I 'd Like to Change My Life, Right Now

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    i live in darkness, my fears consume me.

    . i harbor guilt...im quite acquainted with depression.. i am not happy in my life im overwhelmed with my decisions , indecision's, and past and present choices-- i dont know where to start... to change my life .. before its the end of my life...
    46-50, F
    8 Responses Feb 8, 2014
    jay50001 jay50001
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Mar 24, 2016
    aarcha33 aarcha33
    22-25, F
    10 Responses Mar 30, 2014

    OMG, Right??? .......

    .. .... and it's so frustrating that EP "requires" a also feeling here, but none of them ever match how I really feel and there's no "fill in the blank" option... FEELING FRUSTRATED
    Likewise2 Likewise2
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Mar 1, 2016

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    I finally changed my life.

    I'm so happy and proud. I made it.
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive
    18-21, F
    Aug 1, 2015

    i act like everything is alright

    but deep inside it hurts.. :)
    madilkhan madilkhan
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 13, 2015

    I wish I could talk to people without being

    so awkward. That I could make and keep a friend. That my real life friends would care. That I wouldn't stress myself out over things that don't matter. That I could write in willowy, complex sentences that seem to express every emotion under the sun. That I could understand...
    QuietViolets QuietViolets
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Jan 20, 2015
    hayzel1 hayzel1
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 7, 2015

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 1, 2016

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up) Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 10, 2016

    The only way I get something new from life,

    is when the changes happens. Unfortunately, I'm unable to produce those changes due to my lack of will to even try, if not the fear of the unknown. Someday, I hope I can learn how to get rid of these weaknesses in order to drive my life to a diifferent and more likable path.
    exodialp626 exodialp626
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 26, 2016

    i really really had enough of this routin i

    hate it , same things to do same places to go to , same faces to see , same people to talk to , i want change but idk where to start.
    danougi danougi
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    I'm such a horrible person.

    I have a loving family and I've ignored them for years. My relationship with all my family members suck and it's all my fault. I'm a horrible son, I'm a horrible brother. I'm a pathetic piece of $hit right now.....and I have been for a while. I have become so careless of my...
    Heretic9320 Heretic9320
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Feb 19, 2016

    ....i think i made a wrong choice

    but how m i to change that now..i don't know whether i will be satisfied fully with this thing in my life..i feel so insignificant and useless.
    deleted deleted
    Mar 21, 2016

    I guess that I have always felt alone.

    It's been such a long time that I have experienced ambition and happiness. When I was younger I would always be dancing and laughing, I guess that got lost along the way. I started to struggle with my low self esteem in middle school. Seeing all those pretty girls who knew...
    Uanessauu Uanessauu
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 30, 2015

    I'm 19 years old and it's been almost a year

    since I graduated high school. I remember having plans to at least attend the nearby community college, start investing my time into music composition, start looking towards a new career path. I discovered that I may just want to become a video game composer, creating and...
    WardenChult WardenChult
    22-25, M
    2 Responses May 15, 2015

    Some of you who know me

    and read this know exactly what I'm going through, know my thoughts and feelings. Know how I'm trying... For the rest of you my life has been sort of rough. A rough start, endless cycles of guilt, shame, depression...acting out.... I have to stop this. I have to be healthy...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Jul 23, 2014

    Thinking Positive..

    There are times in my life when I feel hurt and alone,I struggle to recapture the security of what once was,but I feel I must go threw the pain in order to allow myself to grow..I'm learning to accept what the past has given me what the present is and having the confidence to...
    Lydia66 Lydia66
    51-55, F
    10 Responses Nov 17, 2013

    i can be sleeping alone.

    i can be traveling alone. i can be living alone. i can be cry alone but i can't smile without any friends. dear users let's make friends with me.
    shakil1545 shakil1545
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Feb 3, 2016

    Change my fears, my habits,

    everything that goes wrong...or went wrong
    iVoice iVoice
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 2, 2015

    .... and I am doing it.

    ... amazing how much more you learn, when you try, than when you just think about it.
    Taurusedi Taurusedi
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Aug 26, 2014

    I've been at my job for 11

    and a half years. It's a job in customer service and was simply supposed to be something to get me through high school and then through college. However, I graduated in May and for some reason I am still there. I am a single parent with bills to pay and someone who relies on me...
    blazinblizzard5617 blazinblizzard5617
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Dec 14, 2015

    I liked to be beautiful

    and get 4 million dollars every day for like 10 years
    laurenzerbe laurenzerbe
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 23, 2015

    I wish if i had more money to buy clothes

    and daily needed items it just makes me feel so sad when i see my two big brothers having all the branded new clothes expensive phones laptops.. and me i always try to buy things that are Not expensive.. sometimes im not able to buy the things i need... my phone also doesn't...
    loveiseverything18 loveiseverything18
    18-21, F
    10 Responses Oct 16, 2015
    LOSTlo0ve LOSTlo0ve
    22-25, F
    10 Responses Aug 11, 2015

    Well I came on here throughout the years

    but ended up giving up on it due to life not going the way I needed. When I should have stayed for support and reaped the benefits of building EP friendships to share those bad experiences, I ran away instead. Only to come back and see its leaving. I've had a rough 3 years and...
    purplepurplepurplelove purplepurplepurplelove
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 17, 2016

    I'm ready. I deserve to be happy.

    I'm scared but I'm going to do it anyway. I have to fight for what I want. Don't believe me just watch.
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 7, 2015

    this year I went vegan,

    doubled my income, quit smoking, start working out and cycling. And am ready for mew changes :)
    nataliawww nataliawww
    26-30, F
    8 Responses Jun 2, 2014

    I'm having a break right now.

    I stopped in college for a while because I'm having self issues, financial, basically my problems got bigger for me. I'm hanging by a thread with my acads I could be kicked out of my program and it will be the worst thing in my life if it would happen. I know in myself that I've...
    wickedtrix wickedtrix
    18-21, F
    Mar 30, 2016

    Hi this is my story. I was born

    when my mom and dads were teens. My dad didn't even graduate and my mom never went to collage. I was diagnosed with autism at age 3. I went to doctors and took pills like crazy. I token pretty much any pill you can name. I never had friends.I was a freak of nature. I use to lie...
    tomkielove tomkielove
    18-21, F
    12 Responses Mar 10, 2015

    I want adventure in my life.

    I want to live a life full of passion and adventure. I think my life is boring. I want to do exciting stuff. There is a whole world out there to explore and i want to explore it. I just want to go run off somewhere very far away and forget about my mundane life and start a...
    neitheratomboynoragirlygirl neitheratomboynoragirlygirl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 17, 2016

    New city, New friends,

    Fresh reputation and be free with who i truly want to be will do good for me rn
    CosetteMunoz CosetteMunoz
    16-17, F
    Dec 23, 2015
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 14, 2016

    Husband asked me this morning

    if he could hold me. I said "Sure." Husband's arms are around me, and I feel no comfort what so ever. Am I an ******* for feeling this way? I give him a hug goodbye, and nothing but a sense of guilt. I'm at work, and I see Jay. I shouldn't have, but I did... Because I wanted...
    ReeCakes ReeCakes
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 7, 2015

    I'm so excited about moving.

    ..It's a new chance to start all over ...Meet new people, new job,new college ...I've learned from mistakes and my past.... I'm still growing and learning... I change everything and I don't know the future but I'm remaining optimistic
    Bronzeroses Bronzeroses
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2016

    Change does not take overnight.

    It is a process. And it demands consistency and hard work.
    Beyondthevisible Beyondthevisible
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 11, 2015

    Today i finished my exam .

    I dont know what to do this whole semester break. only couples of week break though.
    sammang123 sammang123
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 17, 2016

    Pondering a lot lately.

    Can you get to a point where you don't know yourself? That you realize you have been a chameleon most of your life. You have assumed the colors of those around you. You assume the identity that others place upon you such as parents, siblings, friends, your job, church, co...
    geminikygirl16 geminikygirl16
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Mar 1, 2016

    I have the feeling that the more I know the

    truth about our existence, the more I become... Sad, lost and disappointed. I also feel bored and wonder what makes life sense. I don't want to die. It would be selfish. I have a family and some friends... My vision of life is very pessimist and I hope I'm wrong but the more I...
    otoumie otoumie
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2015

    My girlfriend and I are planning on going

    abroad on a farm tour after we graduate college. We've joined World Wide Opportunities on Organic Farms and started to contact farmers to stay with, and it could be an amazing experience. I really hope that it works out well and that I do end up going. At this point, it seems so...
    Carvagio Carvagio
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 17, 2016

    I'm so bored of life lately.

    I don't want a relationship. I dont need new friends. I do productive things all the time. I dont know what it is, I just need a change.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

    My life is filled with misfortunes.

    .. most of which have and continue to happen. I am a survivor of a traumatic childhood filled with abuse from a father who was a manically depressed, religious fanatic alcoholic. My mother was my saving grace, my best friend, my confidant but I'd lost her over ten years ago. I...
    jbsean1 jbsean1
    70+, M
    1 Response Feb 27, 2016
    molly3493 molly3493
    41-45, F
    24 Responses Jan 22, 2015

    Choices...Chances...Changes You must make a

    CHOICE, to take a CHANCE, or your life will never CHANGE!
    CurvesandClass CurvesandClass
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Jun 4, 2015

    My husband looks right through me.

    He has no passion for me and we are no more than casual acquaintances. I need passion. I need fun. I need a partner.
    CafeAuLeah CafeAuLeah
    51-55, F
    7 Responses Nov 1, 2014
    HalcyonPacific HalcyonPacific
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Dec 1, 2015

    The Man in the Arena - Theodore Roosevelt It

    is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who...
    poodleroo poodleroo
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 25, 2015

    Sat at work yesterday polishing cutlery

    for the hundredth time in my life (a futile exercise but I'm a part time waitress apparently it's important) I just say to my colleagues 'guys there must be more to life than this'. They all stop for a second and say 'woah poetic', laugh and we carry on. Although we did end up...
    Serena6669 Serena6669
    22-25, F
    Dec 14, 2015

    I just joined EP yesterday.

    I really need someone to talk to, someone who will understand me, give me advices. Luckily i found this site. Hope i can find friends to vent with. I got depressed lately and i want to make things back on track .
    railei railei
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 16, 2014

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016

    Why is life so unfair?

    Sometimes i think death is easier. Good people have bad things happen to them and sometimes bad people have good things happen to them? why are things so unfair? where can we find answers in a world that seems so unfair?
    neitheratomboynoragirlygirl neitheratomboynoragirlygirl
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 11, 2016

    Im In the process of breaking a habit

    that has become nearly impossible to stop. If I don't **** wont end well for myself.
    lexithelibra lexithelibra
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 15, 2016

    I'd like to change my life,

    right now. So young, and I feel so tired. I am tired of being let down. I am tired of feeling as if though there is not enough that I can do to make my time worthwhile. I am not suicidal, but it is unfortunate that I feel so sourly about a life that I have yet to build my road...
    tiffanyandasaltshaker tiffanyandasaltshaker
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 2, 2015

    Hey guys... I also wanted to change my life.

    .. Especially for the better. I figured out how to do it and I'd like to share it with you all. (I am aware this might all sound very hippie like...but I'm just trying to help others...) I have advice that might help .. I don't know if you're a spiritual person(meaning you...
    xxersabooxx xxersabooxx
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Mar 29, 2014

    I'm planning on changing my life

    but when I try to change everything at the same time I get overwhelmed. so now I'm focusing on the small things. for example I started a diet, I started writing about my feelings more I started meditation, and I started cooking from home more. I have also slowed down on my to...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme
    26-30, F
    4 Responses May 3, 2015
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