (and my english might be a little fishy at times, sry) I just cut myself again, after swearing to myself that I wouldn't. I just can't stop. Well.. sometimes it can be enough to just press the knife to...
    thomasis thomasis 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 15, 2007

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    Not Enough to Be An Addiction; Too Much to Be Just a Habit...

    Twenty minutes ago, I sneaked out of my dorm room, clutching a blood soaked wad of tissues, ran to the bathroom wrapped it in more tissue and dumped it in the trash, then with the furtiveness of a junkie, washed as much of the blood that wasn't congealed off of my arm and ran...
    JadedNihilist JadedNihilist 18-21, F 34 Responses Dec 10, 2007

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    I used to cut myself.

    ..mostly during my past hospitalization. I'm okay now..I got through it. And hopefully my scars will eventually heal.
    Raybae Raybae 18-21, F May 16

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    hmm were to begin well my names justin and im 17 and i cut myself. i dont mind it at all its not a big deal to me i dont really do it for attention i have a good amount of friends and they would probably not even care if they found out first things first i told everyone i quit...
    SuicidalAkatsuki SuicidalAkatsuki 18-21, M 9 Responses May 12, 2010

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    Nobody Knows

    I live alone, I work in an ER where I see SI's all the time, My family live minutes from me and its weird how know ones. Sometimes I want blurt out to a nurse in the room "I am a cutter!" but then I know I'll have to stop. Anything can trigger it. If someone doesn't...
    AlwaysHavingIssues AlwaysHavingIssues 22-25, F 20 Responses Mar 27, 2008

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    I was 4 days clean and I just did it.

    I don't even know why, literally nothing happened to me. I just saw my blades and felt the urge. I feel like I've wasted my guys time, he has listened to me crying for hours to try to get me to stop and I just let him down. And myself. And everyone. I feel like such a failure, I...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8, 2014

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    Not anymore, but I want to

    so badly I can't stand it 😣 I'm not going to though because I know I'll feel stupid and regret the **** out of it afterwards. I just want to feel something other than this dull empty ache in my chest.
    marinadelmonroe marinadelmonroe 18-21, F May 16

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    When people think of cutters most of them think

    we cut our wrists. This is a wrong assumption most of us have learned by now that wrists and forearms are too visible and we get made fun of or bullied because of it. We instead cut shoulders, legs and other areas that aren't visible and leave the wrist and forearm for the grand...