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I Cut Myself

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    Back to Day 1. I wonder

    if I'll ever maintain a 5 month streak again. Perhaps. But at this rate, it seems doubtful.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 1 Response May 31

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    It seems as if there's no escaping it tonight.

    Dang. I thought I would've gone through at least ONE day being clean. Oh, well. There's always tomorrow.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 9

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    Cut And Bleed. (possibly Trigerring)

    I don't cut myself anymore but I DO still have urges I just couldn't find a current group I have that this would fit under. this is what cutting is for me.  I feel the urge to cut my skin and let the blood flow and as I watch a calmness and state, of focus allows me...
    BelleRaven BelleRaven 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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    Again. At least I could hold off

    for one day. It's a little progress. Little, but still progress.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Jun 12

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    My habit began early on in middle school.

    I had accidentally cut myself at first, just one of those freak accidents. It took my emotional pain away... I was able to focus on hiding the accidental cut so that no one would think I did it on purpose. It went unnoticed. I figured that I could get an emotional release and...
    HardTimesOfTristen HardTimesOfTristen 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 17, 2014

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    Once again, the blade has met my wrists.

    Dang. And I was doing so good.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 8

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    I Am Trying to Stop....

    I am trying to stop cutting, everyday is a challenge for me, and everyday I have to fight inner deamons to beat the urge to cut, but I am doing the best I can, to be completly cut free, the longest I have ever gone, was almost a year without cutting, I am hoping to be able to do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 7, 2009

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    First Time Nd Now I Know About "Addiction"

    my group of friends consists of mostly "emo" kids and a few "normal" kids, and my best friend killed himself a few days ago.. we all loved him and are really grieving.. but especially. iv been crying alot and the only reason i didnt cut yet was cuz i was to...
    emogirlnattie emogirlnattie 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2007

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    It happened AGAIN. Great.

    I didn't even get to Day 2. Oh, well. Maybe this time, I'll get somewhere.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    So i spend most it not all of my time alone

    outside of work. Tonight instead of talking with my razor i figured i would try something new. Nevertheless i will end the night by giving up again but maybe this will help. Seems like everywhere i go in rl or online i just get shot down and called a coward or attention seeker...
    alwaysalonewithmythoughts alwaysalonewithmythoughts 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I cut when I feel trapped

    or like I dont have any control
    Brimmless Brimmless 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 7

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    Barely even 2 days later,

    and it happens again. Wonderful.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F May 25

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    Today was hard I force myself to be this person

    everyone expects me to be I went out saw people got drunk but the feeling on the inside is still the same. I smiled whipped my hair back and acted like I was on top of the world now I sit in a corner with my burning right arm I don't think its an addiction its just a feeling...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F May 20

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    One of My Ways to Cope With Depression

    depression has linked to most of my stories, neway.. i started to cut myself abou 3weeks ago, i found it was my only way to cope with depression instead of drinkin or smoking. As smoking and drinkin can be life threatening but superficial cuts are not. I cut my wrists a few...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2007

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    A Poemm..

    Silver glints Skin parts Red wells Scarlet drips I am at peace with my demons. Tears fall Blood runs White’s soaked Head hung I am ashamed of what I’ve done Lies told Scars hide Scabs peel Demons die I am doing the best I can Smiles faked Kisses true Love hurts Mind...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12, 2011

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    There's no escaping it tonight.

    I can't bring myself to even count anymore. I just wonder what the artwork will look like after it's done once again. I can still feel the ones from not even a week ago. The urges have never been this frequent. Lord knows why they are now. Sorry, 5 day streak. You're over with...
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    I Did It Again.

    I cut myself last night.  Actually I wanted to kill myself.  But, dying wasn't enough, I wanted to suffer.  I always make myself suffer.  I cut myself, not too deep mind the pain is better when it's a shallow cut.  I cut myself with all the knives I could...
    DarkPhoenix DarkPhoenix 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2007

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    My Family Makes Me Cut Myself.

    Less than a year ago i thought cutting was the stupidest thing. One of my best friends did it. I asked her why and she said it helps her cope with her pain... So one day, my dad said awful things to me. Thing a father should NEVER say to his child. I went to my room and grabbed a...
    buriedlifefan04 buriedlifefan04 13-15 1 Response Aug 23, 2011

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    I used to cut myself.

    ..mostly during my past hospitalization. I'm okay now..I got through it. And hopefully my scars will eventually heal.
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 16

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    My School Found Out..

    Litterally 3 days before school ended one of my teachers saw and contacted the psyciatrist to come and talk to me. I was entirely lying to her. I told her it was the first time (LIE) and I told her that it was a one time thing and I told her that is was only because I was...
    lonelyxsoul lonelyxsoul 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    We'Re Not Attention Seeke

    I cut earlier today and then my best friend invited me to hang out. So I went over to her house and then she starts talking to me about how she doesn't like people who cut and that she thinks they are attention seekers and I have to agree with her. It's a good thing I wore a...
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2013

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    I Know A Lot Of People Say They Cut Because They Feel Numb.

    But I think i'm the opposite. I don't cut because I can't feel anything, I do it because everything feels too much. Sometimes all my feelings are just completely overwhelming and all i want to do is STOP feeling them. I feel all these horrible thoughts about myself and my...
    Layka Layka 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 6, 2010

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    It Just Feels So Good

    i started cutting in 2006. life was spiralling downhill and i was depressed to say the least. i had no intention of commiting suicide at the time. i was just hurting so bad on the inside for so long that it started to feel like i was hurting over nothing. i just wanted to give...
    suey suey 18-21, F 8 Responses Feb 20, 2008

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    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Jun 11

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    I cut myself, but not

    as bad as I used to, it used to be so bad that my wrists would bleed non stop for 5 to 10 minutes.
    jordanwillis480 jordanwillis480 26-30, M Jun 9

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    Well, so much for my 12 day streak.

    So much for staying clean until graduation. Time to start over. Day one begins again.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 1 Response May 24

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    I just stole a razor from my mom

    and broke it. I cut 8 times on my arm. It felt so good
    anthonyalfano anthonyalfano 22-25, M Jun 18

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    I will never ever cut myself again.

    I'm over that; it's in the past now.
    xrefusetosink xrefusetosink 22-25, F 11 Responses May 16

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    It doesnt always mean i want to change.

    .sometimes i just want someone to understand,not try to change me....am i not good enough or something? If i was,.. then no one would want me to change. Just because i cut myself sometimes doesnt mean im a bad person it just means..i dont even know what it means but its my choice...
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 3 Responses May 22

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    Nobody Knows

    I live alone, I work in an ER where I see SI's all the time, My family live minutes from me and its weird how know ones. Sometimes I want blurt out to a nurse in the room "I am a cutter!" but then I know I'll have to stop. Anything can trigger it. If someone doesn't...
    AlwaysHavingIssues AlwaysHavingIssues 22-25, F 20 Responses Mar 27, 2008

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    I Don't Know Anymore.

    Lately I've started to cut myself. I'm really not too sure why I do it. To feel the pain and actually bleed lets me know I'm still alive. It's been a long time since I've felt alive on the inside. I try to throw out hints to my friends that I'm not right and they're only...
    85continuum 85continuum 26-30, M 4 Responses Oct 8, 2010

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    What Is Going On ?

    I am a very bad cutter I am now 13 and have been cutting since I was 10 I didn't know what it was back then but I do now and I do it.. a lot,It has been a few months and my cuts are gone and just bad scars on my body but.... They are like .. coming back ? I don't know how to...
    Deadlylovely13 Deadlylovely13 66-70 2 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    2 nights ago was probably the worst I've ever

    cut myself.There was so much blood....And now that I'm running out of room on the part of my wrist beneath my bracelets, I've been considering cutting on my leg as well. Oh, dear. I'm just not getting any better. Perhaps one day, I will. I can only pray to God that I will.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Jun 2

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    I thought I could last longer

    than this. oh, well. I'm a disappointment to everyone else. Why not be one to myself?
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    EVERYONE Knows.

    i think almost everyone in my grade knows i cut myself. i told one person, who, with permission from me, told another person, who decided to tell about ten people, without permission. so, the chain reactions started. like today, my friend reid wanted to see my wrist, cuz he...
    cokezebno cokezebno 16-17, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2007

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    In A Strange Place

    My breasts. I cut them mostly because no one will find out. The only person I worry about finding out is my best friend. We take baths together and get dressed in front of each other. Guess I'll just have to be careful around her. It's such a tender sensitive place to cut. The...
    poetvann poetvann 18-21, F 5 Responses May 10, 2013

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    2 Nights Ago

    I really wanted to cut.. the knife was right on my bereau but i didnt do it.. i decided to write 2 poems and after writing the urge went away i am very proud of this and thought i should share =]
    NeverBeenKissed93 NeverBeenKissed93 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    after almost one year of hand free from cutting

    , i cut myself ,, now i hate myself so much , i promised a lot of people that i am not gonna , but i did it :'( ,, og God forgive me forgive me my friends ,, i let u guys down :'(
    tinathefreak tinathefreak 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17, 2014

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    Confessions

    (this might be long and boring being I have a few things on my mind right now (and my english might be a little fishy at times, sry) I just cut myself again, after swearing to myself that I wouldn't. I just can't stop. Well.. sometimes it can be enough to just press the knife to...
    thomasis thomasis 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 15, 2007

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    I'll be a week clean in 3 hours.

    .I don't know if I can make it until then
    PiecesOfPeace PiecesOfPeace 18-21, F 4 Responses May 26

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    I made it 14 days. 14 whole days.

    And I broke. Maybe I can make 14 days again. Maybe even longer. It's hope, at least.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Why Cant I Just Stop??

    Today, I cut myself. Again. After I swore to my family and myself that I would not ever do it again. I am probably the youngest person on here. Im 14. Everyone keeps telling me, begging me to stop and it hurts me to see them so hurt by my actions. But the thing is, I CANT stop. I...
    ifeelsoalone ifeelsoalone 16-17, F 46 Responses May 19, 2007

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    2 times this week...when did i get this weak?

    i was over a year clean... oh well, no regrets..
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 2 Responses May 17

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    Happened again. Yeesh.

    Maybe I'll at least be healed by graduation. I can hope.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F May 26

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    When out with a friend today

    and we saw a guy with scars up his arms. She made a comment about how she didn't think people like him would do that and called him emo (I hate that word and it makes me instantly angry). I just brushed it off because I don't like the subject. She knew about me cutting myself in...
    WhoseMe WhoseMe 18-21, F Jun 1

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    Not Enough to Be An Addiction; Too Much to Be Just a Habit...

    Twenty minutes ago, I sneaked out of my dorm room, clutching a blood soaked wad of tissues, ran to the bathroom wrapped it in more tissue and dumped it in the trash, then with the furtiveness of a junkie, washed as much of the blood that wasn't congealed off of my arm and ran...
    JadedNihilist JadedNihilist 18-21, F 34 Responses Dec 10, 2007

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    its hard when youre trying to keep in control,

    because you want to give in to the relief but it can be done. YOU control you, not the blade.