I Death

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 67 People

    Grief

    Celebrated my mother's life yesterday. She lost her 18 month battle with lung cancer, just as my best friend did in April. He only had seven months though. Both died here at home on hospice. How do you give into grief? It's not coming. Choked down inside of me. I need to...
    Isodora Isodora
    51-55
    Aug 4, 2013

    The Emptiness

    I still can't believe he's gone. So many times when I was paralyzed and unable to do something that had to be done, he resuced me. In my emotional crisises he counseled me. He loved me. He took care of me. He abandoned me. He ran away from me. He made amends to me. He...
    Isodora Isodora
    51-55
    Jun 19, 2013

    To My Mother And Brother.

    Over and over I write about you both and I never seem to get past all the "Goodbye"'s, "See ya later"'s. I lost a big part of not only my heart, but me as a whole person too. The trauma that your death's have caused is still effecting me right now and I can't say I'll miss it...
    LunaLee34 LunaLee34
    22-25, F
    Mar 20, 2013

    Death 3

    Death as we know comes in many ways and we never know when. As a kid asked about it but was brushed off. Knew it could come to anyone at anytime to anyone with no strings attached. One can be young to old and in between. I often questioned why do young people go and the real sick...
    honey624 honey624
    56-60, M
    1 Response Jul 20, 2010

    I just like to be cool

    and even if i am not i like to behave i am cool because it makes me think i am cool...i am cool just saying... I mean check my profile...<3
    Zoce Zoce
    22-25, M
    Feb 17, 2014

    My Dad

    In 2010, November 8th my dad was killed in a motorbike accident. I was 13. Everyone thinks I'm okay, but I don't think I am. I don't want help anymore, I've had a number of counsellors, hospital appointments and I've been taken to the doctors for admitting I want to die. I don't...
    kekk kekk
    16-17, F
    Feb 21, 2013

    He was much to young to be having a rendvezous

    with Death, But Death is a jealous mistress, and she will not wait! And so he went, leaving behind him the wreckage of three lives. Darlingrose
    darlingrose darlingrose
    70+, F
    1 Response Aug 22, 2015

    Pain

    i have felt suicidal for the past six months, everyone says its just puberty, but no one else seems to have my problems. the only time i would feel even remotely happy is when i was with my ringette(a sport like hockey) team. they are the only ones to care about me. but the...
    Isdead Isdead
    13-15, F
    Apr 10, 2011

    Dealing With Evil

    Recently, a horrid thing befell a friend of mine. I received a text from a friend, she's not the type whose an alarmist. She wouldn't txt you for instance if she chipped a nail, if she realized she was into girls, or to give you updates about her love life. Txt read: 'call me...
    JasonAternus JasonAternus
    36-40, M
    May 6, 2013

    I dreamed that a man was dead in my bathtub

    and I was told not to move the body until it was investigated. (the man was actually murdered) As I awaken from the dream I was afraid to go to the bathroom I wanted to pee in a bucket LOL! out of fear of going upstairs seeing a body in my bathroom I thought I smelled a rotting...
    rellyrell71 rellyrell71
    41-45, F
    Jan 3, 2014

    If we are all dying to live

    or living to die. What's the point? This half life? No the point is to make the best out if it. I'm not going to count on an afterlife I may not get; I'm going to try to make this worth something. I'm here to change the world....I'm here to make it better. The way I see it I...
    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge
    18-21, F
    Apr 26, 2015

    The Big Black

    whilst you live,                                                                          ...
    DRAGONSlayer47 DRAGONSlayer47
    22-25, M
    15 Responses Oct 3, 2009

    I Lost My Mother Two Days Ago.

    I lost my mother two days ago, on August 26th, 2013. She was 49 years old and died in her sleep. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever been through in my life and I don't know how to deal with it. I miss her so much. I can't believe she is gone. I have so many regrets. I...
    maryrichard maryrichard
    22-25, F
    Aug 28, 2013

    I have been living in multiple bounds of

    extreme consciousness and dabbling in the creed of deception making it one of my many mediums. It has become an art form that I have broadcast into reality effortlessly and unconsciously. The world that I know has become malleable and I have lost control of it. It is beginning...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch
    26-30, M
    1 Response May 9, 2014

    Celestial Jaxx

    Attempted Suicide to realize folly filled ideals and escape the human condition. Reality is my home, deyond death and before birth.
    LandOfFolly LandOfFolly
    18-21, M
    Jul 25, 2013

    Nanna

    As me and my brother got older we started to spend more time away then spending time with our dad because that ment spending time with my nana and we didnt want to do that. It took my brother alot longer to not spend time with dad and nana then i, I took the first chance i had to...
    sharrazz sharrazz
    22-25, F
    Jun 29, 2013

    Death 2

    Maybe you might think I'm out of my mind but death is part of my life. Yep thought about it my own and some of those around me. Find that just maybe those who "croak" are better off. Why? No worries, no bill collectors harrassing the hell out of you for not paying on time. No...
    honey624 honey624
    56-60, M
    1 Response Jul 13, 2010

    Subconscious Mind Is So Interesting

    To start I have had dreams most of my life to the point they seem real and have panic attacks in them. My mother had passed away in 2007 and a few years had gone by and I had a dream that I had feel asleep and had a dream(which is strange) that my mother had passed away and awoke...
    mdm77351 mdm77351
    51-55, M
    Sep 13, 2013

    many reasons can cause Death,

    but Death itself is ONE.
    Zoce Zoce
    22-25, M
    Feb 12, 2014

    Life isn't worth it. I hate myself

    and I hate my life and I hate this stupid f*cking town. This summer I will kill myself. There is no point to this bullsh!t and there hasn't been. My life is going nowhere and it's my time to go. My life is f*cking ending. And if you're offended by the "bad" words, then go...
    emipurple emipurple
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 31, 2014

    Poem I tried to write enjoy When the black,

    cold breath consumes me And brings the brilliant light of darkness. I shall smile at the flowers that adorn the fall. For rest is for the living, sleep is for the dead. We fade to the horizon like a ship sailing off earth's edge. For those on shore morn the loss of you, but...
    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge
    18-21, F
    Feb 13, 2015

    ...

    Sprawled out on the floor Blood dripping from my wrists The devil looks up at me Asking why do I exist? A shoulder shrug I mutter Wondering the same Now I’m at the threshold Of a life-long dead-end game But as I choke upon My last remaining breath God interrogates The reason...
    Dialectrum Dialectrum
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 12, 2013

    Family Death

    A member of my family has just died a few hours ago. He was having kidney, and heart problems for many years. He was supposed to come visit me next week. My house is filled with the sound of crying. Its hard to have to comfort your big brother while he sobs. I have to take a week...
    xxIceEyesxx xxIceEyesxx
    13-15, F
    Aug 26, 2009

    Well my aunt just died of cancer.

    I don't know what to say. I didn't know her that well, my uncle really loved her but he didn't make enough money for her. My mom I crying and I know she loved me, but I barely knew her. Her and my uncle got divorced when I was a kid. She was nice enough I guess but didn't...
    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge
    18-21, F
    Jan 19, 2015

    My son 11yrs has had a crush on a schoolmate

    since he was in the 2nd grade. Her father attempted suicide the week before Christmas. He died the 23rd. I had only met the man once in passing but I found myself angry over the situation as I found out that this was his third attempt and he left his wife and children with no...
    gmt830 gmt830
    41-45, M
    Dec 30, 2013

    Last week I dreamt that death (a dark hooded

    figure) was outside my bedroom window staring in at me and actually waving. I didn't like the dream but assumed nothing and pretty much forgot about it. Then two days past and I wasn't sleeping properly at night, I felt restless and felt something was wrong but I couldn't think...
    FaithIsTheMostImportantThing FaithIsTheMostImportantThing
    22-25, F
    Jan 7, 2014

    Hmm...

    I'm bad with death, and by bad I mean I don't understand the lasting remorse that comes along with someone close to you dying.  I'm not saying that people shouldn't feel bad when someone dies, but I'm saying it just doesn't compute with me.  I do miss the people that...
    Roscosan Roscosan
    26-30, M
    Sep 17, 2009

    Life Is Short

    My girls nephew just died he was only 7
    dave2526 dave2526
    22-25, M
    Nov 27, 2013

    Death

    Death is another function in life. Be it for us humanoids or creatures which are on this earth. It comes after being born or birth. How long do we live all depends on fate and what we do in order to survive in this crazy universe of ours. I often wondered about the insect world...
    honey624 honey624
    56-60, M
    Jun 20, 2010

    Uncertainty!

    As I stared into my baby daughter as she's in my arms. She looks at me with tenderness in her heart.  I wonder what will happen to that sweet thing when I'm gone.  I know she will grow old, and will be so smart.  There's this hole that i feel in my stomach every...
    Th3D0ct0r Th3D0ct0r
    26-30
    10 Responses Sep 17, 2009

    The Man In the Mirror

                                    The Man In The Mirror If you get what you want in your struggle for self And the world makes you king for a day Then go to the mirror and look at yourself And...
    KiwigirlAnj KiwigirlAnj
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Oct 4, 2009

    Extinction

    Now let me be very frank man will become extinct at somepoint in time. It is no problem for me as no one is here with me thus am all alone in this crazy universe of ours. In the past man became extinct for a variety of reasons and still today it is the same way. our lives are...
    honey624 honey624
    56-60, M
    1 Response Aug 2, 2010

    Experience

    had to watch someone being taken off medication and life support this week. they died less than 1/2 later. they were with thier family. but I didn't feel anything, no emotion, nothing is it because my mother died without telling me?
    christinemelody christinemelody
    56-60, T
    Jun 22, 2012

    Croaked

    He croaked and this was it. His life came to an abrupt end thus he has finally gone on to another nrw dimension in what we never will know until we getthere. We will never come back totell those what itwas like or just how we actually felt let alone who we saw andhow we felt when...
    honey624 honey624
    56-60, M
    Jul 24, 2010

    (Death And Depression Poem)

    When Im depressed I dream of fields of wilted flowers followed by the death of my mother, jesus where are you to save me when my life is cold and empty jesus will not save me from the demons in me when I take my life I see the light within me jesus why have you forsaken me too my...
    damionswag damionswag
    22-25, M
    Oct 6, 2013

    Death Is All Around Me

    I cant realy talk to many people about this so thought maybe if i write and share i can come to some sort of conclusion,if there is one that is.My life stopped 13years ago when both my aunt on my dads side and my gran on my mums side both passed on the same day,after that it was...
    myselfxox myselfxox
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 11, 2009

    Death

    I have not been born and know not of life. I live in the pseudo-sacred realm of death and have made it my home through destruction and hatred. Wrapped In darkness I stroll alone and bleed with each step dragging my feet on a path too bleak to see. This is all I know and I am all...
    UltraHighMonarch UltraHighMonarch
    26-30, M
    Nov 6, 2013
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