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I Cut Myself

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    I do cut myself. Not

    for the thrill. Not because I want attention. But because it makes me feel somewhat human I guess. It's kind of hard to explain. My mother and other people look to me like I am a gross monstrosity, like I'm an illness or something. I dont know something like that I guess. When I...
    XxLittleBrotherxX XxLittleBrotherxX 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 18, 2014

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    I lost count of how many times I just did.

    My shoulder is a bloody ruin. In tatters. Just like the rest of me. Like I went to war with my flag high and got my *** kicked, and now my banner lies sopping and drenched in my own blood.
    SunnysBlueForever SunnysBlueForever 18-21, F Jun 20, 2014

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    I found a way to have the same amount of pain

    and it's nearly invisible. And it last longer because you can keep digging in the same spot. You make a blister on your hand and peel away the skin and when you get mad you push your nail into it and it hurts like a *****.
    wolfieblue wolfieblue 18-21, F Nov 26, 2014

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    Because I get bullied

    and my family and friends call me names and doesn't believe in me
    Hottim101 Hottim101 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 2, 2014

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    EVERYONE Knows.

    i think almost everyone in my grade knows i cut myself. i told one person, who, with permission from me, told another person, who decided to tell about ten people, without permission. so, the chain reactions started. like today, my friend reid wanted to see my wrist, cuz he...
    cokezebno cokezebno 16-18, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2007

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    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F Jan 16

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    I'm a teenage stressed out from school

    and among other things and I haven't cut myself in 3 years since freshman year, now a junior. However, every time, one little thing happens, I begin to shut down and those feelings come back. I haven't done it for so long, I'm not about to start now. Those scars are a constant...
    Gemini0619 Gemini0619 22-25, F Sep 23, 2014

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    I cut yesterday on Thanksgiving.

    I am sorta anorexic so i dont like to eat alot. Only when i feel hungry, so like 2 times a day i will eat something small. But being around (No offence) fat people who love to stuff themselves made me feel soo sick. I diddnt even eat that much because i just couldn't stand...
    Nick54 Nick54 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 28, 2014

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    2 Nights Ago

    I really wanted to cut.. the knife was right on my bereau but i didnt do it.. i decided to write 2 poems and after writing the urge went away i am very proud of this and thought i should share =]
    NeverBeenKissed93 NeverBeenKissed93 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    In A Strange Place

    My breasts. I cut them mostly because no one will find out. The only person I worry about finding out is my best friend. We take baths together and get dressed in front of each other. Guess I'll just have to be careful around her. It's such a tender sensitive place to cut. The...
    poetvann poetvann 18-21, F 5 Responses May 10, 2013

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    When people think of cutters most of them think

    we cut our wrists. This is a wrong assumption most of us have learned by now that wrists and forearms are too visible and we get made fun of or bullied because of it. We instead cut shoulders, legs and other areas that aren't visible and leave the wrist and forearm for the grand...
    dmcapp89 dmcapp89 22-25 Dec 10, 2013

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    I don't have friends,

    beauty, or talents. Who the hell cares if i cut? It takes the pain away.
    coloroutofspace coloroutofspace 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2014

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    I want to cut so badly ;( there's

    so much inner pain and hatred but cutting will make it stop
    AngelicVomit AngelicVomit 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    I Don't Know Anymore.

    Lately I've started to cut myself. I'm really not too sure why I do it. To feel the pain and actually bleed lets me know I'm still alive. It's been a long time since I've felt alive on the inside. I try to throw out hints to my friends that I'm not right and they're only...
    85continuum 85continuum 26-30, M 4 Responses Oct 8, 2010

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    I'm not really good at cutting.

    I prefer to burn myself. But I do cut and recently I've been at it. My aunt stole my razor blade though and I couldn't sneak a knife into my room so I was left with this needle. It's large and kind of sharp. I could barely get it to scratch the surface of my skin and it made me...
    XxLittleBrotherxX XxLittleBrotherxX 18-21, M Nov 30, 2014

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    I Did It Again.

    I cut myself last night.  Actually I wanted to kill myself.  But, dying wasn't enough, I wanted to suffer.  I always make myself suffer.  I cut myself, not too deep mind the pain is better when it's a shallow cut.  I cut myself with all the knives I could...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2007

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    Video

    I'm doing a YouTube video about self harm awareness. I would really, really appreciate anyone who would be willing to help me. I'm a self harmer myself but I think I could really benefit from making a video about it. I want to help people and I really believe this could be the...
    amysfc95 amysfc95 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 23, 2012

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    I Cut To Forget All The Other Pain

    I haven`t done it in a long time. I started up again a couple of weeks ago. I cut to numb the pain of what`s going on in my life. I know that there are other ways to deal with the stresses of everyday life. Not many people outside of my immediate family know that I do this. I`m...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    I started cutting myself a couple months ago

    and I know that it is crazy to do but it just feels so good and is such a release for all of the depression and bullshit I don't want to feel. I know I am addicted to it but its the one thing that actually makes me feel anything besides sadness anymore, I honestly do not know if...
    fantasynerd fantasynerd 18-21, M Jun 19, 2014

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    What Is Going On ?

    I am a very bad cutter I am now 13 and have been cutting since I was 10 I didn't know what it was back then but I do now and I do it.. a lot,It has been a few months and my cuts are gone and just bad scars on my body but.... They are like .. coming back ? I don't know how to...
    Deadlylovely13 Deadlylovely13 70+ 2 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    Its soon going to be 5 months

    since I cut myself last time... Just a reminder to all of you: scars may last forever... Please don't do the same mistake I did...
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M Nov 11, 2014

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    What Do You Do When You See No Way Out?

    What do you do when things get so bad that you can't see a way out? When every time you smile is lie. When you feel so low all the time, that it becomes natural, the usual, just another day at the office. What about when eventually you stop feeling sad, and you feel nothing. No...
    mma1995 mma1995 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    Nobody Knows

    I live alone, I work in an ER where I see SI's all the time, My family live minutes from me and its weird how know ones. Sometimes I want blurt out to a nurse in the room "I am a cutter!" but then I know I'll have to stop. Anything can trigger it. If someone doesn't...
    AlwaysHavingIssues AlwaysHavingIssues 22-25, F 20 Responses Mar 27, 2008

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    hmm were to begin well my names justin and im 17 and i cut myself. i dont mind it at all its not a big deal to me i dont really do it for attention i have a good amount of friends and they would probably not even care if they found out first things first i told everyone i quit...
    SuicidalAkatsuki SuicidalAkatsuki 18-21, M 9 Responses May 12, 2010

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    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    I was 4 days clean and I just did it.

    I don't even know why, literally nothing happened to me. I just saw my blades and felt the urge. I feel like I've wasted my guys time, he has listened to me crying for hours to try to get me to stop and I just let him down. And myself. And everyone. I feel like such a failure, I...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8, 2014

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    Confessions

    (this might be long and boring being I have a few things on my mind right now (and my english might be a little fishy at times, sry) I just cut myself again, after swearing to myself that I wouldn't. I just can't stop. Well.. sometimes it can be enough to just press the knife to...
    thomasis thomasis 21-25, M 3 Responses Apr 15, 2007

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    I would just like to tell everyone

    that recovery is possible! I cut for 6 years and am currently 3 weeks clean. To an outsider it doesn't seem like that long but to us it seems like forever. Remember to take small steps and that you can do it!! If I can do it you can too!!!! Remember that I love you and if you...
    Katier32 Katier32 18-21, F Aug 25, 2014

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    icantstop29 icantstop29 26-30, F Nov 25, 2014

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    I have been a cutter

    for almost six years. I haven't cut in like two months. I wanna cut and or hurt myself so bad.
    thejoker94 thejoker94 18-21, F Sep 18, 2014

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    I joined a cutting "support group" on Facebook

    and lasted 2 minutes. I swear, literally all the posts were drama, drama, drama. At least on EP people tell their stories mostly without judgment.
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    I was feeling all awful.

    Stressed and jittery and weird. Then I cut myself, and now I feel normal again. Strange, hey.
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F Nov 24, 2014

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    One of My Ways to Cope With Depression

    depression has linked to most of my stories, neway.. i started to cut myself abou 3weeks ago, i found it was my only way to cope with depression instead of drinkin or smoking. As smoking and drinkin can be life threatening but superficial cuts are not. I cut my wrists a few...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-18, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2007

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    I started cutting it 7th grade

    and still do today I've cut on my legs and arms my side and sometimes on my chest at first it was painful but doing it over and over it started to get less painful I've also cut my fingers. Anywhere there's a vein
    cuttingsince7thgrade cuttingsince7thgrade 18-21, F May 24, 2014

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    Loneliness And Depression

    it all hurts so much on the insde to be alone i wish that someone would love me but no one does and i have to suffer for that the only thing that ever makes me feel better is when im alone and im crying and i feel that hurt inside my chest and when i reach for the blade and cut...
    SuicidalAkatsuki SuicidalAkatsuki 18-21, M 6 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Why Cant I Just Stop??

    Today, I cut myself. Again. After I swore to my family and myself that I would not ever do it again. I am probably the youngest person on here. Im 14. Everyone keeps telling me, begging me to stop and it hurts me to see them so hurt by my actions. But the thing is, I CANT stop. I...
    ifeelsoalone ifeelsoalone 16-17, F 46 Responses May 19, 2007

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    To Everyone Whos Cuts And Or Battles Depression. ≪3

    I joined this group even though I don't fight or battle depression as you all do. Why did I join this group? Because, I'd like to hear your stories. I want to help you, in any way possible. It sounds so stupid but I just want to help everyone in the world, just stop cutting...
    BlahBlahUNICORNS BlahBlahUNICORNS 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2013

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    My School Found Out..

    Litterally 3 days before school ended one of my teachers saw and contacted the psyciatrist to come and talk to me. I was entirely lying to her. I told her it was the first time (LIE) and I told her that it was a one time thing and I told her that is was only because I was...
    lonelyxsoul lonelyxsoul 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    I said I wasn't going to do it anymore

    and I hadn't for more than a month. But today I got in a big fight with my mom and she really hurt my feelings and I fell apart. I would never say to her what she said to me and I used it as an excuse to cut again.
    unfixablegirl unfixablegirl 36-40, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My Family Makes Me Cut Myself.

    Less than a year ago i thought cutting was the stupidest thing. One of my best friends did it. I asked her why and she said it helps her cope with her pain... So one day, my dad said awful things to me. Thing a father should NEVER say to his child. I went to my room and grabbed a...
    buriedlifefan04 buriedlifefan04 13-15 1 Response Aug 23, 2011

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    Cut And Bleed. (possibly Trigerring)

    I don't cut myself anymore but I DO still have urges I just couldn't find a current group I have that this would fit under. this is what cutting is for me.  I feel the urge to cut my skin and let the blood flow and as I watch a calmness and state, of focus allows me...
    BelleRaven BelleRaven 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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    First Time Nd Now I Know About "Addiction"

    my group of friends consists of mostly "emo" kids and a few "normal" kids, and my best friend killed himself a few days ago.. we all loved him and are really grieving.. but especially. iv been crying alot and the only reason i didnt cut yet was cuz i was to...
    emogirlnattie emogirlnattie 16-18, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2007

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    Not Enough to Be An Addiction; Too Much to Be Just a Habit...

    Twenty minutes ago, I sneaked out of my dorm room, clutching a blood soaked wad of tissues, ran to the bathroom wrapped it in more tissue and dumped it in the trash, then with the furtiveness of a junkie, washed as much of the blood that wasn't congealed off of my arm and ran...
    JadedNihilist JadedNihilist 18-21, F 34 Responses Dec 10, 2007

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    I Am Trying to Stop....

    I am trying to stop cutting, everyday is a challenge for me, and everyday I have to fight inner deamons to beat the urge to cut, but I am doing the best I can, to be completly cut free, the longest I have ever gone, was almost a year without cutting, I am hoping to be able to do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 7, 2009

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    I hate myself. I don't know why.

    I find life so hard and happiness so distant. I do my best. I'm strong. I'm trying ... but it's never enough. Cutting is a way to make me pay for not doing more, but how can I do better when this is my best? I rub jalapenos in my cuts and wish everyone could know they don't have...
    CASITY CASITY 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 9, 2014

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    *trigger warning* My best friend took my knife

    that i use to cut with and now i cant find a sharp enough kitchen knife so what should i do? Any suggestions?
    icantstop29 icantstop29 26-30, F 4 Responses May 29, 2014

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    I've cut everywhere but my wrist just feels

    right. I dont know why. It's like a jigsaw puzzle and my wrist is the center piece
    NewBeginnings5 NewBeginnings5 22-25 Nov 29, 2014

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    after almost one year of hand free from cutting

    , i cut myself ,, now i hate myself so much , i promised a lot of people that i am not gonna , but i did it :'( ,, og God forgive me forgive me my friends ,, i let u guys down :'(
    tinathefreak tinathefreak 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2014

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    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F Dec 8, 2014

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    I started again. It's been at least six years,

    I think, since I cut last. And I've been trying REALLY hard lately, to not cut. But I keep seeing it in my head. It's always there. And I try and push it away, but I can't. And then me wanting to hurt myself just gets ridiculous. Pictures of me wanting to burn myself on the...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 28, 2014

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    Hi, I'm a 19 year old dude

    and i... wait Let me start with this... Sept. 4th, 2013 I was riding my moped (not wearing a helmet) through the center of my home town when I was hit head on by a van. both of us were traveling at about 35-40 mph I should be dead, or in a hospital still. But, being the miracle...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 9, 2014

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    When immense sadness fills my heart I don't

    know how to cope or what to do. Sometimes I don't even understand why I feel sad or down. Sometimes my reaction and self hate surprises me and I don't know what I am to do. I am affected easily by my surroundings and on goings of my life. I am a very sensitive soul. I have...
    searchingfar searchingfar 22-25, F