I Deal With Flashbacks and Triggers

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 437 People

    About a week ago I was snuggling my fiancé.

    I am usually big spoon so that means his back is too me. He asked if I could scratch his back for him because it itched. I did for a few seconds but then stopped. It triggered me really badly. I didn't expect it too. I've scratched his back tons of times. But I couldn't handle...
    Jeradactyl Jeradactyl
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

    I'm DID so triggers are a daily part

    if life that I have to manage...years of therapy has calmed me immensely, but OMG it Sucks!!!! had two flashbacks and a body memory today and headache constant.....I am trying to get going....but I feel exhausted!!!!!!
    karisasam karisasam
    31-35, F
    Mar 24, 2015

    I hate shows and movies

    that show women getting sexually assaulted. I can't stand it. I get anxious and irritable and I have to leave the room.
    Doomflower Doomflower
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 7

    Can't Handle Yelling Or Touching...

    Today I had a doctors appointment but on the way I went to the opticians to see if I could get some glasses or contacts (I broke my contacts and we are having EXTREME money issues right now but we managed to scrape together £30) I explained the situration to...
    shadowlight shadowlight
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Aug 11, 2009

    Literally dozens of flashbacks today.

    :( I hate this, and I can't even show any sign of discomfort since people will be home soon. I want to punch something and scream. .__.
    Bobbiin Bobbiin
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 4, 2015

    As much as I would love to I will never forget

    you. Every time I look in the mirror I see a tiny bit of the aftermath of what you did to me. It's small. Everyone else says they've never noticed until I point it out. But to me it huge. It's all I see. I will never be able to ignore it.
    Jeradactyl Jeradactyl
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 17, 2015

    everything is a trigger

    for me. often when i see ftm people's posts on social media like "i just got prescribed testosterone today!" or "my therapist says i can get put on T in 2 months" or "blah blah gonna get surgery" i literally have breakdowns where i shake and sob and sometimes scream and rock...
    Lunawoofy Lunawoofy
    18-21
    1 Response May 26, 2015

    The One I Called 'grandma'

    Most of my flashbacks are triggered when I see stairs or basements, sometimes when my friends look at me in an odd way, but never when someone is angry. My abuse was hidden and I never, ever speak of it. Maryanne(mom's mom) abused me between the ages of 12 months  and ten years...
    TurnThePaige TurnThePaige
    18-21, F
    Aug 8, 2011

    I deal with flashbacks,

    and triggers. Its something I deal with on a weekly basis. I also suffer from severe nightmares. Sometimes they are easy to work through, other times, no so much. Tonight, I expressed something about myself on Fetlife. I stumbled upon a group, about rape, saying how its not as...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 16, 2014

    I will be having a good time

    and then all of a sudden I will have a flashback. It's terrifying and exhausting to deal with. I see his face and hear his voice. He gets louder and then everything goes blank. I can't speak at all and thus can't yell for help. I feel tapped in my own body. My heart races and...
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    18-21, F
    Aug 8, 2014

    Always Have....

    I have always suffered from severe triggers and flashbacks... Sometimes the smallest thing can set me off, and ruin my whole day, and make a good day, turn into a really bad day :( I hate when that happens. I give anything to not have to deal with them anymore.I have...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 14, 2010

    It's very hard. And these triggers

    and flashbacks are sometimes followed by seizures. And the seizures are caused by anxiety. I've been at two places at once many times. And there have been times where I forget what day it is. I'm scared now because I'm pregnant. And just this weekend, I had a few seizures...
    Singlemother78 Singlemother78
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 15

    We are lying on the ground be choked you look

    at me I look at yo tears come to your eyes I tell you not to cry they beat me bloody an make you watch put us back in the dog box you confetti me till I sleep clean me up wipe my tears away you kept me strong to help you the next day I miss you Brian and when you left me bye...
    Ripjr Ripjr
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Sep 8, 2014

    I Can't Use Buses Anymore

    I can't sit further back on a bus or I start crying and freaking our as I feel trapped and too surrounded by people... but last time I sat at the front and old man got on and started to yell at me as I was sitting in a priority seat and wasn't "old or disabled", I...
    shadowlight shadowlight
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2009

    I'm so tired of the flashbacks.

    ..just please make them stop! ...please I feel as if they are gonna be here all day :(
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    18-21, F
    Oct 20, 2014

    Having the worst time right now.

    Smelling beer the taste of crushed pills in my mouth the pain in my stomach can't sleep every time I close my eyes I see there faces the sound of all of them laughing and screaming in my head
    Ripjr Ripjr
    18-21, M
    Oct 29, 2014

    Name is William kerns .

    .. Yes I have flash backs .. I am ex military ... Army .. Was station to the 82nd airborne .... Was sent to afghastain ... I seen my buddy's during a mission get blown up ... Seen one of my great friends while serving blow his Brains out ... I still see that setting over and over...
    william2490 william2490
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 7, 2015

    We were just kids I'm sorry you were my friend

    I'm so sorry what we had to do I tried killing myself to I didn't die I wish I was you we were just kids we were made to do that **** forced bye people who were meant to love but had a corrupt mind and that ****** us up the videos are still out there I found them again they make...
    Ripjr Ripjr
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 8, 2014

    Almost every night these days he`s coming to me,

    again and again... It`s everytime the same... I wake up in the middle of the night and as I open my eyes I can almost see him... He`s there, standing next to my bed, staring at me... And I know what is coming... scared to death as I know he`s going to hurt me again... And I`m...
    Mellangela Mellangela
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 20, 2014

    I'm having so much flashbacks these times.

    ..I never had so much before! I am tired of seeing his face on top of me. I'm doing my thing and then all of a sudden, I am 8 years old again, begging for it to stop. I can't take it anymore. it has to stop or I'll go crazy. I don't want to continue like that...I can't.
    symbule symbule
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 28, 2015
    Causelifesucks Causelifesucks
    16-17, M
    1 Response Nov 29, 2015

    At least I did, until I was introduced to a

    relatively new therapeutic technique called EMDR. It was the most difficult exercise I'd ever undergone in this arena and it took a number of years to complete all of it (the trauma sources were extensive) but I am now trigger and flashback free!! Life is good!! For anyone...
    Islamujer Islamujer
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 6

    Yeah

    I got raped as a kid I am not going to go into detail but I literally can remember his face and exactly what he did. I get flashbacks on this at least a few times a week and it has been much worse of late. I also remember many other things, getting made fun of. And I remember me...
    iminpain iminpain
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jan 14, 2010

    I had the scariest flashbacks last night.

    As soon as they started it felt as if I was trying to escape my body. It felt as if my mind was trying to bring me somewhere else. I saw things I have never seen before. My bf pinned me down to kiss to me (which felt great at first) but then out of no where...I didn't see my bf...
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 29, 2014

    Often

    I often deal with flashbacks from when I was raped. I look at any man on the street as a potential rapist and I see the men walking up to me while my mouth was being covered... I can't even be around some of my really good guy friends...I've tried and I just can't do it. Every...
    FeelingLikeACloud FeelingLikeACloud
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 16, 2011

    Caused By Abuse

    My flashbacks are usually just triggered whenever someone directs their anger at me. While it's never happened, I know I'd also get one if someone grabbed my arms just under the shoulders with both hands. I'm afraid of that happening at school or somewhere else in public because...
    chococat159 chococat159
    18-21
    Jun 3, 2011

    At This Time of Year In Particular

    I repressed a great deal of the experiences I suffered as a child.  I thought it was a sign of strength to repress them and get on with life, rather than deal with them or think of them.  Inevitably that leads only to a situation in which one small thing...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 12, 2008

    Someone called me sweetie

    and put their hand on my shoulder today... I forgot where I was and who I was with, I just started shaking and yelling at them to stop, I was so scared...
    lostgirl2001 lostgirl2001
    13-15, F
    Jan 24, 2015

    These are some of my triggers: •The video

    game 'Skyrim' •'Star Wars' (or anything associated with it) •Breathing or being kissed on or around my neck •Sometimes being f*ngered will REALLY trigger me •S*x in general is triggering although not as bad as it once was... It is weird, it is usually hard for me...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

    When I am feeling ill I am more sensitive.

    I wanted to write this today because a trigger warning helped me avoid a story that would have been mentally hazardous. Trigger warnings help.
    Doomflower Doomflower
    31-35, F
    Mar 14

    I've been having recurring nightmares about the

    day I was raped... Its gotten so bad I have a phobia of sleeping and I get anxiety attacks... I've been dealing with this for 8 years but it's gotten really bad in the past few months... I don't know what to do anymore... I've tried taking my life but I'm too much a coward...
    EbbyLeve EbbyLeve
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

    Been not well. Have such intense feelings of

    disgust to the point where I want and need to just claw my skin off. It feels like I am going to go absolutely insane. I was driving with my boyfriend last night and started to get these emotions and feelings and body pains that seemingly came from 'nowhere'. I had to pull over...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 21, 2014

    A couple of months ago I woke up from a

    nightmare where I was being attacked. I don't want to go in to detail, but I woke up as my left arm was in the air about to hit the wall next to my bed. It left a dent through the blanket. Now I moved everything I could away from my bad so I don't accidentally hurt myself. I...
    dontknowmylife dontknowmylife
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 20, 2014

    Will They Ever Stop....

    Lately I have been suffering from severe triggers. Sometimes the smallest thing can set me off, and ruin my whole day, and make a good day, turn into a really bad day :( I hate when that happens. I give anything to not have to deal with them anymore. I have been...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 27, 2009

    How is it that I will be enjoying myself 100%

    and then out of no where I will have a flashback. It is extremely frustrating and I hate seeing how it effects the ones who love me. I hate that they have to live with it too. I don't want to put that stress on them :/ Although this happens...I have someone that helps me...
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 22, 2014

    Tonight... Second night in a row without sleep.

    .. Cause in the moment I fall asleep he comes to me, again and again. can't get rid of it these days, so I hope just write it down will help. Hope I would eventually take a rest tonight.
    Mellangela Mellangela
    31-35, F
    Jul 10, 2014

    I have PTSD and screaming

    or sudden sounds terrify me. It's not as bad if I'm expecting it, like I know if I'm going to a concert it'll be loud, so I'm prepared and all good. It's more sudden loud sounds especially if they wake me up, it's like I go back to being that 8yr old hiding in the closet again.
    lillolipop lillolipop
    18-21, F
    Mar 25, 2015

    It's sitting in a restaurant across from someone

    and that moment you realize they're staring at you because they're talking and you don't hear a word they're saying, your face is blank but inside your head you're tied to a tree and you're being tortured because the guy behind you decided to use pert plus shampoo and you'll...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 26, 2015

    This is only a small amount of the abuse

    that has happened in my childhood. It happened by many people for a long time. But this is what I need to talk about right now. I have a very large amount of stuff to talk about. I just got out of therapy and I'm just shaking like a leaf right now. It was a very difficult...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 24, 2015

    The Few Most Flashbacks I Get Quite Often...From What Happened To Me In May 2011

    May, 7th 2011 The night before Mother's Day I was kiddnapped off the street by 2 guys, then the other guy as well, the one they sold me to. I was sold around by him. Anyways I get these flashbacks from these special triggers or without them once in awhile unexpectedly, I used to...
    itsjustbrit itsjustbrit
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2013

    Once the flashbacks start,

    they won't stop. How can I' snap myself out of it, ' so to speak. I'm working on long term stuff, but what about immediate help during flashbacks? anyone hsve suggestions?
    Ztun7856 Ztun7856
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 8, 2015
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