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I 'd Rather Feel Pain Than Nothing At All

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    Pain is there for a reason,

    to give us a feeling in lack of love. Because without the pain, we would be numb. And although pain hurts, numbness destroys the soul, that gives us the chance to love again.
    RedHwaiting RedHwaiting 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20

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    i suppose this is more of a self harm thing.

    but i refuse to do that. however i do train and spar and ill let people try to hit me in the face. when the succede everything becomes blindingly clear and i feel the power within me begin to pump hard and fast. i then take the opponent down easily and finish them with happiness...
    aldrikkage aldrikkage 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 26

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    emre3211 emre3211 22-25, T Apr 24

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    I guess I would... feeling numb makes me feel

    like I'm less than human. At least with my pain, I'm something... Idk.
    sadvibes sadvibes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    "I'd rather feel pain

    than nothing at all" Don't u think that excessive feel of pain will eventually lead to feeling nothing at all?
    zeinahalawa zeinahalawa 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    If you want to know about life in the emotional

    freezer, you're welcome to it as I've been there and got the badge and T shirt. I know what it's like to be frozen out of decisions, to be ignored by ones peer group, left at the edge, alone. I know what it's like to be with people who say they care but aren't engaging...
    Joanne0chan Joanne0chan 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    Sucked right back in.

    ...im such a fool!
    debrnee debrnee 41-45, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I used to self harm and trust me everyone,

    yeah it works in the moment but it doesn't help long term and now I have scars from when I didn't know how to cope. Before you cut talk to me. Let me be your best friend instead of the blade. Let me help. I'll always be here.
    natalie243 natalie243 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    Hugo655 Hugo655 18-21, M 1 Response May 4, 2014

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    Autumn02 Autumn02 13-15, F 4 Responses May 7

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    EmoGirl286 EmoGirl286 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    When you go through two decades during

    which you experience nothing but pain every day, hour, minute, and second, you feel alive and strong, like you've endured an enormous ordeal. Times when you hold your head up are rare, but all you can do is have faith and hope that it ends soon.
    insidious2014 insidious2014 18-21, M Mar 23

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    pain means your living.

    when you feel pain thats when you know to go harder, dig deeper. i love pain because pain is for the living. it reminds me that i need to change something to get me back on the right track towards being happy. it reminds me to LIVE.
    varjakpaw varjakpaw 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 1

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    There was a time I felt nothing.

    .just an empty shell,Ha many times....Pain can be a great motivator to show me what I DONT want.If I feel nothing than nothing changes,nothing becomes.At least feeling pain I can make a choice to start the Healing.
    livinkarma livinkarma 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 9, 2014

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    Sometimes I just want to feel pain;

    whether physical or emotional I just want to feel it. Not all the time of course. I am a happy person and when things go so wrong that it consumes my world I go numb. It is for just a moment that the numbness exists but it is so miserable and frightening. I rather feel pain; I...
    DaffodilDeary95 DaffodilDeary95 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 20

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    That's how you know you are still alive.

    As someone who can become and feel empty, i must say it is a very scary place. So even pain is better than emptiness
    AnjaM98 AnjaM98 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2014

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    Walking around like a zombie.

    ..feeling nothing at all..I didnt want to harm myself again, like I did for so many years...So I started to get pierced, in my best times I had 21 Piercings all over my Body. It helps for a little while...but the time is to short...
    AllyAyumi AllyAyumi 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 26

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    exotica2002 exotica2002 41-45, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    As a person who self harms.

    .. Yes, I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all. Pain means I'm still alive... slw
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    Ok, I need to correct a mistake from last time.

    Pain is the most terrible thing, but it means you're alive. When you stop feeling, you're dead. Only item that takes up space. That's all I wanted to say.
    EvilMiracle EvilMiracle 16-17 Dec 10, 2013

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    I cut myself again tonight.

    Im not proud and im not boasting. I just honestly need to say that ive done it and that i want you to see that im hurting. I don't want to tell anybody because im afraid that theyll worry and i dont want to hurt them more than i already have. Im sorry that im not perfect and...
    charbar2019 charbar2019 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    Because if I don't feel pain,

    I won't feel anything
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    Negative emotions are actually good things

    if you think about it, We experience negative emotions in a positive manner mainly when we are kids. So if we were to feel bad or get scolded we would never or at least try not to do what it was that gave us painful emotions. No point being emotionless as it gets us nowhere...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 22, 2014

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    I'm actually not so sure i will anymore.

    This pain is just too much
    MsLouise MsLouise 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 27, 2014

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    "pain is your friend,

    it is your ally. Pain tells you have been seriously wounded, and you know what the best thing about pain is? It tells you you're not dead yet!" tokyo ghoul I feel this is true
    bluehappyness bluehappyness 18-21, M Mar 3

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    emilyerror emilyerror 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    Sometimes I think I would

    rather feel nothing at all. Like when someone continually lies to you and insults your intelligence. I think I'd rather not let it hurt me.
    LadyLouisiana LadyLouisiana 56-60, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    Three Days Grace ~ Pain

    You're sick of feeling numb you're not the only one I'll take you by the hand and I'll show you a world that you can understand This life is filled with hurt when happiness doesn't work Trust me and take my hand When the lights go out, you'll understand...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 27, 2008

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    Pain with out love pain can get enough pain

    with our live cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all Your sick of feeling of your not the only trust and take my and ill show you a world you can understand
    Killerinstict Killerinstict 13-15, F Sep 10, 2014

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    Pain is a beautiful thing.

    It lets you know that you are still alive. That you still have a beating heart inside of you. Pain stops you from feeling numb. From feeling like nothing and everything all at once. Pain gives you something to concentrate on. Something to cling to when everything else is falling...
    LoveLeahG LoveLeahG 18-21, F Mar 18

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    Death is an open door to an unknown

    for some, and to the truth for others. but we all have birth and death in common
    HandyMannyWanny HandyMannyWanny 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 21

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    I lost a great friend

    when I was 8. My grandma. She was always there for me. Always cheered me up, She was like a 2nd mother to me. Then she died. Everything changed for me. I became depressed, lonely, quiet, shy... No one understood me like she did. Then I started middle school. First few days, they...
    Isurvivedlife Isurvivedlife 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18

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    Because once it goes away you feel relief.

    You feel great, it makes your remember you're still breathing. There is nothing worse than having no emotions. Living each day like it's already over. Struggling and you don't know why, trying to be happy when you never learned how. Everything became useless and senseless then...
    theBulletproofGal theBulletproofGal 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    well it's quite the opposite actually

    but I didn't find a group that says the opposite I'd rather freeze my ******* emotions and feel nothing at all than this life-draining pain !!
    Betruebnis Betruebnis 22-25, M 1 Response May 15

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    I don't know if I'm awake

    when I don't feel pain. My dreams are so realistic that I can't tell them apart from reality except by the massive heart problems I have, if it wasn't for the constant pain spikes in my chest I wouldn't be able to tell that I'm actually walking around.
    Ichki Ichki 18-21, M Apr 13

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    for some reason I like the feel of pain.

    I cut and I love the way the blood drip from the cup. to me I want to feel pain then nothing at all.
    xXsuicidalangelXx xXsuicidalangelXx 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    Ripjr Ripjr 18-21, M Jan 5, 2014

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    fa male... do not know

    if pain is worth it. it just reminds me of how much i love him, but i thought i had no heart but now i know because im feeling tanta pain, very pain? what do you say? lots of pain?
    confusednormalness confusednormalness 18-21, F Mar 10

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 23

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    Just like three days grace says.

    Pain without love. Pain can't get enough. Pain I like it rough cause id rather feel pain than nothing at all. Could you imagine never feelingl love, happiness, excitement or any emotion. I couldn't but if you think about you dont feel anything without pain. Rather it be...
    holehearted79 holehearted79 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2014

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    Is it bad I want to feel pain?

    My whole body is numb. Both physically and mentally I can't feel nothing at all. I tried to cry, but I guess not crying was unhealthy, Cuz nothing no longer comes out. Life seems pointless. I walk around like a zombie. There're times I do things to make myself feel. People used...
    Byeluv Byeluv 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 25

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    I don't like feeling numb of emotion.

    I self harm to feel something rather than just numbness.
    RecklessMistake RecklessMistake 13-15, M May 16

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