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I Deal With Flashbacks and Triggers

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    The Few Most Flashbacks I Get Quite Often...From What Happened To Me In May 2011

    May, 7th 2011 The night before Mother's Day I was kiddnapped off the street by 2 guys, then the other guy as well, the one they sold me to. I was sold around by him. Anyways I get these flashbacks from these special triggers or without them once in awhile unexpectedly, I used to...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 6, 2013

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    Almost every night these days he`s coming to me,

    again and again... It`s everytime the same... I wake up in the middle of the night and as I open my eyes I can almost see him... He`s there, standing next to my bed, staring at me... And I know what is coming... scared to death as I know he`s going to hurt me again... And I`m...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F 4 Responses Jun 20

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    Can't Handle Yelling Or Touching...

    Today I had a doctors appointment but on the way I went to the opticians to see if I could get some glasses or contacts (I broke my contacts and we are having EXTREME money issues right now but we managed to scrape together £30) I explained the situration to...
    shadowlight shadowlight 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    In Certain Situations

    I was molested for years as a child and raped numerous times as an adult. I believe this is why I have flashbacks of my abuse, and being intimate in certain ways triggers an anxiety/panic attack.I don't like for anyone to touch my face, for ANY reason. I don't like for my hands...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F May 20, 2011

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    The One I Called 'grandma'

    Most of my flashbacks are triggered when I see stairs or basements, sometimes when my friends look at me in an odd way, but never when someone is angry. My abuse was hidden and I never, ever speak of it. Maryanne(mom's mom) abused me between the ages of 12 months  and ten years...
    TurnThePaige TurnThePaige 18-21, F Aug 8, 2011

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    Yeah

    I got raped as a kid I am not going to go into detail but I literally can remember his face and exactly what he did. I get flashbacks on this at least a few times a week and it has been much worse of late. I also remember many other things, getting made fun of. And I remember me...
    iminpain iminpain 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    I just want to curl up in bed with my teddy bear

    and sleep all day long. I'm tired of the ups and downs and instability. I just want to close my eyes and not feel everything so deeply, or feel anything at all. That would be lovely. I think the best thing though, would be to have my memories erased and all of the bad things...
    treasureforever treasureforever 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    Caused By Abuse

    My flashbacks are usually just triggered whenever someone directs their anger at me. While it's never happened, I know I'd also get one if someone grabbed my arms just under the shoulders with both hands. I'm afraid of that happening at school or somewhere else in public because...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 Jun 3, 2011

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    Will They Ever Stop....

    Lately I have been suffering from severe triggers. Sometimes the smallest thing can set me off, and ruin my whole day, and make a good day, turn into a really bad day :( I hate when that happens. I give anything to not have to deal with them anymore. I have been...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 27, 2009

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    I deal with flashbacks,

    and triggers. Its something I deal with on a weekly basis. I also suffer from severe nightmares. Sometimes they are easy to work through, other times, no so much. Tonight, I expressed something about myself on Fetlife. I stumbled upon a group, about rape, saying how its not as...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    I Can't Use Buses Anymore

    I can't sit further back on a bus or I start crying and freaking our as I feel trapped and too surrounded by people... but last time I sat at the front and old man got on and started to yell at me as I was sitting in a priority seat and wasn't "old or disabled", I...
    shadowlight shadowlight 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2009

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    Yesterday, totally drunk,

    I experienced flashback, not my first but the most intensive ever… I felt the hands holding me, touching me, I remembered the pain, felt like it was happening at the moment… So real… It was so terrible to me I just thrown up… And I know, I remember, I was whispering his...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 20

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    Mostly Music

    What bothers me most and brings me to my bad place and personal hell is music...from 1973-1977.I also don't like plastic jack-o-lanterns.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 17, 2011

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    Often

    I often deal with flashbacks from when I was raped. I look at any man on the street as a potential rapist and I see the men walking up to me while my mouth was being covered... I can't even be around some of my really good guy friends...I've tried and I just can't do it. Every...
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2011

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    At This Time of Year In Particular

    I repressed a great deal of the experiences I suffered as a child.  I thought it was a sign of strength to repress them and get on with life, rather than deal with them or think of them.  Inevitably that leads only to a situation in which one small thing...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 12, 2008

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    Always Have....

    I have always suffered from severe triggers and flashbacks... Sometimes the smallest thing can set me off, and ruin my whole day, and make a good day, turn into a really bad day :( I hate when that happens. I give anything to not have to deal with them anymore.I have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    Tonight... Second night in a row without sleep.

    .. Cause in the moment I fall asleep he comes to me, again and again. can't get rid of it these days, so I hope just write it down will help. Hope I would eventually take a rest tonight.
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    Sometimes I see someone

    who looks the same as the people in my bad memories and my whole body freezes for a few seconds before I realize I was wrong. Or if some say "i do what I want." I fladh back to my friend saying that after I begged him to stop self harming after he carved an ex girlfriends name...
    SkyliteRouge SkyliteRouge 16-17, F May 7

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