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I Cut Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,377 People

    What Is Going On ?

    I am a very bad cutter I am now 13 and have been cutting since I was 10 I didn't know what it was back then but I do now and I do it.. a lot,It has been a few months and my cuts are gone and just bad scars on my body but.... They are like .. coming back ? I don't know how to...
    Deadlylovely13 Deadlylovely13 70+ 2 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    My habit began early on in middle school.

    I had accidentally cut myself at first, just one of those freak accidents. It took my emotional pain away... I was able to focus on hiding the accidental cut so that no one would think I did it on purpose. It went unnoticed. I figured that I could get an emotional release and...
    HardTimesOfTristen HardTimesOfTristen 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    Where Can I Cut Myself So No-one Will See?

    Okay, I don't care about all the emotional crap attached to this.      I know I'm depressed, I don't want your help in that aspect, and I don't want professional help.. so don't. Not stomach, not legs, not arms, and not the roof of my...
    EscapingtheFate EscapingtheFate 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 15, 2009

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    My School Found Out..

    Litterally 3 days before school ended one of my teachers saw and contacted the psyciatrist to come and talk to me. I was entirely lying to her. I told her it was the first time (LIE) and I told her that it was a one time thing and I told her that is was only because I was...
    lonelyxsoul lonelyxsoul 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 8, 2012

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    A Poemm..

    Silver glints Skin parts Red wells Scarlet drips I am at peace with my demons. Tears fall Blood runs White’s soaked Head hung I am ashamed of what I’ve done Lies told Scars hide Scabs peel Demons die I am doing the best I can Smiles faked Kisses true Love hurts Mind...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 12, 2011

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    One cut, two cut, three cut,

    four. I hate this sick feeling of wanting more.
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F May 12

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    I would just like to tell everyone

    that recovery is possible! I cut for 6 years and am currently 3 weeks clean. To an outsider it doesn't seem like that long but to us it seems like forever. Remember to take small steps and that you can do it!! If I can do it you can too!!!! Remember that I love you and if you...
    Katier32 Katier32 18-21, F Aug 25

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    It could be just to feel pain.

    Sometimes it's just because I'm bored. I don't know why I do it anymore, but I've been doing it since I was very young, and I'm near positive that it's an addiction. My shoulders and legs are covered in white scars, big and small alike, and I take a kind of sick pride in them. I...
    LuckTickets LuckTickets 18-21, M Jun 4

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    I was 9yrs old and in the 4th grade I didn't

    have a lot of friends and I lived in my sister's shadow so one day I took a razor from the bathroom and I cut my self it wasn't that serious until I was in the 6th grade and I took a razor blade and sliced my skin open it felt good but I still wish someone would see them
    lishlish2008 lishlish2008 18-21, F May 12

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    Why Cant I Just Stop??

    Today, I cut myself. Again. After I swore to my family and myself that I would not ever do it again. I am probably the youngest person on here. Im 14. Everyone keeps telling me, begging me to stop and it hurts me to see them so hurt by my actions. But the thing is, I CANT stop. I...
    ifeelsoalone ifeelsoalone 16-17, F 46 Responses May 19, 2007

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    Nobody Knows

    I live alone, I work in an ER where I see SI's all the time, My family live minutes from me and its weird how know ones. Sometimes I want blurt out to a nurse in the room "I am a cutter!" but then I know I'll have to stop. Anything can trigger it. If someone doesn't...
    AlwaysHavingIssues AlwaysHavingIssues 22-25, F 20 Responses Mar 27, 2008

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    I Am Trying to Stop....

    I am trying to stop cutting, everyday is a challenge for me, and everyday I have to fight inner deamons to beat the urge to cut, but I am doing the best I can, to be completly cut free, the longest I have ever gone, was almost a year without cutting, I am hoping to be able to do...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 7, 2009

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    2 Nights Ago

    I really wanted to cut.. the knife was right on my bereau but i didnt do it.. i decided to write 2 poems and after writing the urge went away i am very proud of this and thought i should share =]
    NeverBeenKissed93 NeverBeenKissed93 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17, 2011

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    One of My Ways to Cope With Depression

    depression has linked to most of my stories, neway.. i started to cut myself abou 3weeks ago, i found it was my only way to cope with depression instead of drinkin or smoking. As smoking and drinkin can be life threatening but superficial cuts are not. I cut my wrists a few...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-18, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2007

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    I lost count of how many times I just did.

    My shoulder is a bloody ruin. In tatters. Just like the rest of me. Like I went to war with my flag high and got my *** kicked, and now my banner lies sopping and drenched in my own blood.
    ForeverBlueForeverAlone ForeverBlueForeverAlone 18-21, F Jun 20

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    I Don't Know Anymore.

    Lately I've started to cut myself. I'm really not too sure why I do it. To feel the pain and actually bleed lets me know I'm still alive. It's been a long time since I've felt alive on the inside. I try to throw out hints to my friends that I'm not right and they're only...
    85continuum 85continuum 26-30, M 4 Responses Oct 8, 2010

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    EVERYONE Knows.

    i think almost everyone in my grade knows i cut myself. i told one person, who, with permission from me, told another person, who decided to tell about ten people, without permission. so, the chain reactions started. like today, my friend reid wanted to see my wrist, cuz he...
    cokezebno cokezebno 16-18, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2007

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    Relapse Again.......

    Unfortunately I relapsed again on self harm. I went 3 whole months without doing it, but tonight I got into an argument with my brother in front of everyone and embarrassed myself. I hated myself for the things I said and I had no choice but to drive that blade across myself. It...
    PapercutLP48 PapercutLP48 22-25, M 1 Response May 26, 2013

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    In A Strange Place

    My breasts. I cut them mostly because no one will find out. The only person I worry about finding out is my best friend. We take baths together and get dressed in front of each other. Guess I'll just have to be careful around her. It's such a tender sensitive place to cut. The...
    poetvann poetvann 18-21, F 5 Responses May 10, 2013

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    Not Enough to Be An Addiction; Too Much to Be Just a Habit...

    Twenty minutes ago, I sneaked out of my dorm room, clutching a blood soaked wad of tissues, ran to the bathroom wrapped it in more tissue and dumped it in the trash, then with the furtiveness of a junkie, washed as much of the blood that wasn't congealed off of my arm and ran...
    JadedNihilist JadedNihilist 18-21, F 34 Responses Dec 10, 2007

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    because I hate my life

    because of a doctor will not leave me alone because people mock me harass me intimidate me severely depress me. I cut because I feel that my life is not worth living I cut because this doctor insists me to marry me to have kids with him. But on the positive side of people that I...
    alicia233445 alicia233445 46-50 Apr 11

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    I Cut To Forget All The Other Pain

    I haven`t done it in a long time. I started up again a couple of weeks ago. I cut to numb the pain of what`s going on in my life. I know that there are other ways to deal with the stresses of everyday life. Not many people outside of my immediate family know that I do this. I`m...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Sep 19, 2011

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    I was 4 days clean and I just did it.

    I don't even know why, literally nothing happened to me. I just saw my blades and felt the urge. I feel like I've wasted my guys time, he has listened to me crying for hours to try to get me to stop and I just let him down. And myself. And everyone. I feel like such a failure, I...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8

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    I started cutting myself a couple months ago

    and I know that it is crazy to do but it just feels so good and is such a release for all of the depression and bullshit I don't want to feel. I know I am addicted to it but its the one thing that actually makes me feel anything besides sadness anymore, I honestly do not know if...
    fantasynerd fantasynerd 18-21, M Jun 19

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    Confessions

    (this might be long and boring being I have a few things on my mind right now (and my english might be a little fishy at times, sry) I just cut myself again, after swearing to myself that I wouldn't. I just can't stop. Well.. sometimes it can be enough to just press the knife to...
    thomasis thomasis 21-25, M 3 Responses Apr 15, 2007

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    Loneliness And Depression

    it all hurts so much on the insde to be alone i wish that someone would love me but no one does and i have to suffer for that the only thing that ever makes me feel better is when im alone and im crying and i feel that hurt inside my chest and when i reach for the blade and cut...
    SuicidalAkatsuki SuicidalAkatsuki 18-21, M 6 Responses May 19, 2010

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    Another thing to make me want to cut - just got

    an email from camp America. Really wanted to go work there this summer, a couple of my friends are going, but I can't. Why? Because I self-harm. Feel like I am not good enough.
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 4

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    Different people have different ways of coping

    with things, mine is to cut myself. I love cutting, it relieves me so much. I have done it from a relatively young age, and it has been there for me, through some tough times :)
    ScarredSkin ScarredSkin 18-21, M Apr 2

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    I would at least want to make people understand

    why self harmers cut. We cut not because we want to die. We cut because when there is to much abuse such as Mind games, mental, emotional and psychological abuse it becomes to much for us. No one will understand us, we have triggers that pushes us to that point to self harm...
    snowbunny123456 snowbunny123456 46-50, F Apr 16

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    It gives a moment of feeling,

    escaping the dull numb world, even for a moment. I hide the scars, i've hid them for years. People do know about my "habit", eventually someone spots the lines on your arm, they know what it is, they never understand.
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 4

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    First Time Nd Now I Know About "Addiction"

    my group of friends consists of mostly "emo" kids and a few "normal" kids, and my best friend killed himself a few days ago.. we all loved him and are really grieving.. but especially. iv been crying alot and the only reason i didnt cut yet was cuz i was to...
    emogirlnattie emogirlnattie 16-18, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2007

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    my father walked in on me cutting one day,

    and hen he say me he ran towards me, smacked me, and threw my knew at the wall. He then said if he ever saw e do it again hes kicking me out of the house, I am only 15
    Darklord546 Darklord546 22-25, M Jan 9

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    I was clean for 8 months.

    Now im cutting again. That is all.
    icantstop29 icantstop29 26-30, F May 28

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    Yes, I cut myself. I started about a year ago

    when I was left alone for a month. The stress of school, the house, and my past were too much. So I made a small slice on my wrist and then a few more. In total I had about 5 cuts that looked more like scratches then anything. But the pain... O the glorious pain. It's a special...
    TheForgottenTurtle TheForgottenTurtle 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 29, 2013

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    I Love Cutting

    Its over a year since i started cutting myself in which i tried a lot of times to stop cutting myself but no result everytime i fail with a new scar on my skin i admit that i think i cant stop cutting anymore because i know its so comforting when i am depressed I broke many...
    aloserlikeme aloserlikeme 18-21, M 8 Responses Jan 22, 2012

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    I have been a cutter

    for almost six years. I haven't cut in like two months. I wanna cut and or hurt myself so bad.
    thejoker94 thejoker94 18-21, F Sep 18

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    It Just Feels So Good

    i started cutting in 2006. life was spiralling downhill and i was depressed to say the least. i had no intention of commiting suicide at the time. i was just hurting so bad on the inside for so long that it started to feel like i was hurting over nothing. i just wanted to give...
    suey suey 19-21, F 8 Responses Feb 20, 2008

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    Cut And Bleed. (possibly Trigerring)

    I don't cut myself anymore but I DO still have urges I just couldn't find a current group I have that this would fit under. this is what cutting is for me.  I feel the urge to cut my skin and let the blood flow and as I watch a calmness and state, of focus allows me...
    BelleRaven BelleRaven 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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    No Title

    hmm were to begin well my names justin and im 17 and i cut myself. i dont mind it at all its not a big deal to me i dont really do it for attention i have a good amount of friends and they would probably not even care if they found out first things first i told everyone i quit...
    SuicidalAkatsuki SuicidalAkatsuki 18-21, M 9 Responses May 12, 2010

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    I can't watch a movie

    if there is blood or gore in it, but I can take a razor to my arm. It's completely irrational, I know, but sometimes I feel completely powerless. When I am really depressed, my thoughts are not my own. It's not that I hear voices, it's just that I lose control of the words in my...
    rinn101 rinn101 18-21, F Apr 30

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    I'm a teenage stressed out from school

    and among other things and I haven't cut myself in 3 years since freshman year, now a junior. However, every time, one little thing happens, I begin to shut down and those feelings come back. I haven't done it for so long, I'm not about to start now. Those scars are a constant...
    Gemini0619 Gemini0619 22-25, F a week ago

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    My Cutting History

    So this story is going to be a break from the fun stuff and really go into some deep **** in my life. since i was 13 i have cut myself. it all started when i was raped that year, and i really felt worthless and used my sexuality to try and escape but the mentality of a **** and...
    ScarletDrops ScarletDrops 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 16, 2013

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    I started again. It's been at least six years,

    I think, since I cut last. And I've been trying REALLY hard lately, to not cut. But I keep seeing it in my head. It's always there. And I try and push it away, but I can't. And then me wanting to hurt myself just gets ridiculous. Pictures of me wanting to burn myself on the...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I hate myself. I don't know why.

    I find life so hard and happiness so distant. I do my best. I'm strong. I'm trying ... but it's never enough. Cutting is a way to make me pay for not doing more, but how can I do better when this is my best? I rub jalapenos in my cuts and wish everyone could know they don't have...
    CASITY CASITY 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 9

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    *trigger warning* My best friend took my knife

    that i use to cut with and now i cant find a sharp enough kitchen knife so what should i do? Any suggestions?
    icantstop29 icantstop29 26-30, F 4 Responses May 29

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    I have been a cutter

    for 6 years and a drug addict for 3. I am a recovering IV heroin user living in a sober living house. I recently started to cut myself to get away from the racing thoughts in my head. I don't know what to do anymore I feel so alone.
    lifeisabsurd lifeisabsurd 22-25, M Jun 22

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    Great. It's ******* happened again.

    two cuts on both rwrists. Four in total. ******* great -_-
    Snow1353 Snow1353 18-21, F Jul 11

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    I am a cutter, I have been cutting

    since the age of 12. For the longest time, it was a daily thing for me. Its how I coped with everything that was happening. Over the years, I have gone months on end without cutting, but then I'd pick it back up. Cutting is an addiction for me, one that I face every day. its...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F Mar 14

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    I've been just scratching myself on my arms

    for a few months now and I thought I would just keep doing that and it would be fine... but I feel like I've become addicted to it because it's so easy to convert my emotional pain into something physical, which is easier to understand. This morning I drew blood for the first...
    adams0 adams0 16-17, F Mar 24

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    I've been cutting for almost seven years.

    After a while I got good at hiding it. I have no reason to stop. Strangers telling me they care ****** me off and all my friends left me. It hurts a lot sometimes, but I thought maybe if I can't stop then I can help others keep it under control. I'm always here for questions...
    hidingfromthewindows hidingfromthewindows 18-21, F May 21

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    Hello everyone. I'm new to experience project.

    I'm just saying before if you have something cruel to say just don't say it thanks. Ok so let's start. I'm 14 and I'm a girl. I'm emo. I have a perfect life kinda. But I don't know why I'm emo.i am very sensitive so if someone says something mean then I just wanna cry.I hold...
    allyjanx allyjanx 18-21, F Jul 10

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    after almost one year of hand free from cutting

    , i cut myself ,, now i hate myself so much , i promised a lot of people that i am not gonna , but i did it :'( ,, og God forgive me forgive me my friends ,, i let u guys down :'(
    tinathefreak tinathefreak 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    My Story

    I'm actually 14. Here's my story. It all stared about 2 years ago when my father divorced my mother and she got custody of me. She blamed me for ruining her "perfect" life and having my father divorce her. She wanted to get away from everything so she moved us to England. Away...
    Inheritance Inheritance 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 21, 2012

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